Waiting For Butterflies (2015) | Full Movie | Jason Burkey | Addy Miller | Cranston Johnson

[Music] [Music] [Music] my grandmother was always clear about one thing at the end of our days the truly meaningful parts of our lives have absolutely nothing to do with luck life is about being aware of the promises made to us by God understanding that God never promised a life without pain and heartache [Music] he never promised that the storms wouldn't be many and that those many storms wouldn't be the harshest of harsh the promises we do have is the strength to fight through the pain and the heartache and an internal force to withstand even the worst storms [Music] once we have this clarity we know that the weather of our situations is not determined by simple luck that the weather itself is not even a value [Music] it's our reaction to life's weather as we face it with the strong arm of God that will ultimately determine our destiny [Music] [Applause] [Music] ah [Music] Ashley please don't miss the best again I'm not gonna miss the bus how many times if I told you you came for this pigsty picked up you know most of my friends have a housekeeper we do to me you don't count real housekeepers don't complain rude keep your things picked up but I still love you love you don't miss the bus that thing has broke everyday this week and I fixed it every day this week what you said it broke everyday this week and I fixed it everyday this week so it could be worse for you yeah if it's at all possible to make things worse for me I'm sure we'll figure it out good morning hey where's mommy going away from me baby girl away from me have a good time it's okay mama [Music] not not hey you busy of course you are come on in what's up I have a few folks you may want to see what happened nothing really nothing it seems Bobby Denton had a few not so nice things to say about Lyla and they thought he would ask him about it Bobby Denton is a big fat jerk Lyla sorry no matter what body didn't says I think Nathaniel knows that he's not supposed to be fighting he asked him to say sorry Betty didn't Vicki would you please take Lyla back to class sure thing can I say one more thing make it quick Bobby Denton has to ice tax let me get her back to class I see are you okay I'm fine it doesn't even hurt but I know you were just I know I know I shouldn't have hit him as much as it seems like fighting can fix the situation I can promise you it doesn't there's never times where it's okay to fight for something [Music] What did he say to your sister he called her ugly stupid and she looked like a fish what did Lila do well she told him he smelt like a fish he needed to be punched in the face you're a good big brother to take up your little sister but promise me next time you'll do everything you can not to hit someone there are other ways to fight okay promise me I promise all right get back to class [Music] there was no babes in your hand life is just a candy cane I caught up dancin [Music] ain't no laughs my Canton lands there was no face in your hand life is juice to candy cane you got up dancing in the rain rain [Music] to come over right now I said all the differences come see someone out you're just the one for me and go see your eyes when the not so blue to mine no that's not our McMahon Antoine Grier who are you doing good man being all I can be let's see yeah it's good to see you man it's good being seen so when'd you get home I I didn't think you were due back until after Christmas come in on the bus this morning had the opportunity to come home early so I took you I'm glad you did yeah I bet your mama and sister freaked out when you walk through the door huh yeah I think my mom's still crying yeah but that's the whole town I'd find you here I am yeah few birdies told me you've been spending evenings out here working didn't believe them had to see it for myself John Archer working yeah I stay busy I mean we can't all be soldiers but yeah yeah yeah some of us are too busy making prices works alright yeah a wish come on we both know you genius stop being modest you know I do have a an art show opening next week it's my first one I'm excited you should be yeah he'll be good yeah look like she ain't even been used since I've been going oh yeah oh she's about the only thing of value I have in this world so gonna keep her that way you know you know the whole time on the bus this morning I just kept thinking about I was gonna do back my first night thank you first night a free man yeah yeah so what are we gonna do I don't know about you we'll give me some dinner a little bit of shut-eye oh we ain't kids anymore it's fun heck I get tired just shoveling dirt I can't imagine what a day of war would do to me yeah will you speak for yourself I'm still the kid tomorrow I act like one go celebrate me back in town and style okay so you with me I really have to answer that okay so tomorrow tomorrow here's the little lady's still coming over this evening as far as I know I thought maybe we could take her over to the pond and let her feed the ducks tomorrow Oh she'd like that if there are any ducks their feed seems like they're less and less every time I come over here any time it seems there's less of a good thing we're probably just not looking hard enough what's wrong nothing shall we go back to the car no no let's just sit down for a minute how bad is it it's already better leaves as quickly as it comes ah I guess when it comes to aging I'm not like fine wine there's anything I can do no no I'm fine really well if you're fine then I'm fine you better be five more minutes at least your fictional time is less than the last one you gave him bunny maybe you remember sharing Dirk's [ __ ] I know I think you met her at the food shelter function last summer she's a redhead I think so what about her it's her husband I keep having to show the place nan Diller - what no I know that look that's see I have something to tell you look spill it I'm just gonna tell you how amazing you look tonight I don't buy that but I'll take it why aren't you at Mom's hey she is I swear you get bigger every time I see you that's how it works right I guess so so uh you all dolled up for anyway she has a daddy date well whatever the reason you clean up well good compliment backhanded compliment nonetheless are you ready we start the drop off yeah Uncle John take me no kill John take you away I'm staying with Grandma I'm sure Uncle John's too busy you know I do have more chips to eat I guess I could give her this I don't agree we're running late already that's no problem have you had a single drop to drink I'm not answering that straight from here to there that either John okay no alcohol no stops got it no problem please be careful Rachel let's go have fun you two somewhere you're brother and sister mates at Harrison's and ash is anywhere away from this house she seems to spend a lot of time there huh yep Oh rotten idea what do you say we stop for a cone on the way to Grandma's I say yes done I gotta take this tell you what grab that order whatever you want tell them to me too okay Ron what's up man yeah what do you think [Music] you know I can't remember the last time we took a walk for the sole enjoyment of each other's company we can maybe start doing it again if I can get you to get home before 9 o'clock in the evening Barry now of course you know after we start with the walls then after that you're going to have to start taking me dancing every once in a while dancing yes dancing you know I love to go dancing what are you doing dancing here right here there's no music who cares you're right let's dance [Music] [Music] thank you for nothing for everything [Music] without at least we get their dinner answer that's nice rachel is fine let me see who it is hello yeah there can you get her stable now grated closed and all of a sudden that sky walks in comes at me with a gun and he demands all the money and then there's a chance take your time alright this there's a shot [Music] [Music] silent [Music] Oh [Music] [Music] what are they saying it told us nothing y'all right [Music] [Music] [Music] Nathaniel and ash do they know do you wanna talk [Music] there she inside I wouldn't do that if I were you [Music] [Music] I'm sorry I know you're sorry john-boy you've always been sorry you've always been a sorry selfish person you spent your whole life worrying about John worrying about all the little things you thought would make you happy and everybody always just look the other way let you do whatever you want to do never any repercussions your selfishness has ripped my world to shreds I am sorry stop saying the only thing you should be doing is getting on your knees and begging God to bring my baby back God you honestly want me to pray to God that's exactly what I want forget it hey if God cared at all about me if he cared about any of us none of this would have happened don't you dare say God have made him to do with this this wasn't his fault it's your fault no one else's he didn't do this you did keep lying let me make one thing perfectly clear I never once do you understand this will not be broken I don't even wanna see you again you don't mean that Oh I couldn't mean it more I know she is not my daughter but I cannot imagine loving anyone more than I loved her you have to know that the only thing that I know is that I hate you not any more than I hate myself you sent her in there by herself why I had a phone call my baby is dead because you had a phone call please never ever forget it get yeah [Music] [Music] yeah I get another you don't think you've had enough friend pour the drink you got it all right what do you think you're doing did you wanna die tonight you didn't get out of here kid you need to listen oh hey I'll go I'll go but I believe I've ordered one last drink you know what I'll get his last drink thank you this guy you think that hurts me no but it's pretty funny I know yeah that's real funny I just leave kid before you do get hurt leave but I haven't even paid my tab yet consider it on the house what I look like I need a handout now come on man hey how about we how about we barter okay you give me liquor and morning doc Carolyn how are you doing well I've been better of course as much as I don't want to say this I don't want to drag it out either with everything inside of me I wanted to come in here and give you better news today has it gotten worse or just not any better akima had no effect not only that it's spreading much faster than we expected what exactly does that mean it means we do not have much hope for a positive turn at this point how long do I have please just tell us how long a few days the very most a few weeks um can you go ask somebody for a glass of water even with this we can continue to administer the chemo what you just said it's not gonna turn around doctors are wrong all the time but I will say we're hoping for a miracle here no no more chemo what's gonna happen is gonna happen and I don't want to be any sicker than I have to be besides God creates miracles chemotherapy certainly does not okay I'll give you two or five moments now tell me what I can do if I could make it go away I would I need them here please James get my family here I don't care what you have to tell them I need them here with us I promise you they will be here hello hey papa I'm good how are you I'm not here actually she just walked in here she is I love you bye Thanks hi Daddy daddy I would but I'm super busy today what what's wrong who is it you don't look good see a lot of pain you down last night are you why am I here they've asked myself that more and more every day Tom what's your problem Oh beat loken up this early is one of them you do last night join your phone hello aye sir how are you yeah one second hey it's for you it's all my calling back it's your grandfather my grandfather I'll call him back you tell hey grandpa what okay how is she yeah and of course of course I can't I can't love you hey I don't know [Music] my grandma she's sick what what kind of sick cancer sick I'm sorry it's fine what are you gonna do I don't know toss some stuff in a bag you go to hey kit how you gonna get there I'll figure it out don't you come with you no why not is it doesn't make sense for both of us to go she's my grandma okay you should you should take off I hit the road love you yeah [Music] [Music] have you heard anything about your appeal not yet supposed to see the lawyer today but I don't expect much in the way of good news how are you young lady okay tell your father what you made on your report card yes I know how smart you are so I could probably guess tell him why he always won beep Wow would have been always but mr. Pascal austell in my papers it's still really good yeah she works really hard um we should probably get going okay okay what when can I expect to see you two again I'm will be back okay until you fall like a ballet wait lady me touch my head daddy loves you never forget that [Music] let's go baby love you [Music] don't waste those tears on me I'm okay I don't understand you're fine we were over here just last week and you seemed fine well I don't spend my time asking those questions and my advice to you is that you don't ask him either more questions you asked but can't you have up getting answers you don't like what can I do what do you need the same thing we all need prayers close my eyes espera miracle I could sit here waiting honey you forgetting something you once knew we don't wait for miracles to happen the miracle is waiting for us how can you be so strong I can't be that strong after everything that's left after this yeah being strong takes the same effort as being weak it's just the road you decide to take you say these things and I really I wouldn't believe I'm I really do a bit at the end of the day you're still gonna be late you're dying well that's the road you're choosing to take luckily it's not a dead end I'll handle your prayers for you baby I know you're hurt after all you've been through nobody would blame you if you never recovered what am I supposed to do Hildur NP build happiness around all of your heartaches wouldn't you do that you'll see the dawn [Music] [Music] [Music] [Music] I'm a long long way from home then the golden grassy oak trees zone the skies things are purple and blue dust road bring the straight to you [Music] she's gotta get going she don't know man she's going to the knees gotta get fell higher but he don't know where he's flying to we can't stop the clock for time I've got your John Archer don't even act like you don't know Hawaii we're here how you threw up huh not a little girl anymore oh I guess not how's your brother well you really did get out of here huh I don't understand John Antwon died last fall it's killed in Iraq can't believe you didn't know [Music] no now that can't be true if someone would have told me that it's dead yes when you left akin they can left you huh [ __ ] I'm sorry but I didn't know don't apologize he's an angel now he's doing fine yeah well if angels exist I've no doubt antwine asses wins but guys I should really get going tell your mother I said hello I will it's good to see it it's good to see you too Joan [Music] [Music] this isn't about us okay I'm gonna do this we can do it if we don't speak that's something we should be used to at least gonna let me know what I'm about to walk into what's in there that's what brought you here answer your own question and that if the see your grandpa how you doing okay okay yeah how she depends upon who you ask and asking you it's in God's hands that your way of not answering me that's your way of not hearing me can I ask you something what's that how come nobody told me about anyone what difference would it make he was my best friend would you've come to services the grandmother wanted to tell you I told her not to figured you had enough on your plate as is well it still would have been nice to know gonna save me some embarrassment today sorry we should have told you so what's the plan the plan john-boy is for us to keep doing what we've been doing for what two years now being here for Mama I can't change the fact that I haven't been here alright then let's figure something out cuz I'm here now yeah what do you yeah yeah grandma it's me God knows I've watched that woman upstairs cry herself to sleep praying for you two to fix this I've watched it too many times I'm not going to do it now I don't know what you want from me daddy it's not a matter of knowing it's a matter of doing it's an ounce my father fought and taking responsibility don't always go hand in hand you can have one without the other tell me what I can do well I have been waiting a long time to hear you ask me that what's this what it is isn't important but what it will be what truly amazed you okay okay are you he's gonna tell me what I need to do with it it is right open it page one we'll start you on the journey huh not so sure I'm ready for a journey right now [Music] do it for me promise promise you'll do it for me okay promise hmm you have something so special inside of you John but it's up to you tilt it out hmm you know when you do Oh God's artwork will be on full display why do I feel like you're dying goodbye never buys [Music] just an introduction to the potential I know God has given you daddy I can't just sit around here and see her like this I can't sit around here and pretend like everything's okay what why do you want me to say clearly everything I've said so far hasn't helped so I'm here to do whatever I need to do get some rest you're tired we're all tired rest but go a long way no I'm fine look if you don't need me here for a while I'm gonna take a walk clear my head [Music] help me be a man [Music] what is your plan for me open my eyes and see [Music] jiwa word you are worthy you are worthy of all [Music] hey hey hey cans on Picasso yes I seen a ghost take the whole town thought you don't curled up and died nope huh thank you now folks if y'all don't know here well john-boy is one of Aikens few claims to fame no hang on hang on us just take a second well that's the you know oh yeah he consumed the fame like listen if you guys need a picture painted or anything he's your man on the other hand you want to keep your kid alive so John Archer may not be the way to go hey I know the sound of alcohol when I hear ya sorry everyone calm down calm down we're just playin I'm fine right john-boy whenever you want to come on hey wait wait wait where you go let's just say I wanted someone off that call you set up some type of appointment how's that work what Oh y'all booked up do not pretend like you know me okay get off me John laugh all you want Jake don't feel a thing [Music] you I don't doubt you're up there I doubt your motives even know why you were doing this to me now I was always told that you wouldn't give us anything more than we can handle and and yet here I am I'm clearly broken and yet you insist on giving me more pain so either or break me I don't care break me or let me because I hate where I am [Music] and through him to reconcile to himself all things whether on earth or in heaven making peace by the blood of his cross you who once were alienated and hostile in mind doing evil deeds he has now reconciled in his body of flesh by his death in order to present you holy and blameless and above reproach before him it's not the paths in life that make us who we are it's the obstacles we forged through along those paths although this journey is specific it's a journey that can be taken by any one obstacle one [Music] if I'm honest I'm shocked to see you John I didn't tell you was here come courtesy sparse inside these walls I'm not sure I believe that many house seeing our history and all look I'm just gonna cut to the chase my grandmother is dying doctor says it's day-to-day now can you tell me whether that would be of any importance to you but that can't be true I saw her no more than a few days ago she acted like she was fine no that might be the case but apparently she hasn't been fine in a while now she was diagnosed with stage 3 stomach cancer over a year ago will you find that funny no no it's not funny not in the least it just figures mrs. Archer thought so much of other people she wouldn't even let on she had cancer for fear putting the slightest bit of attention on herself is there something I can help you with John I'm not here for myself I'm certainly not here for you she asked me to come see you I felt like I owed it to her to do so Here I am now I'd like to know what you have to do with my grandmother what apologize again if I thought I meant anything wouldn't answer the question now be allowed to explain the unexplainable she has me here for some reason explain it so it makes sense to me and uh try doing it without being so casual well let me start by saying that my casual spirit as you call it it's not meant to be disrespectful not in the slightest brother spirits all we have in this place now forgive me if I have sympathy for you I don't expect it I expect sympathy from no one I know what I've done I know what I'm guilty of but I ask you to understand that I am not the same man you were staring at two years ago correct me if I'm wrong but uh isn't that what everyone says in this place of course they do and most of them sincerely mean it just tell me when you have to do with my grandmother my guess she changed my life maybe she wants me to change yours too what can you possibly do for me you're the one stuck inside of these walls please don't assume that these walls take my freedom and don't assume that being outside of them keeps yours besides who better to learn from that a man has been the Helen back tell me what I'm here to know time's up job you know where to follow me [Music] and are justified by His grace as a gift through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus whom God put forward as a propitiation by his blood to be received by faith this was to show God's righteousness because in His divine forbearance he had passed over former sins it was to show his righteousness at the present time so that he might be just and the justifier of the one who has faith in Jesus obstacle to [Music] how was the pool daddy you gotta eat not that hungry for some reason what have you eaten today we reckon I haven't nothing all day well you gotta eat something you're eating something when you get back you said I knew something hey sorry I didn't mean to interrupt don't be silly perhaps I'm beat are you sure of course hey hey stranger cankles on so where's grandma your mother's upstairs resting father wanted to be with her how's she been feeling pretty seeing the guy it's good where you getting all day trying to fulfill the promise the one that looks like I can't keep what she said she knew was nothing close your eyes and ripped it away [Music] [Music] [Music] why did she ask for me she said her piece and everyone every visit of a peaceful moment makes the piece at risk she wanted to be remembered by nothing but smile [Music] [Music] excuse me [Music] if a man bowels a vow to the Lord or swears an oath to bind himself by a pledge he shall not break his word he shall do according to all the proceeds out of his mouth and whenever you stand praying forgive if you have anything against anyone so that your father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses obstacle 3 [Music] hey there hey how are things good as always hey babe hey can I help you you may not remember me better I'm Johnny Archer right how can I help you do you have a minute to talk what do we have to talk about I'm not sure exactly Oh Gabby can you give me just a minute what did you need to talk to me about well guess I should start by saying I met with your husband yesterday I'm not sure of that either comes down to a promise I made to my grandmother the rest I'm trying to figure out I really hate this job I'm a very busy girl what exactly do you need when was the last time you saw your husband what I'm just trying to complete a puzzle here and I don't even think I have the right pieces I take my daughter in once a month see them can we stay for a few minutes and leave then I spend the next month trying to forget I just sat in front of him have you noticed a change in him of course look what he did when you're at rock-bottom there's only one way to go I don't know why but for some reason he had a relationship with my grandmother a profound relationship it seems there was a lot of things but there's nothing profound about and see I think that's where my grandmother saw things differently may even be why I'm here oh that's the case then um you're wasting your time that look I'm not trying to change your thinking okay I can't even get mine to change just the next time you see him be open to the fact that he's a changed man I can't even comprehend the pain that he's caused your family yeah my daughter she's still sitting in that house alive so you're open to the fact that he's not a monster then maybe I can try it too yeah um I need you back inside this may sound really strange but is there any way I can meet your daughter yes sure hey lady something here I'd like to me this is John Eileen it's nice to meet you nice to meet you John Archer it was good to meet you too me too I should get going thanks again yeah right don't you know where to find me this little diner like right when I got naked gave me this address said am i doing well you should have called I saved you the trouble of hunting me down no trouble I think kind of went dis approach you yeah well you did thanks for coming how's your grandma doing she passed away last night it's okay you're a terrible liar all right how would you like to meet nothing grandpa I'd like you to meet price I just heard I'm so sorry for your loss thank you no no she was a great woman it's good to finally meet you this er I've I've heard lots of wonderful things sir how old do you think I am mmm thinking late 20s smart girl and price this is Rachel it's nice to meet you you see where a robber did the kids he took the kid seven they grabbed his it arrived price takes the guest bedroom of course thank you I'm gonna stay out of girls hair I just really wanted to come by and let meet you guys and let you know my family's been praying for you I'm gonna grab my bag outside no it's fun today I'll be right back she's great John yeah yeah she is daddy do you need me to stay here tonight I don't I'll be just fine hey you should go get some rest I'll be okay come on I'll take you there drew is it me my grandmother loved your house I can tell no you're kind of like a book I've had for a while just never really opened it you know like I keep reading the front and back cover but I don't think I'm a story what do you wanna know everything well you have to start somewhere it's Rachel your sister I have a long book what else do we have to do okay you know that my mom died when I was real little I told you that grandfather and grandmother are really the only parents I've known so Aunt Rachel became my sister feature which never felt like siblings you know is the age gap I mean we still had that same hatred that some siblings have just the closeness that gap became a canyon after that night system blames here yeah yeah she should I thought I would play and I've tried everything to get it out of my head you looked at him chapter two soon oh that I know I'd find you in here probably because this is where I always come when I have words to say and no idea how to say them what are you still doing up probably the same reason you are nowadays it seems we get so focused on the minutia of the possible reactions to our words that we end up not saying the things that so badly need to be heard yeah well based on my track record whatever I have to say really needs to be Herot so says the man sing them have you ever asked the folks hearing it I hate to hear people talk about failures failure is not easy failure takes effort oh where do we get off complaining about not getting the result we want or lead when we didn't even try to get him in the first place this family has had to endure a tragedy of the kind I wouldn't wish upon a worst enemy but for the first time since it happened it seems we're making strides to be a family once again there's nothing in the world your grandmother wanted more than to have that happen don't let your fear words prevent us from taking another step closer you'll figure it out I have something for you come with me she still is beautiful no now grandpa I don't deserve this don't be silly it's your car no seriously grandpa I can't take this cars have more forgiveness than we do thank you you know grandpa okay I wanted to say the right things I just don't think I can I think you can more importantly God knows you can you just gotta have faith and I've heard that word a lot best few days yeah just I don't think I have any faith right now I see yeah I'm not sure I ever did you may not have faith but one thing I can promise that you kid [Music] what please stop this stop what stuff this this thing that we do every day and so I don't know if I can take it anymore with happy I just can't do it [Music] do you have some magical way to fix it you think I like living a life like this [Music] I'm trying everything I know how its take her with the pain as bad as it sounds I feel better now that mom has died at least now I can make myself believe that Lyle is back with family [Music] [Music] I am drowning in anger my daughter thinks I hate her my son hasn't spoken to me in days and I don't and I don't even want to know what you feel about me [Music] there's nothing about a life like this but I enjoy it so when's the last time you got down on your knees and practice what he preached [Music] you've always told everyone else to pray to God in their darkest out you are in a pitch-black you want to glad it all alone I guess I've grown up and realized that faith is easier to preach them to practice these have faith was easy if it was easy it wouldn't be the key to so many amazing things I could have all the faith in the world and it wouldn't matter no amount of faith it's gonna bring you on the back [Music] [Music] we see looking down this from heaven should we be able to know the Big Brother family back picture smiling down on us every day Mitchell magic doesn't make faith [Music] thanks magic I could use a little bit of both right now [Music] for so much [Music] I can't be Sheriff Baxter John Archer yes sir this is my girlfriend price it's nice to meet you price this is my grandson Matt good to meet you Matt thank you for meeting with me it's no trouble I'd do anything it's a favor for your grandfather we're gonna do for you well um there's this prisoner that's in the county that I'm looking for some one-on-one time with the old Wilcox yeah yeah how'd you know mmm it only makes sense what do you need from me how can I get some more time with him I don't know why you want more time honestly sir I I don't even know myself I just know it's time my grandmother wanted me to spend hmm I'll tell you what give me a couple hours and head on over I'll get you set up really just like that just like that thank you sir I appreciate it no problem tell your grandfather I said hello I will thank you sir morning [Music] [Applause] [Music] you guys make a habit under watching us sleep at least not usually in the same room I forget they're not babies anymore this man you guys love each other again buddy we never stopped loving each other could have fooled us we were only fooling ourselves that's a changing we haven't been a family for a while now and it's been my fault and I'm gonna fix it [Music] when you lose something so close to you it often blocks the view of the great things you still have but only if you let it and I'm done letting it I'm happy to have your back murmur me too baby [Music] [Music] do you want to come in with me no I think this is something you need to do on your own well at least take the car go somewhere okay may not spend time with your grandfather yeah Betty love that hey before we're a part again I I just wanted to tell you how I feel I love you and whatever has stopped me from saying that until now is absolutely nothing to do with you it's just stuff I've had to work out me too [Music] you must know someone she's passed no my grandpa would have something to say here the more we talk the quieter yes something like that it sounds like a wise man yes I don't miss her you know I don't even remember life before her and I think that may have been her whole purpose you're a changed man no I didn't see it before but I see it now I'm glad to hear you say that don't worry I think an order to forgiveness I need to know why any of this had to happen in the first place there's nothing I can say to earn your forgiveness John you're half my forgiveness I'm trying to forgive myself if you want to hear the story I'll tell you the story please just tell me where to start start before I hold it down I was I was a supervisor at the furniture plan out in rich I mean I was wealthy by no means but you know we got by okay without much trust to do it and then one morning I got up at 5:00 a.m. like I did every day throw a truck out to the plant like I did every day and I scanned my cardkey like I did every day only this morning the door wouldn't open apparently from sometime between that morning and when I left work the day before the planet closed to this day I was still not exactly sure why that led to an immediate lifestyle downgrade cars house the food that we ate every night the economy was in the dumps on me my jobs are hard to find I did everything I could to earn a dollar but it was not enough the closer I got to failure to making ends meet the bigger that got between Holly and I began by the end of it she hated the side of me and I don't blame her [Music] that's why duty to provide for her and lady and I was coming up short you know I clearly remember the morning of the day it all happened I was driving a wrecker truck then like most mornings Holley wasn't really talking to me so I kissed Laney and I went out the door towed a car back into town and soon after that my truck broke down and for that I got fired and that pushed me right over the edge something something snapped looked up that I saw made a decision for safety reasons I always kept a gun in the glove compartment let's go get my guy truck and then I stopped then I turned around and I emptied the clip I put all the bullets on the seat I was just desperate for money nothing more than that [Music] next thing I know I'm robbing the place I mean I know it was me standing there it's almost like I was outside of my body looking hot and then she walked in [Music] and I have seen that smile of hers every day since I mean aside from the fact that there were no bullets in the gun I believe remember pulling the trigger but apparently there was a bullet in the chamber and apparently I did pull the trigger the rest is the rest why didn't you say anything in the car I used to there and he said nothing it wouldn't have gotten you off at me and he could have helped [Music] how could I do that Delilah huh what was it hers it was my fault regardless of the surrounding circumstances it was me standing there it was my gun if my bullet and I killed that little girl I didn't deserve to say anything I think we use the words blame and regret too much eNOS get Redemption it started sound like your father now yeah just pray God give me a sense to take my own advice you got it no there's one one more question I have Dexter the only question I came in here man you want to know how the relationship between me and mrs. Archer began much like it did with you complete shock that she was sitting in front of me mr. Wilcox why are you here I take it you know who I am I do why are you here most people would say because I've lost my mind but I'd like to think it's because I see hope and with a little hope I think it can be turned into peace why do you want me to have ass when we're faced with tragedies there are obstacles that stand in the way of faith and redemption and forgiveness and when these obstacles are removed and we can find our pathway to peace that's when she started to tell me about something called a butterfly Diaries and then auntie would come to visit me every week sometimes every day she would read from the Bible to me she would tell me stories of faith stories of redemption the stories of forgiveness I never read what she was writing in those Diaries but she kept it up over the years the redemption [Music] yeah she was very clear had to be in that order faith starts at all you know you were right all along she changed your life and she wanted you to change mine she was very intent off mrs. Archer knew that when it comes to some people a certain voice needs to be heard thank you [Music] those are two words I never expected to hear again and then expected I was always hopeful [Music] I get you take a walk with me sure let me grab my jacket well you haven't yelled at me yet I think we should celebrate that at least you know I thought I had tried everything I could to get you to forgive me and John no let me finish please okay please um I went from seeking your forgiveness to being angry at you for not forgiving me yet here we are and for the first time since that night I can honestly say that I forgive myself [Music] and the heartache that I've caused this family's unforgettable but thanks to some good advice I believe the unforgettable can be forgiven Rachel I love you but what I need most right now is for you to forgive me I don't think I've ever spoken words that had the potential to control my happiness as much as this I've never spoken words this big john-boy but I do love you and I forgive you [Music] are you ready daddy reckon I'd better be where's lady oh if she's out there with Gabby what's going on nothing I just wanted to have a second to talk to you before I brought her back here is everything okay yeah um John Archie came to the house he did he must get around and I'd always been here to see yes yeah he told me I need to come in here with an open mind that you're a changed man you're not the same man that you are and well that got me to thinking besides that you're a new man have been right in front of me I've just been ignoring why because I couldn't handle forgiving you see and use a monster trap on this glass some odd way it makes my day easier because if I have to think that you're still the man I married how am I supposed to sit at home every day without you I hesitate to say I love you not because I don't because it wouldn't be so much easier I didn't or truth is I may never get out of this place I can't expect you to sit around the rest of your life out there waiting for me I can't even expect you don't want to love me but to hear you say that you fight against the need to huh that's music to my ears [Music] love you [Music] [Music] hi baby it's good to see you I was wondering if maybe we could do that hey everything that your daddy did last time sounds good to me baby [Music] [Music] and let me help you oh I got it I'll need help she looks like you do from here okay enough not every southern man your age knew how to tie a tie hey I know how to tie a tie oh yeah you do do yeah yeah well your suit looks good thank you the last obstacle is just getting this thing around your neck wait what what you just said my last obstacle yeah your tie and then there's something I need to do um I'll be right back okay okay what's going on John we gotta go to the funeral soon yeah take my keys head to the chapel and let everyone know I'll be there you need review I've got two years without a car I'll be fine that's easy okay [Music] good morning the family would like to thank everyone for their attendance but I can't stand here and claim to know what angels are like but I do know this and that is if they're anything less then is Carolyn Archer very disciplined [Music] seems as lately every time I was around this Archer she was singing a song and if she wasn't singing this song she was giving me one lyric she was helping me apply this lyrica through the message that I was to deliver on Sunday mornings and it seemed like that those times he was my pastor certainly not the other way around so many times it felt like that I used to tell Miss Archer how much you've hurt my soul to stand up here in front of good folks such as yourself trying to think of something to say that could quite possibly simply stop one tear football I remember one time as I was explaining this to her she lit up any spurred her hands out she said past we don't know what that means when she does that she said pastor you can't have a funeral without the fun fun she compared a funeral to a celebration she looked at me and she said that you go out there and you tell those people how lucky their loved ones are lucky lucky because now they're standing next to the hand of our maker and the presence of our Lord and Savior and oh how glorious they it must be so let's put a little fun into this fear let us enjoy this song and let us celebrate let us celebrate as Caroline large Oh [Music] I know she wanted you here [Music] [Music] [Music] I'm sorry there's anything I could do to bring her back I would please believe that mr. message am I supposed to say [Music] I know it's [Music] our mother would be glad the jury [Music] and I'm glad that you're here [Music] sorry I know [Music] I forgive you I know that our baby forgives you too [Music] you know this Archer always said she was waiting for butterflies I never told her this but I had absolutely no idea what she was talking about but now I do and it warms my heart to know she's no longer waiting carolyn mabel archers favorite scripture was this do not be conformed to this world but be transformed by the renewal of your mind that by testing you may discern what is the will of god what is good and acceptable and perfect romans 12:2 [Music] it's been said that if nothing ever changed there would be no butterflies I pray that we all have lives full of butterflies full of change that is met with our eyes on faith forgiveness and redemption with our eyes on the miracles not the miracles we are so sure we need or the miracles that we are so sure we deserve but the miracles that like to show themselves as we are waiting for butterflies [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] butterfly on the windowsill big dreams with some shoes to fill old man he's seen history of first dirty than the buildings they've all been torn down just as he's torn down [Music] boy go in crazy girl outside she's been lazy but they've all been told oh just as I'm down [Music] I can't see the nighttime for slain by the waves of jade and I can see your love for miles between and I can see your love Oh miles between I can see the night I'm just praying by the waves only Jade's I can sing of your love for miles between [Music] the rain is coming [Music] as call me [Music] and light of the world mega way I can see the night slain by the way so Jane as I can see your miles between yo the Maasai your daddy [Music] I love your name I love your name I love your name and I love your name I love your name I love me Joe domicile [Music] you're the delay I love your name I love your name I love you [Music] butterfly on the windowsill big dreams and so shoes to fill someday you might find what you're looking for [Music]

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Length: 119min 58sec (7198 seconds)

Published: Fri Dec 13 2019