Todd White - Religion vs. Christianity

Isn't it cool, that like like the message that I shared last night is a direct conflict to religion like it it hates it it hates it it's a, it's a I know thank you it's a very, listen why did the Pharisees hate Jesus? That is crazy, like the very one that they read about, the very one they studied about the very one that they memorized the Tora about He was the one to come the very one that God will raise up a prophet like me and anybody who doesn't listen to him will be cut off like and he is right there and they study the scriptures and in them they thought they had eternal life and it was those very scriptures that testified about Jesus and they weren't willing to come to Jesus and they killed Him. It's crazy. Why? Because, see, when Holy Spirit comes He just makes everybody mad that wants to be in control. Listen, I am not speaking against any church I love the church because I am a part of one like I love the church, I love God's bride so I am not making fun or beating up the body of Christ I am a part of a local church all of you should be a part of a local church and just let me get something down on record because I have said that there are groups that are out there that are home groups I am not against home groups OK because they are healthy homegroups that actually they are meeting house to house and it's healthy but if you have a home group that is established because you have been hurt by the church and you don't want to be a part of a church that is not good. Listen to me local church is amazing I am a part of one I was plugged into a church I told you my testimony where they hated me and I still went and I still went and I received I still went to their teaching class because I believe in submission to the head of a local church see the problem is is that groups are established, I just want to make this straight because there are people that are writing emails like I can't believe Todd is like he crushes the home church I am not crushing the home church I think that we should all meet, like we should meet, we should have fellowship with each other outside of the building also we shouldn't just meet on Sunday, we should have fellowship and like fellowship to me is actually walking in the light as He is in the light and talking about the things of God together. Like it is amazing! People are like "Well what do you do to unwind? Like do you watch, like, sports? Or like what do you do?" I am like "I worship Jesus." "Yes but like, I mean what do you do to unwind?" I am like "I am not wound." I really am not kidding, I am like not wound. I am fired up. And like when I meet with people or when I talk to people I am not there to sit and watch the game and or I am not there to come to like if I am going to have a home group and I am going to sit there and I am going to have fellowship here is the problem when people get hurt by the church what they do is they pull away because actually you got hurt by religion. So then you pull away from that and you are like "They are just legalists" and so what happens is we get together behind the closed doors and we establish and like gathers like so all of a sudden you've been hurt so another person that got hurt they become a part of your thing then another person becomes a part of your thing then another person becomes a part of your thing and then you think you have fellowship but you don't. What is fellowship? It koinonia, it's relationship, it's like it's like these disciples when they had in the book of Acts they had like home church, do you understand? It was really healthy they went house to house breaking bread everybody had everything in common it was like amazing and it was celebrated thing and there was major persecution for that but listen they still walked in great power. Bless you buddy. They still walked in great power, it was amazing so I am not against home church I am against people that gather each other together to lick each other’s wounds that despise God's bride that despise God's girl His church, His bride that is not healthy for anybody, I am like you're who you think you are your reasons for being hurt aren't justified the only reason you got hurt by the church listen if somebody hurt you in a legalistic way it's because they didn't know who they were and they hurt you because they didn't understand their value they didn't understand who they were and you got hurt by that but the only reason you got hurt by that is because you didn't know who you were when it came. So they didn't know who they were when they did it you didn't know who you were when it came which is better? They are both horrible. So we don't ever want to have a home church at the cost of God's girl and the body of Christ and koinonia and fellowship and coming together so I just wanted to straighten that out because there ae some people who have wrote some hate mail I get it a lot actually it's crazy crazy. Where is that guy today that we prayed for I didn't get his name he was at the end of the he was at the end of the the vision breakfast this morning. Harry? You here buddy? How are you doing? How’s them ears? Hey. Are they good? So today Harry came up he is 80% deaf here is how he described it he says “I have got my good and bad ear and I have got my bad, bad ear I am deaf in this one I can hear a little out of this one” and he goes "You know what I don't want? I don't want no fake stuff." I said "Well good, because Jesus is real and authentic. Right. He loves us and I said "Come on man let’s just what do you say we pray.”? So we are just praying together and it is amazing like we have we filmed it, it's just awesome and praying for him, praying for him, praying for him and he goes "Did you just speak louder? What is... what or what? I said "No Sir" he goes "Well someone is playing a game" he said He did, because he thought like I don't know because when you haven't heard since 8 years old fourteen years old right? How old are you now? Tell me. Sixty. So from fourteen to sixty his hearing went out and like just bad just hearing loss and so we are just sitting there and we are praying and all of a sudden I look at him and I go on his deaf ear and he went and I started, I started losing it and then he looks at me he goes "Whoa!" I did it again "Whoa!" and just we cried together and he looks at me and he said "I haven't cried for 20 years since my dad’s funeral." And Jesus opened up that man’s ears today. Stand up. Come on man. Yay! There are a lot of people that come to these meetings and they don't believe in healing Jesus is going to heal you anyway because He can despite what you think He loves you listen, blind eyes are opening, deaf ears are opening do you understand? God wants to reveal Himself to His church so that the church can reveal Him to the world. Do you understand that? You guys ready? I am going to share my heart a little it's 9 o'clock, it's not healthy. Where is Jerimiah I am going to get him to do worship we will do another fire tunnel. No, no, I am just kidding, I am just kidding, just kidding. No fire tunnel, just hang on. No I Love you too. So people had questions about fire tunnel it's not about coming through to see if you can feel something just like, just like going into water isn't just so you can get wet. Getting baptized isn't just going down in the water so you get wet something happens in there you get baptized, it's called being buried with Him in baptism being raised in the likeness of His resurrection it's different baptism isn't something where you get baptized as a kid religion says go and get your child baptized when they are a baby certain denominations say that go and get your child baptized when they are a baby but your child has to be old enough in order to make the decision to say I am giving my life completely do you understand that being baptized means that you are being crucified with Christ buried with Him in baptism when you come up out of that water you are a brand-new creation and what happens ladies when you deliver a baby? First thing that happens is that the water breaks so when you go down and that water breaks what happens is that the Holy Ghost midwife is there delivering another child for the Father. It is way more powerful than you think that's like, that's powerful, powerful that is why I got baptized like four times. But the Holy Spirit is essential we can't afford to say "Well we don't need that" because you are wrong, you do need that if you are in fear, you need Him and I promise you in your in your relationship and you're growing relationship what you need to do is cultivate relationship cultivate, you need to you need to get with some people that are like minded so you can gather together and you can help to iron sharpens iron we want fellowship, we want relationship with people it would be really good for you to find people that are part of other bodies other local bodies, other local churches like doesn't matter, who cares what denomination it is OK we need to get over the whole denomination thing because what happens is you can even be in a non-denominational church but be very denominational. You can say it's non and you can persecute and go against other denominations and you can say "them Catholic’s they need this, and them Baptists they need this, and you can be Baptist and say but them charismatics are crazy yet you can say I can't stand charismatic Christianity yet when someone cuts you off in the car your anger flares up and you have a charismatic worship service for the wrong god. I promise it's true I've watched it, first hand I don't believe in charismatic I don't believe in this someone cuts you up "Get out of the way you jerk" Right after they say that it's so crazy we need relationship with God you know when people lift up their hands it shouldn't be such a a weird thing people are like "Well I don't like that, they lift up their hands" you're in a denomination, you only lift up one, lift up two? I don't understand all this stuff do you know what someone told me when I came into church? when I was when I was like going in and the five-and-a-half months I lived as a I lived as a hypocrite full on man full on in my life I am talking like horrible horrible hypocrite where I incorporated Jesus but I remember coming I remember coming that day into church for the first time when I saw these people with their hands up I am like "These people are lunatics". But hey like I was suicidal and I went and talked to Dan that day and I went to church on Sunday now granted I am living like a heathen and for five-and-a-half months I lived totally heathen but the first Sunday I went to church and saw these people with their hands up I went "Man what is up with that?" So I went up to the worship leaders and said "Why are people lifting their hands? It's so weird Like what is wrong?” The worship leader, you know what he said to me? He said to me, he goes "Todd. he goes "When you were three years old and you fell down and hurt your knee and your dad or your mum was around, what did you do?” He said "You want to pick me up." I said "Whoa!" I just immediately went. Yes it's a sign of surrender but what you are saying is "God pick me up." Pick me up God. You're my dad and I love You that is amazing. I want to share I want to share a story with you. Look at that didn't hit anybody. Sorry that was probably not nice it was just a cap. I want to share a story with you, to you about about the danger the danger of hypocrisy the danger of religion the danger of incorporating somebody into your life instead of surrender I want to share the reality of this, I mean you heard Keith share Matti shared, Tom shared it has just been awesome because we all think the same when I when I first when I first said "Yes" to Jesus, see some of you how many of you do not know my testimony? Raise your hands. Well I am not going to share the whole thing but I am going to share this real brief I was a drug addict for 22 years and let me tell you something I was an atheist my whole life and not one person not one came up to me to share the Good News with me and I walked by many of churches I walked by many of people and nobody shared the Good News with me which means to me that nobody believed the Good News. It would be bad for you to incorporate Jesus in just to have eternal life one day when you die and not know the life that He paid a price to give you now. It would be sad, it would be sad for you to pray some prayer to get out of here and pray for Jesus to get you out of here when people are going to hell every day. It would be sad for you to say "Jesus I I, I just thank I just thank God that I that I know You and I am hiding inside these four walls because I know You and I don't want to be touched by the dirty world. I just want to thank God that I know You and as a I read in the Bible I know that You are coming back soon because the signs of the times are this people are lovers of themselves and the very fact that you are hiding inside of a church and you are not out there talking to anybody about Jesus means you love yourself and you are a sign of the times. We will start there. That is the truth. I praise God that I am not like any of these, like a Pharisee I praise God I am not like this tax collector I give this and I do this and I tithe, I do this and, I, I, Tax collector "Have mercy" Jesus said which one went away justified I tell you this tax collector and the Pharisees hated it because they were self-righteous because on the outside they were all clean but inside they were nasty and I am not pointing the finger at nobody if the shoe fits, kick it off. I got dog jaw. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. I had a guy jump off the stage and hit the floor he landed on his feet but it was real. Thank you. Thanks. Sorry. So people pray, people are lovers of themselves lovers of money here is the deal the very fact that you can't give offerings and you can't tithe at your church means that you love money more than you love God so don't tell me about the signs of the times when you are walking out those very signs yourself and you are blind and you can't see because then Jesus comes you see that radical generosity what happened right here what just happened? This is like eyes to see, ears to hear what is it like to go into a restaurant and bless your waitress instead of give her a a tract that says "If you want a real tip find Jesus". What good is it for you to tell your waitress about God and then rip her off when you leave? That's sin. What? Yes! Come on, we read the end of it people are lovers of themselves and not lovers of God lovers of money boasters, proud how many people because I am here preaching and I have got dreadlocks have in your hearts judged me? You don't have to raise your hand. It doesn't matter what you think because I know my father and I know how much He loves me so no matter what you do or what you say against me your sin against me will never produce sin within me but we need to get out of this mentality that Jesus is coming back to rescue you because the Bible doesn't teach the rapture as a rescue mission. The Bible teaches the rapture as actually the pick up for a wedding date for the bride that made herself ready. Relationship, Holy Spirit communion with God reading the scriptures, studying the Truth and having the Truth set you free and you knowing what the Bible says and all of a sudden God begins to trim and to prune and to clip He is the one that wants to do it God is an amazing gardener He is an amazing, amazing teacher but so rarely do we open this Bible and ask God teach us and help us understand what this means we let other people do it and what happens is we get this strong hold and faith faith the essence and nature of faith is to jealously guard what it believes to be true so the scriptures, bringing them in through religion being taught a doctrine, like God doesn't heal today because like only when the disciples were here that is when He did it but He stopped it that is not in your Bible that is in people’s theories because they have prayed and it hasn't happened so they have allowed that to be truth instead of the scriptures that testify about Jesus. So all of a sudden you are taught faith the nature and essence of faith is to guard and protect what people believe is true and scripture is all true but scripture can be used as twistedness to validate your unbelief. You can take one scripture and another scripture over here and another scripture over here and another scripture over here out of context not really know why it is there for and take all these scriptures and put them together and say this validates our doctrine. Doesn't validate your doctrine it validates you because you have studied the Bible to prove that you are right and other people are wrong what if it’s not about right and wrong what if it is about righteousness and what if you're what if you are right about something and you are very wrong about trying to be right. It is just true the rapture is real, people teach it is not yet it is not going to happen you're wrong the Bible says it will. People say "Well I am not going to face a lot of tribulation Jesus is going to rescue me out of here". That is why we have got this we have got this mentality to hide inside the four walls and pray for Jesus to return. My boss is mean, my family are jerks no one, no one likes me, no one appreciates me, it's really hard at my job, I can't pay my bills, I can't believe this God to heaven with me and to hell with the world. It's selfish. It's selfish. I am just telling you it's selfish. It is the wisdom of the world that is selfish It’s sensual and demonic, it's feelings you get your feelings hurt you're hurt you get hurt by a church so you don't want to be a part of the church so what you do is you go to another church and you are trying to find love there and you want to find love at a church but then you find fault because someone hurt you again "Yes just like the last one" then you go to another church and you are like "Well, you know I am, maybe there, wow this is kind of different, I really like this one come over here, this is good". You go to another church for a little while and then all of a sudden it happens again but you are not looking for love you are looking for fault so we can't plug into a local church because we keep getting hurt so we establish these home groups at the cost of the local church home groups not at the cost of the local church but, but but home groups established in a love relationship to where you are having fellowship outside and inside that is healthy. I love that, that is God, we need to it's amazing really good. Do you understand that sometimes people go from church to church to church to church to try to find love and you are not supposed to go to find love you are supposed to become love then plug in somewhere. That's God. You plug in somewhere. Listen people people make mistakes you need to have forgiveness, you need to have God in you you need to know that if they fell short it didn't hurt you it's hurting them you need to pray for them instead of being hurt by them you hurt for them. I am not talking to you about something that I, that I didn't mess up on I am talking to you from a place of having lived as a hypocrite having lived as a, in a place of hypocrisy, do you know Jesus rebuked hypocrisy more than anything else. He did, I don't know if you ever read Matthew 23 it is scary man I mean scary "Woe to you" like "Wait a minute, I thought that you were love?" It is love but you know what hypocrisy does? See Jesus says I wish you were either cold or hot. Why? Because when you are cold God can take you and flip you like a light switch man Boom, bang you never pass this middle area He can take you and hot what is hot? Hot is burning fully believing fully convinced believe means to be fully convinced but actually, like that the, and an example it gives is a house with no empty rooms to be fully convinced for your houses there are no empty rooms, it is filled with Him. Or a town with no empty houses what if we were all houses of God that were not empty but were full of God and what if your town was full of people that were full of God. That would be the church man this is Gods dream that He like made become a reality and you were His reality, Jesus you were the joy set before Him, He endured the cross He endured the suffering Why? For the sake of Gods elect. He did, He loves you. Like extravagantly. You know God takes the foolish things, I love what a preacher man was preaching God takes the foolish thing and He confounds the wise, the wise get confounded the reason why the wise get confounded because they are wise in their own eyes. The wisdom of the world is sensual, demonic full of self-seeking and envy. What is self-seeking look like? What does envy look like? Envy looks like this "Todd White I wish I had your life". The only reason you wish you had mine is because you don't know what you have got and you don't know who God created you to be because if you find who God created you to be you won't want mine because you are the only you that God created. Do you know that you are called not you are called to be an imitator of God Ephesians 5 says be an imitator of God dear children and walk in love even as Christ loved us. Walk in love what does that look like? Well what is love? Love is patient, love is kind love doesn't boast love doesn't parade itself love isn't proud love doesn't envy love is amazing love love forgives love keeps no record of wrongs none doesn't remember, love always hopes the best it says gifts and these gifts and prophecy and tongues which people are scared of and power and miracles and all these things it will end it will end it says desire these out of all these things desire love we tear off the gift chapter because we are freaked out that 1 Corinthians 12 I will just tear that right out might as well tear 14 because it talks about talks about prophecy and tongues you don't want to mess with that one either tear that one out might as well tear 13 out because you can't walk that one out in your own strength it is about becoming who Jesus says you are it is about realizing that you have been made right with a Holy God and you have been given the Holy Spirit and He wants to fully possess your life He didn't say just partner with Him He said co labor with Him He didn't say just make me a partner in your life He says I want you to surrender your life He didn't say like deny the devil pick up your cross and follow Him He said deny yourself how can you deny yourself? You have to find out what God says you are to deny that old man that one that is supposed to be crucified with Christ and not supposed to be resurrected we can't afford to put bones on the wrong flesh man, come on can these dry bones live? He is not talking about your past. So I remember this vision this guy had this one time he says this he said it that it was a dream actually this guy is an atheist full on atheist he goes to sleep at night he is an atheist literally like hates hates anything to do with God goes to bed at night and has this dream and in this dream there is this huge valley and he sees this like he sees a people group on one side of this fence and another side the fence is like this wide and he sees all these people and he sees somebody that reminds him of the person of Jesus that people talk about and then he sees somebody on the other side and he doesn't have a pitch fork and he isn't red he's actually attractive he is actually desirable and he sees all these people with him and he he thinks that this could be that one they call the devil you have got all these people with the devil and all these people with this Jesus he doesn't believe in either of this and this guy this is a real dream this dude jumps on the fence and everybody disappears all gone he is by himself and he is standing right in the middle of this field right in the middle and all of a sudden the devil comes back into the picture this is a real dream really, really this is Gods mercy and the devil says "There you are I was looking for you" and he says "Hey I didn't choose Him and I definitely didn't choose you" He said "Sure you did the fence belongs to me". This is a real, real dream needless to say dude repented as soon as he woke up and became a Christian. What is crazy do you know that sometimes it takes people to get to the place where God is all they have left to realize that God is what they needed to begin with it shouldn't be it shouldn't be. Do you know that in my life when I came to Dan I was like really, really wrecked man I mean I was suicidal, I was done with my life I was finished man and I went to her to my, to my girlfriends step dads house because I came home and she was gone I was hooked on coke I was hooked on everything I was hooked on weed I was hooked on everything I had to come down I smoked weed to come down drink a bunch of beers to come down I drank a 12 pack of beer every day. Like that is my life I am an alcoholic, I am a drug addict I am addicted to everything I am addicted to pornography I am addicted to all of it. So I go that night to get a gun over to this house it’s in the morning I drive to her step dads house I pull into the drive way, I walk into the house I walk by this phone book it's crazy, it's right beside the place I am going to write my suicide note so I am going to say goodbye I don't have anything to say except I am sorry. That's it, I don't, what else can I say? I don't know what else to say I am sorry, I don't know what to do. I am done. Finished. I figure if I am going to kill myself, it is over and I am done. Your Keith Keith was going to hook a come on he was going to kill himself in a car. Dude, God mercy. Crazy right? So I walk by this phone book on the way to the gun cabinet and I stopped and I flipped this thing open instead of writing a suicide letter I had a Sharpie pen in my hand I was going to write a goodbye letter I opened it up and it flipped open to churches not like C. H. U... No Churches. What! You are serious. You have got to be kidding me. So it was mercy that I didn't take a gun. I am not kidding. I hated you guys. I hated the church it was a bunch of people that were stuck up a bunch of people that hid inside of a building a bunch of people that needed Jesus as a crutch to get through life because they couldn't handle life a bunch of people that only loved themselves and didn't love me didn't care about other people, only cared about themselves and I thought all these dudes on TV were just after your money. It's how I thought. So I drive to this church and I say “I need to talk to somebody” and Dan Mohler answers the door and I said "I..." he is "Come on in buddy". He is all happy I am like "What is wrong with you man?" He is like "It's not what is wrong, it's what has been made right". "What!?" he says "Let's go upstairs to the sanctuary". I am thinking "Birds". I don't know what a sanctuary is I have no idea, I don't have a clue I promise man. I am like "Whatever dude". So I walk upstairs with him I sit down on these chairs and he starts, I am looking at this, it's a big it's like, you know, sanctuary, church, cross, all this stuff he starts to share with me and I said "Man I didn't come here OK, to hear about Jesus" he said "This is a church, what did you come for?" I said "Because I need to talk to somebody man, that's all just listen to me" He said "OK I am listening". He is a good listener. So I am like "I did this... and I grew up in a children’s home the masonic homes and then I got out of there and then I joined the marines and I went AWOL and then I got extradited across America then I got put in jail and then I got I ran away again then I got extradited in an orange jump suit come back across America again they put me in the brig and then they kicked me out gave me a Bad Conduct Discharge and I can't get a job so I have to lie on everything and every job I get, I quit or get fired because I am high I go to take drug tests and smoke a joint before I pee in a cup I just came from the house I was going to shoot myself because the only thing I ever had in life she hates me and she has a reason to hate me because all I have done is nothing I have hurt everybody and he said "You know what since you don't want your life, why don't you give it to somebody that does" I said "Come on man. Who would want my life? I don't have any value I have no worth." I didn't know those words but that is what I meant. All I have done was hurt people I didn't do nothing for this God and besides how could some dude that died 2,000 years ago want my life, are you kidding me, a dead man can't” He said "Well He is alive" I am like "Come on man some dream, pipe dream man, you are kidding me". But something about this guy’s eyes were real. Like I am not kidding like I was like like, welcome to the light. I could see it but I didn't know what it was and he was telling me about Jesus but I didn't know that light that he has was Jesus. See if your eye is single your whole body is full of light but if the light that is in you is darkness how great is that darkness and if you as a Christian right now don't see who you are created to be you will not have light your eye will be double vision you will be focused on a bunch of different things when it needs to be Jesus. It needs to be Jesus. If you came here tonight to find fault in the message you are going to come up short because I am possessed by God. I am possessed by a scripture I am possessed by the truth and you will not hear anything comes out of my mouth that is not in this Bible because I live by the Word, I study the Word not to preach myself approved I don't study to preach to impress you I bring my Bible with me every time but rarely do I put it up like this and read it because I don't know how to I don't know how to do that I don't know how to five points... I just don't know and God has done this since the beginning of my life, just he said I couldn't memorize I had problems man. I burned my, I fried it. Gone. For 34 years I had never read a book before I couldn't read my whole life I couldn't comprehend and when I tried to read I would forget everything and my brain was just like. Serious. Twisted. So this guy goes "Since you don't want your life why don't you give it to somebody that does”? I am like "What would he want with this" and he tells me and I said "Fine, whatever, He can have it". That was my prayer. That is not good. That is only not good God will work with anything but that is not good because that wasn't surrender that was incorporated. You can have my life if you want it. Whatever, there. We teach people that we teach that we teach people that God will take you just the way you are and we expect that God wants you to stay that way. That is not grace. Grace that doesn't lead to transformation is demonic. And so I didn't understand this all I knew was he was telling me how important it is to get the Word inside of me to get the truth inside of me but I can't read and I am like. But that night man that morning I didn't want to kill myself like right away, I was like I said "Fine if He wants my life He can have it God forgive me of my sins if you can". I didn’t know. And I went home and talked to my daughter I said I called her until I saw a note she left I said "You need to tell mommy that daddy found God" she said "What is he like dad?" I said "I don't know". I really didn't know. "But I saw somebody today there is something about this guy's eyes it's real. This guy knows who this God is and I am going to take you to meet this guy". She said "Daddy, mommy's never coming home, she hates you" and she told her every day how much she hated me how much of a loser and a liar? Why? Because I because I was. I ripped us off, I stole from us, I stole from all of her family, I stole from all of my family I did nothing by steal, kill and destroy because that was my dad and he was ruling me like a slave to sin he was my task master I was a slave to sin and I didn't know that there was any other life available and no Christian came up to me and told me about Jesus that there was freedom I saw people tell people they are going to go to hell if they didn't change but you know that you can't change you, God has to change you you don't come to God when you feel like you are ready you come to God when the Holy Spirit touches your heart and you are like I just I don't know what this is but I want this like that is crazy God works it out inside of you He works to will and to do according to His good pleasure but you have to know Him to have this happen so I know Dan knows Him so my girlfriend comes home and she is freaking out so two nights later or two days later I got this band I am like a hard-core singer I am like I like yes you know any hard-core singers Matti? A couple and so like I'm I'm this guy that's in front of people screaming and singing and and having an amazing time getting people rowdy crushing people in bars and boom, boom, boom, boom, yeah! And I liked that. That was me. So I have got this band that I have been with for about three and a half years almost four years and we have got our own stuff we are about to like we are trying to get signed, like it is a big deal the guys come to my house and my basement for band practice and they are in my house and I go "Guys guess what" they are like "What man?" I said "Man I gave my life to Jesus man" they're like "Shut up man" "I am serious man, He is real, I saw him in this dude" I promise that is what I said "I saw Him in this dude" They are like "Come on man, that's it dude, come on let’s roll one up" so we roll a joint I am two days in get high partied up couple of joints stoned as can be "Come on man, let's like sing" and I notice that when I am singing and the lyrics because I was angry I was full of hate rage and stuff the lyrics didn't feel good I mean, like I was full of hate, full of anger cuss words everything and I didn't like it, I didn't know why, I had no idea I didn't know that there was a seed that was growing in there I didn't understand the seed thing at all all I knew was this dude over here has this God that night we are partying and I am like I am like “Dude I am telling you man, Jesus is real bro you guys should meet this dude man" they are like "Dude please, don't, don't say that name anymore" they didn't say "Please" they said "Shut the blank up" it was horrible, like I mean, where I was I didn't even see it I was blind had no idea and I am like partying with these guys and I am like look no more and I am like "Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus" because I don't know any better I am not afraid I lived for the devil my whole life I was a freight train for the kingdom of hell man I was so they are like "That's it man, we're done" and a couple of the guys quit, baled and took their stuff out one guy stayed with me and he is like my best friend in the whole world so this dude was a virtuoso he played like Joe Satriani have you ever heard, I mean like I am talking like the best guitar that I have ever heard do you guys know who Phil Keaggy is? He played just like that. I mean I am talking like closet taught musician did it all himself doesn't believe in it but he is like one of those "I am glad you found your path bro" like that right, which is a lot of people you meet like a lot of people and I am like "Man I am telling you" he is like, he believes in ghosts, he believes in the paranormal he believes in all this stuff but he doesn't believe in Jesus you know he is like "Bro, I am glad you found your path but I don't believe in this whole thing, you know I mean come on man all it is, is just this crutch that people lean on to try to get through life but if it works for you, that's cool I am not going to quit man I love you but it is about what you can do, it's about what you can do from within, it's the the strength you have got to find from within" I am like "Dude I I don't know what you are talking about bro but I am telling you this dude has this Jesus thing" "Come on let's smoke another one" and we got high that night and he left and then I remember like later on that night and my buzz is wearing off and I am like I need coke so here I am out on a binge again I come home I remember putting my daughter to bed and telling her that daddy found God everything is going to change everything is going to change she is like "Daddy I am so glad daddy I am so glad you found God" I said "I am going to take you to meet this guy". Out on a coke binge and hour after I have put her to bed. I come home in the morning there they are on the couch mum and daughter on the couch, slumped together on the couch. I come in "You hypocrite" "No, everything is going to change" "Whatever, shut your face, I hate you" My daughter "Daddy, you promised" and I did promise and I called that guy Bobby and I am like "Hey man can we get together again bro? I like that you are cool with like, listening to me you are my only friend". I would call Dan all the time and Bobby would come over for band practice we would party, we would get high and it was the same old stuff. I remember one time it was only a couple of weeks in I am upstairs and man Jackie said something, it made me really mad I went back in the bedroom right above the band room and I punched a hole straight through my closet door. Straight through. I started screaming and cussing, freaking out. I hate this. I hate you. I got a Christian confession it's crazy. That is why He never said go out and make confessing Christians. He said go into the world and make disciples. I didn't know any better and I walk, I am talking I am not talking to you from a place of me not living this horrible, hypocritical life but I am telling you that there is grace for transformation I don't know anything I go out the back door, I walk out the back steps man I am so mad, I wipe the tears away, it's rage I walk in the door Bobby is in there "Hey bro, Jesus loves you man". He is like "Come on man, It's enough" I am like "No I am serious man, you have got to meet this dude man he is like amazing" He said "Here I already rolled one up. Come on" I am like "Alright, Gee cool man. Awesome." And I am sitting there and I am partying and I am getting high talking about Jesus there are people in the church today that still believe this way they believe that it is OK to get high they get marijuana licenses and say we know it's medicinal purposes and God says be sober. People say well you know what hey I can chill I can go to the bar and I can I can witness to my friends it's cultural man. Since when is addiction culture? Since when is addiction culture? It's not culture. Since when is taking Jesus's face putting it in the mud holding Him up with a dirty face and saying "Here's my King you want to serve Him?" Since when is that culture? That is not culture. That's the truth it's really twisted. We are not going to I am not going to go into a bar and party and drink with people now that I know the truth and go in there and get a couple of beers with some people so I can witness and say "I just need to be culturally relevant". Since when did God call you to sacrifice truth on the altar of being culturally relevant? Maybe we need to know the Truth maybe you need to know the other side and the danger of this thing. So months went by man, same thing I am telling him about Jesus Jesus, Jesus, you know what happens when you live this way? In front of people you proclaim the name of Jesus you know what happens when you're a boyfriend and a girlfriend and you are living together and you've said that you love God and the people around you know that it is not OK for that to happen and you say it's OK you have just taken yourself and you have taken yourself out of the place of what Jesus said we are supposed to be and you have made yourself in the world and of the world and there is nothing about your life that they want. This isn't legalism. I am telling you this is dangerous man. So months went by months went by I am in this five-and-a-half-month process like of this horrible hypocrisy the one where I incorporated Jesus in I didn't surrender wasn't full on it is dangerous man but I didn't understand how dangerous it was I mean the other band guys they are done they've bailed, they are, they are done but my best friend he has got this three-and-a-half-year daughter and a seven-and-a-half-year-old son and he is like a great dad I am talking like this dude is a great dad and he doesn't have Jesus he is just a good dad he doesn't have God to give his kids but he is there for his kids he cuddles with his kids he loves his kids he teaches his kids they go out in the woods and man this dude has it made he doesn't have to have a job because they inherited a property and their house so they have their own house they have no mortgage payment all they have is an electric bill and like a phone bill and a water bill that's it and I think their water was well so probably not a water bill. So all they have is that so the wife works a part time job a couple of hours just to get that and have it's crazy like they have got it made and he is my best friend man and I am trying to tell him how amazing God is and we are partying and we are getting high and five and a half months went by and I have lived this life and I go out one night and I pick up this kid in my home city I rip him off because I am out of coke I am out of drugs, I am out, five and a half months in lived as a full-on hypocrite going in Sunday "Hallelujah" all that but no relationship. God gave me a talent of singing but I don't even know what it is for. It's to glorify me because I want people to look at me "Praise the Lord" "Oh man you are a beautiful singer" "Thank you". I don't even know why and even though I wanted to sing to Jesus I didn't know how to sing from my heart so I was singing from my head so people would see me. I was seeking to receive honor from people because I didn't know what it was like to receive honor from my Father. I was living by the fear of man but I was as twisted as could be my whole life was jacked up and whacked out. So five and a half months go by I go out one night and I pick up this kid it's the last night of my binges. I went out and I am at a pay phone I am at Turkey Hill or West Barker Street man at the pay phone I'm like "Hey man" like this guy's got to answer how about this one, no one is answering I turn around and there is my daughter and there is my girlfriend behind my car. They followed me out of town my daughter is standing there "Daddy you promised you would never do it again" and I told her every day I would never do it again and even though I didn't want to I did it and even though I knew the right thing to do I did the wrong thing that happens when you are trying to do this thing in your own strength and you haven't submitted to God and His truth and you haven't admitted that His Word is way above anything that you would believe about yourself and that the Holy Spirit is the only one the author and the revelation of this Truth He is the author of the world and all scripture is God breathed all scripture is inspired by God people will say "Well men wrote the book" I get it but they were inspired by God it's scripture after scripture after scripture intertwines itself backs itself up all over the Word and we take all these different books and we glorify them and say that this is an amazing book and we don't even know the author of the one that wrote the book and we wonder where our life is, where our peace is, where our God is in that book man. It's alive. Transforms but I am at this place so I am not trying to tell you I can't relate because I am in a place where I can't even read so I have to get other people to teach me because I can't read so I had no relationship with the author you know in the beginning was the Word, the Word was with God and the Word was God do you understand that? Like when you are looking at the Word you are looking at the very face of God no one can look at the face of God and live because if God reveals His Word to you your face you come out of your closet looking like Jesus when you see who you are by the Spirit there is no way to see who you are except by the Spirit we all with an unveiled face beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord are being transformed transformed into what? Back into the original image that God created us to be in the garden except the difference between the first Adam and the last Adam is the first Adam had God with him talking the last Adam paid a price for God to be in us speaking and if God is in you, speaking and you have relationship with Him and He reveals the truth of the Word you study to show yourself approved not preach yourself approved God will take He will knit that Word together inside of your heart regardless if you can get it with this or not your heart will and the Holy Spirit and your spirit become one and they link together and you become flesh of His flesh and bone of His bone and you start to see the things that God loves you start to see the things that God hates God hates sin because it separates people from Him you can have a Christian confession believe that one day you are going to go to heaven when you die confess with your mouth, believe in your heart that you shall be saved you can bring Jesus into your heart and hold back your life Jesus didn’t say he wanted your heart, He said He wanted your life so I didn't know this but I saw Dan and he was surrendered it was amazing so that night I called, dealers not there girlfriend is "Get in the car I hate you I hate you", screaming at me at the top of her lungs I pull out of the parking lot I lose them I go down the back streets I go onto East Maple Street, New York Pennsylvania, pick up this dealer tell him I am a cop rip him off tell him to get out of my car and he gets out of the car and I hit the gas and he unloaded a 9mm at me from 10 feet away I was right there it was in my back window and a voice said "I took those bullets for you. Are you ready to live for me yet?" For real. None of you were there "Well I wasn't there" you didn't want to be there but I was there and I am the one that got shot at and I am the one that heard that voice and it was tormenting me I go home that night I smoked all you think that is enough no I smoked all the drugs tried to make this voice go away and every time I took a hit that voice killed my buzz all night long. I am going nuts because it was real cocaine from New York city the taste, everything, the frenzy, all of it my endorphins cranking. No high. "I took those bullets for you." "Shut up" I am trying to get high all night long I get home in my driveway and pull in go outside of my car with a flash light and there is not one bullet hole in my car. A voice banging "I took those bullets for you" I go up to my door and my girlfriend says "Get out I hate you" and my daughters screaming. I left three days later I I am going to be in Teen Challenge but the next day I called my friend Bobby and I said "Hey bro man, I went out last night, man I got shot at" he goes "No way" he goes "Are you in the hospital?" I said "No man" I said "It's the craziest thing" and I shared this story. I didn't know it was a testimony I just thought it was a story and I said to him I said "Dude this guy unloaded a 9mm" he goes "Did you get hit at all?" I said "not even my vehicle, from 10 feet away" he said "that guy was a bad shot" I said "Bobby it was right outside of my window man. I watched, you know when a gun blast goes off in the middle of the night in the dark and it's a 9mm do you understand it is like lightening. Echo and that voice killed the ringing from the gun blast and I am telling him he said "Man that guy was a bad shot man" I said "Well I have decided man today, that I am going to this rehab bro" he is like "What do you mean?" he goes "Oh good for you, you need help" I said "I do need help man, I can't do this by myself” he goes "Man I have been trying to help you but you need to go get some professional help" I said "Man I am going to get some professional help" I said "I am going to this rehab called Teen Challenge" he goes "But you are not a teenager" I said "I know they accept all ages". I was 34. I am 46. I said to him "I have got to go to this thing" I said "and there is a catch man. I am not allowed to talk to you while I am in there" he said "that is cool man, I will be here for you, it's only like 28 days" I said "No its 12 months". He goes "What! Why would you go to a rehab for 12, what kind of a rehab is 12 months?" I said "They don't talk about drugs, they don't talk about any..." I have been through the 12 step programs, I have been through them man it made me want to use say "Hi my name is Todd and I am an alcoholic" What do I do? I fight alcohol. "Hi my name is Todd and I am a recovering addict. What do I do? I fight addiction" Well I can't fight addiction, I am not strong enough to fight addiction. The 12 steps, if the first step is finding your higher power and you become your higher power that is an issue. You put your, You "I will be my higher power" Great, my friend will be my, they don't have a higher power your accountability partner can't keep you accountable "Well no they are my sponsor" OK I get it but what good is it man, "I am going to use man" "Man you don't need to use man, you can do this lets go through these steps". "OK alright, I am going to use" That is how I was my whole life man. How many people have ever been through addiction and that's the nature of it. How many people have gone to meetings and wanted to use as soon as you left? Only four? How many of you Yeah, come on come on Yay. So the deal is is that like I wanted to use so I am telling Bobby "Listen man I have got to go and learn about Jesus" he goes "What do you mean?" I said "Well this program it doesn't you don't talk about drugs you talk about Jesus" "Why would you go and learn about why would you go and learn about somebody that's not real?" I go "Whoa bro what are you talking about? Dude I am telling you this guy he knows Jesus, that God spared my life like" "No, no, no, you, the guy was a bad shot, you heard voices" "You don't understand Jesus is real" "Why would you go?" "Well listen" I said "Well dude I am going away for 12 months and I am not allowed to talk to you" "Why can't you talk to me?" I said "Because I am not allowed to have any contact with the outside" he is like "No, this is stupid" I said "It may be stupid man but you are more of a dad than I have ever been and I can't do this to my daughter no more she deserves better than this I should be dead, I have got to give up" he said "What are you giving up to? Dude you are going to go away and find out that you are going to learn about somebody that is not real you are going to waste 12 months of your life". I am like "No, man I am going to know Him will you do me a favor?" he says "What?" I said "Will you be here when I get out, so we can play music?" he says "Yes" he says "I will" I said "Man, thank you so much man. I am going to go learn about Jesus” he goes "Man you are going to find out that He is not real. Listen I believe in you I don't believe in this Jesus" and I said "Why not?" he goes "Todd if Jesus was real don't you think your life would of been a little bit different. If He was real, I mean you are a good person don't you think your life would be different? Todd let's face it every Christian has this same thing He is a crutch and they hide inside the churches and they point the finger and think they are better than people" I said "That is not how this dude is" he said "Well I don't want to meet him I know you" I said "Well man when I get back I am going to talk about Jesus" he goes "Well, you are going to go and find out that He is not real" I said "Can we get together man, hang out before I go?' and he is like he is like "Man we can't I have got this, like I have got this to do and this and this" I said "Well I will call you right before I take off" he is like "OK". So the third day three days later when I am going to Teen Challenge I called him and I left a message on his answering machine I said "Bro let me just tell you something man I love you so much man I am going to go and find out about Jesus and when I come back I am going to sing about Jesus because I know he is real, I just I, I need to find out like, who He really is, He is going to show me the end says He is going to show me and I am going to open the Bible even though I can't read and I leave this message on this thing and "I love you man" you know and then the answer I go up to Teen Challenge and I am there I submit, I surrender, lose my girl lose my daughter everything because I cannot do this anymore. You know where the devil is resisted? The devil is resisted in your submission. It is not submit to God that you fight the devil no, it's submit to God and the devil is resisted but when you say you submit to God, do you surrender all and you take His Word and you elevate it to where Jesus did. Listen, you can't fight the devil you think you can fight the devil get behind me satan, that doesn't work you have to know the Truth so when the devil comes you don't listen to him anymore but I have no idea but Dan does and so I am lost man but now I am found because I gave up so I went up to Teen Challenge, I am in there I am submitted to God I surrendered all I did it is the one step program. You can't find out who you really are, until you submit to the one that created you I don't understand except I give up I am done. So I am up in Teen Challenge three days later I get a phone call here is the phone call I come down in the office and the counsellor looks at me and he goes "Todd your pastor is on the phone" and he has got this face like "You need to sit down" I go "Oh my gosh" I owed so much money to drug dealers I thought that Jackie or Destiny, my daughter or my girlfriend got killed. Why? Because I owed so much money with drug addiction comes like, stealing and all that stuff I owed so much man and all of a sudden like I have got this fear inside that someone has killed that I caused my family that, that, that I have ruined to die I am like "What happened?" I said "Don't tell me, what happened to Jackie what happened to Destiny?" he says "It's not Jackie, it's not Destiny it's Bobby". I said "What happened?” he said "Bobby had a brain aneurysm" I said "What is that?" he said "A blood vessel burst in his brain and he is in a coma" I go "You are kidding me" he goes "No" Hear the day that I called and left that message on Bobbies answering machine that day on the floor in the kitchen he had a brain aneurysm. Now he is my best friend he is the only one that stood by me besides Dan he is it like, in the midst of that wreck "I love you it's all about you" and I thought to myself "No". No, I screamed I ran upstairs I ran into the prayer room, I didn't run out the front door I went up, I said "Why!? No! I am crying and the Spirit of God said "You are not going anywhere" and I said peace hit me for the first time in my life and I stayed in Teen Challenge and I was there and I submitted I couldn't help Bobby anyway I had to surrender I gave up. So two months later I have these three nights where I have encounters with Jesus and He really sets me free you guys know the testimony I go home and help with the church then I go to my house and my girlfriend comes out of the house I told her how sorry I was and I tell my daughter she says "I know you are, when you went away I gave my life to Jesus". It's powerful and we got married four days later I mean it's amazing. But the day after the day after we got married I hear in my heart go up and visit Bobby. So my best friend in the whole world I go up and he is in a convalescent home in a place up in Crosskeys in a brethren home and his skull is bulging out his brain because they had to cut away because he is in a coma he is a vegetable there is no coming back I don't understand healing I do understand this that I knelt at his bed and I said "Bro, I am so sorry I brought Destiny my daughter with me because she knows him he was like a best friend I said "I am so sorry man" and I looked at his wife I said "I am sorry" she said "For what? Why are you sorry you didn't do this" I said "I know but, but Jesus..." she goes "Jesus! Look at my husband and you are going to tell me that there's a Jesus! You are kidding me. Shut your mouth" I said "I can't" She runs in the corner, she puts her hands on her hip like this I am holding his hand he didn't go he didn't squeeze my hand dead stared, done, comatosed and all of a sudden for 30 seconds of my life all the hypocrisy "Hey man Jesus loves you" like it is not a big deal. It is a big deal. Why is it a big deal? Because I was Bobbies only friend I was the only one that he would listen to the only one "I need you to go meet Dan dude, this guy is amazing" "I don't want to meet him you are my friend”. I was the only one, he wouldn't talk to anybody I was like I was his only, he was like a hermit just a quiet guy family guy loved his family, loved his kids he is not home right now and I said "Dude I am sorry man, I am sorry I am sorry and I am singing loud in the hospital not to get glory but to bring glory to the King and share how sorry I am, he didn't wink he didn't do anything and Betty is covering her ears my daughter is bawling profusely and I held his hand and I said "I will never be a hypocrite again” but it was too late for him too late for him and I left that day and I went home and I went and held my wife and told her and I don't understand healing stuff, none of it none all I know is I was lost, now I am found I was blind now I see but as I lived and walked blind as I lived and walked lost with a confession my best friend said "I don't believe in Jesus, I believe in you" but life is a gift but life is here you are here today and gone tomorrow it is not like you are here today for a certain listen no one knows and next morning I get a phone call Bobby died he died saying "I, hey, I don't believe in Jesus but I believe in you". I am not guilty this isn't shame or condemnation that you see. The next day after that the wife called me Betty says "Todd you were Bobby's only friend he would have wanted you to speak at his funeral" Oh no God what am I going to do? She said "Just think about it OK and call me back" I get off the phone and I told my wife I said "They want me to speak at Bobby's funeral" she goes "Oh what are you going to do?" I said "I was his only friend". So I called Betty back I said "I'll, I'll do it, I don't know what I am going to say" she goes "It doesn't matter just come". So they planned the funeral I get there it is a small funeral because he didn't know a lot of people, it was just family all unsaved, unchurched, no Jesus at all and here I am, the band members that quit are there, sobbing man and our buddy his shell is behind me in the casket and he is right here but he is not here and I watched his kids come up his three-and-a-half-year-old kid little daughter. Mommy holding the daughter "Daddy wake up". The pastor, whoever it was doing the funeral "This was Bobby's only friend he is going to speak today" I come up there all night long God just spoke to me about what it means to be a friend I wasn't Bobby's friend I wasn't because I didn't know that God was my friend. See friendship and the world you find out who your friends are if you go to prison no one comes to visit you games over, you are a party. you're a buzz kill I don't want to go there whatever you get out "Hey bro, what's up?" Oh come on. What does a friend do? A friend lays his life down for his friend you know why? You know why? Because that is what Jesus would do. So I preached at his funeral, first time I wasn't a friend, I watched that little kid "Daddy wake up". I had to tell them "Kids there is only one name under heaven His name is Jesus and your daddy died telling me that he believed in me but he didn't believe in Jesus and I misrepresented Jesus to your daddy". Pretty much I had to tell the kids their daddy's in hell do you understand how horrible that is you say well that was mean to do to the kids I can't lie I lied my whole life and I was losing it so bad and the pastor came up and he did an altar call and half the funeral home got saved. Listen here is the deal you think it is not a big deal when you sit there and you call grace this or that it is a big deal to me because I didn't understand it but grace isn't a license to sin you know why? Because Jesus grace and Truth came through Jesus and He paid a price for you to be clean He paid a price for you to live Holy not in your own strength because of the strength of Holy Spirit He paid a price for you to walk a life, live a life worthy of the Gospel He paid a price for you to purify yourself even as He is pure and you can't do it in your own strength you need God you need God you need God I know that you all have Bobby's in your life everybody does everybody does and I am really sorry if you are here and the church has hurt you and you got mad at the church and stuff but I promise you what I am preaching right now is authentic and I am not the best preacher in the world but I do know Him and He is and I am telling you, you don't have to be a hypocrite any more. Ever, again. Ever. So here is the deal some of you are mad at God some of you are hurt by the church, some of you think that God did stuff that He never did some of you are here last night and you heard this and you heard that, whatever but some of you have blamed God for things that God never did the thief comes to steal, kill and destroy, not God the thief God is a good God, all good gifts come from the Father of lights that means the bad ones come from another one some of you have been so hurt by the church that you don't want nothing to do with the church if the shoe fits, kick it off some of you don't know who God is as a Father and it has been an amazing conference but it will be sad for you to leave here not knowing Him so if you don't know God I would like you to come up here right now, please. If you don't know God now would be a great time If you don't know God I need you up here right now I need you to move to the front. Who else? Come on listen, if you have been wrapped up in religion but you really don't know God and you are tired of living as a hypocrite you are tired of it I want you to come up here right now come on get up here let's not play let's do this. Have I got that dude on the keys? can someone come play keys the guy that's the worship, Zac? Is that his name Zac? Is he outside? OK. Is Jeremiah here? It's late. I know. I will play keys. Zac I need you bro, come on appreciate you buddy man all we’re saying is I don't want to be a hypocrite no more I want to live full on for Jesus I wouldn't leave right now because we are going to pray for healing in just a couple of minutes it will be amazing I promise. If you are living a life of hypocrisy and you want to be done I need you to come up here now. "I don't want to move, people will know" God already knows why be exposed like to sin, why not just get rid of that thing, kick it to the curb and this isn't a call this isn't a call that you be embarrassed and ashamed this is a call to be be forgiven and shame be kicked out the door this is beautiful come on guys if you are in this, I need you up here you come forward a little more because people are coming I need everybody in here that would say I have been living a life secret there is just stuff behind the closed doors I have been hiding praise God I have been hiding this thing, God sees your sin are you kidding me? Why not be free from that come on how many of you have Bobby's in your life? Come on nobody, you all need different friends you need more friends friends that aren't saved so you can make an impact on their life no shame say I am done. Hey proud of you man. Love you bro, give me some. Jesus. Real grace empowers you to walk out what real Truth calls you to. Real Truth real Truth is only empowered by the Spirit of Truth the Spirit of Grace and Truth came through Jesus so I want all of you that aren't hypocrites stretch out your hands. See I, I completely believe that God will mark you and sear you and change your life forever so there doesn't have to be a Bobby in your life people are like, you have shared this testimony before it's still surreal this thing marked my life forever God marked me and for 30 seconds I was condemned when I looked into Bobby's eyes and I realized all the times that I told him Jesus loves him and backed it up with getting high and all the time you know Jesus doesn't want us to do witnessing he wants us to be a witness and a life that is free pure religion is this caring for orphans and widows what is an orphan? It is the child, it's the children that don't have parents but let me tell you an orphan is the church that doesn't know the Father. What is a widow? It's true it's a woman that's husbands past away and doesn't have a husband but it is the bride that doesn't know that she is married and what is keeping yourself unspotted from the world? Keeping yourself unspotted from the world. Clean, why would Jesus tell us that if it wasn't possible? Why would a person like Peter say be Holy as He is Holy? a person that denied Jesus how could he say that? He could say that because the revelation of sonship had dawned in Peters heart and he was revealed by the Father to him when the Holy Spirit came. You are my Son in whom I am well pleased what would it be like for you to wake up right with God knowing that you are Gods kid that He is well pleased with every day you would stop listening to the devil lying to you that is what is going to happen OK are you ready? Hey all all God is asking you for is everything you are all He is asking you for is to surrender to something that you were never created to be in the first place because God didn't create you for you, he created you for Him so all He is asking you for is what something that doesn't belong to you anyway and what do you get in return? Like you trade this life which really is not awesome at all for His life it's like here is some a lot of trash for the most amazing jewels, the most amazing gold, the most amazing life ever Jesus said abundant life have it abundantly see what is happening is Jesus is going to crown you because he loves to it says that we in this life should reign as kings through the free gift of righteousness and the abundance of grace being right with God God looks at you He says you are a royal priesthood a holy nation set apart it is what He calls us royal priesthood Holy nation royalty and holy it is not blasphemy that’s biblically so to say this look we have had like, this whole conference has been like heart surgery I love it, Jesus is like so awesome say this Lord God I am done living for me I just surrender all I surrender all I commit to a life of continual repentance I commit to this pure heart that you have given me and these clean hands that you say I can have I commit to admitting that I am poor in spirit and that you are my teacher and you say that if I say I am poor in spirit mine is the Kingdom of God I commit to seeking first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness and everything will be added to me I will not position myself to get stuff I will not just go after the gifts I want to know the giver I want to know you Holy Spirit in Jesus name Amen. Yay. Proud of you OK here is what we are going to do. Yay Jesus look at you dude He is wrecking you from the inside out. Wow! You know now you can just rebel against sin it is awesome OK so here is the deal we want people healed if you don't believe doesn't matter what you believe God wants you healed I want to talk about healing just for a second and then we are going to pray for each other you guys are going to help me pray all you all too OK it's great like and little kids they don't get a junior Holy Spirit well we have seen that this week right? OK so here is the deal with healing I just want to go over a couple of things alright people are taught constantly in different places that if you get prayer just believe that you are healed confess that you are healed and don't lose that confession that you are healed I understand that I want to believe with you for that but here is the deal teach people that they are not supposed to ask for prayer and they are still hurting I have been at meetings and they are like “Does anybody need prayer?” I have watched everybody hobble out of the church like this "What are you doing?” "I am healed brother, praise God by His stripes I am healed" I agree that is what the Bible says but we need the manifestation of that healing so James 5:14 says this Is any of you sick? Let him call and ask for prayer. Let him ask for prayer, it is not wrong to ask it is not listen I don't care if you have been prayed for 100 times it is not wrong to ask again, we are like that lady in court I need justice I want what He paid for I want this thing to go I need healing I am waiting for the body of Christ to get this like it is so crazy someone comes up to somebody and says "Hey can you pray for me for healing?" "Well you know you need more faith" Jesus never told that to anybody He never said get some more faith, come back and we will deal with it then He never said well you know what, it is just not God's time if it was His time you would get healed Jesus never told that to anybody do you know that Isaiah Isaiah said way back 700 years before Jesus was even here that by His stripes you are healed, so you know that 1 Peter 2:24 says that by His stripes you were healed so somewhere between you are and you were, you is. First of all when we pray for people this is a big deal we want to know what is Gods will? How do you determine Gods will? God's will is not determined because you prayed for somebody and they didn't get healed God's will is determined by the life of Jesus Jesus only came to do the will of God sometimes people believe that sickness is from God to teach people a lesson I hear it all the time listen Jesus came to only do the will of God so if God made people sick and Jesus healed them He would have been going against His Father a house divided can't stand can't. Jesus said in John 5:19 the Son can do nothing of Himself and that word means nothing absolutely zilch, nothing I can do nothing by myself what I do I do because the Father does it and what the Father does the Son does in like manner. Now when Jesus prayed for the sick He didn't heal the sick as God He healed the sick as a man in right relationship with God filled with God. He had to do what He did as a man because the law had to be walked out by a man in order to fulfill the covenant that God made with man and God Jesus was tempted at all points yet without sin this would be a bad time for you to walk out don’t you let your pride separate you from something that God wants to do in and through you don't you let pride separate you from God don't you think and be haughty in your heart and think well this is blasphemy read your Bible and ask the Holy Spirit to reveal it to you instead of studying doctrines that people have made up at the cost of Truth and that sets people free Jesus wants to use you the Holy Spirit is still alive and active the disciples walked with Jesus nowhere in the Bible does it say it died you can make the Bible say whatever you want listen people try to tell me that and I have seen thousands of people healed and there are hundreds of people that should be dead right now and that are alive because I didn't drop the ball on this thing I am going to go after this with everything I am regardless of what people think I have been in a hospital room "Well praise God, you know if He wants to He will" I said "He wants to" "Well who do you think you are?" in a hospital room to a guy that is in a coma because I know because God has done it, He loves us we don't do the Christian thing and say "Well if there had been more faith in the room maybe he would have got up" where is your faith? The Bible says these signs will follow them that believe in My Name they will lay hands on the sick and the sick shall recover I am waiting for believers to get to this place and you pray for them and they don't get healed and then all of a sudden they look at you and they say "I really need help I need you to stand in faith for me" "Well you need more faith" no the Bible says that these signs shall follow them that believe I am struggling with my belief, where is your belief at? Come on, pray for me and make me better. That would be scary that is actually what the Bible says. So Jesus didn't heal as God He healed as a man in right relationship with God because of agency of God the Holy Spirit the Holy Spirit through Jesus Your Kingdom come Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven He said Your Kingdom come. Where? Here. What is the Kingdom? Romans 14:17 defines it and says the kingdom of God is not meat and drink but righteousness, and peace, and joy in the Holy Ghost so Jesus says when they say here is the Kingdom there there it is there don't look here, there for I tell you the Kingdom is within you and that word "within" actually means in the midst of so it is in you, upon you, around you and it is in the Holy Spirit seek first the Kingdom and His righteousness means seek first the relationship with Holy Spirit that you have and God's government that rules and reigns from inside of you through agency of Holy Spirit, Christ in you the hope of Glory. I am saying all that just to lay this down so that when we pray for people you know where it is coming from you are not a healer don't you try to take glory for it don't you let it go to your head and think "Yes I am the guy that healed that guy I am the guy" listen especially with kids I love to teach kids because it is like putting dynamite in people’s hands people will say "Wow you are amazing" “Well that wasn't me that was Jesus” and then just a little while later "Yes of course I can pray for you" and all of a sudden it is happening and you think that God has called you to ministry what if God just calls you a Christian and that is normal. Here is what I have to say right after this and then we are going to pray it says in Timothy I think it's I think it's 1 Timothy 3:12 it says all those that desire to live godly will suffer persecution you will get persecuted for this thing if you are in a church that doesn't believe in this and you have tried this out in your church might not be a good idea but you can be out in town and at Walmart and at grocery stores and God will flow through you and word will get back to your church and they will confront you do not be haughty and tell them they are wrong and you are right you be humble and you love God with all your heart and you submit to the head of your church don't just bail on them and say "Well you don't want to believe my way I will go somewhere where they want to" No, we are not supposed to bail on our church bail on our brothers you love Jesus with all your heart and you pray for people in public no one can stop you but if your head says don't do that here honor the head man don't tell him you are wrong and I am right, now I know the truth that's that's pride it is a big deal people get really upset at this thing because I promise you that God is going to use you promise you, He will He is going to give you words of knowledge He is going to touch people through you He is amazing He is do you get it? So when we pray it is God that flows through us but always God gets the glory kind of like that donkey that I shared yesterday we are just carrying the King we are a messenger to deliver the package but it all points to the one who paid the price to have it delivered right OK enough, let's pray ready? OK everybody that has any sickness or any disease in your body what so ever here is what I am telling you you believe that by His stripes you are healed I get it, I am with you on page but we want the manifestation of that healing to happen you have been prayed for once and you have been taught it is not faith if you get prayed for again that is not true you are saying I have something here that I want to go I know the Bible says that it needs to go I haven't seen it go would you join me so we can kick this thing to the curb. Why would you not want to give Jesus the full reward for His suffering He didn't just suffer to get you to heaven He paid a price to get heaven into you so you could be possessed and walk with the kingdom flowing through you constantly destroying hell for a living it is where heaven becomes my destination, not my mission my mission is not to get to heaven my mission is to destroy the works of the devil 1 John 3:8 and then one day I am going to enter into glory but I believe that as we walk out the reality of the call of Christianity in our life we are going to see heaven populated heaven filled and hell empty Amen. If you have got any kind of pain sickness, disease I don't care what it is whatever it is if you have got pain it's qualified it needs to go if you have got arthritis if you have got problems at all I want you right now to stand to your feet I don't care who you are, where you are at come on let's do this. OK OK people who are standing raise one arm raise your good arm alright people who are around them I want you to gather around and I want you to put your hand on their shoulder come on this is the time where you don't have to come to the guy on the stage because the man of power for the hour is done it has been done it is not about the dude on the stage it is about Christ now listen, it is about Christ in us the hope of glory so what we are going to do is we are just going to gather round our brothers and sisters right now when somebody is around you put your hand down if somebody has got their hand on you they are going to pray for you put your hand down if somebody is around you and they are praying for you put your hand down Jesus I pray that they hear me right now and you open their ears OK, here is what we are going to do it's easy if somebody is sick the easiest thing to do when you pray if it is a neck you say "Neck be healed in Jesus name" if it is a knee "Knee be healed in Jesus name" it's not your prayer that heals the sick it's faith prayer doesn't heal the sick your prayer doesn't heal the sick He does do you understand? So watch it is easy we will just start we will just do this everybody say this "In the name of Jesus head be healed headaches go ears be opened eyes see throat be healed shoulder be healed neck be loosed brand new discs lungs be healed hearts be healed organs be healed elbows be healed wrists be healed hips be healed herniated discs be made whole sciatic nerve be loosed diabetes get out hemopathy go all numbness and tingling go hips, knees ankles in the name of Jesus right now be healed every joint be healed right now digestive disease acid reflux get out right now ulcers go colitis go crohn's disease go healing in Jesus name from the top of our head to the bottom of our feet right now in Jesus name terminal diseases get out" I want everybody in this house right now I want everybody to check your body physically whatever it was wrists, ankles now I am talking whatever it was bend, check, ankles, knees, squat check, check your shoulders, move your neck around check right now everybody if there is any change in your physical body right now I want you to wave both hands over your head right now pretty good for starters now put your hand on somebody besides you I want you to ask that person what they need prayer for you heard how it happens neck be healed back, whatever it is I want you to command that thing to be healed in Jesus name in the name of Jesus you are not the healer but He is and He lives in you and He wants to have His way in and through you if you are a man do not put your hand on a woman's lower back don't don't put your hand on a woman's belly unless it is your wife or your kid be very careful Jesus more Father I thank You for more in the name of Jesus right now, more healing, wholeness in Jesus name in Jesus name every cell be healed Jesus name. Bless you man. Jesus name healing wholeness right now Jesus name OK right now I want you to check everybody I want you to check your body right now if there is change I want both hands over your head to celebrate if you have got physical change in your body wave both your hands over your head. Now I want everybody in this place to find somebody to pray for everybody in this place I need you to find somebody else to pray for right now come on help me out. Come on guys. Keith Keith Keith Mitzall where are you? Come on guys I need you to pray for somebody please don't look to me. Come on. Come on. When you are starting to have healing happen in your body I want you to celebrate it's a great victory. If you are seeing break through it's great victory. Hey look at me I want you to head over there to that corner right there right there Keith take him back take him back and talk to him there you go, good. Come on guys find somebody to pray for now is not the time for you to come to me I need you guys as the body of Christ right now to look to each other right now come on I am not being mean love you too thank you bless you Amen Thank you bless you little buddy bless you man Jesus thank you for brand new thinking everybody's mind transformed in the name of Jesus God thank you in Jesus name in Jesus name brand new minds in Jesus name Jesus name freedom in Jesus name Jesus name freedom soul be free, in Jesus name freedom in Jesus name freedom freedom in Jesus name freedom freedom be free in Jesus name let him go in Jesus name get out in Jesus name I command bi polar disorder to get out I command schizophrenia to get out I command learning disorders to get out ADHD get out in Jesus name in Jesus name fire in Jesus name freedom in Jesus name come on if you have got break through going on at all in your body since we started tonight I want you to give a big shout and raise your hands to Jesus if you have healing going on right now come on come on I want you to find somebody keep praying right now find somebody to pray for Jesus come on guys we are the body of Christ you are over equipped you are over ready you are well done you are not rare, you are well done Jesus do it God I thank You in the name of Jesus do it God come on guys find somebody to pray for William William find somebody to pray for right now please please don't look to me right now I need help from you guys find somebody to pray for come on just try out the equipment of the Holy Spirit He is yours He is yours Jesus thank You thank You thank You thank You, more God more Father I thank You for more in the name of Jesus God more Jesus We love you Jesus it is all about Jesus Jesus it's all about Jesus Jesus it's all about Jesus Jesus it's all about Jesus it's all about Jesus it's all about Jesus all about Jesus it's all about Jesus it's all about Jesus Jesus Jesus it's all about Jesus Jesus Jesus it's all about Jesus it's all about Jesus it's all about Jesus it's all about Jesus freedom freedom sing freedom freedom eyes to see ears to hear eyes to see ears to hear eyes to see ears to hear it's all about Jesus all about Jesus it's all about Jesus it's all about Jesus it's all about Jesus Jesus there is no sweeter name there is no sweeter name there is no sweeter name there is no sweeter name it's all about Jesus all about Jesus it's all about Jesus it's all about Jesus it's all about Jesus it's all about Jesus Sing for me sing about Jesus it’s good Father I thank You for more, in Jesus name God I thank You because there is no sweeter name, than the name of Jesus I lift You up God we lift You up we lift You high high high Jesus, Jesus, Jesus freedom, freedom, freedom, freedom Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Holy God Father I thank You for more in the name of Jesus come on guys find someone to pray for right now. Can you lead us in worship?

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