OKAY, GO TO PHILIPPIANS 4
TO THE WORD TO THE WORD
SO, I HAVE BEEN A CHRISTIAN FOR ELEVEN YEARS I KNOW A BUNCH OF YOU ALREADY KNOW I AM ELEVEN
YEARS OLD IN JESUS AND SO I AM HERE TO TAKE AWAY EVERY EXCUSE
THAT YOU MIGHT HAVE FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO LIVE OUT YOUR FAITH
THAT IS IT YOU KNOW WE SAY WE WANT TO GO TO CONFERENCES
AND WE WANT TO GO GET TRAINED UP AND EQUIPPED AND I KNOW IT IS A DISCIPLE MAKERS CONFERENCE
AND IT IS JUST SO AWESOME AND WE TALKED ABOUT THE REALITY OF DISCIPLE
IS ONE THAT CONTIUES IN THE WORD AND THE TRUTH THEY WILL KNOW THAT YOU ARE HIS DISCIPLES
BECAUSE OF YOUR LOVE FOR ONE ANOTHER YOU KNOW
AND SO THAT INVOLVES, NOT BACKBITING, NOT GETTING ATTITUDES WITH PEOPLE
THAT INVOLVES THE LOVE OF GOD GOD DID NOT SAY, I LOVE YOU, COME ON DO YOU
LOVE ME BACK SAY IT, HURRY UP OR I WILL FEEL INSECURE ABOUT
TELLING YOU GOD DID NOT SAY, I LOVE YOU, COME ON, DO YOU
LOVE ME, SAY IT THAT IS HOW WE GROW UP
WE GET TAUGHT THAT STUFF BY LIFE, BY ALL KINDS OF DIFFERENT STUFF
WHERE WE SAY IT IN ORDER TO GET SOMETHING FROM SOMEBODY
INSTEAD OF SAYING IT BECAUSE WE REALLY DO ARE YOU WITH ME
SO, DISCIPLE IS ONE WHO LOVES LIKE JESUS LOVES HOW MANY PEOPLE COULD LOVE LIKE JESUS LOVES
I MEAN, THE VERY PEOPLE HE CAME TO DIE FOR ARE RIPPING HIS FLESH APART AND SPITTING ON
HIM AND RIPPING HIS BEARD OUT
COME ON, BRING YOURSELF DOWN OFF OF THAT TREE THAT IS OUR JESUS
NOT EVEN FOR A SECOND CAN YOU IMAGINE HIM SAYING, FORGET IT
I AM OUT OF HERE I AM NOT GOING TO DIE FOR THEM
THEY DO NOT CARE ABOUT ME THAT IS NOT OUR KING AT ALL, RIGHT
YOU CANNOT EVEN THINK OF THAT THIS IS THE REALITY, GUYS
THAT GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD THAT HE GAVE SO, AS DISCIPLES, WE NEED TO BE GIVERS
RADICAL I AM NOT SAYING THAT FOR YOUR OFFERING
I AM SAYING THAT SO YOU CAN BE ONE YOUR LIFE SHOULD BE A DRINK OFFERING
YOU SHOULD BE POURED OUT BY GOD EVERY DAY YOU DO NOT NEED FOR SOMEONE TO PRAY FOR YOU
TO BE FILLED BACK UP YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND AND HAVE A CONNECTION
WITH THE FOUNTAIN ITSELF WHICH IS HIM
HE IS THE ONE HE IS MY FOUNTAIN
HE IS THE ONE WHO NEVER EVER RUNS DRY, EVER, EVER
HE DOES NOT JUST RUN OUT OF STUFF BURN OUT IS ILLEGAL IN THE KINGDOM
WE NEED TO BE IN REALATIONSHIP, BECAUSE HE LOVES US
HIS PERFUSE LOVE, AMAZING GRACE WHEN I WAS IN THE WORLD I HAD NO REST IN MY
SOUL MY SOUL WAS IN A PLACE OF TURMOIL
A PLACE OF CONSTANT SCRAMBLING TRYING TO FIND SOMETHING
SO, I TURNED TO DRUGS I TURNED TO EVERYTHING
I TURNED TO PORNOGRAPHY WHATEVER I COULD GET TO SATISFY ME INSIDE
OF HERE BUT, NOTHING COULD REALLY FILL THAT THING,
BECAUSE THAT THING IS ONLY FILLED THROUGH RELATIONSHIP
IT IS NOT EVEN FILLED THROUGH A CONFESSION A LOT OF TIMES WE THINK THAT CHRISTIANITY
IS JUST A CONFESSION LIKE I SAID EARLIER
JESUS DID NOT SAY, GO INTO ALL THE WORLD AND MAKE CONFESSING CHRISTIANS
HE SAID, GO INTO ALL THE WORLD AND MAKE DISCIPLES HE SAID TO BELIEVE IN YOUR HEART AND CONFESS
WITH YOUR MOUTH THAT JESUS IS LORD AND YOU WILL BE SAVED
BUT, HE DID NOT JUST SAY THAT IS WHERE IT STOPS
HE SAID IN MATTHEW 11:28 HE SAID, COME TO ME ALL OF YOU WHO ARE WEARY
AND BURDENED AND BROKEN DOWN AND WEIGHED DOWN BY LIFE
HE SAID, COME TO ME AND I WILL GIVE YOU REST SO, WE COME TO HIM AND HE FREELY GIVES US
REST AND WE ARE LIKE, YES
AND THAT DAY THAT YOU PRAYED THAT PRAYER ALL OF A SUDDEN THIS AMAZING LIFT OF ALL OF
THE SIN AND ALL OF THE JUNK THAT YOU HAD BEEN IN
YOUR CONVICTION CAME BOOM, IT IS LIFTED OFF AND THE WEIGHT GOT
LIFTED OFF OF YOU THAT IS NOT FIRST LOVE
WE HAVE TALKED ABOUT FIRST LOVE RETURN TO YOUR FIRST LOVE
IT IS NOT THE DAY THAT YOU GOT SAVED IT IS THE DAY THAT YOU KNEW THAT THE LORD
IS GOOD AND YOU TASTED AND HAVE SEEN THAT HE IS GOOD
BUT TASTING AND SEEING HIM IS NOT JUST A ONE TIME CONFESSION
IT IS A LIFE LIVED IN COVENANT RELATIONSHIP THROUGH A GOD THAT YOU TRUST
FOR A GOD THAT YOU ARE WILLING TO GIVE EVERYTHING THAT YOU ARE
BECAUSE, HE IS A GOD THAT GAVE EVERYTHING THAT HE WAS TO GET YOU BACK
HE CAME TO GIVE US PEACE TO SURPASS UNDERSTANDING IN ORDER TO HAVE THAT PEACE YOU HAVE TO GIVE
UP YOUR RIGHT TO UNDERSTAND IT IT IS CRAZY
HE GIVES US PEACE THAT SURPASSES KNOWLEDGE THE PEACE THAT GOD GAVE US
IS NOT SOMETHING THAT IS A MOMENTARY PEACE LISTEN
A LOT OF THE CHURCH WE COME TO JESUS
WE COME TO HIM AND SAY, GOD FORGIVE ME, AND HE DOES
HE FORGIVES YOU BUT THE REALITY IS
IS THAT HE SAID, COME TO ME ALL OF YOU WHO ARE BURDENED AND WEIGHED DOWN AND CRUSHED
BY LIFE COME TO ME AND I WILL GIVE YOU REST
AND THEN HE SAID, NOW NOW THAT YOU CAME TO ME AND I GAVE YOU THIS
THAT IS A FREE GIFT IT IS CALLED THE GIFT OF RIGHTEOUSNESS
WE HAVE BEEN GIVEN THE GIFT OF RIGHTEOUSNESS, BUT IN ORDER FOR US TO REIGN AS A KING IN
THIS LIFE THROUGHT THE FREE GIFT OF RIGHTEOUSNESS AND
THE ABUNDANCE OF GRACE YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND THE GIFT THAT YOU HAVE
BEEN GIVEN SO JESUS STANDING, HE SAYS IN MATTHEW 11:28
RIGHT AFTER THAT HE SAYS, AND TAKE MY YOKE UPON YOU
BECAUSE IT IS EASY MY YOKE IS EASY AND MY BURDEN IS LIGHT
COME TO ME, HE SAYS LEARN FROM ME, THEN HE SAYS
SO FIRST WE COME TO HIM WE SAY YES TO JESUS
BUT BECAUSE WE DO NOT WANT TO LEARN FROM HIM, WE WANT TO LEARN FROM SOMEBODY ELSE
AND WE ALLOW A TEACHER OR A PASTOR OR AN APOSTLE OR A PROPHET OR AN EVANGELIST
OR SOMEBODY ELSE IN THE FIVE FOLD GIFT, TO BE OUR TEACHER INSTEAD OF HOLY SPIRIT IN A
RELATIONSHIP WITH JESUS SO, THEREFORE WE CANNOT MAINTAIN REST FOR
OUR SOUL BUT, JESUS SAYS, IF YOU LEARN FROM ME, I AM
MEEK AND LOWLY AND GENTLE LEARN FROM ME
MY YOKE IS EASY MY BURDEN IS LIGHT
AND YOU WILL FIND REST FOR YOUR SOUL THAT IS WHERE WE NEED TO BE, BODY OF CHRIST
THAT IS WHERE WE NEED TO LIVE THAT IS WHERE I HAVE LIVED FOR ELEVEN YEARS
AND PEOPLE HAVE TOLD ME TODD, YOU ARE JUST AND ENIGMA
YOU ARE JUST DIFFERENT YOU ARE NOT LIKE
LIKE THIS IS NOT NORMAL, WHAT IS ON YOUR LIFE I DO NOT BELIEVE THAT
I BELIEVE THAT MY PURSUIT HAS BEEN DIFFERENT THAN A LOT OF PEOPLE'S PURSUITS
SEE, I FOUND IN MY BIBLE THAT IF I SEEK FIRST THE KINGDOM OF GOD AND HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS
THEN ALL THINGS THAT I MIGHT HAVE BEEN PRAYING ABOUT WOULD HAVE BEEN ADDED TO ME
IF I JUST SOUGHT THAT FIRST BUT, INSTEAD OF SEEKING THAT FIRST, WE SEEK
THINGS AND STUFF AND THIS IS IN ORDER AND THIS IS IN ORDER
BUT, NONE OF THOSE THINGS BEING IN ORDER GIVE YOU REST
RIGHT STANDING WITH GOD IS THE END ALL ANSWER FOR EVERYTHING
AND HE SAID, SEEK HIM FIRST MAN, JUST LIKE WHEN YOU WAS READING TODAY
WHEN YOU WERE READING ABOUT YOU KNOW YOU DO NOT NEED TO REMIND GOD ABOUT
THE THINGS THAT YOU NEED WE DO NOT HAVE TO TELL HIM ABOUT THE THINGS
THAT WE NEED HE ALREADY KNOWS
I DO NOT HAVE TO SET MY PRAYER LIST BEFORE GOD AND SAY THESE ARE ALL THE THINGS I NEED
WE HAVE THESE SCRIPTURES YOU KNOW YOU HAVE NOT BECAUSE YOU ASK NOT
AND SOMETIMES IT GET TWISTED AND WEIRD AND WE THINK WE HAVE GOT TO ASK GOD FOR, LIKE
HE DOES NOT KNOW OR HE DOES NOT UNDERSTAND
NO, HE UNDERSTANDS HE SEES EVERYTHING
ASK, IT SAYS, AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE SEEK AND YOU WILL FIND
KNOCK AND THE DOOR WILL BE OPENED FOR EVERYONE WHO ASKS RECEIVES
COME ON HE WHO SEEKS, FINDS
TO HE WHO KNOCKS, THE DOOR WILL BE OPENED AND HE SAYS, FOR WHICH ONE OF YOU
SOMETIMES WE GET IT CONFUSED WITH STUFF, WITH THINGS
WITH FINANCES WITH HOUSES, WITH CARS, WITH ALL OF THAT STUFF,
MAN IT GETS REALLY MESSED UP
AND SOMETIMES THAT WHOLE PROSPERITY THING, IT STARTS TO CREEP IN
INSTEAD OF THE REALITY OF BEING IN GOOD HEALTH AND AS YOUR SOUL PROSPERS
SO, INSTEAD OF SEEKING AFTER YOUR SOUL PROSPERITY, WE ARE SEEKING AFTER PROSPERITY THIS WAY
IT NEVER COMES THAT WAY EVER
NO, IT IS ABOUT PROSPERITY OF SOUL WHAT HAPPENS
RIGHT STANDING WITH GOD IS EVERYTHING WHAT IF YOU ACTUALLY HAD PEACE WITH GOD
WHAT IF YOU SET YOUR MIND ON WHAT GOD SAID TO SET YOUR MIND ON
WHAT IF YOU SET YOUR MIND ON THINGS ABOVE WHAT IF IN PHILIPPIANS 4, HE SAYS, THINK UPON
THESE THINGS THINGS THAT ARE NOBLE, TRUSTWORTHY
ALL THESE AMAZING, HE GIVES US THIS LIST ARE YOU WITH ME
YOU SAY, WHAT DOES THIS HAVE TO DO WITH IT HAS EVERYTHING TO DO
I HAVE LIVED FOR ELEVEN YEARS WITH PEACE I HAVE LIVED IN REST FOR ELEVEN YEARS
I HAVE LIVED IN REST I HAVE PEACE
LIKE, NO MATTER WHERE I GO, I HAVE PEACE IT SURPASSES EVERYTHING
IT IS MY EVERYTHING HE, JESUS IS MY NUMBER ONE ANSWER
YOU KNOW, GOD SAID, IN PAST DAYS HE SPOKE TO THE FATHERS THROUGH THE PROPHETS
BUT, IN THESE LAST DAYS, GOD HAS SPOKEN TO US
WELL, WHAT DID HE SAY GOD, HAS SPOKEN TO US BY HIS SON
SO, THE NAME OF JESUS IS THE THING THAT GOD SPOKE
WELL, WHAT DOES JESUS MEAN IS IT JUST TO GET TO HEAVEN
NO IT IS SO THAT HEAVEN CAN GET INTO YOU
IT IS SO THAT THE REALITY OF THAT REST THAT WE HAVE BEEN SEARCHING FOR
AND SEEKING AFTER HIS NAME IS JESUS
MAN, DO NOT SAY THAT JESUS IS NOT ENOUGH DO NOT SAY THAT HE IS NOT YOUR ANSWER
HE IS YOU HAVE THESE CHILDREN WHO ARE OUT THERE
IN THE WILDERNESS AND THEY ARE OUT THERE FOR FORTY YEARS
WHAT WOULD HAVE TAKEN THEM ELEVEN DAYS IT TOOK THEM FORTY YEARS
AND NOT EVEN THEY WENT IN, BUT THEIR CHILDREN AND THEY GRUMBLED AND COMPLAINED AND THEY
WERE CONSTANTLY COMPLAINING ABOUT WHAT THEY DID NOT HAVE
YET, THEY HAD COME ON
THEY HAD THAT BREAD EVERY MORNING BOOM, RIGHT OUTSIDE THE TENT, BANG, RIGHT
THERE BOOM, RIGHT THERE
THAT ROCK FOLLOWED THEM AROUND THE WILDERNESS
THAT ROCK WAS CHRIST GUESS WHAT THE MANNA WAS, MAN
THAT MANNA WAS JESUS HE IS THE BREAD THAT CAME DOWN FROM HEAVEN
JESUS IS THE BREAD DON'T FIND YOURSELF AS A CHRISTIAN,
AND THINKING, JESUS IS NOT ENOUGH BECAUSE YOU WILL LIVE IN A PLACE YOU ARE NOT
SUPPOSED TO INSTEAD OF ENTERING IN TO THE PROMISE OF HIS
REST AND I HAVE LIVED IN THAT PLACE FOR ELEVEN
YEARS AND I HAVE TRIED TO DECRIBE IT, AHHH
TRIED TO DECRIBE IT FOR ELEVEN YEARS I HAVE LIVED IN THAT
THERE IS NOTHING THAT CAN REPLACE IT NO RELATIONSHIP, NO CHILD, NO WIFE, NO NOTHING
BECAUSE LIFE JUST KEEPS COMING, BANG, BANG AND WITHOUT YOU LIVING IN THE REST THAT HE
PAID A PRICE FOR YOU TO LIVE IN NOT JUST COMING TO HIM SO THAT HE COULD GIVE
IT TO YOU BUT LEARNING FROM HIM, SO THAT YOU CAN MAINTAIN
IT THERE IS NOTHING THAT CAN REPLACE THAT
YOU KNOW, IN THE OLD TESTAMENT, IN ORDER TO GET REST, YOU HAD TO ATTAIN RIGHTEOUSNESS
AND IN ORDER TO DO THAT, YOU HAD TO WALK OUT SIX HUNDRED AND THIRTEEN LAWS AND TEN COMMANDMENTS
IN ORDER TO DO IT IN YOUR OWN STRENGTH SO, GOD HAD MERCY ON THEM
AND HE SAID, WELL, THEY CANNOT DO IT THERE IS NO WAY
HE HAD MERCY ON THEM IT IS BECAUSE HE FOUND FAULT WITH THEM
IT SAYS IT IN HEBREWS EIGHT IT IS SO AMAZING
SO, GOD ESTABLISHED A BETTER COVENANT WITH MUCH BETTER PROMISES
AND THE BLOOD OF JESUS IS THAT BETTER COVENANT WITH MUCH BETTER PROMISES
YOU HAD THE BLOOD IN THE OLD COVENANT WHERE THE HIGH PRIEST WOULD GO IN ONCE A YEAR
BEHIND THE VEIL HE WOULD APPLY BLOOD ON THE MERCY SEAT
AND WHEN HE LEFT THAT HOLY OF HOLIES WHEN HE LEFT THAT PLACE, HE STILL HAD NO REST
IN HIS OWN SOUL BECAUSE HIS CONSCIENCE WAS NOT FREE
BECAUSE REGRET AND SHAME AND ALL OF THAT STUFF WAS STILL THERE
BUT JESUS CAME AND THE BLOOD OF JESUS
THE BLOOD OF JESUS WHAT HAPPENS IS THAT HE APPLIES THAT BLOOD
TO ALL OUR CONSCIENCE AND IT CLEANSES IT FROM EVERY DEAD WORK
TO WHERE THERE IS NO DEAD WORKS THAT REMAIN SEE, MY PROBLEM IS THAT I AM FREE FROM ME
MY PROBLEM IS THAT I WAS LIVING IN A PLACE OF A HORRIBLE, HORRIBLE LIFE MY WHOLE LIFE
AND WHEN JESUS CAME, HE ACTUALLY WASHED MY CONSCIENCE WITH BLOOD AND CLEANSED IT FROM
DEAD WORKS AND I HAVE NEVER REVISITED DEAD WORKS FOR
ELEVEN YEARS I HAVE NOT HAD ONE DAY OF REGRET, GUILT, SHAME
OR CONDEMNATION ELEVEN YEARS THAT IS MY ISSUE
THAT IS WHAT KEEPS ME CONFIDENT AND SO MANY PEOPLE SAY, WELL, YOU KNOW, IT
IS A PROCESS I WOULD BEG TO DIFFER
SEE, SOMETIMES WE THINK IT IS A PROCESS WE ARE LIVING ON THE WRONG SIDE OF THE CROSS
WHEN YOU COME TO JESUS, YOU HAVE TO SEE THAT YOUR SINS AND YOUR LAWLESS DEEDS
WERE WIPED OUT WERE NAILED TO JESUS ON THE TREE
THAT EVERYTHING YOU WISHED YOU HAD NEVER DONE WAS NAILED TO HIM ON THAT TREE
AND THE POWERS AND PRICIPALITIES WERE PUBLICALLY LAUGHED AT
BY GOD AND GOD THOUGHT, YOU KNOW WHAT, THIS IS GOING
TO BE AMAZING, THIS IS AMAZING THIS IS AWESOME, MY FINAL ANSWER IS JESUS
THEN JESUS DIES FOR US RESURRECTS FOR US
MAN, YOU GOT PETER, LISTEN PETER IS LOST, DUDE, HE IS LIKE
HE DENIES JESUS, HE IS HURTING I MEAN HURTING
YOU DENIED CHRIST YOU ARE HURTING
YOU GET CALLED THE DEVIL BY JESUS THAT IS NOT COOL
PETER IS LIKE, BUMMING IT, MAN JESUS SAYS TO HIM, YOU KNOW WHAT
GET BEHIND ME SATAN, YOUR MIND IS FULL OF THE THINGS OF MAN AND NOT THE THINGS OF GOD
HE COULD NOT THINK OF THE THINGS OF GOD, BECAUSE IT WAS NOT AVAILABLE YET
WHEN THE HOLY SPIRIT CAME AND BAPTIZED PETER ALL OF A SUDDEN HE CHANGED INTO A DIFFERENT
MAN AND THAT REGRET, THAT SHAME, THAT GUILT
REGARDLESS OF ALL THE MOVIES THAT WE SEE WHERE PETER IS WALLOWING IN THE DIRT
HE CHANGED INTO A DIFFERENT MAN, BECAUSE THE HOLY SPIRIT COMES
AND HE CONVICTS THE WORLD OF THREE THINGS, BOOM
OF SIN, BECAUSE THEY DO NOT BELIEVE IN JESUS OF RIGHTEOUSNESS, BECAUSE JESUS WENT TO BE
WITH THE FATHER AND OF JUDGEMENT, BECAUSE THE RULER OF THIS
WORLD HAS BEEN JUDGED NOW, OF SIN, BECAUSE THEY DO NOT BELIEVE IN
JESUS SO WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU SAY, YES TO JESUS
BOOM, YOU ARE CONVICTED OF ALL THE SIN AND OF ALL THE JUNK
AND WHAT DOES GOD DO HE SAYS, NOT GUILTY, BOOM
BLOOD COVERED, WASHED THEN HE CONVICTS THE WORLD OF RIGHTEOUSNESS
WHAT DOES THAT MEAN WHEN PETER GOT CONVICTED OF RIGHT STANDING,
IT WAS THE DAY OF PENTECOST ALL OF A SUDDEN, JESUS, SENDS THE HOLY GHOST
ON THE DAY OF PENTECOST BOOM, HE COMES DOWN
GOD IN AND UPON MAN AND PETER'S REALIZATION OF FORGIVENESS
THE RIDICULOUS FORGIVENESS AND WASHING AND CLEANSING OF HIS CONSCIENCE FROM DEAD WORKS
WHICH ENABLED HIM TO BE A LOUD SPEAKER FOR THE KINGDOM
BECAUSE RIGHTEOUSNESS MAKES YOU UNASHAMED OF THE GOSPEL
IT IS THE POWER OF GOD UNTO SALVATION FOR THEM THAT BELIEVE
WHAT DO YOU BELIEVE AND WHERE ARE YOU AT WITH YOUR BELIEF
BECAUSE, WE CANNOT AFFORD TO LIVE IN THIS HOUR, RIGHT NOW, IN OUR LAST LAP
THINKING ABOUT REGRET ABOUT GUILT
ABOUT SHAME AND ABOUT CONDEMNATION
BECAUSE WHAT THAT DOES, IS IT MAKES YOU DO IT AGAIN
AND THEN DO IT AGAIN AND THEN DO IT AGAIN
SO ALL OF A SUDDEN YOU KNOW THAT IT IS NOT OKAY TO DO IT
BUT YOU ARE ALREADY GUILTY AND YOU ARE ALREADY ASHAMED
AND YOU ARE ALREADY CONDEMNED, SO WHY NOT JUST DO IT AGAIN
I MEAN, THERE IS NOT GOING TO BE ANY WORSE BUT, REALLY IT IS WORSE
AND WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE GOD WANTS HIS BRIDE TO BE PURIFIED
GOD WANTS HIS BRIDE TO LIVE AND BE HOLY AS HE IS HOLY
HE WANTS US TO STEP INTO A PLACE WHERE WE KNOW THAT IS NOT WHO I REALLY AM
HE WANTS US TO OBEY OUR CONVICTION AND THEN BE CONVICTED OF RIGHT STANDING WITH
GOD BECAUSE WHEN YOU ARE CONVICTED OF RIGHT STANDING
WITH GOD YOU DO NOT WANT TO GO THAT WAY ANYMORE
BECAUSE YOU REALIZE THAT YOU ARE RIGHT HERE YOUR RELATIONSHIP IS PERFUSE AND AMAZING
AND THIS IS NO LONGER AN OPTION GOING TO THE LEFT OR RIGHT
ADULTERY IS NO LONGER AN OPTION SEXUAL IMMORALITY IS NO LONGER AN OPTION
WHY BECAUSE IT IS NOT FIT FOR THE KINGDOM
IT IS NOT FIT FOR MY RELATIONSHIP SIN TARNISHES RELATIONSHIP
SIN DAMAGES YOUR RIGHT STANDING WITH GOD IT DOES NOT DAMAGE GOD FROM LOVING YOU
BUT IT DAMAGES YOU FROM RECEIVING HIS LOVE BECAUSE YOU SEVER YOURSELF
BECAUSE YOU KNOW IT IS WRONG AND YOU DO IT ANYWAY
AND THEN YOU MIGHT CALL IT GRACE THAT WOULD BE DEMONIC
TO CALL WILLFULL SIN, GRACE THAT IS NOT GRACE
LISTEN, I HAVE HAD PEOPLE SAY THIS TO ME I AM CORRECTING FAMILY MEMBERS
CLOSE PEOPLE THAT HAVE WATCHED OUR LIFE ARE YOU GUYS OKAY
IS THIS TOO HEAVY VERY CLOSE FAMILY MEMBERS IN A RELATIONSHIP
OUTSIDE OF WEDLOCK AND THEY ARE SLEEPING WITH THEIR BOYFRIEND
VERY CLOSE FAMILY MEMBER AND THEY SAID, DO NOT TELL ME THAT GOD DOES
NOT LOVE ME THAT WAS A MISTAKE
I SAID, I COULD NEVER TELL YOU THAT, BECAUSE THAT WOULD BE WRONG
THE REALITY IS, IS THAT YOU DO NOT LOVE GOD THAT IS NOT MEAN
YOUR LOVE RELATIONSHIP IS NOT THERE IF THAT RIGHT THERE IS NECESSARY IN YOUR LIFE
SEE, REAL GRACE IS THIS GRACE IS LIKE
GRACE IS WHAT ENABLES ME TO WALK OUT WHAT TRUTH CALLS ME TO
BUT, I AM NOT ABLE TO WALK OUT WHAT TRUTH IS IN MY OWN STRENGTH
I HAVE TO WALK OUT WHAT TRUTH IS IN GOD'S STRENGTH
AND THAT IS GRACE IT IS RELATIONSHIP
SEE, GOD WANTS US TO UNDERSTAND THAT WE ARE SPOTLESS
HEY, LOOK I AM NOT LOOKING AT YOU
I LOVE YOU I AM NOT MAD AT YOU
GOD IS NOT MAD AT YOU AND THE SOONER YOU FIND THAT OUT
YOU WILL TASTE AND SEE THAT GOD IS GOOD AND YOU WILL EXPERIENCE THE FIRST LOVE OF
GOD AND ALL OF A SUDDEN
YOU WILL NOT WANT TO WALK AWAY FROM THAT YOU WILL NOT ENTERTAIN SEXUAL DESIRES IN A
TWISTED WAY YOU WILL NOT ENTERTAIN PORNOGRAPHY IN A TWISTED
WAY YOU WILL JUST ENTERTAIN RELATIONSHIP IN A
HOLY WAY AND IT IS AMAZING
I MEAN, IT IS OUTSTANDING AMAZING JESUS IS SO POWERFUL, SO AMAZING
WATCH THIS TELL ME THE TRUTH
LIKE, IF IT WAS POSSIBLE TO LIVE AND ACTUALLY BE HOLY,
WOULD YOU NOT WANT IT WELL, I DO NOT KNOW
WELL, YOU DO WOULD YOU NOT LOVE TO LOOK AT YOURSELF IN
THE MIRROR AND LIKE WHAT YOU SEE AND I AM NOT JUST TALKING ABOUT MAKE UP
OR HAIR, OR ANY OF THAT STUFF I AM TALKING ABOUT LOOKING IN YOUR EYES
AND ACTUALLY SEEING INSIDE OF YOU THE LAMP BEING SINGLE AND CLEAR
BECAUSE THE EYE IS THE LAMP OF THE BODY SO MANY PEOPLE CANNOT LOOK AT THEMSELVES IN
THE MIRROR WHY, BECAUSE THEY ARE GUILTY
THEY ARE ASHAMED THEY ARE AFRAID
THEY ARE CONDEMNED BUT, I AM TELLING YOU THERE IS A BETTER WAY
HIS NAME IS JESUS AND HE WILL WASH YOU SO CLEAN ON THE INSIDE
THAT YOU WILL CRY WHEN YOU LOOK AT YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR
AND YOU WILL SAY, REALLY ARE YOU KIDDING ME
THIS IS MY LOVE THIS IS MY DESIRE
TO LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND SEE WHAT MY FATHER SEES
THIS IS HIS DESIRE FOR YOU THAT YOU COULD LOOK IN THE MIRROR
AND FINALLY BE FREE FINALLY BE FREE TO BE TO BE LOVED
TO BE FREE TO NOT BE HURT MAN, I HAVE LIVED ELEVEN YEARS
IN THIS THING AND I HAVE NOT BEEN HURT OR OFFENDED BY ANYBODY
ELEVEN YEARS STRAIGHT OF COMPLETE FREEDOM FROM HURT
PEOPLE TOLD ME THAT IN THE BEGINNING YOU CANNOT PREACH THAT
YOU CANNOT TALK LIKE THAT MAN YOU ARE SETTING YOURSELF UP TO GET HURT
I AM LIKE, ARE YOU KIDDING ME
YOU ARE TELLING ME THAT I CANNOT LIVE THE BIBLE
YOU ARE TELLING ME THAT I CANNOT LIVE FREE FROM OFFENSE
ARE YOU GUYS OKAY SOME OF YOU ARE NOT RIGHT NOW
YOU ARE LIKE, I DO NOT EVEN KNOW WHY I AM HERE
YOU ARE HERE, BECAUSE YOU WANT FREEDOM, THAT IS WHY
I AM NOT HERE TO WATER THIS THING DOWN OR BE LIKE, NICE AND NICE THIS THING
NO, NO, NO WHAT WOULD IT BE LIKE FOR YOU TO STAND IN
THE MIDST OF A FAMILY REUNION WHERE EVERYONE IS GATHERING AND YOU USED TO
LIVE A CERTAIN WAY AND YOU CALL YOURSELF A CHRISTIAN AND YOU
REALIZE THE DANGER OF HYPOCRISY MAN, WHEN I WAS IN THE WORLD
BEFORE CHRIST CAME INTO MY LIFE BEFORE JESUS CAME
YOU GUYS KNOW MY TESTIMONY SOME OF YOU DO
FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DO NOT, I WAS REALLY LOST AND NOW I AM REALLY FOUND
AND IT IS AMAZING I AM
I WAS AS BLIND AS COULD BE AND NOW I SEE I AM GOING TO SHARE WITH YOU SOMETHING
BECAUSE SOMETIMES WHEN I SHARE A WORD LIKE THIS,
PEOPLE ARE LIKE, AH MAN, LIKE WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO THERE, DUDE
LIKE, WHY CANNOT WE JUST TALK ABOUT HEALING BECAUSE THIS IS HEALING FOR YOUR SOUL, THAT
IS WHY AND IF YOUR SOUL GETS HEALED, ALL OF A SUDDEN
YOU WILL BE ABLE TO WALK IN BOLDNESS BECAUSE RIGHTEOUSNESS
RIGHT STANDING WITH GOD ENABLES YOU TO WALK IN BOLDNESS
I AM GOING TO SHARE WITH YOU THE DANGER OF HYPOCRISY
JUST A LITTLE AND THEN I WILL END ARE YOU GUYS OKAY WITH THAT
MY LIFE PERSONAL STUFF
SO, WHEN I WAS A DRUG ADDICT AND I WAS WITH MY GIRLFRIEND
AND IT WAS REALLY TWISTED I CAME HOME ONE NIGHT
AND YOU GUYS, A LOT OF YOU KNOW THE TESTIMONY WHEN I CAME HOME, SHE WAS GONE
SO I DROVE TO HER STEP DAD'S HOUSE TO GET A RIFLE
BECAUSE I WAS GOING TO SHOOT MYSELF AND BE DONE WITH MY LIFE
AND I DROVE OVER THERE AS ANGRY AS COULD BE I TOLD HER THAT I WOULD KILL HER IF SHE EVER
CHEATED ON ME I WAS GOING TO KILL MYSELF, BUT I KNEW SHE
WOULD NOT LEAVE ME FOR ANYBODY I WAS JUST DONE
AND I TORMENTED HER FOR NINE YEARS SEVEN AND A HALF YEARS OF MY DAUGHTER'S LIFE
AND LIVED AS AN ANIMAL BEFORE THAT SO, I DRIVE OVER THERE AND ON THE WAY TO THE
GUN CABINET I PASSED BY THIS PHONE BOOK I FLIP IT OPEN
IT OPENS TO CHURCHES I AM LIKE, WHATEVER
I MADE THIS CHECK AT ONE OF THE 586 CHURCHES AND I
DROVE TO THIS PLACE AS ANGRY AS COULD BE I WAS GOING TO TELL SOMEBODY
IT IS ONLY LIKE, THE LORD, THAT I DID NOT BRING A RIFLE
BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT I THOUGHT OF AND I DROVE TO THIS
I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEBODY A REAL HAPPY GUY COMES TO THE DOOR
HEY BUDDY HE IS REAL JOYFUL AND HAPPY AND FULL OF LOVE
AND I AM LIKE, WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU, MAN HE SAID, IT IS NOT WHAT IS WRONG, IT IS WHAT
HAS BEEN MADE RIGHT AND I AM LIKE, WHAT DO YOU MEAN, WHAT HAS
BEEN MADE RIGHT LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING
LET US GO UPSTAIRS SO I WALK UPSTAIRS WITH HIM
AND I AM TELLING HIM ALL OF MY JUNK AND HE SAID, YES, I KNOW
WELL, HOW ABOUT JESUS I SAID, I DID NOT COME HERE TO HEAR ABOUT
JESUS HE SAID, THIS IS A CHURCH
BUT HONESTLY NO ONE WITNESSED TO ME FOR THIRTY FOUR YEARS OF MY LIFE
NO ONE TOLD ME ABOUT JESUS OUTSIDE OF THE CHURCH
EVER, I MEAN HERE IS AN EASY WAY HOW MANY OF YOU TOLD SOMEBODY ABOUT JESUS
IN THE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS DO NOT ALL RAISE YOUR HANDS AT ONCE
IT IS JUST BECAUSE WE ARE QUIET ABOUT IT WE DO NOT WANT OFFEND ANY
WE DO NOT WANT TO HURT ANYBODY WE DO NOT WANT TO HURT ANYBODY, WHEN PEOPLE
ARE GOING TO HELL EVERY DAY IT IS NOT MEAN, IT IS TRUE
I WAS ONE OF THEM PEOPLE I WAS ONE
SO HE TOLD ME ABOUT JESUS AND HE SAID, SINCE YOU DO NOT WANT YOUR LIFE,
WHY DO YOU NOT GIVE IT SOMEONE WHO DOES AND I SAID, FINE, WHATEVER, DUDE
HE CAN HAVE IT, THERE, I DID IT HE SAID, AMEN
HE SAID, HERE IS MY NUMBER, YOU ARE GOING TO NEED IT
SO, I GO HOME AND IT IS CRAZY I CALL MY DAUGHTER AND SAID, YOU NEED TO TELL
MOMMY THAT DADDY FOUND GOD AND SHE SAID, WHAT IS HE LIKE, DAD
AND I SAID, I DO NOT KNOW BUT I MET SOME DUDE WHO DOES
I AM GOING TO TAKE YOU TO MEET THIS GUY SOME DAY
SHE SAID, OH, OKAY, DAD MOMMY'S NOT COMING HOME
SO SHE KICKS AND SCREAMS SHE GETS MOMMY TO COME HOME
AND IT IS JUST, YEAH SHE COMES HOME
I AM A ROCK SINGER I AM A ROCK SINGER, AHHH
I AM ONE OF THOSE SCREAMING METAL GUYS I HAVE A BAND
I AM THE FRONT MAN, IMAGINE THAT THE WRONG STUFF
PEOPLE IN BARS, BASHING EACH OTHER, SMASHING EACH OTHER
AND I AM LIKE, YEAH, GETTING THEM ROWDY, COME ON
AND THAT IS WHO I AM SO NOW I GOT ALL THESE GUYS
THAT ARE IN MY BAND THEY PRACTICE AT MY HOUSE IN MY BASEMENT
SO I AM LIKE, DUDE, I AM TELLING YOU GUYS, MAN
SO THEY COME OVER FOR PRACTICE SHE COMES HOME
AND SHE IS LIKE REALLY ANGRY THE NEXT DAY I HAVE BAND PRACTICE
ALL THE GUYS ARE DOWNSTAIRS AND I AM LIKE, DUDE, GUESS WHAT GUYS
THEY ARE LIKE, WHAT I GAVE MY LIFE TO JESUS, BRO
THEY ARE LIKE, SHUT THE BLANK UP, CUSSING ME OUT
FREAKING OUT ON ME I AM LIKE, NO, DUDE, NO SERIOUS MAN, I AM
SO SERIOUS BUT THAT PEACE THING WAS SO OUT OF WACK IN
ME THAT IN ORDER FOR ME TO HAVE PEACE
I HAVE TO GET HIGH SO THEY ARE LIKE, AH DUDE, JUST SHUT UP MAN,
HERE AND I AM LIKE, AH COOL DUDE
GETTING HIGH LIKE, JESUS IS REAL BRO, I AM TELLING YOU
I AM NOT KIDDING THIS IS FOR REAL
THIS IS MY LIFE AS TWISTED AS COULD BE AND I AM JUST, OUT THERE
SO, AT THE END OF THE NIGHT, I AM TELLING THEM, JESUS LOVES YOU
AND THEY ARE LIKE, DUDE, SHUT UP AND THAT NIGHT, A FEW OF THE GUYS BAILED
THEY SAID, WE WILL NEVER, EVER BE HERE AGAIN THEY TOOK THEIR STUFF
WE HAVE BEEN A BAND FOR LIKE THREE YEARS WE ARE LIKE REALLY UP AND COMING
WE HAD OUR CD'S OUT THERE, LIKE TO GET SIGNED, ALL OF THAT
AND IT WAS OUR HOPE, EVERYTHING SO EVERYBODY LEFT BUT MY ONE BUDDY
AND NOW HE IS LIKE A VIRTUOSO MUSICIAN, GUITAR PLAYER THAT IS JUST AMAZING
I MEAN, AMAZING HE IS LIKE A REAL PEACEFUL GUY
HE IS LIKE, WHOA BRO, I AM GLAD YOU FOUND YOUR PATH, MAN
LIKE, LOOK, DUDE, IT IS NOT EVERYBODY'S PATH, BRO
IT IS YOURS. IT IS NOT MINE
OKAY, NOW, LET US GET HIGH SO, WE ARE PARTYING
THIS IS FOR REAL SO THIS GOES ON AND HE COMES OVER TO PRACTICE
THE NEXT TIME, I AM SCREAMING AT MY GIRLFRIEND UPSTAIRS
PUNCH A HOLE IN THE WALL COME DOWNSTAIRS AND I AM LIKE, DUDE, JESUS
LOVES YOU HE SAID, ALRIGHT, BRO LET US ROLL THEM
SO, I AM SITTING THERE PARTYING WITH THIS GUY AND WE ARE HAVING A GREAT TIME
AND THEN ANOTHER MONTH GOES BY AND I AM LIVING AS A HYPOCRITE
I AM OUT ON COCAINE BINGES THREE OR FOUR NIGHTS A WEEK
AND I AM CONFESSING JESUS SO, I BECAME THE VERY HYPOCRITE I HATED MY
WHOLE LIFE, IN A COUPLE OF DAYS SO, NOW, FIVE AND A HALF MONTHS INTO THIS
THING I GO OUT ONE NIGHT AND I PICK UP SOME KID
FROM NEW YORK CITY I AM IN MY CAR
I RIP HIM OFF FOR A BUNCH OF COCAINE I TELL HIM I AM A COP AND READ HIM HIS RIGHTS
AND TELL HIM TO GET OUT OF THE CAR WHEN HE DOES, I HIT THE GAS
AND HE UNLOADS A 9 MILLIMETER AT ME FROM 10 FEET, 3 METERS AWAY
I HEAR A VOICE SAY, I TOOK THOSE BULLETS FOR YOU. ARE YOU READY TO LIVE FOR ME YET
I WAS AWESTRUCK BECAUSE THE VOICE WAS LOUDER THAN THE SHOTS
I SPUN OUT OF TOWN AND YOU THINK THAT IS ENOUGH THAT IS NOT ENOUGH
I SMOKED EVERY BAG OF COCAINE THAT I HAD THAT NIGHT, AND I COULD NOT GET HIGH
THAT VOICE KILLED MY BUZZ ALL NIGHT LONG NOW WE HAVE A REAL PROBLEM
I GO HOME I SHINE THE FLASHLIGHT ON MY JEEP
THERE IS NO BULLET HOLES IN MY CAR AND I AM LIKE, THAT IS IT, THIS IS REAL
IT IS REAL I WENT TO MY DOOR AND MY GIRLFRIEND KICKED
ME OUT SHE SAID, GET OUT OF MY LIFE
MY DAUGHTER IS SCREAMING I LEFT
I WENT OVER TO THAT PASTOR'S HOUSE AND SAID, MAN, I HAVE GOT TO GET AWAY
WE MADE THE DECISION FOR ME TO GO TO TEEN CHALLENGE
IT IS A CHRISTIAN REHAB I WAS GOING TO GO
I WAS GOING TO SUBMIT TO GOD SO, I CALLED MY FRIEND, BOBBY
MY BUDDY THAT PLAYED GUITAR I SAID, DUDE, I NEED YOU TO COME MEET WITH
ME HE SAID, WHY
I SAID, MAN, LAST NIGHT I WENT OUT AND GOT SHOT AT FROM TEN FEET AWAY
HE SAID, NO WAY, ARE YOU IN THE HOSPITAL I SAID, NO DUDE, I AM AT THAT PASTOR'S HOUSE
WHY WOULD YOU BE AT A PASTOR'S HOUSE I SAID, BECAUSE JESUS
WHAT DO YOU MEAN, JESUS JESUS IS REAL, GOD SPOKE TO ME LAST NIGHT,
DUDE HE SAID, DID YOU HEAR ANYTHING
LIKE THAT GUY WAS A BAD SHOT I WAS THE GUY IN THE MIRROR THE GUNSHOTS CAME
OUT OF I SAW THE BLASTS COME OUT OF THAT GUN
IT WAS ME THAT HE SHOT AT AND I WAS THE ONE THAT HEARD GOD'S VOICE
AND I AM TELLING YOU NO I AM TELLING YOU BRO
HE SAID, LISTEN MAN, DO YOU NOT GET IT LOOK AT YOUR LIFE, HE TOLD ME CONSTANTLY
LOOK AT YOUR LIFE, MAN, HE IS NOT REAL DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT JESUS IS NOT REAL
IF HE WAS, WOULD NOT YOUR LIFE BE DIFFERENT YOU ARE JUST LIKE EVERY OTHER CHRISTIAN IN
THE WORLD I SAID, NO, DUDE, I AM TELLING YOU MAN, HE
IS REAL, BRO. HE IS REAL
HE SAID, NO, HE IS NOT I TOLD HIM I MADE THE DECISION TO GO AWAY
TO A REHAB HE SAID, AH DUDE, GOOD FOR YOU BRO, YOU NEED
HELP I SAID, YES, BUT THIS IS DIFFERENT
I SAID, THIS REHAB IS TWELVE MONTHS LONG HE SAID, WHAT
YOU ARE GOING TO GO AWAY FOR TWELVE MONTHS I SAID, YES, I HAVE GOT TO GO, DUDE, I HAVE
GOT TO GO HE STRUGGLED
HE SAID, YES, MAN, WE WILL JAM WHEN YOU GET HOME
I SAID, ALRIGHT MAN, THIS IS GOING TO BE AWESOME, BRO
WE WILL MAKE MUSIC AND STUFF AND MAN THAT WAS IT
TWO DAYS LATER I CALL TO SAY GOODBYE I AM ON MY WAY OUT
I AM NOT ALLOWED TO TALK TO HIM FOR TWELVE MONTHS
I GIVE HIM A CALL AND HE DOES NOT ANSWER I JUST LEAVE A MESSAGE
I GO INTO TEEN CHALLENGE I AM THERE
I AM SUBMITTED I GAVE UP
I SURRENDERED THAT IS WHERE IT IS AT, MAN
IT IS SURRENDER I GO INTO THIS PLACE
I GET A PHONE CALL THREE DAYS LATER THE PHONE CALL IS THIS
THEY BRING ME INTO THE OFFICE AND I LOOK AT THE COUNSELOR
AND HE SAID, YOU NEED TO SIT DOWN YOU NEED TO TALK TO YOUR PASTOR
I SAID, WHAT IS GOING ON JUST LISTEN
I GET ON THE PHONE HE SAID, TODD
I SAID, WHAT HAPPENED TO JACKIE, WHAT HAPPENED TO DESTINY MY DAUGHTER
MY GIRLFRIEND EVEN THOUGH SHE HATES ME, I DO NOT WANT HER
TO GET HURT I OWED A LOT OF DRUG DEBT
I OWED A LOT OF PEOPLE A LOT OF MONEY I RIPPED OFF EVERYBODY
HE SAID, NO, IT IS NOT THEM HE SAID, IT IS BOBBY
I SAID, WHAT HAPPENED HE SAID, BOBBY HAD A BRAIN ANEURYSM
I SAID, WHAT IS THAT HE SAID, HE IS IN A COMA RIGHT NOW
I SAID, NO WHAT
I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT THAT IS I PUT THE PHONE DOWN, RAN OUT AND INTO THE
PRAYER ROOM SCREAMING
GOD SPEAKS TO ME AGAIN, HE SAYS, YOU ARE NOT GOING ANYWHERE
I STAYED AT TEEN CHALLENGE I COULD NOT HELP HIM ANYWAY
HE IS MY BEST FRIEND, THE ONLY ONE IN THE WORLD TO STAND BY ME
THE ONLY ONE HE SAID, I DO NOT BELIEVE IN JESUS, I BELIEVE
IN YOU TWO MONTHS LATER FOR THREE NIGHTS I HAD THESE
ENCOUNTERS WITH JESUS DAN COMES UP AND PICKS ME UP
I GO HOME MY GIRLFRIEND COMES OUT OF THE HOUSE
MY DAUGHTER, I AM HOLDING MY DAUGHTER I AM TELLING HER HOW SORRY I AM AND
MY DAUGHTER IS SO HAPPY MY GIRLFRIEND LOOKS AT ME AND SAYS, I GAVE
MY LIFE TO JESUS WHEN YOU WENT AWAY IT WAS REALLY RIDICULOUS
I MEAN, LIKE CRAZY WE ENDED UP GETTING MARRIED FOUR DAYS LATER
AND WE HAVE BEEN MARRIED FOR ELEVEN YEARS I GOT A PHONE CALL ABOUT BOBBY
HE IS IN A COMA HE IS UP IN A CONVALESCENT HOME
I TOOK MY DAUGHTER UP THERE THE NEXT DAY AFTER WE GO MARRIED
I LOOKED AT BOBBY HE IS IN A COMA
HIS EYES WERE DILATED HE IS LAYING THERE IN A HOSPITAL BED
AND HIS WIFE IS THERE MY DAUGHTER IS THERE
SHE KNOWS BOBBY A SEVEN AND A HALF YEAR OLD KID, MY DAUGHTER
IS CRYING BOBBY'S BRAIN IS ALL BULDGED OUT
I REALIZED WHAT I DID I REALIZED HOW I LIVED
I LIVED AS A HYPOCRITE IN FRONT OF MY BEST FRIEND
AND I PROCLAIMED THE NAME OF JESUS I HAD NOTHING TO GIVE HIM
I SAID, I AM SORRY MAN I AM SORRY
HIS WIFE IS THERE AND I SAID, I AM SO SORRY SHE SAID, FOR WHAT
I SAID, BECAUSE JESUS SHE SAID, JESUS, LOOK AT MY HUSBAND
THERE IS NO GOD, TODD LOOK AT WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO HIM
I SAID, JESUS IS REAL SHUT UP
I AM SITTING THERE, CRYING, LOOKING INTO MY FRIEND'S EYES
HE DID NOT WINK AT ME, HE DID NOT SQUEEZE MY HAND, NOTHING
THE NEXT MORNING, MY BEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WORLD, DIED
AND I, FOR THIRTY SECONDS IN THAT CONVALESCENT HOME,
SAW MY HYPOCRISY FOR THIRTY SECONDS I SAW MY LIFE LIVED IN
FRONT OF HIM AND IT WAS THE WORST THIRTY SECONDS OF MY
LIFE THE LORD SPOKE TO ME
HE SAID, TODD, THIS IS WHERE MY CHURCH LIVES IN CONDEMNATION
THAT WAS THE WORST I HAD EVER HAD IN MY LIFE THE WIFE CALLED ME AND SAID, WE WANT YOU TO
COME, YOU WERE BOBBY'S ONLY FRIEND
WE WANT YOU TO SPEAK AT HIS FUNERAL I AM DONE, WHAT DO YOU SAY
I WENT UP THERE AND HE IS IN THE CASKET BEHIND ME
HIS THREE AND SEVEN YEAR OLD KIDS ARE IN THE FRONT ROW
LOOKING AT THEIR DAD WHO IS NOT THERE WATCH THAT LITTLE GIRL SHAKE THAT CASKET AND
SAY, DADDY, WAKE UP DADDY IS NOT WAKING UP
AND I KNOW WHAT THE KEY TO LIFE IS RIGHT NOW I DID NOT THEN, BUT NOW I DO
AND I SAID, I JUST WANT TO TELL YOU KIDS, THAT I AM SORRY THAT I DID NOT LIVE, JESUS,
IN FRONT OF YOUR DAD BECAUSE I WAS THE ONLY PERSON IN THIS LIFE
THAT HE WOULD HAVE LISTENED TO I DID NOT WALK OUT CHRISTIANITY
BUT I CAN PROMISE YOU THIS IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN
I HAD TO TELL THOSE KIDS, THAT THERE IS ONLY ONE NAME
UNDER HEAVEN THAT MEN SHALL BE SAVED AND HIS NAME IS JESUS
YOUR DAD'S DYING WORDS TO ME WERE, I DO NOT BELIEVE IN JESUS, I BELIEVE
IN YOU I DO NOT BELIEVE IN JESUS, I BELIEVE IN YOU
I DID NOT HAVE ANYTHING TO GIVE HIM, BUT NOW I DO AND I AM SORRY
BUT, HIS NAME IS JESUS, AND I LOST IT YOU ALL HAVE BOBBYS IN YOUR LIFE
YOU HAVE SOMEBODY THAT IS LOOKING AT YOU WONDERING, IS IT REAL
IS IT REAL IS IT REAL
MY QUESTION TO YOU IS, WHAT ARE YOU SHOWING THE WORLD
WHAT ARE YOU SHOWING YOUR FRIENDS WHAT ARE YOU SHOWING THEM
WHAT ARE YOU GIVING THE WORLD I AM NOT BEING MEAN
I AM BEING REAL LIFE IS A GIFT, DO NOT USE IT TO GLORIFY YOUR
FLESH DO NOT USE IT TO LIVE IN HYPOCRISY
USE THIS THING TO CRUSH HELL FOR A LIVING
