Cam Model-Kristy

wow that's a loud ass car oh it gets that this neighborhood is a real challenge this neighborhood is scary yeah at night it really is it's a whole other neighborhood at night all right christy christie uh where'd you grow up where you from originally um from salt lake city utah does that mean you're mormon i am not lds but i grew up around a lot of mormons but not your family no my dad's side yes they tried to convert me to mormonism when i was about nine and i just didn't do it there was just something in me that just said not to do it so i didn't i think you're the third or fourth woman who's done sex work who's come from that community it's interesting yeah i know a lot of girls in utah that do sex work a lot is that right is is there you you know i think the majority of the pop the world thinks that utah is very conservative and straight and no one does anything like that yeah there's a lot there it's just kept like more quiet i guess no secrets yeah there's guys out there that actually pay like twice as much money for some of the same services that like in la and vegas like girls are doing things for like maybe 150 on the streets out there you could get like five to a thousand oh wow yeah i know some of the pimps will take their girls to salt lake city probably i've heard of that i've heard that yeah i've i've heard that as well so how'd you grow up you had you had mom and dad um i grew up my mom was a single mother my dad was kind of one of those hippie he he was like one of those hippie deadheads and he was just really into heroin and mushrooms and drugs and he um didn't really give a [ __ ] that i was around and uh i grew up with just my mom and she kind of was a serial dater she's on her fifth marriage right now and my dad's been in and out of my life but the last time i talked to him which was uh when covid happened he told me he saw my only fans and he said that i was a [ __ ] and that he hopes i die from the coronavirus so i blocked his phone number how would you describe your childhood with your mom it was pretty traumatic it was it was not fun i couldn't wait to move out of her house for what reasons may i ask um there was a lot of there was a lot of abuse she married a guy who was in the military he took us to italy and virginia and he was just very abusive to me and my mom i would have to listen to them fight and him hitting her all the time and i was only nine i remember one time they were fighting at kitchen dinner and he chased her up the stairs and i was listening to them fight above me and um and he hit her really hard and she fell on the floor and actually thought she was dead and i was like nine and then like an hour later he came downstairs and he was like okay we need to go to the hospital you need to stay here and i was like i'm not staying here i'm going with my mom and i watched my mom lie in the hospital and say that something else happened but he really put her there and so it was scary when we were living in italy um they made me go to school and no one there spoke english i there was one teacher that spoke english and it was a sub and they made me sit in class like all day long as an english-speaking child nine years old and they all spoke um italian and so i mean i picked some of it up and learned some of it eventually but it was just like we were all the way out in this other country with him and he was beating the [ __ ] out of us and um and it was just really scary i felt like like really stuck there as a child like it was scary so so you left home without your parents care at what age right when i turned 18 i met my son's dad and we moved in together like right away i kind of couldn't wait to get away and we were together for about a year and then we had a baby and i had my son who's 14 now you raised your son i raised my son until he was 11. and then when he turned 11 um that's when i decided to move out of utah and move to las vegas and try to get start my life in a little bit better he likes utah so just let him stay there have drugs been a part of your life um often on yes right now i'm staying clean but i've done meth for a while um when i was 16 i got into meth in utah um you know like back in the 90s it was technically considered like the meth capital of the world for a while and um i did that and then i actually got into cocaine um in my 20s when i was work doing a lot of sex work and i was like drinking and coking out with everyone and i mean it was fun and it was really easy to you know like talk to people and be that happy like person that's just having a good time but really it was destroying me you know on other levels and so i took a break from it but then when i moved to vegas this last time i quit doing sex work but and i started working for a famous street artist and i started working at a record store but at a tattoo shop but all my bosses did cocaine and they were giving it to me so i was not doing sex work but then i was doing cocaine again but i started getting really thin and sick and so for the last about six months now i just i won't do it anymore i'm trying to gain weight and i've been eating a lot better and i've been trying to exercise i bought a bike recently and i bike a lot and i just don't want to i want to like love myself better so sex work for you started when i was about 23 and i started doing those uh seeking arrangement sites i just got divorced from my husband and i had debt and i'd never had debt before and um a friend of mine was a dancer and she was like you should go on this sugar daddy site and i didn't really know like exactly what it was like kinda you know but i didn't know how dark it really was you know what i mean so i went on and i found a guy and he took advantage of me really bad um and you know what's weird is that he still contacts me to this day through social media apps and i don't like to talk to him and he watches me everywhere i think so you've branched out from that you you got into what other kind of sex work i started doing um sensual massage after that because i don't like having sex for money it disgusts me a little bit so um i started doing sensual massage because then i don't really have to have sex you know so um i started doing that and i did that for seven years consistently how was that i mean your experience doing that was that that was okay for you um at first it scared me um i had an ex-boyfriend that introduced me to it and told me you know why don't you go do this and i really know what it was but i had a feeling that you know and i was like okay if i go in there and they want me to get into a bikini then i know exactly what this kind of place is and um right when i got there that's exactly what happened was they were like okay we're going to have all of you guys get in a bikini and we're going to show you how to do basically new so it's like using your body to do the massage and uh so they taught us that and the money was good but it was super sketch and weird in there every day um it was sad the things that were really going on in there now that i think about it but i was in my early 20s it's been about almost close to 10 years since that happened um but it was it was weird but i just kept going because like every week you know you started getting regulars and they always like the new girl so the new girl always makes a lot of money that's why these pimps take girls to the cities all the time because they're the new girls so that is always a boost for someone who's trying to do that that type of job is if you're new guys always want to see you because they get tired of the same girl around and um but i just consistently kept making more and more money like every month every week so i just kept going back and doing it got i started getting out of debt and i started being able to live in like a nicer place and buy things i could never afford before so um yeah i just kept going back and then it started getting huge i started getting a mass amount of guys um and i had guys to do everything for me i had guys to take me on trips i had guys to take me to dinner i had guys to be intimate with i had guys to treat like [ __ ] i had whatever i needed whatever i wanted it was really crazy for a while and the money solves all your debt problems it did i and i made um roughly around 90 000 a year for a couple of years and i saved some of that money and then that's when i decided to go to school because i knew eventually i had been it was going seven years into it and i remember i was i was in this beautiful condo that i had and i was taking a shower one day and uh i remember i was really unhappy and alone and i just but i had everything i had you know this nice apartment this really nice car and i had like a closet full of louis vuitton but i was in my shower cry and i was like okay this is time to shift it's time to shift so i had some money that i had saved and i was like what do i want to do with it okay i'll go to school got to get a career i want to continue being successful person and making money but i don't want to just sell my body for i don't i didn't want to be like the 40 year old stripper in the club i just didn't and so i saved some money and i decided to use it and go to paul mitchell to do hair oh good for you and makeup that's great yeah that's what got you out of the doing the massage work um no um i kept doing massage work while i was in school to help pay the bills because i was going to school full-time so obviously i wasn't making any money i was just spending on school and because not all of it was paid for some of it was financed and um so i continued to do massage work on the side and then i got i graduated and i got my cosmetology license and then after that i um kept doing massage to actually fund my booth rent for my hair station and then not long after that i ended up getting busted by vice doing massage doing a massage oh you got arrested i didn't get arrested um i didn't get arrested they let me go they let me go um how did that happen i i was doing a massage on the sky and he started asking me weird questions and i knew right away that it was the cops so i started asking questions and then they knocked on my door and i looked out the door and there was like nine cops outside of my apartment door and they just rushed in and i had like just lingerie on in it and i was freaked out and i ran into my bedroom and they were screaming at me and they were like don't close the door don't get dressed so i was just like [ __ ] like i [ __ ] up and all i could think about was my son and just like i just felt like i [ __ ] everything up at that moment i was just like okay it's all coming crashing down right now and um the cop sent all the other police out of the room and he sat down with me and he said you know we can make this all go away for you you know if you want to do um some some things with us and help us we can make this all go away for you and i tried to help these cops kind of work with some stuff that they were doing but nothing really came of it and they actually got frustrated with me because they thought they were going to nab a whole bunch of other people through me but i was working independently and i didn't have anything they were like you know someone making you do this like and i just told them no like i just do this by myself and they were trying to get all these other people's names and information to try to see if maybe like they could do another big bust but i truly 100 worked for myself didn't have any information i didn't like working for other people i didn't want a pimp the girls were crazy and jealous anyways so i stayed away from them and um i couldn't help them so eventually he just let me go into and he told me that my case was just going to be dismissed and um i asked him if i could move to vegas and get out of salt lake city and he and he said yes and we put that in writing and um and they just let me go back to vegas so you got away i did i left and i haven't done um any massage or sex work since that day except for except for only fans so now you're [Laughter] no you're a cam model i am which is which is the new way for girls digital digital sex tell me how how that's different than the one-on-one escorting or massage thing there's just no physical contact it's all over the phone technology marches on it changes everything doesn't it yeah is it easier better it's a lot easier less uh less unpleasant i guess yeah and i i you know because i didn't like having people come to my house i don't know how girls are always so comfortable with having an in-call at their house i hated it i hated it yeah that's gotta be a weird feeling to have these i mean i would do rooms sometimes too but sometimes you will do it at your house because you don't want to get a room or something if you have a place those girls will do it at home and it just started making me feel really uncomfortable so only fence is nice because nobody knows where i live nobody knows where i sleep i don't have to touch anyone nobody touches me so i like that and you just use your phone and you shoot and that's that yeah i mean i sometimes will use my webcam i also have a camera too like a nikon and i have a leica and um yeah i do a lot of self-shooting um if i i do i know a ton of photographers because i've been a model for like 20 years but so i know a lot of photographers and a lot of them are usually down to shoot some stuff and i'll i have a little process i'll always do like a couple of uh social media safe stuff and then i'll do the the paid that's how i kind of bait people in like if you want to see more you can see the full video here and with your roughly decade of of doing all this these are different variations of sex work what's your take on it i honestly wish that i would have never did any of it um but it's a fun lifestyle um depending on what you do with it you know i think some girls get in a really hard like place and some some are forced some get into drugs but there's some girls i've seen that are so successful you know i know very successful women so i don't know what my take is on it it's i'm i'm very like on the fence i'm so back and forth about it it seems like there's a price to be paid for everything we do true there is a price for everything and i think for everybody you know i also still look at some girls that you know they're like oh i have six kids but i would never escort well okay so you're just giving it away for free i hate to kind of sound like one of those girls but i mean why give it away for free i can totally understand giving away for free if you're with like a certain person you just love them fine perfect but if you're just going to randomly hook up with people i don't know yeah the decisions we make in life are very very interesting aren't they yeah some people some people like to be loose and you know some people are more hustlers i'm i'm a hustler so and what's your does your family know or anything like that they do they do my son doesn't really know your dad knows but dad knows dad doesn't like it right is there are there emotions that come from doing it yeah yeah yeah especially when i was more physical the physical ones like massage and escorting i used to get really depressed like shame or something like that yeah and i would sometimes just get grossed out with my body when i was showering after clients and stuff it's a weird feeling um it didn't make me feel very good sometimes it made me feel really powerful but most of the time it didn't make me feel very good and yeah i mean there was there was definitely some depression i think the drug use along with it also is like a huge form of the depression too because i think that just like what you're trying to do with the drugs is numb out the fact that you probably don't feel good about what you're doing you know so it's just a domino effect downward spiral but um i don't know i mean there's so many people that it it's all in just what you do with it and how you and how you how you do it i guess yeah i mean there are some women that i think maybe they're built for it but i don't know i don't know i just i have a hard time buying 100 percent that that they're cool with it and it's all good and they're happy all the time no truth they claim to be i truly don't believe that they are i even i even know male porn stars and even then i can see that they probably regret a choice or two you know i can even see it in in some of the male talent it seems to me that we're all meant to love ourselves that's the biggest challenge we all have and it becomes very very difficult to do that when you're selling your ass yeah if you i don't i don't think that i think it's hard to love yourself and also it's hard to feel that grounding um it's hard to love yourself if you're if you're walking a straight line yep then when you start doing sex work then it becomes well i believe highly in like the spiritual realm um so i don't know if you've ever heard of like there's that term of like however many people you sleep with when you sleep with someone else you're sleeping with like all of their like spiritual realms of the people that they've slept with and i believe that so i believe if you have sex with someone especially like without a condom you're going to take on a lot of negative energies from people that they've been with and it'll go into you yeah in a spiritual aspect um so i'm weird about sex i actually haven't had sex in two years is that right yeah i mean aside from with myself yeah i haven't had sex since july of 2019. is that cleansing for you in some way um my last relationship my ex-boyfriend was sexually assaulting me and it took me almost two years to get over it oh yeah yeah that's a good reason yeah i met him when i when i moved to las vegas in 2018 and he just totally [ __ ] me up he [ __ ] me up really bad he would make me take down all my modeling pictures off of instagram and on tags from other photographers as well just the bourdoir ones because he was like i don't want anyone to see my girlfriend like that and i was doing it and it's like i would have been a model for 15 years professionally and um and i was like yeah i love you all do you know that's why if it makes you uncomfortable of course like i got you and and um after i did it i felt like a part of me was missing i was like hey wait that's not right if it's part of my past okay you don't want to do it anymore fine but it's my past you can't just erase it it's who i am it's what has brought me to you today you know what i mean so um yeah but he was sexually abusing me um and i don't know if i'm fully like okay from it but i mean it's been two years yeah but i just um i've really haven't been able to open myself up sexually to anybody that's for a long time it might be good to take a break and just ease back into it yeah when it feels right so having done all the sex work over the years what what have you learned about men and their behavior all right so men all think the same kind pretty much they have the the same thought processes they have their own little routines in their head i know guys don't like rainy days that's that's a really good day to get a client on a rainy day on a rainy day a rainy cloudy cold day guys want to be in bed interesting um guys are pretty easy to figure out um males are my favorite i love i love men so it hasn't jaded me i don't hate men um i hate people for the things that they do um but i think men are just kind of funny i think they're easy to figure out and um yeah what kind of what kind of strange behaviors have you seen though all these girls that have done this kind of work have these stories that just make you roll your eyes at men so i had this sugar daddy once that we would get a hotel in salt lake all the time really nice on the monaco we'd have dinner and then we'd go to the room and fool around and this one time he had me get on all fours in front of the mirror because the mirror kind of went down to the floor and he had me get on all fours and he was having sex for me from behind and was making me make out with myself on the mirror and that was really strange i also had another guy once in park city get a hotel room with me and he had this briefcase within the silver briefcase and i was like oh man what is in here and he had all kinds of weird stuff and i actually made him get into a bathtub and shave his uh genitals and then i and then i made him sit in the bathtub while the water drained out and clean it up after and he had this fake dildo that actually squirted out like liquid like like it would become or whatever but and um he was like tell me to teach him how to give him [ __ ] and stuff with that so they're strange sometimes i also had kind of still having other clients um that i do dominatrix for and um the other day he had a chastity belt on that has a key and i hid the key in all my clothes and i said okay you gotta go find the key and i was like whipping him you're not finding it fast enough so that are interesting yeah there's all kinds um and they all want something different it's not usually the same they all have a different scenario idea so you're so are you content to stay here doing what you're doing or do do you think there's other avenues for you down the road i would love to not do only fans oh you want to get out completely yeah from sex work yeah good for you i've been trying for about three years now and it's hard for all the reasons that we just talked about probably yeah like i started working at a dispensary this year and that's nice i do production in the back so i just um package things all day i don't have to deal with any clients i don't have to deal with people i don't want to uh handle any money um i listen to music whatever kind of music i want all day and i just handle marijuana and packaging and um that's been nice i go home and i smile and i'm like ah you know it feels good this is what it should feel like what would you say is the most important lesson you've learned in your life compassion compassion there's a lot of people that don't have it i have no time for those types of people but if you just have compassion it just lives with you you know and um very healing yeah when you give it to others yeah all right christy thank you so much for sharing your story thanks i wish you the best of luck with your new direction thank you thank you very much you

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Published: Fri Jul 09 2021