Why I got an "Abortion"

okay we're starting the anesthesia you might start to feel drowsy okay oh yeah a little oh boy and a little loopy oh yeah I'm feeling real fruit loopy all right we're gonna take you into the OR now okay okay hey you wanna know something crazy if I was in Texas or Alabama or something I don't think I'd be able to do this what oh honey of course you could two weeks later hello my name is Alyssa and in January 2022 I could tell something was very very wrong with my body which to be fair is a common occurrence for me I battled eczema as soon as I popped out of the womb I then survived pneumonia before I could even spell pneumonia I was later diagnosed with asthma and went to asthma Camp I've struggled with my mental health and only recently found out I was on the Spectrum and you do not want to be around me after I've eaten cheese cheap bathroom humor aside in 2022 my restroom was no longer a place of rest because I had just gotten my period but it was nothing like it had ever been in my 25 years of owning a uterus this period was extremely heavy and I grew up with heavy periods but this varmint was not privy to being tamed Mother Nature managed to soak through regular sized pads in two hours or less a new personal record good for you why are you doing that oh God and the pain God again I know period cramps all too well but this this pain was worse than cramps it was unending uninterrupted and unyielding to Advil it left me bedridden and anytime I did get up to you know eat pee or clean up the Kool-Aid again I would get light-headed and dizzy from the blood loss I also unintentionally lost 10 percent of my body weight but thankfully after a week on Mother Nature's wild ride it stopped well kinda the debilitating pain was only a temporary thing but the period stayed I mean it did go from Splash Mountain to more of a lazy river I guess but even if this was just a new thing Mother Nature wanted to test run a period is supposed to end after about a week so frankly I was surprised I still had any blood left in me my mom's a labor and delivery nurse you know the one who catches babies when they're born so whenever weird things happen with my uterus I consult her her but she was stumped so she recommended I just go to my local Planned Parenthood which by the way I've been to before you know for General checkups because my primary doctor didn't have any appointments but this was the first time I'd be going for uterus related reasons and I was nervous but the people who work at Planned Parenthood have always been the sweetest most understanding group of nurses doctors and Health Care Professionals I've ever met so in case you've never been here's how that goes first I went online to locate my nearest Planned Parenthood then I called the number but before I could even talk to someone about my symptoms or set up an appointment the person over the phone had a whole rigmarole to ensure I was in a safe household had safe partners and people around me and to understand they would only call me from a private number that couldn't be traced just in case I was in an unsafe situation and couldn't be truthful during this phone call and for some phone calls we even set a temporary password to say out loud in case anyone try to pretend to be me to access my records without my consent and I'll admit when this was explained to me I was confused it seemed like a lot just for a little checkup but then I thought about it Planned Parenthood has got to be the most divisive place to walk into let alone discuss out loud after setting my appointment which thankfully I was able to get within the next day or so the lady on the phone made sure to tell me this make sure you show up to the correct address and only talk to people with Planned Parenthood badges some people might try to approach you yell at you or convince you to go to another building they don't work for us but they may lie and pretend they do to keep you from going to your appointment and silly old me thought but I'm in California the most hippie dippy do whatever you want kind of place right surely there won't be there was a huge crowd of people if I had to guess there were about 20 people standing right at the entrance holding signs chanting and cars driving by were honking and giving thumbs up to them and I had to drive right next to them into the parking lot they saw my face I saw all of theirs and the way they looked at me was I don't know like pity almost they were laser focused on me but not in a concerned way it was more like a face that says what are you doing here which Probably sounds weird but that's the best way I could describe it I did my best to avoid eye contact and confrontation until I made it inside and to my surprise the people outside were so loud that I could hear them chanting and yelling from inside the waiting room and it felt awful they had no idea what was going on inside me heck I didn't even know what was going on inside me that's why I came here but here they were pretending to know why I was here pretending to care about my body and doing so by raising such a Ruckus about it that I didn't feel safe simply going to a doctor's appointment to find out whether or not I'm dying and on top of that accusing me and my doctors of murder and the most up part part of me believed them even though I knew what they were chanting couldn't be further from the truth once the nurse called me back we did all the normal doctor stuff she took my weight she checked my blood pressure listened to my lungs all that then she led me to a you know regular doctor office patient room and told me to wait there for the doctor to come in just like a normal checkup except with people chanting and yelling horrible things outside when the doctor came in I told her what was going on and how I had never experienced anything like this before are you on birth control have you had any new partners do you use protection have you been under any stress lately the doctor was very limited in what she was allowed to do since she worked at Planned Parenthood she advised me to see my OB GYN which is a special kind of doctor that's most known for managing pregnancy and all things related to that and request I have an ultrasound done to see what was going on inside my uterus so I did I left the building walked past the scary people outside drove home and called my OB GYN unfortunately they're a very busy place so I wasn't able to get an appointment until March which didn't work with my schedule so I got an appointment in April so to recap it's April my uterus has been lazy rivering with week-long spurts of Splash Mountain for four months straight I was slowly losing blood energy and my will to live but at this point I was just used to it I just planned my life around it because what other choice did I have and that's when my doctor discovered something in my uterus it was only one centimeter big so maybe the size of an m m but it was attached to the inside wall of my uterus and it was growing or trying to at least because although it had begun to grow there my uterus wasn't capable of sustaining it and so as my doctor theorized Mother Nature was trying her darndest to wash it down the drain so to speak but it was still hanging on despite her efforts that's why I was bleeding so much that's why I was so tired there was something growing inside of me my body couldn't take it and it was doing its best to get rid of it per usual natural processes but it just wasn't strong enough at least not without medical intervention but my doctor said that was up to me and I was terrified when she explained this to me this had never happened to me before and I did everything right I was always careful I'd been on birth control since the age of 15 nearly 10 years at this point so how could this happen and what was I supposed to do now I was scared of letting my body attempt to pass it on its own considering that was clearly not working and I was scared of it growing and potentially killing me but I was also terrified of getting it removed and the potential for that kind of surgery to come up in conversation one day my doctor did her best to calm me down and explain neutrally this is just what happens sometimes when you're young your uterus is full of hormones and you can be as safe and as careful and as healthy as you can but things happen things outside of our control things just grow there sometimes but she assured me for every Next Step that I was in control Choice a was to leave it come back in a month and get another ultrasound to see if it's gotten any bigger or if Mother Nature miraculously managed to shoot it out into the Splash Zone or Choice B they schedule a dilation and curettage also known as a DNC also known as an abortion but it was my choice to make she revealed to me this happened to her too when she was my age but she chose to not get surgery she said her body was able to pass it eventually and nothing bad happened although it was very bloody very painful and very scary at the time she knew I was a young woman A working woman that I had a lot on my plate already and I didn't have a partner at the time to go to these appointments with me and hold my hand when I was scared but again she assured me it was my choice to make and she would honor it no matter what so I decided to go for the DNC but I had to wait another two months the soonest they could get me in was June June 9th to be exact which fun fact was about two weeks before I went to VidCon and double fun fact this was the same time frame that the Supreme Court was reconsidering the 1973 Landmark ruling of Roe v Wade that concluded the right to access abortion so I gained another fear that this procedure would not happen that my doctors would be arrested and that I would die Gotta Laugh through the pain man a week before my doctors went in another ultrasound revealed the regular Eminem had now grown to a peanuts Eminem and a second regular-sized m m had cropped up in my cervix terrifying thankfully I was able to have my surgery on the ninth I got the two growths removed and a couple weeks later the lab confirmed the mysterious fast-growing lumps inside my uterus were benign meaning I did not have uterine or cervical cancer what wait a minute you said you had an abortion but you didn't well technically according to the law I did since the Supreme Court eliminated the federal right to an abortion and has now left it up to each individual state to decide the procedure performed on my body a procedure that removes unwanted tissue from inside the uterus in some states by law is now considered an abortion no it wasn't you didn't have a baby in you you weren't pregnant I know I know that you know that and my doctors know that but lawmakers don't they're not me they're not you and they're not doctors most of them don't even have a uterus let alone Fidelity in their marriages and yet they get to Define what an abortion is and according to their broad vague and flimsy definitions I had an abortion God forbid you miscarry and the unviable fetus is killing you from the inside out you would also need a DNC but the law would say ooh sorry that's an abortion and we can't allow that isn't that messed up so let me reiterate this in the simplest of terms it didn't matter that the clump of cells inside me had toenails or cancer because as of June 24th 2022 a doctor who performs a surgery to empty a uterus for any reason and anyone who receives that surgery no matter what's going on are at risk of being arrested find and or sent to prison according to their state laws in some States they're even considering the death penalty and in even more States doctors are leaving hospitals are understaffed and people are dying if I didn't have that procedure I'd still be crying in bed from not just the pain and the blood and the exhaustion from my maybe cancerous tumors as they grew bigger and bigger I'd also be crying because I'd have no choice but to die a slow and painful death did you hear me I would have no choice so if you felt betrayed that I would dare to call this procedure by the same watered-down language as our own laws but then breathed a sigh of relief once you found out it was just a tumor and not an embryo you need to confront the fact that you don't value my life you don't value the living you only value an organ and its ability to produce children not the actual living breathing person who for some reason has to beg for the right to their life their Liberty and their happiness that's what this is all about that's what this has always been about it's not an opinion it's my life it's my choice thank you for watching my video and as always stay safe

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Length: 14min 17sec (857 seconds)

Published: Thu Aug 31 2023