Pimp interview-Sabrina

yeah like i'm a hustler i love money like my name is cash for a reason you can't stop me i'ma get money the way i can and that's just me i'm 27 years old i'm young i have no kids and i'm gay and i'm a pimp like it can't get no better than that sabrina yes sabrina where'd you grow up where are you from originally i am from compton california i grew up in off of bradfield and rose krantz i'm from mairu um so you have a gang yes yes which gang is this mop that's a blood gang yes yep tell me about your family growing up okay so uh my mom got pregnant at 13 years old and my grandpa my grandma put her out on the streets she when she had me she gave me up to my grandma and grandpa and they raised me till i was two my mom took me back she was introduced into drugs sherm acid myth whatever you know she can get on her hands on just so she can prostitute at the age of 13. um well my family is i'm mexican puerto rican and samoan my family is the mexican side which they're really strict i didn't know no english until i turned 13. so growing up it was hard because i was as dark as i am and my family believed that i was black but so they used to beat me they used to make sure i spoke spanish they used to try to scrub the color off my skin and my mom took me back when i was two my mom told me back when i was two i used to be with her on the stroll the hostro all hours of the day all all the nights and you were old i was two two years old two years old your mom was working figaro street figaro in long beach long beach was her main one long beach boulevard yes um then my grandma took me back when i was five years old and um when i was eight my my mom came and picked me up and told me that she was trying to get out of the game of the prostitution game that her that she's trying to get away from her pimp and she had to tell me a bunch of stuff so we parked in watts california and she told me that she loved me to be good for my grandma and my family and that she's sorry and everything will be okay two minutes later she got out the car told me to lay in the back seat i actually got back up after she closed the door and i watched her get killed she got shot 17 times by three pimps i watched it all when i was eight years old um the ambulance and police came and took me back to my family and i was at a soccer game when they finally gave us the news that she did not make it so you watched your mom get murdered yes at eight years old so at night so at nine years old what street was this on this was off of 108th and i don't know the other street but it's off 108th by gravestreet elementary so um yeah so at nine years old my grandfather came and moved in i was i was one day i was walking from from school and when i walked into the house i saw my grandfather raping my melissa my cousin and at that time my cousins you know i grew up with them so i called them my brothers and sisters so at that time she was only four years old and he was like in this in the tub like rubbing on her her vagina area so i took it upon myself and told him to touch on me instead of touching on her you know i was grown she wasn't i know it wasn't right but you know so i actually you're protecting her i protected her by putting myself in danger so it became more and more that he was raping me molesting me and all kinds of stuff and i tried to one day we were at a party in my at my house and he came in the garage drunk and my cousins were and everybody were in the garage and he tried to get on top of me and and do me in front of my cousins and i called him all kind of [ __ ] and he got mad so he went and told my aunt that i called him a [ __ ] so my aunt came and she started yelling at me so i had to i told her i'm like well he's raping me and when i told her that she slapped me and she told me that only like we keep it in the family we don't say things like that and i told her i was like it wasn't right you know i knew it wasn't right so two days later i ran away i ran away to a friend's house and then like a day later my gran my grandma found me and she found me and took me back home and then after that she used to come and pick me up after school and everything i wasn't allowed to go to school by myself anymore and one day i found a way to um to run away again and i did and they didn't they didn't catch me so this time my uncle came in to look for me he he came to look for me and he my friends told me where i was this was all at 12 years old so he they told him how um they told him i was he came and got me and took me to rancho from there i told him where i was and um that's why i told him everything that happened and he was so upset that he went back to the house and you know try to look for look for my grandfather but he was gone my grandfather knew what he did and he knew you know the things that were going to happen to him so he left i can't i went back home every day i was beat like because my grandmother was mad that i got rid of my grandfather so in order to cope with it i joined the gang and you know i'm not a bad i wasn't a bad kid i love school and all that but in order for me to deal with the gang and stuff and deal with school and not be tired and stuff i started doing math at 12 years old and from there we went from meth powder um a little bit of sherm here and there and crack so this is all at 12 years old then foster care came so they took me away and when they put me in foster care i had a nervous breakdown where i started biting the foster mom and when i started buying the foster mom she took me to the mental hospital where i was there for three months and i was convinced that something was wrong with me i didn't understand nothing i only knew spanish like nobody i didn't have anybody to talk to me right so i shut down i became mute and i didn't speak at all so finally i got into a foster home and i lived all the way in pinyon hills where it's like this is deserted it's just one house and then nothing but desert and then you have to drive 30 minutes to go to a store or anything else another house or anything else so living out there i was able to find myself and like meditate and do other things and my foster mom helped me like you know get together she she was been through the same thing i've been through so it was easier for me and her to connect yes i became unmute but i did not speak english still because my foster mom was hispanic so this whole time i'm going to school don't know english but you know i'm getting by so at 15 at 15 i run away because she started getting men in her house and i wasn't comfortable with it i'm not comfortable with hispanic men not being racist i'm just not it's just uncomfortable for me and i get nervous and i get very anxious i get inside bad anxiety so i run away and my social worker ended up bringing me to fontana so from fontana i was in a foster home and the foster mom lied to my f to my social worker telling her that there was no men that live in the house when they're in fact where was her trucker husband who was hispanic so he was having relations with the other foster daughters and i wasn't okay with it so one day when he tried to sneak into my room i cussed him out and i the next visit that i had with my family i let them know that i'm being like molested again and they gave me a cell phone and told me to call them when i needed them so when that happened um he came into my room again and i called my family when that happened i he slapped me he slapped me because i wouldn't give him my phone and then he when he told his wife that i was i had a cell phone and i was being respectful and he heard the phone go off and that he came to my room just so he can get the phone because we're not allowed a phone so when that happened she came to look for my phone and she couldn't find it because i hid it in my jacket so when they had left the next day i ran away i packed my things and i left i went to my best friend's house and i explained to him what was happening and his mom allowed me to stay with her they were african-american so i was staying there she while i was staying there i was hidden mind you i'm awol i'm i ran away from foster care my social worker doesn't know where i'm at there's a warrant out for my wrist and i'm living with another family and they're teaching me english i'm teaching them spanish like you know it's i'm not on drugs no more she helps me get back into high school and everything's going great so but one day um we were caught at the store stealing and um i got arrested i was arrested for three months until my fa to my social worker found me and when my social worker found me she sent me to a home in rancho manga at that home the mother was a young and she was she liked the club and she had kids who were pimps and they had hoes and they'll bring their their the hoes will bring their kids to me to watch them and i'll get paid for that so but as i'm watching the kids and he's teaching me the game and like this is what this is and you know and i told him like i'm gay i like women you know so he was just like well then i'ma teach you the game so you can become a pimp so he's giving me weed i'm we're smoking i'm back on drugs now boom started off a weed then he started doing a little lean in it and then a little crack so from there i'm getting high as hell and i'm still going to school i'm still doing like you know doing everything i'm supposed to until one day my foster mom has gets a boyfriend and he's belgian and she goes to work one day and he tries to again sexually harass me because i'm not giving him no play because i told him i'm gay he doesn't believe pretty women should be gay so therefore he started trying to molest me i let her know she was unhappy with it so i one day i asked her can i go to my best friend's house for a halloween party and she said yes so i go when i go the buses are stopped running so the bus stopped running and i called her and i let her know like okay can you come get me because you know the party's over she was just like no you ran away you did this and then like i don't want you back so i called my social worker i let my social worker know what's happening and i go and i stay there so i'm getting high because i'm worried that i'm going to go back to jail and like i'm crystalled out of my mind like just so crystalled on my mind so when i call myself show worker the next day she tells me that it's okay for me to stay where i'm at so i stay there i go to high school i'm in high school and every day at this foster home i'm fighting her daughter every day like there was no it was a constant goal like every day i wake up i have to fight every day this and that like it was so it was so dramatic in that house it was so uncomfortable for me to live but yet i still did everything i was supposed to i made i went to work i went to school i did everything i graduated a year before i was supposed to graduate and i was just working that whole year so i would pay rent i would do everything i was supposed to watch the kids all that and i grad when i graduated high school i paid for all my my own high school experience and after that i went to college i got an aaa in sociology and i was sober for a little bit until i got put out of the house and when i put out the house i was forced to go live with her daughter when i went to go live with her daughter her daughter um used me just like a baby to the kids and so she can get money off of me and after that i just called my my old foster brother and i told him like i need money i i'm i'm tired of just sitting here in the house i'm tired of being broke i'm tired of being like bothered like this and i'm i want money so he took me to he took me out to san bernardino off of g street and he was like teaching me like telling me like oh this is this and this and back now i'm getting high again with him popping molly's popping e pills getting high and leaned out and just awake all night all day just so i can be able to learn the routes so once i learned the routes i com called my little friends that liked me and stuff on facebook and i let them know like oh do you want to make extra money this is this this is that and so they were just like yeah so i go pick them up and i put them down money starts coming in i learned how to post them i post them on craigslist backpage redbook meet me all kind of all kind of websites that i can put them on just so i can make money and the money was flowing in and i got addicted so i started getting addicted and that's when i started pressing um crystal hard i started slamming it i started smoking it started sniffing it whatever i can do with crystal i did it i uh cheated it up you know back there and i just anything to get a high so i can be okay with it you know and as a woman i couldn't be in the car it would be suspicious so i used to dress as a prostitute and go down and you know be around the girls and in order to stay warm i had to do other drugs so i did crack and i was naked always naked and out there and just watching everything that goes down collecting money selling drugs and you know maneuvering so one day i got kidnapped i got kidnapped by a pimp named kelly in pomona california and he pistol with me he took me to his house in la and he was he tried to force me to hold for him but the thing is that he didn't want me to hold he wanted me to steal he didn't want me to sell myself he wanted me to pretend so he can still and i can steal from them and he used to he used to beat people like bloody murdered and i was like fighting for my life every day like i used to almost use the bathroom on myself number two because i was so scared like i was on the street and he was parked right there like there was nowhere for i can move like you know nothing so one day he got comfortable after two weeks he got comfortable and took me back to pomona right when i got to pomona i called my old foster brother and i'm like look i'm here in pomona come get me he comes and he gets me so when he comes and gets me he asks me like what happened and i'm telling him like i'm describing the guy describing the car and everything come to find out that it's his cousin his cousin saw me one day and he was just like i want her and i'm gonna do whatever i gotta do to get her so when he finds out it's his cousin they end up fighting the street boom we all go to jail i go to jail and i get relief and i go home to compton california and i started gang banging again and i started really like selling drugs and pimping and doing all this kind of stuff and to get money and my family started disowning me when they started disowning me i started slang it to my family like i started giving my family drugs and you know doing it like that and then um i started i started pimping on my little sister she was 15 years old and she wanted to hold so i i had her holding for me and you're hold up you're how old now me i was playing you went up at the time you were 21 yes and she was she was no i was 18 and she was 15. so so we're i'm selling her me me my guy friend and her were thugging it then we started getting more females and my little sister runs away and she doesn't come back she goes back home and she's a pregnant and i'm still doing me then my other girl leaves me because she got ran over by a car and she felt like i didn't care so now i'm here i'm slanging dope in the in the riverbed i'm sleeping in tents i'm cracked out of my mind i'm like just so crystal out of my mind i'm lit i'm going from garage to garage to garage and hotel to hotel to hotel 10 to 10 to 10 in all in norwalk riverbed by the greenline station so then one day my friend hits me up and he's like oh i got a girl for you so i go to southgate and i meet this girl she tells me she's 18 years old at this time i'm 21. so she tells me she's 18 years old and that she wants a whole so we started doing it i got her hooked on crystal meth and so we're getting high as hell me and her end up falling in love with each other and after we fall in love with each other i'm like hey i don't want you homie no more she's just like well this is the only way to make you happy so i'm going to go ahead and hold so we're she's hoeing and we're doing this whole thing well one day i get pulled over by the police and they find my gun in my car and they take my best friend to jail they take him to jail and then when they id her they find out that she's missing she's been missing so me not thinking because i'm so high and i'm never i haven't been to sleep so i'm delusional i'm like what do you mean like why are you taking him this is my girl and whatever not they were just like well either we take her or we take you and i'm like why would you take her and they were like well she's 17 years old and i'm like well take her then like i'm not gonna go to jail so they take her and so she hits me up and tells me i'm all i'm messed up that she she's being raped by her her dad and that i need to come get her well i can't come get you so i leave her where she's at so i end up building my best friend out and we're in his garage and i get a phone call from the girl and she tells me like oh i need you to you to me meet up with me i got money for you and all this now me i'm so money hungry and so delusional i go so when i go over there we're talking and i fall into her trap that you know like i started answering questions that i shouldn't have answered like she asked me why did i do it to her i told her because i needed the money why did i beat her why did i make her have sex with eric and i'm like i didn't have you have sex with eric you chose to have sex with eric for some money so she was she she set me up and all i know is what came she was a woman she was an informant she was an informant and i got put on long beach in rosecrans at mcdonald's they swarmed up on me and they took me to jail so i'm fighting i'm i'm in jail fighting pimping and pandering human trafficking um kidnap in false imprison impersonation and rape so they're trying to give me 65 a life i won't take the deal so then they tell me 25 to life i'm definitely not taking the deal or do you want to go to trial no because i know i'm going to lose because there's some things that did happen and didn't happen so then they gave me 16 with half no 16 with life i told them no then they told me 16 would have fine you know so i took 16 with half and um in february um 2017 i ended up going up to chachilla in print to prison for pimping and pandering pimping and pandering human trafficking a female a female tim a female pimp so well i'm in charge the first day in chatella i the first day i got off the bus i ra um i had girls at my door three girls ready to fight me so i got jumped i didn't lose you know but i got jumped because they said pretty girls are not allowed to be in the yard because they don't want their girls which are either transgenders or studs trying to hit on us so i got jumped for being pretty so from that day i started doing drugs and i started making shanks um i got caught and i went to shu which is acid lock up 24 out of seven lockers like solitary confinement yeah i was in solitary confinement for six months and then when i got out i started fighting just every day i went over the i went over the wall to the main yard and i started just fighting everybody everybody like every day it was non-stop fighting like i had scratches i had like bald spots in my hair like it was just that's why my face is like so like i have dark marks because i was fighting every day so i ended up it was to the point where i i hated people and i didn't i didn't stop like every day was fight for me so one day this girl that was always bullying me since reception um i had enough for her so every time i seen her it was it was a fight on site like i would go to her school i will i will go to her school beat her up i'll go into her room beat her up i'll go to child beat her up i would like everything until she started pressing charges on me and i ended up with an assault and battery recharge so here goes more time so they pushed me from 2021 all the way to 2026. so so now i'm in solitary confinement again and i'm here for eight months so from after solitary confinement the girl calls enemies on me so i have to go to another prison when i go to ciw which is california institute for women in corona i meet my girlfriend and when i meet my girlfriend um she tells me like she's not going to put up on my [ __ ] that she doesn't need she needs me to go home before you know before time so i did everything that i was supposed to i sobered up i started going back to college i started getting i started working i started working out i started behaving myself and i got my time back to may 2021. well my best friend that was there at the time she was a drug addict and you know i got back on on it because you know being in a room with her i got back on my drugs so now i'm i'm trying to keep it like oh i'm not on drugs but i am on drugs you know like trying to keep it away from the police so and trying to hide it and it got so hard that i just passed out so i asked them to put me back in walker which is the um the mental institution and um because i try to commit suicide because i just couldn't take it no more like i was tired i was i was frustrated like everything like was coming down on me like i was just breaking down little by little by little and i try to kill myself i try to hang myself and i didn't go through with it so i was in walker for three months and they finally let me back out and when they let me out they told me i was gonna go to padding so either i got my stuff back together and get on my medication or or i will go to patents so i got back um i got back on my my medication and i did my time and i got out may 2nd well when i got out to may 2nd they put me here at the weingarten when i got here to the weingarten immediately i became a fiend again um huh you've only been out a short time yeah i've only been out for a few weeks and i got back on drugs like i'm addicted i'm i'm an addict like the drugs don't do me i do the drugs but i'm a fiend like i love drugs i love the way it makes me feel crystal meth yes i love the way it makes me feel like it makes me feel like i don't have a cure in the world and i don't like i carry my pokey everywhere with me and it's just i don't care like i gave up gang banging and i'm here at this program trying to get my life together yet i'm still getting high and are you bad are you back to the prostitution um i'm back at prostitution i'm i'm pimping and pandering again i'm looking i can't even lie i'm i am looking for girls but in a different way like i'm not trying to do things i used to do the same way i'm just trying to do it more in the as an escort service instead of prostitution so yeah like i'm a hustler i love money like my name is cash for a reason so i'll get it anyway i can i do it any way i can and you can't stop me i'ma get money the way i can and that's just me i'm 27 years old i'm young i have no kids and i'm gay and i'm a pimp like it can't get no better than that like girls love me like why not you know so that's my life and you told me you're a version as well and i'm a virgin i'm a 27 year old version you've been molested by your i've been molested but in my eyes i haven't gave myself up oh i see i haven't said yes so in my eyes i'm a version whether they took it or not in my eyes i'm always going to be a virgin until i'm ready to go ahead and be like all right take it one day maybe i want kids so it might be soon i'm glad you're playing the game a little smarter than you were before yes of course i'm not sure it's it's not it's not smart but it's smarter or smarter yes i mean it's hard out here kovic it's like it's hard to get a job out here nowadays it's hard to get your social it's hard to get your w what's your view on on taking a girl a young girl and putting her to work and well okay so that was okay so when i was doing my sister i was she told me either i do it with her like either i pimp on her or she was gonna go to someone else this is the same sister that would that was blessed by my grandfather and i helped her out so why not she's going to do it anyway she's going to do it anyways so why not look after her and with her it wasn't like i was like oh go out there [ __ ] like no i had her and i was in the room with her while she was doing her dates i was there protecting her now with everyone else i didn't give a [ __ ] i didn't give a [ __ ] like if they went to jail i didn't give a damn like that's you guys you guys chose to do this with her i was there every step of the way you know and so she ran away and i was like all right cool i don't have to worry no more and i started really like pimping but i do feel bad and how is your arrangement they bring you the money i collect the money before they do their date like i wasn't i was one of their pimps that it was like all right hand over the money i'm a girl like they're not going to tell me no like you know so they're not worried about me and do you give them i give them yes i give them their cuts yes i do i make sure they're they're well groomed i make sure they have clothes i make sure their hygienes are fine i make sure their doctor's appointments are great i make sure they're just they're they're natural they're bomb [ __ ] like they're i never had them looking like hoes on fig aurora or like just stragglers i never had them looking like that they were a1 like they couldn't be in casinos like they were always online and when they wanted to get down and on the blade they got down on the blade by themselves i didn't force them i always had their trap made when they were doing it online so they were really escorts but i didn't mess up by having a minor and i do regret it because i should have been smarter than that because that is somebody's child you know but i did not force her she came willingly so that i don't regret but i do regret like putting her through the stuff i put her through and getting yourself in trouble and getting myself in trouble yeah so what what have you learned from all this you're still young you're 27 yes i've learned that i can't trust people the way i thought i could i'm not i can't be loyal to people that i used to be because back then i was loyal like i gave everybody everything i gave you my last i go give you my shirt on my back if you needed it nowadays i'm like [ __ ] you i got the [ __ ] it's i don't care like you can be dying you could be burning out there and i wouldn't piss on you like literally like i have no care in the world nobody gave a damn about me i did i did eight years by myself in prison nobody there for me but my girlfriend so i had to plug it out by myself and now i got the [ __ ] so i don't care like i don't care about you and i'm not going to jail for you or for nobody else like if i'm going to go to john i'm going to go to jail for something serious and that's just that and my life i'm just going to i'm going to live it i'm going to go back to school yeah i'm i'm on drugs but i know how to do stuff legally now now i know i have a i know my limit i'm not unsure i'm not on heroin i'm not on all that kind of stuff i'm just on crystal and weed that's that all right cash cash cash thank you so much for talking with me and i wish you the best of luck be careful out there thank you so much thank you very much you

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Published: Wed Jul 21 2021