I'm tired

hello I know what you're going to say so I'm going to cut you off at the pass ordinarily a YouTuber would be like go to the comments leave a comment drop them comment on I've been busy if it wasn't apparent and is usually the case whenever I'm not posting videos for a while it's because I'm working on other stuff that just needs my attention so that's what I've been doing and I'm saying this which is in the ti I don't know why I keep pointing up there it hasn't been up there in years but I came here to say this because I am tired and I kind of want to share that because I haven't been able to share pretty much anything um the amount of work that I've had to put into iron lung recently has been uh probably more than any other project that I've had to do in addition to having to learn so many different things that I thought I knew how to do or I had a surface level knowledge of and I had to expand on that and expand on that and keep digging deeper and what's great is nothing nothing is great it's not great long story short I have been busy and I'm going to be busy for a little bit longer uh I know I've said these words before and I know that they've lost all meaning but final stretch the thing about a final stretch is that it can keep stretching and that's what it's been doing and that's what it's been doing to me I've been stretched very thin um and that means that I just haven't been able to make videos and that sucks like it just does I want to say that out loud because we all know it like you know it I know it and that's why I said at the beginning of this like hold on I know what you're going to say you don't need to say it because I know it but it needs to be said right like I'm I'm very tired I I've been I've been busting my ass on this for like almost a year now and that's crazy actually over a year now now that I think about it that's even crazier because that's one Unis Onis right yeah it's very not easy but it's very simple to reduce things down to one year year when you know exactly how much work goes into a year of working every day on something and uh that was doing dishonest and I've been working on this longer than that uh admittedly there was a big strike in the middle of it but it didn't mean the work stopped for me it was just like I got to um try to get ahead on some problem solving and try to learn some things and try to get ahead in other areas and this this all ties into something that I believe very intensely and that has led me to where I am today in terms of making content on YouTube is that some things are worth pushing yourself for some things are worth stretching yourself very thin for I would not be here if I did not throw myself in head first into things that I did not fully understand with all the confidence in the world that I would figure it out and no I didn't land on my feet all the time I landed on my ass head and literally everywhere but my feet but I got through it you know you can learn a lot of things about yourself and you can learn a lot of things that you didn't know you could do and I have in this past year learned a ton of that I can't talk about just yet except I have that's the thing I have been talking about it on distractable and go my favorite sports team if you didn't know I have two podcasts um and I've been keeping up with those regularly for me mentally talking with my friends and being able to have that sense of normaly when I can't just do regular stuff by myself is been very peaceful and has been very nice and that's part of the reason why I started those podcasts with my friends is so that I could have a regular means with talking to them and just getting these thoughts out of my head and and de-stressing about the things that have been pushing me but even now I can't do that because it is the final stretch and I have to do uh so much more like I'm not even close like I'm close to done but looking at the amount of work I'm not even close to done and that's you know I mean it's not good but it doesn't have to be good to be good later you know what I mean that's my philosophy part of the creative process is not all sunshine and rainbows you know it's bashing your head against the wall and I've been doing that and I'm very good at that if you didn't know me I'm exceptionally good at that and in bashing my head against the wall uh somehow my skull just gets thicker and my brain just gets bigger um and my confidence in what I can do grows but also crumbles a lot a lot a lot that's part of it too you know uh just working on this has been a bear working on this has been a big cement block tied to each shoe and then I'm going down in the ocean of blood but it's fun or it will be once I uh swim to the surface that's that's a trick I got to swim to the surface that's the only trick you're going down jumping into a new project that's the easy part you you turns out you just sink uh the rest of it to either swim up to the Top If you have the skill to do that or you walk along the the bottom of the ocean and you you crawl up on shore I don't know where this analogy is going but it seems weirdly fitting and also related to what I'm doing so I'm going to stick with it and I'm going to stick with this and I'm going to stick it out until the end of this project and that way I can show you something cool and if this goes the way that seems to be going I'll get to do it again I'll get to do it again yes I will and I look forward to that that's I when I say I love doing this like you can't you can't tell me that I'm not telling the truth cuz I really I really can't wait to do it all over I'm going to take a break after this is done after this movie comes out I'm going to take a big old break and by break I mean I'm just going to focus on making YouTube videos for a little bit that sounds like fun and then maybe helping other people make some cool that doesn't have me involved in every step of the process that sounds kind of cool too so I'm going to do that but first I'm going to go get Ramen with Amy and then I'm G to play with chica or something she's doing good by the way so's Henry so am I just a little stressed that's okay just want to let you know so I'm going to get back to it uh and by to it I mean the ramen thing that I'm doing and I promise I won't work for the rest of the night even though it's like 800 p.m. all right bye

Channel: Markiplier

Views: 7,498,192

Keywords: markiplier, im tired

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Length: 6min 54sec (414 seconds)

Published: Tue Mar 12 2024