Climbing Out of Pain and Disappointment | feat. Pastor Havilah Cunnington

hello friends and family so glad that you are here for our wednesday night sermon right here on youtube facebook live however you joined us i'm so glad that you're here i have a special surprise for you tonight one of my friends pastor havela cunnington who is also one of my women's conference speakers you're going to get a message from her tonight just to whet your appetite for what the unique conference has in store so sit back call somebody it's going to be so good i believe it's going to be life-changing so don't move it is an honor to be with you tonight i am havilah cunnington um [Music] [Applause] it has already been a good night yeah how many of you are left over from the youth conference that are still here from our awakening awesome okay great how many of you um got i it was amazing i got to see so many reports from that and i'm so proud of pastor tom and the team that pulled that off incredible incredible things and we just pray that every heart stays awakened every life is changed and i just think about my own encounters at youth camps and conferences and i had so many prophetic moments that changed me forever and it was such a big deal how many of you had those moments that were so life-changing and i believe god really speaks to us in moments like that so i'm proud of our team and uh it's good to be here it's good to be home my husband and i oversee and director were the directors of moral revolution here so we um oversee the sex ministry because we're um we're having it and um don't be jealous i love you honey anna so my husband is here i have two kids in the two boys that are here and then two that are um in in the uh they're being babysat and uh and so it's good to be back we actually been on the road we were in colorado and then we've been on sacramento and and different places anybody from colorado that are here all right uh it's a good place to be um there is it's god's country there i i really do feel like god's about to move in colorado if it does have a something that's there besides hunting um i know that you guys have that that thing going for you and fishing but it really does have there's something really special going on there so i definitely want to attest to that but anyways pull out your bibles if you will to uh the book of james it's good to have my parents are here in the house as well i love them always partially because they gave me birth and i have to and partially no i'm teasing and partially because they are godly they love the lord and they've raised me up in the things of the lord which have great value i'm glad that five of us believe that they have it has great value so um we tonight my message is a unique message and uh my message is entitled climbing out of pain and disappointment and uh i think that maybe a little bit of what we prayed for at the end of worship and where we headed in worship had a prophetic grace because of what we're going to hit on tonight and my thought a little bit and what we have done for the last 20 i actually celebrate 20 years of ministry this year and my thought often is that people love the lord they want to do what's in their heart to do they really want to encounter his presence but when they come against disappointment and pain they don't quite know what to do with it when they believe for things they hope for things they trust that god will do something and he doesn't necessarily do what they would hope that he would do they don't know how to process it and oftentimes they run from communities of the church they run from even god himself they don't they can't sing songs like what a good good father because it's painful and i think if we don't quite know how to deal with disappointment and pain we won't last long i don't think we will have longevity because the bible says that out of the heart our life happens and if we don't know how to manage our hearts well then we don't know how to manage our life well and no one can pull you out of pain no one can pull you out of disappointment there really is an internal work of the holy spirit that has to happen and no one knows your story no one knows what happened to you no one knows what was said to you no one knows the memories that happened to you no one knows exactly how you're managing internally whether there was something that was a big deal on paper or whether it was a little deal on paper no one quite knows what's happening on the inside of you and so no one knows how you're living it out and so oftentimes we can fake it until we don't make it anymore and we will many times disappear in disappointment and pain and what i would like to see is that we learn to live in a way that is a whole body soul spirit that we learn to go after these areas of our hearts that we would climb out of pits of pain if you will and learn to grow and i believe tonight that i have an anointed word and that i say that in faith i believe that i'm anointed to teach you how to get out of pain and i believe that the holy spirit has given me some divine direction to lead you out of pain and disappointment that you will not face the next year like you have and the things that have kept you will not keep you anymore and that the spirit of god is going to come in on the inside of you and work with you to co-labor in your life to teach you how to do this and the book of james gives us some major insight into this reality it shows us uh that we are not alone in this that no matter how isolated you feel in your story no matter how isolated you feel in your pain or disappointment or um crap there is something that's happening that the truth is we're all going to face things and so the book of james tells us this and it teaches us teaches us this very very clearly it says this in verse 2 it says consider it pure joy my brothers and sisters whenever you face trials of many kinds because you know that the testing of your faith produces what perseverance let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete not lacking anything let's pray god help amen the bible says that all of us will face trials and tribulations we will all face pain we will all face disappointment and then it has the audacity it has the the uh the boldness to say that the pain and trials and tribulations are going to make our faith complete which i think sounds totally ridiculous until we begin to understand the the really what god had in store all along and i think we're going to learn a little bit about this turn to genesis chapter 37 and i'm going to we're going to kind of walk this through and i promise that you're going to get a lot out of this genesis chapter 37 talks more about this story explains the story of joseph it explains about this young boy who is his father's favorite now i have a house full of boys is anybody from a house full of boys we don't buy a lot of toilet paper but we buy a lot of band-aids do you know what i mean okay come on don't look so spiritual you're like that doesn't come on relax all right we have a lot of boys we you know every time we hear these stories in the bible i can just imagine our house i can imagine our boys i can imagine brothers i can imagine beatings i can imagine underwear i can imagine capes lightsabers i can imagine um just a lot of things that are sometimes good and sometimes a little bloody but i can imagine it all and i can imagine this father has this son and he is his dad's favorite i mean this joseph comes out and he is his dad's favorite now i don't like the fact that he's his dad's favorite i don't like the fact that his dad picks him as a favorite but but somehow joseph comes out and all of a sudden he is his dad's favorite everybody knows it and let me just say this which has nothing to do with this message if you flaunt your favor you will stir up strife that was so good i'm going to say it again if you flaunt your favor you will stir up strife and so joseph had no maturity to realize that the people around him were seeing a gift on his life and so he was flaunting his favor he was shoving it in his family's face he was using his gift and everybody was getting very annoyed by it listen i don't care how gifted and how graced you are if you can't carry it with humility nobody wants to hear it or not for very long and so sometimes you might be the smartest person in the room but if you're the only one cheering yourself on it's short-lived and it does stir up strife and it causes people to not want to hear what you have to say even if you're right and so there's a part of this story where joseph comes in and his brothers are they're so angry there's such a spirit of strife that they get to a point where they want to kill him they're so angry and i'm telling you that's this is like every normal you know like this isn't just a story out of a fairy tale book this is real life and they want to kill him and we kind of jump right to verse chapter 37 verse 18. it says here they saw him coming at a distance and the brothers have gathered together and it says and before he reached them they plotted to kill him and then one of them says this here comes that dreamer i think it's interesting that he was labeled even as a young man how many of us have been labeled even before we knew we could be labeled how many of us have had things said about us before we even knew they were said about us and then he says this and they said to each other come now let's kill him and throw him into one of these cisterns and let's say a ferocious animal devoured him and then listen listen you can hear it out of their hearts and then we'll see what comes of his dreams and then we'll see what comes of his dream so when joseph came to his brothers they stripped him of his robe the ornate robe that he was wearing and they took him and threw him into the cistern and the cistern was empty and there was no water in it they threw him into a pit they threw joseph into a pit they said here comes a dreamer they labeled him and they threw him in well before he was of age well before he knew what was going on and the reality is in our lives listen just listen to me for a second this is very important many of us will land in pits of pain well before we are we reach adulthood many of us will land in cisterns places of pain and darkness well before we reach adulthood and we don't know what's happening but we will have to manage pain we will have to manage fear we will have to manage and i say manage because we want to be delivered from it but in the beginning we're going to have to go into places where we don't know what's going on we we didn't know that that this was going to happen and we come to a place where things happen to us well before we knew it was going to happen well before we knew we were of age where we could fight back you see there are four ways we land in pain well before we reach adulthood just tell me if this sounds familiar the first way we land in a pain of pain oftentimes is we land simply because of childhood we don't get to pick our moms and dads we don't get to pick if our mom was too young to have us we don't get to pick if our dad didn't want to be with us we don't get to pick if our mom was selfish and she wanted it about her we don't get to pick if there was abuse in the home we don't get to pick if the environment they gave us up and they didn't even want us we don't get to pick and so often times we're already trying to survive early on many of us are like joseph's we early on we didn't we didn't want to be a favorite we didn't know this was going to happen but we land in pain we already are survivoring we already are fighting we already are a place at a young age and we are in a pit of pain before we even reach adulthood before we even come to church before we ever sing a song good good father we're in a place where we don't know what's going on second place we often end up is our personality don't look around and personality i mean you actually might have had a very abrasive personality growing up you might have been unique you might have had a different uniqueness to growing up you you might have had a different sense of humor you actually might have had a high intellect in your home and your family didn't have a high intellect and you weren't you weren't sure you just didn't fit in maybe maybe you you were one that you just you know you everybody your family wanted a girl and you were the boy or maybe they wanted the opposite or you know or or whatever it was but oftentimes our personality can alienate us we're growing up in a school we weren't accepted or whatever it was and we oftentimes can be in pain because we don't quite fit in now listen this is very important that we identify these areas because we're going to talk about walking out of pain and disappointment if we don't know where the pain comes from we won't be able to walk out and so often times our personality we may you know i remember i grew up and i had a twin sister and she was the lion the lamb and i was the lion well that sounds really great until people are like you're the loud one we always see her first and we always hear you first well that's funny until you've heard it 25 000 times and eventually you begin to resent the fact that you're you have volume you begin to resent the fact that you're not like the quiet cute girls you know that don't talk you begin to resent the fact that maybe you're not like everybody else and so you have to recognize that pain and go wait a minute something's not right another area that we land oftentimes is relationships it's not maybe our families but it's other people it's coaches it's it's junior high can we just get free from junior high amen come on someone just got free in the back they're weeping come on right we people in our relationship someone said something to us someone someone ridiculed us they mocked us i remember there was one time when uh my i was i went to camp and i remember there this girl and i went into one of the cabins and we were talking and we were talking about one of the girls who was three years older than us that hadn't developed yet which is not it was not very nice of us but we were in there we were talking about this girl she's 15 she hasn't developed yet we can't believe it and all of a sudden she walked out of the closet getting dressed and she had heard everything we had said and i still have pain thinking about what we had said about that girl in that closet and she walked out and said i heard everything you said is there anything else you'd like to say and we we apologized we we cried we did everything we could but relational pain i know we cost her that day pain fact thirdly often times it's physical pain some of us dealt with physical issues we can't we grew up we had physical issues you know i tell my story often i had learning issues i did not i wasn't a good reader i didn't have good comprehension i couldn't read my own handwriting and i wasn't going to medical school that was an issue and i you know i wasn't i wasn't good at all of that that was an issue for me it made me different than everybody else around me and when you are in high school and junior high you want to fit in you want to slip in you don't want to be different you don't want anyone to recognize that you are different and the fact that you have to spend five six years being different isn't fun and so realizing that that's pain and so joseph has the same story and he ends up in a dark place you know i love what what's often said in our environment but pain has a voice and the voice says do whatever it takes to make it stop now and if we don't recognize that in our own come on in our own makeup we will do things like look at porn every night to get rid of pain we will go and hang out with the wrong people every night to numb pain we will we will do whatever it takes to just try to find some solace and and try to find some go what's wrong because there's undealt with pain and we will try to get we will rid ourselves of pain and we have to realize that listen the bible says through trials and tribulations we will have a complete faith but oftentimes listen listen that this tell me this sounds familiar often times when we are in pain and heartache we don't always get delivered at the altar call oh that's so mean how many of you have experienced that come on have you ever been desperate god i need something right now i'm coming give me the prophetic word and the person next to you gets the prophetic word and you're like god i was right i wore red tonight i did everything i wanted the healing and the person who wasn't even there got the healing they were watching bethel tv and i drove i drove three hours and sat in the room come on the person who wasn't even cute got married come on come on yeah i know you're not laughing because it's you now listen you know what i'm saying like you know that that part of you that you go and you go i want the encounter and it doesn't happen and this is what james chapter one is giving us listen listen this is so important james chapter one gives us hope it says this so clearly you see james chapter one says that when you persevere you build faith because oftentimes god will not meet you at that moment because god doesn't want to meet you at the moment of crisis at that altar call because he doesn't want to build a moment where you have to get to the same place again so he will build a history of digging you out at one am in the morning when you get on your face in your bedroom way more then he'll meet you when you drive somewhere and go to an altar call listen because he wants to put tools in your hands so you grow up in god and you're not dependent upon an environment and so god listen this is so important for our generation because we are so experiential and we want god to do something right now we will come on give it give me give me give me give me come on do something right now and god's going listen and tell listen this is so okay let me just break it down for you like this there are there are two types of people in the world there are very very cute pregnant women and there are us come on there are adorable little basketball women and then there are us can i can anybody just wave at me who are the us in the room right so i remember the first time i got pregnant um i the only reason i knew i was pregnant is because my face told me is anybody like that like my face just i was like i'm pregnant my face told me you know it was like ba bam like right there and uh when i got pregnant with um ben i thought it would be really glamorous you know they have these beautiful pictures of pregnant women and don't worry i know i'm a girl preaching like is this gonna be a girl thing it's okay calm down and uh and uh that's how you got here it's okay that's how you got here it's all right anna so i remember when we i first got pregnant i gained i think 40 i don't know probably 40 pounds maybe 50. who's counting and uh and the bigger i got the months that went on the more pillows we added to the bed every month we added a pillow and i finally went out and bought this pillow it was a body pillow we named him philippe philippe came into bed with us and uh so i would i would i was i got to the point where i had such bad heartburn does anybody have really bad heartburn i would go to costco and i would buy the the family size heartburn medicine it's the zantac you know the 150 pills i'll pop two of them you're only supposed to have one i would pop two of them i would walk to my fridge in my mumu if you don't know what a moomoo is it's a piece of clothing that has no elastic that's the goal no elastic on your body my hair was pulled back and i would walk to my fridge i would pop my pills and i would walk to my fridge and i had my mylanta in the fridge because you have to have cold mylanta you can't have water in my land does anybody have mylanta you know what i'm talking it's gotta be cold and i would walk with my big belly my beautiful beautiful belly don't laugh and and i would walk and i would take my swig of my lanta and i would get into bed with my seven pillows and philippe and i would have one like three two three and pretty soon there was a point and my eight in my eight month of eight months of pregnancy ben decided to have a talk with me you know as every husband does you know he had been thinking about it and whined and dined me that night with pot pies and pizza and because there was a point when i would actually call in potpies to claim jumpers and i would make him go in and get it and um so anyway he uh he said to me um you know i've been thinking about it and um i'm just curious do i need to be in the bed with you or do you think i could sleep on sleep on the in the guest room because it doesn't really feel like i can fit you can't say that to a pregnant woman i said there is room for all of us because we were all there in the beginning and we're all going to be there at the end you me and philippe we're going to do this together ben was very gracious so we ended up having a child and um and uh so it was it was not glamorous it wasn't glamorous my pregnancy was not glamorous did i say that and um it got to a point where when i got pregnant every time which you know every time we would hug i would get pregnant um we had four babies in five years so you can imagine hugs kisses jacuzzis and so we um so anyway we it we ended up getting uh pregnant and uh there was a point where we we just realized that we had this amount of time that we were going to have to power through actually he was going to have to power through more than me but but this was what it was going to look like like we were going to have to do this i was not going to be the glamorous basketball mama i was going to be the mumma wearing my lanta swigging seven pillow girl in the bed waiting for you at night to turn the tv on that was me and that was okay you know but but there was a point where we realized listen listen when i had my son our sons they were mine because for a little bit um when i when we held our first boys juden hudson grayson and beckham there was such a moment of pure joy i mean there was something that i felt when i held our boys i felt like nothing compared to the whole world everything was a tinge of could there be any disappointment not with a child it was so beautiful when we held our sons i mean the whole world stopped and it was like this baby is mine and i don't care whatever the world is doing i don't care if there is a world war you know three go like this is my child i will i will catch up with you tomorrow this is my baby i have worked so hard for you to get here and it was well worth it because history told me that we were going to get through it and see this is the promise of james chapter one listen listen listen this is the promise of this is the glory of building a history in god this is why you walking out every time you get mad and have a hard time and walk through pain and wish somebody would pray you through it and every time you hope somebody would drag you to church and walk it you know well come back it's worth it you know come on no no every time you stick it out and say i'm going to build a history here with you god i'm going to walk through with you tell me what your truth is tell me what your promise is i'm not leaving i'm going to i'm going to dig my heels in i'm going to take another swing of my lantern i'm gonna buy a bigger moo moo because i'm having this baby listen there's something about listen listen this is leadership this is how your faith gets sure this is how you build a marriage this is how you build a ministry this is how you build character is because you say i am not leaving this place i am building an altar before the lord and who god has called me to be and this is what this is how you deal with pain and disappointment you know how you don't run i love you i love you i love you but if you have not experienced pain and disappointment stick around it's we're guaranteed the church is full of messed up people we love god but you you're gonna you're gonna get people that are gonna do crazy things because they love you and they don't know how to love you well sometimes but the truth is is that if you if you don't run the spirit of god knows how to get to you and when you least expect it he knows how to deliver you in the moment when you when you don't know how to deliver yourself he will come and speak to you and the bible says that he will walk with you and even though you walk the valley of the shadow of death the bible says he will not deliver you from the shadow of death but he will walk with you through the valley of the shadow of death and we've got to get off this reality that says somehow you're doing something wrong because it's hard you know i spent too many years in the church believing that because it was hard i just had to build my faith a little bit more and things would get easier i'm not talking about a habit or addict i'm not talking about things that we battle that because we're learning through consequences i'm talking about listen the bible talks about that we are not made to live here we're made to live we are made for another place and so we're not made to absorb everything that's going on and so we have to give ourselves grace can you give yourself more grace to realize that the pain you experience is hard but not to give up on yourself but to say i'm going to actually walk through this and i'm still going to be here see the reason your faith is complete is because you build history and so one what once held fear over you no longer holds fear over you see when ben and i had our first argument as a married couple i went oh no this is rough like i hope we hope we didn't i hope this is okay you know i hope that you know this is this is not good i hope people this is normal you know but once we have gone through we had two arguments in our marriage the second one when we go through things i can say you know what i have faith we're going to be okay because through history builds confidence this is what it's talking about in the bible your faith begets becomes complete because you have a history of walking through things so when you face trials of many kinds don't give up because it builds faith to persevere the reason you haven't received what you have been promised is because you haven't persevered yet and you will and as you persevere you'll get it in time so perfect fear fear fear goes away no longer bound by the what ifs no longer bound by the what if so i love how the message version says it it says consider it a sheer gift friends when tests and challenges come from all sides you know that under pressure listen your faith life is forced into the open and shows its true colors i see your okay listen so don't try to get out of anything prematurely let it do its work so you so you may become mature and well developed not deficient in any way trials and tribulations actually cause us to become deficient if we don't stick it out so here's what i want to talk about for a minute the book of john gives us this beautiful story of this man that became stagnant in his pain it's it's one of my favorite stories in the book of john uh chapter five you can turn there if you like but i love this story because this man has been sitting at this pool for a long time jesus comes on the scene in the book in in the chapter 5 in verse 5. and jesus comes on this scene it says this there was a great number of disabled people who used to to who used to lie the blind the lame the paralyzed one who was there had been there for 38 years when jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been there in his condition for a long time he asked him do you want to get well sir the invalid replied i have no one to help me into the pool when the water is stirred while i'm trying to get in someone else goes in ahead of me jesus said to him get up pick up your mat and walk at once the man was cured he picked up his mat and walked and one in the day the day on which took place for the sabbath so listen jesus walks on the scene everyone is sitting around this pool and when the water is stirred the first person who touches the water is healed this man has been here for 38 years i love this story because could you imagine what this guy how set up this man is like i could just see him with his tent and his water and all the people around him and jesus walks up and he says to the man do you want to get well now if i had jesus walk up to me and ask me this question i would be very offended could you imagine being sick and jesus comes and you've been sick for 38 years and jesus walks up to you and says would you like to get well and the man instead of saying yes i would like to get well he gives two excuses that i often find in a victim mentality it will tell you if you are dealing with a victim mentality and struggling with pain and disappointment right now and will never get free from it this will read your mail right now if this is what's going on the first thing he says to him is this he says to jesus i have no one i have no one you see the first part of pain and disappointment the first area that we struggle with in pain and disappointment is isolation no one has ever experienced this before i'm the only one who's dealing with this i'm the only one that's ever had this happen to me no one can relate to me no one can hear me no one can get to me and this is what this man has been saying to himself for a long time this is the narrative of which he's been saying to himself you see a lot of us i love us as the church but i think a lot of us say this often which is oftentimes we say i have no one and you know there's a i feel like this was often in my own life as a young woman who was serving the lord i mean i was a single woman who was uh you know i've told my story but at 17 and a half was called in the ministry my twin sister and i would travel we would travel three weeks out of the out of the week and we would speak up indoor up and down northern california and mexico and we would speak and prophesy which i i have a few words for a few of you tonight that i'm excited to share um but we would go and prophesy and we would we would do these things and and it was exciting when you're young but as it goes into 2021 22 23 24 you know 25 there's a part of it where the enemy loves to rob us and cause us to wonder if we're the only one who's staying pure come on are we the only one that wants to serve god are we the only one that wants to actually do it well are we the only ones in our family that's ever are we always going to deal with this and i think we have to get that lie off of us listen listen there is always going to be men and women that love god and are going to partner with you you may not have them next to you but they're in the world and they are running the same race as you are listen there are people that are on the you might go it's only at bethlehem that's why i'm here no no listen we travel all the time and there are armies all around right there are people all around that are serving god going after god and you know sometimes listen there are times when god will not ex actually lift people up because he's leaving them in an imminent anonymity to leave them at a place where they can actually grow and not have all that limelight and all those people watching them and you may go i'm the only one well maybe god is keeping you in private so you can grow in character and maybe god is not allowing you to have a worldwide platform yet because he's allowing you to to to practice and and to grow and to have relationships and community and build a life so that would when god does give you a place where you can reach the world in a greater way you're not caught up in trying to figure things out and kind of blowing your life up where people are getting picked off by your mistakes but you've been able to build a foundation where they can say wow you're you're actually a person who does what they said they would do and you're a person that actually lives out what they would say because to be honest the church is oftentimes called the most hypocritical place in the world and so my suggestion is live as hidden as you can and type meaning don't hide your light but live in a way that you can spread your light without trying to be seen so that you can actually deal with the things that need to be dealt with without having people watch you deal with it it's very important it's very very important and it will allow you to not not do things when it's too soon or too premature i have no one you got to get that lie off of you there are people that are raising their kids to love and serve the lord there are people that are asking that are actually setting up environments where their kids are praying for the sick and believing god and and they're setting up prophetic environments and we see all the time when we travel i know that there's people in the in here that are leaders that we see all the time this is not just a one-hit wonder god is doing something on the face of the earth and everywhere we go we meet people that are stepping out that are writing books that are that are touching people that are evangelizing i mean this is a movement that is never going to be silent the bible talks about it this is a a movement that will not go until this till jesus comes back this will continue to burn and we get to be a part of this and so we don't have to worry you are not alone you get to join the movement you are not the movement i love you you are not the movement you join the movement of jesus jesus is the movement and we join him secondly is this second thing he says to him is um but someone else always goes ahead of me and this is the second lie that we often face is is that we always believe that someone is getting it more than we are how do you know that someone didn't contend as hard as you've contended how do you know that you don't need this part of your story you know how do you know that this isn't the right timing for you you know sometimes i feel like i've said this often but we need to break the demonic time clock of the world on us this is when you get married this is when you have kids this is when you get a career this is when you looks like you peak this is when you should work out this is when come on can we just like we need to stop with all of that and say god you have my time clock you have my life in your hands and part of that all of that is listen we we don't want to end up empty we want to end up in the hand of god and what is good for you may not be good for me you know your story is not my story and when i compare my story with your story is when i start to get mixed up and when i start to compare my story is when i start to add things and i start to date the wrong person come on i start to figure try to go to the wrong school i try to figure things out and i start to go wait god what are you saying over my life what's the gift on my life what's the grace on my life we've been saying this a lot but stay in your own lane and get out of mind stay in your own lane and get out of mind and don't try to jump and carpool to hurry up come on you need to be in your own lane going at your own pace god has you your life under control you have to have a core value listen listen god sees you he knows you if you work out of anxiety if you work out of maneuvering and navigating and if you work on manipulating and trying to make sure people see you and you work out trying to make sure that you are the greatest and the latest and the most relevant you try to be the coolest and the thinnest and the and the most what stop if you do that you will wear yourself out the spirit of god is the most attractive thing on your life listen you you god is you want the anointing on your life you want the anointing on your life to carry on until you leave the earth you don't want to be this well i'm trying to be the cool stop we are not trying to be the coolest movement jesus is the coolest movement we want to carry his likeness we want to carry his presence we want to be relevant to the world in a real way because we owe the world an encounter we want to give them an encounter we are not trying to be the greatest we're trying to show the greatest which is him and so if we have to get that part of that off of us and the more i'm in this the more i realize we we've got to be able to say this is my timeline this is my world other people might get ahead of me and touch the water when it's when it's my time i will touch the water and when it's my time to have a promised land it'll be my time to have the promised land and when it's my time to write the book i'll write the book and when it's my time to have the family i'll have the family doesn't mean i won't step out doesn't mean i won't contend it doesn't mean i won't keep persevering but it does mean that i won't compare and it doesn't mean i won't get caught up in envy and it does mean i won't get sidetracked in comparison and it does mean that i won't sit back in apathy because i've compared myself into fear and anxiety and disappointment and and unbelief and sit back and and say well you got to work this out god because i'm not going to do anything now because everyone's got what i don't have god is not going to listen to you because you whine whining doesn't get god's attention faith does and so you're going to have to talk to yourself and say god i admit it i'm discouraged i got a little pain i don't like this but i can't give people what i don't have and if i have a discouraged and a depressed spirit then that's all i'm going to impart and i can't do it i got to get it off me because i have a long journey ahead of me jesus said something to him do you want to get well you know what jesus was saying to him do you want your power back he could have said you're well but instead he looked at the man in the eyes i could see him and i'm taking my liberty but i could see jesus listen like he does to so many of us right now the spirit of god looks at us look at me i love you i'm gonna mom you for a minute because i can look at me the spirit of god is looking at your life right now and the areas where you have not had any power you can't what do your dishes come on you can't you can't change the world if you can't can overcome your dishes come on i love you some of you want to change the world but you can't you can't change your your washer to dry come on like i love you but these are the little things right we test the small things to see if we can be built for the big we grow right i love you you're like is that really i don't know okay you have to clean it up later but listen do you want your power back jesus the spirit of god always asks us you see the choice is always left in our hands the spirit of god always gives us a free will and he says would you like your power back would you like to participate with your will would you like to say yes i would like to get free you see god we can't sing and ask god get me free but not activate our free will to be free like i love you god is not going to deliver you from habits of sin because you sang worship songs you're going to have to activate your will and say i am not going to live like this any longer i'm going to delete their number from my phone i'm not going to show up at their house at 11 30 at night because they just want to talk and i know what they want come on i know some of you are like well we're just grandparents it's okay there's other people in the room it was your time back then it's okay remember remember okay you have to decide who you want to be it gets as clear as that like i love you you're gonna have to decide who you want to be because your kids and your grandkids will get you you're you don't have to be who your parents were you don't have to be who your mom and dad were you don't have to be who your relatives were you get to be who you are and the spirit of god wants you to be the best you are the spirit of god wants you to be fully whole spirit soul and body but you have to make a choice to operate with the spirit of god and the spirit of god will not make you be something you don't want to be on the inside and so you have to participate you have to say god i'm going to read the books i'm going to write the scriptures out i'm going to memorize the scriptures i may have to get a little professional help i'm going to go i'm going to do what i need to do because i want to break the cycles that once held me bound i'm not going to be bound anymore i'm not going to be held back anymore i'm not going to believe these lies anymore i'm not going to be exhausted burned out addicted i'm not going to party on the weekends and praise on sundays i'm not going to be that person anymore i'm going to be different because there are people waiting for me on the other side and it's probably my grandchildren you see there's something there's a conviction that has to happen in our spirits i love you but you are the hope you are the hope and so the spirit of god looks at you and he says are you going are you gonna get your power back and then jesus says something to this man that i just love he doesn't say you're well he doesn't say you know touch the water he just says would you get up pick up your mat get up and pick up your mat and i could just see myself look at my boys and i would just do that get your mat pick up your mat and do it and i think there was a little bit of jesus that was like if you're really okay then do it come on let's see it i think the spirit of god does that to us not in a a mean but in like a you can do this it's in you i think the spirit of god looks at us and he says let me see it come on you want to change let's see it you want to be different come on because listen you can't do it on your own he wants to help you but you have to make the first move always it's always your move it's never his move what i mean by that is he already made his move he gave us the cross he gave us the spirit he gave us all of that it's our move to receive it and it's our move to accept it and it's our move to step out and be it that's as simple as that some of you i love you you have been bound for 15 20 years with the same habits and god wants to break it off at you he's looking at you and saying 38 years sweetheart 38 years you've been like this and you don't have to be like this anymore you don't have to stop by the drugstore tonight you don't have to do this anymore you are going to get free tonight you see we just believe here at bethel that the spirit of god can encounter your life in a profound way and when you participate with him he loves you so much that he wants to come and encounter you in a profound way i'm just fully confident you go well how do i how do you know because we see it all the time around the world the spirit of god wants to set you free break off family things and you go well what about walking things out you'll walk it out when you leave this room tonight you'll walk it out and you'll walk it out tomorrow and you're walking out the next day and you're walking out the next day and we'll see your true colors i told you wasn't that amazing she's a powerful anointed speaker pastor minister listen ladies if you don't have anything to do go to hopecarpenter.com and get registered for the unique women's conference right around the corner i can't wait to see you in either greenville south carolina or san jose california going to be amazing i love you god bless you see you next time [Music] you

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Published: Wed Sep 01 2021