Psychiatrists Share Shocking Insights From Patients (Doctor Stories r/AskReddit)

serious psychiatrist psychologist suffered it what is the most profound or insightful thing you have ever heard from a patient with a mental illness I guess I missed the transition from when the ground was lava and imaginary friends became schizophrenia imagine if every small decision felt like it had life or death consequences describing living with an anxiety disorder it's like a life or death game of chess you have to think 10 moves ahead and have a move for every situation in advance the fear of death gets worse with every possible move you analyze and if life makes a move that you didn't see coming instant breakdown no matter how small insignificant the move was I want to kill myself but I don't want to die believe it or not those are two different things I don't wanna kill myself I wanna kill the part of me that wants to kill myself when I started to make real progress against depression was when I started thinking of the depression as a separate entity that lived in my head infecting me like a dark sentient parasite it gave me something to fight it wasn't me and something to blame that wasn't me in a much more concrete and tangible way than mental illness nobody takes very seriously anyway I was interviewing a bee pole our patient I asked him how he would describe himself an altruistic lover of truth and beauty I then asked him how others would describe him bit over see probably the medication made the voices go away I'm lonely now I'm a cannibal investigator how crazy is it that I have that job you would think someone could just go up to these people and say hey you quit eating people a schizophrenic woman with delusions that she was working for the FBI investigating cannibals also believed her twin sister was trying to steal her identity after about a week of treatment she still had the same delusions but was no longer really concerned with them completely aware of the absurdity of her supposed profession still thought her sister was trying to steal her organs but she was fine with going to live with her because she was otherwise really a nice person one of my recent ones he said at nonchalant not trying to brag just having a conversation mostly to himself yeah I'm the supreme ruler of the universe figured I'd come down here for a bit and hang out not really sure that was the right choice but I'm going to stick it out I don't know which I'm more afraid of that one day I'll wake up with a will to kill myself or that I never do from a patient who suffers from schizophrenia why should I take this medication when I am under this I feel so empty he was full of delusions thinking he was the reincarnation of God and regularly living the Nirvana it doesn't take talents to practice therapists here I was working with a defiant teenager and sports was his only outlet he had big dreams of being in a professional league but knew he was horrible at it I thought his statement was really inspiring I think about it often when trying new things from a patient with people or at a nursing home I worked at when talking about how arbitrary the diagnostic guidelines can be I don't take my meds to fix me because there's nothing wrong with me I take them because everyone else is crazy and I need to fit in a patient recovering from body image issues told me we spend our whole lives trying to get to a certain place or require certain things so that we may be happy but but true happiness is when you realize you are never going to get to that place or that even when you do you will still be dreaming of a new place or new things so happiness has to start now with what we have basically sums up the whole message of therapy for me to be honest I worked with a child 11 years old who had been diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome and I was having a conversation about how it affects interpersonal communication I was fumbling through explaining nonverbal cues misunderstandings et Cie when he said to me it's like trying to explain color to someone who's colorblind the most meaningful thing I've heard was a guy telling his hallucinations that he thinks he can trust me my arms miss you ten year-old autistic boy asking for a hug patient with schizophrenia that described it as spending all day in a locked room with a stereo on full-blast and not being able to turn the volume down had a client with general anxiety disorder she explained the feeling as if she tripped in the moment where you don't know if you are going to catch yourself and not is how she felt all day long I once tried to explain until a friend and only got as close as when you tap your pocket to get your wallet and it is not there it's as they said all the time one of my clients had paranoid schizophrenia and he was recovering from yet another in a long string of hospitalizations due to a significant psychotic episode we were sitting together quietly and there was a lull in the conversation he suddenly looked up and said hey you know Lord of the Rings did you ever think that those books might actually be prophecy I said no I don't think they are they are really interesting and enjoyable but they are just made-up stories professor Tolkien even said so himself he seemed to mull over this for a few moments and said yeah you're probably right sometimes I wonder about things like that but I have paranoid schizophrenia often times we talk about an individual's reality testing which describes an individual's ability to reconcile their inner beliefs with their outer experience people with poor reality testing due to psychosis for example will often have distorted beliefs about the rest of the world it was great to see a moment of real Tara T and self-awareness through this guy's frequent fog of struggle feeling pain is better than feeling nothing this came from a teenager and juvenile hall upon returning from a psychiatric hold for self-injurious behaviors I was part of his treatment team in the hall and had to make the 5150 call he explained during our next session that this was the reason for banging his head against a steel door he couldn't feel anything no sadness no joy nothing he needed to feel he chose pain better to be smarter than you look than to look smarter than you are I was always afraid of dying as a child in being forgotten but now I'm terrified of dying mentally and emotionally and leaving an empty husk so only I will have forgotten to attend my funeral I feel like a ghost walking around unseen under backdrops of these other happy lives 56 year old alcoholic people don't do drugs to feel good people do drugs to feel less bad explaining addiction to non addicts is really hard I've said nobody shoots up every day because they really love to party you don't get a get-well card for depression people don't see it as an illness when I was a med student on psych I had a schizophrenic patient who said I know y'all are trying to help me but other people are pulling me away from you from a patient with schizophrenia who had been dismissed by several doctors as she was uncooperative yet with me she communicated well and contributed so I asked her why does she think it didn't work with the other doctors with airily focused clarity she said do you think we are stupid we know who really wants to help us before going back to entertaining her hallucinations child with autism who was struggling with her difficulty making and keeping friends it's okay if I don't have any friends having friends makes you happy but it doesn't make you a good person you know who was really popular Hitler this girl was so lonely and it was causing her so much pain but she still managed to see the difference between being popular and being good we made a project of finding examples of unpopular people who did really good and important things she still has a tough life ahead of her but I think her attitude will help her be strong one time I had a client tell me why should I spend the best eight hours of the day the best 40 hours of the week best days of year working really gave me something to think about it isn't sadness sometimes a lot of the time I just feel like there is a blanket covering me from head to toe I'm wrapped up in it I can't move I can't breath I can't be me I feel like someone is just wrapping me up and I can't do anything about it I pretend everything is fine I act like I'm happy and having a good time but really I'm stuck and can't escape I wish I could just stop caring what people thought about me and rid myself of my anxiety but lying to myself is what got me here in the first place I was rotating through an inpatient psychiatric facility and had a patient who was having a severe manic episode he would ramble on topics about the occult and conspiracy organizations like the Illuminati but then told me you know those things are real right they have TV shows about them and then I realized that some of those ridiculous Discovery and History Channel TV specials were probably validating some of the psychosis our patients had I don't feel like dying I just really don't feel like carrying on living anymore worked with a schizophrenic paranoid patient before I never thought I was a crazy person until someone told me I was worked with someone with very rough impulse control and no mother and abusive father you don't understand you have people to love you nobody loves me except you wrecked me emotionally and still hurts my face hurts six-year-old autistic girl trying to explain that her feelings were hurt that's where she associates feelings the things that show on people's faces the real me has been asleep for a few years I hope he'll wake up someday to rescue me I pay attention to myself more than other people I know that sounds selfish but it's really not because the more you pay attention to yourself the more other people are gonna look at you and look at themselves and pay more attention to themselves and care for themselves you have to want to live a certain way if not for yourself then at least for other people that's suicide for this person Wilson to thought they had or a choice they made in the everyday sense of those words it was a natural urge like eating when hungry or sleeping when tired like those activities the drive to end one's life when under extreme duress is an urge you can fight for awhile but that you will always feel compelled toward as a natural response I'm not saying I completely agree but it made perfect sense for her I know of recovery but I do not know recovery a man discussing his addiction in a group I was facilitating talking about telling yourself you're in recovery just because you know the facts and methods but without putting it into practice you go nowhere for more mental patient hair and current social worker who works with individuals with severe and persistent mental illness right before a hospitalization one of my friends asked what it was like to mentally ill for me it wasn't having control of my own mind knowing what I was thinking and doing to myself made no sense but not being able to stop it's the most terrifying thing I've ever experienced therapists in turn had a 17 year-old autistic client who has been in residential care for years one day he got teary eyed and told me that they took away his childhood recently saw a 40 year old woman she came to see me because she didn't feel right inside after a while I asked her to tell me about the last time she remembered being happy she paused for a long time and said she couldn't remember and wasn't sure if she has ever felt happy I am a psychiatric social worker one person I will always remember was the most paranoid schizophrenic girl I had ever met she was extremely sick about my age at a time late twenties she had a lot of anger obviously and was constantly afraid I worked with her individually for months through multiple hospitalizations and I remember the day we had the huge breakthrough that she was able to sit in a chair in my office and feel safer the last time I ever saw her she looked at me and in a moment of what seemed like real clarity she said maybe in another life we could be friends I told her I'd like that I had really tried so hard to help her for someone so paranoid who was so afraid and distrustful to say that to me I felt like crying psychologists here working in a high security environment with women a very insightful and high functioning female patient explained your belief in mental illness is the exact same as that woman's points to psychotic patients belief in whatever it is she thinks is real you both use it as a way to cope a way to organize your version of reality yet it's no more closer to truth than the others it's all invented it's all unmeasurable it's all equally wrong what about love maybe if she was loved differently she'd know how to love differently and she would be different maybe a few guys therapists would drop the crap and just love differently things would change for the better I haven't been the same since the human voice must be continually filled or else it'd consume you he was explaining that you should fill your life with new experiences and goals and do your best to socialise or else stagnation apathy and lethargy will make you a waste of space and led you to a black pit of despair here's Bob Ross holding a baby raccoon to brighten your day if you enjoyed the video subscribe and comment if you are new to the channel you can subscribe I publish new videos every day until then check out another video or don't either way have a great day you magnificent people

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Length: 14min 8sec (848 seconds)

Published: Wed Aug 21 2019