Plastic Surgery Addict interview-Elaina

all right Elena Elena where are you from originally where'd you grow up I was born in Maryland and I grew up in Queens New York tell me about your family growing up I was adopted uh as a baby and I was adopted by a family of two teachers and basically Queens is all I knew so that's about it how would you describe your childhood my childhood was a little bit tumultuous I grew up with um not a lot of stability as a kid my brother had cancer when he was young so I was shuffled around a lot while my parents were trying to figure that out my mom had a lot of problems after her parents died so there were issues with that and I also had a lot of issues on my own front dealing with being adopted I had a lot of um things that I had to work out being adopted I never really felt like I belonged anywhere I felt very abandoned and I had abandoned Mission abandonment issues throughout my childhood did you find out that you were adopted early on I knew I was adopted uh because my brother was adopted also and he was a week older than I was and my father used to joke around that we were adopted to people who would ask they they would always ask if we were Twins and he made jokes about us being adopted and in hindsight they weren't very funny they actually uh traumatized me because it wasn't something that I found funny uh he didn't know that they were something that were trigger some to me he just thought that he was clowning around and making a joke about it but they were things that I really struggled with especially since I felt like my mom you know she she left me in a hospital when I was first born and I knew that growing up and I found that him joking around about it was really insensitive and every time people were to ask about it I just felt like it was a constant reminder of the fact that a woman who gave birth to me didn't really want me other than the adoption issue were there any other rough spots in your childhood or that was the big issue that was the big issue and then when my brother got cancer I was abandoned a second time because my father took care of him and my mother couldn't handle it so she stayed home by herself and nobody really wanted to take care of me so my grandparents took care of me for a little while and then they decided that they didn't want me either and then my uncle took me in for a little while and then I became too much for him and then I was just sort of pawned off on family members and I was abandoned for a second time and it just always felt like I didn't really have stability in those formative years where you know a child really needs stability and not to feel like they're abandoned what were you like in high school high school was really rough for me my dad actually taught in my high school which wasn't good I think I needed my own space to grow as a person and not have somebody constantly down my throat and making sure I was where I was supposed to be I don't think I was able to be my true self I think it was just I was forced to be who he wanted me to be and I think that ultimately played a big part in a really bad um youth experience you know Young 15 16 years old I rebelled a lot and ultimately it led to me running away you ran away at what age I ran away as soon as I graduated high school I ran away I think I was 16 years old Maryland or you went uh well I was in New York at the time I left New York I moved to Buffalo and then I moved to Canada for a little while and then ultimately I moved down to Florida and I had no contact with my family I wanted nothing to do with them and then we reconnected when I ended up getting pregnant at 20 years old you have a child yes my child now is uh 12 years old and you're raising yeah I'm a full-time single mom my son's never met his dad hmm and you live where now right now I live in Queens there was domestic violence issues with my son's dad um so I just decided it would be best for me to raise him on my own I don't speak to him I haven't spoken to him since before my son was born it's better that way he's basically a deadbeat I want nothing to do with him and at the end of the day he lost out on the best kid ever my son and I are best friends and uh I'm just so happy that I get to parent the most amazing kid ever that's great and how old are you now right now I just turned 34. and how have you supported yourself since you went on your own so I graduated nursing in 2015 and I was a stripper in the past and I did Sugar babying also why'd you leave nursing uh I left nursing because of covid and I actually suffer from Ms so it's not actually the safest profession for me considering I have an autoimmune disease so it's not really the best thing for me to do health-wise um so and how are you supporting yourself today uh sugar baby sugar baby it's interesting yes and so plastic surgery is a big part of your life yes obviously what how did that start um it started out actually when I was 16. um or maybe even before that I always had this idea that the only reason that a mother would give up a child is because they don't like the way they look and this was my idea since I was a very young child and I didn't really know any better I knew that my biological mother kept two other daughters and gave me up so I really only thought that the reason that she gave me up was because of my looks so I felt as though she didn't like what I look like so I wanted to transform what I look like to you know something else to win love back yeah to win my mother's love back and uh basically I had my first rhinoplasty at 16 years old and it was an instant gratification for me I was instantly happy with the way my nose looked and then after that I basically just wanted more and more I got my lips done my cheeks done my chin done I had gotten everything done to my face and I just loved the way that I looked and it was just such a different look and I felt like I was so proud of this new me and I ended up uh reconnecting with my mom back in 2021 how'd that go uh she told me that I looked beautiful and she actually regretted giving me up for adoption so I told her about all the plastic surgery and uh she told me that I I showed her before pictures and she said that before I had my plastic surgery that I looked most like her out of all of her other daughters which was very interesting to me and she still told me that I looked beautiful did she tell you why she gave you up she told me that she gave me up because she had two other daughters and she couldn't afford them but the thing is after she gave me up she had another daughter nine months later after me basically so it really didn't sit right with me and she said she kept that fourth one yeah she kept the fourth one and me and and the fourth one Kim are actually the closest to this day I love my little sister Kim and so if anything came from it you know Kim and I are very close and I love my little sister Kim we talk almost all the time um it's going to be hard for you to process being the one daughter that was was not chosen was not kept yeah it was really it was really hard whether you can intellectually rationalize it or not you were still of your of your three sisters or of the four of the four daughters you were you were you were kicked out yeah that's got to be difficult yeah so back to your plastic surgery what what other things have you had done um I had pretty much everything that you could have on your face done um I have instead of lip fillers I have silicone uh in my lips so it's permanent because I was spending so much money on lip fillers that it was just astronomical so I just got permanent uh silicone uh basically fillers like droplet fillers um and then I got breast augmentation three different times I have 800 CC's I had a tummy tuck with um basically a stomach corseting where they sewed my stomach muscles shut I have um I had four bbls I have butt implants what is a vbl uh it's um basically Brazilian butt lift it's where they do lipo 360 where they lipo your whole body and they lipoed my arms my legs basically everywhere and they put the fat in my hips and in my butt and I didn't feel that the fat was enough so I I basically got silicone hip implants and silicone butt implants and uh what else did I do I did pretty much everything I'm sure I'm forgetting things I have chinam I have a silicone chin implant I talked about rhinoplasty so the idea is to have more of an hourglass figure yes yeah yeah is this an addiction for you um it's not really an addiction it's just something that I I want to look perfect and it's something that like people go to the gym I go to the gym and stuff and you always want to look better it's just a maintenance type of thing do you think it's just some sort of um thing you're doing to to you we mentioned it earlier to gain the love back of your mom or something along those lines initially it was and then when I realized my mother loves me it's sort of it it stopped for a little while like I was able to ease up on it and um now I don't do it as often um I still feel as though I I want to look perfect for myself and I just want to feel like I'm the best that I can be and it's not for anybody else like I'm not doing this to impress so and so I don't have a boyfriend I don't have anything like that I'm doing it because it makes me happy and I think that we should all do things that make us happy it's not hurting me it's not hurting anybody else I think it's just like you know guys who go to the gym they're not going to the gym because it's hurting anybody because it's making somebody else happy it's just because it's making themselves happy and I think that we could all stand to do things that you know for our own mental health you know and this is something that is good for my mental health it's you know and my son supports it I talk to him about it and um I tell him you know it's really important to you know work on your mental health then do things that make you happy and I tell them that this is something that makes me happy and he understands and we talk about like you know positive things and things that make us happy and his thing is video games and my thing just happens to be plastic surgery so you know I guess it's a little bit different on a different Spectrum but have you been in love before have I been in love Yeah I have been and there are guys who are really into the the look that you have right yeah yeah for sure [Music] um the guy that I was in love with is very much into the look um and uh it's kind of like you're trying to be a Barbie doll or something like that yeah yeah I love uh when when people call me a Barbie doll it's like the biggest compliment I could get I love I love the Barbie doll look um but but again I do it for myself this is a girl as a young girl yes yes and uh my whole house the inside like my area not my son's room or anything like that but my bedroom all the pillows are Barbie the whole room was pink like it's it's just my scene I just like it I enjoy it and part of it like I I go to therapy and I do analyze that aspect of my myself and I think that maybe because I had such a [ __ ] childhood maybe I'm reliving a little bit of my childhood and maybe I'm going through that now and you know Barbies are for little kids and maybe I didn't get to experience that some much as a little kid and maybe I'm just going through that now and maybe I just have to go through it deal with it and you know maybe it'll be something that I just love forever and maybe that's just always going to be my thing but maybe part of it what you're not hurting anybody yeah I'm not hurting anybody to what you went through as a child yeah yeah it's not hurting anybody I'm single it's my room I could do what I want with it but I love the Barbie look I love pink and it is what it is what would you say is your biggest fear what are you most concerned about um my biggest fear is um something happening to my son ultimately and him not accepting the whole Barbie thing and him saying like I don't want you to do this anymore because I love it so much and I think my biggest fear is for him to say like that's enough because if he does say ultimately he's had it I will stop like that's that's it like I I care about what he thinks and his opinion matters so much to me um I'm a mother first before I'm a Barbie before I'm a plastic surgery Guru before anything and if he says he doesn't want me to do any anymore that's it and I think that's my biggest fear that he tells me that he's had it with my [ __ ] how old is your son he's 12 going on 13 he'll be 13. that's right that age where that might come into play yeah but when I asked him about it he loves it you know he thinks it's actually really cool as long as you're as long as you love your son I think it all it'll all work out yeah we we have like little mom son dates I take him to get his hair dyed and you know he loves doing that kind of stuff and again you're not hurting anybody yeah he loves it um he's he's very uh he's very much an individual he likes he's very much into style um when there was a and an exhibit at the Museum of Natural History with fashion uh when that came out we went to go see it together and he loved it we took so many photos together he's very much into fashion and you know he's my little fashionista and I think it's great you know because we could relate to things on that level and I think it's really cool that's really great I I would have thought that getting old might have been a big concern of yours no I'm not scared of getting old um I embrace getting old but I'm gonna do it with style it's a great attitude yeah do you have any regrets in your life um or if you had your life to live all over again would you have done things differently I would have loved myself sooner join the club yeah that's a struggle for everybody yeah most people yeah and you have friends um no I don't have friends um people don't understand me yeah I was going to say are you misunderstood by most people yeah I have my internet friends you know the other girls who are like me we're all in like a clique together like we have you're friends with Mary Magdalene yeah like I yeah we have like a a little click you know um Lacey wild a few other you know like big plastic surgery people um we're all in like this little like click of you know plastic surgery do you guys all get each other uh yeah yeah we all get each other um you know um I have a friend Naomi I'm trying to have a secret language yeah we all speak a secret language we all have little codes and we have forms of currency and stuff like that and no but I have a friend Naomi we just went to Miami together and uh I went with her to get her uh her boobs redone so we all do stuff like that it's it's definitely a different world because the way we have fun is different than the way other people have fun like people go to Miami to go to the beach and stuff we go to Miami to get boob jobs together so what kind of guy is attracted to a woman like you um it's probably a certain type guys with mommy issues yeah yeah for sure um and guys who have issues at home with their wives usually and uh that that's always an issue being a sugar baby and doing things like that what have you learned about men that they're pinks no offense yeah I've heard a lot yeah you guys will be married oh yeah there are a lot of married guys who will do anything a lot of guys don't really expect anything they just will pay you for your time just companionship yeah just companionship they just want to be seen in public with you yeah yeah a lot of guys just like the look of having somebody you know your own Community for sure yeah so what's your dream what would you like to be in five years ten years what do you see uh settle down uh I think maybe I the idea of being settled down is nice but then again I like to have my own space so maybe the idea of being settled down but also having my own separate house would be nice but sort of like the best of both worlds for me like my own house and then a house that we could go to together and then a husband with his own house that would be nice I think that's why a lot of couples have gigantic houses yeah with lots of rooms lots of space yeah yeah I think that would be it for me so they can tolerate each other yeah I think that would be perfect for me and uh Elena what would you say is the most important lesson you've learned in your life the most important lesson I've learned is to not let the opinions of others take away from your values and take away from the way that you feel about yourself because if I were to sit and read through all the comments on my videos on my posts about every nasty thing that everybody has to say too much yeah I would just be sitting in my room crying all day you have to avoid that yeah I I don't even read comments because I really don't care what Meredith from Montana has to say about me and another thing is they're not living my life they don't understand it they've never done this so how can I expect them to understand what I'm going through when they haven't done this themselves they didn't get rejected by a mom who kept her three other daughters exactly they they've never lived through this so how can they know what I'm going through when they haven't been through this themselves they have no right to even comment on my life when they haven't been through this themselves and yeah they want to call me ugly they want to and the biggest thing that everybody says is oh her lips are too much she was so much prettier before I I don't care I like them and you know what I really don't care um that's that's always the comment that I get like I I couldn't even get past anything I was too distracted by her lips like I think I think people need to understand that one this is a coping mechanism maybe for what you went through as a as a young girl two you're not hurting anybody yeah you don't look bad thank you really beautiful thank you for certain guys this is exactly what they love yeah so it's like you have to you have to factor in all that before you start making judgments yeah and probably for their husbands too and that's probably some of the issues maybe that's why they're not so positive a lot of them are scared to do it themselves and that's why they leave the negative comments a lot of it's their own insecurity what kind of emotions do you go through um sometimes I get depressed because I do remember the reasons that I got here but then it's almost like a switch goes off and I remember the conversations that I've had with my biological mom and she has told me that you know I I love you and things like that and just hearing that it makes it a little bit better but the depression really stems from the fact that she didn't want to keep me so the and and the bit about how she kept my youngest sister you know and I'm so happy that she did because I love my youngest sister and I want to protect her you know I know we didn't grow up together but she's still my youngest sister and I do I love Kim and I want to protect her so much like if if I would do anything for her and uh I'm glad she didn't have to go through this you know you've seen very good-hearted considering that you were kind of given the short stick yeah and unfortunately I think and I hate to say this um but unfortunately Karma might have gotten the better of my biological mother I have an older sister like I told you um Stacy and she passed away from terminal brain cancer so like I said my biological assist my biological sisters I had two of them that my mother kept and only one of them made it past 27. so um I think my my mom thinks about that too and she was 27 when she died of brain cancer and that really bothered me so much because I finally got to meet them and then I didn't get very long to spend with them because my sister died so do you have sugar daddies that will take care of you nicely oh yeah yeah they do what kind of money do they spend on you oh um it depends on what I need it depends on what I ask for um it's a usually anything I ask for and you'll have more than one at play at a time oh yeah yeah I usually have a rotation and yeah are those empty relationships for you are they do you wish you had more of a connection with anyone no I've had somebody give me his 401k before really yeah so far I've spent on my plastic surgeries a hundred and eighty thousand dollars um according to google at least I think it's a little bit more um and part of that was somebody who gave me his 401k and one of the worst things actually that somebody said to me in a club was uh and I feel so guilty repeating this but he said I wish I didn't have my kids he was like I wish my kids died so that I could give um all my money to you that's harsh yeah all right Elena thank you so much for sharing your story all right it was good to talk to you wish you all the luck in the world thank you thank you very much thank you

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Published: Mon Feb 13 2023