Live With Ryan Ries - Jennea Welch / Teen Struggles, Social Media, Loneliness

I agree this is live with Ryan Reese call now 180 day five six four sixty one seventy three or post your questions using the hashtag live Ryan Reese on his Instagram Twitter or Facebook you better get ready cuz it's gonna go down tonight I have a very special friend not only a friend but I would say family it's it's it's it's pretty much family how long have I known you Jay um I think five or six years it's been been along for the wrong time five in six years yeah I think just cuz I've been so wrapped up in your family with your dad for you guys don't know I'm here to interview Jenaya tonight but clearly I'm friends with the family her dad is Brian Head Welch from corn and if you read the new book which I encourage everyone to go get you would have read this all the whole book has you in and out of its that's why he left corn is to raise you and we're gonna talk about the journey tonight but you have an amazing note at the end that Sean and I heard we were like to janae is gnarly it was like poetic that's why I was like asking her her dad like and she a writer or something I was asking her before the show and it is something that she's kind of delving into it now in her life I was pretty amazing you got the skills to pay the bills serious he's are you plenty too right yeah yeah yep I'm going to college for creative writing for entertainment so it is going down I'm going dude seriously cuz like I can't read you know I mean I I can somewhat but um when I read your dad's book a while ago I took it I I was so hungry for that I read in three days which anyone could probably read that in like a couple hours but um it uh you know what am I trying to say here is that uh I lost my whole you were making some moves over here you compose a DD Ryan can get distracted English that's what I was just remember about the church that's what I'm here for okay well anyway I'm excited that you're gonna start writing because your dad's amazing writers you got the skills to write and when I read it it really even though I can't read like I was saying it really impacted my life that that one's it was just a quick note but it was like it was deep and it was heavy and it impacted my life for sure so I'm just okay we get to have you on the show and we want to talk about your story but we know one thing you're here with a group of people and it's called awakening youth Awakening youth what up is awakening youth okay well awakening youth is an experience that's what it is okay tell me about this experience awakening youth is um it's an experience for girls teenage girls from ranges from 13 to 23 we've had all sorts of Ages and basically we're in this um this place secluded from social media all our old friends you know old to old towns and basically we're put in this new place where we can only listen to certain kinds of music have certain kinds of things certain privileges yep and we're exposed to the Lord pretty much it's um it's not um total it's it's a Christian boarding school but um but there's also other religious girls that are in there too so pretty much for anyone it's for anyone it's Christian base beds for anyone and um all the girls come from different backgrounds from California to New York some from Canada um Africa Ukraine in here graeme Ukraine Hey representing that likes potatoes sub Dasha what's wrong he knows so um so yeah it's just a really great place where girls could just find themselves learn who they are and then you know just so what you were saying is um these girls come to this place there they know where this to work I'll kill the noise it's a high school tour and it's to kill the distractions yeah you guys are on to kill the noise tour yeah yeah rain or with a group of people and you're getting rid of social media and you're you're basically tuning out so you could hear God's voice and find out the purpose why you were created you know Jesus says you know that you were created as a masterpiece that's that's God's word that you're create with a masterpiece and God has a plan for every single one of us yeah but just like so many kids and in teenagers like you and I can relate because we grew up in Christian home but we we walked away from God and got into some trouble which we're going to talk about tonight but um you now seeing you how you got to kill the noise find out the reason why you were created and now you're I mean just I'm gonna go back to a little note here Oh like that's insane like the Jenaya I met a long time ago - now it's like you you are truly like aligned with God's plan in his will what he created for and you're gonna find out there's gonna be wait tons of gifts that he has for you thank you but um you have to kill the noise too to do that so you guys are all there hanging out there's girls from all over the country where do you know how people can even find out about this place is there a website or anything yes so the website is awakening youth net and yeah you contact Tiffany Travis clay well or dear and Dean beaker um there and there are there also people we've had Tiffany on the on the radio show several times and we'll have our next time she's in town so how did you even get involved with awakening youth alright well let's just get into it let's just go down this road okay you know before you get started I think that's what we Ryan was saying in the beginning was it's a trip you like how long about ninety five six years and you know five six years go by so fast but I think what for like Ryan and for myself like our perception is like five six years the reason why it seems like such a long time is because they were pivotal years of your life you know when we met you you're just a young girl at the time you're 18 years old down how Raeleen is say goodbye about 12 years old at that time well for 11 years yeah look lovin or 12 at that time and a lot of things have changed and you know this awakening youth program obviously has radically changed your life you know and going back to the book you know there's a lot of things that are there that brought you to a place where you're you know messed up in a lot of ways one thing you brought up a second ago Ryan was like the social media thing and kill the noise and in no distractions and I remember that was one thing your dad was struggling with with the social media stuff that a lot of young people get caught up and like social media can be a great thing but it could be a great hindrance as well right and so that was something that you're struggling with and I'm sure there's other things that actually like Ryan just asks you the question what brought you into this program so go ahead okay well on all begin we're off again it began and the sunny side of Torrance California that's where I was born all right and I was born forgot what the hospital's called but I was born over there I was raised around the Orange County area and we moved oh I'm gonna pull that mic up to you a little bit okay or just turn to aim yeah okay so so we I was kind of raised in California and that's where my dad had a radical change in his life he found the Lord he quit drugs he quit all of those things and left his band to go seek God and seek more of him and be there for me so we moved to Phoenix Arizona and um there's a lot of a lot of crazy crazy things that have that happened there like we just talked about a couple stories right yeah right yeah so so I'm a lot of crazy things happen there um you know I think my dad trusted some people like when he first got saved he he went to the first Christians you know like he met and there they had this huge plan they were ready to do this huge thing and so my dad was like yeah I'm on it sounds good and um you know they ended up using him they ended up leaving him in the dust taking all his money and and so as little girl growing up my dad heard about or told me about God and how he was so good how he changed his life I was going to be there for us but then I saw these Christians that were using him and taking his stuff and taking his money and so I was like wait a second like that was going on yeah that doesn't add up and so I think growing up I kind of had that hurt you know and um do you think there was like at that point um like bitterness or and just kind of like get your guy had a bad taste in your mouth for the church at that point told these people call themselves believers came up fake well yeah and the thing is head I mean when the head was talking about he's read the Bible and the Bible's like love one another so he's like oh all Christians are like right awesome they're they're all like me like they want to give their life to Jesus and send money on God but there are crooks Jesus had Judas in his coffee absolutely on money yeah people listen so he had he was hanging out with Judas some people like Judas using them and you're getting bad taste in your mouth exactly and so on so I think just being raised around that I was just kind of confused and um you know I started hanging out with like some friends that were kind of like messing around with stuff you know like it's like smoking a little bit of weed or whatever just like you know a table is that though yeah exactly just like just kind of innocent like middle school high school kind of stuff and so um yeah I know so I started to hang out with those kids and um they kind of would talk to me about wait hold on a sec wait you in private school um yeah during this time yeah okay so you're in Christian private school um it wasn't Christian I guess I might as well you know okay yeah and so I was in these uh private school and you know I would talk to kids and they would be like yeah my mom left my dad left he was a drunk and blah blah and so I start to think about my past and my mom left when I was three and so um I didn't realize how much that affected me until I start hang out those kids and they'd be like man life sucks and I hate I hate this I hate that my dad did this to me and so I'm like oh man now I know it makes sense and so I started having this like this hate this bitterness yeah my mom these Christians are using my dad my dad and me would you know we butt heads you know daughters into mmm and hanging out with your dad would be that'd be crazy anyway yeah right and so um so yeah and um I think just with all of that I just started to go kind of downhill um I I turned to social media a lot I I had was I was on Facebook us on Twitter I was on Instagram I was on ask a fem I was on all of it and basically like I didn't get a whole lot of affirmation from my dad right um and and I was missing that chunk from my mom too you know like girls neither their mama you know and so so I got my affirmation and my self-worth from social media because I wasn't getting from anywhere else that you know they're gonna talk about that that's major if you're tuning in right now this is live with the Ryan Reese um you can also watch us live a train - Reese com I'm always go there that's we have our ryan shine studies and all the archives of our radio program we're in studios myself and ryan and our good friend Jenaya and just talking about her life right now of just her dad you know having this dramatic conversion to the Lord and then and her she's seeing her dad kind of get done dirty buying some Christians like with like a business agenda those things were starting to kind of affect her in a way like kind of like or these that people fake this agenda and then just trying to find herself and that's what's so important in Ryan what you were saying the same thing Ryan like you kind of get brought up in that environment but the thing is is like we all have to find our own relationship with God like we're all on our own journey in life and at you know we get affected by people smoking weed and stuff like that other kids we grow up with and it starts to make mold us and the people that we are yeah and you were just talking about how social media was where you were kind of getting affection yeah affirmation and a lot of people especially this younger generation I'm glad that you're here because it's something you could really relate this may be somebody that's out there relate to them why is that um why is it something that can be good in some ways can become such a great hindrance in your life what you did yeah how um-hmm I mean you were like addicted to it yeah I mean big-time and and what's interesting because I want you to like expound on this cuz there's so many people there's parents that are listening that their kid is addicted to social media I mean you go to dinner table look over and you're like yeah the whole family over there eat dinner but they're all like yeah right I'm like so they're eating dinner but but they're not like together yeah there's no unity and that's happening but like I was with one of my friends the other day and he was saying like we live in this society that like Instagram gives us our self-worth yeah isn't that crazy like it's so how many views how many likes yep I'm posting these photos and I can I'm searching for my comments yeah um to make me feel you chat like what how did it work with you cuz this is this is crazy this is the world we live in what you're looking for so basically when I was on social media um I had all my friends on there that I knew from back home and other states I lived in but I also um was friends with people I didn't know - yeah I thought were cool or whatever they cool style or they were into stuff like me and so I would just instead of meeting people in real life I wouldn't meet people on Facebook and on Instagram and talk to them and like if they would like my new picture I'd be like oh that oh they liked my picture you know what I mean it felt good I felt good that people liked me cuz I wasn't I didn't think that people liked me out here out in the world it was like all my phone it was I that's where I thought people liked me I thought if I was out here I would embarrass myself no one would like me no one would care about me they would just leave me and so we could hide behind it hide yeah it's a place where you can kind of express yourself to like that that's in your heart your mind or whatever express yourself and like um create this almost persona uh-huh basically yep mm-hmm so it's uh yeah cuz you post all the pictures that you want of course yeah it's a whole deal and totally do that's that's that's pretty crazy so that's that's actually good stuff to know for for parents you know as these kids are growing up its you got to be very limited to to that stuff and if that controls our life there I mean if you're living in your device you're your face it down you're missing like life that's like going on totally around you I was listening to the statistic who had talked about that it's like it's so crazy like in the times we were living in the day communication is that your fingertips at all times you can communicate with your family across the state other countries build these relationships all over the place but what they did saw in some surveys that people even though they had so much communication on that those Outlands they were depressed yeah they felt lonely still true you know because they weren't true authentic relationships as personal one-on-one touch that all of us need that's what I'm gonna mean did you happen to me is that even though like I liked um getting that gratification I still felt lonely cuz like when no one would like or like or comment on my pictures I'd be like oh my god I have no one you know what I mean that's how I felt and then yeah like there wasn't many people around you anyway physically exactly so so that's so crazy yeah so UK so you're at this place I'm so glad awakening you gets rid of kills the noise right first problem solved oh and then music music cuz music ah I know it's probably a big deal yeah music there's some music I can listen to for my past life but like I put on certain like Motley Crue's songs or yeah certain like uh gun heroes the songs I'm like oh my gosh I remember being here with this girl yeah I'm like thank you that is not good there I know I know totally um I think for me I am especially with those kinds of things it brings back memories um that's why they don't let a whole lot of music in because of that and then you're just gonna feel the same way or like you know what I mean and so um and teenagers get really really heart heart attached to their music that's like their life like they can't like it it's how they express it's how they communicate you know it's how they receive I guess emotions yep you know and it's it's the same thing - lately social media music it starts it chasing mold you it's true you know it shapes and molds you to um who you are you know I remember hearing this one thing before it's crazy you know the Bible talks about you know in sing it's that satan lucifer may be a control of the music right the choir in heaven and music how it's so inspired and what it can do you know and it's like you know you get this picture in your mind you know major concerts and people are going crazy or whatever and the lyrics and the whole thing that's all bent on like total the flesh you want to perform the things of the flesh and that's why on the flip side like worship and everything it's like you want to give your allegiance to the lord you know we're beans that are meant to worship God and it's interesting is when we worship as Christians we put our hands in the air which is a sign to surrender my leg that's how you worship you're like you know in awe and then you go to concerts and what are people doing the same thing yeah they put her hand out hard and they're worshiping Jenny : they call rock stars because these people become just an worship and I know because when I was younger uh you know me and him we we were more into like the old like classic rock and like that the old seventy or like don't enjoy God's hand George the doors the Beatles we grew up in in in that stuff because we were we were also into a lot of LSD and stuff like that but yeah and that stuff all kind of goes hand hands but it did mold and shape us completely into into that and we weren't like literally like I would eat up like you just said I would eat up every word that came out of Hendricks mouth right every word that came out of the doors mouth and and the Beatles and John Lennon and needs addiction and I mean how much like all the music as teenagers as we listen to I mean even then like you know the you know um but God's roses and you know as I started getting more wild and crazier gnarly like I'm listened to Guns N'Roses Motley Crue and like support you it you start and even come that music and I think about in my peak of insanity you know Motley Crue and and you know all that crazy stuff yeah you know but and that's how you express and what's interesting suddenly as a kid or like a teenager but you carry that I was like you know you said that that's how teenagers do it I was up to 32 years old I was still living out that lifestyle yeah and I well I you know I owed heed in hotel room and I was like yeah okay so there has to be more than this but that was the same music I was listening still living it out so true that was a hard transition for me tell you the cheese like the music thing and I told us and whatever but you know when I came to the Lord and all the stuff was on all the music that Ryan said plus you know some rap you know America's Most Wanted I said all that kind of stuff it's like this is this is the blackest man in the white body all the easy all that kind of stuff and it's just in my mind and then like when somebody give me a worship CD and there's like this girl singing with like a soft voice I'm like I'll roll my windows darkness is not Tupac but yeah but then after a while you saw wow it started to affect you started to change your heart you know and like you were saying like um young people man you take the phone away they like get crushed you know you take where the music they get crushed why because it's who they are in a lot of ways or who they think they are it's shaping the way that they they think Ryan I agree with you 100% so you know the Beatles and all that cuz I was probably like my favorite you know growing up and you know I heard a song the other day and just made me think like how we were it's like you're following like what they were saying back thing like I'm on the same wavelength but they were high they were hot right and this is the thing it levels off like it plateaus he's like hey I agree with Jimi Hendrix like realize up and then it's like but they don't have the the perfect answer of life and many of those artists died young the glories are broken yeah and the enemy ripped them off and you know that's what young people see to they strike try to emulate a lifestyle that's not real you know you find these young guys you know going after living this hardcore lifestyle of gangs and everything and there's gangs legit gangs all across Southern California all that stuff but a lot of the music that are listening to you once these guys get a big record label they living in gated communities you know they're not living this lifestyle more but these guys are in jails you know following a lifestyle that's just destroying them so here you are listen to the music you're a punk rock girl cream hair blue hair red hair yeah sometimes mixed hair and you're following following this and you get your music taken away you get your iPad taken away and everything else and here you are at this house what were some of the things what was the transition how'd you how'd you cope how'd you or did you cope that's the question um you probably didn't want to go in originally I don't know I was going oh that up that's you up yeah no I was going my dad um told me that we're going shopping in Chicago I was spending a week with my friends in Arizona and he said hey hey um make sure you don't miss his flight that's what he said make sure you don't miss this flight we're going to Chicago where you see some friends and go shopping and stuff said okay and so we drove and um next morning we stay in a hotel I actually remember this I remember I woke up and I was just like and my dad I think I think he asked how are you Jenaya this morning I said I'm just sad like I just I'm just not feeling it you know and that was like everyday and so um so we drove there and I met miss Tiffany we call her miss Tiffany mr. Travis it's like a wrist you know their authority and so um so we met miss Tiffany and um you know just talked to her and uh I said or she asked me do you think her dad loves you I said no yeah I said he put me through all this crap I've been having to do with this why would he why would he love me and so later on we talked and he was like a right chania you're staying here for high school yeah Oh I was a who wouldn't do that yeah right you get you know you were taken but your dad I know and this is all in the book yeah talked about this but your dad obviously was was desperate yeah loved he loved you he loved you so much I'm obviously know that now yes I know that when you're the situation you're like how could you yeah but the reality is your dad knew that the things that you were cuz you were dealing with some pretty hardcore total you were I mean let's let's kind of talk about maybe you know as much as you want to but uh some of the things that you were going through so first of all you grew up your dad was a your dad was a rock star at that time but he left corn at its peak last got ripped off by some some crooked Christian some Judas you guys got to the point we lost all your money where you guys were literally like getting in the book it says that he was scrounging out change out of the idols sofas so they could buy a loaf of bread to put butter on it yeah so you didn't grow up under this like hardcore like you know rolling around in Bentley's in this big mansion you and grew up from humble beginnings totally but because you've got affected by different things that are going on your life now you were you were going through uh what situations or what stuff were you just kind of struggling with at this point um I was so depressed depression so much depression some self-harm I would like I would cut myself I'd beat myself I just like burn burn myself with lighters which if you're listening this is common this is happening in the church and out of the church totally yes totally a big deal I dressed yeah big-time um and so those were the some of the things that I'm I was dealing with and um yeah it was so hard and it was hard because I had friends around me who were getting into it too and so they'd be like yeah life just sucks in it and we just have to deal with this together you know what I mean there was never like you're gonna get through this just be strong it was never like that was like no this is this just is it yeah and so it was just hard I was like in this I was like in this box like this box it was surrounded by all this dark darkness and I just couldn't get out so now here you are at this at this place they take away everything your dad's like look people and pretty sure he said I love you Nia I gotta go yeah I'm here cuz high school you would if you would have kept doing going your route you might not even be alive today so that's best decision your dad made so so now you're there um what was the what was the process of you kind of because you don't have a relationship with Jesus at this point no way you know so like no let's just talk about how the heck did you find Jesus that's the question that's the question okay so you know what when I was a kid I totally bleed in Jesus I was like I was so in love with the fact that um this man would choose me and my dad you know I I'd like a childlike faith you know that people talked about I was a child and I had that faith yeah and so I just I just remember praying to him and I'd and I know that he was walking with me and um you know as I grew up and I saw the fake Christians and people around me that were just knit messing up and how some hard stuff that I went through in my life - yeah like sexual abuse my mom leaving stuff like that because and so um so I kind of looked at him I was like uh where so I believed in you but now where are you yeah where are you and so so later on as I got involved my friends I was like I'm not I'm not into that I'm not into you like screw you after you know I was hurting and so I turned into Buddhism Hinduism all that stuff or so Rastafarian for a little bit it's like that's a lot of people you know it hey interesting enough a lot of people use religion as the salad bar they're like I love the grace of Jesus yeah I like the the croutons I like the the whole Buddha thing I like this I like that and I believe in all these different things which make up my beam tell you what yeah so that's that's normal dude but I could feel when I would when I would try to empty myself it felt dark yeah we're dark like when yet cuz when you're trying to empty yourself you're losing yourself and you're letting other things in yeah but dude that meditation and all that exactly so you actually went through and tried doing some of that some of that stuff yeah not not super deep yeah but no but you tried it cuz you're experimenting yeah totally in it felt dark I really hope because you're opening your you're opening yourself up this if you know what legs your world yeah we have 60 seconds left this is a good place to stop yeah collaborate and listen I'm gonna Isis back with something eventually brand-new and brand-new something something I was ever rapper you were I should yeah I could have done it but you guys messed up the rhythm a deck look you listen to live with Ryan Reese we have Jenaya in studio you're a wild al do you know 18 you're an adult yeah you're out the door graduate high school shucks yeah that's awesome well we're gonna be back we've been having a pretty heavy conversation but um a lot more to come on the other side you guys make sure you guys go to the whosoever's com you could always keep up with the killed an oyster if you want to book them go to the whosoever's you can um write an email in would love to come to your school this year also there's a bunch of brand new product that's out and a major thing that it's going to be the fourth annual August 20th yeah hi rich co baptism at 12 p.m. Ryan will be the Sonny and Ronnie fights we'll see you on the other side of the break peace more live with Ryan race coming up everything all right now 180 days five six for 61 73 or foes to your questions using the hashtag live Ryan Reese on his Instagram Twitter or Facebook I think I speak for the entire administration when I say now back to live with Ryan Ruiz beware we are exposing the truth on this program we were on a mission to reveal all the dark stuff that's happening in this realm to shed light on it because Jesus is the light of the world and then you could be set free that's why we do this show exactly so thank you for showing up loud noises you know that is Oh loud noises what's the guy Steve Krug from from the office on the officer oh yeah yeah I knew I recognized that I know I was like we had it on the show for a long time I was Jim Carrey I thought was Jim Carrey the whole time really and then someone called me out on the show my cam animal that's funny like Jim Carrey they're like that's not him I'm like mm-hmm the guy from the office buddy all right well before the break um no if you just tuned in we have Jenaya Welch uh Brian Head Welch is young and only daughter yeah yeah yeah and she's in studio and she's basically was telling us her story on growing up with her dad and Nick grow up in this wealthy area her dad had money when he left corn but he got ripped off by some people that use Jesus's name and took advantage of them and they they got to the point in head's new book talks about where they were searching through the couches to find money to buy just a loaf of bread to feed him and his and his daughter so anyways long story short he she's grown up is this this punk rock girl eating eating up every word that's coming out of the mouths of the artists that she's listening to and she starts to going through rushon anxiety struggling with self-harm cutting different things and that all boiled down to the point where had just had to get her to a place called awakening youth for this experience and we are talking about this experience right now and that was the beginning of when her life started to change but we're on a journey to find out how she found the Lord but before we went to break you said that you were getting involved with different religions or just checking out different things yeah and you were trying to empty yourself because that's kind of what what what was that empty yourself what is that all about um in in Buddhism yep when you meditate ohm yeah basically and that's scary yes that's like opening doorways to the supernatural realm if you're emptying yourself something else is gonna fill you up yep mm-hmm so that that left you feeling very dark yeah and what what were these what were the steps to you to find the King Jesus hmm okay so I was um dropped off an awakening youth um basically and um you know at first it was panicking because I dealt with some abandonment issues before I think with um just everything just all the stuff that have in my life and um and so I felt like my dad was just dropping me off again so I'd say it's exactly and so I had so much anxiety I was crying a lot I was angry I was you know just going crazy for like two days and um I guess like it was really hard to wrap my ride my rind wrap my mind me wrap my rind um wrap my mind around being at a Christian program I was like I'm not doing this I'm not getting letting anything in no no you know what I mean and so how am i how could I burn this place down rice of gasoline in a match it's oh dude I was thinking of so many ways to by the way maybe I was think you've so many ways how to leave I was like okay it's snowing outside but I wonder if I just leave the door right now I just I just find someone car it's like then you're like I seen that one movie and against hose froze often yeah the jump-off yeah yeah right and so um and so I guess for me I journal a lot and I'd write about you know just all the stuff that happened in my life one night just like from when I was a kid I wrote about my mom leaving some sexual abuse stuff my dad finding God and dealing with like the fake Christians and friends and boys and girls and you know all that stuff just like and um some personal stuff that I did and I guess like um after I wrote it out I was just like I felt kind of like a piece and I and I longed to be um I guess I remembered my childlike faith that I had and is almost like I was in my bunk bed it was like two weeks in two weeks in the program and um I I almost like shrunk back into being like a child like a small child it's like all of my impurities wash away and I was just his child and I was like I wrote in my notebook I was like oh Jesus I just please come into my life again just make me so whole I'm just I'm I'm running away and I think it's you but how can I trust you every one of my life has left me my dad's left me how am I supposed to trust you kind of thing and so um so I said God just if this is it just please just come into my heart just save me like I'm so sick I'm so weary I just need something and so he did I came into my life and we went to charismatic church what was really kicked before we get there what was the process like so he gave you you came into your life how'd you know that he was in your life what were the effects what you see what were things were you thinking different were you like I felt so much peace okay prease so much peace got so much anxiety all the time yeah anxiety I was depressed and I just felt so peaceful and I just felt airy you know what I mean and and I think um that I noticed that change a little light airy light light and airy like that bit like that that burden burden you don't have a heavier weight anymore exactly and and we went to a courage charismatic charismatic church at the time and I felt God so much there I think when they would pray over me I was like this is nothing nothing like anything else you know what I mean and so I think just um differentiating um that God and the God that I knew ya know well you kind of grew up like me where it was always around you yeah so it's almost like you're like well good nah I'm a Christian my parents were Christians yeah like I grew up in a Christian family I'm a Christian yeah but there's no relationship exactly so this is so what we were talking about earlier in the show or before the show today this was like when you actually had an encounter with God when you felt the Holy Spirit you invited him in your life you felt peace oh and that's and the Bible speaks he says you know whoever calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved you pray the you get baptized with the Holy Spirit where Jesus says in acts 1:8 you'll receive power when the Holy Spirit comes upon you when we talk about the Holy Spirit it's the peacemaker the Paraclete is to come alongside um the comforter with a comforter yeah when I was in a when I said that prayer in my hotel room when I gave my life to Jesus hmm I didn't feel peace that night I just said the prayer but I went to be at bed immediately but when I woke up the next day and I was in the plane reading the Bible hmm I just like had this the Holy Spirit encounter I just felt peace that's what happened to me I didn't know what it was though I was just like total peace and I'm glad you say that your eyes you know sometimes people think that there's gonna be like this big white light that comes over your room and that's how you're gonna know that God is working your life but I would attest the same thing when I came to Lord my life was horrible I had two eyes in seven months I was dealing with depression you know there were different things happen in my life but I remember you know I've been reading the Bible I was sitting in the church and Ryan's dad was teaching and then all of a sudden it was like this you said childlike faith it was like I was having like that feeling like when I was younger when they had no issues of problems you know my life was horrible and that God was really gonna do was doing a work of my life and God's peace in the midst of confusion I said it all the time God can give you peace and amidst the confusion and like what Ryan was talking about if you were saying this before the break or whatever you said what people need is an encounter with the Lord and that's what you're talking about right now Janelle like you had an encounter with the Lord that now changed the direction of your life changed the direction of Ryan's life and the Lord has changed the direction of my life and in what one thing that's also that's so important what the God ends is God desires us to walk in truth to walk in transparency because we're always having to cover our tracks and we're carrying a burden like it weighs you down the beats that's what people go nuts they go crazy today the Lord desires is to walk in truth because he cares for us it says that when we walk in the truth and man we have fellowship with God and things start to connect it's it's the guilt and shame to like who out people like it from my past life your past life or your past life when all that in xiety all that depression not only things that have happened to us in our life but things that we have done because of the things that have happened you start feeling all this anxiety this pressure depression and then you're self-medicating doing drugs and you self-harm and yeah then you're looking for outlets through pornography and all the stuff and then when you add all this stuff up no wonder you feel the way you feel right I mean there's people we got a call that we're gonna take care and you know in a few minutes but there's people that I get direct messages all the time on Instagram people email me people calling the show all the time yeah but people were dealing with all this stuff and then when you really start going when you start digging into what these people are going through it's very simple is that um it's all the stuff that they're involved with mm-hmm you know so here you are you're a perfect example gonna use you as an example tonight your ear wrapped up in all this crazy stuff yeah you give you you quit to that childlike faith just and that's literally just going Jesus if you're real and you exist just forgive me for my sins and come into my life and that's where the relationship starts with God that's not you could be out of crossroads if you listeners you're at a crossroads tonight in your life and you're dealing with who knows what but I guarantee everyone that's in this room is dealt with one thing or another that you're going through right now but you got to get to that point you got to humble yourself and know and and desire to have a Savior which his name is Jesus Christ the one that created everything and go to him like a child and say Jesus forgive me for my life come into my life and help me to sort out these issues in my life and it's gonna be one step at a time he's gonna be cleaning you up and here you are you give your life to God and he starts taking you through this experience this journey at Awakening youth and now I mean just to see you from where you were uh it's like there's like joy on your transformation but this would I see you remember when Nicodemus came to Jesus at night and said hey Jesus what do we gotta do to be you know to basically save he's like you got to be born again and you Nick Adiemus like that I'm like like crawl my mom's womb again as a grown man like crawl up inside and like pop back out me born-again Jesus you're tripping yeah he's like no man he's like did you see the where the wind blows you see how the wind blows on the on the on the leaves like you don't see the wind blowing you see that right the effects of the wind right this is in the same way that's how you be born again you you just like I don't see the Holy Spirit on you but I see the effects of the Holy Spirit all right and it's like night and day difference and that's what that's what people need so now obviously God has a plan for you what is your plan now you're 18 mm what you're grown up I know your dad's kicking you out the doorknobs Cherica no way he's like Janelle please come home I know he's like she's been texting me like crazy hey you're gonna be with her hey Carter call me hey this Annette I know he loves you days study stalking you I know I'll tell you what to sends up into awakening youth our relationship was crazy like just not good we're like we're gonna were fighting yelling at each other screaming each other so sometimes I got a little physical yeah um and so crazy sometimes crazy and so I remember the first phone call that ye you have to wait a month to talk to your parents and I remember um this like I just we had FaceTime he just said hi nan I just cried I was just like I'm so sorry I just felt so much remorse for everything I had you know cuz I was like I don't know I was just awakened yeah waken yeah you were I was awakened to all the things that Rami and all I was hurting myself I was like trying to find other things to fill but really he was right here he was like I was here all along and he says you're storing your life it's not you're storing relationships exactly and so me and my dad have never been closer never ever been closer till now and I love him very very much and well it's like it's that that's the gifts of the Holy Spirit you know it talked about in Galatians 3 you probably haven't memorized because that's how you roll but what are the guests of the hole I know it's like gentleness patience kindness and self-control is just five yeah joy joy joy and peace and everything you were saying right now self-control all those things those are the results of a life that has been dedicated to the Lord and it just flows out of your life you know I had problems with my family too and my dad my dad I drove him crazy and then the restoration process that were able to be there and the way you start treating people you know all the things that are found in Scripture you don't Ryan talk about the Holy Spirit the Holy Spirit is the one who brings God's Word to life you know and the Jesus says you will leave guide you and direct you in all truth yeah and it's a crazy thing because he changes your heart's desire sometimes people get like cutter ball that means I got to stop doing this stop doing that it's not like that right God changes your desires he put brings conviction in your life sometimes of things that's gonna haunt you explain conviction because some people don't did that sounds like a bad word yeah yeah yeah it's cut arey a conviction is like this it's showing you what's right and wrong you know for so many two years in your life maybe you had no problem with like cursing out family or cursing out people on the street or doing drugs or doing your wife cheating on your wife living like promiscuous or whatever ever it is then you come to Laurie that says a working your life you like oh you hear something like ooh like something that you always thought all the time it doesn't seem right anymore it's like yeah well I don't listen to it no more or you know relate it's like those old comedy movies that we drove all those comedies with roasting from and then all of a sudden you watch it now and you're like dude that's raunchy dude yeah I know I know which is so crazy because I tell people it's on my willpower cuz my willpower is horrible many times I mean remember back in the day right we'll be like all right well drink down we're not gonna do no more meth you know we're not gonna do this or that like that wasn't an economy even before you know somebody else and it all falls apart it's not willpower it is by the power of the Holy Spirit he gives you strength to resist temptation and he also shows you he grants you discernment to be like man this is God leaving me in my life this is the right decision that I'm supposed to make in my life he'll grant you peace he will give you clarity through his word and you will open up doors that no man can shut and that's how God works he works Ryan says it the same thing he works supernaturally naturally like you're like wow he brings somebody in your life and it's like this perfect communication you have with a person and it's like ordained by God it's like all those things and so that's why why I love walking with the Lord because he gives when I say conviction he shows you what is right and wrong what's pleasing to him and the Bible says that our lives are now to please him we please God by the way we liberalize and serve the Lord and we find the purpose for life you don't lose your life you gain your life you know as we've been sitting here all night talking about this and because you are a writer and you have that desire for writing I think of Ephesians chapter 2 which talks about how somebody is saying that at once we were against God do our own thing but God's gracious shouter par lions and in verse 10 of chapter 2 it says for we were created in Christ Jesus to be his workmanship and the word workmanship means poema we are his written poem our lies our testimony Wow God's goodness and His graciousness in our lions it's amazing and everything that's taking place in your life Jenaya from your rebellion for a while you know growing up in a home where your dad is trying to get his life together you know in the ops and downs of his own personal life losing everything and their walking with the Lord and then you trying to find yourself with the Lord and Ryan wrote his rejecting of God for so many years of life my rejecting of God and when you take a step back you see wow like God's long-suffering and his patience in my life he had his hand upon me even when you had those moments like God where are you right into the same thing in his life when things are wrong in his life I say that and hate God yeah you just like oh dude I give up and no doubt there's people that are listening right now that feel the same way that we have found and what we would want to share with you guys tonight is like God is right word where you are right now and he can be known to you tonight by saying Lord if you are real come into my life reveal yourself to me I'm done doing my own things we all grew up with a crew like me and Ryan grew up with a big crew a lot of friends went all over the place joke all the time on the outside look like we're having a great time and had good times at times but in reality we all came to a place or life when we were alone something was messed up jacked up in our lines and we had a call out to the Lord and God changed everything so we were to say to you don't put on a front don't put on the facade don't be trying to live a life - you know even like the fake life of social media or other outlets God loves you as you are and he's able to change and transform you by the power of the Holy Spirit yeah we have a call yeah I'll take it yeah okay let's do it yep all right we're gonna go ahead and take a call I always a murder the names well if it's arrived it's very you Dabangg come on I don't know what to say Eames I would say Yvonne but it does come on it's going to take you home North Hollywood hello how you doing tonight hey how you doing 200 I just had a question um I'm kind of like I know you guys were talking about all like about anxiety and stuff like that um I'm kind of like going through that right now it's been like probably I would say like eight days just just pure anxiety and all and a little bit of depression but not so much just very anxious week um I was just wondering like you know is it wrong to medicate I mean is it you know like I have all these symptoms on me and stuff you know I do get in the word and pray and ask God to like can't we get through distance stuff but at times it's like because I'm just so anxious and stuff it just isn't like break you know what what like what is the UM my question is like what what's going on in your life that that's causing all this this anxiety I mean obviously we know the scripture say be anxious for nothing you know be still and know that I am God and I know life is crazy you know right um but is there like what what what stuff are you involved with that'sthat's that's bringing bringing so much insight exciting I know that Spri there is a lot of spiritual warfare too that could bring on that could bring on anxiety as well right um kind of like I guess I've got it like probably back in 2007 when I was why I was saved as a child and stuff but I would go to church you know off and on but then as I got into like my adult Ina's years teenage years I kind of thought like would go out and stuff wouldn't really do church that much and then like as I got older I you know I about 27 I would say that's when I you know went back to the Lord and started serving God and stuff like that and just being all just begin to God and stuff I had like I would say two major like losses first was my daughter's fathers 9 and then a year later my sister died I think is like College in about five years and then I didn't grease um I kind of like I would say I just you know gave God and then kind of like just sucked it up you know and then just went on about like just going to church and just you know doing me but at the end it's like it's always like my family and stuff I grew up in like my childhood wasn't so great you know my parents you know always fighting stuff but I mean I think when I started stability anxiety coming Moore was just being like I think probably around just being around while I'm not supposed to be the people the environment the family chaos is just like constant chaos there's nothing such a good December such a good thing you know you're always hearing something bad or something happened you know it's just like and now that I see that I'm older now like I suffered also with bulimia for like four years after you know my sister passed so I had you know figure out you know I just started hurting myself you know and basically just taken out of myself because I didn't know what else you know I knew God I knew that but it just wasn't working you know I just felt like he wasn't air hey how do you say your name is it Ivana a bond Yvonne Yvonne you know I would say a couple of things one you know so sorry for all that you have gone dude sounds like you've gone through a lot of different stuff and just by gauging what you're saying I would say there's a lot of spiritual warfare that's definitely involved in your case you know and the enemy definitely wants to overwhelm us you know what I say to a lot of people is that we're the enemy giant likes to get us is get us overwhelmed by temporary circumstances it gets us on the here and now and that's why the word continually reminds us to look up for your redemption draws near to set your mind on things above not on things of the earth and to seek God's kingdom first and he's going to take care of all of your worry you know and those are the things that you range started earlier about not being anxious for anything but pray about everything I would go through that the checklist of what you're doing spiritually first and that is make sure you're praying make sure because there's so many distractions and pressures like you were saying about family those can be distractions and so you need to make sure that you take time to get alone with the Lord that's a check if you're doing that that's great to make sure that you're reading the word because that's what's going to bring you comfort and guidance I know in my life if I'm not reading a dedication form like my days are harder to come by I'm more irritable I feel you know have a time and when I take time aside and put those things first just as God's Word says pray and read those things help me go into a church that teaches the word all these things work together and then if all those things are being met and you're still struggling with those things I mean you can pray and you need to be praying and guide there are some instances where people do met me medication but the thing is is like you really need to pray and if all of these areas of your life are being covered and you really dedicate your life to Lourdes I do you know a couple close friend of mine that are legit Christians that have to take medication because of it but it's something that you must do prayerfully and I would say very much last resort because I believe the Lord is able to touch and to anoint you and to heal you with what you're going through and the last thing I was saying one thing that I love to do when I get overwhelmed in life and the Bible says to do this is to give thanks in all things for this is the will of God I start thanking God for my my health for my wife for my children for the roof over my head all the simple things and when you do that perspective changes so Livan oh we love you we'll be praying for you we're get a stay on the line we're gonna actually take this call off there on the other side okay every else we'll see you next week this has been live with Ryan race to connect or find out more about Ryan click on Ryan - Rhys comm check us out next Saturday at 9:00 p.m. for live with Ryan Reese

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Length: 58min 1sec (3481 seconds)

Published: Mon Aug 01 2016