'Connection With God' with Kim Walker Smith

we really do have kind of one focus for the next three days and it is to pursue Jesus with all of our heart and see his name exalted and and worship is just a massive massive part of that for us and as we get as we get thousands of people that will come in for these three days again even though not all of them are here right now we want to be able to get all on the same page for what we're going after the ultimately the only what we really want to do is encounter Jesus that's we want we want to encounter his presence we want to come face to face with Jesus none of us are here to hear a worship team or a preacher we're all here to encounter Jesus and so all of us getting on the same page of going after God in worship is is I think going to be really important so I've asked Kim who I don't know if many of you would know this but but most of the team that's up here have been with us for a long time we started as a youth grew in the youth group still at the church that were still at in Redding California called Bethlehem California and we're still all there and but I was youth pastor and we started doing conferences and Kim was with us early on Kim is now 30 are you the same I say no don't believe a word he said Kim's 21 and spin with us for two years exposing her but she's been with us since she was 18 as part of the she's been with us for long time she's 18 she was part of our were our she's part of our leadership team with the youth group was the social activities director as well as doing worship and you know not a lot of people would know but you know we we had an every Friday night prayer meeting when I was youth pastor and every Friday night we would just get together from 9 o'clock to 11 o'clock at night at our church just with young people and we would just pray we just pray in worship for two hours every Friday night and maybe there'd be I don't know 30 or 40 would show up and Kim with Kim was one of the worship leaders it was every Friday night and lead worship and interceding for our city and then Chris same way Chris's I've been been around with us since he was 12 as a junior high kid in youth group and so but I've asked him to come who has just a massive heart for worship a massive heart for intimacy with Jesus and and I want you to catch your heart and then what I want you to do is you catch your heart is I want us to all get on the same page for the next three days going after God in worship and just lifting up the name of Jesus can you do that hey would you even though she's up here right now would you put your hands together and welcome Kim come on I keep trying to tell banning that I would like my old job back is the social events director it's really fun I got a plan all the parties and everything but I still going to do that now actually with Jesus Culture planned some fun times and do some fun stuff are you guys excited for this conference we're really excited to be here in New York I really like New York I've been here a few times and I've actually been out here once this year um at basic college ministries I hear like two people back there yelling like yeah it's awesome there's a lot of fun so like being said I'm just gonna kind of share with you really the heart and the reason why we are here it's very strategic it's not really just for fun or because New York is cool I mean it is but we're here for a bigger purpose but I want to start by just um defining worship and I'm just curious how many of you have heard me speak before okay like some of you like okay cool I'm just wondering I'm kind of a broken record because this is like what I am so passionate about and really just what I live for so worship at one point in my life I was just asking God about worship about the the future of worship the direction but my role and that what that looks like what I could do for him and the Lord really redefined worship to me and what worship means and I realized that worship is not songs and it is not singing and it is not instruments and it's not dancing and it's not painting it's not any of those things but worship just very simply defined is God pouring out his love on us and us responding to his love and pouring our love back out on him and all of these other things that we do the singing the dancing the instruments all of that are expressions of that relationship and when we stop to think about it the reality is what would any of those things be apart from that relationship if I if I didn't have that connection in that relationship I would just be standing up here just making noise going through motions but the reality is that worship is just all about him it's all about his presence it's all about encountering him it's all about loving him it's this cycle that's just not ending of him pouring his love out on us and us pouring our love back out on him and you know I really believe that each of us we have this we're going to call it a well okay we have this well inside of us and we want that well to be filled up and filled up doesn't mean just to the rim it means overflowing and to have a well that is overflowing that means that we've got to have something consistently and all the time pouring into it and that's where this relationship that's where worship comes in how many of you have ever been in church or or a conference or anything and you're hearing people talk about or mention like a life of worship a lifestyle of worship you heard those words and sometimes I think that people are like imagining their minds that that means that you're just like walking around singing songs all the time which it could be or that it means you know you have to stop at certain moments and everyday to burst into song spontaneously or whatever it is but you know it really it means to just walk in worship to have a lifestyle of worship it means that you are walking in a place where you're consistently connected to him where you don't lose that connection where you don't um where that connection doesn't drop where you can you can't just stop in your day and just stop and acknowledge his presence just acknowledge him there with you how many of us have days where we we get so busy and so caught up in what's happening that we don't even stop and just say hello just acknowledge him you ever have days like that hello yeah you guys are so quiet are you guys doing okay okay just make sure oh there's a bug flying around up here I might need my husband in a minute I don't like bugs can I just tell a funny story actually about that before I move on okay when we were just in we're in South Africa and yeah three of South Africans here awesome cool so we were just there and um something happened to me that I did not know about until weeks later we get back my husband and I are sitting in a restaurant and I'm telling him this funny story about the time was attacked by a spider and my husband just is cracking up like almost falling out of his chair laughing so hard and I'm thinking this is a funny story but not that funny and I'm like what's going on he's like I have to confess something to you and I was like oh no what what is this and he said well do you remember that hotel we're at in Africa do you remember outside seeing all those giant locusts all over the ground you know like they're kind of like grasshopper type things but they're like humongous okay like that okay so I was like no I just see those all over the ground and he's like well I was sitting on the bed in the hotel room and you came in and you plopped down right on the bed and I noticed something sitting in your hair it was like right here and he's like I looked closer and I realized it was one of those giant locusts it was just sitting on my head in my hair and I was like what did you do and he's like I just reached up and I just grabbed it like this and pulled my hand away and when you weren't looking I went and stuck and I put it in the garbage and I said and you didn't tell me and it's like I would it what did I say when you reached up and grabbed something off of my head I don't remember this at all and he said I told you I was just giving you a love Pat kind of funny anyways let's go back to worship now shall we so a question that I get asked a lot is uh do you ever get tired of singing the same songs over and over you know when we did our our US tour in April it was like it was nine cities in a span of like two weeks or something and we sang the same songs like over and over and over and it sounds crazy but my response to that question is no I don't get tired of singing the same songs because it's not about the songs it's just about him and when he shows up it's just fresh and new every single time and I don't want you get me wrong you know songs are valuable we need songs we need songwriters they're incredible tools for us in our worship in making proclamations and declarations like tools are those our songs are incredible tools but the point I want to get across though is that worship is just all about him and it's all about us encountering him it's all about his presence I went through this season of my life I wasn't leading worship or singing or anything like that and um God was just doing a lot of inner healing in my life he was just kind of rewiring me and cleaning me up from the inside out you know and during that time I spent every free moment I had just doing anything and everything that I could do to get close to him I I went to work in the mornings I went to school in the afternoon and as soon as school was done I was either at our prayer house or as in my bedroom just seeking the Lord sometimes I would read my Bible sometimes I pray sometimes I'd sing sometimes I danced sometimes I paint I would just do anything that made me feel close to him anything you all and during that time I just fell so crazy in love with him I mean out of my mind insane in love with him so in love with Jesus and suddenly it really didn't matter to me anymore what I did with my life or where I went or what he had me do as a sidenote you know I never dreamt about being a worship leader I wanted to be the first one president that was my dream my entire childhood all of my teenage years all growing up that was my dream what I was going after and I wasn't sitting in my bedroom like asking God to make me a worship leader or anything else I was just telling him I just want to be where you are and if that's you know working down at McDonald's or wherever is like I am happy to do that as long as I have you I just want you and your presence it doesn't mean that I didn't have dreams it doesn't mean that I wasn't you know dreaming it just means that I'm making a statement in my life that there's nothing that matters more than him and his presence and in that time when I when I fell in love with him I understood my role has a worshipper that it wasn't about being on a stage it wasn't about singing songs it wasn't about playing an instrument or any of those things it was just about being with him and being in his presence because the reality is because that connection I I have fought for that connection and I say it's a fight because it's hard it's difficult it doesn't just come always easy or naturally to just constantly be walking in his presence and maintaining that connection because life happens we have jobs we have kids I have dogs and we have um stress and school and homework um we have different storms that we encounter and things that try to get in the way and to make you pull away from that connection to forget about that connection to lose that connection to get too busy for that connection but when you can fight to maintain that connection when you can understand your role as a worshiper that it's not confined to a talent or a skill that you are called and created to be a worshiper because you are called and created to love the one who loved you first but that's what it's all about and the reality is that I can be standing in the middle of the grocery store in the middle of the bank in the middle of wherever I am and I can immediately drop everything and just start worshipping Him with all that I am with all that I have and just pouring my love on him because I don't need a song or a band or fancy lights or a pastor or any awesome storm I don't need any of those things to get me motivated to love Jesus I just want to pour my love on him and when you're in love that's just that's just how it is you don't you don't need all these things to like make you want to do that to get you excited about doing it you know the the current in place we're at in in most churches I've been to a lot of churches all over all over the place and um this isn't a negative thing is this where we are but you know we've come a long ways in worship and we're still moving forward so it's changing it's growing as we get new revelation of God of his presence sodas are our worship the way we do Church changes right guys what I'm talking about so a lot of times in church you know we've got our we kind of start with our praise songs and it's kind of like okay hey everybody hey you out there hey come on in come on we're working get started are you ready come on get ready focus focus we're gonna worship now you ready okay then we kind of transition and to our kind of like you know in between kind of songs and then it's like okay focus a little bit more ready we're gonna go deeper is everyone ready ready go deeper ready okay and then we've kind of transition into our like our intimate worshipful and it's like okay we're here now we're shipping come on this pour our hearts out on Jesus yes Lord and then depending on how your pastor is you either end with a full praise to Jesus or a yes God thank you Jesus you know I'm talking about did I just subscribe your church surveys this this is not this is not a negative thing this is just where we are but the thing is we can't stay we can't stay where we are and we can't be content with where we are because there's so much more to have right and so all that to say that sometimes we set things up to try to get people excited and motivated about being with Jesus bummer it shouldn't be like that right but can you imagine what your church service what your maybe you go to a homegroup whatever is where you gather corporately together can you imagine what it would be like what it would look like if every single person came with this understanding of knowing their role as a worshiper that they came having gone through their week fighting for that connection fighting to maintain that connection and when they show up BAM they're already connected and they're ready to worship you can sing praise songs you can sing slow songs you can sing whatever songs you want you don't have to sing it all you can just worship Jesus just be in his presence you could soak you can lift your hands you can dance whatever is but that we are there pouring out our love on him amen sometimes I you know I that what what I'm I'm the point I am trying to get across right now it is it is so important to me that I I tell God all the time God I don't I don't want to sacrifice your presence for anything not not even for creativity not for just the sake of having an awesome service or an awesome song like your presence is the first and foremost thing and we just want him to have his way we want him to be glorified we want to encounter him you know I believe that every single time that we come into worship when we come into a corporate gathering we come into these these times when we're we're singing we're pouring our love on him I really believe with all my heart that every time we should leave changed and leave different than how we came every single time and it doesn't matter if it's a conference or your day to day church service it's every single time because that's who God is there is so many facets to him and so much revelation to be had in him and every time we come we should be changed you know I say it's a fight again because it is hard we have to we have to learn to the moment we lose that connection to go back and find it pick it back up and go after it again and there's two things I want to point out that can get in the way one of those you know it's life it's the busyness it's the schedule and it's getting impatient at times you know we we have a conference like this okay and we get super like on fire excited just like oh man when I get home this time everything's going to be different I really am gonna read my Bible every single day and I'm gonna worship and pray every single day and we get home and it's like the first few days like we get our little routine going but then after a little while like oh well nothing's really happening or but I'm just we aboard we get impatient we get busy we decide to put it away well I'll just wait for tomorrow whatever it is do you guys know what I'm talking about I'm certainly not the only person's had those days and in those moments something that really helped me you know when I would open my Bible and read my Bible there's times I open it and I read something and it just feels like Jesus just walked in the room and is like some crazy revelation is hitting me but there's a lot of times I'm reading my Bible and I'm like this is really awesome but I don't have any revelation right now I don't feel anything I don't see anything I don't hear anything I'm just kind of being faithful in this moment and reading my Bible but in those times my flesh it's like this war is happening and my flesh is like oh this is so uncomfortable come on there's nothing happening try again later this you know your mind goes down all these different paths and I would learn to discipline my mind and I would tell myself one day I will live in the fruit of this moment this moment does not go unnoticed whether I feel something whether I see something or not whether I have some you know radical thing happening and listen I'm not like you no prophet person with little blue angels showing up and being sucked up into space and floating around in different galaxies and Gabriel handing me a scroll and you know I'm not having things like that happening especially on a consistent basis and I just feel like you know I am just an average person who is being faithful with everything God puts in front of me and that looks like when I come and I pray I worship Him whatever it is I'm doing even if it doesn't seem like something crazy is happening I know that there will be a day that I will live in the fruit of that time spent God sees that he sees that time it's like storing up in in heaven this Bank up there something that you're pouring into pouring into and I can tell you for a fact I'm standing here right now because of years of that in my life because of years of pouring and pouring and just being in his presence pouring my heart out whether I felt like or not whether I felt anything or not and I have those times still I know that there's coming a time where I'll be living in the fruit of all those moments right now you guys track it with me everything is so much easier when you're in love it's easier to the fight is easier it's it's easier to fight for that connection when you're in love coz when you're in love you're kind of crazy you know I remember when I first fell in love with my husband I couldn't sleep and I couldn't eat he was all I talked about he was all I thought about I was crazy out of my mind I could have walked right out in the street in front of a car and been hit and my arm would have fallen off and I've been like I love Skylar like it's amazing what kinds of things you can endure when you're in love I love the story of Peter in Matthew 14 i I'm so sorry I'm feeling like really emotional talking about this Peters on a boat there's a storm and he hears the voice of the one that he loves calling out his name and he's so in love and he wants to be with him and he goes to step out of the boat to walk on the water to go and to be with the one that he loves but the moment that he took his eyes he took his ears his heart off the voice of the one that he loves of seeing the one that he loves and he looked around at the storm and the circumstances around him immediately he started to sink and to be overcome by those circumstances and overcome by the storm and it is so so important that we learn to fix our eyes on the one that we love that we are so in love with him that despite the storm or the circumstances that may come around us that we are have our hearts in tune to his voice that we have our eyes set on him and when you are in love it doesn't matter what kind of storms or circumstances it doesn't matter if you messed up on the song or the band played the wrong song or anything else because you are so desperate to be with the one that you love that you are willing to take the risk to step out on the water to go and run to be with the one that you love this is the kind of intimacy and relationship that Jesus is so looking for in us and so wanting from us it is incredible to me and it just blows my mind every time I think about it that Jesus goes to the cross and when he dies on the cross that the veil is torn and if you don't understand what that means you got to understand before Jesus there's this temple right and just to be okay with God you've got to go and make these sacrifices at the temple and no one's allowed in and and if you don't go in the priests don't go in just perfectly they're gonna die like it's crazy it's so intense and when Jesus died that veil that thing that separated all of us from the Holy of Holies from the the glory of God from Jesus all of those things that bill was just ripped into and in that moment God said you have access to me you have access to my presence you have permission to come and to worship me face to face you have permission to have this incredible relationship this incredible intimacy with me that's exactly what that was and isn't he worthy isn't he so deserving of that kind of love and that kind of relationship the Bible says that we love him because he first loved us and it also says that God is love and you know what that tells me that God is love that tells me that love is something that is to be felt that is alive it is moving and breathing inside of us love is something that is supposed to just be moving on the inside yeah you know what I'm talking about we are we are created it is literally in our in our very the very fibers of who we are just to respond to his love I have this friend named Dan McCollum he's this amazing man who just has incredible revelation of the father and he does these really fun experiments with science that just keep proving how awesome God is and one time he was talking about and some of you might know a little bit about this and I can I will not try to do the justice of explaining it in detail but you know a while back they discovered that when you broke everything down all of matter - like the smallest thing some of you are thinking an atom but no not an atom even smaller than that it's a photon and a photon basically what it is it's a sound wave and to all of us we're kind of like well of course of course it's a sound wave ago of course us and all matter is created of these sound waves right because God spoke everything into existence right does that make sense and you know that tells me if we're literally even in in our very like DNA in the fiber of of who we are and in what we're made up of we're created of these like crazy tiny little sound waves that the moment that God speaks a moment that he moves the moment that his presence is is there and and fell amongst us we are created to respond to that to respond to his presence to respond to him with love to pour out our love on him we're created to carry his presence to walk in his presences his presence is primary everything else is secondary to his presence and this is what worship is all about I had a lady one time at a Women's Conference I was just speaking about worship and she raises her hand in the back and she's like every time that you guys buy you guys she meant worship leaders say sing this sing this I get so frustrated because I can't sing and my response to her was you know if I couldn't sing like if I didn't have a natural skill or ability to sing either everybody around me would be plugging their ears from the crazy noise that is just coming out of me or I would be like the dancing maniac over on the side of the stage or something okay like I would find a way to express my worship I would find a way to pour out my love to worship Him because he's so deserving and this is exactly what we were made and created to do and it doesn't matter if you can sing it doesn't matter if you're a good dancer it none of that matters all that matters is you encountering him it doesn't matter the words on the screen all that matters is just encountering him and I really think that the most beautiful amazing worship are the times when we forget about the words on the screen and we forget about everything else happening around us and we're just worshiping we're just all together there in his presence one of my favorite moments in worship ever was when we're in Germany about a year and a half ago now and we're singing our songs in English because you know we don't know German and a lot of these people that are there there's a lot of them that don't speak English but would sing along with us because they they knew the songs they had to memorize and I don't even know if they knew exactly what they were saying but they would sing it with us but all of a sudden we went to this moment where we're just playing and nobody was singing and slowly this sound started rising up in the crowd and all the sudden the whole place just burst into spontaneous song in German they were singing in their language and it was so incredible all of us the whole band we were so moved by that and so amazed like as a worship leader it's almost like a dream come true really because you don't want to just be up here and just sing your songs and we look at me I'm a good singer and I sing so pretty and whatever else it is but your whole desire and goal is that everyone would come into God's presence and encounter him and to worship Him to release their song to release their worship and this is why we are here we are here because you know the next Kathryn Kuhlman is maybe sitting out here and the next Aimee Semple McPherson and the next Smith Wigglesworth and and all you know I really believe that having an encounter with God worshiping God pouring out all for God you know I remember I'm I remember who I was even leading before I was singing or doing worship I remember going up to different leaders who I admired and just asking them to pray for me and just being like hey will you just pray for me there was something in them that I saw that I was like I value that I want that for my own life and I don't think that any of those people would have ever known or guessed that I would be like here where I am now or doing what I'm doing now and that's incredible thing when I was praying today I was just thinking about how many people are going to be here that have come that God has a plan and a Destinee that he wants to give you a radical encounter with his presence that will not just change your life but can change an entire generation because of the destiny this is why we're here this is why we want you to encounter god this is why it is so important not just so that your life is forever changed so but so that you might actually change an entire generation that this is what we're created and called to do to influence this world to bring heaven to earth to bring his kingdom to see his kingdom manifest on this earth and every single one of us has a role and a part in that do you guys believe that no I'm I'm super big on um you know I I talk about Alana I think I'm I go ahead and share it but I had a radical encounter with God's love that forever forever changed my life and I talked about it I'll aw I bring it up a lot because I really believe that if you are not passionate about this very thing I'm talking about if you're not passionate about worshiping him about getting to know him more about increasing in your relationship with him if you're not passionate about growing about all of those things if you're not passionate about that I believe that you do not know yet how much God loves you because when you really know how crazy he is about you how much he loves you when you know that when that is alive inside of you moving and breathing inside of you you cannot help but fall so in love with him you can't you won't be able to stop it you fall so crazy out of your mind in love with him because all it takes is one taste of his love and you are never the same again this is exactly why his word says we love him because he first loved us we encountered that love and you can't help but fall in love so my encounter I think some of you might have heard it before it floats around on cyberspace and we have part of it on one of the DVDs I think but I'd had a really hard weekend and I was out of town and I was driving back into town as quickly as I could to get to the night service because I so wanted to be at church and in worship I was kind of needing a dad hug and I walked in I walked up towards the front and Chris valeton was standing there and he looks at me and I'm like you know trying to hold myself together nice goes and I saran over and hugged and I'm bawling my eyes out and Anthony Skinner was leading worship if you don't know who he is you should Google he's a worship leader amazing and Anthony Skinner's leading worship and all of a sudden in in worship I I have this vision and and remember this isn't something that would happen often or anything like that but I have one encounter and I live off of it until the next one but anyway so I'm standing there my eyes are closed I have this vision and I see Jesus standing in front of me and he's reaching out his arms and he wants me to come to him and I can't I I can hardly look at him I feel so covered in shame I feel very unworthy I feel like I do not deserve to be close to him or near to him and I'm terrified out of my mind I'm afraid I'm afraid of what he might find I'm afraid that he'd see all my imperfections all the mess in my life all the places that I'm not healed all the places that I don't trust and he is irresistible completely irresistible like chocolate totally irresistible and I finally I go to him and I fall on his arms and he's holding me and I still can't really even look at him and as he's holding me this thought comes into my mind and I recognize that this is not my thought that this came from somewhere else you know Holy Spirit of course I'm not recognizing that at the time but the thought is you need to ask him two questions you need to ask him how much do you love me and what were you thinking when you created me and I'm like there is no way I am asking him those questions what you need to know about me is that as a little girl one time I heard my dad say something about wanting a boy and in my little girl mind I I took that as I I was a mistake that I should have been a boy but I'm a girl and I thought that God messed up and that here I was a girl and I was like this big disappointment and I actually believed that my entire life and to ask God what were you thinking when you created me I really believed and I know it sounds funny but I really believe this I believe that he would be like well I was trying to make a boy and whoops you came out of girl oh well like I really believe that's what he would say and then to ask him how much do you love me well I thought he'd be like well how much could you love a mistake I mean I'm just trying to make the best of a bad situation now I know this sounds crazy but these are the kinds of lies that I believed in my life and I'm sitting there just trying to hold myself together refusing to ask these questions and all the sudden Anthony Skinner over the microphone in front of everybody says you need to ask God two questions and my heart is like pounding and I'm like no no and he goes you need to ask him how much do you love me and what were you thinking when you created me and I am shocked and terrified and ticked I'm like thanks a lot you just said it in front of everybody he might have hurt you and it's not like he was like hey you kim down there Kim yeah Kim Kim you need to do this it wasn't like that he's probably just like holy spirit-inspired moment oh I think I should say this right now and he says it and I feel like everybody in the entire church is they're all looking at me right now and they all know exactly what's happening that's how I feel in this moment and now I'm like well great now I have to say it because you just said it out loud so I work up every bit of courage I have which is about that much and that's all you need fortunately and I just say Jesus how much do you love me and all the sudden cheese's sites me down and he reaches out his arms okay and it's like Stretch Armstrong now unfortunately a lot of times when I'm speaking to teenagers they have no clue who Stretch Armstrong is and it makes me feel old and I am NOT old okay Stretch Armstrong is a superhero back in the day apparently a long time ago I don't know he had these like you know his limbs like stretch out like spaghetti noodles like forever and you're like falling off a cliff and stretch Armstrongs like whoop and you like rescues you you know hello anyway Jesus arms are stretched out like Stretch Armstrong forever and I'm looking and I can't see the ends and he goes I love you this much ha ha ha ha and he's cracking up and he just keeps saying it and I'm like what you love me that much and I'm looking I'm like I can't even see the ends it's going on forever and I'm overwhelmed I can't believe it I can't believe that he loves me that much I know it's really funny in that moment I had this amazing revelation that he speaks my language you know if you would have said it like that to anybody else they probably would have been like okay what did I eat today you know but for me like this is my language this is this is what made sense to me and you in that moment I'm like you know what I'm good I don't need to ask that other question who cares you know I'm thinking ah that's all right and it's like Jesus let me off the hook for a little bit a few months later months mind you I'm in our prayer house and I'm sitting and I'm watching the Sun come up I'm facing out towards a window and it's kind of round ish and there's a door uh back behind me here where like you come in and nothing spectacular it's like just another day I'm watching the Sun come up I'm reading my Bible but all of a sudden it is interrupted and I feel Jesus walk into the room behind me I mean it is so strong and so tangible like I can feel his presence so strong and immediately I had this revelation he has come for that question and I'm terrified out of my mind like fear of the Lord and I really hoped that he had forgotten and he had it and here he is now and I feel Jesus walk up behind me and I'm just kind of sitting there trembling and terrified any psyches tapping me Kim please ask me that question hey Jesus what's up hey Kim please ask me that question beautiful day today good job Kim please ask me that question I'm good really hahaha Kim please ask me that question and again because he is so irresistible I'm like okay and I fall on the floor bawling my eyes out like I do with Jesus and all the sudden I say Jesus what were you thinking when you created me it was more like what were you thinking and all of a sudden I'm in this vision and I'm standing with Jesus and I see God the Father and there's a table in front of him and he reaches in his heart and he rips his chunk out of his heart and throws it on the table and then it's like you know play-doh or something and I'm like going Jesus what is he doing what's he doing and also and I see he makes me I'm up there on the table and he reaches over and he grabs this box and you know the little jewelry boxes that little girls have where when you open it there's a little ballerina this spins inside and music plays well he sets me in a box like that and he closes it and he's standing there like this and he's like super excited and all the sudden he throws open that box and when he throws it open inside I start dancing and worshiping and singing to him and he goes yeah and he runs around like this and he comes back over he closes it he's like and he throws it open again it's the same thing oh he's running around circles I mean he's going crazy he's like a little kid with a jack-in-the-box and it's crazy have you ever noticed a little kid with the jack-in-the-box like every single time they're like you know like they don't know it's gonna do that every time I mean he's just going nuts and I'm standing with Jesus going oh do you see that what is happening oh my goodness what is happening I'm getting this I'm feeling the excitement you know and all sudden he reaches in and he grabs me and he picks me up out of the box and I'm sitting in the palm of his hand and suddenly I go from being here and watching it to being there in the palm of his hand and he's pulling me close to him like this and I'm watching like what is happening what's going on and as I'm getting closer and closer I can see his heart and there's this like itching in his heart where he'd ripped that chunk out and all of a sudden he pushes me up and he slides me right in to that spot in his heart and I fit like a puzzle piece it was perfect and as I'm just sitting there wrapped up in his heart in his presence he just begins to speak to me and he said Kim you were never a mistake you are exactly what I dreamt about exactly what I wanted you I made you simply because you make me happy you bring me joy I think you're funny I love it when you sing to me I love it when you worship me and this is the place where I created you from and this is where I've brought you back and this is where you stay right here in my heart and in that moment years and years of Lies we're just breaking off and falling off and after that day I could never be the same again I could never worship the same I could never walk the same I could never live life the same I could never be the same again after that just one encounter was all that it took and that that is exactly what we want for all of you in this time we want you to have a radical encounter with God and maybe you've already had one how about another yeah we do not want you to leave here the same and our heart is that throughout this time throughout this conference that we will all go into God's presence together that we will all worship Him together and that all of us would just pour our hearts out on him so having said that we are going to go into worship now and once you guys go side and stand up and I'm gonna pray and if you want you can put your hands out or on your heart and we're into receive mode Holy Spirit we honor your presence in this place we honor you and we ask that you would just fill this place that you would have your way right now and throughout the duration of this conference God you are such a good father you are such an amazing father I ask Lord that if there are those who have come to this conference whether they're here in this session or not God Lord that that if they have places in their heart where like me there they are believing lies that they have hurts wounds things from the past things that stand in the way things are stand in the way of receiving your love God God I ask right now that you would bring your healing and that you would bring your amazing love that breaks down every wall your amazing love that drives out every bit of fear and God I asked that every single person here in this place would have a radical encounter with you God whether it's right now whether it's tonight tomorrow night god I just asked that every single person would not leave here the same but to leave radically change God I ask that our hearts would be so in tune with your presence I ask father that every year right now Lord that you would just put just fire protection around every year that the only voice that we are listening to the only voice that we hear is yours God the like Peter that we would fall so in love with you and have the courage to step outside to walk in the midst of the storm to walk in the midst of any circumstances to fix our eyes on you to set our hearts on you God Lord that we would not hold back from you that we would not hold back one single thing from you God you are so deserving you are so deserving of everything that we could give you are so deserving of all of our hearts of all of our worship and I just declare in this place an atmosphere of freedom Lord that there be freedom to worship you the way that we were created and designed to worship you God I just called forth the worshipers right now and I declare over every single person that you are created and designed to be a worshiper that it is not about a talent it is not about a skill it is about connecting with the heart of the one who loves you and I just declare freedom in this room father to do that to connect with you to connect with your heart God Lord let there just be radical expressions of worship in this place God let there be destinies that will come alive during this time father Lord that there be callings that would come alive during this time father Lord though we would not just get an encounter for ourselves but we would get an encounter for an entire generation God that you would use us father to bring heaven to earth to Pretoria your kingdom upon this earth God and above all we yield our hearts to you God we yield our hearts to you Holy Spirit and we say have your way that you are the one worthy of all honor you are the one worthy of all the glory that you are the one worthy of all of our attention of all of our affection God and we want you to have your way that we honor your presence above everything else above any agenda we honor your presence Holy Spirit we thank you Jesus we thank you Jesus we thank you Jesus

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Published: Fri Dec 04 2015