What Was Your Worst Forever Alone Moment? (r/AskReddit)

what's your worst forever alone moment i think my worst fa moment was my ninth birthday party my parents took me to a local play place and i had invited everyone in my grade hoping that people would come to play laser tag and whatnot in the end only one kid showed up and even then he left to go play with some other kids he saw there that he knew not even my best friend showed up we left after about 25 minutes i went home and my dad told me to get over it and that it was just a birthday party needless to say i cried myself to sleep that night it's hard to think of anything more painful than throwing a party and no one showing up my parents did that once ouch i was putting together a new computer and i figured i could save some money by not buying speakers because i could just use headphones and it's not like i was ever going to have anyone else in my room i use that computer for two years i was right i have three xbox controllers just in case i have company i have only used one so far one time in high school i was on a school trip with the marching band one morning when i had some free time i was wandering around the hotel and i couldn't find any of my friends on the last door i tried my friend brad cracked opened the door obviously dressed in only boxes he said they were playing strip poker with some girls and he would see if i could join brad called back into the room hey is it okay if jeff joins us the next thing you heard was a resounding chorus of female voices no brad turned back to me said sorry man and closed the door this one brought back a bad memory i went to a sleepover in fifth grade to watch wrestlemania there was a couple girls that stayed over two that lived in the area the girls made me sit out as they played spin the bottle it was awful forgot about that until now lol eating food from 7-eleven all by myself on thanksgiving i did this once i flew to massachusetts to see in my gf at the time and propose on thanksgiving proposed got shot down and she broke up with me i spent that thanksgiving eating a sandwich and so do i bought from the gas station across the street from the best western state at when i was a kid i had no friends and i had this idea that if i brought a football to school then i could play with some friends during lunch i went to my bag and found that the football had been stolen out of it some kids were playing with it and i watched them play and i was too shy to say anything and they looked kinda mean then a teacher walked by and i wanted to tell them that they took my football but i thought what's the point i wasn't using it anyway then i just hid in some bushes and cried somehow even with all of the other worse ones this one it hurt i understand the feeling dude i'm sorry bro hug i was sitting in my third grade classroom one day when the school's principal came in and called out all the girls in the class it was weird to be sure so we're all lined up in the hall and the principal starts talking about how rude it was to invite every girl in the class but one to a birthday party becky was so upset she wasn't invited to the birthday party that she was refusing to come out of her room funny thing though i wasn't invited to the party either in fact up until i was standing in that line being reprimanded i didn't even know there had been a party wow your principal handled things like an idiot three years ago three days before christmas i called my dad to ask about family plans for christmas he informed me that he along with my entire family was on a cruise ship off the coast of florida everyone but me was invited i spent christmas alone at a chinese buffet i was the only one in there not working i got food poisoning and spent the next 48 hours puking and crapping simultaneously at some moments the whole time they were on the cruise my dad was posting photos of the entire action on facebook forever alone this reminds me of something i once read in the atlantic the author had been shopping at a garage sale while in college and he found a stack of dinner plates with the top one showing visible signs of where and the rest brand new he thought it was the saddest thing he'd ever seen and made a mental note that when he moved into his own place and bought new dishes he would remember to rotate through them so that he wouldn't leave behind such depressing evidence of his bachelorhood then he couldn't decide which was more depressing the plates saw the strategy he just devised luckily i'm too filthy to do the dishes so i don't wash them until i've used every single plate take that society sweet my cell phone's battery lasts for 4-5 days without a recharge oh wait that's because i never get any calls back in high school i was always shocked when people would have to charge their phone every night i never understood how my phone could get almost a week out of a single charge i think i was maybe 19 or 20 at the time and i had just purchased a sega dreamcast and i picked up a second controller because it was on sale when i got home my father saw what i had bought and got mad at me for wasting money not because i had bought a sega dreamcast mind you let's not go there but because i had bought a second controller he said to me as i took it out of the bag when the heck are you ever going to need that had to cancel a dental appointment to get a molar extracted because they said i'd need someone to drive me there stay for the procedure and drive me home now looking for an oral surgeon within walking stumbling distance it strange uses for a female escort i feel the worst whenever i ask someone out for a date and they never show up happens way too often to me i just don't understand why they didn't just say no in the first place i feel so stupid sitting at a cafe or restaurant by myself waiting for someone who would never show up the classic case of forever alone some people have no manners frick them wake up every morning at 0 6 0 0 make myself breakfast go to work the only human interaction is at work no one at work invites me to their dinners parties after work drinks get back home and it's nothing but books and places like here once a week go out and have dinner by myself once a month get on a plane and go to a different country all by myself sit in some strange hotel room and watch cnn plus drink you should take lots of pictures and start a travel blog i occasionally go to five guys for a burger after work their main dining area is packed with big tables that fit for six people if you go when they're busy you look like a jerk sitting at a huge table by yourself while groups of people have to wait for a seat they offer small two people tables only they shoved them in a creepy dimly lit hallway between the soda fountain and the bathrooms it's really narrow too when i go i end up sitting there by myself sadly watching all the couples and happy groups laughing and eating in the bright open dining area occasionally someone will walk by and give me a look like i'm a leper or something five guys zero friends imagine my luck when i went to my local five guys and there was a two-person table but with one chair because the other end was bitted against the stack of potato sacks then it looked like i was sharing my meal with sacks of potatoes forever alone with potatoes i was in a low period of my life i got into college and disliked the majority of my classes i lived in a dorm with a bunch of people i disliked and who disliked me in return i had no friends nearby i began playing a game of how long i could go without saying a word to anybody my record was four days the streak was snapped with a call from mother a number of times i've unintentionally gone without speaking for a while then someone comes along and makes conversation and all that comes out of my mouth is one of those weird inhumane noises your voice can randomly make hello eer i moved to a new city and didn't know anyone feeling especially forever alone i manned up and got over my crippling social anxiety just long enough to ask someone out for valentine's day i suggested an expensive romantic restaurant she enthusiastically agreed i sat alone at the table watching all of the happy couples around me for over an hour before letting myself accept the fact that i had been stood up hey what's a good place to go for valentine's day comma restaurant cool go with me okay anytime i've gone from sober to s faced without sharing a word or glance with another human being i call those days weekdays had a lazy eye and crap loads of acne when i was 10 got the nickname [ __ ] mexican because of my prepubescent mustache went out of my way to be nice to everyone always sat alone at lunch didn't know why everyone hated me severely depressed cried constantly alone for six years then i got better that's rough bro i would have called you remix if that's any better no one calls me i have to call them they seem to enjoy themselves when we're hanging out it's always been like this and i don't get it i'm good at arguing against myself feeling this way within myself and i am able to rationalize quite well but it is only temporary and soon i feel empty again part of me wants to just give it up but i know i just more lonely and miserable getting all excited about a whole bunch of views on my flickr account until i realized i'd been viewing my own photos earlier with my work vpn on i choked on a piece of popcorn once while having a movie party by myself on a saturday night i was seconds away from passing out when i finally dislodged it after i caught my breath i sat on the floor and cried for having narrowly escaped to death that could have been prevented with something as small as some human company i had never felt so alone in my life and then i realized that even if i had been able to call a friend to come and help me i didn't have anyone to call i cried myself to sleep right there on the floor in my living room when i woke up the movie was still paused and the room torn apart by my choking struggle was littered with popcorn so i cleaned up the mess by myself turned off the tv and went to bed alone this was just a few weeks ago lived by myself in a one-bedroom apartment when other people in my department at work would go on vacation i'd sit in an empty office building by myself with no one to pretend to talk to four weeks on end i've gone entire months without saying more than three words to a living being that wasn't a passing hay in the hall one time for a few weeks while i was very sick with the flu and exhausted hopped up on pm style meds i fell asleep in the restroom hanging onto the side of the bathtub and stayed there for around 18 hours drifting in and out of consciousness i got no calls no visits which was the norm but was particularly depressing i actually felt like i forgot how to form words with my mouth during those days i lived in wow reminds me of the time i realized that if i died on a friday after i dropped my daughter off no one would know until i didn't show up to get her food on a monday night i went to a redeemed meetup even made some potato salad and a cheesecake but when i got to the park no one else showed mixed vodka whiskey and ambien in an attempt to never wake up again woke up about 30 plus hours later covered in puke and pee to this day no one knows i moved about eight months ago and bought an ikea bed frame it's still in its box at the base of my mattress on the floor because it takes two to assemble i see it every day when i wake up and think that i'm forever alone but when i was 12 we got a computer that was pretty much the end for me been at the hospital a couple days now no visitors forever alone it's midday saturday and the doctor just informed me that they misread the screenings and that there isn't actually a sludge buildup in my gallbladder but that my pancreatitis is still definite not sure what's to happen from here but i want to thank reddit from the depths of my essence for the encouragement and kindness shown a redditor amy from orlando fl called to wish me well and if you're reading this amy thank you so very much hearing a friendly voice warmed my spirits a great deal read it i can say with confidence that though there was no physical visitation i have never felt less forever alone than i do now to the redditors who reached out you are my heroes thank you thank you thank you colin one adult ticket to high school musical three please good god i have spent new years alone for at least the last six years beat that 21 first and 22 second birthday alone i hear my cat will be available for my 23 keeping my fingers crossed i got so many sweet messages telling me their sad and awesomely pathetic stories of life really makes a man feel optimistic and not so alone i'm so serious and my cat said she is canceling all her meeting and appointments just for me i'm 26 and i've never had a romantic relationship i was 19 when i met my first female friend i'm 24 and i've never had a romantic relationship but i have no friends at all at some point when i was in college years ago now having gotten tired of my mother asking me about who i was dating to which the inevitable answer was i wasn't i attempted to explain my forever aloneness to her she thought i was trying to come out of the closet and i got an extremely awkward i still love you even though your gay speech if it's any inspiration to the fa types here i'm now a successful and happily married adult at that age didn't seem like it would ever happen a couple months after my gf cheated on me i went away to school after we broke up partly because of what happened needing to get away from my old life while away at school living in the dorms i bought a bottle of old times whiskey went into my room alone in the dark and watched wedding videos on youtube like cool proposals and dances at the reception and stuff i then began to bawl my eyes out for like two or three hours anyway it was actually very cathartic even though it wasn't until months after that that i really got over it being cheated on sucks or when i spent christmas alone in europe without anyone to talk to getting drunk at a hostel bar while other groups of people were having what i assume to be awesome conversations though i couldn't understand them then i drank until i passed out and my mom called to say merry christmas but i was sleeping and missed the call by the time i woke up it was like 5am back in the states so i listened to the voicemail but she was like you're probably having such a good time that you didn't even hear your phone go off and crap frick just writing this makes me want to cry her voice had like this proud sadness to it even though she couldn't talk to me on christmas she knew i was out alone in europe and she wanted me to have a good time and be adventurous but i could just hear in her voice that she wished i'd been bored just so i could talk to her well i'm 21 and still never been on a real date kissed a girl while almost all the friends around me are in starting relationships and the girl i was interested in just recently started dating an old high school friend of mine who just happens to go to the same college as i do but i imagine there is enough of that sort of single depression going on here so a story of encouragement i have twice really wanted to see a concert in new york city about an hour away from me and could not find a single friend willing able to go with me both times i went to the city by myself feeling lonely and sad but ended up seeing a great show meeting awesome fans as well as the bands themselves both bands tally hall and the cat empire put on amazing shows that really brightened my mood point being sometimes you can make a fa story a fun and enjoyable one if you really want to or tl dr i'm forever alone but i can still make lonely trips into awesome fun once every time i make eye contact with my reflection whilst jacking off don't look away i t will see that as weakness a girl i was madly in love with decided to bring along her boyfriend on one of our dates i had no idea she had a boyfriend the drive home which should have taken half an hour took about two hours i kept having to pull over because i was crying so hard i couldn't see right now i'm not the only one to have done this so it's not exactly original but for the last six months i've been living in my office at work it takes two to tango so i won't disparage my soon-to-be ex-spouse but there were some very good reasons as to why i could no longer stay there i haven't pulled finances for the sake of my kids well-being so they are all currently living in the house while i do the best i can from here as the divorce process moves along i do see them take them out play with them and let them know i love them even though i think they are being told otherwise i have food i have a microwave i have a bed and a place nearby that i can shower that's a lot more than most people have the hardest part is having to go dark after everyone goes home to be quiet and try to keep busy which i do with reddit exercise and reading got i miss having a home and a family to go to i miss having my kids run to the door to see me i keep strong knowing that once i'm through this i'll be in a better position to make and keep a happy household updated thanks redditers something snapped in me reading all of these replies i realized i wasn't taking care of myself and putting my interests forward for the betterment of my family i've since reached out to her nearby friend will have a room in his house this evening and for as long as i need to to get through this process i will also reconvene with my lawyers early next week to work to reverse and or mitigate any damage i've done and put myself on a more even footing being alone not having people to bounce things off of you tend to get tunnel vision as a lot redditers are the most vicious but most caring group of people really depends on what side you fall on thanks again hang in there boss didn't have a lot of time for lunch one day while i was out doing errands but there was a sit-down burger place on the way to the ups store that i had been craving for a while so i ducked in there didn't try to find anyone to meet up with but i did take a book in to look at that i happened to have in my car at the time it was about networking tips ten minutes later i had the sudden realization i was very visibly reading keith ferrazzi's never eat alone alone while eating at a public restaurant it's been years since my grandmother stopped asking me if i've found that special someone even she thinks i have no hope no she probably is a decent grandma and doesn't want to put too much pressure on you i drove to a parking lot a couple blocks away from my house just to make it appear to my mom like i was going out to hang with friends i ended up sitting in my dark car for a couple hours eating candy without even music for fear of the car battery running out two kids from my high school pulled up and parked next to me to smoke they saw me sitting there as i awkwardly waved and shoved candy in my mouth so it seemed like i was busy and couldn't talk to them every day though it was so bad at one point that i thought about driving myself into the river on a daily basis now i've come to accept my fa lost weight have a couple of friends and my job has improved so the suicidal thoughts are gone for now going to movies all by myself it was pretty relaxing actually no joke i prefer going to the cinema solo i was eating a sandwich at my old apartment at the dinner table on a saturday night no one was home and the apartment was silent my roommate comes home looks in the dining room and says why are you eating by yourself in the dark forever alone forever alone in the dark if you are new to the channel you can subscribe i publish new videos every day until then check another video [Music] bye for now

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Length: 21min 47sec (1307 seconds)

Published: Thu Jun 04 2020