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>>Can't you just feel it? The conflict is becoming apparent in our culture. It reminds me of those words of John Paul II, we're now living in the final confrontation between the Gospel and the anti-Gospel, between the Church and the Antichurch, between Christ and the Antichrist. And if we don't choose to know God's word, to believe God's word, and follow God's word, we're going to be a sitting duck for all kinds of confusion, all kinds of disorder, those are really important choices that people have to make. >>And these choices are difficult: Whom am I going to marry? What kind of life am I going to live? How am I going to raise my kids? What am I going to do with my time, my talent and my treasure? I have to make a choice today. Jesus says to each one of us, "I came that you might have life, and have it to the full." The question is, do we want it? >>Welcome to<i> The Choices We Face.</i> I'm Peter Herbeck, and today our guest is Father Michael Schmitz. Father Michael is the chaplin of the University of Minnesota, Duluth's student chapel. He's the Director of Youth and Young Adult Ministry in the Diocese of Duluth, and he's a fantastic speaker, a highly sought after speaker in the Church today. Especially for young people, but really for the whole range, folks, because I think God has really touched Father Michael, and I'm so glad to be able to introduce him, really, to EWTN, it's my understanding it's your first time on, welcome Father. >>Thank you very much, I appreciate it. >>Yeah, it's great to have you here. >>Thanks, I'm really excited to- I, now, full disclosure, I was on<i> Life on the Rock</i> one time. >>Oh, okay. >>So I mean, but no one watched it. So it's okay. Well, my mom watched it, she loved it. She thought it was great. >>Well, Father, tell us, why don't you just tell us your story? Let's start there. >>Yeah, well, as you said, I'm from Minnesota, and I have a mom like I mentioned earlier, and if you remember back then, I remember mentioning my mom earlier today. No, so my mom and my dad raised six kids, and so I'm right in the middle. There are three boys and three girls and I'm the fourth, my older brother is the first guy, first boy. And so, I'm in the middle of the middle and yeah, I just grew up. I always just say I grew up in like a normal Catholic home, and then people are like, "What's normal mean?" Well, we go to church every Sunday, they're like, "That's not normal." I go, okay, well, well we grew up, then one of the rules was go to Mass every Sunday. So it was that, that kind of thing. We prayed normally. Well, I guess, to say we prayed normally, I mean, just we didn't have like a family rosary. We didn't have a family you know, holy hour, we just prayed before meals, and prayed before bed, and it was like talk of the Lord and talk of church was kind of just normal. It just, it felt natural, it wasn't kind of imposed but what felt imposed for me, was we had to go to Mass every single Sunday and holy day. I mean that was kind of the, no exceptions, that was the rule- like I hated it so much. My parents had a rule though, that the only way you could get out of going to Sunday Mass is if you were too sick to do anything else, and so the problem with that is if you're too sick to go to Mass then you couldn't do anything the rest of the day. But I, the crazy thing is I didn't like going to Mass so much that I thought it was worth it. Like yeah, I will pretend to be sick, so I can get out of one hour of church and then have to sit in my room the rest of the day, doing nothing. >>And you didn't have iPhones, TVs, nothing. >>No technology. I just, you know, and I don't think, my mom even said, "No reading any books. If you're too sick to pay attention to Mass, you're too sick to read a book," you know, I had to sit there by myself, and the crazy thing is I thought it was worth it. And then, something happened. When I was about 15, I had an encounter with the Lord, basically it started with a negative. It started with awareness of my own personal sin, and what I mean by that is I had gone to Catholic elementary school and so I knew what the Commandments were, but at that one moment, it just was so clear all of a sudden it was like wait, this is like sin, that's something I've done. It wasn't just on the outside, it was like on the inside, and I remember thinking like oh my gosh, I'm a sinner. Like this clarity, not like- not a condemnation but more like a "Oh my gosh, that's me," and then it was the next stop it was just so good it was like, I need a savior, and then it was like, oh hey, there is one. You know, that's what they've been telling me for 15 years, you know, this whole notion of like I've been going to church and trying to skip church, and going to school hearing that Jesus is my savior. It didn't mean anything, and then all of a sudden, like wait a second, I'm a sinner, I need one, I need a savior, and I have one. And so then the next step was, I need to pray. I mean, some things were very, very clear to me. One was, I need to pray. The other was I needed to go to Confession. So I need to pray. I don't know how to pray. And so, I knew that I had a rosary hanging on my bed post, and so I like, okay, I can use that. I don't know how to use that. I know there's "Hail Marys" involved. There are "Our Fathers" involved. I'm not sure any more than that. My mom prayed the rosary every night. I come in, you know, into the room sometimes, she'll be sitting there praying. But I'm not going to ask her, because you know. Why would you ask your mom about God and stuff? And so it was like a Wednesday night, religious ed, and there was a booklet called "Youth Praise the Rosary" and I saw it, and like oh hey, so I asked the teacher, her name was Sophie Hegland, like Mrs. Hegland, can I borrow that book? She said, yeah, you can have it. Take it, you know, like okay, great. So I took it, and every night like I would have the book and my rosary and I would be like here's the next thing, here's the next prayer, and just started praying the rosary and Mary just- it was really powerful, and when I say powerful though, it was subtly powerful, in the sense it was just like a lynch pin, our Lady became this in the praying the rosary, became this kind of anchor point in my life. The other thing is that I had to go to Confession. I knew, like I needed to go to Confession. So I didn't know any better, because I got- I didn't know that they had Confession on Saturdays, and I just knew when we'd go into the school that's when you go, but I knew where the priest lived, and so I remember very, very clearly, it was 10:00 on a Tuesday morning, summertime, and I got on my bike and rode across town to the priest's house and knocked on the door and he was there, because, you know, he only worked one day a week, so of course he's home. So, he answers the door, and I'm like, "Can I go to Confession?" "Sure, come on in," so I sat on his couch, went to Confession, I remember leaving that, leaving the directory, stepping on the front porch, and there were three thoughts that were just so powerful, in that moment. But one was, God, I'm so grateful. I'm so thankful for this. You've forgiven all my sins, you've taken all my sins away, I just- I'm so glad. My second thought was, I never thought this before. My second thought was, "God if you want me to be a priest, I will hear anyone's Confession whenever they ask." >>And you were 15 at the time? Yeah, and I had never, never thought about being a priest before that moment. >>My third thought was, you know, my first thought, "God, thank you so much," my second thought was, "If you want me to be a priest I'll hear Confession whenever you want me to," but my third thought was like, "Oh, she's really cute." So it was like- then you begin this kind of tumultuous, like should I be a priest? I like girls too much, you know, this whole kind of thing. But years later, just kind of fast forwarding, I would hear people talk about their conversion stories and like the moment when they encountered the Lord, and I don't know when I did, you know, I mean I was raised Catholic and it worked. I mean, that was kind of what I thought. So I read Pope Benedict's "Deus Caritas Est," or "God is Love," and the very first page, I think the second paragraph, where he says, "Being a Christian is not the result of an ethical choice or lofty ideal," it's a result of an encounter with a person, that, he says, uses the phrase I think, "Gives one's life a new horizon, and sets it in a decisive direction." And this must have been like 10 years ago, whenever it first came out. I remember reading it going, oh, oh my gosh, that was the moment. >>Yeah, that's exactly what happened to you. >>I can trace everything that happened in my life following as a disciple of Jesus, back to that moment where I stepped off the front porch actually pondering Jesus and sacrament, and stepping off that front porch and recognizing my life from that point had a decisive direction from that moment on that I can recognize, and I'm just so grateful for that. >>So you began to really live for the Lord consciously, the best you could. I mean, you had moments, probably, when you were a teenager. >>I think that had to be the caveat, appreciate that, yes, the best I could. >>So when you got out of- you went through high school and got out of high school, what did you do then? >>So I went to a college. In high school, I was trying to figure out, should I got to a college seminary or not. And I visited some, and the whole time I was there I kept thinking, like I just want to be home, I just want to be home. I want to go see my girlfriend because yes, I visited seminary, while I was dating I wasn't in seminary, let's clarify. But at one point my dad, he was so good, my dad had said, he said, you know, he had discerned whether God was calling him to be a priest or not when he was younger. A priest told him, said, you know, if God's calling you, he'll always be calling, and he said if you're not sure that he wants you to go to the seminary now, then you know you can go or don't have to go. You can go to a normal college. And that was this huge weight off my shoulders, my dad just kind of gave me permission to go to like a normal, or I say a normal college, not seminary, because I had thought that, I had thought that if I didn't go to seminary I was saying no to God. But what I didn't realize, and I should have asked people, but what I didn't realize was you can't answer a question God isn't asking, and so I can't say no to God if he's not clearly asking me to go to seminary, and I didn't know if he was clearly asking me, and then I found out later on that God always speaks in clarity in that sense of like okay, so if he's not clearly inviting me to go to seminary, not going isn't necessarily saying no to him. >>Right. >>And so, I was just, there's this huge weight off my shoulders. So I went to another, went to a private Catholic college in Minnesota, and I was so excited to go there because I mean, a couple things, one is that I wanted to be able to study theology because First Peter 3:15, "Always be ready to give a reason for the hope that's within you, the faith that's within you," had been huge in my life. I wanted to study theology so I could give a reason. Like, why do I believe what I believe? Secondly, I was so excited. There'd be 220 monks on this campus, they had Mass every day, there's a chapel 100 meters from my door, my girlfriend only lived an hour away at this point. So this is the best of all worlds. I had this- I loved going to this school. And I describe it like this, four years later, I graduated from this Catholic school with a degree in theology. I took so many classes in theology that I think I could have double majored in one topic. I was a missionary in Central America, working at a Catholic mission, again Catholic high school teaching religion, going to Mass every day, and I hated the Catholic Church. >>Wow. Did you? How did that happen? I mean, what led you to experience that? >>Well, a couple of things. One is outside of anyone is definitely the inside of me, outside of me it was going to this school where I'd say, a lot of times I would have questions about stuff like where the Catholic Church teaches something that seems to go against the culture, and seems to be unique amongst other Christian churches or dominations. >>For example? >>Like things I like, well, actually this is the critical issue. This is the issue that started it, and the issue that undid it. The issue of contraception, that was it. I remember, I mean, because there were other things, too. Married priests, or dating women, all these kind of other things that seem like well this is so, you guys are really weird on this, but when it came to the issue of contraception, I remember asking professors and monks and nuns and Ph.Ds and priests about like so why does this- and all I got back was, well that's just this Augustinian framework where the body's bad, sex is bad, therefore you know, that's what we have to do this, but don't worry about it. The Church is going to catch up to us doing this theology. So I started, it kind of implanted this idea that okay, well, the Church is lagging behind but theology is on the forefront. Doing theology means you're pushing the boundaries and you're changing things. That- in my mindset became like theology, was you're changing things as opposed to you're really, you know, mining the tradition and beautiful teachings, the idea that there was such a thing as truth that could be known, was just like you know, that's just opinion basically, and so but the issue that started it off was this kind of like no one giving me or me claiming that no one's giving me a clear answer with regards to why does the Church teach what she teaches with regards to openness to life. And then, every other issue just kind of glommed onto that, until it got to the point where I was like you know what? I'm embarrassed to be Catholic, because there's- we believe all these things. There's no reason for it. It's just holding onto a bunch of old celibate white men in Rome who are telling people what to do. So I get down to this- oh, sorry. Second piece was my own pride, that was the external part. >>You're smarter than everybody, so it makes sense, and you're smarter than most of the herd. >>I mean, smarter in every way. Oh my gosh, so just the worst thing. So other people probably could have passed through that unscathed, but I think probably my own symbolism, my own pride, my own, all these things, I wanted to be on the edge. Like I wanted to be pushing that. I wanted to be changing things in that kind of a sense, and I just kind of I guess fell for it for my own stuff. So I can't blame it on other people exclusively, because I think others, better people could have made it through that without falling off like I did. But like one time I went to this mission in Central America, and it was run by The Society of Our Lady of the Most Holy Trinity, and phenomenal order, and this mission was incredible. I hated it immediately, because I get there and these two priests were there and they were talking about like truth as if like it exists in the like, the churches, like no the Church teaches truth, like what, what are you talking about? Are you from the Middle Ages? And I just- I would go to Mass, every day still, and these priests would be up there. They'd be preaching. I'd be openly like mocking the priests during Mass. >>Wow. >>They'd- so bad of me. So they'd be preaching and I'd be like pfff, whatever. Like and rolling my eyes and what, the person next to me, like that's stupid, you know? Now I realize as a priest sitting up there, standing up there, behind that- you can see all that stuff. Like oh my gosh, so I mean, and we'd have meals with these two priests, and I mean these guys were heroes, they were like the Marines of... >>Living a radical lifestyle with glory for the Lord. >>Oh my gosh, one of these priests, Father Tony, he every morning he'd get up around 5:00, go into the chapel or church for a holy hour or two. Then he'd get in his truck, drive across the border into Guatemala, say Mass here, bring sacraments here, he'd go to the end of the road hit into, you know, cross the river with a canoe, hike until he gets to a village. He's in the village all day, bringing the sacraments and bringing whatever kind of resources he could. >>It's beautiful. >>At night he would say Mass at 6:00 in the Guatemalan side, he crossed the border, say Mass for us on the Belizean side at 7:00. So one day I got incredibly sick. So sick that they were like, he might die. Father Tony, after this huge day, he's crossing a little dirt alleyway between the church and the rectory to finally get some rice and beans at the end of the day, and someone says, "Father Tony, Mike's really sick." And this guy who I had, again not just in church, but also like at our meals, like had been making fun of and just been such a jerk to, this guy without stopping, he runs back into the church, gets the holy oils and gets the Eucharist, and runs over to where I was and offers me Confession, Anointing of the Sick, and Communion, and this is- I remember just lying there in delirium, you know, thinking like, "Huh, Maybe Father Tony does know Jesus." Because my whole thing was like oh, he doesn't know Jesus. He's all about the rules. Like, wait, here's this guy that I have been a jerk to, without hesitating, he came here, with Jesus, just to serve, just to take care of me, to make sure I was okay. I should give him another chance. You know, so but it took me a long time to recover, maybe three or four weeks later. >>So when did you end becoming a jerk? When did that stop? >>When- I'm planning on stopping it this Lent, I'm going to cut back on being a jerk. Yeah, I think 2019, Lent 2019, that's the plan. No, but he sat down like I'm going to give him another chance, and then I got better, and I saw him again and I'm yeah, I don't like that guy. But about a month after this, everything changed. What Father Tony would do is every other Tuesday night he would teach the teachers, and one night he was going to teach them "Humanae Vitae," which is the Church's teaching on openness to life, against contraception, and I said I'm not going to go to that. I've had my questions answered. I talk to Ph.Ds and monks and nuns and then I was, you know, I am going to go. And I'm going to destroy it. Again, that pride coming up, right? I'm just going to demolish his argument and just like everyone will know, Father Tony doesn't know, Mike knows, kind of a thing. So I can remember this so clearly, I went into the room where he was going to teach. Sat in the back, just kind of folding my arms, like bring it. Like let's see what you've got, and he started talking, and I thought he was going to talk like you know, well you know, Popes teach this, we need to believe this, which is probably true. But he started from this position of just common sense and he said well, we all know this is true, right? So yeah, and we all know this is true, right? Well therefore, and he started making these conclusions that I was sitting here thinking, that's true, that's just- and it's not mental gymnastics true, like where if you squint, cock your head to the side, if you can see if there's a truth. You know, I was like, you know this is true. And halfway through this talk, my mouth is hanging open, I'm like I've never heard- what? When he was done I walked out of there, and then the world's just pff, and I was like 180. I'm like I can no longer believe what I've been believing. I thought I was so right and the Church was so wrong. And he just demonstrated to me that in this, in this one case at least, that I was wrong and the Church was right, and remember coming back to my kind of little house/shack we were staying in. I had two or three roommates, and they were like they didn't go to the talk and they were like hey did you learn, they knew it was about sex, did you learn how to do it? I'm like no, you guys, this talk was awesome. You should have been there. Because it changed everything, but that started this whole process of me having to like unlearn some stuff and relearn some stuff, but the best thing and the best thing that they did was this, I would describe my heart as being kind of petrified or calcified, really to the Church and then to God himself. So I'd still been- every day I was still praying, "God, if you want me to be a priest, let me know." But I don't want your Church, but if you want me to be a priest, let me know. My plan was to go back, get my Ph.D in theology, scripture, whatever, and then teach. So grateful that didn't happen, because I would not have been teaching with the Church and would have been very guilty of a lot of stuff, but the biggest thing was my heart. And that was that it had been calcified or petrified, and it was like this one night, that one day was like a little crack was formed, and because the crack was formed it was like my heartbeat, my heart started pumping again a little bit, and it was kind of like the beginnings of like, "Well, that's what that feels like." Like, that's what it feels like to have like love for God again. To have a love for the Church again, to have joy again, and that just, I want more of this. And but I had all these other questions that I had to ask, but now I had these people, Father Tony, and the pastor there, Father John, who's the co-founder of SOLT, who I could ask. I'm so grateful in that, and that just began a more honest prayer of like God if you want me to be a priest, then let me know. >>Then how did you transition from the mission to seminary and ordination? >>Well, I was planning on getting married this whole time, by the way. I was dating this girl for about three or four years at the time. And we had talked about like hey when I get back to the mission, another year of planning for our wedding, and then we're going to get married the next year. So that was a kind of wrinkle in there. So now here I am falling in love with the Church and the Lord again in this way, just like experiencing a joy of being Catholic and enjoyed being a disciple of Jesus for the first time since I was, I don't know, 19, and I was like but wait, oh my gosh, I've not answered this question of whether or not God wants me to be a priest yet. Or if he wants me to go and learn theology and study theology and teach, I don't know if he wants me to get married, and so I just- that was the ultimate crisis moment, of like I need to figure this out, because if I don't, if he doesn't tell me then I'm going to be, you know, in big trouble. So that was renewed prayer, renewed seeking counsel, and I remember one day very, very clearly. I was in adoration, and it was absolutely clear what the Lord was asking me to do. This is after a lot of counsel, a lot of prayer, and it was just so clear. I would know, I knew that whether it was 60 years after I got married to this woman, who's an amazing woman, or 6 minutes, I would know that I never gave him the first shot. I never gave him the first try, and what I essentially heard was, that's what I'm asking you to do, Mike. I just, I'm asking you, just go to seminary, and I knew absolutely with this conviction in my mind as well as in my heart, that's like, that's what I need to do, and the experience of that was simultaneously like, crushing. I have to break up with this woman I'm in love with, but also joyful because it was like I've been praying for this for 10 years, every day. God, just let me know your will. It was one of these moments though that was so, it was permeated by freedom. It was God saying here's what I want you to do, then simultaneously, but if you don't I still love you, which is so important. >>Right. It wasn't like you were, if I don't do this I'm going to be really out of God's will and he's not going- he wants you to make a free choice. He's offering you something, and it's interesting, inspiring actually to see the process and how patient he was with you. He needed to soften your heart in a way that you could receive his word and receive the prompting, and know, know his voice. Be able to step into the next phase, you know? >>Well I was so impatient and I was like God, let me know now, let me know, and if I were to hear him, he would be like, "You're not ready." Like no, I'm ready, let me know. >>In fact, I'm the smartest guy here, I know more than anybody. I should have that collar on right now. >>I have a schedule right here, you can follow me. But there was something about that that recognized, he revealed to me that God isn't, he's never too late, you know, dealing his role, but he's also never too early, and if he'd even revealed this to me two weeks before, I would not have been ready, would have been like trying to fit this square peg in a round hole, but he just found that, even that process of softening for those last two weeks. It was like, I'm ready. This is painful, but yes, it's also joyful, and that made a huge difference. >>Great, and so you ended up going back to Minnesota? >>Yeah, yeah. >>And going into the seminary right away? >>Yeah, basically. I applied that Spring when I was still in Belize, and then came back and entered in the Fall. >>That's great, that's great. Well Father, we're going to take a little break. I want to tell friends about this booklet I just wrote called "Light in the Darkness," and I wrote the booklet to help our listeners to follow the Lord. Jesus said in a certain point in John's Gospel Chapter 8, he said, "I'm the light of the world, he who follows me will not walk in darkness," and yours is a story of discovering and experiencing that light and following him on the path, and lots of people today are kind of shaken by the culture that we're in, the challenges, and people leaving the Church, and what's going on and the trouble and the place for all of us to go is right to the Lord himself, because he wants to lead us, friends, so going to hear a little bit about the booklet, we're going to offer it to you free. We'll be back in just a minute. >>Friends, we're living through difficult and challenging times. The Church is in a fierce battle. In the words of Pope Emeritus Benedict XVI, man is pushing God from the human horizon, and as a result the language that comes from God is disappearing and humanity is losing its bearings. In this moment it's crucial that we hear the words of Jesus, who said, "I'm the Light of the world, he who follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." I wrote this short booklet to help you lay hold of this precious promise from Jesus, so you can have the strength and the courage you need to be a light in the darkness. To order your free copy of "Light in the Darkness," you can go to Renewalministries.net or call 1-800-282-4789. >>Welcome back friends, we're here on<i> Choices We Face</i> with Father Michael Schmitz, and Father's been talking to us about really his journey, the discernment process of following the voice of the Lord, and you had some more thoughts about that? >>Well, you know, because I know a lot of people will say, wait, you just said you're maybe planning on getting married, like what happened there? Because, or they'll say, was that easy? Was it easy to decide that, you know, because of this, because the Lord's calling you, you have to do this? Yes and no, I would say that I always describe it like this, that on the surface there's lot of emotions, a lot of sadness, a lot of heartbreak, but just under the surface there's a lot of joy. Kind of like if you're ever scuba diving, and so how the- on the surface is all up and down, and water, if you go two feet under the water there's this peace to it, you know, and that's what I experienced. But it was interesting because with a lot of emotions, a lot of kind of, there's a certainty there, but when I got to seminary, I mean, this is one of those crazy things. Well, when I got to seminary I said okay God, okay, this is a little bit kind of romantic in that sense. Like I'd meet like the gal who worked behind the library desk, like God did you bring me here to meet her? You know. Or there'd be- a friend would introduce me to one of, you know, their girlfriends like oh, God did you bring me here to meet her? Like oh my gosh, just focus on the Lord. But I had gotten set on the path to go to the seminary, but after that I mean, I didn't get any illumination of yeah, you're in the right place, other than, this is good. This is good, keep going. It was never more direction, it was just keep going, which for a while was great, because yeah, I'm just going to keep going. Until it was a couple months before ordination, to the diaconate where you make all the big promises, you know, and like gosh, God, you- is this where I'm supposed to be? You know, what if, I remember being in adoration again, like what if God, what if I could picture this? Picture the moment where I get ordained, and then the next day I meet her. You know, kind of a thing, and there's a, one of the top moments of grace in my life because I was in prayer, and God is like listen, you can trust me. Just like God, okay, I trust that you brought me here, God I trust not only that you brought me here, but that if you want me to leave you'll let me know in a way I can't miss, and I'll trust that if you want me to leave, you'll let me know in a way that I can't miss in time. Because God does everything right on time. >>Yeah Father, speaking of right on time, we just have a few seconds left, I just want to thank you for being here today and sharing your story. I wish we could do a few more programs with you. Hopefully, we can do it in the future, how about coming back? >>Absolutely. >>Well, friends this Father's story is a story that's relevant to all of us, he just mentioned coming to the place where you can trust God. You can trust the voice of God and what he discovered, and what's led to an amazingly fruitful life and priesthood is a surrender to the voice of the Lord, and to follow Jesus because that's the way forward for all of us, and you may be discerning lots of things in your life these days. Begin with just offering and opening your heart to Jesus, and before we close I just want to mention that Father's got lots of YouTube videos of people, just Google Father Michael Schmitz, or YouTube Father Michael Schmitz, they'll get them, right? >>Yeah, YouTube videos, we also have podcasts every week. They come out on iTunes. >>Great, I want to encourage you to do that because he's fantastic. >>Join us again next week for another program of <i> The Choices we Face</i> , God bless you.
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