soldier in vr talks about surviving the final evacuation of Afghanistan

it was all wrong you could feel it for miles away I felt this and then you just start hearing base attack and you're just like what the actual is happening is this what we're doing right now like what is happening is like a lot of people are freaking out about it it was it just it was all wrong we're just doing like security checkpoints and patrolling around the city the airport not the city my fault you're just like do your shifts go back home do some training go back home you know there's just a rinse and repeat until [ __ ] started going down super quick and no one knew how the [ __ ] to handle it said there's a spected IED he was at one of the gates called Abby gate and from what I heard is people saw him and they're trying to get the confirmation to kill him but they the guy just set off an explosion and killed a lot of people it was an Isis guy that was freed from one of the prisons at the Taliban started freeing when the Taliban was trying to overrun the country super fast everyone was freaking out because Sarah didn't know what the [ __ ] was happening could have provided a lot of [ __ ] from happening we could have prevented like operation allies Refuge from being such a [ __ ] show those people they deserve to [ __ ] die because that [ __ ] you know it was just I don't know like they just I don't I don't know man it's just kind of [ __ ] sucks have you ever had a paranormal experience actually uh uh in my house growing up um my brother and I we'd see like footsteps through here knocking we'd be like what the [ __ ] is that it was just kind of like I don't know whether to believe in the parable or not but I tell my parents and they'd be like well uh just try to put like a a candle and like say some prayers and isolate don't snatch you up I guess did you pray I did for a bit sometimes I forget because I mean I was a little kid um I kind of just got used to it it's just kind of just like the knocking and the footsteps you see just kind of just kind of becomes part of a normal life here just like it whatever I guess at the airport did people pray a lot of people did like a lot of people would like they would say like they're trying to get some forgiveness for all the bad they've done back home and they wish they could have done this and that better and they prayed to whatever religion they're part of that they make it back home safe that they're scared and blah blah never really seen something like that so I'll just kind of just like we're gonna be fine I'll tell them we'd be fine but deep down I didn't know we're [ __ ] fine or not I was just trying to make sure they feel more comfortable I mean you just kind of have to have that belief because if you don't then what's the [ __ ] point you know if you're gonna be scared all your life like what's the point of living you know you gotta have some beliefs and hope that you're gonna make it back and you got to make sure you make it back and make sure those around you make it back I'm from Texas man the whole family's always been in the military so I kind of just kept the tradition dude I would always have like the little green army men and stuff for like my dad to bring home some like different variations of like little green army men and I play with it so I was like I'm I was like indoctrinated you know what I mean it's always in your head my life I guess in a way oh yeah nothing better than some 2 am Waffle House we definitely knew there was a lot of equipment being left behind because we're like reading a lot of news reports about like compounds being abandoned or blown up and [ __ ] a few times we would get sent to like destroy equipment and we'd tear down some weapons try to destroy Vehicles as much as we can so the Taliban and Isis or whoever can't use it anymore but way too much equipment way too much weapons and ammo out there for us to all just demolish within time frame I had to leave if you were there at the airport like the military side it was literally like an entire city much embarrassing and a bunch of stores mess Halls it had like a mosque and like a church it was crazy at one point and that night I don't know who did it but someone or some people just started shooting heavy machine gun fire towards us and everywhere everyone was kind of just like what the [ __ ] is happening right now why is there heavy machine guns firing in all directions we eventually had to like pull back and go to like inside the military about eventually over the night because it was like really bad it's a funny story we were like holding the line we all of a sudden we just start seeing like some tracers like shoot up into the sky and then we're kind of just like what the [ __ ] is that and then it kept getting worse we're telling everyone to get down a lot of dudes were freezing up so we had to like set them to the ground I I know I'm feeling a little [ __ ] up but I yield it for a bunch of dudes to get down they got down these guys that were near me didn't get down I looked at them they looked at me and they gave me that space you can tell that face when someone's like scared for their life and they're frozen because they don't know what to do and they gave me that face and they just stood there I sit in my head I said because I don't want to say it out loud obviously if you want to die that's on you man I'm getting down and I got down was there any scenario where you could return fire the Roe was very great people were struggling at the airport to get like ID of the shooter so no one was able to really shoot the Roe I can understand why I was like that because there was like crowds of civilians in front of us trying to like rushed past us quite a few civilians were shot by the gunman they couldn't do anything about that in the families of the people who shot were like crying and screaming right in front of us and like trying to push us and telling us it's our fault and we couldn't do anything but just watch a lot of us were like losing entire families who are trying to save instead it was [ __ ] us up a lot there'd be a whole crowd that we're like holding back everyone would like flash in the air with their hands up their passports or whatever try to read within that [ __ ] crowd and look at that ID they had and like all right that looks like a U.S passport that looks like a something like a green card that means that we could save them as long as they had to use passport we brought them in but the pool was usually like the contractors the Terps and then the rich people we would literally have to have them come towards us whether it was them walking into us or is us getting inside the crowd and grabbing them and pulling them like towards us to safety kind of let the televangious basically just murder a bunch of [ __ ] people in front of us and we didn't do anything about it we just had to watch a lot of people begging me to save them and it was just a lot of people uh I mean the most [ __ ] up one was um this family didn't want to die and they handed me their they hit me with their baby and I I felt the baby and it was just I don't know how to explain it the baby felt Frozen and I looked at it it was the baby was pale and I realized the baby was dead I just kind of I don't know what to do and I kind of looked at my my platoon start and I asked him what what do we do and he just said we can't take anyone else just give them back to them and that's what I did I just gave back the baby to them and I told them I can't do anything I was the one that [ __ ] me up the most I get bothered by way when babies cry and scream now or like when people are crying and screaming it just like a lot of that bothered me now but I mean I hope I'm progressing better from dealing with [ __ ] like that I guess I don't know it's kind of it's kind of weird it was kind of just like well we went through this [ __ ] uh don't know how to really deal with this right now I guess we just kind of got to continue life with all what happened in our minds now if you want me to be like blunt about it uh I mean I feel a little more dead aside because of all the [ __ ] up [ __ ] and I feel a little more how do I say I was a little careless for a while but I mean that's usually what happens to some people it kind of just sort of like whatever after a deployment have you thought about going to therapy uh uh yes and no I mean I'm not entirely comfortable telling uh I know it sounds kind of weird but telling like a civilian all the [ __ ] I I've been through that I did that I saw I don't think I'd be comfortable telling one of them that because then they'd probably be like oh this dude's [ __ ] nut give him some pills most of the time they're pretty understanding when we talked last you seemed against the idea of going to therapy what changed uh well basically I was like I probably need help because I'm starting to lose my [ __ ] a little bit and I would like to keep my family you know and not just be some [ __ ] some crazy [ __ ] you know that doesn't have a family anymore because it's his own internal struggles a little bit like that oh man I sometimes I'll just lose my [ __ ] at work or I lose it at home and I'm like why the [ __ ] did I need to do that what the [ __ ] is wrong with me and it took me like four or five months I think six months to get a therapist it took a while it was a long while I learned a few tips and tricks on how to help myself into like cooled out and you know just relax a little more instead of just being so uptighted when you're so stressed out that your body's also stressed out and you get to feel it it's kind of like that box breathing stuff like that 10 minute meditation stuff the uh body analysis meditation where you feel like your entire body we're able to like get that feeling of calm a little bit but I'm very paranoid in the video so sometimes it doesn't really work out too much because I feel like I'm tight and like you're on like uppers you're feeling too jury if you want it to go away but it can't it's kind of like that I know exactly what you're talking about but it is nice at least to be able to sometimes use those breathing techniques to feel that sense of calm I think it's super important for like mental health especially for people who uh have like PTSD feel those momentary respite of calmness what technique do you feel has been the most useful so one of them is whenever I feel like super stressed out to imagine yourself in your safest space in your mind which to me was just a blank Loop of just White kind of like I've ever seen The Matrix when Neo goes into that room she was also like imagine who you feel safe is list I said my wife then an object that you feel safe with I said it was already a wedding ring that I wore during deployment that I used to like I'd look at I'd be like well am I doing the right thing or should I think about what if my wife what would she think about it you know and then like the safest sound you feel was just like basically my wife talking to me man I know it's only been like eight months but you sound a lot better than the last time we talked yeah it sounded like [ __ ] just from talking to you today you come off as a way older it's called post-traumatic growth a lot of people to like cope with uh trauma go through a series of like Reinventing themselves both to heal and to also put distance between when they went through it if you could tell everybody in the world one thing what would it be foreign you know just do what you gotta do to make your life better don't fall towards peer pressure in the crowds you know you're your own person be that person yeah man I mean I can talk to you all day any day about this stuff you're just you know yeah man you take care all right

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Published: Sun Jun 11 2023