guy in vr talks about getting kicked out of the military

people treat you like you're the old you but it feels like they're talking to someone else that isn't you anymore if that makes any sense you're in there anymore but like everyone still keeps looking for that person and it's just they ain't home yeah you got the wrong number my brother calls me and as soon as I saw that my brother was calling me I knew like I knew something's not right yeah he never calls me he never calls me and someone's dead I was like who is it didn't face me didn't bother me at all I was just like all right man and he was like okay um appreciate it up about everything because he's never gotten that phone call before and he was like okay well we're gonna all be hopped on the Discord and everything if you want to join us and talk and I was like no man I'm kind of tired from like this commute and everything I'm probably gonna like grab a beer and like turn on the show and Go pass out and he was just like and he was offended by it yeah my brother treated me really really weird that's a perfect example I remember when I got the the same call I believe what he said was that was gone or something like that and I was like I it did take a second to process and it did mess me up for a little but I process won't fund like everything processed and process it quickly move on adapt and overcome to this day like I'm over it this is the thing I'm talking about is I just I I can't understand it's like I find it hard too because I can't stop jumping you got a great form though faster foreign [Music] oh my God bro that's four days old now I think it's well I got it on what Monday I think so I think it's five that's Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday yeah they're saying is you lied yesterday and said it was 30 days old I I think I was confused I would I would say it was a never a tribute to Mouse what can be contributed to stupidity okay grabbing a drink with a VR handset in my hand is an experience I got a man drinking a Woods out of me I got another baby in the [ __ ] nicotine this last Sunday um it wasn't until like five o'clock I went out and had my first cigarette the other day and after that I had like maybe two more four to five cigarettes of work day and when I come home I typically smoke two on my walk home and then I'll smoke another one when I get home with my roommates if I'm leaving for work and everything it's still Shake smoke or flock maybe maybe that's why I have all your shoes with like slim and [ __ ] blocking my throat I don't know maybe it is putting a bunch of unknown substances into your respiratory tract causes secretions I appreciate these issues persisted before I started smoking yeah I guess because my nose doesn't work because like myself you wouldn't see any improvement from quitting smoking though [Music] oh I feel like I'm a sarcasm 16 in high school I had a friend he supplied me with smokes and alcohol and I'd be in my smoking career managed to quit after uh seeing what the end stage of that looks like from my EMS experiences drowning in your own lungs is not a good way to go spoiler alert I haven't gotten to that stage of smoking yet don't worry you will look she's gonna start smoking to impress a girl am I the only one who got started smoking in the Army I just got so fed up with [ __ ] so unbelievably stressed I made it all the way through my first employee without smoking and eventually I was just like yeah I was immediately hooked that friend that got me smokes oftentimes I would literally just show up to the classroom he was in and be like hey you want to leave school I bet and we were just getting get in my car and just drive somewhere in North Carolina sightsee uh blast the national anthem while my buddies halfway hanging out the window with a broken off American flag we stole from someone's yard just general teenager Mischief I guess you know probably some things that would probably catch me a vandalism charge nowadays but I guess the statute of limitations is up on that so we both were going into the military so we were both like hyped up on yo oh [ __ ] patriotic we're the best and we roll over all of the the enemies and all that frankly the childish uh thoughts of just best military in the world all that he was going into the Marines I was going into the army of course I don't believe he made it through training he broke the living [ __ ] out of his leg and um Marine boot camp so I guess we were both doomed in our own separate ways in my senior year I spent more time not at school than at school I was in junior ROTC in high school the maid going into the the Army itself the obvious career path the highest aspirations I ever had was to be an 11 Bravo and infantryman when I went and took the ASVAB big generalized military test be like how stupid are you I scored him like I think it was the low 90s I heard it was basically like well it'd be a big waste for you to just go the Infantry why don't you be a medic that's how I sort of ended up my chosen career field pretty much is as simple as that now six four I mean I didn't even make it through all four years my initial contract anyways it's kind of a moot point even if it was a sixth year oh that's a fun story when I got the orders and whiskey school as to where I was going I mean I hadn't heard too much about Fort Hood when I got to Fort Hood I was lost as absolute hell if it wouldn't have been for him I'd have been probably [ __ ] out of luck till someone either like collected me or yeah because normally what's supposed to happen is they make contact with your receiving unit once you're there and your receiving unit is supposed to organize picking you up getting your paperwork done to process you into the unit and all that well that didn't happen for me not only did I not know what Brigade I was going to in the first instance no one at reception seemed to [ __ ] know either that's about when I realized that this was not exactly going to be too good of a posting what were the early days like when you had finally got into where you were supposed to be uh the ideal mission of a medical company like that is we're supposed to set up field hospitals but you sure as hell don't have much use for field hospitals in a peacetime environment a unit in First Med we're straight Medics well what the [ __ ] do we do then the answer is a whole lot of nothing actually and that's what got to me a lot at Fort Hood this feeds into a lot of the disappointment I had at Fort Hood imagine you take a fresh-faced soldier like that it's about pumped up I'm gonna go [ __ ] save lives hell yeah and you put them in an environment like that at that point it just seems like life is a farce you have all this training all this knowledge and you spend two and a half years just doing grunt work and [ __ ] and being frankly abused by leadership because they're just as miserable as you are as the saying goes [ __ ] rolls downhill when you're lower enlisted you're the bottom of that hill of all the [ __ ] places I rolled to be wind up come on I ended up in the biggest do-nothing [ __ ] unit like these are very perishable skills if you don't constantly do and practice them when it comes to do them in a high stress environment you're gonna [ __ ] up it's just how it is and that's what caused a lot of burnout I signed up and I went through all this training at Fort Sam certification through the National Registry of EMTs all of this training constant repetitions constant practice of all these skills you get to a unit like this it's a [ __ ] nothing burger like we didn't do we didn't do anything what do you think realistically would happen if your unit was ever called up for like a real world scenario we would kill people out of pure [ __ ] incompetence some of the Medics that we had in that unit had been in that unit for so long they damn near lost any ability to actually medic the few times we actually ended up going to the field and we would run mock scenarios some of these people didn't know their [ __ ] asses from their eyebrows the last time they saw anything medical related was however so many years ago at Fort Sam I I have to piss dude I've held it for as long as I can I'm so sorry it has to come now it's all right I'll be like less than five minutes oh I'll piss as well then Chris break let's break sorry if I'm getting a little impassioned because this is a extreme sore spot for me there were times when I was in the military that I got to actually be a medic and I loved it and it's why I'm a paramedic today the running story you've heard this story before uh it should be telling that the two times I enjoyed myself in the military were times I was away from Fort Hood and away from the vast majority of my squad of our Medics got dispatched out to Fort Knox to uh cover Cadet summer training marching around learning basic soldiering getting dermatitis and strange [ __ ] areas anyway we had a central little HQ area and we would dispatch Medics out to the cadet regiments and it was fantastic it was you a battle buddy a radio for each of you in an aid bag you were responsible for that company of cadets wholly responsible for their health care and should an emergency happen and coordinating resources to get that Cadet to whatever care that they need there's this Cadet damn you're running down the middle of the road and he's yelling for a medic I kind of had a deer in the headlights look for a moment and I remember look over on my shoulder I was like oh that does say medic on that doesn't it pretty much wasn't oh [ __ ] that's me moment so I go if I go running after him like whoa what is it what's the issue he [ __ ] just takes off the other [ __ ] way without elaborating at all I take off after him he rounds a corner particularly fast I don't Corner as well as he does and absolutely eat [ __ ] and just go tumbling into the floor and he turns back and looks at me he's like Doc are you all right I'm like yeah I was [ __ ] amped up on the adrenaline like oh [ __ ] here we [ __ ] go we get into this day room and there's a gaggle of cadets and an equally large gaggle of drill sergeants it was just a simple heat casualty AI Cadet had um not drinking the appropriate amount of water and had fallen out on an exercise and have been brought it inside and we're talking like seizures at this point completely unresponsive starting to like tense up the training kicked it in once I got in there I realized what I was dealing with had everybody clear the [ __ ] out because there was way too many people in there on your key casualties you had to take a court temperature right and considering this is a female Soldier doing something like that while all of her peers are in the room no go because yes I had I had a silver bullet this girl go ahead and explain Silver Bullet yeah so when we take a heat a core temperature on a heat casualty um this does in fact involve shoving a thermometer probe up someone's ass that's why I had everybody clear out so I could get to work with some space but also like protecting the Dignity of the patient at that point rectally is actually the best way to get a body I thought this was like a part of cooling down the core temperature the idea of a silver bullet is to get the core temperature in some way so we know how hot they are I have to pulled the Silver Bullet was a was a metal rod that was frozen right and that got showed up your rectum to cool down your core temperature who taught you that that was just word of mouth I think it was a uthority plus that like a thermometer up I yeah no we do not use a cold metal rod up your ass to cool you down dealing with heat casualties was kind of an unexpected thing in a training environment like that went ahead of it just doing the usual treatments for that Cooling and fluids we transferred them to a local EMS to take them the rest of the way to the hospital we don't have the communications with the hospital that they do and showing up to a hospital without notifying them tends to be pissed off nurses at the time this was the craziest thing I'd ever dealt with this was the first time I had ever actually dealt with a critical life-threatening situation wash around the rest of the day feeling like I actually like had wings and could fly I haven't actually done what I true was trained to do it felt amazing it's just something you just enjoy doing I mean mind you it's I joined at 17. it's the only thing I've ever done in my life and being thanked by the drill sergeants afterwards being like hey Doc you did great being called that as a medic like uh that's a thing for for Medics is being called Doc it's a title you're Keen for lack of a better term after the seat stroke incident we got called in to do a uh briefing on proper hydration I brought in an IV bag with a 14 gauge needle and I was like there's two ways you can hydrate you can either drink your water properly or when you were never going far out I can take this big [ __ ] needle and we'll give you this bag of fluid into your veins I cringe thinking back on it I was trying to like be Stern and make it fun I was trying to be fun but I still Stern but kind of utterly failed at it you go for another drink I'll be right back you guys are welcome to continue I'm just gonna grab myself another little drinky drink I'm taking my hands off sure you said you were gonna barf if you got another drink well I'm not I'm not gonna barf anymore [ __ ] you there's several ammo dumps in and around for Hood we were tasked to basically do a rotating guard shift for those the team for it was a pair of lower enlisted with an NCO occasionally the the command team would come by just to check on us what had happened was the NCO occasionally has to go out to get in their little Humvee they go check the fins usually the NCO would communicate to the lower enlisted hey I'm gonna go do this make sure you've got eyes out on the gate the NCO in question goes off to do his checks it doesn't inform me and doesn't rotate the other enlisted member through to watch the gate our company command team our captain and first sergeant decide to pick that exact time to come show up to the gate and check on us just looking into the guard shack wondering did they just up and leave and leave this completely unguarded I went to go take a piss I walk out there and there's commander and verse aren't standing out the gate I'm like Hey Hey sir I I go up and let them in and they they immediately start [ __ ] just tearing my ass NCO returns from his rounds instead of being like hey I [ __ ] up I didn't tell one of them to like rotate through and all that he said that he did tell me which he definitely did [ __ ] not it wouldn't have been the first time I got a [ __ ] counseling for something but getting blamed by an NCO for something that was objectively his fault how jading and frustrating that has to be to be in a unit that operates with that ethos for years who do you think they're going to listen to when I say Hey sir that's not how that actually happened he didn't he did not tell me to go ahead and rotate up it would have been a non-issue for me he would just had to pop his head in the shank be like hey I'm gonna go do my rounds you go like hold down the gate for five minutes that's all it would have [ __ ] taken and he could have just said hey I forgot to do that but no he felt the need because he knew he could get away with it to just throw me under the bus for and get me in trouble instead of taking the responsibility for it why would he I had one really good NCO if we were to mess up something was to come and tell him immediately he's like tell me about it I need to know about it I have the rank to catch that heat round I will [ __ ] you up on my own time again very just punishments but if it's you that catches a hero from first Iron command Ender it's gonna be a big problem and NCO is a non-commissioned officer they come in a lot of different shapes and sizes but they're general purpose is to be the lower level leaders of soldiers just in talking between the two of us you've seen what good ncos are like and whatnot so good ncos can be like I didn't complete a full four-year contract as a chaptered out the long story short of it one of our field problems I ended up with a pretty severe knee injury I basically couldn't run we were hammering a grounding stake in for one of the generators and while I was helping guy it in they uh they missed with the sledgehammer and hit me hold on in the knee how it is to the knee yes this wasn't just like a whole like runner's knee kind of situation I still have occasional Phantom pains if I stand on it for too long I went to Medical regarding it it was documentary in fact actually had a profile regarding um no running this that the other it's kind of like a doctor's note that says what you can or can't do they can be overridden by a command at that command's Peril a commanding officer can override profile however should you be injured further because of it it's their ass the forehead leadership being for Hood leadership the profile was largely ignored I was continued to be forced to run on this rather severe knee injury it ended up developing and getting worse to the point where my run times and the physical fitness test started to suffer it got to the point where I got in the danger zone of failing one and then I ended up failing a PT test when that happens you end up flagged which means you can't be promoted each other BS you have to do corrective training which only caused the injury to continue to get worse I couldn't keep up because it got to the point where it was just Agony to run I did what I could to push past it and I still came in under time nothing I could do pretty much I brought up my concerns repeatedly they were disregarded and viewed as me just trying to be a [ __ ] bag and not wanting to run fail a physical fitness tests and obviously you're they're going to start the process to basically kick you out and that's what ended up happening I definitely could have fought the issue I believe I mentioned it to him that I had actually I did actually consult Jag on it military lawyers basically I consulted them at one point and basically came to the point where I could have easily fought that chapter because me failing those tests was directly against my profile regardless uh at this point I was just so broken down I fell into a hell of depression there I didn't care about anything I didn't care about [ __ ] up I I just didn't care no matter what I did the our leadership was going to [ __ ] me up regardless because at that point at this point I was labeled as the unit [ __ ] bag once that happens you're basically the punching bag it's difficult to correct that trajectory once they've pigeonholed you into being exactly that's so disillusioned with the military at that point it just was like why bother I'm gonna get hemmed up regardless of what I do all the proceedings went to chapter me and all that got to the point where I was eligible to do my DD214 brief and wanted to do it and to my surprise discharge and they [ __ ] up his paperwork so [ __ ] bad honorably discharged him on an administrative [ __ ] chapter I'm assuming that it came to somebody's attention when they were [ __ ] typing out the paperwork and they saw the reason for the administrative and we're just like nah honorable that was my theory for the longest time that they did that just because they knew it was kind of an Open Secret at first that I was intending to contest it until August where like I finally just broke one day and I just realized I just didn't care got to the point I just wanted the [ __ ] out you want to call the call that going the easy way out fine there's still that residual guilt there and I know it shouldn't be there but most people will [ __ ] on you for not completing your contract yes I understand you feel that way but you literally were [ __ ] let's look at it this way you could have plugged away all those years at Fort Hood finished your contract but you've probably in that time frame that you still would have been a Fort Hood probably done more on the streets as an EMT than you would have done that that's true we were still there it's actually cool that you brought this up because I wanted to point this out about most people who serve most people who serve Come Away With It feeling that they didn't do enough you know I did five deployments and there's guys that I knew that did twice as many three times as many deployments I don't know that I've ever met anyone who walked away from the military feeling that they had fulfilled uh some magical quota some magical amount of service to feel good about what they've done I think you put it really well in your original interview and everything it really started to court with me when I was in my particularly dark place I think I'm going to quote you pretty well here saying that I felt like I owed it to the taxpayer I owed it to the gunship Community I feel I owed it to like the ground parties and everything I felt like I owed everybody everything and I owed myself nothing at the end of the day the only person who will ever care about you is you so make sure you take the time to take care of you the very last day I owned a car at the time 2015 two-door Honda Civic and I somehow managed to pack everything that I owned into the back seat trunk and Caster seated that damn thing I think I remember I stopped by his Barracks room we had a chat I don't remember what the [ __ ] we talked about it doesn't matter I think we have one last cigarette together one last cigarette together and um I drove on over to the the Copeland Center to attend my DD214 brief the moment I had that DD214 in hand I'm officially a civilian got my car um parked in the parking lot of my barracks and just sat on the hood of my car for about like 30 40 minutes just having a couple smokes I just couldn't believe it was over like it just that it that it ended like that honorable discharge certificate in hands officially civilian and had a long drive from Texas to North Carolina to make so sit there and just collect for a moment maybe I don't know I don't really know the moment passed got my car started playing music and left Fort Hood to uh Freebird by Leonard Skinner [Applause] I will call it call it cliche but it is what it is I'll fully admit to it what school is out for summer I picked blurry by uh [ __ ] I don't even know their name it's some no-name band everything blurry looks the same there's a it's a really depressing song I will say if there's anything I've missed the most from Fort Hood it's our little random spontaneous trips to the PX to go get [ __ ] Chipotle and just [ __ ] people watch people people watch like Lieutenant Colonels who should have been at [ __ ] work or something and was like what the [ __ ] you doing here you know like go back to work or just uh wandering down to that gas station by the gate just on a whim the the Shoppette because usually you'll be you going to get cigarettes and I'd be like I'll go to why not is leaving the military ever not like a messy divorce breakup it's the worst breakup you'll ever have I got out of the military and I got straight into paramedicine pretty much thing about the military is is that it provides you with a national certification so I was able to bridge that into having a North Carolina state certification got employed fairly rapidly after leaving the military after a slight adjustment period of getting my [ __ ] together mentally a paramedic working on a 9-1-1 ambulance people would be like a party with veterans must be crazy partying of a veterans uh is [ __ ] getting pissed drunk at the Chipotle getting arrested for public intoxication yeah I was about to say like getting drunk with veterans it starts out fun and wild and then you do stupid [ __ ] and then the night turns into just trauma sharing once everybody is like we need to [ __ ] be less depressed and then you go like set a car on fire and then get arrested shut the [ __ ] up shut the [ __ ] up what did it happen Uncle Sam is listening once like all the veterans and brothers have been promising for too long and they're too depressed quick we need to spike the atmosphere burn a tree you know like [ __ ] alcohol where I tell that story oh [ __ ] saying Liz I'm gonna get you [ __ ] up at Chipotle please we're doing Chipotle shots at the [ __ ] Chipotle if you could tell everybody in the world one thing what would it be I probably should have prepared about this I don't do well when I put on the spot if you come into an emergency room with something stuck up your butt be honest about how it got there because believe me we've heard worse that's all I I enjoyed your your one thing to tell the world it popped into my head I was like oh yeah butt stuff

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Published: Sun Apr 09 2023