Samantha Summers Story / Stripping, Witchcraft & Identity

this is live with Ryan Reese call now 180 days five 64-61 73 or post your questions using the hashtag live Brian Reese on his Instagram Twitter or Facebook another beautiful night day night in Southern California I have one of my good friends Samantha summers Rivas in studio tonight out from Las Vegas welcome to the show thank you thank you for having me hey how's Vegas been anyway lately man right now it was actually hotter out here than it was in Vegas really yeah so we were low 60s over there so you know it's it's a little bit weird coming into hot weather when you're leaving Vegas everybody just assumes you're gonna be hot in Vegas so everything was good over there man it gets like remember I was there when we did that concert out there was like a hundred I think it's a hundred twenty yeah but it gets hotter than that yeah like out out in the Baird area yeah but he was so hot that we had to Metal Mulisha in the parking lot on their dirt bikes to flip and they said that they had to wait for it to cool down a little bit because the rubber oh because you know they're jumping they're flipping and yeah obviously the rubber does the heat you just you need that traction I was like wow it is hot out here if they got to worry about the rubber of the tires yeah like you got to wake up in the middle of the night and make sure you're drinking water cuz you're like you know like start choking cuz you're just it's so dry the air is so dry that's so that's why I love Vegas man it's uh God's moving out there and I love that church that you're a part of with Derek nighter pastored air igniter Calvary Chapel Spring Valley it's now covering chaplain Las Vegas oh I heard actually yeah someone recently told me about that yeah congratulations I know that's super excited that endcap name you know it's just it's really neat there's there's so much going on over there and we're we're so grateful to be at that church you know it's not and you know it's not about a pastor it's not about a man the pastor is amazing yeah he's pretty dope like I'm not gonna lie yeah we we just love that church you know he teaches verse-by-verse yep keeps us accountable um you know I can text him whenever my husband can take text him whenever same thing with his wife like you know they're just real down-to-earth like real walking it out she's this freak I love Derek Nider he's he's always been so cool and he loves you doing real I know I love you so much he was actually at the conference uh you know when I when I spoke he texted me hey brother I love you yeah well you at could find them but no it's really cool they got a school out there and they're they're a Calvary Chapel in Las Vegas right not right next to this trip but you know 15 minutes very close to the strip but um they got a cool thing going and this is actually this show syndicated in Las Vegas what's the station out there do you know man I don't know but I know I know it runs out of our Calvary Chapel yes it is it's I see the room there I've never been in the room but I see it like when we're running back you guys actually took over the station out in Vegas yeah yeah so anyway well tonight you guys this show is gonna get very intense in a good way Samantha's out here we're gonna be talking about her journey as a child and getting wrapped up in the wrong stuff and then eventually ending up into stripping and things that come along with that the story I would say is gonna be a walk from the darkness into the light and not only the fact that when she finds God it's not like when you just find Jesus it's all good over night there's a walk of faith out of the darkness after you find the light which is really pretty gnarly I would save my personal walk and that's really where like the rubber meets the road is like what you get saved it's like oh yes breaking loose well you know I guess the best place to start is uh you know when you grew up like what age why would you even think what were the events that led you you get involved with shrimping so uh I was born in Fresno California I lived there as a baby I don't remember it and then when I was I said I think when I was about 1 we moved over to Oklahoma City believe it or not so I used to have a good one leave it cowboy hat and I used to run around the house screaming yeehaw all day my mom tells me and so when I was about four we left over and we moved to Hollywood California I'm an only child my dad had three other kids but the youngest one to me was a 16 year age difference so he was 16 when I was born and so anyways the older two I don't have a relationship with at all but the my my other brother Robert I do have a relationship with him he's the one that we have a 16 year age gap in between us but I didn't grow up with him when we moved to Hollywood we lived on Hollywood Boulevard and st. Andrews and so like back then there was still cruising like all the gangsters would come out every what years what years um well I was born in 79 so like 85 okay you know from 85 and on we lived right there on Hollywood Boulevard now like I try to take my oldest daughter Valerie back there to show her like hey you know this is how I grew up like there were people shooting up heroin in the hallways like there were troubles like initiating people in like empty apartments like my dad's best friend was shot in the head point blank like at the 7-eleven across the street I tried to show her that and it's like we go down there and they're building like high-rise condos you know it's all nice now and stuff and she's like I thought you said it was real good Oh down here and I was like gosh it was dude I was not living in Ojai rise condo and so anyways my dad had been in the military he was in the Air Force or in the Air Force he served in the army he was a military police officer and so he was retired and my dad was Irish English and German my mom is watermelon and my dad was 6 foot 2 oh my mom is 4 foot 8 and so there was like there's you know cultural difference there's a lot of differences there and so anyways I really clung to my mom uh I I wanted to have a close relationship with my dad but he was just so like militant with everything and so strict that I just didn't feel that that softness you know that you feel like when you're with your mom and so anyways military is like really like my dad was military yeah yeah I know you know you're like okay relax yeah it seems like if you're there on time you're late you know you gotta be 15 minutes early so he had me so freaked out was always like thirty minutes early to everything so I was really - out of a good job oh yeah I think and so anyways he he was just you know that's just how he was and so I didn't understand that now looking back I understand you know and I don't I don't have a complaint about it now but at at the time it started stirring up a lot of anger inside of me and so anyways we lived there when I was 13 we lived in Hollywood when I was 13 my dad got us on section 8 which is like a government-funded program that helps to pay for low-income families to live in other areas so we he picks us up and he moves his over to Sherman Oaks so we go from like living in the hood to like now like we live in this really nice area it literally took me like three months to get used to going to sleep at night because why there was no gunshots there were no ambulances there were no like police sirens going off and so it was it was jarring - it's a it was a cultural shock for me you know cuz I'm like I'm waiting for the rug to be pulled out from underneath underneath me basically and so you know I went to going school to school with my friends who had you know parents that were cholos or they were like slinging drugs or doing this or doing that and like you know moving living in Sherman Oaks everybody their parents are like they're like oh my dad's a screenwriter oh my dad's a producer oh my dad's of this and I'm like and now here you are in this world yeah I'm like oh great well you know and you know everybody's like shopping for like the new is you know whatever shoes that's out and this and that I'm you know I didn't know no better so I just thought like everybody went to the thrift store when it was it came time to like go to back-to-school shopping you know I never had like a brand new spankin pair of shoes you know like and so or it was paleis you know and at the time it was all good like I didn't know any better you know so for me I was happy you know I was happy because I was like I got my mom I got my dad I did a lot of stuff with my mom and so you know for me it just seemed like a normal childhood you know until I started going to junior high and then I started realizing like hey there's a bit of a difference here you know there's definitely a financial difference you know and at the moment I don't think it made that big of an impact on me but it definitely like planted a seed you know what I'm saying yeah like now that I look back I'm like man like I can see where you know the little seeds were planted you know to eventually wine wind me up and get me like where I was going which was wasn't a good place and so my dad died from lymphoma cancer when I was 16 and I want we watched him die you know he came home he didn't want to be in the hospital and so I remember holding up my dad and him taking his last breath and you know at the time it like everything inside of him was just deteriorating so he was constantly throwing up blood and so I thought that he was gonna go throw up so I went to go help him like hold him up his body was a big he was a big burly man you know and so so it was really weird to see my dad weak and vulnerable like that yeah I had never seen him like that you know and so anyways I remember picking him up and I thought he was gonna go you know throw up and he I just remember I remember holding his body up and I remember that feeling of when he exhaled and then he just didn't inhale anymore you know and so I was 16 when that happened that was really traumatic for a single mom oh yeah for a mean for 16 year old young 16 year old girl they need their dads yeah their life yeah I mean whether that connection was was deep or not you still had yeah just the hip just a father being around yeah sets the tone totally now here you are you're in Sherman Oaks yes my dad passed away and my mom starts working she had never really worked full time before today no mom yeah she was a stay-at-home mom and so you know my mom just started working like 10 sometimes 12-hour days and so I never saw my mom so that to me was jarring because I go from like my dad is dead my mom is like not in the house at all so it's like I'm just sitting there and it's you know what was she supposed to do she needed to go to work she needed to provide for us you know and so you know it was just the circumstance at the moment and so anyway this is just really quick this is very common for people that are listening I mean statistics say 50% of homes in some in California are broken homes yeah the debt whether the dad's not around right how's the way and then you have the working mom and then you have the child so your story is 50% yeah of California yeah totally it's it's very it's very typical it's very common and I heard a lot too with the girls that that we ministered to and so you know my mom's working and I'm just a wreck and so I just started you know hanging out with the wrong people drinking doing drugs man I did LSD for like a year straight like every time we were at school were just dropping tabs I don't know how you can do that stuff at school that's crazy that was dumb like I look back and I'm like how did how did we not die you know what I'm saying it's just it was it was a really bad time obviously I made a lot of horrible mistakes I made a lot of horrible decisions you know with the mental capability of a child you know it's not like the distressed child exactly it's not like I could have made any better I mean you know what I'm saying I didn't have any structure yeah and so anyways I just was I was already being promiscuous and you know I was you know messing around with guys and girls whoever I could get attention from that I mean I was down you know and so anyways when I turn I after my dad had died I actually started working in retail cuz it just seemed you know easy you know I didn't really need to have like a degree or anything to go work you know at a retail shop and so I had a neighbor in our building and her name was Danny and I remember her coming and going whenever she wanted and she always paid for cash for everything like we went out to eat like you know I know she had paid cash for some cars and you know she was just like I knew she was saving up to buy a house cash and I was like how does one buy a house cash you know and so anyways I just remember asking her I was like what do you what do you do yeah how old is she she I want to say she was she was 23 24 right and so and I was you know still a kid I met her when I was like 17 about to be 18 yeah and so anyways um I just asked her like what do you do like how how is it that you're able to do whatever you want and she was like oh I work right here you know at this strip club and you know I just that's how I make my money and I was like what do you mean like what do you do and she just explained it to me and she was like you know I just get up there and I dance naked for like 2 or 3 minutes and you know then I just get offstage and then I do private dances and I was like what you know at this point were you like what was going ahead were you just like no way or like maybe I was I was shocked cuz I didn't even know that that exists ok I'm saying cuz I was like I don't know I guess I was sheltered to some degree I had never strip clubs back then weren't like what yeah you know now it's like super glamour I it's in rap videos I mean it's like totally mainstream like back then when you were a stripper like you can't tell nobody you know what I'm saying now it's like you log on to somebody's social media and it's like their name that they're a stripper and yeah was different I mean you're right yeah tolian so back then it was like a totally different scene and so anyways when I turned 18 I went down there and I auditioned they say an audition but you know they don't turn nobody down they're not gonna turn anybody down guys because you pay them like as soon as you start your shift you walk in there owing them money like what you have to pay to go to work and so as soon as you stepped foot through the door you're already in debt you know Wow and then off of every single dance that you do you have to give them their their commission right right because their housing you and so so they're basically like a makeshift pimp you know what I'm saying like they're pimping you out dude and so at the time like I didn't see it like that I was just like oh my gosh you know I can make all this money and I just thought that I would be able to provide for me my mom like well dang maybe I can save up cash for a house and you know pay cash for cars well isn't it true I mean you know I've talked to a lot of friends or people that have come even on the show that have come out of this lifestyle and they are doing it for good intentions yeah to provide for their kids yeah to go to school that's how that's like the that's like the lie that is like the hook that the enemy gets he puts in your mind right you're gonna go provide for your family yeah but he doesn't tell you about everything that comes along with it so you walk in and you're here you are and you're young and you're invincible you think you're invincible and you're immortal and you're running the show you're totally tough like nothing hurts your feelings like you don't even have feelings you know I know if feelings start you know starting up on you you're just gonna you know smoke a joint or you know do a line of coke or whatever you know just to like dumb it down jump down those feelings and so I think I was just living my life so fast I didn't have time to feel I didn't have time to feel and my dad died you know I didn't have time to feel like when my mom had to go to work I didn't I didn't have time to deal with those feelings cuz it was like what are we gonna do you know what where do we go from here and so I started working there and so it was all-nude strip club and I say that just so that people understand that it's like a whole other level you know it's a whole other level of of anguish you know in your heart in your mind like the mental damage that it does to you the scarring it stays to you for years you know to this day when I minister to girls in the sex industry I mean in Vegas at the strip clubs out there when it's graduation time on their marquees they put now hiring class of 2016 no way so I have little girls that are like oh you know I want to go to this college but I don't want to put my parents in debt so I'm just gonna go and work at the strip club save up money again the good intention right and then I'm quick to tell them like yo like that's not you're not gonna do it cuz you're gonna get addicted to that money and then you're gonna be like why I make more money here than I would you know if I became whatever let's talk about that first thing so basically I mean if you go and you're strippers say you a girl could bring home that guy let's say $1,000 a night yeah you ain't gonna make $1,000 a night or 1,500 or 2,000 you can make up to two grand right or something yeah oh my gosh or more I mean right now who makes $2,000 a night yeah become addicted to the money so now what went from good intentions exact what see Peter Criss Huck was like the good intentions like you're gonna provide for your family right the second hook is the money mm-hmm so you're literally you know like saying goes fishing too you know and so he's he's doing it for his dirty work but there's a process though yeah which and you could explain this a bit more for a girl to be able to go up and strip down yeah I mean that's gnarly to be able to do that so like you have to like lose yourself in a sense they're these walls that we're all born with yeah those walls have to come down in order for you to do that how does that happen is that what for girls is it through drugs and alcohol that just brings those walls down what's the process yeah you know when I worked I made it I made a rule for myself to make sure that I was never drunk and that I was never on anything mm-hmm because the last thing I wanted to do was to you know get raped or something happened to me and it's like said my mom would have found out you know what I'm saying cuz I was constantly hiding that oh yeah true from my mom and so I just didn't I didn't know I wanted to be in control I wanted to be in control and I wanted to make sure I always knew what was going on and so but man I saw so many girls so many beautiful smart wonderful girls just completely lose themselves because they started drinking they started doing drugs they started you know rolling you know rolling on ecstasy like they're doing lines of coke in the locker room because not only are some of them stripping but some of them are like selling themselves too you know in the back rooms you could you get you know you think what happen exactly wony the club that I worked out it was like you know you can get a dance or two or whatever or you could rent a girl out for in half an hour or an hour two hours whatever that's insane and so it's you know it's just like where does it stop there's it just never does stop you know and so anyways I saw a lot of girls get caught up and I mean girls just that wouldn't come back I'd hear like they overt they overdosed or yeah whatever and so that really like made me like oh my gosh I definitely don't want I don't want that to be me I didn't want to be a statistic yeah you know what I'm saying and so and I already was realistically I already was and so you know I had a lot of female clients that would come in I had a lot of couples that would come in like looking back now my heart grieves when I tell you I grieve mm-hmm it's and man I'm so grateful for the grace of God and I always tell this to the girls like always remember God he's gonna forgive you if you come with a heart full of her like repent like if you are really repenting he is he's gonna forgive you and you will be forgiven but you will not be free of consequence and a lot of those consequences our memories mental their mental their smells dude for like years I couldn't even use a bath and Bodyworks pray yeah because I would almost have like a mental breakdown you know what I'm saying cuz it just smelled like the locker room - yeah and so well that that verse you know you reap what you sow yeah you know when you when you reap when you go out and live this life like you and me we both have different crazy lives but then you reap that stuff like I was talking to you know my wife the other day and just other pastor at the pastors conference and I was just saying how you know I struggle with pornography ya know I don't go and watch porn yeah it's not I don't do that I watch porn in years right but you reap what you sow all the images in my mind yeah I could see something on TV I could hear something that music is something and then it pops with these images and it brings you back yeah you know or you see someone some girl some girl that looks like some girl that used to hook up with will even forget just pornography but just me even sleeping with girls I that I have all that in my mind still so you have that Plus porn and everything else yeah so I know what you're saying but this is what's awesome this is what I want to end that part with is you reap what you sow so if you start sowing the things of the Spirit you start going after the things of God then you start reaping the things of God the things of the Spirit yeah so it works you always hear it in a negative connotation like you reap what you sow you know don't you yeah yeah yeah no it's awesome because when you're following god you're gonna reap what you sow yeah it's a great thing yeah yeah totally and you know for me um thank God like through time you know now man I remember the first time I ever bought like a bath and Bodyworks body spray and it didn't bother me actually Annie Lobert gave it to me and I was like when she handed you but I was like I can't smell this kind of stuff and she was like why are you okay and I was like no like I get him raged and I just want to rip my brain out of my head like I can't I can't do it and then you know she always wore them and then like little by little I just started like you know relaxing on that it's just dumb little stuff like that you know that you got to work through and so anyways when I went you know going back to me having a lot of female clients a lot of girls were selling themselves with their male clients so I figured well you know maybe if I'm only involved with my female clients like that maybe I'm because I had been raised as a Catholic and so I didn't I knew of God but I didn't know of a relationship with Christ right yeah and so I figured man you know my my toes are right on the line here you know which is totally wrong that's why I you know your whole I didn't know the Lord I didn't know the word I didn't know his word you know and so I was thinking well if I just if I just only hook up with my female clients like maybe at some point in time I can still come back to God so you're not sleeping with a man now so you're saying so that's the God God won't fry on it he's good he's a good with that yeah that's awesome that's that was my thinking yeah and so people things like that yeah totally so I'm not and I say that you know with you know the previous of I'm not trying to say that you know that was okay I'm just saying like that was my logic frame of thought back then and so anyways that's that's where I was at I wound up getting pregnant by a man that I was seeing and I thought oh man I'm gonna work throughout my pregnancy because there were girls that were working nine months pregnant huh I'm not joking I think they're regulars would still come in and so it wasn't like just one or two it was like a lot of them that's insane and so I was like oh my gosh if they can keep dancing like maybe I can too and no bro that did not work out because somebody would come up to me and ask me for a dance and they put their hand like on my shoulder like to tap me to get my attention I literally felt like they were touching the baby and I wanted to rip their skin off their face you know what I'm saying and so it didn't help that my stage name was mistress rage because I did a lot of S&M stuff and dominatrix stuff and so I just felt like that rage kept you know mm-hmm which is the enemy eating the fire the whole time and so you know I was just I was at a crossroads you know I was like what am I gonna do you know I hadn't saved any money as quickly as the money came in and went back out you know I never went to school like I had thought I was gonna do I never bought a car cash or even put down a down payment that's what the enemy does he possess shiny object and nothing ever happened I didn't do a dang thing that I thought I was gonna go in there and do like I didn't do one thing and so you know I was just stuck and I didn't know what to do and so honestly for me getting pregnant it really did I mean I feel like that whole situation I mean it helped me because I it saved my life you know I had guys follow me home I remember one time a guy screaming my stage name from outside mind you I'm in my apartment with my mom yeah and people and guys become stalkers because it's all because the whole stripping and that's all fantasy no yeah nobody told me about fantasy nobody told me that somebody was gonna become obsessed with me or like start stalking me like I didn't I didn't know any of that yeah I was so scared and it wasn't just me you know I was thinking like oh my gosh if somebody comes into the apartment like my mom's here like what if they kill us both like you know it was it was just a lot to take in and so when I was pregnant with Valerie I try to work I think I made it up to like three months and then I just quit I just I just couldn't go back anymore I just couldn't do it you know it was it weighed on me but you know what looking back like it weighed weight on my spirit and weight on my soul you know and so I remember I can look back now and like seeing little tidbits of when God was chasing me you know like when I was actually paying attention and it's it stinks now because I just I just look back and I'm like dang man like why didn't I listen right then and there I should have listened and but you know all that disobedience like and now where God has me you know it's I'm so grateful because God totally uses all that for his glory you know and I'm able to I I can relate to these girls that are working in the sex industry that are you know bein like you know working in prostitution or if they're being trafficked or you know they're working at the strip club or there are porn stars or you know they're working in dominatrix stuff like all these different facets you know and I'm even we're able to relate to guys you know that are that I've struggled with porn much struggled buying girls or struggled with going to the strip club like I'm able to really have like a brother-sister talk and be like bro like this is not this is not gonna wind up good this is gonna cost you everything I mean I've seen marriages lost I've seen when I worked at that Club I can't even tell you how many times wives came in looking for their husbands I've heard of that man and to look back and be like dang I was I was a part of that you know so anyways well this is what we're gonna do because we're going to break yeah about one minute so what I'm gonna do now this intense this is actually the first time I'm actually sat down we know how long we known each other years like eight years yeah and and I mean I've heard little bits but this is the first time I've heard it in depth and it is everything I thought it could be it's amazing and then some but we're gonna come back after the break and continue I'm how she got saved and then the journey out of the darkness but if you guys have been following the whosoever's movement we are continuing to tour public high schools we're doing concerts for the kids were giving out the gospel we're trying to reach those kids before they end up in a situation where Samantha or myself ended up you could go to the whosoever's comm and learn more about that but we will be back in two minutes right after the break more live with Ryan race 180 days 564 61 73 or post your questions using the hashtag live Ryan riess on his Instagram Twitter or Facebook I think I speak for the entire administration when I say [Music] now back to live with Ryan Ruiz back with Samantha summers Rivas person I got I gotta have like ten names I know so yeah so we get your first last names some summers and then now your husband's name actually you want to know what my legal name is no yes I do ople Samantha McKee Lopez summers that's your real name yeah that's on my birth certificate oh my goodness gracious and now it's Revis so have six names that Instagram cannot facilitate that well right before the break we uh we were just talking about how she she grew up in Hollywood or wasn't grown up in Hollywood but by time she was a in high school she moved to Hollywood her father died he was in the military and that led her to a spiraling out of control her mom went to work which is very common in in California I don't know about the rest of United States but statistics say 50% of kids come from broken homes that the father's gone the mother's gone and that parent that's actually at home what the kid is working yeah doing what they're supposed to be doing providing for the family therefore their child grows up in the streets and the neighborhoods with Fran's and gets raised basically by the neighborhood and that's what happened with her and that led to a series of events with let her stripping that she met her neighbor that was a stripper and you know the progression of sin and stripping and other things like that she wound up you know finding ourselves finding clients you know with men and with women and kind of just doing all kinds of crazy stuff and a dominatrix and all that stuff and now here she is at a point where she's got she gets pregnant and she has to quit because she's three months pregnant and something God's starting to reach out to her the Holy Spirit is is drawing her and that's pretty much where we ended so what happened at that so you're in the shrimp club you're three months pregnant you're walking around and a client will tap you like hey come here and you're like you're touching the kid like I mean for me what really what when I was like would you the line in the sand for me was I had I had a guy grab me by the waist and try to grab my it's my stomach my tummy and you know I three months you're not showing it but I like flipped out and I didn't want to get arrested for you know assaulting somebody and so I just I was like I gotta get out you know I gotta get out I didn't know what I was gonna do you know by this time I was you know heavy into like witchcraft and so you know I had all kinds of alters and stuff in my room what kind of stuff were you doing in the what was it like what was a call what kind it was so it's like blue heady as I don't know how to say that in in English but it's witchcraft and you're doing spells and you're praying to different Saints in your body I have heard of that offerings of like you know herbs and since yeah I guess it's it's Latin based you know um and so I used to go to this lady that would read my cards and then she would tell me like these cleanses to do on my body she's just opening yourself to all kinds of my gosh dude like the doors I mean it was it was gnarly you know what I'm saying and so but again I didn't know any better I just thought like okay well this is gonna help me and you know it was just so far into the occult that I didn't I didn't know who I was or what I was doing anymore you know and so I left the club and that's the club and I wind up telling the guy that I'm seeing like hey I'm pregnant and this is what it is and we're actually married today so our daughter Valerie is just turned 16 on March 10th amazing and said my son is here Jacob he's also March 10th so she's 2001 he's 2006 that's ridiculous when I tell you my administrative skills are on point they're on point I'm clearly but wait but how did you find Jesus so so listen so I'm pregnant I'm pregnant with Valerie I leave the club and I called Joe and I'm like hey I'm I'm pregnant this is what we're doing and we have Valerie and I had a cousin of mine that I was really close to he had a house up in the Hollywood Hills his his father was actually my dad's father and my dad's cousin I'm sorry his father Bob was my dad Ken's cousin and so I you know I I had found Robert like in my teen years and so I was just like dude we're cousins like this is so cool but I felt like I had a piece of my dad still yeah and so man we hung out all the time I mean I I wasn't a good influence either you know I would take him to strip clubs like he was a really dark kid he was very intellectual like man if you wanted to sit down and have like a really good like intellectual conversation this would be the good do it do it he was just super mature and anyways his dad wound up passing away from cancer had bone marrow cancer and so we saw the cancer eat him up and fight AIDS later he committed suicide my cousin committed suicide and so he hung himself and so I have all this like mental baggage for this all this stuff and then he kills himself and I actually sent Joe over to the house before I got there because I didn't know what I was gonna walk into and so it was it was one of the worst I mean I felt like that death was worse than when I lost my dad you know and because his kid had everything like a house up in the hills like multi-million dollar estate like properties everywhere like you know and he was just a surfer kid that didn't care he didn't care about any of that stuff you know and so anyways Joe was like hey move to Vegas because I think that you know I can do better out there there's a lot of you know oh you know he's I don't even know what to say he has a degree in because I forget I know he has a degree in electronic engineering and some type of he's like a tech dude like he can build a computer from the ground up and so anyways yeah he'd like hooks things up like for Christmas we could turn on and off the Christmas tree lights through the Alexa and I was like yeah but he had it connected and so you can like turn out I was like dude I don't know how you do this stuff that's really weird so anyways I'm like okay well so we move out to Vegas and I was working at the Wynn I was working at the salon out there and um I'm actually a makeup artist by trade been doing makeup for 20 years and so we were in the in the dining room the employed dining room one day just me and a couple girls from work and man you know everything that I had gone through had weighed on me so hard you know when Robert committed suicide I called my mom up and I was like you take down every picture of Jesus that you have in the house and I want you to get that you know I was like HUS and I was like at that effing Bible out of my house this and I don't ever don't you ever say God or just me ever again don't pray for me I remember people would come to the house and offer to pray for us I would lock myself in my room I don't want to hear it I was just so bitter at God you know and I'm like man my dad died like basically like a hoe at this point like you know I felt so dirty I have a baby now and then my cousin kills himself it's like well what am I gonna do like I don't have any money you know we live in Sherman Oaks it's like I'm how I gonna buy a house for this baby to grow up in a nice SUV you know I'm thinking like how am I gonna do any of this and so when Jaden when when Joe was like hey let's move to Vegas I was like okay this is gonna this is gonna help us you know in some way shape or form because the cost of living out there is so much cheaper so when these girls invited me to church when we were we were in the employee dining room at the way and they were like hey it's gonna be Easter eat do you go to church these girls that work at your salon yeah at the time I was working at the salon at the time and so I was like no I don't go to church you know and I remembered like when they asked me that I remembered telling my mom what I what I said you know and so like I could feel the tears like working up in my eyes and so anyways I was like no I don't go to church and they were like oh you should go to church with us you know it's gonna be Easter and yeah I just broke down crying cuz I couldn't believe that I could go to church I'm thinking I just got out you know like there's no way I'm gonna be able to go to church plus I'm so dirty like you know I'm saying like I'm gonna dirty those walls as soon as I start walking in you know and then I was thinking okay well if I go to church and I start making friends with the ladies at church like who doesn't want to be my friend you know doesn't want to talk to me and which is all lies for the anymo total just if for the listeners totally these are all lies the enemies set you up with yeah why would you go you're gonna dirty the place who wants to be your friend no one wants anything that's what churches are for their hospitals for the broken yes for me for Samantha for you yeah praise God man so we went to church and literally man for like months when we would pull up just pull up into the parking lot I would burst out crying like I would just start crying well that that I did go to church that that Easter Sunday and I got saved I got saved because when there soon as he did the altar call remember what he said he was like Jesus is for you and he wants you so come on up here and I was like Jesus wants me like I was so tired dude I really thought I really thought if I didn't if I didn't get some type of mental help yeah mental help being like Jesus you know what I'm saying like if I didn't get that I was gonna kill myself to you cuz I was but I didn't know how I was gonna be able to do that cuz I knew the hurt that Robert left in my in my heart by him committing suicide how was I gonna do that to my kid you know what I'm saying I didn't want her to think that she I didn't love her enough to say cuz to this day that's how I feel you know like Robert didn't love me enough to stay you know and it's hard not to think that and know that he was he no he was lost he didn't know the Lord you know and so anyways it you know I didn't want to do that to her and so I was just started going to church and man like any time those doors were open I was there I mean anything they had conferences when they would have conferences if I saw at the bathrooms were dirty I'd start cleaning them myself like anything anything I could do like serve the Lord I totally did it you know like once once I gave my heart to him because that's nothing I do like I love hard you know what I'm saying yeah and I'm loving him even harder cuz I'm I can feel all this love that he's giving me you know and it's like there's no strings attached and I'm thinking man this is gonna be great you know like my life is gonna be totally awesome now and you know I thought it was for a minute right and then God starts pruning and and doing you know pulling the weeds and doing all this stuff in my heart a way to explain that for people that maybe aren't believers yeah guys what God's doing is he's he starts working in our lives and he starts removing this stuff and weeds in a sense is this stuff that are cluttering our life things that God does not want in our lives we're not we're not created for these things so as he starts pruning what happened during that process so that's bad I want to I want to give a listen when you get gold that you want to purify it they put it into hot fire and when you put it into the hot fire what it does is it burns out that black stuff and when burns out that black stuff you have that pure gold with no no weeds no black stuff and that's what God does is he puts you to the fire says in Hebrews says that God is a consuming fire and when you allow him when you invite him into your life he comes into our life the Holy Spirit comes in our life into the job of the Holy Spirit because he sends torrents of living water it's the holiness from heaven that comes in and starts purifying everything that is unholy in our lives pushing it out of our lives yeah or ripping it out or like a consuming fire burning it out yeah and when you're in this process what what happened I mean so I got I got saved that one Easter Sunday I think Joe gave his heart to the Lord like maybe like three or four weeks later you know it was a process for him and so um man I when I did it I hit the floor running though and so Joe kind of like prayed the prayer and then that was it you know saying like he didn't hit the floor running well that's cool though because everyone's in different places and totally everyone and so and he was you know he had he himself had been struggling with porn for such a long time you know and so for him when he met me he meets the stripper it's like it's fulfilling that fantasy you know what I'm saying so he's thinking like okay I have this this girl now and it's we're gonna I'm in to be able to fulfill everything that I've been watching you know what I'm saying and so that's what he's thinking and it's crazy because I just saw I watched Christy Mack that was she's a porn star and she was beat by her UFC boyfriend I watched the whole trial oh and she man she was talking about like you know she's not she's like I know I have this image she's like but she was talking about when he would beat her and when I forgot his name is John that but I forgot yeah I get his fight name yeah I took and so anyways she said you know he like had this fantasy of me and she's like I couldn't keep up you know she's like I I'm a type of girl that I like saying I like to hang out on the couch and he'll and cuddle you know she's like I couldn't keep up with his appetite you know and so I was like man I have that saved you know with the rest of my ministry stuff because I'm like I want four four guys to hear that you know it's a fantasy it's you're being sold this lie that's not even real you know and so anyways we're that's that's that's what destroys marriages it does because guys that watch pornography pole dance they they're seeing all this this this these these sex acts which are all set up yes shot hours after hours totally and then edited totally perfectly and behind the scene you talk to strippers and porn stars and stuff these girls are actually being hurt in the they're on drugs to numb the pain yeah so now you have this guy's to average Joe Schmoe watching these videos then they have their wife yeah and they try and make this happen which is not even a reality for the porn stars the porn stars are getting hurt and on drugs yeah yeah so when Joe met me he's like he met this stripper and he thought that you know everything was gonna be a certain way and then we're married we have a we have a daughter we I'm sorry we weren't married yet we got married a year after we got saved because we were sitting in church and I'm like I felt convicted I was like oh we should probably go get married because they keep talking about marriage and living in sin and I'm like we're totally living in sin you know I'm like you know a little bit but that was again like another thing that God was showing me like I needed to clean up and it's a slow process exactly dude it was so he's so gentle and so anyways you know Joe dealing with that like you would have thought like Oh our marriage was great but Joe was dealing with his own stuff I'm trying not to get triggered by these memories that I have you know and so we almost we almost got divorced I believe it it was so bad and this is after coming to the Lord you know and we're thinking I'm thinking like everything's gonna be good you know and man you know I started I actually met Annie libero from hookers for Jesus and I started our ministries that reach out to to call girls porn stars yeah and yeah girls are being trafficked and stuff and so and she has the Destiny house over there in Las Vegas which is a safe home for the girls and so I met her and she was the first person I ever opened up to and told her my story and man when I tell you how much of an impact her ministry had on me and and had on my life dude like how God used that I'm forever grateful you know what I'm saying I'll be forever grateful because she's encouraged me she has come alongside of me like poured into me like always pointed me to Jesus you know I mean she hurt that ministry has so much heart Annie has so much heart especially for the girls are coming out of the industry I was lost I didn't know who to talk to I didn't know what to do and so I started traveling with Annie I was her executive assistant for many years and so we you know I first first time I met you was that the one left for Chi event at Pomona oh yeah oh yeah that's right you showed up to speak in there yeah and she's like hey you want to go with me to LA and I was like okay and so um you know but same thing too like the first time I went out and outreach with her like I remember telling her like any like me a nice I struggle with same-sex attraction like like how do you want me to administrative these girls and like I'm probably gonna be looking at him and all I'm thinking is like I'm gonna totally mess this up for God and gods gods let me back in his house and I thinking like I don't want to ruin this like I don't want to ruin what we have going on and I'm just thinking like you know I'm gonna ruin it you know and I didn't want to I didn't want to in any way shape or form and so she's like Sammy you just got to pray you just gotta trust God like you know that's Annie she's always like the the pep top like encourage her like she's always just like you can do it today and you're like you're crazy but all right like I'm gonna tell me pray and believe we're gonna believe together and so you know first time I went out on an outreach with her and we went to go talk to these girls and give them gift bags man I I get a strip club no we were out on the strip okay climate strip and so I just remember looking at these girls and not thinking one less full thought amazing and I could not believe it it literally Ryan it was like a switch had been turned off inside me oh so shocked but then like months after that every time we went out like I'm waiting for the rug to be pulled out from one anything you know cuz that was like the sequence of my life like something good would happen but then I'd take two steps back and so and praise God just you know I see those girls as God sees them like the Dodgers of the King you know what I'm saying and so I'm so grateful to have every ounce of less stripped from my heart dude like I just don't I don't struggle with that thank God and I understand when men do you know I just had a good conversation with Joe the other day and he was talking about you know he works at Bellagio and so there's girls coming in and out of there all the time and he was like you know I'm trying to you know like you you're trying to wrangle your thoughts because you've seen these images and they these images are popping back in and and you know it was a really good conversation and I think we prayed at the end and he Audrina he was like I'm so grateful I can talk to you like this yeah you know and I'm like attitude I'm like my heart breaks for you like I don't have one ounce of jealousy I don't feel any of this because I feel broken for you I used to think like how you think you know that's what the enemy does though he he likes to kiss you you know will be tempted there's temptation you know it's not a sin to be tempted it's dad act on it act on we live in a fallen world yeah and we reap what we sow yeah but the thing is is what Satan likes to do and you notice this is that he doesn't want us to talk about it but when you bring the darkness into the light and expose it people get set free totally cuz I'm not walking around like I'm struggling with pornography yeah it's just those temptations those things will pop up here and there else and then you react and you incident that you either go you look you start lusting and then you take that next step or you bring your mind into subjection with Christ and go boom Satan nope and that's the war that's constantly yeah as we walk you're you know walk walk by faith yeah but you know it was awesome because what you said is uh you said how you been God did that work in you and that's when we asked God for the Holy Spirit he says His Holy Spirit inside of us and what happens is it's a supernatural work he works in us before he can work through us it's a supernatural work you know you may be listening right now and you're going well man there's no way God can change me it all comes down to the point where you say Jesus forgive me for my sins come into my life I surrender and you you wave your white flag to God and you let him become you let you let him send His Holy Spirit down from heaven the power from heaven and he will baptize you with His Holy Spirit and then he's gonna start working slowly through you and he's gonna start purging or pulling out those weeds or whatever you want to call it and he's gonna start purifying your mind he's gonna start transforming your mind your heart and you one day you're gonna you're gonna be looking around going I don't know if I cuss anymore or hey man I don't struggle with pornography anymore I don't feel like doing drugs anymore what No maybe you're a liar yeah whatever it may be you struggle with same-sex attraction whatever it is you just you just come to God and you just ask him to just start working your life and you read the Bible which is the day of Jesus Christ the key isn't the Bible you can't just say Jesus forgive me but for my sins change my life you have to read the Bible and there's a difference between reading the Bible and actually studying the Bible and that's when you way we go to church because I study the Bible reading is very important but then when you have someone break it down to you you just take it to that next level well five years after we had given our hearts to the Lord that's actually what really helped Joe is that we actually got with Joe's said that he in prayer felt like God was calling us to go to Calvary Chapel Las Vegas and so you know you've known me for a while like we're loud we're like you know we were like super loud in church and so I'm like oh man I don't think they're gonna let me go in there you know and we got three minutes left so tell me anyways he we start going at Calvary chapel's Las Vegas and guys are allowed that by the way oh yeah Tony yeah and you know Derek just loved on him and Joe started going to men's Bible studies he started meeting with with Pastor Derek like one on one and you know our our marriage has never been better like we feel like we are dating all over again and so it's really cool cuz now God's laid it on our hearts to to launch a ministry with using both of us and so we'll be based out of Calvary Chapel Las Vegas that's just read had a meeting with with pastor Derek like a couple weeks ago and he's totally backing us and we're just we're really excited I've you know when I shared it with Annie I was really excited to share her with her what God had laid them on our hearts you know and she's like Sammy we're gonna work side-by-side and I just love that you know what I'm saying like I love the family of Christ and like how God is where where God has us right now you know and and with our kids and I'm just I'm just so grateful so so grateful and you know what your dad I listened to your dad online for a really long time before we transitioned over to coverage shop Las Vegas and your dad had a key part in that dude like God really used him teaching verse-by-verse yeah man I remember watching Rahl and I would they would take me like 30 minutes to get up out of my chair cuz I was so convicted and so heavy you know what I'm saying yeah yeah but it was like God doing like all this work inside of me and so you know when Joe said Calvary Chapel Las Vegas I was like all right you know I'm like I trust that guy raw reefs that I watch so it's like I remember when amour was on here Mercier and she was like you know I watch your dad all the time okay I'm lying when I don't want to be convicted and I want to have a pity party like I don't want you it's like you know that's so true because the Holy Spirit toys I mean we do get convicted from that verse-by-verse station like that you know well you know what this interview has been amazing and that's you you nailed it it's the it's the Word of God yeah verse by verse transforming you you can't go to these churches that just give these motivational speaking now that hype and that motivational message that's gonna do nothing for you when the storms come it's only through the Word of God the teaching of the word of God which will transform you yeah thank you for this interview thank you for being on I love that you quoted my dad and Ciara all of us drawling the same game we're all together just letting our light shine thank you for being on the show thank you so much this has been live with Ryan race to connect or find out more about riots click on Ryan - Reese comm check us out next Saturday at 9:00 p.m. for live with Ryan Reese

Channel: Ryan Ries

Views: 10,592

Rating: 4.8885016 out of 5

Keywords: K-WAVE, The Whosoevers, Ryan Ries, Sean McKeehan, Melynda Ries, Calvary Chapel Golden Springs, Calvary Chapel, 107.9FM, The Movement, Saints & Sinners, Kill the Noise, Holy Spirit, God the Spirit, Stripping, Witchcraft, Identity

Id: 0FgCHmaPzvs

Length: 58min 3sec (3483 seconds)

Published: Mon Sep 11 2017