how I won my mother love again

I never thought mom would be this cruel to me I was sitting alone in the dark shocked by what it just happened my mom doesn't actually love me a thought that kept repeating in my head I don't know how I ended up like this you see growing up it was just me and my mom my dad was gone and my mom raised me by herself but her mood kind of shifted when I got into high school to put it bluntly my mom turned into a total nightmare it didn't seem like I could do anything right with her our home was like a dictatorship so there I sat alone in the cold dark basement lit with a dim floor lamp crying a river of tears I screamed and begged for my mother to let me out but she had completely ignored me I tried more than once to wipe my tears away to move on and to get myself back together but no luck I started throwing and breaking every object in my way just to catch her attention but she still didn't bother at that moment I felt completely abandoned the thing is my mom is so obsessed with my grades they had to be the top of the class or I was getting punished even a b-plus wasn't enough for her which by the way got me grounded once for a whole four weeks it was like I was living in a prison but the breaking point was when my grades came in for the current semester my mom was furious at how low they were she yelled at me for what seemed like hours about how she was very disappointed in me now you would think that this righteous fury would be because of F's and DS covering the page right no she got so angry with me because she saw a c-minus can you believe that because I couldn't this time I couldn't let it go we went back and forth yelling at the top of our lungs to the point where it felt like the house was shaking for the next couple of days we basically ignored each other like two strangers I thought that she would just move on from our argument but my mom took it a step further one day after I came home from school and went up to my room I was shocked to see that my stuff was missing was she kicking me out of the house when I saw her she holy got up from her seat and told me to follow her and said that I should go down in the basement I was confused but I did what she asked for my mom had moved all of my stuff into the basement me and the eyes and said well if you want your space now you have it then she walked right back up the stairs and shut the basement door I screamed at her that she couldn't be serious but she just ignored me the basement was cold and dark there was no light except for the floor lamp I had if I'm being honest that didn't light up much of anything I couldn't believe how cruel she was being I mean who does something like that and that's when I really started panicking I wanted to smash the door and go confront her but she had locked it I screamed but with no response back I sat down on the cold floor crying for hours hoping she'd actually have some mercy in her heart but she never unlocked the door can you believe how horrible she is hours passed by and I had fallen asleep at some point when I woke up I didn't know what time it was but I could see some light coming through the small basement window was it morning already it wasn't that dark anymore in the basement I took a look around and the space didn't actually look that bad it was more room in the basement than there was in my own room and there was a fridge TV even an Xbox in here quickly I made myself comfortable and I started to organize the place to make it cozier two hours after I heard my mom opening the basement door in shouting time to go to school she must be joking I quickly went up the stairs and said okay mom and when she let go of the door key I quickly snatched it and closed the door shut and I locked it from the inside I am NOT leaving the basement mom this is what you asked for I screamed mom of course started shouting from behind the door claiming she'll ground me forever if I don't leave the basement however I decided to ignore her just like she did the day before and I even turned on loud music for the next couple of days I stayed in the basement and with my newfound freedom I was able to do anything I wanted I watched TV for hours I ate all the candy I wanted and I didn't even go to school the best part of it was mom was no longer on my case about every little grade which meant that I didn't have to worry about any more schoolwork two days later I decided that I was going to school so I got up early locked the basement door after me and I went on my way easy peasy but then the bubble popped first it was my cell phone when I tried to make a phone call it told me that I went over my minutes and cut me off I didn't know what was going on so I went to ask my mom she told me that she dropped my plant all the way down to the minimum coverage plan I was angry but I didn't want her to see it so I just let it go after all I still had my laptop however the hips didn't stop there next it was my grades by spending so much time in the basement my grades dropped to the lowest they had ever been the next time I received my report card I saw a long list of DS and some FS never had my grades dropped that low before it got so bad that I was called into the principal's office the next day she told me that my grades had fallen to a point where it looked like I would have to repeat the grade again next year I was devastated my only hope was to spend the majority of my time studying for the next couple of weeks for makeup exams I hoped that my friends would help me out with my assignments but most of them refused to help a lazy brat Wow okay I guess that my friends not respecting my choices meant that they weren't my friends anymore even when I tried to explain my problems to them and how I needed to get some help with studying they laughed so like that my life started falling apart I was losing my high achievement status at school and my social life became non-existent I curled up on my bed in the basement cold and in the dark crying I heart out I didn't know what to do or who to blame so I did the only thing I could do and that was to blame my mom all of my problems seem to have started from when she sent me down to the basement it may not have been fair to her but at the time I didn't care how fair it was for the next couple of days after coming up with a place for my blame I completely ignored my mom I didn't respond to her when I saw her around the house and I didn't answer her phone calls when she tried to call me as far as I was concerned I was happy to act like she didn't exist about a week later I got called down to the principal's office again I thought they wanted to talk to me about my grades but I was wrong apparently my mom had asked them to send me to counseling because I was having issues I felt my world shatter I was so angry about how she did this behind my back when school was finally over I decided that I was about to let everything out when I got home to my mother but when I got home she wasn't there where was she and on top of that the basement door was damaged what the hell I quickly unlocked her from my contacts and called her I wanted to know what the heck was happening that's when my mom told me that there was an accident and that she had been rushed to the hospital oh my gosh making it to the hospital didn't even register with me when I arrived I rushed to see my mom she looked so tired with dried tears on her face I could feel my heart ache just by looking at her when she saw me coming into the room she welcomed me over with a smile i sat beside her on the bed and held her hand tight it was surreal it felt like a dream or more like a nightmare my mom reached up with her free hand and wiped the tears that I didn't know we're falling from my eyes before I could even ask what was wrong she shook her head softly and told me how sorry she was she had a breakdown not too long ago when she got the diagnosis of her mental illness she was suffering from severe OCD and was showing symptoms of borderline personality disorder she didn't know how to tell me and was ashamed today she had an episode at home where she went into a panic attack and she destroyed the basement door and hurt herself seeing my mom lay there fighting back the tears in her own eyes as she looked up at me I didn't care about anything that had happened previously between us all I wanted to know was who should be okay I didn't want to lose her I thought back to everything that had happened to me after she gave me my space and I realized how horrible everything turned out for me with her no longer in my life my friends weren't really my friends my grades were slipping to a point of no return and life in general just felt hopeless I can't deny the fact that we had our hard times but I love my mom and I wanted her to be okay since then things have changed between us we started counseling to repair our relationship and create a better line of communication between the both of us and I'm happy to say that it's working did you like my story please share your thoughts with me in the comments and don't forget to Like and subscribe to the channel for more

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Length: 10min 2sec (602 seconds)

Published: Mon Nov 04 2019