guy in vr talks about his last girlfriend

if you keep signing off someone from The Fresh Prince of Bel Air's miss you know speed dating it was like that she was like the second person I met and it was like yeah this is good I'm done here we hit it off really well you know same interest in music she loved kids I wanted I was really interested starting family at the time are you not anymore it's it's hard cuz she had a hard time having kids like cuz she's a tried before I feel like every time I think of having kids it reminds you of her so it's hard for me to just move on from that that stuff you know she was a had a job as a substitute teacher she told me about her career and I told her about I was in a landscaping company and trying to move up the ladder I guess you could say it's not just like what we had in common it was I get felt a real connection with her and more so than most of the other girls I met it was a big difference in what I was used to I just loved being around her she was very giggly very uh bubbly I suppose would be the term check cackle to her laughs but I liked it we went to Hyde Park she thought it'd be funny to throw bread around me when I was using my phone and geese started surrounding me like the Canadian geese not the white ones but the evil ones they were eating the bread and I looked down and they were just all around me and she was just laughing her ass off cuz I hate those things and every time I'd walk away they would follow me if I look back they would stop and they can swim so it's like a double turret the only thing they can't do is go to space yet yeah I know more so she just liked to pull pranks on me I always take things like at face value like I don't really think about them too hard if she tells me something I'll believe it and then I'll look like an idiot cuz she was just messing with me she told me something meant in French like it was like a way of saying I love you my dear and I was telling her that the whole time on the street people were looking at me funny of the whole time like babe what did you what did you have me say you've been telling you this whole time I love to eat your ass and subliminal messaging from she always bring up the topic of marriage and just children and stuff like that I always back out of it or try to change the topic and she was get upset if I change the topic I guess she was just worried she'd run out of time she was getting a lot of migraines and I assumed it was from stress she hated being a substitute teacher and I thought like maybe this is hitting her really hard she was on like prescription medication for them just just wake up take pills for to go to bed take pills again like just a lot of medication the migraines got worse and worse we had to cancel dates and stuff like that just because she couldn't leave her house she said she'd go to the hospital for it she went to the hospital and then she's like oh I'm gonna be staying with my parents for a couple months or something and it was like I was at home just at home just doing nothing hoping to get some sort of message from her a call from her you know just waiting for some sort of response and then ended up getting awesomer parents instead she barely begged and he did not let me know that what was going on but they thought it was wrong for not to tell me you know they met me and we talked and they told me the whole story the doctors and the surgeons had a hard time removing the cancerous cells from her spine just cuz it's such a delicate area so she did basically told me she's terminal what do you want to do I'm pretty sure I blacked out from the shock I went to go visit her she was she was extremely thin extremely pale it was it was a really hard sight for me to see first time I saw her I just kneeled down and just held her hand and laid my head beside her I just stay there the whole time I couldn't understand what she was saying most of the time because the cancer had caused her to have several seizures it messed up her speech patterns and a lot of times she was it babbling it was hard to understand her I literally stand outside the hospital waiting for visiting hours to start and I would sometimes beg and plead the doctor so let me stay like an extra 10 minutes or next 250 minutes because like I knew that was like all the time I was gonna have for you know like make the most of it as much as I can they could only hold back the cancerous for so long and I just it's hard knowing I only had so much time of her I always think back what if you know but if I bugged her about the test results what if I asked more questions you know I was always very quiet always kept my distance I didn't want to push and prod her basically she had she was having a really bad seizure and I thought like but I'm just called a nurse for it and they took me out of the room I didn't see what happened but they told me that she hemorrhaged internally and died from I suppose blood loss and brain damage I wasn't there when she passed like even no matter how horrific the sight was I wish I was well I wanted to do is be by her side for as long as I could maybe she was the one and that is it you know I don't get anyone else like that if you could go back in time and do it again would you knowing how much it's for you I would I'd like to relive that even knowing if it would end the same way they would be worth for the hurt I don't want to know I'm scared of falling in love again and having it ripped from me I I can't get into another relationship again if you were able to say something to her now that you didn't before is there anything that comes to mind I would just say I love you I love you and I want you to know that I care for you deeply and I just wanted to hear you say I love you back I'm sorry I that's all

Channel: Syrmor

Views: 2,242,941

Rating: 4.9723239 out of 5

Keywords: syrmor, vrchat, vr, chat, kid in vr talks about living with rare disease, kid in vrchat talks about getting bullied, i took a plane to hangout with vrchat friends, vrchat drama, vrchat bird, vrchat korean, syrmor outro, drama, korean, bird

Id: Ju5ZD0yUKec

Length: 8min 2sec (482 seconds)

Published: Sun Feb 24 2019

Reddit Comments

[u/renatarain]

Man this is heartbreaking

[u/Elbonio]

You can be Winnie the Pooh listening to a skeleton talking deep about his feelings.

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What a time to be alive.

[u/The_Fluffy_Walrus]

He started talking about how he believed everything she said at face value and loon like an idiot later on, then he started talking about how she was "going to live with her parents a few months" and I totally expected her to be cheating on him and running away with another man.

[u/Fjelltake]

Aw this guy is from my city. I wish I could take him out for a beer or something.

[u/Kid_Voldemort]

:'(

[u/Novembernovice]

What is it with these vr chats and people going all emotional.

[u/BurgrMeistr]

oh my god.. I just went through this myself. that last line "I just want to hear her say I love you back" has been exactly what I've been thinking since it happened.

[u/zytz]

“I’m scared of falling in love again and having it ripped from me”

That’s some real fucking talk right there. Source: I’m scared of falling in love again and having it ripped from me.

[u/[deleted]]

Hope this dude's alright :( Grief is a horrible process that feels endless while you're going through it, but there is always light at the end of the tunnel and I hope this guy is able to make it there.