So I'd always like felt a little different and stuff I noticed That when my friends like I always seemed kind of annoying to my friends like a lot and I could never focus I've never really been able to focus It's gotten to the point, of like, tears... where I try to, like, do my math homework or something and I just can't... and I've always been able to make, like, in class if I couldn't focus uh... I've always been, like, very obedient. So, like, the teacher never really looked at me, and noticed me for that stuff cause... ADHD stands for attention deficit hyperactivity disorder. I have ADHD and a thing that comes with that is like bad. Insomnia I've always had insomnia and I probably just make it worse by looking at screens and stuff. I have to take sleeping pills Melatonin so falling asleep is difficult. No matter what it's not really fun You know tuning out and having people think you don't care about what they're saying. It's not it's not fun It's not fun at all. It's like anyone come in it drifts off but that's like it's really hard to keep track so I I can do it sometimes but not always like yeah, I feel like my friends are like if they think I'm annoying and then they invite me places out of pity there was like This bonfire thing that I was invited to and I was really glad that I was invited we were like sitting around and a big circle like I'll forgive us and we were telling Talking about stuff and I was like my turn to talk about right and as I'm talking I realize I'm going on for a little bit longer than everyone else but while I'm talking So I'm like other people they just just they just start talking like across the thing and I was like and then everyone else starts talking and I was like, I wasn't done I was Alright, and then I just kind of stopped talking people scary. I've got like One friend that I can like talk to you about personal issues like she's really nice But if I were to talk about like my other friends they just say like or something like that oh, what the heck You're another version of me I Am like four nine four ten and that's really bad for a fifteen-year-old when I'm walking You'd probably think of me as a 10 year old probably think I was like 10 or 11 and most of my friends now They don't get asked if they need a kid's menu, but I do I know that's not a big thing but it just shows just like Lets me look into the public perception of me like when I just go about my daily life I Had to leave and move to Texas for some family issues, but Back then from I've always had long hair I had really long hair up until like six months ago And when I went into high school I said there's gonna be really mean to me There the kids were just a ruthless like everywhere I went I heard people saying like are you a boy or a girl and they'd call me other things that I don't want to say, but I Remember when I went home that day I just cuz we were living with my cousins. I just ran to the back shed He just cried there for a bit My mom told my uncle about it and he took me to this place called Whataburger, which is really good And basically that while I was there, he basically said it was kind of my fault But that happening for all those kids saying me mean things basically saying, you know if you got it together cool haircut I think that would happen and you know, I mean you do now my hair didn't look the best but I mean I don't really think it was cool to say that I still love my uncle I just I don't know that like Just say that like kids are gonna be mean sometimes and you know this Things will get better lunch was the worst part, you know people from across the cafeteria like hey guy or a girl and you know, Stuff like that and like felt like the entire classic. Sorry. I was looking at me. Maybe you should join that verse like, okay You know, I might you know Talking about us. Yeah My mom's ex-boyfriend died on a motorcycle I know his I know his dad cuz my mom still talk to him. He's like sort of like a dad to my mom And he thought her like my grandfather even though he's not This one kid in particular I forgot his name what he was a senior He's like what's up brushy, and he wanted to give me a hand kick. I didn't know what to do. Alright So he gave me a handshake and he just like squeezed my hand into oblivion I would gently thought my hand is going to break I could see him actually struggling to squeeze my hand like I could see his like A skinning Freddy. He was legitimately trying to like like my hand. I think my hand hurts so bad. I almost cried and I like this one girl like her Like a couple months and then later I find out that she liked me for like a week I was like, so that's a win in my look. I'm just gonna be happy that Somebody actually liked me once I'm really self-conscious about my height and my voice There's like this, you know, this does not sound like a 15 year olds voice He's like a sex symbol I think you have a legal case against CBS cuz I think I feel like they're using elements of your life story on their hit show young Sheldon like I try to Be funny sometimes and I feel like if I'm not funny then what's the purpose of like knowing me? I can a lot of times my jokes. They're not funny at all. Like my jokes. Absolutely suck Well, it's a joke That's captured germination they'd like it They all laughed and looked at me and I was just like I'm not gonna deal with this anymore I'm not gonna deal with the constant kids at my school being mean to me and everyone in general, you know Ever since I got there he wanted to be homeschooled because we had always kind of thought about home school and then eventually one day were just like let's do it and then I was Set on it and then a week later. No, I don't want to do home school for definitely not and then a week later Yes, I do want to do my school and you really just went back and forth until one day a month. Yep I want to do home school I know my brains gonna say no you don't but I'm just gonna stick with this answer because I Rationalized it and then my mom called said to pull me out of school. The principal was like no, he's not gonna do that We'll talk about it tomorrow and she's I killed he was not gonna be there tomorrow. It's his first day of home school and yeah, I didn't I've never heard from that principal again, and I kind of feel bad because he was Just a nice principal aren't you worried that you're gonna miss out on learn important life experiences from being homeschooled. I Did press my mind that you know VR is a way to escape, you know Like I can be a frog try me it was literally my childhood here when I was like six. I for two hours I got pieces of paper and built a fully functioning climate puppet that I loved and I made two more out of cloth Just reminds me of like me when I was like younger happier I don't know early white because I've always liked puppets and stuff like that and I was younger I wanted to be a puppeteer I got an old YouTube channel me with my puppets. There's a picture of me sitting around all my puppets I think I think I just really like Kermit, you know I can make I can make friends in VR and they won't You might treat me a bit differently based on my voice But they won't treat me differently based on my height based on the way. I look It's really I'd say closest form of Anonymity that isn't anonymous you could get like people still know you. Kid's don't know what Ilook like. . All right look like for all they know I am a Swashbuckling bachelor, you know Only eight even thinks list You could tell everyone in the world one thing what would it be If somebody hates you, stab them with an asbestos covered knife and take out their knee caps! Okay that was... No wonder people don't like him very much.. (RUDE)
This is the least annoying 15-year-old kid I've ever encountered. I'd be his friend.
“I feel like if I’m not funny, what’s the point of even knowing me?”
Oh dude. I relate to that so much.
I wish I could VR chat and meet people like him. Kid seems like a genuinely nice dude. It really sucks he gets treated poorly or he feels bummed out about things because he's really quite eloquent for a 15-year-old and really seems solid. I hope things turn around for him.
The ending really surprised me but it was a beautiful way to finish.
-Dawabvle
I know it seems weird but this game is incredibly important for these reasons, I've seen some people really open up and talking about stuff really helps
VR chat seems really amazing. I see so many insightful videos of the most random people connecting unabashed. Times sure are changing quickly. I know it's not 100% necessary for vr chat but I can't wait to get a VR headset.
Damn, shit got real, but with Kermit talking it was a bit surreal.
Thanks for all the kind words guys :D