Giving My Testimony of Salvation

i was actually born a poor white boy that's you know they say that doesn't exist but it does i remember as a kid we couldn't afford milk so we'd eat grape nuts with apple juice never eat cereal with apple juice well you get used to it after a while it ain't that great so i was born in july of 1974 and i was born again in july of 1992 so i have two birthdays in the same month i thank god for that that's right and thank god for my father that led me to the lord and i'm gonna give him a testimony and like brother said sometimes people are confused you know there's a lot of people out there who think they're safe and they're not that was my testimony i thought for many years i was a christian and i wasn't this is bob jones senior this is a message he preached in 1946 and he said i quote and i tell you frankly after having preached the gospel in most of the states of the union i do not believe 50 of church members are really christians i don't believe 50 of people that claim to be saved are really safe why would he say that well because in churches there's a lot of lost people the reason is a lot of folks aren't preaching the gospel right that's a shame right and i was in church most of my life if not all of my life all right and let me read isaiah 64 6 real quick but we are all as an unclean thing and all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags and we all do fade as a leaf and our iniquities like the wind have taken us away you know we like to think of ourselves as good people don't we but god looks at us and all he sees is unclean filthy awful thing and that's what we are until we're saved so i was born and raised in milton florida and mom and dad would go to church sometimes and sometimes they go to a pentecostal church sometimes they go to a baptist church sometimes they go to peter s ruckman's church and my mom didn't like that she liked the pentecostal dad didn't like that he liked the more extreme ruckman so a lot of times they compromise and do the middle thing and they both go to a liberal southern baptist church so i was very confused as a kid i can honestly say i never heard the gospel one time in all that time in a church not even at rutgers i don't know why i went to his sunday school for kids and things like that why was i never taught the gospel why was i never preached how to be saved why was i not that important that nobody wanted to tell me how to get to heaven and so when i was little i remember i was about five years old sitting in the kitchen and i'm sitting there eating my cereal grape nuts with apple juice and i started crying and my mom says what's wrong and the thought came in my head that one day i'm gonna die and i'm gonna cease to exist and that just bothered me just knowing that i wouldn't exist anymore and my mom says well you need to ask jesus in your heart now i can honestly say i didn't know who jesus was i heard his name in the churches we went to i thought he sat in the back view back there somewhere that's what i thought so i said oh jesus wherever you are come into my heart was i saying i was five years old you know there's nowhere in the bible does it say ask jesus in your heart that's not there i really don't like that term because that's not salvation but as i got older i began to ask how to be saved and i remember when i was young my dad would give me some chick tracts and say read these chick tracts so i'd read the chick tracts and at the end of the chick track it says now pray this prayer after me and so i pray that prayer and i prayed that prayer every night from age 13 to age 18. how many prayers would that be you know which one saved me none of them because my thought in my mind was the prayer itself saved me so i had to do that prayer and people say are you a christian i go yeah and they say are you sure i go no so i'd say the prayer over again just to be sure do you see how i was trusting in what i did right and not what god did for me i was just confused thinking that that's what saved me so i did it over and over and over and over and over and over again my mom and dad got divorced when i was 14 and i had to go and live in oklahoma for four years with my mom and i went to the assembly of god church four years i was in the assembly of god church and do you think they taught me the gospel not one time they told me you have to ask jesus in your heart and repeat the real prayer and speak in tongues and don't sin or you'll lose it and do this and do and i had a works gospel i honestly thought that if i did what they told me to do but every night i'd cry my eyes out before i went to sleep saying please god don't let me wake up in hell because i didn't have the true gospel of salvation i didn't know how to be saved but one time in a summer camp they they said hey um you want to you want to receive the holy spirit i said yeah so they all held hands and they prayed and they said say these words lord world over tribal wrote so i said brother sir like they said and they said oh you've got it you've got it and thai bow tie and all that stuff and they tried to convince me that that was the holy spirit and i would go to the to the youth meetings at that church and see these kids on sundays and i knew on saturday night they were out fornicating and living like the devil and getting drunk i'm thinking how can they be saved on friday and saturday night and now they're saved on sunday what did they lose it and get it back and lose it and get it back and i saw all these things and i said there's something wrong with this this isn't the way to heaven this is religion there's something wrong here but i couldn't understand all i wanted was to come back home so when i turned 18 years old i sold everything i had and two weeks later i came back home and my mom had warned me she said watch out for your dad because he's one of those rough midnight people and she said watch out for him because that ruckman guy he's too legalistic and he's all about the bible you got to watch out your dad's in a cult so i come back home and two weeks later my dad says come here son i want to talk to you and i thought uh oh here comes here's the cult man trying to get me in his colts now let me tell you my dad's testimony first my dad went to pbi but he didn't graduate my man with the pbi he was going through the same thing that i was going through and i didn't know it my dad was lost he'd been an episcopalian he'd been done something to sprinkle two or something as a catholic he he did all these things and he did everything they told him to do but he didn't know if he was saved or not and he went to ruckmas and he was in bible school and every night he cried he said god i don't want to go to hell i think i'm saying but i'm not sure and every time he'd ask him they say well just repeat this prayer after me if it didn't work the first time i didn't work the second or third so one day he's in bible class and rotman goes where's that guy that has a health food store my dad had a health food store down i know it's not davis is it davis highway the first one's in pace and the other one was over there where that pizza place is um right there next year where olive garden is the pizza place he used to have that that's the one i remember as a kid but the other one was over by you're saying on pace i never saw that one interrupting goes that's a shaved man that owns that health food school and my dad goes i must be safe because rockman said so good representative he literally thought i'm going to have him because he said but he wasn't saved right it wasn't until my mom left that he was left alone that he spent time in the word and prayer and then he finally got saved and it was from the word that he got from reading the bible so here we go to where i come home and two weeks later my dad sits me down on the kitchen counter and he says now son i gotta ask you something so sorry to say and i thought oh boy here we go i said yeah i'm saved and my dad said why are you saved i said because i've been in church my whole life and he goes here show me the bible where it says going to church and he went and he showed me some verses and then he said now son are you saved and i said well yeah of course i'm a save dad because um uh because i was baptized so let me show you a bible verse son he took me over to first corinthians you know god sent me not to baptize or preach the gospel and that's what saves us is the preaching of the gospel not the water baptism so why are you trusting in that and i said well he said are you saved i go well uh um uh you know i'm trying to search pranks or well i'm a good person because let me show you some bible verses son he flips over to romans chapter three there's none good no not one all of sin everything that i'm trying to tell him he's taken away from me with the scripture it's making me mad he said so are you saved i said well i spoke in tongues yeah he goes let me show you some bible verses son and he goes to first corinthians chapter 14. and he showed me that whole chapter he showed me and i was like shocked because it says the women aren't supposed to do that and the churches i was in it was only women doing that my dad said that's not salvation son that's a written spoken language what language did you speak in and i said uh none of them matter of fact he showed me romans eight i believe it's verse 26 where it says the holy spirit making groanings to god that cannot be others what are these pentecostals doing saying we're speaking to god in the holy spirit's making hundreds of god for us and the bible says no that can't be others they're doing the exact opposite of what the bible says aren't they and so my dad said well are you safe son and i go oh well i said i don't know he said would you like to know i said yeah so he took me to first corinthians chapter 15 verse one through four let's go there first corinthians chapter 15 this is the first time in my life i'd ever heard the gospel in first corinthians chapter 15 verse 4 says moreover brother and i declare unto you the gospel which i preached to you which also you received and where you stand you got to stand in this i was standing in all the things that i did i was trusting in what i did thinking i deserved heaven because i did this and this but all my righteousness was this filthy rags i didn't see it as such i thought i was a good person by which also you're saved verse two if you keep remembering what i preached to you unless you believed in vain believing in vain is bleeding from the head not from the heart or you can say vanity it's trusting in something you did instead of what the gospel is because the gospel is all that jesus did for you not what you do to get to heaven what he did so that you can go to heaven amen verse three and four for i deliver unto you first of all that which i also receive now look at this word how you ever seen that word before how that christ died for our sins do you know it's not just that jesus died was bearing rose again the gospel is how he died in hebrews 9 22 it says without the shedding of blood there's no remission of sins jesus christ had to shed his blood and all my life i got a bloodless gospel from all the churches to my dad told me years later he said i heard that word the first time for peter ruckman and he was talking about the bloodless gospel watch out for the bloodless gospel and so my dad explained to me here look how christ died for our sins he shed his blood for your sins according to the scriptures and it says twice according to the scriptures because in the old testament they had to sacrifice an animal and shed its blood and there was no forgiveness without that blood and then my dad said now jesus is over here on this side now he has shed his blood and it's the blood that forgives of sins and it says how that christ died for our sins according to the scriptures that he was buried that he rose again the third day according to the scripture so my dad was going through and he's giving me all these different verses in the bible and i'm just soaking it in and looking at it just going wow how come no one's ever shown me this before how could i be 18 years old and no one ever showed this to me and i was actually kind of mad because you're sitting in church you should have heard this right but i wasn't getting this then my dad turns over to romans chapter three and he goes let's go to romans chapter three and let's read here and he starts reading there in verse 22. now of course he showed me that it's not of works he said are you saved i said i think so because i do good work so let me show you this verse you went to ephesians 2 8 9 for by grace you saved through faith and that not of yourselves it is the gift of god not of works lest any means should boast so he said son it's through faith that we're saved romans 3 22 even the righteousness of god see my righteousness is filthy racks i can't get to heaven on my righteousness i need god's righteousness even the righteousness of god which is by faith of jesus christ unto all and upon all them that believe for there is no difference salvation is by believing through faith for all of sinning comes short of the glory of god this guy too being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in christ jesus so we're redeemed through christ it means what through his blood then my dad goes to verse 25 and he says son now i want you to read this so he gave me the bible and i start reading and i read whom god set forth to be a propitiation and my dad said stop right there let me explain it to you son you listen to michael so my dad says what does that mean propitiation i said uh i'll go get the dictionary you know there's a lot of big words in the bible sometimes we don't use every day that we don't understand right and my dad says no no no don't go get the dictionary let me explain it to you like this a propitiation is like a substitute yes now i know it literally means the act of appeasing wrath but my dad says it's like a substitute he said son let's say you went to mcdonald's and you killed five people in cold blood with a knife or a gun or something and you're a horrible murderer i said oh i never do that he says what if you did he said do you deserve to go to jail i said yeah i deserve to go to jail if i did something that awful he said do you deserve to die i said yeah yeah i do i deserve to die if i took the lives of five other people i even deserve that my dad says well you know here in florida they do the electric chair my dad said what if you got before the judge and he declared you guilty and they said you know in so many days you go to the electorate chair and they sit you down the electric chair and they're just about to flip the switch and you're all tied in there and my dad says what if i came in and said let him go i'll take his place and i went you do that for me dad and my dad said no he said but son that's what jesus did for you right and instead of the electric chair it was the cross and he looked at you and he saw you guilty deserving hell and he said hey i'll take your place and he came up here and he died in my place for my saints when i saw that my eyes got big that was the first time i really understood i was like what how come no one ever explained that to me i thought it's what i did that got me to heaven no he took my place yes and then my dad said i'll read the rest of the verse so romans 3 25 says whom god set forth to be a propitiation through faith in his blood see salvation is by faith faith in what what did he do he shed his blood yes he did so that day it was like a light bulb went off in my head and i went that's it my dad goes that's what that's what i've been looking for my whole life salvation my dad said now son i've asked you many times let me ask you now when did you get saved i said right now and he kind of was shocked because what do you what do you mean i said now i understand what he did and what the gospel is with all my heart i trust the blood for salvation amen and that's what i needed is to see that because salvation is not what we do right it's trusting in what he did for us i didn't even say a prayer i just believed in my heart now i'm not against prayer i've seen people get saved while they pray but it's not the prayer that saves you right right see i was trusting in my prayer all those years instead of trusting in the propitiation you know and that's where i got it wrong because i thought it was what i did and i was begging god and pleading and asking god oh god please save me oh god and god's like what more can i do just come to me and try and someone had to open the veil of my eyes and help me to understand that i was being my own sacrifice i was trying to do it my way and save myself based upon what i did and that's not how we're saved michael it's not what we do that gets us to heaven we have to accept what jesus did amen and when you trust in what he did for you you're saying you know what i'm no good you're everything and i just throw myself down at you because i can't get to heaven in my righteousness it's filthy you have to clean me and so i trust your blood for forgiveness of my sins and my dad said read the rest of the verse whom god has set forth to be a pro-appreciation through faith in his blood to declare his righteousness for the remission of sins that are passed through the forbearance of god to declare i say at this time his righteousness i looked at myself and i said all these years i thought i was righteous and i deserve heaven that's why i wore my suspenders by the way so i could do this because i deserve heaven because i'm such a good person and i was a hell-bound sinner because god looked at me and all he saw was filthy nasty disgusting but when i saw what jesus did for me i was like i'm unrighteous he's the righteous one yes amen and by faith i declare him righteous and i trust in what he did for me to declare i say at this time his righteousness that he might be just and the justifier of him which believeth in jesus see when you trust in what he did for you you're giving up what you did that's right there's not one drop of my own self-righteousness that i'm holding on to i can't because i see that it's not worth it i'm trusting solely and completely in the blood and righteousness of my savior jesus christ where is boasting then it is excluded my dad asked me are you saying that i was boasting in myself well yes because all i did is you know what i don't boast anymore i can't boast on that's right it's not about me i'm the one that messed up he's the one that saved me it's all about him and what he did whereas boasting then is excluded by what law of works name by the law of faith now look at verse 28 therefore we conclude that a man is justified by faith without the deeds of the law now look at that word justified the first four letters of that word is right what's it say just move it over to letters what's it say if then move it over the rest what's it say do you know what salvation is it's forgiveness of all your sins it's just if i never sinned that's right because god forgives me of all my sins amen and it's not because i did something to get myself to heaven it's because of what he did for me and when you see that when you understand that and you come to him and you see that you're a sinner and you realize you're lost then you realize hey the only way to be saved is to trust what he did yes sir you give up your own self-righteousness and you trust in the blood atonement of christ amen so i got saved there's a lot more to it let me um go ahead and just say this because i'm here amen so i got saved and i started to tell people i actually drove back to oklahoma and told all those people in the pentecostal church they thought i was nuts i gave them the true gospel salvation they made fun of me and ridiculed me and put me down so i came back and i started to preach on the street corner i started to live for the lord i wanted to share with people this message of salvation through faith in the blood of christ my dad told me his testimony and how he didn't hear it that didn't mean they weren't preaching it for some reason he just didn't hear it but he says now after he got saved he would remember they would preach faith in the blood and he would take me to churches after i got saved and i would hear the pastor say put your faith in the blood of jesus faith in the blood then five years then 10 years and 15 years go by and i didn't hear it as much as i used to right and my dad used to say son how come how come they're not preaching what they used to rockman was the one that said don't preach the bloodless gospel and my dad said man i love that saying from ruckman the bloodless gospel and so my dad said son what you really need to do is you need to go to the pensacola bible institute well at that time i was at the university of west florida and i was there for a whole year i said this is not for me this is not what god wants in my i don't want to be around these people i'm so oh so vexing in my spirit so i took off a year and then the next year i rolled at pensacola bible institute and my dad said son go there learn the bible sit in the back pew keep your mouth shut and then leave and that was a warning that my dad gave me and i just i always wondered why another man gave me the same morning he said brother sit in the back pew keep your mouth shut and if you're going to stay in this church and go out as a missionary you just keep your mouth shut and that's what i did i did my best to do that and while i was in school there i began to see some things that bothered me a little bit and i didn't even know this until years later but um my dad he sent a letter to dr ruckman and at that church guess what happened the houseism got into that shirt yeah if you don't know who jack hiles is jack hiles is a mess yes he was a baptist preacher who was trained by john r rice and john rice said before he died i made a mess i made a monster out of pious and hiles is the guy that started what they call the romans road now you know what there's some great verses in the book of romans but not one of them or the ones i gave you today he just goes one two three repeat after me that's the hiles road one two three repeat this prayer and if they've whittled the gospel they don't give the gospel they whittle it down to one through three repeat after me well where's repentance right repentance is a change of mind change of heart it's turning from one thing to another from trusting your righteousness to trust in christ righteous with the heils method you just get a person to repeat after you and then you tell them they're saved and i've seen a lot of people get deceived like i was and they don't know if they're saved and so they said well i'll do the prayer all over again and then and they do it all over and over so i have my prayer letter every two months i send out my prayer letter i'm going to leave it up here for you i want you to get this before you leave and from preaching online all the time i get so many people sending me their testimony and they're like man thank you for sharing because man mine's just like yours i never heard the truth they told me just repeat the prayer and you're safe but i never knew if i was sick but when you preached on the blood just opened my eyes and i realized i've been trusting in what i did my baptism my church attendance but now i trust the boys and i'm just glad to hear people getting the message but what's sad is i noticed that i don't want to put down the church that i used to go to in the bible school but a lot of that heilsism got in there i'm not the kind of guy that backs down if i see something i say something okay my wife says i have no filter well i'm sorry i just can't if i see it's wrong i say something but i try to do it in love amen but it just comes out of me i can't stop it if you're doing wrong i'm gonna say something okay that's the way it should be well my dad back in 1993 so i got saved in 92 and i didn't go to bible school until 95 and i graduated in 98 and yes i did graduate from the pensacola violence team okay there are people out there live say i didn't you come to my house someday and see my diploma if you want to see it i mean i don't know why people lie but my dad sent a letter to ruckman and said ruckman you're the guy that used to preach on don't preach the bloodless gospel how come a lot of the graduates in your school go around and tell people just ask jesus in your heart or to repeat this prayer for me or just why aren't they preaching the blood like you taught me right and this is the response letter from ruckman to my dad and you can have that if you want to read it okay you can have a copy of that i brought them with me ruckman used to preach the blood atonement of christ for salvation and he says it here real well a lot of people nowadays what they'll do is they'll preach romans 10 13 instead of the rest of romans chapter 3 in chapter 10 let's go to romans 10 13. it says for whosoever shall call upon the name lord shall be saved okay i'm up on the roof and i'm a lost carpenter and i just hit my finger with the hammer oh jesus did i just be saved yeah but i called upon the name of the lord didn't i but i did it in vain so when it says whosoever shall call the name lord shall be saved what is the context is the context just with your mouth well the bible says the heart romans chapter 10 verse 9 but if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the lord jesus well if that's all you do are you saved no because it continues and shalt believe in thine heart that god hath raised him from the dead thou shalt be saved for with the heart man believeth unto what so it's a heart belief there's something you have to believe in from the heart to be saved that's the blood of christ romans 10 verse 17 says so then faith comes by hearing hearing by the word of god it's very easy to get someone to repeat a prayer especially children my wife's testimony is similar to mine when we were five years old we were instructed just repeat this prayer after me and ask jesus in your heart and that's when we got damned i hate to say it that way but that's when we were deceived into thinking we were safe when we worked because we just did something with the mouth but we weren't trusting in what we're supposed to be trusting in from the heart so when i talk like this you know what they say about me well one guy said robert breaker preaches too hard on the blood of jesus that's why he's a heretic wow isn't that a confession that they don't that's right and i'm not trying to put him down but i'm trying to tell you the bible says in the last days there will be apostasy your apostasy is falling away that's right and i've been to over 200 churches preaching and every time i get up in a church to preach i like to ask this who can tell me here where the gospel is in the bible about 12 times has someone raised their hand and said first corinthians 15 1-4 the rest of the time they're just looking at me like a tree full out i said anybody except the past or not but sometimes i'd ask the pastor you know but i said all right then let's learn that because then the bible say preach the gospel well how do you preach something you've never even heard you know here it is they come by hearing by the word of god you don't even know what it is how are you gonna preach if you don't know what it is so i try to inform people tell people i see a lot of people not preaching hard enough on the blood right in the gospel so i want to do that well so toward the end there i go to honduras as a missionary and come back and laura and i get married and then laura's with me on the mission field and she wakes me up one night in the middle of the night said honey i just got saved she'd been an independent baptist church a lot of her life and she hadn't been taught the gospel she was holding on to something she did as a kid our own self-righteousness and god showed her there were some gospel tracts from someone else that she read there were some bible verses a couple of preachings of mine but not a lot of them and she realized you know i'm not trusting the blood alone i'm adding my own righteousness and so she got saved on the mission field with me well i thought people would like to hear about it in a prayer letter so i had her write up her testimony and we sent it over 200 churches now let me tell you this quickly i don't want to go too long right while i was in bible school there was a guy that showed up there in bible school and he sat in front of me in church he had long curly hair and a biker jacket not that it's wrong to ride a motorcycle where it's ready there's nothing wrong with riding a motorcycle but this guy showed up and he said he was a satanist that just got saved he said uh so i said well let's you know tell me about it and he said well i just crawled up in a tree and i said i don't want to be a sickness anymore oh god say be amen i said is that all tell me anymore any bible did you know i never read the bible i just did that and now i claim to be a christian i said well it shows me that you want to be saved do you want to be a christian but what about the gospel what's that what about so i said maybe you need to uh to read some more and study some more and see if you're saved or not because if that's all where's the faith from the heart and so he started arguing with me at school and he said with the mouth confessions made of salvation i said yeah but with the heart man he didn't like that part he liked the fact that he did something with his mouth but he didn't matter fact go to matthew 15 with me actually yeah 15 8. you know what the problem was with the pharisees they came to god with their mouth but not with their heart right you know what i mean matthew 15 8 what does it say matthew 15 and verse 8 says this people draw nine to me with their mouth and honors me with their lips but their heart is far from the frog salvation is through the faith in the heart not just saying something with the mouth a lot of people are christians in mouth only they're not trusting from the heart so this guy was there we talked for a little while i said why don't i buy you some dinner i took him out to the awful waffle the waffle house i said what's this all about he says well these are his words if what you're preaching is true i'm still lost and i don't want to think that way i said well i don't want you to be lost if all you did was with your mouth say something but you haven't trusted with your heart you are lost let me show you and i took him through the scriptures like my dad took me through the scriptures so why do you think you're saved why do you think showed him romans 3 25. he's like that's it i see it now he says i was lost i'm trusting only in the lord attorney christ lost man in church i want to make sure that i tell people put your faith in the blood of jesus so question are you saved second corinthians 13 5 says examine yourselves to see whether you be in the faith and let me close with this my dad would do this and i noticed my dad when he would witness to people he would say let me ask you a question if you were to die right now and stand i'm all the eyeball with jesus christ and he should ask you why should i let you into heaven how would you answer a lot of people would go wow oh stand before god and he asked me why should i let you know and then and then you go well i and my dad goes wrong answer and they go what do you mean but but i at wrong answer i mean he wouldn't let him talk if they said but i my dad says wrong answer i always thought that was so funny and then they go but but and he goes okay tell me what you're going to say well because i was baptized wrong answer oh because i go to church no wrong answer well i repeated the prayer well if you believe from the heart then you're saying but how do i know that if you're trusting in the repeating where was the repentance if you will you know where's the so my dad would say uh no wrong answer if they gave the wrong answer and they'd get mad at my dad they said well what would you say my dad would say just three words lord the blood i don't deserve heaven the only thing getting me here is the blood that washed my sins away so it's not i it's the blood it's jesus so do you see salvation it's not what we do or have done to get us saved or to keep us safe are you trusting in the blood atonement of christ what he did to satan do you still doubt it when you're saved you should know you're saved big savings like two things in the bible like being married and like being born i've never met somebody goes you know brother don't tell anybody this but i don't know if i've ever been born or not i don't know if i'm really here i doubt if i exist that just sounds weird doesn't it but salvation is being born again and i've never met somebody that says you know what i don't remember i don't even i don't know if i'm married or not all right well when you wake up in the morning turn over to bed and see if somebody's there you know if you are you're i mean these are two things that you don't know so salvation is supposed to be a no so salvation right and for years i lived thinking i was saved but not knowing and just crossing my fingers and saying oh i hope i'm going to heaven and i was trusting in all the things that i did but i wasn't trusting in what he did for me right so when i give my testimony i try to make it all about trust what jesus did that's right and now it's up to you to look at your heart and see what are you trusting in to get you to heaven are you trusting in something you did or said are you trusting in what jesus did all right i guess i'm done you

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