BEST SPEECH EVER - David Goggins On The lazy Overcoming Loser Mindset - Motivational Videos 2019

that kid who was in the fetal position I can't even explain it's the moments of three hell weeks in that room by myself studying for hours hours existent moments that was like boom like the real brawl but I gotta grind myself into a [ __ ] fine power myself so hard that I turn a person this [ __ ] up 44 degrees and it's nice and rainy outside but no more curious about that I believe that most human beings are only living at about 40% of their capability so the mind has a governor like a car if you're driving a car and the car has a governor on it the car may say hundred thirty miles an hour but the governor set 491 once that governor sets in you get the 91 that car starts doing this the car wants to go the car wants to go but that [ __ ] factory said uh we're not going past 91 we have a factory a nice governor in our brain and it's a survival mechanism it protects us from pain and suffering the second we fill that [ __ ] our mind says no no this isn't fun we should back off we should sit down find something more comfortable and there's some about the mind the mind has the tactical advantage over you at all times at all times of your life the mind has a tactical advantage over you why is that it knows what you're afraid of it knows your insecurities it knows your deep dark lies and it starts to push you away from that [ __ ] it pushes you in a direction that is comfortable the mind controls everything so what I realized was that when I was growing up and I was 300 pounds and I got all fat and I got all insecure I realized that my mind kept taking me in this direction when things got uncomfortable for me when I was facing my insecurities I was facing my fears my mind said oh no we have a tactical advantage we just get you separate you from this feeling this feeling of your life's all about feelings we want the happy feeling we don't want that feeling if this sucks why am I here and you don't have any choice oh you can't answer those questions so you leave I started realizing that if in that moment you can answer those [ __ ] up questions and you are now in charge of your brain versus your brain ruling you that's where all that stuff comes from so the 40% rule is all of that you get to 40% your brain says we're done let's roll man this is going to get painful this is uncomfortable so you sit down you have to figure out ways and everybody's different that's how the book kind of talks about like we all have these things about you know five steps to this and in four steps to this it's it's not more than that that's all [ __ ] it's it's a practice that you have to it's a habit so if you know that 40 percent I'm still you know I'm feeling pain at 40 percent I'm feeling pain that's where the 40 percent rule kicks in now it starts okay I'm feeling pain my mind saying all this [ __ ] to me it's saying get out of here run flee the fight-or-flight kicks in okay we're done we're not good enough it starts telling you all these things you start to believe it because the mind controls all this is the time we have to gain control back of your mind it's okay let me see if I can go 45 percent and once you start giving yourself more and more hope and start realizing okay the mind starts to be okay what are you doing we're supposed to be going right and you're going left you start then controlling your mind start finding more in you know in yourself and it goes from 40 percents a lot further than that but that's the start of it though get to get to the spot where your mind is saying stop wherever that is get there first and then that's when that [ __ ] starts to work for you you got to control yourself in that moment a lot of people can live with themselves that's the first day a lot of people can live with themselves look in the mirror and say I'm okay with being afraid I'm okay with going on this easy highway over here the easy highway has all these [ __ ] signs and [ __ ] directions how to get somewhere and you have to first be uncomfortable with how you feel about yourself with that voice that allow most like to run away from we all have it we all have that voice and say hey man you know you're your kind of wimping out right now you're kind of being a little punk right now but I would say okay that's okay it's okay to tell you the white lies to ourselves so we first have to face the real you the real me is David Goggins the real me is a guy looking at you right now saying I don't want to [ __ ] be on this show right now because I used to stutter as a kid and I'm afraid of that I'm afraid that here in a second I'm gonna start [ __ ] stammering a stutter and in the whole world is gonna know that I have all these issues but that's when I see right now okay Goggins you got to go on this [ __ ] show that's Goggins Goggins is saying okay David Goggins you're a punk life made you this way we can't live like this we can't live in fear we can't live in judgment we can't be afraid of what the [ __ ] people right now looking at me saying about me we cannot be afraid of that that's Goggins Goggins saying [ __ ] all of you who don't like me who don't want to in that person then it comes in but you have to be David Goggin to say man I'm afraid of this I'm [ __ ] up here life made me this way here I stutter I have these issues with with reading and writing and I'm fat and I'm insecure you have to face that in that dark room in that darkroom is who you are but in that darkroom is where you have to create another human being that walks out of that dark room to face who you are that's the only way you're gonna get over all those things you have to create someone else not make you have two different personalities it is you but you have to find strength in that visualization of almost me cracking out Goggins like almost like that Superman cape like like I'm coming out a different person the person that doesn't give a [ __ ] about anything he doesn't care about being judged who knows I'm weak who knows I'm afraid who says whatever you think about me take it whatever I'm here that's God in the dark room you face yourself you realize you want to be better you realize you don't want to be this weak insecure person in the world he has all these problems that we all have we all have souls to me is a great platform to tell you who we want to be now who we are so that's where that dark room is a lot of people say that nothing's impossible [ __ ] I even said that nothing's impossible several times in my life I lied there's a lot of things that are impossible for you - what happens is when we come across something that's very hard and we try it once or maybe twice we then say we're done we can't do it anymore before you say something's impossible do it and do it and do it to a level that people think that you might be [ __ ] crazy until you say it's impossible I'm tied up hands and feet I [ __ ] hate the water I sink like a [ __ ] rock but this is the one thing that almost stopped me from feeling my dreams so my book I talk about a lot is my junior year in high school and I fell back a lot I fell back in this [ __ ] hole of life the second you think that you've overcome it you climbed Everest you're on that last hole in life for Sam not today [ __ ] you know push you down and my junior in high school I missed a whole bunch of school was lying my mom had like a 1 point something GPA I was just jacked up I mean it was I was in one of the worst parts of my life and my mom was going through a lot of [ __ ] too and shouldn't have time to sit back and baby me and it was me against me my pants were down to my knees I was just I was not whatever was going on I was in a bad shape so I went to the bathroom and I had this weird haircut because I wanted attention I was an attention getter I went to all-white school pretty much some of the kids like me allowed and didn't like me whatever then it [ __ ] matter I was looking for something so I dressed differently crazy haircuts and I went to the mirror and the reflection and it revealed a lot of bad things a lot of things that I was hiding behind the saggy pants and I'm looking at myself in the mirror going like God dog dude you got you are something else man like you have created a character I want to be the cool guy table and whatever I could do to get attention I did it wasn't me it wasn't who I was inside but I was scared for anybody to know who I was inside so in that kind of ability mirror I call it I got real myself I said you have a third grade reading level which is hard to admit when you're a junior in high school that you copied on every single thing you did because a fear they're gonna put me in a special school we all know what special needs I don't have a title on myself the rest of my life and being cool you don't have a title on yourself so I started cheating I was dumb and people say oh you know you learn disability I don't learn this to believe I realized I was lazy so I called myself out there I called myself out every which way possible I called myself I was as honest I was honest look at yourself man look at yourself and it was that day in a couple of days after that I just got real myself and every day I came home I called the accountability mirror what am I gonna do today to change what I see in this mirror what am I gonna do today and a lot of it was I stopped sitting with the cool guys I actually took my shoulder in with the school looking like a man this I'm gonna look if you don't like it so be it I hadn't really wear this this this layer of skin I had to develop a really callous skin on me there to take whatever you're gonna call me you're gonna call me whatever I'm gonna be I want a geek but whoever I am you're gonna see me you're gonna see me for who I am because I need to change who I'm not and that accountability member just became wrong and I became fat over the years guy fell back in the hole I called myself fat because I was fat and people don't want to do that they want to say oh don't call yourself fat don't call yourself dumb if you're not real and wrong with who the [ __ ] you are nothing's gonna change in this nice new world that we live in we want to hear you're just a little big no man you might be fat and it's okay to hear that from yourself infirmary bells so that's where I started at and its raw it gets ugly sometimes with me in that mirror but I'm also proud of myself to be able to tell myself that and then fix what's in that mirror so the first thing about it is once you realize it and you have to realize you got to call yourself but dressing it is very small it's like it doesn't go from like one morning on this way next when I wake up and presto the you know five steps to greatness no it ain't that brother you read my book this is hard work as every day like right now I had to be honest with you man I'm even shaking right now being on this show I'm a big time introvert how you address it is you face it you face it every day you face it every single day of your life where you say okay like if you're fat knees lose weight it's patience it's patience in this fact of accepting who you are right now I'm fat I don't like myself accepting the fact if you lose 3 or 4 pounds that's a huge accomplishment you have to live in your own [ __ ] world you cannot judge yourself that's why social to me no I think is a horrible you can't judge yourself off of the so-called competition that we have made up in our mind the things that how people look how people act awesome or someone is this is a race that you run completely alone and you're all by yourself I have tons of sticky notes all over my mirror it wouldn't like be better than John or be as fast as whoever okay David yesterday you did this today our next goal for the week is this so I had a year goal weekly goals daily goals hourly goals and the big was I lied a lot growing up I wanted to be accepted one goal was let's go one day without lying let's go one day even in when I would lie to somebody I would say hey man now go had to go back now and apologize a man I lied to you know hard it is to go back somebody say I lied to you hey may know it back there I lied to you dude I that was really jacked up so I figured out these ways of total total accountability like right now I had to run this morning before I talked to you cuz why that's one about I'm about mine mad body fitness a lot of folks talk so much [ __ ] about hey I'm gonna change your life I'm gonna do something to do that are you accountable for what you're doing are you accountable now I mean to the tee for what you're saying I am and that's where it started started with that total total accountability of that's not lie today let's tell people the truth about who you are and where you can get on and tell us someone like I'm doing right now exactly how [ __ ] up you are that's the goal in life to put your life on a billboard on the busiest road in the busiest highway in the world and say this is how [ __ ] up I used to be take it or leave it when you really sit back at your life and you in that dark room and you're looking at where you started from and you tell yourself dawg my mom is this way must soon be step that I got murdered my dad beat the [ __ ] out of me I can't read and write to say my [ __ ] soul I've lied about it to everybody I've cheated on all these tests my god man and then you put a goal in your mind how you gonna feel man when you accomplish this goal coming from that [ __ ] coming from the [ __ ] hell you came from a lot of us starting from a good starting point a good foundation what if you can surpass all these if everybody who was [ __ ] way up here started up here and you had you started with no legs he had to grow [ __ ] legs Tevan start walking and then crawling and then running and then you start passing people and all this give it to him I had to use all this negative [ __ ] that was making me weak and horrible as a person I hadn't used this it's the power that now few kind of flip it on his head has held up this might be exactly what I need the darkness is exactly what I need is how you look at your situation and I was looking at it all [ __ ] up there's a lot of power in that list so in that list of who you are what makes you [ __ ] up all these other things it goes back to once again accepting you have to first accept it before you can fix it a lot of people walk around oh man I'm good I'm good no you're not it you have to accept which you're not you have to and people don't want to do that that's the only way you can fix it you have to accept it first before you can go on the journey a lot of folks never even start the journey man never start to join me because I live in this fake life that who they want to be they act like they are but they're not because they haven't fixed all this stuff yet you gotta fix this first before we can start our journey in life so that's why I haven't make this list you fixed these problems now your journey can begin cuz you no longer care about how people are judging you we when you care more about how someone judging you you're gonna stay right there there's no formal minimal so that's one thing about that list not about the rank but the rain represents life is always giving you a test trying to give you a way out trying to give you your juice not to show up this is my excuse today but guess what you gotta have the mentality to show up every [ __ ] day of your life about what life throws at you it's our responsibility to soldier to the Coliseum of life prepared for [ __ ] battle I don't care what you're going through with life stone at you it's your responsibility to find your new hundred percent take it upon yourself to do that stay hard never smartest person in school I had that issue so my big thing was how I dressed that problem was I had to sit down each thing that is wrong with you has to be a focal point you can't look at this gigantic listen I got to change all this [ __ ] my god this is crazy no you take off the first one I want to be smarter for me that was my thing I have to I have to become more intelligent I have such a severe learning disability I can't retain [ __ ] I had to now get that one thing and then strategize in that one problem how can I do this I'm not gonna learn like you I'm not gonna learn like anybody else how am I gonna figure this out so I didn't figure that okay where my strengths here where my weaknesses in learning all right ma'am how am I gonna do this and I figured out a way to do it by this strategizing so how I learned to this day if I have a big manual to study I will have to get a bunch of spiral notebooks from look from the daggone store and each page I have to write each page out maybe ten times so there was a thousand page dive man that I got 18 months before I went to dive school most people I'm not smart I'm a ghost if I can pass this test I realized hang on a second I'm not smart how can I get past this how can I get through this obstacle I need to get I need to acquire this book 18 months in advance because it could take me 18 months to write down each page over and over again to then put it to memory so when the question came up I'd have written that question so many times down that and you know on paper that I can recall okay page 71 was where I remember seeing this and I can recall it that way and that's how I did it so you got to strategize on each problem you have in life slowly break down that problem don't think about all the problems you have just one at a time and before you know it you fix all these problems but you cannot focus on all just on the one thing at a time there's a concept in your book that permeates the whole book and I think really is one of the most important things for people to understand in their own life certainly to understand you and it's the notion of the testing mediocrity talk to me about that how do you how did you instill it in your life how can other people instill it in their don't get it twisted it's not about flipping tires I'm in Las Vegas right now and it's hot as [ __ ] it's not about any of that but what it is about is a lot of us give total control to life we don't have any control of it we just give all on control life I do this [ __ ] every morning to prepare my mind so what life's gonna throw at me a healthy body gives you a healthy mind I stressed about so if you go into battle I'm going about the right mindset the right gear and combat you wear body armor but what we do wrong it's gonna strengthen our minds you got strength your mind take control of that so then when you get out in the real world they [ __ ] you up you got protection from the biggest things in the world a lot of us mediocrities everywhere right now and we're all trying to find an easy way out and we're judging ourselves let's say there's 10 people in this room and we're all mediocre but I'm the best of the mediocre people I now think I'm great I'm great we surround ourselves around people that make us feel great they tell us what we want to hear the second we put ourselves amongst the uncommon people we don't like that feeling that challenge didn't feel that of of that person's making about 330 more hey push your [ __ ] on we're going for a run we don't like that challenge we like that person who says hey you know I mean I don't feel good today man and they say oh it's okay brother I'll take a day off maybe get a pizza and [ __ ] watch the game we like that we love that feeling why cuz you understand man we're good bro we don't want that [ __ ] like this hey man no bro get your [ __ ] [ __ ] on man it's not being a punk we don't want in their lives we don't want that person who's constantly challenging our weaknesses we want that process constantly you know making us feel nice and good and secure nurse that's the mediocrity of life we want to be the best amongst the average people people wonder how do you stay hungry all the time because after I accomplished something I don't sit back like a lot of guys to graduate buzz graduate this graduate that they get comfortable they wonder why I'm getting weak man I don't know I lost my edge what's going on cuz once you hit the top of the [ __ ] mountain guess what happened yeah I'm good I'm good so you wonder why you're falling down now because we reach the top of the mountain you got boot up [ __ ] another one that's mediocrity there's a lot of people in mediocrity who have a nice resume but they're one-timers man they hit they hit a one time deal they busted it open got a lot of money but they're good you're a mediocre now man what are you [ __ ] doing today tomorrow the next [ __ ] day that's why I listen to theorists I don't listen all that [ __ ] I listen to a [ __ ] who's like this man what's wrong man [ __ ] tired dude right tired cuz tomorrow I'm gonna do the [ __ ] [ __ ] again man whenever the [ __ ] is that made me [ __ ] nauseous and sick to my stomach it made me hurt there's no ending and that's the person I listened to that's the person who's gained knowledge you gain knowledge through suffering and on the other end the suffering is a world that very few very few have ever seen it's a beautiful world because that's where you find yourself you don't find yourself in over here you find yourself on the other end like the hundred mile race I was wrong I ran it for 24 hours I found myself on the other end of that [ __ ] race that 19 hours I found wow there's a whole nother [ __ ] world out here that never even stuck but the worlds in your mind and that's what all that mediocrity is about mediocrity contagious not giving a civilized is about having a savage mentality civilized is something where people it's a comfortable world a lot of us say you know like for instance I see these athletes right now who retire you know I'm 38 you know I'm 39 I did 20 years at the top of my game and I'm chilling out now you see him a year later and how they look what the hell just happened to you do what the hell you're when the greatest athletes of all time kids looked up to you women men of all ages looked up to you and they hit the pinnacle where it's time to retire and their mind says I'm civilized the worst thing that could ever happen to any human being is they become civilized it's that total accountability like even when you retired as a [ __ ] looking at me and judging me right now man um I was the baddest person to ever live doesn't go away man you gotta wake up even though you retired you're never retired you're setting the example every single day of your life and being civilized feels so good I'm sorry man once you get to the top you may retire but you ain't never coming back home man can now you're judged people see you falling off you want to be that guy who knows I may be retired from the sport or forever I did but I'll be damned if you ever see me looking like [ __ ] feeling like [ __ ] not arriving people I've arrived I've arrived mentality you're always setting the example civilization feels so good these comfortable feelings are what people want they want retirement they want that they need that they it's a yearning feeling I want it to people love put a label on me about my god man you're just wired different [ __ ] wire tiffin dude I'm thinking right now after I got past my stuttering thing now I'm on a roll I'm good now don't think about right now I got [ __ ] wake up tomorrow and do the same [ __ ] again I gotta leave this [ __ ] interview and go stretch out for two and a half hours I hate that [ __ ] but guess what it does though I'm constantly Callison over my victims mentality that I once had growing up every day you have to do this [ __ ] cuz why when you stop doing it you don't just maintain it if you stop shooting a gun that could be a great shot if you pick a gun up a year from now the only way to keep from getting rusty it's a constant or that [ __ ] machine the machine is this you gotta keep challenging every day you what do people come up to you and ask you the most how do I do it how am I able to do what I do on a daily basis you know how do I fight the demons because I hear me speak and I'm very raw unreal how do you fight my insecurities all these things and they're there every day and every day like you say I'm in a search for a feeling I'm not in a search for a trophy I'm not a search for love not so it's for more followers on Instagram or social media when I started this journey years ago and I realized that I'm gonna be somebody and I'm searching for a feeling a feeling of true victory for myself and only myself the second I shut out the whole world and realized that one thing that I am in this world alone I'm fighting in this race by myself yeah I'm all about people I'm all about team I'm all about that [ __ ] but I'm really all about right now and in my life just like you said no one knows the real truth about me how hard I really go I don't care if anybody knows I want anybody to know I'm an introvert I live an introverted life and I love that about me it that right there is my fuel is I know that there's really no one out there grinding like me and if they are so be it if I know about you I'll make sure that up my gang that's what the mentality is all about my whole thing is a mentality thing like I told you in the last I was on the show I viewed myself as the weakest person on the planet Earth my goal in life was to in my mind believe I'm the hardest man alive and that's why the whole thing is can't hurt me that's what it's about it's about whatever you think you are you have to make that dream a reality but that's where the hard part is is making that dream reality that's what the hard work um is that's where people know how do you keep crying every day you have to make those insecurities those fears like when I was doing some pounds I didn't have any Drive I'm gonna go be a Navy SEAL what kind of stupid [ __ ] is that three pounds they weren't like a drive to go be a Navy SEAL I was an insecure lion kid afraid I had to look at my insecurities and in my fear and find Drive in that we're all looking for passion passion is all around you you have a whole a whole [ __ ] stack of it all around you so your insecurities all that [ __ ] you got to dive deep in that [ __ ] oh it's all in there all the energy and fuel you need is right in yourself it's all there you got a lot of stuff to do to overcome and you know that's where I found it I found it right there in my own insecurities I found Drive in my own insecurities and that's that's the most powerful thing in the world when you can find Drive in your own doubt fear insecurities you become very unstoppable I believe in a higher power you don't know the names I know where it's coming from the leanings like that but I believe that this power and visualize will be real quick let's say it's a man up there a woman whatever and they have a chart and when you're born they say David Goggins born February 17 1975 at 6:00 a.m. they write the chart down because they can see everything they know exactly what you're so [ __ ] supposed to be they know what you're supposed to be you die you go to so-called heaven you arrive at heaven I'm 300 pounds I retired as a ecolab guy which is okay just a job whatever I go up there and God looks at me and he's chosen my chart and my chart on there says you were supposed to be a Navy SEAL you're supposed to be her in 85 pounds you're supposed to be one of the smartest people in the plant this did all this you see this and now you're in heaven you made to heaven but you're like God done I was supposed to live that life I was supposed to live that life and then you find out that the reason why because we all think that if we pray on it if we do this if we do that whatever if we don't work we just never could magically happen for us no I believe that when I'm all said and done with my whole job is to outwork the chart whatever the [ __ ] chart says about me the all-knowing power up there I want to get up there and say him look at me and say I know everything I didn't [ __ ] see this I didn't [ __ ] see this I want to feel that I want to get to the other end of this [ __ ] world and however I'm being judged whoever's judging me to look at me he said I did not [ __ ] know I had you at 185 had you that this but all this other [ __ ] I was riding as you were living it I want to I want to find more all I can and in that [ __ ] sack of [ __ ] you have to dive in that to find more because if you're not willing to go in there and face yourself I can find anything you can live right here on surface man right here on surface so there is an ending to this world and there is somewhere to go in this a judgement you're gonna get there and you might see a chart and that chart may tell you who the [ __ ] you should have been and now you get to rest your life to think about that man I could have lived a much better life I just would have just suffered a little bit more if I just would have went in that [ __ ] and realized I had so much more but fear and the 40% and living here versus living here being afraid stop me so that's I I'm a big guy in visualizing I'm a big guy in making a world it may not exist to me it does to me it does and I'm overpowering myself every day and you got to find tools to do that that's the tool that I use so that's what it's all about your biggest enemy your biggest the most important conversation you'll ever have in your [ __ ] life is the one you have with yourself you wake up with it you walk around with it you go to bed with it eventually you're going to act on it whether you're good or bad you have to that's what the whole thing about this book I have it's about you it is about you it's strictly about you finding who you are so many people die live 100 years never [ __ ] know who they are never know who they are you have to look in that mirror and know this there's so much more in here man because I can literally right now be a 300-pound guy spraying for cockroaches still to this day if I did not look in that mirror and say there has to be more to this this can't be it and then willing to go into it dive deep into it and give all I have to find it so that's what is that's what all that's about [Music] I can't believe I'm here that that kid who was in the fetal position the majority of his life and so much the fact that my body and my hip flexors are tight to this day that even though I was standing erect my mind was in the fetal position and when I looked out amongst all those people it was a sense of pride that I can't even I can't even explain it's the moments of three hell weeks it's the moments of in that room by myself studying for hours and hours and hours trying to catch up with all the kids who above me and it's just those moments like the real raw moments of life that was like boom hit me and were gone but I was like I did that okay Matt [ __ ] you know I was like this is power behind all that [ __ ] and that's the feeling I was looking forward in my life I found it wasn't money what Fame wasn't Awards it was that feeling heavy right now I feel I'm about to break down but it's not of like oh my god I'm sick like I worked myself so hard that I turned a person this [ __ ] up into this [ __ ] right here not off of reading the [ __ ] book off a theorist off of going to work on myself and saying I don't know how to do this but I know that to get over there to that [ __ ] side I gotta grind myself into a [ __ ] fine powder and I did it I get it off for sure will and very few people will know how that thing very few when you can go on to you you can put your life on a billboard you're not ashamed of who the [ __ ] you are you're not ashamed of what life made you when you help like make you all that [ __ ] all that bad [ __ ] that's now in this big pot that's stirring no longer shamed up you realize we're all [ __ ] up stop judging yourself against other [ __ ] up people who have hidden it better than you it's all they've done they've mastered [ __ ] better than you have and now they're flipping it back on you and saying you're [ __ ] up I want you to realize that this world life is one big head game and once you learn to play the [ __ ] head game there's no longer game any more at all you can start living your life tell these guys where they can find the book so the book right now is called can't hurt me but by David Goggins and it's on Amazon right now it's a raw real book it's not a five-step book it's a real book about developing habits on how to overcome yourself and I believe all of us humans have an equation like you know pi is 3.14 that's how you solve for that equation every human being has a different equation and there's not like some cookie cutter book of hey read this book and you'll be fixed no you got to figure out your own personal equation and once you figure out that equation you now become a mathematical [ __ ] genius about yourself and that's what this book does it makes you a [ __ ] genius about who the [ __ ] you are and then from there when she realized 3.14 is PI you can solve any [ __ ] equation in the world that's what it's about [Music] you

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