Apostle Herman L Murray @full Gospel Holy Temple-Jesus is coming back

yes [Music] is come on [Music] is [Music] me [Applause] my with me [Music] is me [Applause] i [Applause] oh with me [Music] you can do it [Music] me [Music] [Applause] [Applause] hallelujah i want to put those hands together let's bless the lord everybody oh come on and bless the lord with me i see your hands but i don't hear no voices come on hallelujah he's worthy to be praised thank you jesus hallelujah from the rising of the sun to the going down of the same sun our god is worthy to be praised so good to be here tonight so good to see you amen in the house of worship one more time would you do yourself a favor why don't you shake somebody's hand amen and greet them in the name of the lord and tell them that you love them now oh i love you in jesus name oh come on that's it oh that's it oh shake a hand that's it come on let me hear ya [Applause] is [Music] here it is jesus [Music] yes everybody catch up is [Applause] in the house tonight amen god bless you you may be seated in the presence of the lord i was glad when they said unto me i was the only one glad i was glad when they said unto me [Music] let us go into the house of the lord i'm just glad to be here i'm glad to be saved glad to be sanctified anybody got jesus joy tonight i'm glad to be on the lord's side i'm glad about what i see god is doing in the midst of his people amen we certainly appreciate the lord for keeping us safe and from the will of the enemy amen thank god for those that are joining us by we have youtube amen thank god for amen our cyber church there are a lot of people amen that tune in thank god for them amen summer without church homes in their city some amen just love amen what god is doing here and they are a part of every service we have and we always want to thank god for them amen they pray for us and so many of them are sending donation in amen to help us keep this gospel on the air amen and i thank god for you and i want you to know it we love you amen with the love of the lord full gospel one more time let's thank god for all of those that are joining us tonight amen now he'll just indulge me a few moments tonight i'm not going to be before the very long amen but i want to i want to talk to you tonight can i do that amen i i i really simply want to talk to you tonight um i shared with you sunday morning the lord laid it on my heart saturday night i was sitting there and god began to drop a lot of things in my spirit and i stayed up i think i was up until about 3 30 4 o'clock sunday morning and i wrestled with that because you know you just certain things i don't have a real level of comfort with especially things that you know i i read it in scripture but you know i never want people to think that i'm condescending because i was one of those that have been so blessed and so fortunate i was raised in church all of my life amen and i i don't i don't make no excuses for it it's not a source of shame for me i'm glad mama raised me my daddy raised me amen in the house of the lord certain things i've never done certain places i've never gone you know and i i hear people talk and then sometimes i just i say man but i'm trying to figure how in the world did they get that what made them do some of that kind of stuff because i've never been there but i know what the bible says and the bible is a book full of principles and i tell you so very often the principles always apply if you learn the principles of the word of god amen it doesn't matter what your level of experience is amen when you come in contact with the situation you can always find the help and answer in the word of god because the principles always apply and i didn't know the hornet's nest that i was stirring into sunday i had no idea what we were pulling the lid off of sunday but i've gotten more calls more text messages uh more response than i ever imagined i would get a lot of people have told me and i i've heard it so often this past two days apostle this is the first time i'm telling anybody what i'm telling you people 50 and 60 years old who say for 50 years this is something that i couldn't tell nobody 50 years and i had no earthly idea that this needed to be rooted out and a lot of times we because we have not experienced things we think everybody else are they all right but the reality is they're people that have dealt with some things that'll make their house stand up on the back of your neck and even though thank god a lot of them have come to the lord and they've given god their life the bible says it didn't you hey i'll tell you what let's just read that real quick get romans now y'all just gonna have to let me work this out tonight romans 12 and 1 i beseech you therefore brethren come on read it loud i beseech you therefore brethren by the mercies of god by the mercies of god the word beseech means i beg you please i implore you that ye present your body that you present your bodies a living sacrifice a living sacrifice holy holy how many of you believe god wants you to be holy he said you present your body as a living sacrifice holy acceptable unto god acceptable which means god's got some standards you got to meet god's not accepting everything and you've got to be willing to condition and to discipline yourself so that you now meet the standards and the requirements that god has said in order for you to please the lord he's not accepting everything and i'm sorry to tell you amen god's not just accepting everything you got to meet him on history and when he says come now and let us reason together that's not a bargaining table that's not where you come and tell god what you willing to give up and what you're willing to hold on to that's not what he's saying when he says let us reason together what he's saying let me bring your mind to a right place so that you can see the benefit of doing things my way and the futility of trying to work life out on your own so no we're not coming together for you to tell god i'll let go of this but now you're gonna have to let me keep this now i'm willing to walk away from that but now this is too important i give this up if you let me hold on to that that's not the table that he's talking about when he said let us reason together he said let me show you that the only way you're going to make it that you got to tell down all of these high ideas that you got about how you should run your life and you've got to turn that over to the lord and when he says reason together reasoning has to come into focus you you've got to have good reasoning ability and if this is getting me nowhere then it only makes good sense to move into areas guaranteed me victory i can keep doing this on my own but after 39 years where has it gotten me and some of you older than i am how long are you going to keep spinning your wheels wasting your time doing a whole lot of stuff and getting no results behind it so he says holy and acceptable unto god which is your reasonable servant it's what you ought to do read this is what i want you to look at and be not conformed to this world because the enemy is trying to mold you and shape you according to his purpose for you do you know the enemy wants to use you too the devil now y'all just got to get listen get off of me and let me talk to that cause because i don't think i'm gonna get no higher than this but but we got to talk about some stuff the enemy wants you to be molded and shaped so that instead of doing what god has ordained for you to do you do the devil's bidding instead of you winning people to god you're a tool in the hands of the devil to plunge people further and further into sin and degradation that's why he said i don't want you to be conformed to this world because there's a mind behind that system that's why the bible says love not the world neither the things that are in the world you know why it's because the world and its system is controlled and dominated by a mind oh there's somebody orchestrating and trying to see that the world moves in a predetermined uh direction and that person is satan and so god said i want you to love the world i don't want you to even love the things that are in the world because there's a mind trying to control the system of the world and if you love the world you will find yourself going after the world even if it means you've got to compromise who you are and what god have called for you to be a whole lot of folk came out of the world the problem is they still in love with the things of the world [Applause] god said i i need you to come online now if you're going to somebody tell them if you're going to come out come all the way out amen you can't just come out of the world you've got to tell god listen god i choose to love you at the cost of everything that the world had to offer me and so he says what i don't want you to do i don't want you to allow the enemy and the systems of the world to mold you and shape you after an ungodly purpose so don't be conformed to the world because the world got a messed up way of doing stuff the world is backwards the world is untoward they don't they don't think normally that's the world so god said i don't want you like that because if you're conformed to the world then you have to be who the world tells you you are and the problem with that is you can't be who god created you to be because you're too busy trying to be who the world told you you were so now here you are with an identity crisis trying to be in a place that you don't really fit in you know i ain't got to talk loud tonight because i know it's right a whole lot of people are in a place where they don't really fit in but they're trying to make it work that's why their beers are doing stuff but they're not happy they got a whole lot of things going on but they're still empty inside because until you are aware and until you are doing what god called you to do and where god told you to be everything else is going to let you down so he says don't be conformed to the world but what he transformed oh but i love this hear what he says and that word transform means changed if you want to see some things changed where does it start change transform how by the renewing of your mind it has to start and everything starts with vision without a vision the people you have to have goals and you got to be willing to go after them and it's got to start in your mind that's why he says write the vision make it plain because how can they read it and run if they can't understand what you it's got to start with a vision so he says what i need you to do i need your mind to be transformed you've got to start seeing things differently some of y'all show quiet man i'm coming down euro i was reading a story the other day talked about two dogs one dog ran into a a building and when he ran in he stayed for a little while and then he came out and he was wagging his tail just happy just just wagging his tail just after a while another dog came and ran in that same door went in the building and he was in and they heard him barking and he's just mad like he's attacking the world and he came out and he came out growling and just angry just burst through the door just running just in a in a rage and he tried what's in this room and when they went in it was a room full of mirrors and the first dog went in and he saw what he saw and he came out happy and wagging his tail the next dog went in and saw what he saw got angry and came out in a fit of rage the reality is many times what you're seeing in the world around you is really only what's in you and you're responding to the world and you don't realize [Applause] that what you're really responding to is who you are on the inside so rather than try to fix the world around you boy y'all getting quiet you got to learn to deal with who you are on the inside you've got to change what you see in yourself and that in turn is going to have an impact on how it is that you see yourself sunday morning i never imagined that i would hear some of the things that i heard i've gotten so many text messages and and for those of you that text me and i didn't answer it was purpose by design i just it was too heavy it was too weighty i just and as a pastor i sometimes and i i i've gone and i've talked to people in the medical profession and even when i get checkups they ask well how's everything going how's your life do you do anything stressful and blah blah blah and when i tell them that i'm a preacher everybody wants to know how involved are you i was at the doctor's office this evening and and they always laugh because i have three cell phones he said you come in with these three phones again why you need three phones i said well my church has to be able to contact me all my members got my phone number and this is the phone that they use and this phone is for this and then i have to have one that only a few people have so that if i need to go somewhere i'm not talking on the phone because i don't know why people feel like you ought to be able to answer the phone at all times and they can go on a two-week fast but you can't because you got to be answering the phone every time they call when am i going to pray and i called and he didn't answer my call when am i going to pray and talk to god i gotta have some time to study but they ask me how involved are you i told them i'm very involved they asked how do you handle that because as a leader it's not hard to get caught up in the issues of the people that you lead got to deal with your own life but then everybody has a problem and everybody wants to call you have to be that ear to listen to all of the and sometimes it gets heavy sometimes it just get it get kind of hard and after sunday i've gotten so many heavy text messages that i i couldn't respond to a lot of them i had to pray and talk to god and god talked to me all day about a lot of this stuff and and i want you to know tonight i believe deliverance is real i've heard people say it and it's true that god wants to heal you everywhere that you're hurting i believe that god can do more than just heal sick bodies i believe god can mend broken hearts i believe that god can heal wounded emotions i believe god can heal you literally everywhere that you're hurting and granted i heard a lot things that i never even thought about heard it and i learned that you can be heard on so many different levels a lot of times people think sexual abuse is the only type of abuse that you can go through and the only thing that can affect you for the rest of your life sometimes it's not that sometimes it's just an event that happens a friend of mine was talking about how his father passed away when he was uh 62 years old his father was 62 and he never thought his father would pass away so soon but he looked around and his father was gone and and for him he said that could have been a very traumatic experience some people have chronic loneliness they'll come over your house and stay at three o'clock in the morning because they just don't want to be lonely that's why a lot of people so faithful to church i would love to think it's because they love the word but there's some people that come because for at least two hours they don't have to stare and look at an empty room it's a lot of things that people can deal with abandonment issues it's not all the time sexual sometimes it's issues in the family something happened that started you down the wrong path you went through school every time you turned around you're getting suspended from this class and thrown out of this and 18 and already got a record why are you so angry and you have to ask the question what happened now y'all gotta give me a minute to say because i understand that the enemy will plant a seed with an event but he'll use little things along the way of life to water the seed that he planted to convince you that now you just have to accept a new normal and can i say this to you tonight just because you're used to something don't mean it's normal sometimes people stop looking for better they stop fighting because this is just the way it's been for the last 20 years just because you're used to it don't make it normal you have to know who you are and and that's why you got to come to church so that i can tell you who god says that you are you got to stop listening to everybody else because they have an opinion of you but you've got to know who god created you to be because you're more than what they say you are and some of us i remember hearing sister drama years ago talk about a young man when she was teaching was always in the counselor's office always in the principal's office always in trouble always getting put out of class and he showed up one day and they asked him what is your name and he said well everybody just calls me diablo she said no wonder you're always in trouble do you know what that means y'all don't know what that means mean the devil people had called him that so much until it became a part of who he was and there are times when people will talk to you and talk about you and if you have no real truth to counteract what they're saying about you you will become who they say you are you're sorry just like your daddy your daddy wasn't nothing and you gonna grow up to be nothing like you no good nothing daddy and after a while it becomes convincing conversation and now the first time you make a mistake it validates the fact that you'll never be nothing you'll be just like you're no good nothing kind of daddy and many times people look at this and call these type of things generational curses and you see it when the grandmother was divorced the mother is divorced all the anus divorced and now here it is you having problems in your marriage and you just honestly believe that this is just what's bound to happen but listen to me it can stop tonight doesn't matter what all has happened in your family that stuff can stop tonight and i used to wonder how is it that people get away from certain type of people and then the people they run to are the same type of people that they just walked away from before they came to the lord every time you turn around they had a different man a different woman and they'll leave a man that broke their arm and go marry somebody start dating somebody that's going to break their leg after a while you've got to ask yourself what is it in me that's attracting the same type of people why is it everybody that comes to me want to hit on me why is it that everybody that comes uses me what kind of signal am i emitting like a homing beacon that only gold diggers find their way to me it's a spirit i've seen it and i want you to hear me and hear me clearly and understand what i'm saying i've seen situations where young men were not raised by any male figures in their home just a bunch of sisters and a mama and they were not necessarily the most manly men they wasn't gay they just wasn't thugs you know just raised around a bunch of women then because they were kind of soft you had men looking at them and saying okay that way and now somebody's always approaching them and they keep definitive i'm not gay i'm not gay i'm not gay but after a while they look at it and why do they know women want to talk to me but only men are approaching me and i've had them tell the apostle after a while i just stopped fighting it and even though they didn't start out like that that's the way they've become and then when they come and try to get deliverance it's hard because now they got to unlearn some of those habits and some of those tendencies y'all getting quiet see a pornographic spirit can operate by itself now you can go and close the door and that spirit operate uh you can operate in your car while you're driving at the computer at work but a homosexual spirit it needs somebody else to participate so that spirit has to send a signal out some kind of way have you ever wondered how in the world hook up how did they end up friends because that spirit has to ascend has to send a signal out some kind of way it'll it'll come out in the way they walk man's hips will get too loose and you know a man don't walk like that but it's got to send a signal out of some kind of way so either he walking funny or it's the way that he uses his hands it has to send a signal and if it's not in the way he uses his hands and the way that he walks in the way that he talks [Music] don't laugh [Music] because people are struggling with this stuff and he doesn't know that he's doing it and he can be in a group full of men talk and he's feel sending out that signal and he's he's still because that that that spirit has to send a signal out and if it's not in the way that he uses his hands and not in the way that he walks if it's not in the way that he talks then you can see it in the way that they dress but it has to send that signal out because it cannot operate by itself so there's a spiritual part of this and just like that spirit sends a signal what signal are you sending off that's bringing all the same type of people in your direction we gotta figure this out you've got to ask the lord listen the bible tells you there's some spirits that only come out by prayer and fasting sometimes you got to get on your knees and say to god god you gotta show me what it is touch me put your finger on it i need to know what it is that's causing me all of this problem and listen just like god wants you to be made free god's going to show you what it is he's gonna show you because sometimes some things we're holding on to some things we got in our house that's keeping us from getting the victory and god will put his finger on it and show it to you y'all getting quiet and that's what we're asking god to do i want to ask you are you angry all the time because if so you ask yourself why i'm seeing people who the devil is battling you and you can't become more like god like you desire to be because the enemy is fighting even the fruits of the spirit in your life and a friend of mine was talking to me sunday and he said some sunday night that really uh uh hit my spirit might not come and he said you know there's a lot of people they want the gifts of the spirit but they ain't got the fruit of the spirit a bunch of witches and warlocks parading around as prophets you can tell people their future and do all of this stuff but you ain't got no love no long suffering no if you got a gift but ain't got the fruit some may write with that [Applause] but you're looking now and there's a lot of people the enemy is trying to keep you from living in a state of joy some people just look angry can't smile scared to smile scared to let your guard down because you've been so disappointed in life that you feel like it's just a matter of time before it happened again are you so angry that you go overboard when you discipline your children because if you're dealing with anger issues then you might not be the one that needs the discipline so angry and don't even know why and subconsciously because he did something that reminded you of his dad and now you look up and he got bruises all over him why are you so angry why can't you smile some people so used to frowning if they smiley lips would crack and bleed what happened to you one thing that disturbed me and i know i'm just taking the time to one thing that disturbed me was the fact that i heard over and over and over again this is the first time i've ever told anybody about this do you know satan loves secrecy and anonymity oh he loves to hide his hand that's the reason why you see all the calamity in the world but you never hear his name brought up he wants to wreak havoc and then heaven you think it's just natural oh that was just something that was going to happen he loves secrecy because he does not like to be found out and there are a lot of things that people have dealt i've talked to young people who've gone through some things and they came to me and told me about it and i've told them you have 12 hours to tell your parents after that i'm going to sit down with all of you because it should not be that something is not right and you're not saying something don't come tell me if you don't tell them and a lot of times here we are having said nothing about and i tried to figure out why why nobody says anything but you know what it is it's a guilt thing and satan is so masterful it is that we don't praise him but now you gotta admit that he's done a good job at keeping people hurting and hiding at the same time how in the world are you a victim and you feel guilty i'm telling you he's some this is this some kind of adversary we're it better do something to you and then have you feeling like you can't say nothing how and nobody wants to say anything nobody wants to talk about this stuff but you'll never ever get beyond this until you face it be real and be realistic it happened it was painful it hurt but it happened stop acting like it didn't because you'll never get beyond this pain as long as you keep acting like it didn't happen you're gonna have to talk you've got to say it to somebody you need to come and talk to somebody don't sit there and hurt and go through all this pain and then keep it bottled up and you haven't said nothing to nobody well i'm strong enough to deal no sometimes you just gotta sit down and say listen i just need you to listen even if they don't know what to say back to you sometimes you just need somebody to listen to you you got to get it out of your mouth you just got to come to terms with it it happened you know even psychiatrists oh you're going through them you're angry you know what they'll do they'll put you in a room and have it all padded up and set you in that way you can't hurt yourself and you know they'll tell you just holler just scream just let it all out because a whole lot of people are angry and they're keeping that angle potted up on the inside and it's having an effect on every relationship they have in life they'll put you in there and just say just holler it out and a lot of times people feel better just getting it out i was talking to a young lady here tonight i admire her because i don't know a whole lot of people who know how let me say it like this i don't hear a lot of people talk about certain things told you a few months ago the times are changing i was listening to a young man talk about how he was molested at a very early age and he said nobody ever talked about it he'd heard people say they were delivered from drugs and they were delivered from alcohol he said but he didn't hear nobody say that they were delivered from homosexuality never heard that so he believed that if i had been a drug addict and an alcoholic then maybe there would have been hope for me but nobody ever said god took me out of that and changed my life well god brought him out he got married had children and now he testifies to people that god is able to deliver you even from that and a lot of times people keep it bottled up i'm saying nothing to nobody it's family business and i'm not asking you family history i don't need to know all of the stuff going on in your life i'm just saying i can admire people who have somehow found the strength to come back from being a victim and they own it you remember when joseph's brothers did him like they did him sold him and put him in the pit they sold him uh to the caravan and then he ended up in potiphar's house and from potter's house went to the prison everywhere joseph went seemed like he was getting into it with somebody something was happening to him but then at the end of his journey standing in the king's palace joseph said i can see now where even though god didn't do it to me god can use it to save many people alive i admire people who know how to take what they've been through and use that to help bring deliverance to other people [Applause] i was sitting and and i was listening and i've heard this testimony uh angela's neil even has a radio broadcast where she talks about this stuff on her radio broadcast and and i i would never ask anybody to come and just bear all your family secrets and all of that kind i would never do that but that's a part of her witness and to hear some of this stuff and to see it and we work together on some things and we talk and we strategize and try to come up with some things that we can do because the problems that have to be addressed and just simply to hear the testimony of going from a victim to a place of victory and wholeness is something that you don't really hear a lot of but people need to know that there's hope beyond what they have suffered because if they're not careful then suffering becomes the norm and even if somebody hurt them like i said doesn't always have to be sexual even if they hurt them one time they'll then victimize themselves and they'll forever be victims of something that happened now we've talked in the past about a whole lot of things and and you're very open with it and i appreciate that because you helped a lot of people something happened to you earlier early on in life that set you back a ways but god bless you to overcome it real good just come on amen when i was a child at the age of seven it started i was molested continually by my stepfather and at that time of course supposed to have he'd be preaching so eloquently on sunday about your mind telling you one thing but your body is responding to something i went through that and i did not know how to identify what love was because that's what was presented to me so by the time i was 15 i was gang raped and i was game raped by approximately five boys that i did not know and could not even probably point them out today out of that gang rape i had a son so i don't even know who his father is because of that gang rape by the time i was 21 i was raped again by my mother's boyfriend and at that point i was so angry i was so bitter i was mad at everybody because i could not understand what was it about me that that this had to happen to so let me ask you this so in in some ways did you blame yourself oh indeed yes yes even what somebody else did even what someone else did i i felt like it was my fault even even with my stepdad i felt like it was my fault i felt as though it was my fault because i allowed it i allowed it and when he said don't you can't tell nobody i didn't tell nobody and so therefore i was bound by a vow or relationship that i had basically like came into covenant with because i said i would not tell nobody and so i never told anybody so i dealt with the guilt of silence because you don't speak out it's almost as if you are in agreement to what's going on with you so therefore you're no longer a victim but now you are a participant and you believe that you are i mean the enemy is is binding you that much more because like i say you are a participant and it was it was such a mental battle and i heard you say it it some of those events warp the way you think yes you know it changes logic everything it changes the way that you handle people it changes the way that you handle yourself because at that time i started dressing differently i would act out in school i mean when he was just saying a moment ago about being suspended fighting all the time that was me and i use this when i talk to people even the bully because i became a bully understand that the bully is being bullied somewhere and they're needing an outlet and so when you have your children acting out and you know that it's uncommon or out of order for them you might need to look a little bit deeper because i became a problem child when actuality i really just had problems that nobody knew about and that event started at seven how there were obviously some things that happened in in life as a result of that what were some of the oh yes consequences because i know the undealt with it would take you down and yes i i tell people like this i got three well i have one child with my husband but i have four kids by four different men so it took me down a road of promise chrisley i was i was and i felt like that's what love was because if and as he spent he's voted on sunday i did not want anyone to take anything else from me i wanted to have control of it i wanted to be able to say i'm i'm willing versus someone continually taking it from me so i wanted to be in control and so that led me to i mean i would i would i would meet people that i didn't even know on the bus stop i mean you know it drove me because the seed of lust was sown so deep at the age of seven and so it drove me to places and doing things with people that i didn't even know it's the grace of god that i'm here today and i'm in good health because i could have easily had uh some type of disease i could have easily been killed and thrown in a ditch because i was getting caught with people that i don't even know because i was driven by a seed of lust that was planted at the age of seven trying to be fed just think about it anything that dries up it thirsts and so if it's sown in you it's thirsting so the seed was thirsting and it was driving me and a lot of and and see i and i know a lot of this makes so many people uncomfortable i just cannot believe what i'm hearing but what is it one in four one out of four women one out of six men have been sexually assaulted so when you look at the number of people in here one out of four one out of four women statistically statistically speaking one out of every four women one out of every six men have been sexually molested so we can look at it and oh god i can't believe it i'm not don't raise your hand right but there's a whole lot of people have dealt with this same stuff and some people are still dealing with it now like i said i appreciate the fact that somebody has the courage and boldness to deal with this or a husband on ministry together amen and this is a part of ministry for them going out there because can you imagine if you never heard that somebody could be delivered from this yes and a lot of people would think when they come to church well if i was a drug addict maybe i would have hope yes if i was on a crack or if i was alcoholic because that's the kind of stuff you hear dealt with but god can deliver you from absolutely everything and you and i have talked in the past you know god have given you a great deliverance and a great testimony from being homeless amen yes i was homeless homeless and 15 homeless with a baby in shelters in shelters yes and talking about some of the things that you know people in shelters have to deal with and and i didn't know it until i had a chance to go to the mission with the uh the meals on wheels and and and they were doing a phenomenal job i had a chance to go to an actual uh uh shelter and i showed up because i just i wanted to go and and see what they were doing because i knew they were doing some good for somebody amen and to see them serving people yes and to hear some of the things that some of the people that work at the shelters would say to us you know how a lot of things have traumatized people until a lot of people in shelters the homeless a lot of them even suffer from mental disorders by virtue of some of the things that they have have gone through and and so but god brought you out of that yes yes and god delivered you and yes yes yes and you smiling and i'm smiling i'm whole because you're whole thank you lord did you always know that there was a hope for you or or was there a situation or a time that you just gave yourself over to it because you felt like this is all i'll ever be able to do was it hopelessness it was hopelessness until somebody witnessed to me when somebody witnessed to me about christ that's when hope came alive in me so before then before then there was no hope i was continually going the way that i was going that was i mean i was literally on a dead-end street i mean i was going the way i was going and somebody told me about it somebody told me about jesus thank you lord jesus somebody told me about jesus talk to me about the woman at the well bless his name yes and the lord came in and saved you save me thank you lord how did because a lot of people have given their heart to the lord and like we just read a minute ago the bible says but you've got to be transformed by the renewing of your mind and i know that means you've got to allow the word of god to change the way you see life yes yes uh because a lot of people are hopeless they're helpless and all they can see is is victimhood right that's right that's all they can see you know they wake up understanding that when i lay my head on the pill again i'm gonna lay a victim's head yes back on this pillow right but after you came to know the lord that process of of dealing with it was there a moment that you just had to come face to face with it and say god you got to hit me with this yes i remember being angry all the time i was evangelizing but i was angry all the time um i was i was mean and did not know why because a lot of times when you go through things like that you kind of suppress it you know you just put it in the back of your mind and you don't want to deal with it however it was one particular time god brought some things to the surface uh and when he began to bring it to the surface it was in your face type of thing i need you to deal with this i want to i want to deal with you by the root of it and what he spoke to me he said there are petrifying sores that needs to be healed in your life and i knew when he said that exactly what he was talking about because we understand what we're really dealing with even though we try to ignore it and want to go over it but he spoke it to me and when he spoke it to me that's when i began to crumble and that's when i began to say lord root out of me everything that's not like you i don't like being mean i don't like feeling like i'm feeling or not knowing how to treat my husband because even our relationship was affected because i'm still looking at him some kind of way you know and when it was time to be intimate i'm i got to be in control not tonight because i'm still trying to be in control now we i remember you even saying that uh just men in general managing even men in authority because we talked about the school situation yes yes yes yeah yeah i had a problem with being teachers i was trying to figure out what the problem was and uh and this was as recent as when we first moved to dallas my daughter had a male teacher in the fourth grade and i was on my way to the principal's office to get him get her to move to another class because of a fear that i had you know for her and i did not want her to be exposed to anything even in my mind and my husband was the one that was like babe you gotta get over this we gotta get past this you cannot live your life in this type of parameter and you're letting it control everything and we made it through the fourth grade but then she had another one in the sixth grade and that was another level that god was not sixth grade but the fifth grade another level that god was carrying me through and he actually became one of her best teachers and i liked him and so uh i got i got i got through it i got over it because i realized that whole men are you know and and honestly that's one of the things that i've been hearing and and i hope y'all understand what what the y'all y'all good you know as i said i would i would never ask anybody to get up and bear out any of their secrets like that but i thank god this has been published across the country and and you know just dealing with it and it's something that you can't act like this stuff is not going on amen amen you just can't do that because people are hurting yes and we even talked about it you know i was talking to somebody else and they were saying how keeping secrets in them hurt them so bad that many times they would pray and ask god to just take them just i'm tired of hurting i'm tired of fighting this lord just make sure i'm ready i'm ready to go to heaven just just make sure i'm gonna make it and if i'm gonna make it to heaven you can take me now yes and it's sad that people would rather die yes than to live and fulfill the purpose that god has for their life like the prophet uh elijah who just said lord it's enough just just take me i'd rather not even deal with this and there are people that have great gifts people who have great abilities they are skilled people yes but they don't even want to go on they don't want 20 more saying god if i'm saved and i'm going to heaven you can take me right now because i'm just i'm tired of fighting this and there's a lot of people that's just tired of fighting they're tired because they have been convinced that something that's not even normal is your normal but god can save you god can deliver you god can clean you up god can root that thing out of you and i can appreciate the fact that god is able you know and we talked about that sunday i was preaching about that how the people just just they're so angry and don't know why and then it carries over into so many other areas and i've heard that since sunday a lot of people who haven't even been in those situations testify i'm so afraid that it's going to happen to me it is so common now until some people expect that sometime during the course of their life this is going to happen to me that's sad no young lady should ever have that in her mind somewhere down the line this is gonna happen no young man should ever have that in his mind that shouldn't be his expectation that's right that this stuff is going to happen and a lot of times and and she said it and and i remember we had a youth symposium maybe about two years ago and we talked to the young people at youth congress and i'm glad the parents were there to hear some of the things that the young people were saying i told them if there's something going on just write it on the index card you don't have to put your name on it but what is it about you that nobody else knows and they were open and honest because it was anonymous right and they didn't have to write their name on the card they just come drop it in but when we start reading those cards you found out a lot of those young people that were at that symposium and they came from everywhere yes we're saying things like i think about suicide all the time all the time i've tried to kill myself three or four times when you have 13 year olds trying to kill themselves then why can't we deal with that and i know and listen if this too much for you i'm sorry but somebody has to tell that community yes yes yes that there is a deliverance yes available for them amen yes and if she doesn't mind and if a husband don't mind then i say go get him amen yes because somebody has to go and tell these women that they don't have to commit suicide they don't have to give themselves over to that it's not their fault and so we talked about that but somebody introduced you to jesus yes god saved you yes god filled you with the holy ghost then he start putting his finger on some of those things because a lot of times like i said we learn lessons we didn't intend to learn amen that's right and sometimes even if you're saved you got to be careful why did i do that that's right you know why did i do it like i did it because that's what you've been trained to do but now that you've been saved he says now let this mind be in you that was in christ jesus christ jesus so now we learn a new way yes to resolve conflict amen amen we learn a new way to handle things and issues and so you know i appreciate that because a lot of people would say well i heard a preacher talking and i hear him but man i ain't never seen nobody came out of that i never seen nobody delivered from this i never seen nobody and like i said i know you don't hear that a lot right but and i've listened to the radio i've listened to the to the uh broadcast and to hear people call in to talk to you about that stuff knowledge brings about a freedom applied knowledge applied knowledge brings about a freedom people are destroyed because they're things they don't know we arm people yes with information and that's why i was saying sunday we got to watch a lot of things and be careful about a lot of things years ago uh you would never hear anybody stand up testifying about this right just like years ago you would never hear anybody get up and say god delivered me from homosexuality because it wasn't seen as a big problem it was an anomaly you know there's a few people that but you don't say stuff like that because one day you know you're gonna want to get married and you want everybody looking at you funny because where you been but you already married i'm already married his name i got your husband that's my husband and that's the thing i i i'm glad i'm grateful uh you know that people are hearing this i'm glad that you're able to reach out to people and uh and show them that god is is a deliverer and that god can heal you everywhere that you're hurting and and just just one more thing and this hit my mind all day long today i've been driving i've been getting text messages all day long and it started sunday i i kept hearing this that a lot of the reason why a lot of people are angry is because they're still waiting on an apology that they're probably never going again they're waiting on the people who hurt them to come back and say hey i was wrong because a lot of victims feel like they did wrong and they just need somebody to come and say wasn't you it's me that's right i did it to you because if they keep going on acting like it never happened then your mind is wondering did i make that up did i create this what did i do were they really as bad as i i i think that or did i do something this was me and they're waiting on somebody to come back and say to them it was me i'm sorry problem is some of them you can't find them they're not even around to apologize to you some of them died that's right before you ever got your apology and now you're stuck waiting on somebody to come back and say i'm sorry and it's not happening and they're just so angry because they're still waiting don't leave me here and not come back and pick me up like a child whose mother takes them to the mall and say stay right here i'll be back and walks off and the mall is shutting down and the security guards are coming and saying come on well my momma said she's coming right back it's 9 30. she got home well she said she's coming back somewhere along the line that's how a lot of people feel like somebody just dropped me off and told me to stay there they're coming back and i'm still waiting on my apology still waiting on them to come back still waiting on them to tell me it wasn't me but nobody's come and you're just angry angry because there is no proof that it wasn't your fault and i've been dealing with that all day today i just i i just felt that and and and i hope you all understand y'all good because i know this is something that you don't normally deal with and i know a lot of people might get very uncomfortable i can't believe they saying this stuff i just i can't believe it this stuff is going on this stuff is happening you got people who trying to pray and and and and and we've talked about that people who say they're ready to go to heaven but they got a spirit of unforgiveness in their heart and the bible says forgive us this day our debts as we forgive our debtors some people just haven't even forgiven the people who hurt them that's right and if jesus come back and you haven't forgiven nobody then what's going to give you the power to fly when he shows up god has to get in and root this out you got to let him getting beyond this is a choice yes it is you have to choose not to be a victim that's right you have to make that choice that i'm going to believe what god said about me and i'm going to ignore everything the enemy tried to get me to believe that i was it's a fight but it's one worth fighting yes yes you got to be willing to fight this fight because the enemy's going to come back and hit your mind and say oh no there you go ah there you go but you've got to quote listen feed yourself the word of god there is therefore now no condemnation yes to those who are in christ jesus and if it's not dealt with just makes it easier for the next situation to take root now you're dealing with so much a lot of people who are in that lifestyle thank you would you clap your hands for amen i appreciate the lord and and and i've i've talked to so many people who were abused by virtue of the fact that they were abused it led them into so many other lifestyles homosexuality and lesbianism being one of them uh one young lady was talking to one of the ministers and said her boyfriend beat her until she almost died he beat her until she almost died and that was the moment when men became the enemy to her and she started looking at women as the answer and that's another rule that the ending is carrying people down i was reading the other day and this is why it's so important to let god bring deliverance for real i was out of town and i was reading an article that said doctors are now predicting that more than half of all gay and bisexual african-american men are going to contract hiv half half and the enemy wants you to stay on these roads to destruction but if you're not saved you need to be saved you need to let god change your whole life around you need to choose that you're not going to be a tool in the hands of the devil anymore but you're going to allow the lord to use you and mold you and shape you you're not going to conform to the world because the world is busy trying to shape you but you're going to allow the lord to root those things out of your mind and you're going to allow the lord to transform you and change even the way you think i want you to stand tonight hear me listen to what i'm about to say some of us were so blessed beyond our wildest dreams i remember years ago i was just a teenager and i had a friend who was a little older than i was and i was getting ready to graduate and i remember this young man and his wife were very good friends of mine and they wanted me to go somewhere with him i guess it was not to either and i remember my father saying no i thought he was so unreasonable i thought it wasn't fair i'm almost a grown man and you telling me i can't go outside but it wasn't like a lot of parents or not he was firm my dad said no he meant no you better not say nothing what no why not some of y'all knew my dad my daddy didn't play with nobody i remember one time he told me something i just looked at him he said boy who you looking at i throw you down them stairs but a little while after that a few years later that young man went to jail for molesting children and i think about if my father hadn't been watchful they hadn't watched over me i could have been a victim i'm just i'm just grateful [Applause] but i know plenty of people who satan actually did succeed in putting his hands on their life early and even though it wasn't me i still pray for them i've had to talk to god about them and talk to some of them and counsel them and so tonight and i know what happened sunday i appreciate the lord but i know it's a process of healing if it's the case that you need god to heal some kind of hurt your heart your emotions your mind or maybe you know somebody that's dealing with it they're not saying nothing they're not trying to deal with themselves but you know what happened i want you to come just come they're coming come on come on [Applause] and many times it's the people that we least expected and you're just trying not to think about stuff but it don't change the facts don't change the facts you know all day today i've thought about it and a friend of mine faced an issue that almost ruined their life father did some crazy things and they were angry and mad at their brother and didn't know why they couldn't get along the reality was they couldn't get along because he looked just like his daddy and even after his daddy had gotten caught up with they were still looking for that apology from him still waiting on him to admit what he did because you know they'll do it and then deny it she lying i don't know what she's talking about i don't know what he's talking about that ain't true and then it starts another process because now many times the mother believed him over the kid and one day her mother told her brother he's not here but would you please go and stand in his place and look at her and even though you didn't do anything would you tell her you're sorry just stand in his place he's not here but would you go stand proxy for him and say to her i'm sorry and all day long i've been thinking about that because a lot of people are trying to move forward and they're saying i forgive you i forgive you i forgive you but deep down you still waiting on somebody to say it wasn't you it was really me and it has not happened i wasn't there but would you let me stand in their place i want y'all to look at me everybody that needs to hear it look at me you should have never been hurt nobody should have ever taken advantage of you it should have never happened you did nothing to deserve it and i'm sorry i'm sorry that it messed you up like it did [Music] sorry you have to deal with it all this time i'm sorry you had to fight it by yourself i'm sorry it took you to a place that you had to fight so hard just to climb out of but in spite of all that happened to you you made it this far which proves that you are better than what has happened to you you're a whole lot stronger and people gave you credit for and if that's any indication of where you're going then your future is going to be a pretty bright place [Music] uh [Music] i thank you for your power [Music] come on can i get you to lift your hands everybody and just pray that should receive it now in the name of jesus oh come on there is a bomb in gilead can i get you to play with these at this altar gonna be all right [Music] in the name of jesus oh come on that's it come on that's it receive it father in the name of jesus oh god as i lay my hands thank you for your anointing lay your hands on it in the name of jesus oh god there it is come on let him do it father touch hallelujah father lay your hands on it now oh god you see this in me oh now in the name of jesus hallelujah [Applause] come on let him do it for you in the name of jesus christ lord father touch now in jesus name oh god don't let it be the same i pray for your strength now strengthen a mind strengthen a spirit call oh let your healing hand touch right now in jesus name father as i lay my hands on oh god you see this need you know every heart's desire i pray now god that you'll send your healing hand oh god that bomb and gilead that's able to heal i claim hell in tonight in the name of jesus father touch as i lay my hands on it i and for your honor attach them to touch of god in the name of jesus father lay your hands on it don't let it be the same again home there it is god go to the root of it and root it out in jesus name we thank you for the victory hallelujah come on receive it i'll lay your hands on let him take the pain away can i get you to lift your hands while you're sitting there hallelujah come on say i'm praying for you come on you pray for me is [Music] um hey in the name of jesus hallelujah hallelujah come on i pray for you come on let me hear you you pray for me i love you and i need you hallelujah with the words from my mouth i love you and i need you look at somebody tell them i'll pray for you in the name of jesus i pray for you hallelujah [Music] [Music] in the name of jesus hallelujah come on i can't get nobody to pray with me father lay your hands on it in the name of jesus oh god by your power we call it hallelujah hallelujah i can't hear nobody hallelujah hallelujah thank you jesus father in the name of jesus um [Music] another touch of your anointing in the name of jesus come on somebody lift those hands up and give him the praise hallelujah i won't harm you thank you jesus i love you oh i know you've already said it but can you just go hug somebody and tell them i love you just tell them i love you i don't want nothing from you i just love you and i'm praying for you or tell somebody i'm praying for you tell them i'm praying for you never look at him and tell him everything's going to be all right you're gonna be fine god's not gonna leave you he's not gonna leave you with it by yourself as bad as things have looked things are gonna get better hallelujah god's gonna turn it around you're gonna smile again you will have joy the devil's not gonna rob the rest of your life as a matter of fact touch somebody and tell a neighbor something good it's gonna happen to you hallelujah thank you jesus [Music] oh pray for you [Music] pray for me i love you and i need you i need you to survive won't harm you with words from my mouth i love you [Music] i need you to survive pray for you you pray for me i love you and i need i need you to survive [Music] won't harm you words from my mind take your seed pray for you pray for me i love you and i need you to survive won't harm you words from my mind i love you and i need you to i pray for you please pray for me i love you and i need you i need you to survive won't harm you the words from my mouth i love you pray for you [Music] i love you and i need you to survive [Music] i love you and i need you to survive [Music] oh yes i do i need you to survive thank you jesus [Music] come on lift those hands lift them lift them would you [Music] oh thank you lord pains are broken [Music] i've been set free my blessed savior has ransomed me [Music] i want to give you all the glory [Music] lift those hands give him all the praise unfailing love and an amazing grace come on just let the lord love you just let the lord love you right where you're sitting come on just let him show you what real love is all about i can put his arms around you oh he's saying everything's gonna be all right [Music] everything everything everything's gonna be all right [Music] looks like i can see the breaking of of the day it's gonna be all right gonna be all right [Music] it's gonna be all right [Music] it's gonna be all right [Music] oh yeah you

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