Our latest evicted housemate, Albie Casiño. - Hi Albie.
- Hi, Ate Toni. Thank you for having me. So good to be back in the outside world. I miss you housemates. I know you can't watch this but, I just want to say it. Thank you for saying "yes" right away. No problem, Ate Toni. I'm actually a fan. I have a small podcast also. I like to watch on people who I admire
so I can take some tips, if you know what I mean? It seems like you're more confident now, Albie. Seems like you feel secure about yourself
and you know yourself better now. Thank you, Ate Toni. Maybe it's because I feel so much love now. In my 12 years in showbiz, I never really felt loved
as an artist, as a person. Of course, the love of my family,
my friends is always there. But when you're a public figure,
people's perception of you, it really plays with your head, right? If I was just working on an office job
and I was getting bashed online, I don't think I would care. But my job is to be on the public eye-- Public figure. So, of course, the way I was perceived
by the public really affected me. From a new, cutie, teeny-bopper, young actor, you suddenly experienced that big controversy. And it seemed like that bad reputation
stuck with you throughout your career. How did you handle that? At first Ate Toni, it was really hard
especially when I would be taping, because I have this anxiety that everyone
really hates me, all my co-actors. Regardless if it's a guesting on ASAP or regular shows, I don't really mingle with other actors because I feel like these guys have an idea of me. But what made you continue in showbiz? Maybe because... I don't want them to feel like they beat me. You know what I mean? I feel like if I quit, if I stop doing it,
it would be a victory for them. Yes, like letting the controversy define you. Yes, letting the controversy
and their perception define you. I didn't want to show people that
it was affecting me even if it really was. Right? My favorite bible verse is,
"No weapon formed against me shall prosper." So I feel that really sums up my attitude -- that if there's people who want to destroy me or bring me down, at the end,
it's not going to prosper. Where did you get that mindset from? Because I really don't want to quit. You're not a quitter? Yeah. You know, I just took it day by day, step by step. Of course, at 18 years old,
that trial already seemed too big, right? There's a lot of opinions and rumors about you. What does your mom always tell you? It's simple, Ate Toni. Whatever you feel, your mother feels it ten times more. More painful. Maybe, I drew my strength from her too, because most of the time, everything's normal at home. You know what I mean? "It's all normal, don't worry about it." "Don't worry about what they're saying." She would always just tell me to keep quiet about it because it wouldn't look good. Because I'm a man and she's a woman. She said, "Just be quiet.
One day, the truth will prevail." "You'll get vindicated. You'll be vindicated one day." That's all she kept on saying. But of course, it was hard that time. When will that day come? It's been 6 months, a year, 2 years, 10 years. 2016, you were vindicated when the truth came out, right? I guess but I feel like they dragged me publicly. They said all these nasty things publicly. They dragged my family publicly,
they ruined my family name. Until this day, I don't have Twitter because I don't want to get the hate. I mean, it's easy to say,
"Don't mind those hate comments." But it's different when it's all that you see. It's difficult. So, I don't have a Twitter. I had to hide my Instagram for a while. That's why my username is thestallion09,
not Albie Casiño. I was trying to hide from all of the hate before. The vindication came from her sister on a podcast. It wasn't even them. It was just a slip up. What if she never went on the show? What if they never asked about me on the show? Then it would've never happened, right? It was just a slip of the moment thing. When the truth came out, what did you feel? How old were you then? I was 24 that time. So at 18, you experienced the controversy. At 24, the truth came out. How did you feel? To be honest, I didn't feel like it was the vindication I was expecting. That segment where she said that, it wasn't enough for me to feel vindicated from all the years of the bashing, all of the news articles written about me, all the lost work, right? I felt like I needed more to be vindicated. So you still feel like you're not fully vindicated? Back then. Now, I'm really just trying to push it behind me. Like I said, I realized now that I fully accept the fact that forever, for the rest of my life, it's embedded into my name. So at 28 years old, what's your biggest regret in life? That's a hard question, wow. Everyday, we have regrets, If it's just about PBB, now that I see how much people were
supporting me while I was inside the house, I regret that I wanted to leave so early. I feel like I let them down, all of my supporters. It's so selfish because I was struggling
and I just wanted to get out. "I want to leave." Why do you want to leave?
You said you aren't a quitter. Yeah but like, I was happy that I got evicted
because that's not quitting. I just lost the show. You wanted to leave because? You know what, Ate Toni, the hardest part was the fact that we couldn't shower
whenever we wanted. Because there's a shower call. And then, there would be a lot of downtime inside. "Big Brother, why can't I take a bath?" - I did a workout.
- There are rules. I smelled weird already. Yes, there are rules. So the question now is, why did you say yes to PBB? And how did you say yes? Well, at first, I said yes because I wanted to change the public perception of me at first. And I wanted to show the people that
I'm more than the issues, right? I like to think that I'm a funny guy,
easy to get along with. But when I entered the house,
I feel like it was the opposite. You know what I mean? What I got from it though was that
I got to know myself so much more. And that's priceless, right? What did you learn about yourself? I guess... I may have no filter and I'm outspoken, but that doesn't mean I can say whatever I want. I still have to be careful with what I have to say. You know what I mean? I learned that, because I went inside the house
with some of the housemates, and I found out that the way
I say things tend to be hurtful. But in my mind, I'm not trying to hurt you,
I'm just telling the truth. The truth that I see. I guess there's a way to say things in a kinder way. It seemed like you weren't kinder
when you said that "she's fat now" statement. And that you're happy that she's fat. Why did you say that? Can you explain why you said that? My manager actually told me not to talk about this, but I feel like as a man, I have to. First of all, I really didn't think that it would pick up
that much attraction. I really honestly didn't think that
it would spread like wildfire, what I said. And, I know now that I was wrong to say that. And I want to apologize to everybody
who was offended by what I had to say. I was in the spur of the moment. I was trying to say something-- To be completely honest, I wanted to say something
that would make her feel bad. You wanted to say something
that would make her feel bad because? Of all of the anger that I had, all the pent up frustration
that I had from all those years. You know what I mean? I felt like... This would be a way for me to say something funny, at the same time,
get back at her for what she did to me. But... I didn't expect it to be taken that way. And like I said, I made a mistake then. I know I made a mistake now. And I want to apologize to everybody else who took what I said and got offended by it. I did not mean to offend anybody else. But then again, I'm not trying to rid myself of blame. I really did want to say something
to make her feel bad. And, that's also wrong. You still have anger inside you? I don't think that will ever be completely gone. So, it'll always remain? It's not there all the time. If someone brings her up to me, it's not good emotions that I'm thinking. It's not good feelings that I'm feeling. And I'm only human. Like I said, I like to think of myself
as an unfiltered person so that's why I said those things. Well in my mind, I was like, "Well, they publicly ruined me." "They had me assaulted." They dragged my family name like... That's what's going through my head. But like I said, I know now, with the platform that I have,
I shouldn't be saying those things. So you regret saying it? I do. I regret saying it. Like I said, the platform that I have now,
I want to spread positivity. And with that statement, there was nothing positive about that. Again, I'm sorry. I made a mistake. I'm human, guys. I learn day by day. You were diagnosed with ADHD? Yeah. And dyslexia when you were young? You were diagnosed already? But the ADHD... They're the same time. I was going to school at Ateneo at the time. From what I remember, I couldn't read
until I was like 10 years old. So the teachers would be-- They'd be shocked because I flunk hard
because I just keep guessing. I wasn't even reading the questions. But in oral recitations, I would do so good. So they're like, "What's the problem with this kid?" One day, I got pulled out of class. They brought me to some office in Ateneo
with a bunch of other kids and they made us take some tests and stuff. And then, there was an oral test after. And they called my parents in and they were like... You know what I mean? "Your son has this..." But of course, they went to get a second opinion. And then, Ateneo advised my parents to pull me out. They said that I couldn't take the standard of education there or something, I don't know. They basically said that I would have
too much of a hard time in Ateneo. That's why I went to La Salle for high school. Because I wanted to prove to people that I can do it. What really is your dream, Albie? I kind of want to do... a little bit of what Direk Paul's doing to be honest. - Oh, really?
- When I saw this place for the first time, The first time I read the script here,
I was like, "This is so nice." Make like a little film crew. Stallion Productions maybe. I have a few scripts in mind and
I've done a few pitches already. But then, you know, COVID happened. When I was shooting with Direk Paul in Vancouver, I took a tour of the school
where we were getting the interns. And I applied to that school. Oh, really? Yeah, I got accepted, but COVID happened. At 28, you really learn a lot about yourself already and then you entered Big Brother's house. What did you learn about yourself
when you became a housemate? It's not really about what I learned about myself, but more of the things I knew I had to work on. But upon entering, I knew what I needed to work on. Like? Like my patience, for one. Right? My temper would be the second. And like I said, how brash my attitude was sometimes when I talk. Realizing the things I say can go a long way because I am a public figure. I learned more when I got out to be honest. Because when I got out and I saw the fans there, I was like, "Wow Albie, I guess you are loved." Do you think that was a good experience? I know it was a good experience. I'm forever going to be grateful for the PBB team, for letting me be one of the housemates. I told them before, when they were doing the interview and they asked me, "Why do you want to do PBB?" I told them, "Because I feel like it could change my life." How was your life changed? Like now, like I said, I feel the love now. You know what I mean? I'm not so cynical in the way I think. When you're hated, the thoughts you get are not really good thoughts. Pessimistic. Pessimist, I call myself that all the time. There's a song called "The Pessimist." I used to listen to it all the time also. How much more pessimistic could you get, right? Now, I feel like I have a new outlook on life. How do you want people to see you now? Maybe, I want people to see me not for the controversies or how I try to make people-- Just see me for me. If I do something wrong, call me out for doing something wrong. Because like I said, I'm human and I learn everyday. So if I did wrong things in the past,
I want to apologize for them. Because I didn't know any better back then. Now, I do. - When you know better, you'll do better, right?
- True. It's weird because when I was 18, I was insecure. But at the same time, I was so full of myself also because you came from a lifestyle of having
150 pesos as your daily allowance, and then you'll do a mall show
and earn a hundred thousand pesos. You're like, "What is this?" "I can take over the world." So like now, I'm more realistic. I have to learn how to budget money, that's one thing. I know that now. What do you think is the biggest mistake
that you have committed in your life? There were a lot of times that
I should've listened to my parents. I thought like I knew better. But before... I would only listen to advice from people
who were making more money than me. When you're young, you start making a lot of money, you think that you don't need to listen to anyone. Because I'm only 18 and I'm making this much money. Why would I listen to anybody else? I guess I'm doing something right. That's how I saw it. Maybe, what I was doing is right anyway. Because I'm getting rich. Because I'm earning. Earning a hefty amount. More than a lot of people. Also, my teachers in LSGH. I should've listened to them also. Actually, that was more them what I said, "Why would I listen to you?" "I earn more than you do." Why would I listen to a teacher? I'm paying tuition. - I guess that's how you think as a kid.
- Yeah. You feel like you own the world. You are your own boss. Yes, it seems that way. You know what I mean? You're lacking a little bit of respect. Especially me, back in the day when I was younger. Because I felt like I wasn't getting
any respect also at the same time. I felt like I was being hated on for something
that wasn't my fault. And I felt like people were always disrespecting me. So I was like, "Why would I respect others
if people don't even respect me?" But then now, I realize that respect
is earned, not given. I made mistakes that caused me
to be in a controversy like that. So I have to earn back people's respect. So now, I'm trying to do that little by little. You know, I try to tell my friends and my family that if I could go back in time, I would do everything the same. But I'm lying to them. I'm just trying to tell them what they want to hear. Things to make them feel better. Because if I did have a time machine, I would do it completely different. It has shaped you, molded you, taught you, humbled you. Yeah, that's the number one thing. And I needed that for sure. Definitely needed that. So what are you looking forward to in life now, Albie? Number one thing is I look forward to
creating my own content. So first would be like the Kumu things. Albie Casiño on Kumu, follow right away. Just flag. And also, I have a YouTube channel
which I have a little podcast also. Albie Casiño on YouTube. Check out Stallion Talks. So, I'm excited to do that. What's one thing you're currently grateful for? Now, I'm grateful for all the love I'm getting. It feels so good man. They like me now. I'm not even pretending to be anyone I'm not. They actually like me for who I am. The greatest lesson you learned about love? Maybe it's that love isn't about loving a perfect person. I used to think that, "Oh, she's perfect for me." "We're so perfect for each other." But it's about loving an imperfect person perfectly. Wow, the maturity! Yeah, I love it. The greatest lesson you learned in showbiz? In those 12 years. No matter how bad or how low you feel you are,
you could always keep going if you want to. Because like I said, the ADHD, it wants you to jump. Skip the steps. Yeah, skip the steps. I want to go from point A to point B. It's not about going from point A to point B, it's about moving your feet
one at a time until you get to point B. Who knows how long that's going to take? The greatest lesson you learned from your mom? The greatest lesson that I learned
from my mom is that no matter what I do, no matter how bad I mess up,
no matter how bad I screw up, my mom's going to love me unconditionally. So I could always fall back on her for all of these things. Because it seems like your mom has always been your defender, warrior, frontliner... Yeah, she is. And I just imagined if that has taken a toll on me, what was it doing to her? It killed her. For sure, multiple times, more than once. And it is all because I didn't listen to her. You know what I mean? So maybe that is your message to the youth. Yes. To the 18-year-old Albies out there
who are watching now. I promise man, listen to your mom. They have that intuition, bro. It's real. The mother's intuition, that's a true thing.
