ADHD but medicated

[Music] before we start I just want to say that just really quick you should know okay just really quick it's good for you to know that what I'm gonna say in this video is not to deter you or convince you of ADHD medication this is just my experience of which started out really good but then quickly declined into stinky icky bad so the last video I figured out that I had ADHD because I had symptoms symptoms such as often has trouble holding attention on tasks often does not seem to listen when spoken to directly or is often easily distracted you know stuff like that so what was the solution drug in America medication doesn't come cheap so this wasn't like a just whatever decision this sprouted from some real need to the surprise of no one ADHD brain isn't very productive my thoughts either do not complete or just overlap with one another and that's very annoying it's a lot of chaos and it can be really frustrating when I'm trying to focus hey guys what is two plus two I don't know probably two I think it could be four who even made math yeah it's probably just another two probably another two useful to know like with my life Warriors what do you imagine it sounds like when we play eight different trumpets randomly at the same time well I wonder what we can find out this happens when I'm talking to other people and I could like forget their name it happened in school and work and I'm sure it's a big reason as to why I had to retake clashes in high school and honestly I just want my hands on the wheel for once and I was told that meds could be a way to achieve that have you guys gotten any work done at all where's a guy in charge here there's tons of medications to choose from you got Adderall vyvans Ritalin Concerta and many others for my first medication I used Adderall we started out really low about five milligrams of Adderall so what does Adderall feel like it takes a little bit to kick in but when it does I gain this strange ability just the ability to be able to so you see a lot of my unmedicated days goes like this I will think of a thing to do task a but then my brain is like yo wait there's this other thing you should do first because it's probably going to take like no time at all and then that happens a couple times and then I start on the least important task to get like halfway through it take a break forget about all of the other tasks and then get distracted by anything else within my field of view which if I'm online is infinity then the day is done and I've made a laughably small amount of progress when Adderall was introduced into my system I was like I should do task a and then I did task a the loop was gone there was no sensation it was just ability so the meds were good for a while until they weren't for good reason but firstly I'd like to thank you for willingly sitting down to listen to my sponsor nordvpn you're all comfortable you want anything snacks water you're good great nordvpn is a virtual private network 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cleaning up other General messes around the house because I could physically fix that stuff but if I needed to sit and think about things it was really hard see the ability to do a thing was gained but I never got the ability to focus and that was the core of my problem so out goes the Adderall so I talked to a friend who also has ADHD about this problem after some chatting he mentioned he was taking Vyvanse which is supposed to work differently than other meds for ADHD it's a slower burn and that can help in different ways for different people specifically for him it helps him a lot with Focus which is what I wanted yeah Adderall is great but also you're effectively taking math huh you might want to talk to your psych about Vyvanse if you're looking for something more mellow considering my goals and my general aversion to math that seemed like a good idea so I did bring up the idea of I Advanced my psych and we decided to give it a go Vyvanse felt way different than Adderall when I took it there was absolutely more Focus like way too much Focus so it comes around the first day of me trying out my new medication it takes about an hour to kick in so when I first tried it nothing happened for a while but then it hit and when it did I was watching a show about space flight and it became very easy to follow along instead of consuming multiple forms of media at once I was keenly aware and focused on this space documentary but that Focus plus curiosity about spaceflight led me into learning and researching the science of Rocket fight and orbital mechanics cool but that's not what I needed to do for the day I was so enthralled with the information that by the time the medication wore off the day was over and I did no work I figured out the problem was I was able to work with Incredible Focus I just needed to do the right task when the medication began its effects easy I thought this was great how foolish of me if I'm not doing what I need to be doing while the meds are focusing me on the wrong thing then it's not working I would wake up I'd take a pill be distracted then be locked into that thing I was distracted on for the whole day so I had days that were crazy productive or days that were totally shot it was all just a gamble it felt like I was so close to getting rid of my distractibility so I kept convincing myself that it was just a matter of getting my habits right then some weird stuff started to happen one day I took my beds and I'm working on one of many things I'm not supposed to be working on and then I started to feel out of breath I immediately think it's covered so I go to do tests talk to doctors but coven doesn't show up did you take a covet test yeah is it covered no so I'm not sure what this is the feeling was like if I had just stopped jogging but constantly I had a feeling that it was the meds that were causing this problem but I feel like I was so desperate to have the medications work that I was in denial that it was a med that were causing the problem so I just kept taking it and then I did something really stupid I was supposed to have a conversation with my psych in the future and I could have just contacted him sooner and talked about these symptoms but then I waited until I got really bad I was having headaches I could hardly sleep one day I couldn't wait anymore the symptoms got really bad and I tried to contact him but he was out of town and unreachable by this point and so I did a really bad thing that you were never supposed to do do not do this ever I stopped taking the meds and I'm very thankful that I had no adverse reaction to this but for me it worked out and after a couple of days of not taking the meds that was fine so that's my experience with ADHD medication I'm off meds now and I'm all good but now I'm kind of back to square one I think the oh God the story here is do not beat tunnel vision Ed on results like me if you're having a bad experience with medication talk to your medical 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Length: 7min 55sec (475 seconds)

Published: Wed Mar 01 2023