Transforming Of Your Mind - Blake Healy - June 01, 2018

all right well how many of you have heard me here before when I've when I visited awesome cool how many of you this is your first time we talk awesome how many of you are concerned them to make you raise your hands again none of you that's good awesome all right well it's true my name is Blake and I've began healing both of those at you or Buddhist rupee and I've seen the spirit for as long as I can remember in fact my first memories are seeing an angel I remember I was um I was two years old and was sitting in the backseat of my my parents car seat or rather the car seat my parents had purchased for me I mean they owned it so was there I guess but oh I sorry I just had this like image of my dad trying to sit in at the kitchen table or something like that I'm getting my use out of this thing um but I remember sitting in the back seat weird at the drive-through window at the bank my mom's chatting to teller and we're this worship music is playing and I remember just looking up and seeing a half dozen of these baseball sized Lights is kind of drifting back and forth in time with the music and so I've seen these things for my for my whole life and before we dive into what I want to talk it about with you guys today I wanted to share just briefly about some of the stuff that I saw in worship just a few months ago that's okay with you guys um it was cool because I think both what what was just talked about during during offering and even what was going on a worship and what I feel like the Lord was leading me to talk about it kind of all lined up a lot more right in a row than even I'm necessarily accustomed to so I'm really excited to see what God whatever lease is for you guys tonight I am so it was interesting so the first thing this sounds negative so let's just keep rolling with me I as soon as I walked in i saw this big thick sheet of glass in front of the stage it was thick I mean if he was like like like you know giant aquarium glass like it was like this thick and it was all in front of the whole stage Maya doesn't seem very nice now it's all I got in the containing thing it's getting better I promised and I could tell that it was thick and that it was there and so worship started and I saw just the the presence of God start ending the room from behind from behind you guys here on the stage and it was rushing for but it was hitting this it was hitting this this glass and then just kind of bouncing back and they kept kind of doing that and doing that so for the first song I saw these um angel on each side of the stage and they had this big each of them had a big hammer like a club type thing and they were swinging back and forth in time with the music banging on this glass they kept hitting it and hitting it and hitting it and hitting it and after or not until like towards the end of the song did it even start to crack it wasn't it wasn't falling down it wasn't coming up art yeah but it was just cracking and you know they were kind of hitting different places to get to crack more and more and more and then um I don't remember the name of the song but as we got through we did kind of a little bit of a slower and quieter song and as soon as that happened I saw the presence of God into the room in a different way before him when it first came rushing in it was like this this he's it was like this bright white lights that were just kind of zipping zipping in this time it came in I was like this very thin blue smoke that came in almost like incense smoke you know and it came in very slowly and as it did it just kind of built and built and built up against the glass wall and then just very slowly almost like it was you know almost like it was underwater or something like that the glass just started to crumble and and come down so it continued to slowly fall down more and more as time went and then at the end something cool happened so all 99% of it was down and all the little pieces of glass like little you know there were these big chunks of glass because it was a big thick window we're sitting in the margin between the stage and the chairs here and when we got to that you believe that I'm good song I which I'm still very big fan of the I saw the Lord walk in and he started picking up the pieces of glass and breaking them with his hands and breaking them and he was breaking them in such that they actually looked like jewels and then I saw him walking around and started setting them in people's hair or on their on their wrists or things like that in their like decorations and I heard and I heard the Holy Spirit say as I was watching like how this is interesting I heard the Holy Spirit say the things that were a barrier between the you and me I want to turn into things that show my show the care and the beauty that I see in you I want the things that used to be a barrier between you and me to be gifts to you that that's not only is it just a decoration to you but a reminder of the breakthrough that you've had and this is a quick prophetic word to the worship team here at first I was like wow that's really thick glass that seems like it seems difficult um and I heard the Holy Spirit say that they it the way this works in my mind is kind of interesting it's almost like I felt like he allowed more of a barrier to be there because the anointing that you guys carry could break through more of it and it was almost a representation of breaking in deeper deeper opportunity for breakthrough and everyone else in the room and so that was really cool it's like instead of just like one little layer at a time was like oh let's give this big chunk removed kind of thing and so that was that was really cool and that actually leads perfectly to what I want to talk about tonight so I've I've been seeing in the spirit my whole life I've seen angels demons and other spiritual things every single day just about any time I have the mind to look and I want to share with you guys what the the most painful thing for me to see is so good yeah it's very exciting now some and now when people here I'll few my stories or some of my back and they might think I only see demonic stuff oppressing people that's gonna be the most painful thing when you see people who are carrying spiritual wounds or bitterness or things like that that's that's the most painful thing and even though those things make me sad they honestly don't bother me that much mainly because anytime I look at those for any length of time I can feel the plans of heaven conspiring to bring health and wholeness to those things and so honestly those things don't bother me that much the thing the category of things that are the most painful for me is when I see God's goodness so so generously and profoundly released on his people but that goodness that kindness those gifts that he give us remain on the table because we don't know how or we're not aware that we have permission to pick them up to me that's the most painful thing because we're sitting on this side of the cross we're sitting on this side of ultimate victory we're sitting on this side of being adopted into his kingdom of getting a free invitation into his kingdom a clear door into his kingdom and the idea that anyone anyone would miss out on the full benefit of that access the full benefit of Jesus's sacrifice it's kind of a bummer right so this is a broad category for me but I I kind of have one one one scripture here and one section of my life that I feel like it exemplifies this one area where we can start combating the things that lead to us missing what God has for us does that make sense okay this is one of my favorite scriptures very familiar one but if you would turn here just a little we can kind of have this in front of us it's our Romans 12 how many of you just out of curiosity how many of you more or less grew up in the church in some form okay cool so I'm one of those I'm one of you guys I grew up in the church my parents got saved just a little after I was born I actually met someone in their Lamaze class that led them to Lourdes and vital mature so I like to think that I led them to the Lord in a indirect sort of way and so I've been going to church my whole life I've been going to sunday-school my whole life and so one of the things I have noticed for those of us who have grown up in the church even sometimes folks who haven't grow up in the church just as we do hear things about this sometimes is that some of these scriptures some of the most profound scriptures that we read all the time they get taught all the time we can sometimes almost we can handle them so much that they can almost lose their edge you know we can we can hear a you know a parable that Jesus tells or a key scripture or you know John 3:16 or whatever it is we can hear it so many times that it just becomes this thing that we are so familiar with this this theme song that we can hum without really thinking about it kind of thing rather than being the true and living Word of God you know and so I I remember there was this one stage in my life where this is my late teens where I was kind of going back to all these old scriptures that I had heard hundreds of times and looking for these scriptures that I had kind of put into too much of a box you know that I had that had been overly familiar with that when I would hear just kind of go in one ear and out the other because I had heard it so many times I didn't really even need to listen if that makes sense and this is one of those scriptures and I'm sure this is one that you guys are familiar Romans 12 verse 2 do not conform to the pattern of this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is his good pleasing and perfect will anyone ever heard that one before we hear it a lot I remember I was rereading this scripture and it was right around the time that I was coming to this realization that man the thing that makes me the most sad when I see it is is not the demonic stuff that I see it's not when I see spiritual wounds it's why I see all this good stuff that God is made available to his people that goes unclaimed and then I saw this scripture that says do not conform to the pattern of this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind and then this next sentence which ties into what I was feeling then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is his good pleasing and perfect will then you will get to experience you will become aware of you'll be able to test and approve you have you have the tools to recognize and say yes that is God's pleasing and perfect will so the ace there is a then there is a something that is between me being able to recognize this and not being able to recognize this and so when I heard this scripture taught maybe you heard it this way to my if I were to turn this scripture into my own words from you know back when I was younger I would probably say something more or less like the world is bad don't do things like the world do things the way God does something like that maybe all any theologians in here about to flip back about this share but that's like you know the Sun me sitting in sunday-school hearing this scripture trying to figure it out I would probably be my my interpretation for him and recently I looked into some of the original language here and I was it was actually from an article that Brian Simmons who wrote the passion translation of the are translated the passage translation of the Bible was talking about this specific scripture where the the metaphor that was used here was more akin to do not allow yourself to be pressed into the mold of this world and as soon as I read that it took on a different picture and it took me to a very specific time of my life so I'm gonna I want to share just this this little section of my life with you guys and then tell you how it made me see the scripture differently that sound good cool you guys very agreeable I like that um so I've seen the spirit my whole life from the age of zero to twelve I more or less didn't know that what I had was a gift when I was a little kid you know I would say when I would see certain things and you know hey is there a flying dog over our town you know why is why are those golden ladies dancing around during worship you know things like that and my parents were never very thrown off by these things because I would also you know get very excited about like mailboxes and airplanes things like that and so I my parents assumed that I was just being a kid and I assumed that they were just as uninterested in the golden people and flying dogs as they were in the mailboxes and airplanes that I also found very fascinating and so there's mutual ignorance for a good while and around the age of nine I started realizing I start getting old enough that I'm realizing that I'm getting weird looks for my friends when I mentioned this I talked about that and I am right before I could really put two and two together like I said I grew up in the church and around nine years old as when we started going to churches that really believed in the prophetic and the gifts of the Spirit and things like that but it wasn't something that was actively taught necessarily it was just kind of something that was allowed to happen and so I still didn't really have a grid for what was going on and so around nine years old as I'm starting to put two and two together just a little bit realizing that my experience is different from the people around me I started experiencing tremendous fear every single night I would see demonic things and in experience a lot of fear now before then I would see demonic stuff and it was really neither here nor there with me it was it was like it was something on TV like I didn't feel any sense of danger I didn't feel any active fear but for some reason as soon as I turned nine years old every single night I would experience this just absolute tremendous overwhelming fear and it happened every single night for about three years I was from nine to twelve when I was twelve we I was a missionary kid so he moved around a fair bit and when I was twelve we moved back to our original in Southern California and started going to a church that was really active about training people in the prophetic in healing all the different gifts of the Spirit and we my mom dragged me to this prophetic class I don't really want to go but she talked me into it um which listen to your mom because that worked out for my entire life um I went to this prophetic class and then hearing them teach about the prophetic it was the first time that I had heard anything that fit at all with the experience that I had you know what they were teaching wasn't necessarily the exact thing when I was experiencing but it was the first thing that was even in the ballpark that gave me enough of a grid to to finally share with my parents what was going on because up until that point I had just been saying that I was scared of that I was having nightmares mostly because I didn't want them to lock me up I was a very prudent child so so I finally share with my parents what's going on and I start learning about the prophetic and as soon as I realized that what I was experiencing because up into that point my my best guess was that okay I'm either I had two options neither which was very exciting either I'm crazy not very exciting or the devil just flipped open the phone book landed on my name and said I'm gonna ruin this guy's life which is also not very exciting and when I went to this prophetic class I ran into this surprising third option that oh I just had a gift that I hadn't learned how to manage yet that I hadn't learned how to point in the right direction yet and as soon as I learned that and shared with my parents what was going on the night time terror stuff stopped completely over the course of one week and and in that week it lost all of its all of its sting all of its all the fear that was associated with it was completely gone and so yeah fast forwarded through that part because this next section is the one that I wanted to deal with so I'm 12 years old I just learned that I have superpowers or something like that and like all right well that means I'm suppose to use it right right make sense and so I had a lot of challenges at first no learning what to say what not to say you know I'd talk about and I was still so even though I had been seeing this stuff all my all my life I hadn't really been talking to the Holy Spirit about it I hadn't really been talking to leaders about it you know it was just something that happened so even though I saw a lot of things I didn't understand what it meant or what I was supposed to do with it and so if I would see something small like an angel dancing and worship or something like that and I would go and tell maybe the worship team or our pastor and then they would have all these questions about well what does that mean and what should we do and how should we respond and I don't know I'm 12 and so that was a little bit tricky but but fine and there's other things like well I see all this demonic stuff too so I'm probably supposed to say something about that and I'll very briefly tell of my first failure with this I am I said all right well I see this stuff I should probably take a crack at you know doing this thing and so looked around the room saw someone standing at the back walk back there and he's you know 40 45 I'm probably 13 at this point and I walk up and say excuse me there's a demon on your shoulder that's scratching at the back of your neck and I think that you should probably stop looking at pornography he was not exhorted or comforted or edified by by that statement and got very upset with me oh my ok maybe this is not the way to do this I I need to figure this out so I'm bumping around you know trying to figure this out and one of the one of the leaders at the church who's kind of the second in command over the prophetic team there really took me under his wing started you know I started going to these prophetic classes every week and joined the prophetic team even though I was a really young and so I was practicing every week I was bouncing things off him he didn't have the same gift that I had he didn't see in the spirit the way that I did but he um he had been in the prophetic ministry for a very long time and so he had a lot of help and wisdom and my mom as well was really growing in the prophetic at this time and so we would meet with him and kind of balance things off him and it was really really awesome and helpful to have someone to talk to well about a year into that relationship it came out that this this guy that I had been connecting with and kind of you know being mentored by a little bit was was struggling with alcoholism and had been the pursuing a predatory relationship with one of the people in our youth group and even though he had never had anything like that towards me you know he had he was removed from the church and I just I didn't I hadn't known that any of this was going on and I felt so devastated I went through this time I even just stopped talking about seeing the spirit at all because I was going through this process of denying you know how much of what I have learned under his under his tutelage was was good was bad was was right was wrong you know am I have I been like going down the wrong way without it what I need this means you know I felt so lost and confused and hurt and so I just really stepped back and shut down with with talking about that at all so in the intervening years you know I would often on share a little bit and still even when I would share things I a lot of times you know people had more questions than I knew how to respond to or people would be confused by what I saw or I would only understand a tiny little bit of what I saw and not be able to explain the fuller picture and so all of these were challenging and frustrating and so during this time I think there was probably about five or six different people who tried to take me under the wing would be kind of the commenter for there's different different leaders in our environment different different spiritual fathers in our environment that wanted to connect with me wanted to mentor me and I was still just feeling so hurt and betrayed from that experience that I had had so I distanced myself from every single one of them now being the mature healthy communicator that I was I when they would why are you laughing I didn't tell them that I didn't want to be mentored them they would kind of come and talk to me about it and I would just never talk to them ever again and then if I saw it like if I'm walking in the back of the church and they're walking this way I would just go this other way you know and sit in the closet until they left you know something like that something healthy and normal that you're supposed to be to me PKK's being sarcastic if that's not clear that's not what you're supposed to do and so I think I complicated after five or six you know you really got to plan your routes through a building to avoid all those people um so that kind of went on for about two or three years and so finally there's this other other guy he was one of the one of the leaders over the prayer ministry had our had our church who starts connecting with me and I'm gonna go into this story just just very very briefly but it um his son had just passed away from leukemia and the son was a friend of mine and it was you know one of those stories where he was struggling with it for four years and he would get we don'twe better and then worse than better than worse and the whole church is praying and believing and had their faith behind him and it just didn't we just didn't see it happen this time and he ended up passing away and I am I was kind of a cool story actually a couple of weeks before he passed away we we all went camping together and our two families and I he ended up asking me to pray for him to recede to get to seeing the spirit and he was the first person in my entire life I'd laid my hands on I prayed for him and instantaneously he received the gift of seeing in the spirit and I started seeing with his eyes for the rest of his life um and so his you know Oh a good chunk of time after after his son passed away his father started connecting with me more and I knew that I was supposed to have spiritual mothers and fathers in my life I knew that it was something that was right you know I knew that that's you know that that's one of the ways that God designed you know church family to work together but I didn't want to because I had experienced this hurt in my past I had experienced what would felt like a betrayal in the past and so this person would try to meet with me and connect with me and the the emotional metaphor a physical version of an emotional experience that I was having was anytime we would talk I'd be like okay let's talk you know with my hands extended to keep a safe distance and you know I would still kind of connect with him and kind of move towards but with both hands extended to keep distance that makes sense you know in my heart I kept feeling wanted to keep this distance wanted to keep this distance so that went on for about a year and then we we we went to this youth camp and the youth group and the this gentleman and his kids and everything there's kids came to this and one of his friends came to the youth camp and we started and started doing some ministry and as this I know there's a little complicated relationship but it's not that important to the core this story this person started praying and just felt weird it felt funky the the style that he was praying the kind of things that he was praying just felt a little bit weird to me spiritually and when I looked I saw some demonic things around and so it wasn't this this guy who died mentoring me it was a friend of his and so I just felt confused and weird about it and talked to my youth pastor about I talked to my mom about it and I said hey let's just go talk to him you know let's go talk to that leader in our church who said here's hey here's what's going on so I went and I shared what I had seen and the as I shared it with him I just watched him get quieter and quieter and quieter and basically the entirety of this conversation was me explaining what I saw in him saying okay if that's what you saw like I don't think this went well I'm not sure why but I don't well and I after words I kind of heard through the grapevine that Hugh had told a few other people that I had said he was conjuring demons during during our youth camp which is not what I said and I felt super hurt and super betrayed and super not not trusted and my oh I forgot people aren't safe and again created distance and again in the middle of this I'm still trying to learn how to share this this gift I'm trying to and I'm having a hard time it's frustrating it feels like what I'm what I'm the biggest frustration I guess if it really comes down to it is every time that I see in the spirit I can feel something deeper it's not just oh it's exciting when I see ten foot angels coming in and dance during worship it's not just oh it's exciting when I when I see people pray and something happens every single time it's that I feel something deeper on the other side of it and I don't feel that deeper thing get released when I speak about the things that I see and that makes me not want to talk about it at all and again I didn't have that good language of for that at the time but that's what I was experiencing and I again really didn't feel like I had anyone to talk to about it now just just to be clear for my parents sake especially as they're watching on the stream my parents were fantastic during this entire time they struck a fantastic balance between letting me be a kid and letting me be a teenager and all so making sure that I didn't let this gift atrophy or didn't let my relationship with God atrophy they were wonderful in that balance and I always have been and still am very close with my parents but this this next stage this next tier of relationship these spiritual mothers and fathers just felt unsafe to me and so not too long after that the Lord comes and tells me to go to the Bethel school of supernatural ministry in Redding California which is um now I'm part of Bethel Atlanta and so you can kind of see how this story goes but as soon as you did I said no I am NOT going to that school because I know I'm going to have to talk about the seeing in the spirit stuff and I don't want to because only makes messes and hurts people and so I said no for a whole year and I won the argument which is it always before voting when you win an argument against God you know that's that's what do you got to be worried um and so that whole year went by a bunch of my friends went up to the school and just a breeze past the store he he had been asking me for a year to go and I said no no no no no and then just as that previous school year that I would have been would have gone to was ending the Holy Spirit came again and said you really need to go to that school and a friend of mine called me on the phone five seconds after the Holy Spirit said that and there first the first words out of her mouth are you really need to come to this school and I could just feel all the beautiful defenses that I built up against this idea just completely melt and and so I decided to go and so time goes on September comes to go up to school to the school of ministry there and I'm sitting in these classes hearing from these great leaders and they're they're giving this wonderful wisdom and I feel like I'm growing so much but I feel this disconnection between myself and these leaders and I can't quite put my finger on why and I'm going through this in for about three months I'm just feeling a little bit of a disconnect I'm feeling this critical thing kind of come with my mind where I'm always looking for holes in what they're teaching or looking for looking for a theological breaks or just different things like that you know I'm looking for failure I guess this would be a way that I that I would look at him and all of a sudden after three months I hear the Holy Spirit to say you're not letting any of these people father you and I knew that I was mistaken because my immediate emotional reaction was why would I let them do that that's not safe and as soon as I felt that thought process come to the surface I knew that I was missing something do not conform to the pattern of this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind if we think of that as the world is bad don't be like the world that's maybe part of the revelation but especially when you hear the what the original metaphor was intended to be don't allow yourself to be pressed into the mold of this world to me it immediately evokes this image of don't let what happens to you in this life form how you think and how you act let Jesus transform the way that you think enact let him determine how you think and act I experienced pain at 12 13 years old because I felt betrayed because someone who I thought was safe ended up not being safe unfortunately that was a mold that conformed my mind that I conformed to oh I've experienced this that means I'm going to metaphorically have spikes out to anyone who wants to have that kind of relationship with me and they're gonna need to figure out how to get by those spikes if they if they want to be close to me because all of a sudden it's my job to protect me instead of God's job to protect me in fact as I'm realizing this as I'm going through this process when the Holy Spirit's asking me to allow these people at this school administrative father me I go back to that to that other gentleman who had mentored me who I felt betrayed by again who had been hurt when I've said that I had seen demonic stuff come up when when he and his friend were praying and I heard the Holy Spirit say you haven't owned your side of that problem I immediately went into defense mode which also is when you know that you're in the wrong when you're talking about spear and you feel defensive i I was that was you know 15 years old how could I have known or weathered I do or yeah maybe I didn't say it perfectly but that's not the point and all of a sudden I looked back and thought about that distance that I kept in my heart the whole time of this person was trying to mentor me in fact what I had done was ensured distance in our relationship so that when a moment came where we needed to pull on that connection I had ensured that it was weak and would break the second that any kind of pressure was put on it does that make sense now again I did the other person certainly had responsibility in this in this circumstance and not you know it's no I wasn't you know taking on false blame but it was also important to recognize that I contributed to the situation by not creating connection but by distancing myself and creating division so that when any kind of earthquake any kind of little moment came up it just immediately snapped there's this a friend of mine who's a neurologist and he um he talks about how like maybe you can think maybe this is a situation that you've been in or maybe you've seen a friend to go through where something traumatic happens you know there's sometimes some people they have something traumatic happen and they kind of do okay they find their friend group you know whatever it is maybe they're going through a divorce maybe they're you know they have something tragic happen or that it's going through a difficult financial time sometimes you see people and they how they pull on their friend group they pull on their family or they they pull on the Lord and they they make it through even if it's challenging even if it's rough they make it through and then you could probably think of maybe even times of you in your own life or times in friends that you've seen where something comes up and they just snap they they come apart where where where they go into this this painful dark place emotionally or they shut down or they sometimes have a nervous breakdown or mental breakdown and things like that and this friend of mine who's a neurologist said and he used this metaphor thy light like in certain countries you know if if there's a there's earthquakes in Los Angeles all the time but very few of them cause buildings to fall down in this mass destruction because the entire city of Los Angeles has been built to accommodate earthquakes sometimes in these third-world countries when you there's an earthquake and it flattens the entire city you said they a lot of those cultures don't put reinforcement or rebar in there in there in between their bricks so those structures are perfectly sound when they're just sitting there but the second a trauma happens they completely collapse if we if we just and I if we just go by everything's fine or everything's together and we don't let the Holy Spirit teach us how to build healthy structures in our life healthy relational structures healthy places to pull on healthy connections with other people with him if there is a trauma a sir as a shaking that the stuff will rattle apart and they don't want that I don't want that to cause fear I don't want that to cause like where's my rebar what does it how am I gonna do this you know how do I check what is how does this metaphor apply to my life right now it's it's just letting yourself be led by him it's not conforming to the pattern of this world it's it's not just letting what you've experienced teach you it's letting Jesus teach you how to receive what happens in your life and that just to touch on this to like this is built on this and it this is my neurologist friend again like you know we have this healthy system in our body and you know the classic example uses the frying pan you know you see the frying pan you put your hand on the frying pan when it's hot you experience pain ouch okay that hurt don't do that again well when you're dealing with frying pans that's a good thing to know you know now what can happen is when we don't understand when we don't know a proper frying pan is a very simple situation obviously it's like okay I can understand that how that works but as soon as you get something a little bit more complicated than a frying pan like a like someone being feeling like you've been betrayed by someone or feeling or going through a messy divorce or more complex situation it can be its orders of magnitude more difficult for us to understand why we experience that pain and if we are too quick to make judgments as to why I experienced that pain then we are building those petaa same pathways that tell us that make us hesitate without even thinking about it before touching a frying pan we're building those same pathways in the way that we think about people and the way that we think about life and the way that we even listen to 'lord sometimes and so that that sounds big and scary that sounds like oh how I deal with this thankfully and the first right before really helps explain how we go after this and this this is I think this is one of those things that's so simple that we sometimes forget to do it we think that it's it's almost too simple to do this the very for the very first verse in this chapter that leads directly into the next one I think it lays it out beautifully so Romans 12 verse 1 therefore I urge you brothers and sisters in view of God's mercy to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice holy and pleasing to god this is your true and proper worship and then again it goes in to do not conform to the pattern of this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is his good pleasing and perfect will I think part of being a living sacrifice to God is we have choices in what we're going to throw onto the altar we can come to church that means we're throwing some of our time on the altar we can give in at either an offering ok that's throwing some of my money on the altar I can ask the Holy Spirit what I'm supposed to do with my life what direction I'm supposed to go well that's me throwing some of my decisions on my future on the altar or we can decide I want to throw everything on the altar I want to throw the entirety of myself including my opinion my experience my beliefs my thought patterns who I choose to hang out with who I choose not to hang out with and this is one of those things that's so important because if there's one thing that I find that does that thing that I dislike so much that that disconnects us that cause us to miss what God has for us is us under estimating just how good he is it's us under estimating just how good he is because if some part of you felt scared when I said throw everything on the altar first of all don't be ashamed I used to be scared when those kind of scriptures would come up all the time but as time went on I realized that's just because I don't trust God to give the best of me back that's just because I don't I'm not trusting that anything that God wouldn't burn up would be the best of me would be the truest me would be the realest me would be the the most perfect most beautiful most wonderful most exciting me that that if I laid it all on altar he would give the absolute best of me back because that's what he wanted from the beginning that was he was after from the beginning that the only thing that would burn out would be anything that wasn't of him that wasn't his that wasn't his design and his purpose and when we give him everything when we give him our opinion about even our experiences in our life then that is how we can be transformed by the renewing of our mind we can choose to let the blood of Jesus Christ inform our perspective about life and our experiences instead of internal mechanisms that were designed for good but can be sabotage when we experience pain and now that wasn't the only thing that led to me getting breakthrough with sharing what the gifts that I had with the world but it was one of the big steps because you know I think sometimes and then maybe you guys don't have the same you but sometimes we can look at people who whether it's our own past or a teacher and think like oh I wish I could serve God as much as they do or people who travel around administered like like myself oh I wish I could serve God the way that they do or I wish I was gifted the way that they are and now on one side there's nothing wrong with being hungry for a gift that someone else has because they all come from God and so if you're hungry for her gift and someone has you're just hungry for that part of God and there's nothing wrong with that whatsoever and you need to know that you again you can receive from the greatest giver of all however the truth is is that the only limiter on our ability to serve God - to be a champion of his kingdom to be a true ambassador of his kingdom is simply on our level of connection with him that's the only limiter how connected we are to him how much we trust him how much we were led by him how much we've put into that connection how much we've allowed him to transform who we are because you can't I love I love the implication here it's the implication is almost the opposite of what seems natural it's not the the it's not the law it's not the old version of you need to work to get access to God it's literally don't conform to Pat in this world don't try to learn based on what you're experiencing around you he transformed you that you are allowing yourself to be transformed by him by presenting yourself as a living sacrifice by giving it all to him and seeing what beautiful things he gives back one small nugget just for the end at the end of my first year at the school of ministry I went on a missions trip and while I was there a friend of mine gave me one of the shortest simplest but most transformative prophetic words of my life we're driving down to our mission ship she calls me over our walkie talkie because we were all caravanning down and then she said I heard the Holy Spirit say it's time to come out of the cave and instantly I felt the grace to step into a season where I was sharing the gift of seeing the Spirit released on my life and I shared with everyone down there while I was on the mission ship about the things that I saw and it went really well I went to a friend's home group when I got back and shared my entire life story about seeing in the spirit for the first time in my entire life and I answered questions for three and a half hours which would have terrified old Blake but I had stepped into a new season because I had been transformed by the renewing of my mind I don't want this to be scary but I do want it this leads directly into what I've started this talk with which is that I don't want any of us to miss out on what God has for us I've seen angels my entire life that gift was useless to me until I allowed myself to be transformed by the renewing of my mind that gift didn't mean anything when it wasn't inside of a transformed monetary my ability to to minister and to release what God has given me isn't has nothing to do with how gifted I am or am not it has to do with whether I've presented myself as a living sacrifice and allowed myself to be transformed allowed my mind to be transformed because that is what makes room for growth that is what makes room for release and I'm I'm passionate about this because when we even in the positive sense when we are conformed to the world when I see an awesome minister with I see Billy Graham someone who has led hundreds of thousands of people to the Lord I see that gift I admired that gift those are both good things to do but I think that that is what it is to be a minister or to release heaven on earth then I I am if that is if I am conforming to that image that I see in front of me and there's a chance that even if 99% of my gifting is just like Billy Graham I'm missing one percent of heaven that has been laid in my heart that was not laid in Billy Graham's heart so that means that the world is missing out on a corner of heaven because I'm letting Billy Graham teach me how to brace the kingdom instead of letting Jesus teach me how to release the kingdom does that make sense and there's nothing wrong with being inspired by other leaders we're supposed to actually receive from the gifts of others because I don't get to touch that 1% that Billy Graham has unless I receive it from him and then and receive what he carries in the same way that I don't get to receive what this church carries unless I come connect with you guys honor you for who you are gonna see that in the same way that you guys don't get to receive Who I am unless you receive it from me step into a little bit of repent I think here for just a second I I feel like the Lord is releasing us into a season where the church is going to step into an unprecedented level of thought of authority in the earth I feel my knees shake not out of fear but out of anticipation of the voice that the church is about to inherit because of an impartation from the kingdom and I strongly believe that one of the keys to being able to sustain that voice to have that voice be one that represents God's kingdom is for all of us to step into the reality of becoming the manifest sons and daughters of God which means that we need to be led by Jesus into who we're supposed to be not even not even not we need to not even be led by something that is as good as a gifted minister or a good teaching or a good theology these things are essential they are important but we need to be led by Jesus as to who we are supposed to be I'm I'm interested because what it means to have a voice and a platform is changing faster now than it ever has at any point in human history the the way that a voice happens in the world is changing rapidly and I can almost hear and feel the the platform that the Lord has planned for the church being constructed in human society right now and the only way that we're gonna be ready when our stage opens up is if we are ready to be the manifested sons and daughters of God if we are gazing into his eyes and being transformed into his likeness so that as as we were seeing him becoming more like him and so I want to I want to step into that a little bit right now I am I feel like the Lord when I when I saw the that picture of this this this glass up here and it being slowly broken and kind of coming down in chunks and then I went especially when I saw the Lord come in and start breaking into these smaller pieces I felt like the Lord wanted was ready to deal with some of the ways that we've conform to the pattern of this world tonight and I feel like there's specific individual things that you guys have built up and I've honestly this is every single one of us every single one of us has this every single one of us has at some point touch the frying-pan experience pain and built a belief system around that experience we've done that in relationships we've done that in church relationships in marital relationships whatever else we we have had that experience of experiencing pain and pain teaching us how to respond but I feel like what God wants to do tonight is he wants to break those barriers down fashioned them into what he designed them to be and place them as a crown on your I didn't prepare for this ahead of time but if I could someone to play some piano for entebbe fantastic thank you because if I tried the Holy Spirit would leave that's not the corner of the kingdom that I that I have have a hold on right now all right so I'm gonna ask all of you guys to stand up and we're gonna we're gonna do this generally first I really want the Holy Spirit to lead this process because this is again this isn't about an inner healing method even though those things can be so helpful this isn't about getting the right prophetic word those are so helpful those are part of God's design but that's not what it's about tonight tonight it's about being transformed by the renewing of your mind this is about presenting your experience as a living sacrifice this is about an experience etting the the world that you've built up on the inside that's a living sacrifice to him so I'm gonna pray a few things and when I feel like it's time to transition out of that I feel like what we're gonna do is after I pray a few things I'm gonna have the the Bassam students come up and in just a minute and just prep pray and go a little bit deeper within what feels like that God's pulling out some deep roots I am gonna be led by the Holy Spirit but I can just feel a special it's a special opportunity for breakthrough tonight I feel like the Lord has been sowing into it since the very beginning of the night for a moment one of the night even again what we what we were doing and where she felt it was in preparation for this breakthrough even even the the talk about receiving during the offeree failure was leading to what he's wanting to release tonight and so again you know if you need to go at some point or if you um if you just if you just feel like you you've got what you came for them that's that's wonderful I'm not a completely trusting of that but I would ask that if something in your heart knows there's still a little bit more that he has to remove and replace just a [Music] Lord what is invite your presence right now invite your touch into this room I feel like [Music] that's the Holy Spirit the first thing you wanted to do was and I heard him say I want to reestablish trust [Music] and I immediately saw a picture of a of a horse and when you're when you're training a horse to be ridden you have to build trust between yourself and the horses of us when is the first time who's never been ridden before and you weren't one of the ways they build trust is just through establishing healthy contact that I can I can you know touch the horse on the side touch it on on it its back or something like that and that'd be a safe experience I feel like right now at the Holy Spirit still is because once the county wants to touch you with his presence and he wants to create safety create I am coming and I am and I'm touching your heart and a reestablishing trust [Music] you may see a picture of this your mind's eye miss a picture of the Lord coming to you you may just have a feeling in your argument as a feel of warmth to me just feel a connection you may feel the opposite come up you may feel a sense of fear and the urge to step back or to or to you know pull back now to encourage you if you feel that feeling to pull back first don't let don't let that be something that tries to attach shame [Music] sometimes the enemy tries to use logic to [Music] create a barrier of shame between us and God because logically we know God is God logically we know he's perfect logically we know we should feel safe in his presence we shouldn't feel scared by him we shouldn't feel we should trust him but God is willing to work through it if that's not your experience right now he did have not experienced safety he had something in your history the fella can't damage the trust between you and God he's willing to put to put the work in to connect and work through that he doesn't just need you to blindly trust him he's willing to engage in the trust relationship so even if you feel that urge to pull back don't let it cause you to have shame thinking I shouldn't feel that way I shouldn't I shouldn't flinch that way but also don't let it cause you to disengage beautiful things that it's not about what we do it's about what he does so we have to do is stay [Music] [Music] so I feel like God's gonna start bringing up some specific situations to you and maybe a story like mine where were something that happened or something that someone did hurt you that caused you to build a belief system around either around God or around other people or around yourself just like the picture I saw at the beginning of the night I feel like he's gonna pick up those big chunky broken pieces of glass those pieces of lastic are sharp and jagged and could be dangerous and he's going to with his bare hands just break them apart into a beautiful shape and as he's breaking those apart in his hands he may hand some of it to you there may be like it was for me there may be some that you need to let go of there may be a realization that I contributed to to that moment of pain I my restraint or my mind out or my fear contributed to that moment of pain and the beautiful thing is when when the Holy Spirit hands you responsibility it's true responsibility not shame and guilt because you can see in his eyes that he thinks no less than you for having made a mistake so if that shame tries to get in I contributed to that in the hi I I did this I did that just lean into his eyes leaning close to his face because logic in our way out of speaking neutral responsible or me having 50% of the problem them having 50% of the problem can be helpful but it's not the solution [Music] the solution is what God believes about me and believes about them [Music] that's him I feel like as we kind of as he breaks those experiences apart as we see maybe that we had to have a had a hand had a responsibility in that situation as we see how he how he didn't agree was that pain how he didn't decide to give you that pain I just feel already this this experiential love is being released [Music] sometimes when we have a barrier between us and God it doesn't necessarily affect the function of our relationship but it can affect the experience of our relationship [Music] maybe I can still talk to him just as well as I always could maybe I could feel like I'm directed by him just as much as I always could but if the passion of our relationship isn't present and there's something missing then there is a disconnect again not in the way that we should be ashamed of not in a way that we should beat ourselves up about but just in a way that we should hold that standard in our heart and recognize when it's something about our experience or our beliefs begins to lower that standard of passion and loving connection but again asked me but as he breaks these things apart I see him just releasing this love you to him releasing this loves a bit of a misnomer because it was always there didn't start release getting out of this thing is fixed it's not like that God doesn't sit there holding back his love waiting on for us to fix our problems but sometimes our problems to put a block between us experiencing his love his love is 100% present 100% of the time but we may not feel it or to experience it if there's something in life [Music] [Music] even later tonight you're gonna experience the second part of this verse then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is is good pleasing and perfect will you like some of you have been trying to get some guidance on some things some directions some even some of you feel like if you've been meandering in your lives like what am I supposed to do what am I supposed to be about what what is my direction what's my focus supposed to be and I feel like for some of you this process is the answer [Music] it's presenting yourself as a living sacrifice it's giving your opinion giving your beliefs even giving your experiences to him and seeing what he decides to give back allowing yourself to be transformed by the renewing of your mind [Music] in this process as you work through some of these things you hand some of these experiences to him there's gonna be such sudden clarity [Music] [Music] one last prayer and I feel like we're gonna transition from this at corporate experience like I said I feel like the Holy Spirit of the Lord is still kind of breaking some of these pieces up for some of you that encouraged you to stay and stick around if you if he's still unpacking these things for you as I as I probably have the students go ahead and come on up and line up up here and if you if you just listen to the Holy Spirit if you feel like you want someone to partner with you in just a speaking into this every single one of these awesome people hear the Lord and they will they will be so happy to just say what they're hearing and pray over you and pray with you [Music] don't want to try to force anyone into this but I I think that even some of you have had some experiences that have set your expectations for even someone who does prayer ministry who or gives prophetic words that though I expect to be judged or I expect this or I expect that I feel like yeah if the Holy Spirit leads you even in a moment we transition you can come up a receive fire and you'd like to renew that experience so Lord we just thank you so much that you have made the way for us the you hopefully you have crossed the gap between yourself and mankind that you a god that is so holy that is so awesome that is so powerful that is so beyond anything that we could ever be as crossed the distance between us through your son has has created a direct line of connection so that we could directly receive the benefit of relationship with you right now as we just transition into the this last part of the night I am I just release the grace to present ourselves as a living sacrifice to to not do it because we're supposed to to not do it because it's the right thing to do but to do it because of such a great trust and the good news that we see in you that we know for certain that the only thing that you would ever burn up is something that didn't belong to us anyway it wasn't designed to be part of us anyway and then everything that is a part of us everything that you designed to be a part of us it would only be strengthened by presenting itself to you as released that grace tonight as we just receive these breakthroughs as you teach us how to not be conformed to the path with this Jesus name

Channel: Light City Church

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Length: 66min 39sec (3999 seconds)

Published: Mon Jan 14 2019