Theresa: HOLIDAYS
GIVE US PERMISSION TO MISS OUR LOVED ONES
OUT LOUD AND HOW MUCH WE LOVE THEM
AND HOW WE WISH THEY WERE HERE. ♪♪ SO, I JUST INVITE YOU BOTH JUST TO SIT BACK, RELAX, AND ENJOY AND,
MOST IMPORTANTLY, EMBRACE THE MOST AMAZING AND BEAUTIFUL
MESSAGES FROM YOUR LOVED ONES. OKAY, WANT TO TALK ABOUT
WHO PASSED FROM THE CHEST, 'CAUSE OF THEIR LABORING
MY BREATHING. MY HUSBAND. SO, THE WAY THAT YOU HEAL
AND THE WAY THAT YOU GRIEVE ARE GOING TO BE DIFFERENT. HE SAID, "FROM THE MOMENT
I SAW YOU, I KNEW THAT WE WERE
GOING TO BE TOGETHER." MM-HMM. Woman: STEVE AND I
MET IN HIGH SCHOOL, WE WENT OUT
THROUGHOUT SENIOR YEAR, AND WE WENT OUT
TILL WE GOT MARRIED, WHICH WAS SEVEN YEARS LATER, 'CAUSE, YOU KNOW,
HE WENT AWAY TO COLLEGE. SO, WE GREW UP TOGETHER. I KNEW HE WAS MY SOUL MATE. DO YOU CONNECT
WITH THE BIRDS? YEAH, SOMETIMES. SOMETIMES I'LL JUST
SEE A BIRD IN THE BACKYARD OR, LIKE, WHEN I'M WALKING OUT
IN THE MORNING, AND I'LL ACTUALLY SAY,
"HI, STEVE." SAY, "GOOD MORNING, STEVE"?
[ GASPS ] [ LAUGHTER ] THAT'S INCREDIBLE.
YEP. SO, KNOW THAT WHEN YOU DO THAT,
HE'S SAYING, "YES, THAT'S ME." HE SAYS, "I DON'T LIKE
SEEING YOU SO SAD." HE SAYS, "BUT, YET,
YOU WALK OUT THAT DOOR, YOU PUT ON THAT BRAVE FACE, AND YOU'RE LAUGHING
AND YOU'RE, 'YEAH, YEAH.'" HE SAYS, "BUT, THEN, THERESA,
THE SECOND SHE COMES IN, SHE'S TELLING ME, 'DO YOU KNOW
HOW HARD THIS WAS FOR ME TODAY? WHY DO YOU --
I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU LEFT.'" I NEVER GET MAD AT HIM, BUT I DO TELL HIM
HE HAD A LOT OF NERVE. YEAH. DID HE PASS SUDDEN
AND/OR UNEXPECTED? BECAUSE I ALMOST FEEL LIKE
I JUST COLLAPSED. EXACTLY.
IT WAS ALMOST LIKE, "YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND.
I DIDN'T FEEL GOOD. AND IT WAS LIKE [GASPS]
AND THEN I JUST COLLAPSED." HE WAS RUNNING IN THE
TURKEY TROT IN GARDEN CITY. AND HE HAD RUN IT FOR THE
PAST 20-SOMETHING YEARS. HE KEPT SHOWING ME
A HOLE IN A HEART. SO, WHATEVER IT IS
THAT HE HAD WITH HIS HEART, IT WAS NOT FIXABLE. SO YOU KNOW THAT THERE WAS
NOTHING THAT YOU COULD HAVE DONE TO HAVE PREVENTED
HIS DEPARTURE. HE SAID, "THERESA,
BEFORE I GOT TO THE GROUND," HE GOES, "I DIED." HE DIDN'T LAY THERE
AND SUFFER. HE DIDN'T KNOW
HE WAS LEAVING US. ♪♪ YOUR HUSBAND JUST SAID TO ME,
HE GOES, "IT'S SUCH A PEACEFUL FEELING. AND WE DON'T EVEN KNOW
IT'S HAPPENING UNTIL AFTER." THERE'S SOME -- NOT HAVING
HIM PHYSICALLY HERE FOR THINGS IS DIFFICULT, BUT I THINK NOW WE KNOW HE'S GONNA BE AT
ANYTHING THAT'S IMPORTANT, THAT HE'S HERE AND
HE'S NEVER GONNA LEAVE US. AND THAT'S A GIFT. CHRISTMAS IS
GOING TO BE TOUGH. EVERY DAY IS TOUGH. BUT WE HAVE TO GET THROUGH THEM, BECAUSE I KNOW
THAT'S WHAT HE'D WANT. UNFORTUNATELY, YOUR HUSBAND
IS DEPARTED? YES. YOUR HUSBAND HAS BEEN, AND WILL CONTINUE
TO LEAVE YOU AMAZING SIGNS AND SYMBOLS
THAT HE IS WITH YOU. OKAY. AND DO YOU FIND
THE FEATHERS? OH, MY GOD, THERESA. YES. SINCE HE PASSED,
I FIND THESE FEATHERS OUTSIDE, INSIDE, RANDOMLY. BUT WHEN I WOULD FIND THESE,
I WOULD THINK OF HIM. I DON'T KNOW
WHAT THE REASON WAS. SO, KNOW THAT THE FEATHERS IS A CLEAR SIGN AND SYMBOL
FROM YOUR HUSBAND THAT HE IS WITH YOU
AT THESE EXACT MOMENTS AND THAT HE IS REASSURING YOU,
"I'M HERE, I'M OKAY." BEFORE THERESA CAME, I SAID TO HIM --
AND I SAID IT OUT LOUD -- "TOM, IF YOU ARE
GOING TO COME THROUGH, IF THIS IS YOU,
BRING UP THE FEATHERS." SO THAT WAS PRETTY AMAZING,
BECAUSE NO ONE KNOWS ABOUT THAT. HE DID FIGHT.
DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? ABSOLUTELY. AND HE WOULD HAVE STAYED
IF HE COULD. HE SAYS, "I WANT HER
TO START DOING THINGS THAT MAKE HER FEEL COMPLETE," AND THAT WITH EVERY BREATH
THAT YOU AND THE BOYS TAKE, KNOW THAT HIS SOUL
IS WITH YOU. I FEEL SO AT PEACE. YOU KNOW, I JUST FEEL LIKE
EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE OKAY. AND I WISH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY
A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS. THANK YOU. YOU TOO.
THANK YOU. OH, MY GOD!
[ LAUGHS ] HI! MERRY CHRISTMAS! OH, I MISSED YOU GUYS. SO, ALWAYS A PLEASURE. YEAH, GOOD TO SEE YOU. WELL, THE FIRST TIME
I WAS OVER HERE WAS JUST THE FIRST TIME
THAT I EVER CHANNELED BRIAN AND ALSO THE FIRST TIME
I EVER CHANNELED A CHILD. DO YOU STILL HAVE HIS BICYCLE
IN THE GARAGE? YEAH.
[ LAUGHS ] I SAID TO HIM -- I SAID,
"BRIAN," I SAID, "WHY ARE WE TALKING
ABOUT THAT?" AND HE SAID, "I WANT ALWAYS
TO REMIND MY PARENTS OF ALL OF THE THINGS
THAT I DID ACCOMPLISH." HE KEEPS GOING
TO THIS BOX. THE SUITCASE. I HAVE EVERYTHING IN THERE, AND I'VE NEVER OPENED IT
SINCE. FROM THE VACATION?
YES. ALL THE THINGS
THAT HE PACKED. AND HE LOOKED AT ME
AND HE SAID, "THERESA," HE SAID, "BECAUSE THOSE WERE
ALL MY FAVORITE THINGS." YES. THEY WERE. HE SAID, "I TOOK EVERYTHING
THAT WAS MY FAVORITE." HE DID. EVEN NOW, IT'S ALWAYS
JUST YESTERDAY THAT IT HAPPENED. HE WAS MY LITTLE GUY,
AND HE WAS GONE. AND MY LIFE WAS OVER. HE'S LIKE, "THERESA,"
HE GOES, "ALL THE READINGS WERE HELPING MY FAMILY
GET THROUGH WHAT THEY NEEDED." YES, HE HELPED US
THROUGH THE WHOLE THING. YOU DID, HE DID.
HE WAS AMAZING. HE SAYS, "I AM A BIG BOY. AND THAT WAS
THE RIGHT DECISION TO LET ME BE BIG AND GO IN
THE 2 1/2-FEET WATER BY MYSELF. [ SOBS ] WHATEVER HAPPENS
IN MY LIFE, THAT I ALWAYS HAVE BRIAN
WITH ME. AND EVERYTHING THAT I DO
IN MY LIFE, I KNOW BRIAN IS THERE
HELPING ME AND GUIDING ME. AND I AM ALWAYS
SO THANKFUL FOR HIM. HE WAS -- HE'S A GIFT.
YEAH. ABSOLUTELY. AND AS MUCH AS HE WAS
A GIFT AS YOUR SON, I CONSIDER BRIAN
LIKE MY SON. I DIDN'T EXPECT
ANY OF THIS. Woman: OUR READING WITH THERESA
AT CHRISTMASTIME IS A BEAUTIFUL GIFT.
THAT'S HOW WE LOOK AT IT. IT'S TIME FOR US
TO SIT WITH OUR LITTLE GUY, ALTHOUGH HE'S NOT LITTLE, AND, UM, AND JUST CONNECT. AND IT'S
THE MOST PRECIOUS GIFT THAT ANYONE
COULD EVER HAVE. AWW, MERRY CHRISTMAS. WE KNOW THAT BRIAN
IS THERE WITH US ON CHRISTMAS DAY,
SO IT MAKES US, UH, FEEL LIKE WE'RE
ALL TOGETHER.
