Rebecca-December, 2021 (short version)

rebecca mark how's my girl demure today i feel a lot more demure i feel a lot more you looked at me yeah i looked in here don't i yeah cecil b demille and all that [ __ ] you're always so stylish you take stuff out of the wherever you find it trash it's all trash today it was all trash but you turn it into the most stylish interesting stuff yeah style 360 nikki hilton pull that pull that down okay there you are yeah yeah i like that i honestly really don't like it it's just giving me something to do with my day so you were in the you went to the hospital yesterday yeah i went for exhaustion and i was like you were out of it yesterday i was out of it yesterday kind of no this guy ran after me so i was like yeah it seems like they gave you a sedative yeah they did yeah you're a little bit slower yeah i'm slower today and i uh i mean instead of in the morning too [ __ ] i'll be all right more than anybody i interview i just want to scoop you up and lock you into a room for about two months i would do that i swear you would i would really you'd probably clean out my house though i i'd clean the house i don't mean clean the house you'd clean up the people always think i'm that kind of person no no no i don't i actually don't think you're that kind of person yeah i know i i would actually trust you but i'm actually very respectful of people's faces i might just do that one day more one of these is not like the other i'd love it if you did mark really yeah even though i hate the palisades i totally come check your place out are you dating anyone i'm not good neither am i what are you doing what are you what are you implying what am i implying i'm playing nothing you're not my kind of girl you're not my kind of guy no but i don't mean i wouldn't have disappeared you know you have a great body but your face you know like it's your demeanor like you come across kind of like a like not like a serial killer but you know when you've just killed someone yes and you and you no i don't no but okay well you know when you're just killing someone and you're with a group of people and there's always that one guy that's like oh my god dude we're all gonna go to jail [ __ ] up you know you give me that attitude sometimes i give you that energy yeah well you're out of your mind half the time you come by here yeah that's right that's that's probably why but i'm fascinated by you i think you're amazing i think you're amazing i would love to see you thrive realize some of your potential i'd love to i still don't know what my potential is i mean i'm little eddie b who over here like roxy heart ever saw the end of that movie [ __ ] uh chicago so if i trapped you in my place or someplace and you never got access to meth and all the other drugs you play around with molly and stuff how would you function i'd function i wouldn't say about without math but i'd function for sure would you lose your mind no i wouldn't i'd have something to do wouldn't i i'm not sure if you'd had something to do i don't have anything to do right now honestly so you know it's kind of a stalemate right now is that is that the problem you need an anti-drug you need something no it's not the drug it's the drug gives me a motivation to do something no but i'm saying if you weren't doing a drug you would need something to replace it yes of course like food probably get fat or whatever you did you did put on weight that one time when you yeah i did put on weight that one time let's not discuss it be very bad some people say it's funny some people said you look good and i yeah right me too i can't say anything about waiting when people compliment those videos i'm like no i always come in here remember that one time i came in here there'll be species on me like no i'm always here when i'm at my most disheveled yes usually i'd like to get you at your most sober bit yeah i know i'm coming here sober most of the time yeah actually all the time but sometimes you're out of your mind yeah i'm out of my mind but i'm just sober no i come here sober there was one time i saw you on spring street i gave you 20 or 40 i think i gave you 40 bucks oh yeah and you left it on the sidewalk and walked away yeah i'm like i remember you i can't really help anybody that can't even hold on to twenty bucks no i wasn't no that was that was a kid thing with me and i was kid though i was really bad with money people give me money and i always drop it yeah yeah that was one weird thing you don't have pockets usually i don't have power you don't have pockets right now i have a bag today though oh you have a purse yeah i was a purse yeah i fished something out of the trash i hate it but i needed her first it's the ugliest thing i've ever seen in my life so i'm going to take advantage of this sober moment yeah that i have with you do you have a family that we could contact no i don't come on i really don't why not because you told me the last a few few talks ago that you started crying when you started talking with your mom yeah but my mom or the moms that like whoever the stylist that i'm thinking of yeah but i don't have her contact information we met once her handler set it up you know through the adoption agency or whatever you were adopted that's a hoarse croc of [ __ ] compared to what it actually is but yeah i was taken and away and made to live with other people who weren't really in my family because my mother was deemed in fit so i was like i said i was raised very nicely by some very wealthy people who treated me like garbage so they they would not be the ones that contacted if i wanted to no no they wouldn't your biological mom is not he's not interested in no she is interested i just don't know how to reach her i generally i don't have her number i try to get her on instagram ones anyway and she's a famous person she's a stylist maybe maybe she's rachel's own maybe she's someone who's like rachel though you're very mysterious i know but i don't mean to be like i'm not actually putting on a front of like a thumb fatale you know what i mean i genuinely wish that i could sit here and outpour to you the details of my family it's just like the vanderbilts you know what i mean like you know how they had a really [ __ ] up kind of thing going on a lot of princesses what would you do if you got your life together you got clean i'd model you would model i'd model yeah i just needed shave i've got castings and everything so here's what i could see happening let's let's say you somehow miraculously we got you clean which i would love and i'm very open for i don't know you think i'm as open for it as i am like i go with you right now but you always seem so busy yeah i am busy but yeah but this is an opportunity that i might just have to take advantage of how you think about it um i i can imagine especially if we did some talks and and showed my audience how together you've become over time this isn't going to happen in a week no obviously but over time we could maybe show how much potential you have and maybe someone would offer you a position somewhere and that would be that was something i'd be very grateful for like i read through the comments and honestly a lot of it was the same old kind of pity which i don't mind like i'm not gonna destruct on an audience it's like oh i hope she's okay oh i hope she's this and like yeah but it's more proactive to be like hey how about i help you with lack of clothes or whatever those are those concerts you're like can i leave thousands of clothes and i'm like i'd love to also do you have a blazer i don't i need a blaster to go with that because i want to put my blue dress back i'm just gonna need a blazer well this is interesting maybe maybe we'll figure something out maybe we will i mean you think you're capable of staying foot and not running off yeah i'm capable of staying foot not running off i know where you are it's just i never know how to reach you because i don't have a phone and i don't know your hours like i'll come by here sometimes like when i'm out here on really dark days and your office will be closed yeah i'm not here every day yeah i mean weekends yeah usually did weekdays all right let's see if we can work out all right this might be an opportunity that i haven't had in a while with you i would love that i'd appreciate that this is this is a real surprise because you were getting worse and worse lately worse and worse i just wonder what they gave you last night at the hospital oh my god thorazine so straight up playing they're still in your shoes yeah no i can't i can't be injecting you with thorazine everything no but it's just like i just woke up from enough you know what i mean so i'm kind of like earth more irritated i still did drugs today though like i know how to consume or control myself on drugs just know today yeah it's like i'm on heroin or something right there's a place called the dream center that would be great for somebody like you is that lgbtq what's that i can go to the lgbt center in kantai in west hollywood i just never know how to get there well i can take you i'd love it if you told me if you told me one day i had to clap how about right now okay all right done done we're gonna do it right now okay thanks rebecca thanks mark are you rebecca i'm feeling fabulous feeling [ __ ] today you feeling what feeling i say i gave you money for a room last night you're sleeping on the sidewalk yeah i know i couldn't afford it it was 250 mark you lied 250 the continental's probably about 60 bucks right now i don't have id mark oh that game's about id you gotta let me in mark i don't need a house i need a phone can you get me a phone buy me a phone mark you want to sell it for drugs i won't just stop for drugs i swear on myself i thought you wanted to go to the lbqty place [ __ ] that i need a phone hey gorgeous hey beautiful how are you terrible mark mark i should have gotten a hotel room like you said i gave you money for it i know but i went to west hollywood and i partied i went to the abbey and i got drinks i snuck in yeah the bouncer wasn't looking and i ran in and i bought people drinks i bought two boys two drinks i love that you're honest with me no i didn't [ __ ] them really i just wanted a power move on a story i went to the abbey so last night you were on on board for going to the lbqty no i don't do charity mark i do empathy maybe but not charity sorry no offense you know some people need a kick in life you're you're heavily you were heavily sedated yesterday i am heavily sedated yesterday what am i gonna do with you take me in get me a phone and a room and lock the doors shut what are you going to call if you had a phone i won't call anyone you guys should listen to music i'm going to listen to music and watch videos mainly i want to watch videos mark on watch videos with audio dude i broke into a building and there were because there were computers and literally the audio was [ __ ] turned off you needed headphones so i just watched endless loops of the olsen twins [ __ ] on no audio because i can't find a zero show on the internet now there's something i must complain about there are no episodes of the rachel zoe project on the internet and there are no zero designed by american ashley olsen fashion shows on the internet and that is something that i despise anyway continuing on the situation in iraq is terrible mark i mean really bangladesh you know what i mean you're in love with rachel zoe i'm gonna i'm really in love with rachel though i really am that's my mommy right there that's no because really on the internet the kids do it with lord lord you know the 14 year old singer they're like mother that's mava to me is rachel's though that's my fat god you stole my singers i love her i love you rachel's though moving on we're talking about me mark please yes i'm talking about you let's just talk more about me you know what i mean unless about the situation in iraq or the bangladeshi no one's more interesting than rebecca to me what about bangladesh mark rebecca moving on rebecca smoking taboo fetish my favorite fashion editor is by bed dijon and my favorite magazine is numero and my favorite movie which you've never asked me before is funny games us interesting let's hear more about about you okay what do you want to know what music you like um uh witch house and techno this week now when's your birthday 4th of august 1997. i swear to god you've been alone before a man i'm going to call mr demille i don't want to say his name yeah you don't give her names yeah i know he's known um i dated him for a while i did it him when i was 16 and he was quite a bit older and people found out in my family and were really pissed off at me um and i'm still in love with him to this day but we can't be together he's really um he's well known he's italian he's italian and i'm russian yeah no really i'm russian my grandmother's russian i don't speak a word of it but you know where'd you meet um at a disco in paris um i grew up in paris i told you yeah between paris i met him actually at the club san sio and like we made out at the club silencio it was crazy the club center was a club that david lynch opened anyway cheers thanks a lot what's your favorite time of year of your life fall winter ah i'm sorry fall winter isn't no but favorite favorite year favorite thing this year this year for sure really yeah no really you're living on the street like a rat i'm living like a rock dude i'm in liberty look at me i'm wearing chanel trust me i would know i would think being in paris and no paris look paris was complicated because i grew up as a boy growing up in paris as a boy is disgusting you have to be really like a [ __ ] you know what i mean you'll be like a [ __ ] and my dad molested me plus all the time but you have to be really a [ __ ] and you have to like but you also you were molested too oh yeah i wasn't laughing everybody you can't even get in this door if you haven't been molested yeah you gotta get in the door you haven't been left that's how they got you you know what i mean but i was raised um muslim not catholic so it's a little more taboo so there were rituals and weird things that i had to do with other men you know what i mean and videos and stuff like i had to do really weird things mark on video this is where in paris mark when you were old when i was like three years old martin are you just making up a story no i'm telling you the truth but like let's not talk about it you know what i mean it's not downgrade the scenario but yeah no no no no no that's for real i swear to god okay no but you tell me a lot of crazy stuff yeah i know but everything i tell you is true f wow no i swear i really rachel zoe's your mom which is those not my mom i'm sure i wish i had you told me she was just she's my mom as in well she's not mama my mother is mama i don't want to say my so you were adopted yes i was adopted what happened to your biological parents we don't talk about them either there's so many things we don't talk about because they were artists mark because my mother gave me up for adoption she threw me in a dumpster okay and i was adopted because the mother couldn't have kids okay so and then i was molested for it and then i later found out that he picked her because she couldn't have kids she was his second wife she was like a trophy wife she was kind of like a jockey oh you know what i mean jackie owen male and monroe you know i mean like imagine if he married maryland first okay and then went on to jockey can you imagine what the world would be like though i love jackie osc and my stepmother reminds me a lot of jacqueline jacqueline bouvier kennedy onassis she had mannerisms and she had plays and it's one thing i lack you know what i mean i like i don't arch my back you're supposed to arch your box well you're also living yeah i know about street but look no no but look like audrey hepburn or grace kelly you know what i mean like lana turner like my favorite movie about hollywood is mel hall and drive have you ever seen mulholland drive i've seen parts of it yeah exactly exactly so like um whatever her name was lara flynn boyle or rita you know what i mean like she's not like the ingenue you know what i mean like the whole persona aspect um but she has a certain way and she's just that way you know and i don't have that i'm a rat not a cat some people are cats i'm a rat i go you're a rat cat cat cat you're so interesting i'd rather be doing this than having breakfast at tiffany's it's a line you got into breakfast you know they have breakfast ceremonies now really they do brunch you can do brunch tiffany's for 100 yeah no really it's [ __ ] disgusting so you hang out in west hollywood sometimes yeah sometimes yeah i like it there there's music there's bars yeah i love it there but you come back to skid row to sleep yeah no to get close the clothes on the drugs are in skid row the parties are in west hollywood i can't afford the drugs in west hollywood and i don't do coke but it doesn't doesn't don't a lot of the gay community in west hollywood do uh crystal met um that's none of my business because the gay community does not support me mark i was at an event last night outside of the red line and this is the truth and a woman threatened to call the police on me because i was standing outside trying to bum a smoke i'm like and they were supporting a charity called something cute that supports homeless transgendered youth she called the police on you she called the police on me i didn't get arrested of course i ran away i'm not [ __ ] mark i've never been i'm interested i got arrested once for a month pipe really not here in florida of all places i love florida florida that's where the gay community is at fort lauderdale or um what was what's that island called not not fire island um um key west now florida miami miss now that's where the gay community is i don't know what the lgbtq community is lesbians don't chill with gays okay lesbians are bookish or they're bulldigs or they're valkyries or they're more pc i don't get this homogeny of people i don't believe in the rainbow that's why i believe in people as people i don't care who you're [ __ ] if you're [ __ ] them you're [ __ ] them you want to get married you're married otherwise can you please do your job i wish more people would do their job so we always complain about the fact that i don't have a job so i guess my job is to be this homeless vagabond street urchin and it works no but i'm very polite see but atm's always like excuse me good morning can you spend some money and then they go like no i'll be like oh but nice blouse ooh chicos you know you are an amazing street urchin i'm a really great street you can see i'm all clean well-ish i came in here smelling like [ __ ] once and we still shot and it still got a ton of views and that was the time that i was called and i quote the worst jlo impersonator in reno i'll hold on to that comment that's the only one i share so the only one i read all the comments i'm like oh my god no please no so you actually read the comments on your videos oh yeah read the comments yeah yeah i know i read the comment section yeah oh my god it's so cringy i love it all these people really love me they really love me more because i love you i love you i love you mark you're like my best friend i wish we could spend more time together but you're always working i work a lot you work a lot everybody complains that i work too much well you work pro bono you're uh you're a non-profit your meals on wheels i'm a money losing operation but your money is enough that might change soon that might change soon no i can tell you're gonna yeah come into a lot of money see i used to read crystal ball and i used to read tara i'm a real witch by the way yeah uh when i first yeah no no i'm a witch yeah we never discussed that aspect of things when i first came to la i actually read tarot on the streets in venice that was my first gig here i was yeah 17. yeah i would love to go to go to go to paris or venice with you no well i mean venice alley i've been in first and i've been eventually venice sucks us venice sucks ass then it sucks us okay it's like as i'd shot you seen asha paris is awesome it's my favorite city in the world and i love it yes the left bank not the right bank you'd be so much fun to go to paris with oh yeah of course i would you would have no idea on an expense account of course no but you can do flea markets in paris i got a christian george dress for ten dollars a christian drawer or a dress by john galliano for ten dollars when when were you living a straight life without drugs without being on the street oh god new york no growing up like being uh because i told you that my step-father was a diplomat so growing up in like addis ababa or like i don't want to talk about it mark i've signed pieces of paper i've signed ndas so i don't talk about iron man i saw i literally signed an nda i got a plane ticket really what was it what was the worst time of your life first period of your life my childhood like early childhood yeah my early childhood yeah once i turned eight i figured i found cigarettes you know once i figured the cigarette thought it was good once i figured a freaking cigarette outside of mine cigarettes saved my life cigarettes and rachel's though and the olsen twins yeah oh i love them i'm very fascinated by them i'm very fascinated about how they they're they're a modern american dynasty really they're their own powerhouse but there's no man involved you know what i mean it's direct it's feminist it's opaque but they're women women don't need men anymore men are becoming obsolete no men are not becoming obsolete i think women need men more than ever what is that kovid mark what does men have to do as in covida as in living nobody like you know what what do men provide uh sperm no other than that they that that's easily okay no no no no no no protection dick man builds skyscraper and i leave it there mark the reason people mistreat me in life is because i'm a man and not because i'm a woman mark it's about my dick and my beard it's about my balls balls chaff mark [ __ ] don't okay and i'm a feminist and i'm i'm not a feminist you know what i'm not a feminist i believe in the equality of the sexes at the end of the day armpit hair [ __ ] i think you're so interested i know right i'm the martial [ __ ] brady of the upper east side don't you know do you feel like do you feel like nobody understands you no i don't give a [ __ ] don't understand why would you want to understand me i'm very no but don't don't you just love it when somebody gets you no what i love is when people hate on me i love when people hate them people hate that i dress nicely for instance people hate that i'm skinny see a lot of women don't give me food because i'm skinny like i literally beg people's leftovers off them i do it it's my primary source of food because to eat nicely well aside from these 10 sushi rolls that appear nearly out of nowhere but um to eat nicely i have to beg like erwan um whole foods i could go to kroger maybe you know i could go to stock market where do you go to eat typically uh a little tokyo leftover sushi leftover ramen i hate ramen by the way uh slurpee bowls it's like you ever seen that movie old boy when he gets the [ __ ] squid on his face yeah yeah shh we can keep that on the dl it's disgusting i like rice balls i like rice i like sushi i grew up eating a lot of rice i grew up partly in africa i don't want to talk about it but yeah anyway back to you mari i like it when you're in this mood this is my favorite rebecca mood i know right this is my favorite i i see a lot of rebecca's this is my favorite naughty like snob you're just so much fun let's not you know i'm so much fun you really are we'll see our are you like this when you're not clean no no i'm not what are you i do drugs mark i do drugs i do drugs yeah i know but i smoke cigarettes i do drugs models do drugs what are you what are you afraid of [Music] what am i afraid of [Music] heights okay nobody pain what do you want pain i'm afraid of pain physical pain not emotional pain like what if i getting beaten up on the street oh i don't feel pain from that no i'm afraid of physical pain mark i'm afraid of being um you know when when uh when the anesthetic in an operation doesn't work and you can feel the operation you can feel the pain i'm afraid of physical pain like you play around with all these drugs what have you somehow unknowingly got fentanyl oh oh no i have dude i once literally got battery acid and and and my pookie blew up my pookie blew up mark my fookie blew up i passed out literally i thought i died i woke up i was like oh i'm so scared bro i love it here we go have you odd before yes of course iodine all the time it makes you impervious dude it's like it's like sugar just a spoonful of sugar makes the medicine go around in the most delightful way anyway moving on left with star kid life was star i could have been a child star you know i decided not to my mom she wanted me an um of all things opera so i did opera lessons as a child yes it was disgusting to do a male alto like because i had yeah yeah yeah no it's disgusting do you know there are children in the opera people don't know this yeah it was the most awful thing and had the most awful instructor he was so strict what drugs did you do last night i did a bamboo molly at the abbey i did like a whole bag of molly at the abbey i stole the baggie i just little baggy and did the whole thing in the toilet with some other chick yeah how'd you get to west hollywood the boss the 16 boss it runs from skid row he's the most beautiful person with he's more beautiful than the old saint twins who have a boutique in western hollywood called the row by the way that you should visit the row on melrose the row.com zero persuasion new fragrance you have any regrets in your life no not one i imagine that was the answer no really yeah not a single regret how about that i would have been surprised if you said yes yeah i know so would i really then i know it would have been with us by the devil himself mr demille then that's all folks all right rebecca so nice talking with you again so nice talking with you i'm gonna set you up with a phone so you can listen to some music yes that's all i want is a phone i'll give you money for a room again but not gonna give me twenty dollars on a phone dollars on phones 20 phone real good done done great seeing you great seeing you [Music] ah rebecca [Music] you

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Length: 29min 50sec (1790 seconds)

Published: Sun Dec 19 2021