Reacting to my OLD VIDEOS! *Unseen Footage* | This Esme

oh my goodness my face [Music] [Applause] hello everybody this is me and today's video is gonna be very nostalgic for myself because I'm going to be reacting to my old videos now a lot of these videos are currently no longer on YouTube a lot of my old videos I actually had to delete because they've got copyrighted so they are actually no longer on my channel they've been gone for a while so because I now have over 300,000 subscribers so thanks to all of you guys for subscribing I love you guys are so well I say new but these videos literally have not been seen for over four years so basically none of you have seen them apart from any of you guys that personally know me and watch them as soon as I posted them or some of these I actually never got around to posting on YouTube because they are that embarrassing so I thought I'd talk a little bit about how I started YouTube and before we go on to it so the song equestrian community has changed a lot and they're really on many of us he makes off horsey videos so and basically I watched a lot of horsey videos back in well I still do now but it was mainly back in 2013 2014 what I've really started watching YouTube more than TV kind of thing and it was when I was 14 so I think it's the summer of 2015 I made like a few vlogs but I never posted them because I didn't have like the confidence to do that so a lot of the videos that I actually started posting we're just edits of me riding Casper at like jumping clinics and things because basically back in the day for any of you young people Instagram wouldn't let you post a video longer than 15 seconds so if you wanted to make an edit of you riding you kind of had to upload it to YouTube so that's kind of what I did so but before that the first-ever video that I actually uploaded to YouTube was like back in the day when like there were those viral videos of something sort of funny or different like a panda sneezing that kind of thing so I uploaded a video which is still on YouTube today and was my first ever video and it's something along the lines of pony hits horse in the head something like that so I thought they would react to that first because it's quite a funny video obviously I'm not somebody that like laughs at when somebody gets hurt like personally I don't find those videos very funny if anybody gets hurt in any way in a video but I find it funny looking back on it because it was when around when we first got I think we'd had Casper for about a year and I think Mickey just got a bit fed up with him and decided to kick him in the head when Casper was rolling and looking back on it I find it funny because it shows me his cheeky personality but also it's just the noise of Mickey thudding Casper it's so violent so yeah that's kind of a funny video but before your access I thought would go bit more on how I started like vlogging and doing videos talking into the camera so um yeah the arch the second video that I actually ever posted was called Casper and it's actually on him right now and the reason why I actually made that video and uploaded it to YouTube was because I actually had a really bad road on Casper at Pony Club and I came home like in tears I've subset I think I fell off or something like that basically it went horribly because if he didn't know when I first got Casper he was very green he was very young and just a lot going to like different places he just found it a bit much so he would like buck me off brung me at wrong perk me off basically and we were a bit of a mess so after that day I was so upset so I decided to make a video of all the good clips of us kind of riding so I could look back on and be like oh we've come so far even though I've had a bad day like we all have my days kind of thing so I made a video basically showing like how we've improved in the year of owning him so that was the first video that made called Casper and yes so I thought we react to a few and then I basically just made the odd little vlogs and things and then from then on the channel is what is today's so let's go onto YouTube and find the video that I first uploaded we can see when it's at ship loaders I think it was like February 2015 but you'll see I've also got some headphones because a lot of the music is copyrighted so I'm gonna listen to and tell you what a songs are and so then I won't get claimed for this video and then I'll probably put some background music and just so it's a little bit more interesting even though it might not go with the video so let's go on to my channel I find it really interesting going on other people's but youtubers channels clicking on videos and then click you on oldest and just watching their oldest videos I just went it's so entertaining okay they added all this let's have a look pony hits horse in the head when rolling oh it's got 50,000 views I remember uploading this video and being like oh it's gonna get like a million views overnight like it's gonna go viral dad never happens so if we click on that I just need to click my headphones first so let's pop them on okay so my headphones are synched up sorry from talking talking a bit loud ly it's because I've got the headphones on so let's have a look at this video I watch this in a while actually okay Casper's rolling oh it's digging first oh my gosh she's so dirty I've got such a baby voice there guys Mickey oh that was way more vicious than I remember Mickey oh maybe she can hear my dad in the back I'm going blind me is he all right he was fine is completely fine he's just yeah Oh Mickey cheeky little boy so anyway that was my first ever video uploaded to YouTube so a bit of a different one anyway let's go on to some of this sort of older videos so I think we should react to the one Casper because that was sort of where is it here it is Casper and then I used music from like iMovie because I didn't know how to get music from like the internet or music that I'd like have on my laptop onto it so it took me to actually learn how to edit I literally learn how to edit by watching loads of like tutorials and things on YouTube so let's have a look at this this has got quite a few old clips that you might recognize from my like 5 years with Casper video oh my goodness his saddle pan looks so clean there looks like brand-new oh my get I'm loving the music it's like guitar we look so unbalanced wait let me just pause that a sec oh my goodness these clips I look the way I need to turn the volume down because it's a little bit loud and I'm shouting but yeah we look so unbalanced like this was back when Casper couldn't even canter on the right rein without being disunited so this is some old old footage but yeah this is like a pony club and things oh my goodness he has like no muscle okay so this is our first cam this is him rolling in his stable getting shavings absolutely everywhere thanks CASP old grid work on this I am not releasing I'm just pulling on the reins as we go over the jump so my shopping physicians definitely improved a bit okay I remember this this video.i flap like a chicken as we go up the hill oh there we go bingo wings and then here he looks at it when he jumps it very honestly died a bit disunited trot back to canter still disunited oh oh oh and he jumped it or she was so honest that like literally he could have run out oh he's starting to a little bit better okay motorbike turn around the corner he literally flopped over that fence oh my goodness such old footage ok this was our leader so 1st or 2nd camp and I was so proud because he jumped over this corner fence that I was absolutely terrified of but I say happy jumped in first time as well on schooling so new Oh yep also as you can see I've been matching match sheets since the start I'm literally wearing like a matching blue hat silk and top okay there's some more Pony Club jumping love that it's just so funny this is before like all we know that was my first camp with Casper so we did unique am not senior I remember that looks and being like absolutely huge and up and yes Casper still makes that noise me rolls like he just makes the weirdest noises sometimes she's very vocal horse so that was my video Casper I remember posting it to YouTube it literally giving no views because I didn't know how to link the video my Instagram so I was just like oh like watch this video my youtube channel aims like this is actually came yeah my Instagram name was this as me before I made my youtube and the reason why I actually made my Instagram name that says me is because a lot of people think that my name is as may not as me so I made it this says me so it sounds like this is me so it sounds like more like my name rather than as May so that's why I made the name that's how I came up with it but stuck with it today that somewhere YouTube channel was called but yeah nobody I just said all yeah the video is called Casper so if you typed into YouTube Casper then obviously my video wouldn't have come up because it had like zero views so yeah that was that was an experience watching that a lot of footage I think you've probably seen and that before from like my five years with Casper as I said before okay so the next video is gonna be one of the like first proper videos I made I put so much effort into it I use like an my grooming box as a tripod and all these videos as well that were filmed on my like iPhone 4 or maybe my iPhone 5 I can't remember there was definitely one of my like first or second iPhones and okay so this is my autumn and winter morning routine or daily routine 2015 so this is an old one this was like when I this was yeah one of them I remember telling my friend about to be like so excited a YouTube channel if I can find it out here it is okay let's play oh my gosh this this because this was all filmed before we moved house so this was in my old house so it's gonna look so different like the yard and everything you guys aren't gonna recognize at all even though it's the same place we have had a lot of building working things done so it looks totally different I remember my Kiwis socks as well okay let's start okay so the music in this is copyrighted well tell you what I used I use imagine dragons radioactive which is quite funny to say obviously we don't have music Oh a little time lapse of me walking over to the horses okay let's just pause this because this stable you guys literally won't recognize but this was Mickey and Casper's old stable it's actually a movable filled shelter so if you don't know in the UK if you want to build anything you have to have planning permission which is really difficult to get it's really strict so we actually still have these stables and my dad and my brother used it I was like their bike shed or like their man shed that kind of thing so it's still in use but I just find it so funny oh they had them I made like DIY nameplates and it's so funny because they still have the same colors as well Mickey being a sort of turquoise blue Casper being the purple so it's been their colors for a long time so let's watch the rest of it okay so they've come out to say hello the donkey is old stable oh my goodness so this is so cute so again it's got the DIY nameplate they did actually end up rotting in the end I tried to put varnish and things on but we get a lot of rain here in the UK so they just got destroyed but the donkeys old stable was actually part of like a barn so this is before we actually had a tack room so my tack room is literally just in the garage so that's why when we got my tack room that is my tack room today I was at ok I'm designing it I'm so excited to actually have a place to put my saddle but before you literally used to put my saddle on an old chair which is not great for your saddle don't do that guys but anyway okay say let's the donkeys it's so cute because we once let them free to walk around okay so yeah we once like them free to walk around and they literally like went to where the old stables it was so cute they remembered where it was but yet inside the old stable was actually the feed room so you kind of have it's like an old tour of what the yard used to be like so yeah if you go in here it's the feed room so we saw the same feed bins it's just quite cool oh my gosh I still have my I have my tiger like spray bottles but I only have two out the pink one and the purple one oh my goodness okay oh I forgot when the tack room the feeder me slit like that okay okay so this is the first bit we actually see me in the video and oh my goodness my hair is so dark so this was when I first started having it like colored so I first had it on braids and then I've just gotten lighter like two ever since so my hair also looks so poofy as well also you're doing where my hair is straight I literally had it cut yesterday so that's why it's straight it's my hair's curly and if not the hairdresser conquered colleagues if not be one key kind of things so so yeah as you can see it is actually a field sheltered this is like a hole where there's like light coming in through so again he's got his purple bucket and oh mickey is always excited as ever his first food I think I started she had that coat but the Zips broken so I just worked with the poplars done up I don't wonder for a while oh so cute okay so I'm just gonna pause again because here you can see the old barn so we used to have an old sort of corrugated iron barn and we had it demolished and we built our house of in that area and stage because we wanted to get planning permission to first convert the barn and then actually build our house say oh my gosh this little Bruno and Toby they look so fluffy I think this was filmed in my october/november so a long time ago this still have a little names on there feed buckets and yes they're still the same colors as they have today this willow so here's me leading Bruno Toby this is before they had their current head colors so they were like not very nice colors they've literally owned those head colors since before I was born so the really old ones they've got new ones now out like go in the fields okay so if I pause it here you can actually see the field you can kind of recognize which field that is because that's their like main paddock that the horses are currently in and the pine trees and the pine forests they look so small the trees have grown so much so obviously up there is where the new kind of stables are ok let's resume and leading willow out I still have that lead rope and use it today say yeah oh oh this you can just about see in the background there's an old cross country vents which is just made of tires this is really taking me back so I think when they when I made this videos about 1415 say hey I'm tying up Casper and tying up Mickey Oh Casper still has that like plaid silk checkered drug so cute there I'm taking off their stable rocks I'm putting on their turnout rugs in Casper Casper oh no he doesn't have that rock anymore Mickey definitely doesn't have that rug anymore Mickey destroyed that blue rug yes okay oh so funny it looks like the same to sob Amish all the buckets all the buckets still the same color me cleaning the buckets out I think those buckets are pretty brand new when I filmed this video Oh time for some mucking out and all nice and clean they really didn't have that many shavings there as me sound like some of my comments now Mickey's stable always the most dirty I don't know how Mickey doesn't use but smaller than Caspar then that makes such a mess so obviously it is whether this is me video without a little time lapse of me mocking out this people there's some pretty satisfying to watch though there I go I still have that blue shovel yeah I don't know how we got the shavings on that be either like how did he get it so messy no that's me sweeping it all up and putting the shavings back down again I don't know if I'd actually did a time-lapse of me doing the donkey's or not oh I did that was when we had the blue wheelbarrow so this blue arrow what look so this blue wheelbarrow actually story to it because I think it was my night for my 10th birthday I was such like a little equestrian kid because the one thing I wanted for my birthday was a blue wheelbarrow like all my friends were asking for like iPads and things like no I just want a blue wheelbarrow it's like the little things like I just love so yeah I've got a purple wheelbarrow now because that one died sad death we've got a hole in and yeah yeah and have my blue wheelbarrow and matching blue shovel oh I look so young oh now it's time to do the hay net the old barn so didn't if you can see but there is some dents on the old barn because we loaned or pony cooled broadly for a while which is my first ever loaned pony they were actually kept right on our fields so the our friends kept him on our fields for free in return that I could like ride him every now and again and he had sweet itch so he would rub his butt against the barn door so they got all dented it was so funny just looking back in there Oh doing it seen the barn oh no we just get to see the floor or do me oh there's the big hay pile oh that's so this is really taking me back it's so way because this is like I'm not here anymore so it's just funny singing again okay so filling up all the hay nets oh it's very good sweeping the yard as well there we go I think ten seconds left of the video we're almost done I cut around at the finish done okay so back in the day when I first started youtube my sort of outro my intro was with this or classic iMovie text it'll be this and it s me and then it would like swish in so yeah we'd like some ukulele that was so funny watching that again okay say what other videos should I watch I actually made a video ages okay okay I've got a how to clean a bridal video and I remember one of the first comments I got on this video was girl and she said that it sounded like Tracy Beaker and I said I always say cuz I've got a British accent and she was like no I'm British as well and I was like oh okay so let's see what I sound like I probably sound like so young hey hey so I have all my tackling urine things oh yeah that classic ukulele music in the background love that oh I'm so quiet I'm glad to turn sound up love speak up Esme saddle sake like I'm going to use today and you'll see I have such a baby voice oh yes love this sponges look close that was that was before I had my my fry bought colorful sponges oh oh yeah gotta need a towel love some leather conditioner that looks so battered I need a droplet alone so this was in our old house so it's really bringing me back this feels like so long ago and I'm just used to thinking you know sort of like toilet and washing it oh my goodness my hair is so frizzy their undoing the bridle I literally just took the whole bridle pieces apart and water I didn't know back then and it's not very good for your targeted get wet or leather to get wet so I literally would just like Chuck my whole Bridal and water oh gosh that was not good and then there's just me cleaning OS me getting the angles you can I don't know how I did that I don't know if I got a tripod or if I I don't know how I got that angle but I how I got that angle so basically in our old house above the sink we had some shelves and I think I must have done it's got my phone put it on the shelf and I'll have like the camera sort of sitting up like that so how I got that that's how I got the vertical angle so really getting getting there and then the rest is just me cleaning the tack and yeah wait let's just watch the outro oh that old music really does take me back okay so these are definitely some really old videos I'm going to try and find a flow canal because I want to find one where I'm actually self talking I feel like I'm gonna put them in date order and see which one is the oldest so I have a winter hack with Mickey and cookie oh my goodness my face oh okay so I was pretty about 1415 here and I look so different so my hair is so much darker and my teeth so this is what I had braces I had braces for like almost two years and I actually have a gap because not many people know this but I actually have a fake tooth I think is that on yeah but I have a fake tooth because basically my adulty teeth never I have a fake tooth because my adult teeth never never yeah these headphones are it's like a speech jammer so basically I have a fake tooth because my adult teeth never came through so yeah that's what I but I looks like oh you can see Casper in the background that's so funny oh it looks so different to our house isn't there so this was when back when I was still riding Mickey before he became retired I don't know if I went bitless with Mickey or not but I look so different okay oh yeah so I had gone bellison lista that's when Mickey hunters will have come all that was when I had the shanks before I removed them I sound so young oh my goodness okay everybody I am going to finish today's video here because even though I've only gone through about three videos we have covered a lot in today's video and I don't want to make it too long and too boring for you guys but that was so strange watching some of my really old videos it wasn't really I've made videos for about two maybe three years until I started like properly getting views and things so it was really like 2015 I basically started like near the end of the year just making the odd videos you'd have seen it was a round so of November kind of time and then it was 2016 I would literally just made the odd video every now and again when I felt like it for fun just for myself to look back on like a video diary and then I'm one of the videos I actually made but I think got me up to 200 subs was my heart attack up a horse which is still actually on my youtube channel it's a GoPro tech how to tack up a horse English something like that so that video because it was like a tutorial it helped a lot of people and all my goodness like Aaron's doing this and things and then helping people so that's when I started doing like vlogs and more tutorial kind of based videos but yes so that that has been so strange just looking at all of these titles so there are a lot of videos left here so if you'd like me to do a second part to this video reacting to some more of my old videos then leave a comment down below and let me know because I've had a lot of fun looking at this and it wasn't really until 2017 that I started making videos at least once a week and that's my first started posting at a Friday at 4 p.m. so then I've you guys you know when I'm uploading my videos and all it forces me to make sure I have a video out every week as well at least so yes it was the summer of 2017 after I finished my GCSEs or 16 that was when I first got 10,000 subscribers which just blew my mind and still does today to be honest and I remember at the end of that summer I managed to save up enough money to buy my first ever camera so you don't need like a fancy camera or anything I literally do it all on my phone until I got 10,000 subscribers which is pretty wild so a lot of you guys have asked me to do like a video on like tips for starting a YouTube channel and you guys want to so instead of doing like the whole video but just like lists so off now so the first thing would be make a channel about something you're passionate about so I could talk about making in Casper and horses all day that's like one of the reasons why I made a youtube channel because my friends would get sick of me talking about horses all the time and then the second thing is don't use copyrighted music number one YouTube will strike against your channel number two your video so probably get blocked in countries that in different countries and things basically which is not great and number three YouTube will not recommend your videos to other people because it's got copyrighted music so YouTube makes less money from it so they don't want to promote it basically so that's yeah basically no copyrighted music using copyrighted music is a big no-no so I'd recommend using like trusted websites and things don't use anything dodgy because sometimes some music they say it's copyright non copyrighted and then they copyright it so just be careful though guys and then number two is if you do make an equestrian channel be original like do everything like different like because there are so many people out there and they just make the same things you just want could be out there do something different and that's how you actually stand out away from the crowd that makes sense what else would I recommend also if you do make an equestrian channel you don't have like the one thing I had no confidence was talking to the camera like I was so awkward as you can tell in a lot of the footage I was so quiet even though like we were had our stables like nobody else was at the stables it was just me I was still so quiet and like nervous and anxious when talking to the camera well now you know you just get used to it some of these things that it's just a skill that you just need to practice and yeah basically what else so yeah I just started off making videos without me talking learn how to edit a lot of the videos actually made I didn't publish to YouTube like at all because I just wanted to I wanted them to be like perfect even though some of these videos are no perfect and neither of my videos are like I it'll be so funny to see me reacting to the videos I'm making now in five years time or something like that would be so funny for yes so I really hope you enjoy today's video and enjoy looking back at some of my old videos I do actually have quite a few of my older ones from like 2016 I think I have a whole 2016 so playlist on my channel so if you ever get bored and fancy looking through some of my old videos then that would be much appreciate it for anyway guys I really hope you enjoy today's video if you're Neal have not done so already please subscribe and I really do appreciate it and I'll see you guys next time bye [Music] [Applause]

Channel: This Esme

Views: 378,911

Rating: 4.957922 out of 5

Keywords: OldVideos, UnseenFootage, Cringe

Id: d3SrQMU9HBg

Length: 30min 8sec (1808 seconds)

Published: Fri Dec 13 2019