QTCinderella Recaps The Streamer Awards, Valkyrae Interrupts Hasan (Deserved) & So Much More | Fear&

[Music] thank you [Music] hello I can't have gum in my mouth I'm gonna look like a cow chewing cud I gotta go in my mouth too solidarity you want to keep it in your mouth no I put like five piece in my mouth whenever all right I steal so much of his songs oh God this area is it's on shut up Austin I have been funny over here for the last few minutes this is a better intro than whatever the [ __ ] you're gonna create is that what you have to do you just have to tell them to shut up yeah yeah haha I'm done anyway I have like five pieces of games in my mouth he's too quiet he's too busy eating the ridge good one can you hear the chewing can I have a gum please the taste of Chipotle out of my mouth oh welcome back to the fear and podcast we have probably the most heavy stacked unimaginably important guests of all time with us here today I'm of course talking about cutie Cinderella who is supposed to be our who's supposed to be our co-host uh but I don't know who knows where that is at now it's all in limbo considering that she has a different podcast coming out that she didn't inform us on I have a bone to pick with cutie Cinderella okay we have we have Valkyrie in the building as well both of the hosts of the streamer awards from last night and uh that's that about and of course uh my wonderful co-host will Neff that about does it for all of the important guests that we have on today on this episode uh I am so devastated again oh my God how could I forget we have also showing in the building you know as well you realize this is this is gonna this is gonna take soul on my career you're the messiest girl surely his his treatment of me is going to take it to all my career Austin show is also with us and he's [ __ ] hammered that's right I went to The Abbey and drank about six Bloody Mary's and tipped dancers and oh you drank more than one Bloody Mary I did it was a lot I had an eyeliner from the show it is from the show last night yes also your jacket it's not yours not mine either I stole the jacket quite possibly the messiest I've been coming on this podcast I'm also wearing all of his sons jewelry that I haven't returned yet he pulled out a wad of cash and it was gum stuck to it hold on let me see if it's still there still in here hold on there it is right there it is there's no gum on that those are all one dollar bills for the Abbey yeah I'm saving it to give it away it's charitable so don't eat me in the life right you you think like tipping streamers is tipping strippers same thing it's not charitable it's it's what you should do yeah yeah okay I agree that's what you should do um liberal arts twink fund absolutely I don't even know where to begin uh we have uh we've done a bunch of episodes uh both in Japan After Japan uh will Neff is finally back better than ever we had a with an insane night with a the fattest of nights last night uh an absolute Banger I'm talking concurrent viewership wise across all of the other platforms reacting to it probably around what 500 000 concurrent viewers peaking at around 500 600 000 concurrent views the shrimmer rewards was a massive success so I think we got to start off by asking cutie how much of a failure it was because I'm sure she's gonna say a lot of awful things about what was otherwise a pivotal achievement for any person on the planet I have a few things that would change I can't wait to fix them next year I've got a pretty long list excited to fix them it'll be better next year she's already started on the changes what's what's up what's what are some issues you want to talk about them yeah one thing that I'm really upset about was that I I usually have a reaction camera from streamers during videos so if you're watching the rewind you see yourself in it you're like or you see a friend you're like you know just like a reaction that's what we're known for is for we react to shakes we suck oh um and so uh so having a reaction like I have all these streamers in the room let's get them reacting to some [ __ ] but I don't know what happened I paid for the camera it just wasn't there so to be fair I was reacting like a [ __ ] like I was just like oh like I was I was getting really bubbly with it and stuff when I was sitting there because I think it's on autopilot at this point I'm a husk of a man I'm a shell of what I was acting harder for No One Kitty do you need me to help you get a refund for that camera no no no no I'm just making sure it was used once okay well I don't think it's adequate and I think we should get your money I have a theory I have a theory that Austin show has gone slumming at the Abbey because you refuse to give them a position at the streamer Awards which baffles me I yeah what will didn't tell you is that I was dancing at the Abbey tonight and those ones are my tips he's broken oh my God often did people didn't get to see this on the stream Austin warmed up the crowd for me which is very nice the night before individually fluffed every member blocked everybody unscripted uh went up there nobody saw it but it was fantastic it was really good it was necessary yeah I did I had a few things a lot of stuff on the back end that people don't know about that uh was messy my caterer was super messy was all really hard to work with what do you mean we had chicken tenders and macaroni and cheese which was kind of funny I thought no I did that on purpose yeah yeah I chose food that everybody loves on purpose because then no one can complain about like oh I didn't get enough to eat because sometimes you do fancy chicken and it's like right so I was like we're doing chicken fingers we're gonna mac and cheese we're in tater tots we're doing some Chili's children's menu chicken tenders a little overcooked it was it was an insane change of pace from the uh first course which was like flowers it was a roasted carrot salad I did that on purpose I wanted a very like fancy and LOL and then fancy dessert it was it was really delicious I ate multiple salads I didn't get to eat it I didn't get to eat at all exactly um look I want to say something I think cutie being critical of herself that is a testament of a fabulous producer thank you yeah I don't think that I don't think it's severely broken I feel like she's a little overly critical I think it's yeah both no I think double-edged sword I mean no I think I think I think it's incredibly important after an event you should take and celebrate your successes so I'd would say a little bit of both but also I think it's an also important incredibly important to understand what you need to fix and move forward it's how you improve it's how you get better this industry you have to be Ever Changing and you can't bring the same product that you bring every time or else it'll get stale and old so I think it's speaking of which name your price season what now no but she but she serious this is not supposed to be an insult s what drunk is this no no no no I just wanted to be contentious this isn't a fight for his life with his mic yeah just keep itself I think she's fabulous she's the best in the biz okay I agree 100 no you are you are great um speaking of uh of a great night let's do uh highlight low light I mean what was what was your favorite uh from the event itself and uh and what was your least favorite ladies starting from left to right yeah let's go with Austin let's let's let's hear let's hear you out uh highlight was uh of the night was meeting and talking to all the lovely people at the streamer Awards um low light for me was the smelly shirt that I wore yeah oh no oh yeah elaborate further please I bought a shirt from uh should I say the place that doesn't matter we went on stream H Lorenzo okay Lorenzo and they they're fabulous they're wonderful they put together this outfit but they got this shirt for me cutie let me tell you and it reeked a boom then why did you buy it well hold on okay sometimes you gotta suffer for your art they said to me they said they said show work calm down Mr show they said Mr show we're gonna be we're gonna go out you buy this we'll dry clean it will make it smell brand new I said perfect I need it by 12 o'clock noon tomorrow perfect okay 12 o'clock noon rolls around I show up the shirt still smells like Bo weird ridiculous right so I'm freaking out because I'm like what am I going to wear I can't go shirtless that would be awful um I personally loved the original fit that we'll put together for you that you just cast aside like it was used tissue paper no it was that one was fire too no I'm talking about the crop top crop topless crop top was good I think I may go back you were a Barbie girl in a Barbie world and that was and it was it was fire I think all it needed was like a jacket to really tie it together we were working on it and I think I'll go back and get it again it was one size too small you did text me that yeah okay yeah good but anyway so I got it um then they dry cleaned it again they doused it in like uh pounds of thousands of pounds of industrialized cleaners that mask the smell of the bo okay three hours into the event cutie you didn't know this because you were just hosting and yeah you were doing yeah you were doing you guys are just doing something just not easy yeah doing something easy and so my shirt was it started to stink three hours in the smell started to come back it started to overwhelm yeah well it's because Bo is like a very strong thing yeah and I was like if anybody smells this it's over so I was like so wait hold on let so what would anyone do in that situation maybe try to avoid getting people to smell it is that what Austin did you think no you said smell this does it smell like Bo yeah every single person at the event I had to this is it because I had to tell everybody I had to clarify just in case word got around that Austin stunk is that oh no it's because he wore something there's there's one point right at our table and Austin sat down and just went [ __ ] and everyone went everybody went like like looked at him and he's like I'm sorry it's just this shirt [Laughter] you told people all at once I told everybody it was this talking it was the talk of the awards minus everything else yeah no my main takeaway was how smelly Austin's shirt was from last night I was gonna say that was my highlight and low light so I wanna I don't want to spend too much time on this but I was in the parking lot no I was in the parking lot getting doused in some Italian cologne for my driver and we masked the smell and then anyway and then his driver who got in a fight with the owner of H Lorenzo because the shirt smelled my driver's Italian so is the owner of H Lorenzo my my the owner of my driver got in an Italian shouting match with the owner of the store because he was upset through me because I had to go around and do all this anyways long story short the shirt smelled this is a Seinfeld episode The Shirt smelled I changed it for the after party and I never can go to age Lorenzo again okay remember uh on the stream when I said like uh H Lorenzo you know serves a high profile clientele of a bunch of Divas from like International like all across the world Austin is literally the most he is the the most high maintenance client that they've ever had I think Ray and cutie would you wear a shirt this month like BL why are you asking Ryan cutie and not will who was also there their females they're closest to the gay architect okay pose something to you go ahead that I don't think you've ever considered hit me I think the fabric of the shirt smells that way because yeah like what kind of material yeah I think it's an unusual material and I think it get oh my God oh my God this is this Epiphany look at his [ __ ] face how many times they dry cleaned it you were smelling the the tinsel it had like a the fact that you said that yeah and then three hours later it started to smell again it makes me feel like it was the fact it's like a Tinsel in that shirt and I think it had a smell so question when other people smelled it did they smell the smell yes okay see thank you cutie appreciate it it did it like it was a bit it was a bit overblown I'll say it smells like cologne because I could tell you doused it yeah yeah he ran up he ran up to me again at the award show I was like smell my shirt smell the fibers yeah it did not smell like anything other than whatever cologne it was doused in so you did not have me smell your shirt so I did not because thank you for respecting me exactly I found a way to get I gave you one hug yeah I said you're [ __ ] killing it yes [ __ ] I do say that before events I say nobody talked to me yeah she says she's an absolute everybody's running around she said get away from me no no I'm just scared I'm scared of you when you're when you're on event production mode so you get very feisty oh yeah I almost cried because of me uh I was I was late uh my call time was 12 30 a.m p.m and Judy texts me 10 minutes before 12 30 and is like where are you and I was like I'm gonna be late and she was like you're my co-host you're supposed to be here rehearsal is at 12 30. so I start freaking out because like I didn't realize that I was missing rehearsal and um I get there and I just see cutie is like in the zone like she is going through it she's got someone vlogging for her there's people coming up to her and running and going and I like show up in my Crocs no makeup on a green sweater blue plaid pajama pants because I want to get my hair and make them there I was like wow no this is actually happening yeah we're freaking out it makes it real real I was late because of Austin's show oh come on that's right I'll say it right here on the podcast so it's on the record Austin's show came over Austin show came over to my house stinky ass shirt with his no he didn't have the shirt on yet he was going to put the stinky ass shirt a little bit later in the day however came to my house got no jewelry on and he goes Assad Mission like you said you would he's on the phone with Carl Jacobs he's like I'm coming to your place later Carl he's like hitting everyone's just crazy because I had jewelry put aside for him no idea burglar okay Hassan I told him this days ago this is not even true he's messy yes no this is absolutely well that's true you can't wait that's true so what part of it is not true the fact that I made you late yes what time was he supposed to be like I'm inclined to believe Hassan In This Moment no okay what time was he supposed to be there I was supposed to be there at 12 30. okay I arrived at his house at noon he came down the stairs dick flopping in his underwear okay I was about to go into the shower at 12 o'clock no that's not true first of all the questions no no it wasn't even it wasn't even 12 o'clock I literally left him down there I was like I was like you know what [ __ ] it like I had to shower pick whatever you want you know go off only Austin show can make it sound like he hated the dick flopping even though that was it might be the highlight of his history yeah I I came downstairs I was like I was trying to take a shower and Austin was like I need jewelry I admired the comfort that he was in yeah well truly I was seen in his own home as he was getting ready I was laser focused I was laser focused on the task at hand and that was looking fabulous at the streamer Awards and Hassan was getting in the way of it frankly yeah I apologize for getting in the way but this is fabulous and I'm gonna steal it because I'm gay and I can get away with it that's March's uh gift for me by the way oh wow well that cancels out no I'm gonna give it back anyway Judy now whose side are you on at 12 o'clock should be secured by 11.50 at least minimum I am on either of your sides both of you are fired for next year okay all right you know what [ __ ] it I'm just gonna host at the Esports whatever the [ __ ] that is up and down if you said that something I'm not doing that but if you want you'd pay me a big money no I would never do that but stop it all right never do that it's true worse okay highlight low light okay um what should I start with highlight okay the Highlight honestly was like when we were doing the closing statements just kind of standing there realizing we did it yeah also just being done because I've been stressed about this for six months like not nearly as much as this ball of stress you're stressed about a different thing oh yeah you're afraid I have a fear of stages yeah I've been on stage only a couple times to present Awards but I'm only up there for like what five minutes this would be the first time I'm on stage for like two hours minimum well I don't know how long it went for but um also just reading a lot like it was a lot of text to read so I was definitely facing my fears um but yeah being able to like you know say like we did it we it went better than I thought it would oh no that's good the low for me was when cutie started to panic oh my God the beer and the stress no no I was backstage and I said who the [ __ ] is in charge of this dude I've seen a new side of cutie no her feelings were warranted so what happened was uh the audience couldn't see the video play but the stream could see the video play and she spent a lot of like money yeah so there was a there was an animation that was playing and it highlights nominees and something really important about this year I would say that we can all acknowledge is 2022 was huge for w community and I have this very important moment in this stupid animation that has Kai your rage and Bruce getting picked up in the limo and it's just super funny because they're like in their um Ghostbusters thing I added it last minute because I watched I watched the animation I said we're missing the W community and so I stress my my animator out like the week before I'm like we have to add this scene I have to do it like it's so important to me like just to see us all come together in this stupid little animation right like it's so sick uh and then it didn't play and I was like as weird as it is I was really looking forward to peeping out on the stage and seeing like your rage's reaction to it and like I did tell him he was in the he was in the table next to mine so I yelled at him and I was like yo you're on the he knows he knows who's on it but here's the beautiful thing about an event like this not only does it get people together I know uh not only does it celebrate uh you know and and you know engage in I would say a very expensive circle jerk uh yeah there it's also Bountiful for at least the next week of content which everyone will react to so you'll be able to get the reactions of all of those streamers after the fact yeah and my goal tomorrow is to get all the content pieces uploaded to the YouTube and so then people can react to it which I realize next year I'll delegate that to someone so they come up the same night but um yeah it was uh it was um I just felt so bad for you because like I know how much work you put into it and there were so many people behind the scenes like trying to like figure it out and put it together and it just wasn't working it just they tested it all beforehand right like throughout the day so it's just so well it made me mad because again like people don't people don't realize when they see like cutie the streamer Awards they think like I'm getting paid to show up and host it no no no I am I'm in it man like I wrote the script that we're following I write the on a show like I do all that and so when something goes down and it's out of my control it's very frustrating because it's like I pay for this I pay for that and so the things that are important to me when they don't happen I was like I was back there and I was like put up a be right back screen put up a be right back fix it she she was I would rather have a be right back screen technical issues than the audience suffering in any way shape or form yep and and they weren't listening to me and it was so frustrating yeah that's [ __ ] no your feelings were valid yeah I felt bad because I got mean kitty don't feel good for that you deserve to don't feel bad when when you invested so much time and energy and then it's out of the control something that you created it's it's mind-numberly frustrating yeah You're Gonna Save Your highlight in low light okay because I think I know what you're learning it's gonna be a segue and it's going to be a segue yeah we're gonna move over to me um my highlight was when I got there they they had the interviewers and I love sweet Anita and so I came up again and you know she's so sweet she's so kind she's like Bill I just in case I have any ticks like I I you know please don't be offended by anyone else like I mean are you kidding me like I [ __ ] love you don't worry about she goes well I've actually had a really good day I haven't made it fun of anybody and I was like oh great she aired me the [ __ ] out bro she was like you're gay [ __ ] off you suck I was just in there she jinxed herself not yeah she jinxed herself back but I was laughing so hard because at one point Haas came over and we like did like a handheld and she just immediately went you're gay perfect timing uh awesome my mom loved it she didn't understand um and then my low light gotta be serious for a second um Austin Knox your editor got a really great video stream rewards and I thought osnox he's my friend he'll put me in there somewhere fake ass vegan ass tell them don't blame him tell him vegan ass trick ass [ __ ] didn't sneak me in anywhere I have actually lowered or heightened My Vegan impact now I'm buying cheaper meat that I know has been tortured from this point forward no because he's so trashed no this is my fault this is my I'm not letting you take it I'm behind the scenes director on that and I I needed him to include as many people I've as I've never heard of intentionally that was the whole purpose so you're the fake [ __ ] I am the fake [ __ ] yeah well you're both fake well and I actually had a problem with the content pieces in general and I didn't realize this because I I made sure last year I didn't get a chance to watch some of them I made sure to watch them multiple times and uh and she was like ah no will no no no no but there was and I told Ludwig this this morning there was too much Ludwig and I even had editors that's true I had editors cut Ludwig out a little more and that was with too much that was with Ludwig cut out yeah that's crazy I know I did like the attention of every stream that I did the entire year I mean but you were you were very well presented I think in in other uh spotlights which I didn't talk about the other ones I'm saying the awesome okay I agree I agree he's a fake ass trick ass no he's not and I'm eating bald eagle Meats he's my perfect Soul bald eagle meme yeah um Sports wedding I think it's highly illegal but okay um I'm gonna give you guys my highlight uh low light I'm gonna start off with my low light first because it kind of it's a it dovetails off of what will was talking about uh my low light was I feel like I failed will he wanted to he was up for a league of his own and I advocated heavily for him uh him and Afghans both Afghans for uh the the Hidden Gem and will for League of his own and I pushed for it and unfortunately it didn't it didn't happen and I feel like playing off I blame Austin I think Austin somehow also responsible for that listen I'm gonna be honest but that was a stack pattern you even apologized to me for that which I think is ludicrous because I was just happy to be nominated stat category I think short of Gandalf showing up with the Eagles I there's no way I won that category I thought I thought it would I I was more confident about you winning no I was more confident about you winning League of his own because I didn't know a lot about Doug Doug listen you know me I would have been prepared to give a speech I did not prepare a single second in my head I never even allowed an opportunity in my imagination that I would win that never once that's crazy I literally thought you were gonna win it I was less confident in my chances of winning uh just chatting than I was in here I did not prepare a speech for mine either for this year I'm gonna clear okay I'm gonna add uh some categories next year best gay pilot maybe two yeah and little nasdax he's like when I picked up flying I never knew and you're just sitting there [ __ ] steaming this Prezzo peso does one prez was one flight simulator stream and immediately he's the best helicopter we have an inborn that's the thing they love it more because he would crash I'm too good of a pilot you will never show dick on stream though that's he's got that yeah he showed Dick and [ __ ] sleep yeah really yeah like continuously I'm just now learning about Prezzo yeah so that was my low light uh my highlight was probably uh I mean this is a bit of a repeat of what Austin was saying because he went in first but uh was was definitely seeing everyone I tweeted about this before the streamer Awards as well where like I really love um having an opportunity to socialize with the entirety of the streaming Community well not the entirety but you know as many as we can uh Post in one area I love cons for that reason um so it was a it was an awesome opportunity I got to see the RDC boys uh you know Mark Phillips Dylan all of them yeah they came through which was sick they wanted to come oh and I was so sad I was like I would have get I would have got you all a seat yeah people you got to tell me before Jesus I do it like we're streamers we don't even have guys are the worst people to work with yeah dealing with straight up Gamers yeah that was definitely that was definitely a problem difficult to get on time I mean I've had him on maybe 13 14 times on my show yeah and every time yeah you keep doing it for some reason I've got them contracted for six episodes in the next season I don't even know about it his manager signed the paperwork that's interesting he gave him like the Socialist doc the cast deal all over yeah yeah I'm just like he's gonna give me a shirt he's gonna give me a shoe um but yeah that was definitely my my highlight you know uh hanging out with rage a little bit hanging out with uh Chris next door um age was so nice yeah I talked to Reagan and I was like you know uh Hassan definitely thought you were gonna win and he was like no I missed your [ __ ] award-winning why were you too busy getting downstick cologne yes are you serious I was in I was in the parking lot or the side thing cutie prevented created a great VIP entrance I was in there getting doused in some Italian cologne because that my shirt was smelling that is it's okay highlights and low lights highlights genuinely the Highlight this is the reason the reason I do this show people don't realize is because I want I want to heal the world I want to heal toxicity amongst streamers uh it's impossible but I'm doing my best and so having a moment where I can pause and look out and see all these people being in the same room for the first time ever because even at twitchcon you don't get these people in the same room you know um true and so I have 300 people in the same room that I've never been able to do that and so that that is my highlight I think that's my highlight every year um my my low light uh is we're about to unpack something here Hassan's red carpet performance watch you just go Austin stinky everybody smelled it for some no like for some reason I was the only one who didn't smell it and I wanted to smell it that's my low light super left out of that I'm sorry Kitty um no I I I last year I so I am a broken human and I consistently feel nothing um last year after the show I felt nothing besides just like just disappointment I just felt like I could have done better and I you know I was like the only feeling I felt was just like bummed this year I felt nothing but I felt optimistic like oh I know how to fix this now whatever people I know people like it last year I didn't know people liked it I know people like it now and I I have my after party planned and I am for once ready to celebrate I think I like said to Maya in the car right over like oh I'm gonna take a drink um crazy you know like I'm gonna have some fun um which is something I don't do I'm gonna smoke a little mess yeah I'm gonna be crazy there was a lot of math um first of all I had a lot of behind the scenes stuff that people don't know is the venue called us that morning and said that there was a leak in the roof so they had to close the whole entire top floor they were like they tried to cancel and we had a we had gotten permission to have the food trucks there the food truck shop and they're like no never mind which is crazy because they're the ones that provided the generator the venue was awful the venue was awful awful awful we'll never be using them again we'll get Austin to get me a refund definitely was leaking I I can I can attest to that the downstairs like where we're at like it's dripping off it's completely unacceptable nfts were destroyed that day yeah which which is fine I mean look ultimately who cares Airbnb is already losing their shorts to Marriott they weren't even Airbnb oh well it wasn't Airbnb leverage anyway yeah Oh I thought you were talking about the venue that we were at oh no not the house no the yeah I'm talking about the house you [ __ ] on something unnecessarily it was good that was league in two it was just it was just American information it wasn't supposed to be raining here but uh I show up to my party I'm like ready to be chill I'm ready to just chill and talk to people as soon as I walk in I see a lot of people that were not on my guest list which is very frustrating because this party is just for streamers to chill it's not for agents to pitch it's not for sponsors to pitch it's just to be chilling I'm very confused how this happened for the record just for the record I don't want to say something at the party I was given three cards I was gonna say that I was gonna say that as well like cutie is not being like a diva when she says this coming like someone coming up and like pitching and handing me a business oh yeah she's not she's not saying she's not saying like oh I hate when like streamers get to interact with like you know non-streamers though they're not famous like there's a lot of streamers that aren't you know popping or anything like that they're all invited ultimately but but this after party was a chance for everybody to chill this is like private relaxed it was supposed to I want those same people that I saw in that room that I was so excited to have together then they just had to sit there and watch me for two hours I want them to be able to talk to each other and that's why I spent thousands of thousands of dollars putting this together unfortunately when brands are there though they do end up uh you know getting their way with uh you know talking about business just yeah there it's a it's a constant thing where they're like talking to me about a shirt well I had a new shirt the [ __ ] yeah I was not invited who the [ __ ] gives off business cards like it's the first 80s very interesting I was very upset and so I walk in and I'm first thing I do is I ping my agency and I'm like guys did you give these out and they're like no like we have no clue there's no one watching the door when I came in yeah so I needed to Triple my security number one so then I have my security start going through to check people for wristbands and then long story short I'm just dealing with all of that which sucks because it and then one point this group this this was the audacity I'm sorry and maybe this is mean of me but I'm gonna say it because it's very frustrating when I'm trying to do a private thing for my friends and I'm sitting there in this group of six people walk in and they all have wristbands and I go hey guys where'd you get your wristbands and we got they're like oh we got it from the production crew and I go what they're like oh we're friends with we're friends with um this is no harm to wubby but they're like oh we're friends with wubby and I go oh that's totally fine but this this party is just for streamers they're like oh we are streamers and I said streamers I personally know I'm so sorry this is like my personal party at least it's supposed to be and I just like can't keep letting people come in they're like oh well we're friends with people and they just walk past me and I was like okay like mind you this is not sponsored like Misfits sponsored the after party but they only paid for a fraction of it like this is my personal money that I'm trying to give to my friends I'm trying to celebrate with my friends and so it's just like wow like I realize we all have friends the issue with this industry is will probably has 10 other friends that would want to come Hassan probably has 10 other friends that would want to come I invited all of them knows each other all of my friends are managers and and marketing uh brand people so that's I invited them it's just like really sad it's my personal it's a personal thing for me that was what the after party was supposed to be I know how I'm gonna fix it next year whatever it's gonna be great I'll fix it um that's not the problem but then something that's very personal that I'm not trying to create any unnecessary drama here but uh Binks attended the after party and got kicked out and inevitably got the party shut down because it was a residential neighborhood and I want to unpack some things here um I personally and I don't want this to become a rag on mink segment it's not going to be that I have personally done everything in my ability to help this woman I have tried everything she has been my friends for years up until uh a point last year when it she had pushed me past my boundaries where I had to say hey like this is too much for me this is unhealthy for me you are destructive to me um and so I had to walk away but I have tried everything I've spent time money I've tried everything you're good oh my gosh former Rock it's just wanted to just say hi um so I've tried everything so I don't want people to think this is lack of trying I think if you've watched my content you've seen Minx and I used to be very close and now I've separated myself from her completely however this is a person that I did used to care about even though I do feel as though I've lost her I don't recognize her anymore as a human I not like as a human but I'm saying like she's not the same person when I talk to her I do not know what happened and I'm I'm someone that suffers from mental health issues I am not kidding you when I say I've tried to do everything um and anyway um she reaches out to me out of the blue uh a few weeks ago and brings up streamer Awards and I have a moment where I think you know what this is again a person I really have cared about for so many years I'm gonna give her another chance and I said Minx because she told me she bought tickets for the balcony I said Minx you can come sit on the floor with all the other streamers you have to promise me one thing and she was like what anything and I said do not drink be completely sober you need to promise me this like promise me and she's like I promise I'll do anything I was like great and like I was like genuinely like I will show you the messages multiple times me just saying I'm not kidding promise me and I promise I said completely sober I promise like she promised me over and over again anyway I get to the party um she's wasted uh she is getting escorted out by security because she's trying to throw heaters into the pool and um then which is bad is a bad thing yeah eaters the big propane gas heaters like the ones that are like like seven feet eight feet can I put those in the pool I heard she was trying to throw cyclun in the pool yes and people she was trying to run away is a bad thing so bad um and so I uh I and I'm getting told that like Security's handling it and I'm like you know what I have to deal with this other problem so hopefully security handles it apparently upon walking her out um she went limp with the intention of making it harder to kick her out you know dead body weight is much harder to that um and in doing so that's tactical uh yeah tactical some other stuff happens all of a sudden she's just laying on the ground limp and no longer cooperating and getting removed from the party um now her friend that is with her is very concerned obviously now I'm getting concerned because this is someone's safety uh and you know I'm we're trying to figure out does she need an Uber home does she need an Uber to an emergency room what should we do um by the time I get called out there they're telling me the party needs to be shut down because since she's in the front yard neighbors are starting to come out because it's causing a scene and I'm saying you know I I make sure she's okay but also like I don't know what's going on her friend unbeknownst to me called 9-1-1 so then in this residential neighborhood a fire truck comes pulling out an ambulance police cars and they have to close the party so by 11 o'clock my after party that I spent thousands of thousands of dollars on to celebrate my friends is closed down the thing that I wanted to do to finally relax and thank these people for coming and just like kind of celebrate this thing that we all just did together is close down and I genuinely don't want people to think that like I'm oh complaining about money over someone's Health it's just the the SAT like the disappointment I have and somebody who promised me better and then uh ruined my night after everything that I have done for everybody and what I've done for them specifically was very sad uh this is the behind the scenes on why a bunch of people today are like quote retweeting that I've unfollowed her on Twitter this sounds dramatic but I can't have someone like that in my life I've tried everything she's blocked on every platform I have I am no longer interested having contact with this person or Taking Chances with this person because I've done it everything I've done everything I can't do it anymore so uh you know I don't know I don't know how to help someone who doesn't want to be helped what do you do well I left the party right before that happened yeah it was very late I have the party before that because the party lasted all of 30 minutes yeah because it was very late which means that you Uber there 25 minutes you got there maybe 10 minutes you were there I did a laugh and you ubered back 25 minutes I will clear your mind sometimes we're longer than you were at the place yes I will clear my name right now yeah I walked into the party Austin's felt so bad I got thrown into the pool because my shirt smelled so bad timings I went inside I said what up to everybody people started coming up to me someone was like hey you want to fight in a boxing uh ring and I was like no uh and then a bunch of other people came up and you know we're asking all the sponsors were there trying to no no not all the sponsors which is fine uh got to see a bunch of people uh talk to some talk some friends for a little bit uh I saw some incredible burgles uh snuck too and I didn't get a burger they cleared them out when the cops came I don't know why why they removed the burgers they were like get these illegal burgers out of it I saw them taking it out and I was like wait no I had two cookies Burgers there after I I was eating a lot of them before I I that's where they went yeah I had two cookies two burgers I had like half of a drink and I was like well that's that's enough for me time to time to hit the hay yeah yeah I drove there I figured I'd stop by try to socialize and celebrate a little bit because I also don't party and and then there was an announcement they said like hey just you know party's probably gonna be shut down in like nine minutes and that's when I started to freak out because like that road is so narrow it's like a one-way Street and then oh so that's the reason why you left early is that what you're yeah no I was like I had to get out before everyone tries to leave at the same time I was like I gotta go home I'm tired so it really went to be so it's not because it's not because you you uh you're you're worse than me everyone always makes fun of me but she's actually worse than I am I felt like I got off work like it was yeah it wasn't working we were working yeah oh yeah me on the other hand I was not oh I'm sorry where are you you're throwing stones did you just say my red carpet work was not work natural for you [Music] I think it's easier to be on the carpet than it is to be on stage I said I agree God I see that it's true you don't suffer the type of anxiety that I have stages and you're a [ __ ] man you pig yeah got him no I'm sick you know what God this is [ __ ] ladies get together ladies with me the amount of people I have to do is read a prompter he was off book the entire time yeah Robin off the top of his head oh my God the smallest world's violent is is why is Mr smelly shirt now acting like I have minor inconvenience Sam over there damn how dare you excuse me 19 Bloody Mary I am sobering up with this water thank you very much and I do have to pee you still have eye makeup on from last night you messy [ __ ] you look like a harlot you look like a trollop right now I'm wearing a stolen jacket you [ __ ] and I'm still drunk yeah we don't have much argument I have to pee ladies you're on your own I think our team lost a potty go potty no I think you both did a fantastic job and I understand why both of you are tired and ultimately you didn't miss anything you didn't miss anything I'm just really sad because I just want everyone's you know these are people that flew in to have an experience for a day and I really wanted I really want to take care of can we make a binding agreement what next year I got the party no no no the reason is she's not even spitting in her hand no no I realized something she put her hand behind her back I realized something I realized something very very important I have to be of full control over it in order for um in all I'm saying is when [ __ ] was going down you died I said I will open a venue in Los Angeles for you and he found it in like two minutes that's very impressive all you have to do is pay for some of the bar tab I'll have it open I had them open he did a venue for you after after no she said this is last minute she's like I don't know most of these people we're not doing it yeah that's what I said because I looked around I was like it's already too late to fix the guest list but that's my that's that's the biggest thing is I need the full control I need full control yeah that's what I realized spices there it does it does it does but even this this party I realized where I lost control and what was [ __ ] up because of that so Kitty I do have a couple people I'd like to put on the guest list I'll considerable okay thank you literally gonna say there was a huge there was a twink deficit [Laughter] breaking news he's not a twink anyway he's like he's my age Jesus Christ I didn't know twink was an age thing dog he was your age I thought you were like back when you used to call him a twink as well yeah and I've aged out of that twink too it's not an insult he's just you use the restroom while you define a Twinkie go ahead explain what twink is uh I borrowed my back myself into a corner here um look there's nothing there's not an insult about being I'm not a twig you know is it an age thing I thought it was like I thought it was like a skinny I thought it was like no it's not a big boy it's not an age thing skinny it's not an age thing so you're saying soda Poppin is no longer pretty no remember the the the episode that we watched behind a paywall of MILF Manor last week yeah it was awesome well you had good reasons uh you remember it was a Gabe Gabriel the one with the eye shadow yes that's like a kind of a twink really yeah yeah or no no no no the young one with disco Mommy I like him too this go mommy's son twink is like a very like like Hassan's like more of like a he's not like a he's not a twink he's like more of like a jock on steroids like kind of like a like a hairy jock kind of like it doesn't he's not there because you have a question does twink equal bottom most of the time but not always really so you can be you can be a cat but also a tweet yeah you can't you can be a Twinkie it's rare rare it's rare it's very rare it's seldom but there are there are twink tops out there very rare others also but there's more more common to be verse but much more common to be bottoms look let me talk about soda popman it is incredibly good looking I just think he's not a twink anymore and there's nothing wrong with that that's drama there's no drama what really somewhere chance is crying right he's upset I'm sure he's fine really I think he's fine I don't think he's crying into his body pillow of his of his waifu I mean he he's a dad now right yeah he's a Daddy what I don't know I don't think that's real I don't know what's real anymore I'm struggling I'm struggling to hear I'm trying to understand why it's okay he had a title where he was like I I'm dad and I was like oh she's moving in with his waifu I have long considered a chance to be one of the more attractive men on this platform and I stand by that till to this day he's just not a twink anymore he's not your type it sounds like you're playing does it hurt me yeah it hurts me that we've lost in other words it really does swink Dev is a terrifying thing it's an awesome I've said we need to get rid of twig and death and create bear birth we can have twink death and bear birth but I want to say that chance is a bear either so no no no he's an automation right now no change the otter because he's like he's getting hairier throughout his beard and Otter is like a like a hairy twink yep so a bear a bear a bear is bad a very hairy no a bear is just like big like this Hassan plus like 100 pounds killer and and more jock type whereas a bear is like fat you better I mean you better do the Bible you won't do the count you better not how do we know that you're a hunk I think you're a bear I never heard of hunk before so this was mine hunk is like yeah hunk is like Hassan it's like kind of like a hair and then I'm a twunk Oh no you're not you're a job you're a jock what am I what the [ __ ] you you are so funny you want to be call me that again will what am I no you are you are definitely jockish okay for sure if you lose 10 more pounds you're in the twink space I don't know yeah Hassan thinks I'm becoming a twink it's a weight thing I definitely wait oh yeah we're talking about the gay community a lot of it is weight weight is very important Progressive also incredibly no knuckle no gay men are not Progressive at all well I wish we had a wife famous a famous foe biker oh my God that's why you hates gays because the the the the the CIS white gays are like notorious for not being uh Progressive yourself included excuse me oh my God he tries to do this thing where he tries to ridicule me in front of powerful women [Laughter] it's not working it's working I believe it doing most of the work is not not just me okay I heard you smell bad oh okay you you played a role in this um how do we merge the gap between uh the N A broadcasters including some people that you invited outside of n a and the otherwise much larger Spanish Community I don't know I've taken I've been thinking about it a lot how I downloaded duolingual on my phone wow yeah well first in Spanish you can't even pronounce the [ __ ] app Duolingo he's dyslexic [Music] yeah okay [ __ ] yeah I'm sorry brother there's an O there it happens anyway I mixed up with Dua LIPA yeah sorry about that brother well let's see what language you learn one thing I wanted to say before yeah one thing I wanted to say also before we got into the Spanish streamer a thing was uh our fits we can we can talk about them other than Austin's smelly one uh I I wanted one best recipe I wanted to oh I liked it I would say I thought you were great the smell is definitely I start getting admit that because I'm a gay man no and I download Duolingo and learn Chinese so you can expatriate to the ex Chinese company what does he say he loved it he loves China more than he loves the United States in your Discord what really yeah no they didn't yeah by the way for context yeah Hassan loves China more than the United States he wants to he wants if you watch a lot of I watch Hassan constantly he loves China I don't we'll excuse all their atrocities because they have beautiful shiny trains he's trying to I mean it's like not wrong it's not wrong you're like kind of there here all right anyways identified you've identified it yeah now that you've slandered me let's move on from that point it's not true Jesus he's just I'm not in the Discord server right now Austin he loves triggering everybody in the in hospital I love Hassan he doesn't love China as much as the great United States of America um [Music] okay uh but yeah fit wise I have something to say uh the day before we went and I got a fit uh and I and I you know don't usually fit into a lot of stuff but uh this was the rare occasion where I actually found some uh Japanese designers that uh actually fit my big Burly body perfectly right and I was very excited at the Prosper but I got bullied a lot but there was one man there by my side not only defending me but also putting himself up there as well he had a entire fit designed specifically uh around something else you originally were going to well now if you were originally going to wear something entirely different you had your Chrome Hearts jewelry ready to go and I unfortunately was not able to fulfill my end of the bargain because well one I got bullied relentlessly everyone yelled at me which has never phased me from wearing whatever the [ __ ] I want to wear uh famously but two Dolce Gabbana yeah the reason why I have to wear Dolce Francisco was very insistent well this is okay like I didn't even like the shoes all he needed to do was just say he wasn't going and then it would have been fine the problem was that you said you were going and then you didn't show up I said I was gonna go to Dean I said I was going to go to dng and then we linked up with wisdom who and and that was a wonderful treat like it's like a once in a lifetime opportunity he's a brilliant young uh fashion content creator my favorite literally my favorite fashion content creator sorry Frugal Aesthetics um I loved wisdom everybody missed it Austin almost fought wisdom wait what I know I saw it in your eyes watch this is what happened and I don't even know if you realize I don't realize I was about to go along with him was talking to wisdom and he's like did you like my outfit and wisdom was like yes and he goes I almost got those shoes when I was in Paris but the paint on the bottom I didn't really care for an Austin show went really you were seething you're like really I didn't I appreciated his critique I just fundamentally just except for that I am at war with the fashion Community yeah oh we know we can tell I mean I mean they haven't they haven't I haven't returned I'm this is what frustrated me about this yeah they're acting like they're doing me a favor for taking the shirt back you returned it it smells like Bo after all that guys you gotta be on my side here right wait that's actually crazy right it smells like that wearing a stolen jacket he wore the red carpet Dallas didn't cologne and returned it I exchanged it for another shirt it smells like Bo everybody you know he moved away from your side of the team I wouldn't move too I need some defense in the chat this microphone is out of control he's at war with the fashion community in L.A if you bought an eight or whatever [ __ ] shirt amount that costs if you bought that shirt and it smelled like body odor Hassan you would have returned it yesterday yeah but he also wouldn't have worn it yeah well they convinced me okay this is there's Nuance to this story okay the Nuance is they doused it in industrialized cleaner and it covered it up temporarily right temporarily okay I like that yeah I like that you're trying to get her on your sizes I've lost I've lost 50 of the female Coalition I have in the room I'm out all right I do not agree I'm still listening I'm still here Austin sweetheart are you a girl too I think he's asexual okay perfect all right you're hunting so much look worse look it smelled like BL the industrialized cleaner all over it okay it came back it came back with a vengeance it wasn't gonna leave it's not my fault I was on the phone with them today they're like you know what it's against our policy I said your policy come on Austin you're getting me a refund for the venue I will do it hey look they are taking it look we're getting hey can I say something else before I go any further in ruining the reputation of this Premiere Fashion Outlet no their reputation is Stellar okay I think they're fine yeah buy a shirt wear it and return it the staff was fantastic Lorenzo is a Statesman it's not his fault that they gave that they gave the shirt to somebody to try on that was you know what I mean it's not their fault they're [ __ ] amazing so and I'm gonna go back and I'm gonna buy the outfit where if they let me in the store yeah I'm pretty sure there's photos of you at the store no problem now like they they have to do not let this man into the store or around the vicinity of the store I I don't know I I I I forgot to mention another thing about the after party venue I everyone gets kicked out right I look around there's like 10 people that I noticed at the party that I didn't recognize that I was like oh God like they must be something whatever and then so I have security I go hey will you go ask who those people are because I don't know them it's Gotta Be Friends of the owners of the house that I've been paying for their drinks their food oh cutie it's over give me the number give me the [ __ ] name great paywall segment you call them while we're on the page I will do it I thought you were gonna do a paywall segment where we order Cutie I'll do it apparently I'll call him tomorrow we'll record it we'll do it we'll bring back we'll come back to the room travel to wherever you live and we'll we'll do the phone I will seriously call it that was absolutely ridiculous let me tell you something Chad okay or whatever let me tell you something when you pay for something and this is I think this is a very this is a social whether it be a venue or a shirt right right people call me a Karen because I'm white and blonde it's not it ain't me look Karen is I think I think this is a fundamental socialist ideal okay when you pay for something you should not be taken advantage of by major corporations you need to stand up for yourself that you pay for it get them cooked let me tell you something you you pay for a house you pay for that venue yeah when you sign up for that you signed up for a venue it was quality right yeah that did not include the friends of the people that existed in the venue clogging up the space where they pay for those people no the [ __ ] they weren't they're eating your food they're eating your food they're talking to your friends they're spreading their business ideas when we did break the contract by having an ambulance and a fire truck show up what if there's a medical emergency I mean come on that's ridiculous good luck okay great I don't know I mean sir what if there's a medical what if a son uh I don't know she was just belligerently drunk though but you don't know that well I think they know that well now we're admitting we're losing leverage on the podcast cutie come on listen I'm friends with a bunch of stupid Millionaires and they'll never use your Venue service again no that's not we don't use that to the end no oh that's the that's the nuke we approach it very nicely in the beginning and then you slowly increase the intensity until you're talking to the manager Austin has the capacity Austin has the capacity to book like a Delta Airlines flight in under 30 milliseconds so I don't know how he does it agree yeah he he I've never seen someone with such prowess in specifically he's got the uranium Medallion wow it's beyond Platinum yeah like Hassan tweeted uh a very like very picture of him in a selfie and I knew exactly the plane he was on the uh the sweet he was in and the also the um the the time at which he was arriving and I can tell you Hassan you tweeted that you were in Los Angeles about two and a half hours before you were actually there I mean it's true he's a problem I do it because you tweeted that I was like let me look no he's not Landing I'm so glad you are famous and not a fan around we would have to take out are we gonna cut this segment out of the podcast no no no no no I have Nick's like that too he's but Nick's autistic so maybe you you have the exact same kind of brain when it comes to planes as Nick does he does that exact same [ __ ] no here here's what happens you do with the venue I think you have to ask for a portion of the money yeah I don't think I get the full money because we were a problem with the fire trucks and stuff well we yeah the issue is it's technically in my contract they could charge me a fee for that showing up nah [ __ ] off everything was wrong yeah everything was wrong that's not a legal contract and to be honest there was a [ __ ] bathing ape on the window that [ __ ] in the game yeah also it was raining oh my God yeah that's not yeah but neither is a medical emergency I did I did not see security either yeah the guy at the front gate it's probably because you guys probably showed up right when I was telling him to sweep for wristbands and so they were all sweeping I think at that point cutie can I just be honest you should talk to an attorney because that is the most ridiculous clause in a contract that you can't have an ambulance show up what if somebody was dying yeah that's insane that they were they were and you would have to put your your finances finances over the idea that you would save somebody's life that's ridiculous you're right no that's fair oh my God we're talking about Austin Knox if you're not a fraudulent [ __ ] which I think you are you will hide you will make a highlight reel of every time this mic is in Texas last week he was struggling with this you just don't touch me oh now you're beginning to no that's yeah that's the you were lying that's what I he always has mic issues and he's always yeah that's what we like to call the common denominator literally just don't touch it it don't I'm not touching it so okay that might just attack him yeah thank you I appreciate it I saw that I mean yes because he's hitting it from underneath I haven't started watch it's gonna happen again and if you want to play America's deadliest drinking game anytime he does a show every time he adjusts his hair take a drink you will you will take 800 Shots by the end of the stream did you that's the first time hearing about this oh my God all of any broadcast and anytime you catch yourself in the Stream you go oh yeah any reflection not even he's got the water bottle he's got the water bottle in front of him he's like off the reflection he's like oh Americans and he does this he does the face look yeah don't talk to us where's the dog where's the dog come on Kitty we're not like that no you guys are coming over ladies uh there was one other thing that happened at the streamer words or rather I guess after the streamer awards that I I uh noticed which was uh kaide's response I use this as an example to to show people like look no matter who you are what is going on in your life like people are going to be ruthless regardless because fandoms work like that yeah um Kai day tweeted at the streamer Awards uh 16 hours ago pretty you know almost immediately after she won saying the moment I won I felt more dread than anything because I knew the hate I'd get woohoo todic is much more deserving of this award than anyone but it was fan voted not my fault and I'm so sorry for whoever this upset and which I think that's his name because everyone was like [ __ ] saying that she got a taught a guy robbed and I know tadek like I love tautic that's my brother he would hate this like he would he would never want yeah he would never ever in a million years want people doing this kind of insane [ __ ] especially because like a lot of streamers are friends with one another all of these streamers know one another love one another it's like really [ __ ] weird when like you know parasocial attitudes get in the way but uh you you had uh you had some choice for us to say as well um can you come out of pocket for a second yeah I'm gonna come out of pocket for a second oh oh because kaida doesn't need me to defend her why because kaide is maybe one of the most incredible human beings I've ever had the privilege of meeting yeah I this person's presence is so important to me and I love this person and I'm gonna tell you right now if you don't think she was the best valorant streamer [ __ ] you she was her content is unbelievable she is brilliant she went from gold to Immortal in one year she's just she grinds and yeah I'm gonna be honest I have never been so close to violence that people I don't know then the stuff I've seen out coming in the wake of her recent developments and people taking advantage of that if that is you you're a sick [ __ ] and you better hope I never meet you because I'll dismantle your ass I don't I don't think they're watching this if they are if you paid money to watch this I'm boiling Austin the [ __ ] mic oh my Lord okay anyway cutie what is incredible yeah um I think this is a hard thing about an award show one person wins but the fandom of the three losers will always be bigger than the one person that wins so people being upset about a winner if you're going to constantly if winning an award puts a Target on your forehead then the award show will not exist people will not want the award um it goes against the very the the very principle it goes against the very principle of why you want to do this too it's like I'm trying to [ __ ] Heal The Gaming Community I'm trying to say we can celebrate people we don't need to be jealous angry Fox we can like let's just [ __ ] celebrate people it's okay and audiences take a cue from your creators was anybody upset was anybody out of pocket tweeting like oh I was wrong I got robbed no one said that I did say that last year so I think it's a little valid to tweet that and also it doesn't even matter I was I was jokingly saying it and then Twitter thought I like actually physically got like violently robbed and then everyone was making fun of me and celebrating that I had actually gotten physically assaulted and raw Fox News got a hold of it thousands of quotations being like this is what you deserve you [ __ ] common position I'm like I was joking about an award show so that that did happen last year does everybody have a problem with every category no well to be fair if I had lost mine I would have I would have what's the most violent category every year it changes okay yeah you said for this year specifically Valerie yeah so I think uh if this this again this award show will cease to exist if if it becomes a Target that goes on people's head and I will say now first time saying this there are people that declined their nominations because they did not want hate for being nominated yeah yeah there are people that would have been nominated that declined their nomination crazy bro yeah when I send them a message and said congrats you're nominated they said please don't because of how some of this community is and that's a problem and we've got to figure out how to fix that and all we can do is hopefully normalize celebrating people instead of tearing people apart I don't know yeah um but uh what happened was to I missed all this obviously I was trying to stay off of my phone last night besides replying to people that needed things um but I I got a message from Kai day today that said hey can you just give the award to Tariq and I said I said hi today I'm gonna be honest with you he wasn't even in second place it was Jody like and I love Tariq too but like what and so I don't reveal anything and now this hurts my feelings you weren't nominated I was pushing I was pushing photograph pretty hard you know and uh I have no juice it is it's bad that your audience doesn't show up to vote can I tell you another thing of all the audiences there's a large percentage of your audience that does not give a [ __ ] about anything but you there I think you were but I think you're describing just like I feel like that like that's for everyone in their communities like they just want to watch I'm gonna say there are other audiences that mobilize better than yours I think it's more so they don't watch I think they mobilize very well yeah there's others for your [ __ ] no I know for me no no they're all over me yeah one of them no here's what it is they do not care about like twitch related things as much as they care about politics so anytime about gaming like yeah they don't they don't so anytime I deviate away from that they're just like I'm not interested [ __ ] you and I Almighty though and I don't have uh a audience that uh I think back in the day was way more distributed evenly between like just twitch Watchers in general that want to like get their news but also want to have fun on the side versus just like straight hardcore politics supporters I think my reputation has like been almost permanently damaged within the twitch ecosystem not creators will never see this because like they don't think about me like that but I think their audiences have like a lot of hostility a lot of the top content creators of well your your audience can be pretty hostile my audience can be hostile which I try to rein in all the time I yell at them regularly but that's not the reason I'm talking about like anytime I do get out with XC or whatever even if we patch things up yeah there's a gigantic chunk of their of his community that is like I hate him forever and no matter what happens like that that's true of everybody I had a long conversation last night and there's still a group of his community that's like they hate each other and it's like yeah nothing's that no matter what happens no matter what happens if there are contents do you think that's unique to you no I think well I think cutie also uh faces that as well right like I think well especially if you're a woman you're it's like way worse in general but like yeah me being a political content creator I think like there's a lot of people who just like wrote me off made their minds up and will like not only just not watch or not do anything that's like twitch related so that that part of my audience has been excised basically which is why people just don't give a [ __ ] when I'm covering like uh regular basic stuff no matter how much I collaborate with people um they're just they still give a [ __ ] some some do in the community but it's not as large it's not as sizable as like I think but my actual audience looks like watch your stream all the time I'm a loyal fan you just like the stands you want no no no no is that aside I watch your politics I can't wait till the election comes back true but I love your politics I watch a lot I watch him more than anybody else on Twitch I sincerely enjoy your commentary over politics especially when you watch conservatives and complaining my favorite thing it's my favorite thing to watch genuinely anyway I mean that truly I don't I know what to mean but I genuinely really it's my favorite thing to watch on Twitch I actually watch it the most too I don't watch it yeah don't worry I know look I I've I it's it's a win it's an interesting dynamic because like I've heard this from people when I was on the red carpet I could hear everyone else's like interviews and a lot of content creators were like you know talking about either whether they were excited to see me or they like watch me they would moderate my channel whatever and it was like interesting thinking about that because I'm like Their audience is probably [ __ ] hate me you know what I mean interesting like for the most part they were like that guy I heard he's toxics so it's always like there's this there's this thing that doesn't um add up with the way that like the people that know me in the real world and how they perceive me versus fan bases that have been geared towards animosity part of that though is there is this conception that if if there is a loyalty between two streamers that you won't talk about their [ __ ] and as a newscaster you talk about everyone's [ __ ] yeah but so does Ludwig so does xqc so does everyone that like actually covers drama moist critical I think they have the same opinion about a lot of those people as well yeah I think they do too you think those people also hate the lud and and moist yeah oh absolutely love to get [ __ ] all the time that's really interesting because I feel like he's a bit of a Centrist he still get [ __ ] he dances around issues a lot more than I do I'm like a little bit more direct usually yeah um but anyway all this to say I've never ever disclosed like the placements of voting I think that's very toxic and I've chosen not to but I knew in this situation that Tariq Tark would want kaidai to win like yeah he's the most supportive person I've ever met and like um and so I I was fine with saying it but I replied and I said listen to everyone out here it would have been Kai day Jody tarek Shazam that's what it was that's where the [ __ ] votes fell grow the [ __ ] up do better why are you doing this if you're if winning an award puts a Target on the head then no one's gonna do this and I said next year I'm I'm gonna remove the ballarant category you guys have lost your privilege maybe it'll be back in a little bit once you heal your community and some people are like oh you're punishing the whole Community because of this yes yes yeah absolutely yes I am absolutely how else would you manage that otherwise yeah unfortunately if that's what represents the entire Community then well next year you can replace it with the dark and darker category yeah of which I am one of the best on the planet some people some people will argue if soda Poppin wins that over you I'm fighting him well he's on my Trio so our Trio you can go up if Moon Moon wins that over your Trio I'm fighting it Moon Moon's very good movement oh [ __ ] okay well maybe not a dark but improv John Souls man we do an improv category it might not be gone forever but it's definitely it's not going to be there next year you that you guys need some healing clearly you need some healing if that's how you're going to react to someone losing an award it's a [ __ ] good luck telling uh people addicted cripplingly addicted to Riot games that they need some healing yeah you should understand that better when I was considering your league addiction it is sad because since I've been a part of the league Community it's like it's I give the league Community a pass when they're blatantly sexist to me when I do like the LCS broadcast I'm like these are my people that are being mean to me so it makes it better but it's just like man it's so sad that we've been in this industry like guys just stop giving a [ __ ] it's okay if a woman gets an opportunity that you wanted or you can still have the same opportunity it's okay if a woman plays a video game better than you or she's just playing a video game at all and you don't have to go tell her that she sucks you really don't you can just go you can just play the game too like it's okay you can just exist with these things happening but people have a problem with existing um no on that note I think it's time that we move on to the paywall proportion of this broadcast where we discuss whether or not cutie Cinderella is going to actually uh keep working with us or talked about actually you know what yeah there's some there's some drama there is some drama there and can we have awesome I don't think they'll answer at a 7 00 p.m on a on a speakerphone can we at least give it a try yeah we'll have to bring in Sailor because she has their info okay that's fine sorry all right are we making an attempt and I will be representing cutie as her attorney we will we will see you on the other side of the paywall if you want to check out that sweet delicious goodness uh all you need to do is go to patreon.com fear and and you'll be able to get access to that and many more paywalled episodes including our famous MILF Manor reacts um thank you so much for coming uh let's you have anything to plug you have a show it's a pleasure to be here I'll be here as much as I can Austin show that's me I'll be here uninvited as much as I possibly can because please stop leaning onto the microphone oh I'm sorry is that gonna cost you money no I just we're trying to do the show set your Mikey happy to see you all right I'm Austin show thanks for having me appreciate it yes uh hello and goodbye my name is Valkyrie and I'm happy I got a Redemption episode because last week uh the audio issues luckily Mauricio was able to recover post it uh but yeah uh definitely not jet lagged hope you guys enjoyed the episode and um I'm ready for the next part of it Queen it's not great [ __ ] sorry I'm still drunk yes my other podcast hey yo what hey yo I I plan on being a two-timing [ __ ] it's a different it's a different podcast it's different [ __ ] it's it's very different Vibes it's also a remote podcast this one's in person so this is what we get for wanting to expand our horizons with a gay man and a woman yeah I'm just good night me too girl listen despite you being a two-timing [ __ ] I'm gonna take this opportunity to compliment you because if I do this in real life you shrivel away and silence me but truly uh your event was incredible thank you amount of coordination planning follow through she did everything I tried to like better next year the best part of it is it's like the opposite of a it's literally the most thankless job you could ever take on for no [ __ ] reason whatsoever for torture because people immediately immediately chat no matter what happens because you're bringing in like so many fandoms together in one place it's always explosive Chad is popping off they get they get mad at everyone who won the award because that means that you know three other people lost the award uh and then also you know you you cook the books always I do I would like to make that very clear okay well it's fan voted you can't be mad at the winners and cutie manipulated and I did I did I played bubble gum bubble gum in a dish and that's how I selected funny him it was incredible thank you and thank you for making all of us part of it thank you thank you yes thank you very much it was life-changing I don't have a fear of stages anymore wow yeah I know that was it was exposure therapy it really like it put my I put myself out there because of that event yeah I don't think I could have done it anywhere else except for like a streamer thing yeah are you done and everybody watching go follow my YouTube because I'm gonna plug myself for once so uh okay I should and Austin Knox that fake [ __ ] won't edit a video for me please he's he's got his hands full doesn't he I've got some so expensive yeah I got some I got some I got multiple bonuses editors too much I got multiple bones to pay with him multiple bones to pick with them but he's so talented but worth it yeah yeah Austin Ox is uh you know it takes his sweet time with my projects now because you know he's been hired by everybody speaking of [ __ ] okay well I'm sorry you stole one of my main editors and then paid them more than I could afford so I did I get lost in Ox every once in a while yeah I think it's fair that's that's true I mean he killed it he did kill it except for the fact that he kills it he did not do it again I eat the dog hey yo all right well on that note we'll see you on the other side peace listen he's really talented drunken master style don't let his appearance or his demeanor fool you this is his art form this is his master this is it I've been waiting for this moment for my entire life look for the record or anybody gets mad about this this is Justified you get what you pay for period let's get the phone over here all right here we go okay first of all I need to get all my facts straight

Channel: Fear&

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Length: 81min 7sec (4867 seconds)

Published: Mon Mar 13 2023