Moneybagg Yo I Angie Martinez IRL Podcast

I'm at the peak of my career and boom that happened it was a miscarriage I lost my baby mom I lost my day when my left hand to the feds my right hand to the streets it's on to my back to back Andrew Martinez in Real Life podcast this episode and conversation is powered by a d'usse money bag yo everybody outside oh let's go back outside what's up love how you been I'm good I feel good good it's been um how long has been since you put music like two years a little over two years look a little over two years a little over two years I'm ready though I'm ready to I'm ready to get back in the mode you know I was just I was dealing with a lot of personal problems and going through stuff so it affected my whole process you know I mean yeah it's hard when you like when you have real life going on and then you have lots of people that depend on you exactly exactly get back to work yeah so before we talk about what the past two years been like we should just because I'm not gonna assume that everybody knows your story and your history or whatever but maybe just take us to like Walker homes take you yourself yeah tell me that I had never been to Memphis so tell me like I got a restaurant in Memphis now so now you got a reason I heard that is a reason enough exactly so I come from South Memphis walking home of course the terrible girl were hard trying to make it out up and down or we ain't had too much um I mean I did the normal stuff where everybody else do call you know you know trying to get out trying to get money get out trying to get money um and I mean I just I had developed a passion for music like being around a group of dudes I was I used to hang with and I used to see them like do it and they was getting money off I'm like when I seen them get 2015 2000 2500 for a show I'm like I can do this too and it's legal like this league they legally give you this penitentiary chances your chances so I I just I got into it and then it started third started from 500 my first show and it just got to grow and jump in 2500 and 15 000 it's got crazy so you made a good choice yeah made a great choice and that's how I figured out it was for me but tell me about that that place in Memphis because um I've never been there I don't know what it looks like I don't know what it feels like I don't know like where you grew up it's a it's a neighborhood yeah of course Treasures there's trenches for show like you might get robbed in the day you might come out the house you might you got to worry about somebody close to your snake and you setting you up you're getting this type of money you can't let this person see too much you know what I'm saying that might that might cost you you know what I'm saying you got you got I'ma just get dirty or get raw with it or you might um you might have a baby with this girl she got a baby with somebody with the other you know what I'm saying a dude over here two screens over here from you yeah it's like that everybody knows everybody it's like everybody knows everybody Smalls right there like and where are your parents you know my mom was in in walking home we was in Walking homes uh I ran away a lot you know what I'm saying I ran away me where'd you go I ran away a lot because I wanted to be like I feel like being around like my mama she was having me too it was too girlified over there it's too it was too single mom yeah so it was too many girls too many girls in the house and stuff you feel yeah sisters yeah I got two sisters and um on my mom's side uh but it was like it was two two girls in my house my aunties and just different people it's just too much going on so my dad he was really in the streets with it so I just used to always run away go over there with his mama like and my uncles and and just that's how I got just influenced and jumped off the porch like what was your father's name about all that what was he doing around he was pimping like he was you know Memphis known for that uh so he was pimping and uh he was selling you know just Industries to taking Penitentiary chance but what does that do to a young like you as a young boy thinking it's the way to go like I'm like when you see it like at this at what age what age are we talking about we talking about 15 we're talking about 14 15 16 your mind like a sponge at this point like your mind response you seeing is you absorbing like this is what I supposed to be doing or this like this is the way to go my dad is doing to get money [ __ ] I can do it I'm I can even do a better I might can really be successful at it you know what I'm saying so that's how I was looking at did he have any say in that or any feedback I think like for a minute he enjoyed it like like he made him proud do you know how dysfunctional and wild that is yeah for sure but it's just like a product where we come from I think like he was like that's my baby boy exactly like he kind of enjoyed it you know but he did tell me a lot of like real stuff in a lot of right ways to go to the so you did have both your parents in your life no like I ain't really had him in my life like that um but the times I did spend with him he put me down and I learned from it I looked out observed I watched stuff you know so I'm very very observable uh and I just paid attention and picked up off of so that's why I still like got the memories in my head now like isn't that crazy now that you're a father yeah I'm a father so when you think about your child being 15 years old you scared me what do you mean it scared me because I know how I was and I know what I saw like I know what I saw other like I got daughters like I got it's four and four so it's like I'm thinking like four daughters like damn I seen the worst the girls doing these four different type of personalities like you know what I'm saying like I can't do normal praying like really you know what I'm saying can't do number pray because the world we live in is so crazy and it's like and you can't stress over none you can't control it's like yeah but how do you how do you know how you have eight kids right yeah how do you know how to father eight kids when your father wasn't really like okay I feel like they told you the streets I feel like discreet because in just like me one better for myself and me like if I ever had kids I don't want to feel I want them to feel that I want them to feel what I feel you know what I'm saying like just feeling left out when you see other people with their dad or is is the is the daddy and and it's like you know when you invite your parents to the school and all them type of activities isn't that crazy how it really that [ __ ] really like the school things yeah yeah I remember that too being a kid the same thing and it affected me you know it affected me as crazy as that it's not your father um selling drugs or pimping or anything like that that it was that he wasn't at the school thing yeah like being there like as a kid that's crazy what sticks the most like not telling me happy birthday like you feel like like it'd be my birthday and he like and this one this one like I started I created motion like I had created motion what's that like motion mean like you you get you got it going like yeah I'm moving right now you feel me so uh trees yeah just people like we're real like when I was my first year like when the city got on me the trash States and all them people in the chicken circuits so um he reached out he was like yo what's up and then he go to action for stuff like but it was my birthday like is that the first time he came around when you started popping no I went the first time he came around like I had seen him a couple times been saying them off and on you know it's an every Blue Moon Yeah stuff like that and then boom you know but it was just at that time it was my I can't forget you were going back to saying like what stuck to me like I couldn't forget moments like I can't forget moments like that you know never when my kids to you know I'm saying so I try to stay on point with all their birthday like like I started that's eight birthdays that's exactly I started out like like two or three I know about heart and I just had to learn to like and put in put into my notes like because this is something I really care about so I gotta take yeah you feel you have it in your like calendar yeah whatever it takes whatever it takes to stay sharp with make them happy so yeah trust me I have only two I have one and a stepson I have two boys and it's hard to just juggle that exactly I can't even imagine eight and then you got eight with different you co-parenting and then you right situations yo it was five it was five a moments now it's four oh I mean no I'm sorry you know what I'm saying so yeah how's that uh it's a tough situation oh you know I got I had three three kids about her this is your first baby mother you're my first baby I got three kids about her um and there's like uh I took I got full closer to my kids you know what I'm saying they stay in the house with me I'm sure I'm getting them adjusted to these lifestyle this different life you know what I'm saying and it's just like it's hard like I really be I see like what type of sacrifices you you gotta make like yes definitely what kind of sacrifice you got to make and there's like three life never you talking about an artist like hot as me like I'm at the peak of my career and boom that happened so what happened you you were um was this your first this is your first name of my brain were you together a long time like was this like a like you had three kids that's a significant amount of time yep no but no they want they won't like that you know I was in the street Swedish so uh you know so I was in the streets where they saw it was in between other situations you know when I called myself done yeah I end up going you know what I'm saying so but you kept going back yeah yeah it was that type of situation it was something good it was something good it was there must have been some love or something there the love was there for sure yeah so then how did you is it okay if I ask how you doing uh the streets you know she was in the streets like I said she come from walking homes too just told you how treacherous there was or she was murdered you know since she was killed she was murdered I'm so sorry yeah about somebody that she was with and um you know it was shocking like I was in Atlanta and I was recording I was working on the to take you know they just called me like you know she is saying uh she had a room she did she lived in the room I can get deep on I ain't gonna get as deep as I can but that's like the picture right there you know she's like a scarred my insulin broke that I couldn't believe like first I was I feel like I was more mad at her than anything like I was more mad I was like how you lit it like you feel me like how you lift it happen how you let your kids and it was so crazy because when I when I talked to my daughter she was just telling me like I told my mom we was at the airport I told my mama not to go well they was in the airport in Miami going back to Memphis you feel me so she was July I told my mama I didn't feel right we didn't need to go and when I when she when I was happening in Memphis or in Miami her getting Murder She didn't happen in Memphis you know what I'm saying um so my daughter like when I it was crazy like because I had called my daughter I was like where you with I had already got the news like this one I'm broke down like damn what I'm gonna say so I end up let this thing off I um you know cry whatever uh got on the phone did you say cry baby you got one cry baby you know it's okay to cry when you're in the middle of seriously yeah yeah I called my daughter and I was just like what you doing where y'all lit like that and she was just like it happened that's exactly what she said she had heard already because her mom was supposed to been with her like that night she supposed to came back and get she never come back you know what I'm saying so she was like it happened no tell me you know what I'm saying it's just 13. yeah she 14 now her birthday was in um in March March 19th so this is just a year ago this is still kind of fresh though you know it's real fresh like it's Super Fresh you know I just didn't know how I feel like man I was like my mama finna come get y'all that's all I can say I was in the air I'm like man my mama's gonna come get y'all and boom are you in shock you might you have to be like no most definitely in shock like it's it's hard to talk about right now but I'm stronger man you know what I'm saying I'm dealing with it and I'm getting through it you know and how how are your kids dealing with it there's three of her three children right yeah like my uh my daughter like the oldest one you know she understand more she understand more than the other ones so she taking it way harder like she walked up to me like before I left like Dad I just want to talk to him I'm talking to her she's like I don't want to do therapy I need therapy like she she aware of enough to say that like you know like I I want to do third but I want to get I just be so sad and I'm just always in the room because she always just in her room like I had to make her do stuff you feel me I had to make her just get up and get about her day like come on tomorrow let's do this do this you know as it took a minute but now she she opening up she's doing it thank God you have a relationship where she can say that to you no for sure you know and I just always you know just try to keep it just they had to love you this and then just all it takes to just encouraging stuff you know that's tough it's a tough situation so the three kids are you have full custody now right they live with you yeah they didn't before it was like joint yeah you know how it be yeah when you have a baby you know and we ain't taking she needs to never take me to court she actually like was like one of my baby moms never gave me problems like she never gave me problems like and when she and we did argue it was probably my fault you see what I'm saying do you have any regrets about that maybe yeah I'll stay I'll be like man I wish I would I wish I would have picked up the phone she called me before it happened like I'm like man I wish I would have picked up the phone you know maybe I could have said someone made her not go get on the plane like I was thinking like that to not go back home like my daughter was telling me she was rush into Memphis like they had missed two three flights she she didn't want to turn around go back to the house or nothing in Miami that I got for him and she just was like no I'm going we going you going she's like I just want to go but let me go back with my daddy this is my daughter telling her but she like no you ain't going but you coming with me you coming with me coming right back but she was going to like get all that stuff to transfer them to the schools out there so even in the hotel they found the stack of papers all the papers you know what I'm saying he's trying to change your life yeah she told me she like she put like like even when I was having like little dreams and you know like when you you feel like they they come to you in your sleep and stuff like that she was just telling me it was my last time like no my last time I was gonna be it was just one more time I supposed to came back like you know what I'm saying so tough your kids probably do the therapy right at some point is that something you're gonna show my mom even me telling me too yeah the man she was about to so you bought them a house they were supposed to move to Miami yeah yeah God bless how are you doing I mean is it yeah it's a tough situation I'm just staying strong I'm just I'm just happy to have like a great support system the support system that I got and just keep me motivated like my girl my mama you know what I'm saying just friends you know I'm saying Friends of the family yeah because trauma like that and and um sometimes that people can't get up from that right it's still it's super hard like but I just like you know I say I'm in a strong phase that's why I feel like I want to come back and I'm talking now like I'm speaking at first I couldn't talk I couldn't even I couldn't do this right now I couldn't you know what I'm saying yes couldn't get worse I can't believe you're doing it now I'll be honest with you you probably can hear them you probably don't know if you can hear it in my voice a little bit it's trembling a little bit but I feel like I can trim before you like no I'm saying no it is yeah the year is not still you know what I mean not that long and not only are you dealing with your own drama but you're dealing with your kids drama and trying to save them and protect them because the other two are how old 11 and 9 11. oh so they old enough that they had relationship with her yeah for sure and as and if you don't want to talk about this it's okay but I know people probably would wonder it's like has there been any arrests or anything he was arrested yeah it was just just like this crazy like before Mother's day before Mother's Day the actual murder yeah yeah my mama I mean her mama called me and told me that they got him or something like that I don't really know the full detail I don't even know him like they don't know nothing about it like they never try to know him and then I'm just going off what they say what they with her mom was what I was told I know you say you have a good support system but like grief and like trauma and all of that stuff like howdy is it music like how are you like uh uh are you pulling yourself back up because you're saying now you're starting to know you like you said like you got to let it out you gotta cry I didn't cry out in the shower like cry in the shower a lot you know later that I let the steam all feel good about it after that record songs try to stay busy as possible you know what I'm saying and it's really just stay focusing but just looking at my kids is just be like it's hot they would make it harder like looking at my kids looking at my kids make it way worse like of course because now you got to be a father on top of that and you got to save them and protect them and do all that stuff how are you doing that like what like how are you parenting how are you being a debt like how are you managing that I don't know I can't even explain it for real I just I'm just doing it like I'm real deal just going with the going with the flow we all trying to get better we all trying to heal you know what I'm saying uh I take prayers seriously I'll take my religion seriously and it's just like I just be on my knees like you know what do you pray for a lot of everything like everything they like and like I go back to like when I first took my shahada and I got I became Muslim I don't know if this is the reason because who I am now me fasting and me taking God as serious as I did that's what my my career took off it's like when I ain't here I'm just living in the world I could never get over the hump you see what I'm saying but it's like when I started taking God serious like and like I started seeing everything like really sorry yeah and it was like unexpected too it won't be as soon as you pray for it did you not believe in God like early in your life I ain't that I ain't believing God you know my mama raised me up to like on a Christian end like on that end but you went to church and stuff or no sometimes on occasion occasionally sometimes but so when did you um uh when did you become Muslim what year was that uh 2018 2018 2019. and then your career is taking off 2020. like that why I said like it ain't gonna happen as soon as you 20 excuse me 2019 I feel like none will work out like damn but I ain't doing it right like I ain't doing that just it's like God really tests your patience like yeah it really tests your patience you gotta have patience like this the key and once I locked on it I found out about that it's like none can't stop me now I don't rush nothing like I don't rush nothing I'm all that time do it though God bless your kids man how are the other kids doing are they all together or you only have three in the house no I got three to actually stay with me that's in the house but you know my other kid I'm always having my kids I'm always having when I get back to the house and I got free time even if really if I don't have free time I let them run around the house and I go in the studio yeah you know I heard you I got the nanny and my sister my uh my mom and daughter my other sister she um she helped me because I heard you say one time that you at the beginning of your kid's life you missed a lot because she was yeah I missed a lot of missed birthdays I had to sacrifice a lot to get here like yeah I miss I missed a lot hole I like the daddy daughter day like stuff she wanted me to come I had to miss that and I was tripping by my you know my people you know what I'm saying but I'm making up for for sure they real smart kids they don't forget none now but yeah because they got my jeans but at the end of the day it's like I'm making up for the good our way the bad has anything surprised you about parents because it's different co-parenting and having kids have and then having kids in the house every day like really like is anybody surprised you I see like really like kind of like dealing with my daughter like you know this bro we're going wrong like she like the periods and all little stuff you know when you indicate that you know I don't know nothing about it so you're not going to this I work my sister and Ari you know saying they work with me on it you know I love that it's like I don't know how to explain it to stay out of it yeah stay out of it you know what I'm saying I stay out of it you know it's like they I mean they're doing better than most of us they got their dad and you know saying we talk about daddy issues and dad's not being around a lot on this podcast it's about real life a lot of people come from you know yeah not having that so you know them having you in their life it's a blessing for sure all alone for sure just all alone are you close at all um you know I'll be having ups and downs you know like with a couple of my baby mama but you know how they go like everybody ain't gonna be happy can't make everybody happy song everybody happy you know is there anything you would do different yeah well but but I don't regret nothing I don't regret and I don't look at my kids and they know mistakes or none of it like I look at them like they blessings for sure um but you know for sure like the knowledge that I got in there I'm a whole new person on my whole you know what I'm saying so if I could have this knowledge then a lot of stuff wouldn't happen how old are you can I say yeah 30. yeah do you feel like this kicked you into like real real adult thing like real real like it kicked me it it did yeah it put me in there but it didn't make me feel kind of you know I don't like feeling like what do you mean you feel a little bit why because you've been to some real real [ __ ] I've been through real life on mature and then like just having my kids like that having my kid liked it like man wow and that's funny he said I don't want to feel old you don't want to feel like that what have you um what have you learned about love through all this because you said you had to be supported deeply like during this type of grief and Trauma and life change oh no man I just feel like it it's literally it's how I even got the title for this mixtape like it's real deal hard to love like it's hard to love people like because they don't come with just they don't come Solitude like they'd be disguised they ain't got good intentions all the time and it's like I feel like it's hard to love me because of everything I've been through so it makes it worse it make it hard for me to trust like all kind of stuff like I don't know how to you fear me and I always be in my head I'm a Virgo you know sometimes I overthink you know I'll be in my head sometimes but I'll be thinking like it's for the better it's for the better too because I have came out on top thinking like that what do you mean or being protective they're being open protected with myself being God the guards up you know so I haven't been I done dodged a lot of situations like that so I don't never wanna I don't regret that I don't want to take that back yeah but at some point if you're gonna but I'll be I try to loosen on certain like I didn't get I didn't get mature and um up there to like a word to the point is like when I see stuff I'd be like let me try let me see but I always have a I'd be 10 steps ahead of the situation to where like if this go like this I'm like this so it's like so you never all the way committed if you're always looking at somebody with a side eye uh you can't all the way commit to love if you always like let me see no thank you so that's why you're hard to love exactly I feel like that's exactly why I'm hard to love but it's like I don't look at everybody and everything like that it'd be certain situations because I'd be like especially first of all this situation like who I am like today make me like that like you can't who like how you know people coming in with great motives like good Motors everybody ain't coming in with good Motors everybody trying to get off get on get some money get some motion going like on like you feel me need their hands out yeah you feel me so I gotta just I got to be like that really but do you feel like because I feel like we're I'm the same way I'm super protective I got small circle but I do have faith you got to have fun I have faith but also I have faith in that I've been gifted with um I feel like I'm a good judge of character yeah not to say I can't make mistakes or people still can't disappoint me for sure but I try to if I see something that I don't like yeah you know I mean I try to make sure the people around me I feel like for the most part I'm a good judge of character for sure you feel like you know I know how to yeah okay people good good because that helps when you a lot of times I have a lot of messed up too though I ain't perfect now yeah I'd have mixed up and I'd be like dang I'll be myself and when I go through it I beat myself up bad about it you mean when you trust somebody and they disappoint you oh yeah yeah exactly like if I let you in and you man you betrayed me or this happened I'd be like I knew I shouldn't and I'd be like that don't help nothing nothing you know I'll get over it or whatever but you've been in relationship s how long you already been together like four years four years four years that's real it's real that went fast yeah fast and I gotta imagine this could just be me guessing it's like when you have a relationship with somebody it's so good and sweet but when [ __ ] gets really hard it's when you still get Rocket now you get Rocky yes that's good you rock but when you go through trauma in your life or you go through a challenge like you've been through the past year it's like it's on her like be on her too you feel me like it'll just be on me like she dealing with me she locked in with me um spiritually connect all kind of stuff and it's like it'd be on her too like she got she be have to deal with them problems too like because it's on me and she want me to be happy if I'm if I ain't happy I can't make nobody happy and she and she was with you when you was in full custody Dad when you wasn't exactly so she said yeah so she's been there through the transition to both of us for sure how's that going it's going it has challenges yeah it's challenging for show um it's difficult you know it's difficult relations relationships um they're difficult for shows so what keeps you what what connected you then what what's the thing that I mean I just like she more of like she my homie at the same time she might love she's my friend like it's like we can I could tell her anything she gonna correct me you have to have trust or something the show we like we locked into that point like we we just open with each other about everything it's probably very helpful going through what you went through to have somebody that yeah and she and she very supportive she very supportive she's a supportive person too very supportive person so you're doing okay in love you got four years in you made it through some tough times difficult times too you know difficult times happen has it been Hot because you know you talk about coming from the daddy you came from you talk about coming from the streets and having babies in between other you know how are you doing with like being in a should I say monogamous relationships like how do you does that take adjustment for you no what you mean about it because like um you talk about being in and out of stuff and it presents and I could be wrong and just assuming that your relationship is like you guys are together for sure but some people have open relationships some people have monogamous relationships we ain't got that going but I've made mistakes you know what I'm saying I made uh poor decisions and that's why I rock with her so tough like I rock with her so tough like she helping me through this situation I mean I look at it a lot I was just being a [ __ ] and I a [ __ ] that like come from Memphis and my environment that's what I was used to I had never been in no real relationship before you know so I had never been in a real relationship with the world like I'm talking to her all night I'm checking in and yo like babe I'm doing this you good I'm finna be doing this so you ain't got to be thinking this or isn't it like it was like so new to me that's why I was asking because that's a big transition for somebody big transition so of course you know I you know you made some mistakes amazing mistakes you already know what I'm what I'm getting there with it I made some mistakes how does she handle that you know she didn't take their will she ain't take that well but uh it'll get in any guy crazy to you it get crazier like it's different like when you do something and it's like oh you did it okay but then it's different like when when I'm off like when you have the person like called him and try to tell them everything like he did this and this and he was doing it did you know he did you know this isn't it so that made it even worse on her like but I kept Vegeta I just kept you like yeah you know you know I did that yeah I'm sorry baby you know what I'm saying I just I made mistakes you know what I'm saying that was then are you sorry because people gotta say I'm sorry baby I really I really I'm sorry they got caught no exactly I really come from a pure place you know what I'm saying I come from a pure place when I say that you know what I'm saying like I apologize and I just want the you know I'm saying I want to work through it and get through it and she with it and she helping me with my you know what I'm saying helping me work through it that's why I rock with her so tough because he's like okay I get it I understand you you know what I'm saying I don't want don't let it happen again don't let this you feel me like it's gonna be our life this ain't gonna be our life don't don't take me through there but I do understand you know what I'm saying once I broke it all the way down her you know what I'm saying when I broke it all the way down her she she understood me fully you know that's a that's a big transition this is crazy are you proud of yourself to like yeah yeah I'm proud of myself I'm proud of me I'm proud of me I'm getting somewhere I'm moving you're going in the right direction going in the right direction you got a ride to this because I feel like at the end of the day too it's like excuse me like it's like the other they're gonna be having nothing to offer like when it's especially when you've been with a person for years you see every you see how she coming she she's there for you in all kind of ways or poor system just just all across the board and it's like you deal with a situation just on convenience like because it was convenient and you right there you on the road or something and it just happened trying to look for excuse you know Casino or something whatever the case was uh you know and it happened and you just be like man this ain't I'm glad I'm glad I just I got baby at the house I got a baby to go home to and you know what I'm saying just vent to and talk you know just help me get through stuff is that the first time you felt like that in your life yeah this is the first this is a tough situation like relationship difficult man relationship difficult ain't perfect I'm hearing me like people go through this now they they they just don't wanna they ain't gonna get on here where Andrew Martinez and say what they did because they don't want to face backlash or they don't want to do that Mom I'm here man I'm not perfect I didn't I didn't done stuff like it's recent proud about seven months ago we healing right now we we on the road so we moving forward you know what I'm saying we're moving forward we're healing right now how do you get her to trust you again it's hard she don't really I don't think she 100 I know she know 100 trust me you know what I'm saying but it is what it is I I made that bed I gotta lay it and I'll take full accountability I'm a man you know what I'm saying before anything so you know we working towards I can't do number sure sure keep showing the show improve you don't feel safe make her feel safe and want it and let her know that I'm here like you you ain't gonna get that again does that make you appreciate her more yeah I appreciate that I probably like it made me just get all the way together like oh I can't I don't lose that like that one you know what I'm saying I don't want to lose this situation I might not get this again no I might not get this again I lose this situation nobody else money ain't come like a well I might think I I think I might I can find it on Monday I'm gonna get something else you know something get something I'm gonna get something else and don't even get it I gotta imagine women watching them think this they're gonna have this question for you how does a man who lives a certain type of way for his whole life and is trying to transition into a different type of man for his woman because he wants to be in this monogamous relationship and all that how is that a real thing is it possible do you believe that for yourself do you believe that transformation yeah that type of transformation and what is the and if you do believe in it what is the key to it like what are you learning about yourself and learning that well you know I mean I had any children what do you mean you got to learn how to fight Temptation you got to know how to fight this is the hard thing to do you know what I'm saying that's why the situation that's why I found myself in this situation when it happened you know what I'm saying it's like you got to know how to control yourself you know what I'm saying that's what I'm learning I'm big on it right now I'm learning how to control myself and never and navigate myself in the right lane and and stay over there like little bro like that ain't gonna be good then they might they might be trying to they might only like or they might be trying to get off like you do this they trying to get off they trying to really embarrassed you know what I'm saying [ __ ] on her like so I'll be I'll be have to think for her going in certain situations like you know what I'm saying that's how I know I love her like you know so that's how you know you love a person when you thinking for them and you you know so when you moving and you thinking for them like you're like I can't do this all right [Laughter] don't go to the Moon she gonna go fast so it's like I'll be trying to keep my head on straight because there's something I really I really want to do I just yeah what I want to do that's beautiful God bless she bought you property too right that's a keeper did she buy you land or probably she brought me property like what I'm saying like this you sent my kids up how can I not love you like I cannot not love you what does that feel like has anybody ever gifted you something like that before they didn't game I can got little gifts and stuff before but that no that was like the biggest greatest gift I ever got like so far and are you used to that like no how did that feel for you I may feel mushy crazy like you know what I'm saying not trying to be just too hard it just made me like I'm like damn like man she really do look it made it opened my eyes more so like not saying that I used to question love with her like or the question I love it's just pure in general like going back to the hard hard to love situation like is this really it how we where we're going and but we're going to like what we doing like oh I'll be in my head a lot about that into myself you know what I'm saying but then this situation like when she when I got my gifts my mama threw me a little party Downtown Memphis we opened up all my gifts I got my gifts we left we went uh they just driving me I'm I just know I'm getting closer to my neighborhood my hood where I'm from walking homes and we turn we turned on Third Street I'm like I'm like what are we doing like what are we turning the field for you know it's like we turn in the field when I get when I get deeper in the field I see my name I love you baby the 28.8 acres and they caught big cars and the big you know balloons and just the whole vibe you know since it was a real touching moment for me like it touched me for sure because it nobody like I said nobody had ever did that ever did nothing like this so I'm like damn this might be this might be a cube that she might be a keeper yourself together when you're in the club and somebody trying to Temple you mean that might you imagine yeah that's beautiful man so do you see like marriage and all that stuff in the future for you oh no I don't know about all that yet but I don't know about all that I'm dealing with you yeah one thing at a time one thing at a time we're gonna do we're gonna do this right here you know what I'm saying we're gonna do what we doing right here and uh just stay focused with it you know I saw it because there was some speculation about a ring that it wasn't oh yeah man um I gave her ring and it's just I liked it the ring like I liked the ring I wanted to see it look good on like that color the white color the diamond it looked good on her finger and I got it for like it just looking good it looked good on her it's beautiful that you found love like that though especially yeah the circumstances you come out of and experiences it ain't no shout out to Mr rugs shout out to Mr rug you know he throw parties in Atlanta yeah is he the one who hooked you yeah you know Gotti reached out to him like Hey yo bag hit me trying to get in contact with r he seemed to say oh you went for her yeah I went for it you know I seen you know I was already on the Instagram like I don't want this one you know you you know how you do that when you work that one and then it's like what sometimes you could think you want something you don't even want it like when you get it man why did I even but it's just this situation like this situation was like boom it was like damn this is what I wanted like you know what I'm saying you you get like you get all you ready and you know when to tone it down you don't want to turn it off like how the internet perceive her like try to prank this picture of her and say she dissing it I don't even I don't I don't get that I don't see that like what do you think people misunderstand about her because she's so raw like in the internet so sensitive right now and the world's so sensible right now like she just too rough with it you know what I'm saying oh I feel like do you all never um I'm not at the house going crazy look what the [ __ ] uh insecurity I was gonna ask how you are insecure with that because I know where I stand I know who I am you got to be confident when yo you you should like man she even want they they women to see how confident they is like you got to be confident you can't have like but I also know and some [ __ ] the women out there too though just don't just work on me and like yeah don't do that you know what I'm saying we ain't gonna do that because women too yeah you know what I'm saying but at the end of the day we we in a good space I love that we're in a great space how you deal with that co-parenting situation and all of that because you have complicated you both have other parents would you move parenting like is this does that get complicated or do you stay out of her co-parents yeah I stay out of this yeah I stay out of there I live um I let them figure it out you know what's as long as they don't just get disrespectful you know so you don't get disrespectful you know what I'm saying on each end I try to stay out of it you know so I stay all the way out of it and um but you know how to be on the on the other tip you got you know some baby mamas they girls different like girls different some dudes be real Builder and stuff too but females different but I just try to keep it like man I balance it man I just be balancing it the fact that y'all still standing four years after so much all of that is you know it's a lot but I ain't like that what I said at the beginning this stuff wasn't going on this like seven months like when I made that [ __ ] up decision you'll be all right yeah it was seven months later I put money on y'all yeah [Laughter] I'll put money on y'all so we got music coming which is exciting so all this stuff that you've been through in the past it's all the music you better wow you better hear it on I'm talking on when when um this is a song called going through some things on hard to love what I'm talking about the miscarriage situation like I say like this is all right yeah with her and I I say um treat her like a wife about a big carrot as soon as we agreed to have a child she had a miscarriage deal with this [ __ ] behind closed doors ain't post nothing online I kept them folks about my business whatever whatever the case may be you know what I'm saying but it's like I was I'm really been I'm opening about up opening up about the situation and tell them like this situation like her losing the baby and all it is like broke it was kind of breaking out bomb because at one point it was breaking out bun what do you mean you feel me and it was because I feel like she feel like I went there you know it's difficult yeah she feel like I want third floor like how opposed to been but whole town trying to get through my situations I'm trying to work I'm trying to rap this album all this happened it was a miscarriage I love my baby mom I lost my day when my [ __ ] my left and right hand left my left hand to the figs my right hand to the you know I'm saying to the streets I'm talking about back to back we talking about back to back like within a year period within a year period like January that's when news news January that's my brother oh my brother he died in January you know what I mean so how did he die well just in the streets got killed you know what I'm saying um unexpected the same day this was crazy the same day the same day I got the call about him I was buying a phantom I had just renegotiated my deal shout out to Interscope uh renegotiating my deal and I was buying a phantom you know it was Alabama founded but I had just talked to him the day before that and I was like brother money in the bag in the big bag in that we're gonna do this we're gonna do that you're like oh they don't want to see no gangster with no money that's the last thing I remember him saying like they don't want to see me with this money so boom um I was on the showroom floor I was bad enough getting getting the getting a phantom Rolls-Royce and they called me I'm pulling off I'm gonna gas up I'm putting them across the street from the where I got the car from putting over the gas that ain't come bro they saying nusky uh called chicken won't answer the phone mama and uh his mom his baby mama's been stamped it you know they stamped it so that was a hard situation you know what I'm saying that was the first then my baby mama died three months after that you know what I'm saying because like the Smoke Head got so heavy in the city the Smoke Head got so heavy and the seat I had to like maneuver my baby Mama's around it wasn't like it was too much a lot of stuff went even on me but I understand how the streets go and I'm not gonna explain to no [ __ ] or nobody like nothing like I'm not doing it I'm just gonna move accordingly because you know what I'm saying so you actually moved her out of Memphis Yeah saved her from what was happening yeah like I moved all of them like I moved all of them like look y'all go over here y'all come do this for a minute boom but then she was you know she was in the streets with it and she was doing what she was doing and um yeah unfortunately this situation happened going back you tried to do the right thing yeah I did I did you have like some I don't know some like peace in that for yourself yeah but like my mom Mario quit blaming yourself quit blaming yourself again like when they first have all like mine I'm crying going ham and just like man it's my fault my opposed answer the phone for she sent me this long text like the day before she died like we need to talk and just real long paragraph like this this is like it'd be crazy how people say goodbye you know what I'm saying she sent me a real long paragraph and she called me like and I was like damn two days before that you know I was talking to her because she was telling me I'm going back to uh Memphis I'm gonna get the kids stuff and get their paper and get everything transferred over and we finished just start over I'm thinking I'm clean I'm Gonna Be Right yo [ __ ] man and it just hit me like every time somebody do that every time somebody try to clean their life up just like with news get like he was like bro I'm gonna go home tonight I'm gonna come out there with you and just get it straight get it right you know what I'm saying this situation happened too and the same thing happened with a uh my brother he in the face right now but it's looking real good for hey you know what I'm saying it's looking real good for him he looked like he's coming home real soon so that's good it's a blessing I can lose some good news right now I can use some good news what do you do what do you use to balance like all that pain because you got to find some joy in your life right like what's making you smile these days that's so I know I want to be hard to smell a lot of times I act like I'm happy like I be acting like I'm happy because I understand I'm a role model I got people looking up to me I can't you can't do that you can't let them see that and I ain't about looking weak like I said you were Herman at the end of the day but it's like I can't I can't do that I got to set examples I got people looking at me so I got to stay strong if then I got kids that if they see me crying what you think they gonna do you know what I'm saying so if they see me break down what you think they're gonna do I got to stay strong in front of them even though it'd be super intent be super hard do you well I'd be have to walk hold up let me go I gotta pee real quick and cry like oh and then come back and we finish the finish the conversation like it'd be dead hard like do you have do you talk to anybody about this or do you how do you get it out I tried third I ain't gonna lie I tried therapy the later just one I feel like she wanted she wanted to give it not everything no they ain't trapped they not every third was trash but she wasn't giving it like she she I couldn't I feel like I couldn't open up to her she make me feel like me sitting right here talking to you you will have me you would have me I feel like off these cameras I really vent like you were really you know so I really give you everything you know what I'm saying and she didn't give it she didn't make me feel comfortable it's like she was almost trying to be in my business because who I was and they really bagged me up yeah that's not that's not okay you know that most people would take three or four like I had a car accident a few years ago and I was dealing with all types of PTSD weird [ __ ] yeah and it took me like I had to go to like three therapists before I found somebody to help me be able to even drive because I couldn't even drive I get in the car my hands would start shaking like this yeah and I was like I'm not trying to live my life like this somebody got to help me exactly first couple therapists I went to trash no for sure I say that to you because don't just because you had one bad experience you know but I just feel like I ain't gonna talk she she put a bad taste in my mouth so it's like yeah but she can't ruin it she though I feel like I can get through it like if I just like if it's somebody like if I had like it was somebody like you would like or like or somebody that I just trust dearly like I know they ain't gonna use this I got a big brother bam I've been to him about everything that's good I'm saying that's good I've been to him about everything my brother table he lost his baby mama so we sure the same hurt we share the same pain like we like last week we was on the phone crying with each other because of the situation and it's like bro like get out of Memphis I'm telling him get out of memory like bro I won't do that I'm like bro I'm gonna help you I'm gonna do this I'm gonna I'm gonna get you the house I'm gonna get you to come get you set up I'm gonna put your daughter in school like we're gonna we're gonna figure this situation now because he having a hard with his daughter like adjusting to this her mama being gone right now so it's like I can understand I'm automatically his shoes yeah you see what I'm saying so you built like a um it's almost like a support group yeah you figured out your own I got another I got another one of my homeboys I grew up with his name Sean he lost his baby mama too you know what I'm saying so it's like he would like he called me for advice like he lost a reason she called me like bro how you deal with it like how you you know what I'm saying I got a song hurt man like it's a song called hurt man I'm speaking on there like like I hit table for advice actually like my no amount of money gonna be able to fix that no matter what type of bag you get in what kind of you're gonna be happy for man you're gonna be happy you're gonna get through it but you still gonna think about this you never gonna forget about this bro first of all because you got kids so it's like I'm getting to that point like getting them out of town seeing different stuff um putting a smile on their Facebook you know how it is it's tough how do you do that how do you how do you put smiles on it like what's a what's a normal day in the house like you know my I got a man I got a humbly speaking I got a big I got a nice house you know so I got a big house so we run through the house I'm playing with them we jump in the pool I got four wheelers like a fun Dad yeah we we uh yeah we get active Okay we get active you know I take them I go like I take my girls on dinner dates try to let them know like this is how you'll make like God I love that that's how your man supposed to treat you when you get in there because you know my daughter like I said she's 14. I gotta go and paint their pictures she might she might text me dad Daddy can we go to the nail shop today why not you know it's probably four minutes away from the house you know what I'm saying so there's like stuff like that you have to do that you going Daddy yeah took them on a date you know [Laughter] baseball football so I go to baseball games I go to football just supportive you know even if I got if I'm crying with work I still just figure out I pause it for two three hours and let me go do this ain't gonna hurt cause I do how I do how I do my songs and how I do my stuff it's like it ain't gonna hurt it ain't gonna hurt nothing we had a um I did an interview a couple weeks a couple of episodes ago with uh Kelly Clarkson who who have been through a bad divorce and stuff and she was talking about how she she lets her kids know because everybody's different about this with their kids yeah she lets her kids know when she's going through something are you that type of she's like yeah she's like this this is what I'm doing like right now and it was like I ain't like what do you mean like having this conversation no no okay I'm gonna straightening all right so it's like I'm just cranking it up like I'm just getting into the modes like really like getting into their life because it was almost over fear like I was more feared like and I say that because like they was like my three kids they were with their mama all the time and it's just all kind of stuff so I was almost scared to almost no certain stuff because I have my react or how I might take it if I'm making sense to you um and it's like my daughter you know [ __ ] like terrariah she would be like oh man it's crazy I'd be like what like just talking about her mama talking about the mama situation I just miss how she used to love me blah blah she went to a point where she was like like saying she wanted something to happen to her I had to get it I had like she's 10 like you see what I'm saying so I had to like we and this this talk right there so fresh this you talking about like before I got on the flight it came out and came to New York we just had to talk she was just like it was real emotional you know so you handled that like it was tough it was it was a real tough situation so that's why I be I'd be kind of scared like I'd be kind of scared on stuff like that but I but I got to be on Daddy I Gotta Be You know on the man so I gotta do that the fact that your kids talk to you the way they do says a lot about the type of parent you are no for sure they get to open up with my little girl my own my oldest girl she um she's just getting into it like my other ones they so vocal to be scary the younger ones they like super vocal way vulgar than her like she quiet and to herself and you have to get out of her push it out over she might go vent to a woman because I probably can't answer certain questions and she used her mama too like they were like best friend they're why she taking it so hard she take it so hard too so it's like she was on it's like she don't she don't talk too much but I'm getting them edging I'm getting it in there and then you know like I told you I got my brother he lost his daughter lost her mama too so he's telling me how to no he's helping you man he's helping me how to like start a conversation with her and get that going yeah one day at a time yeah for surely and you have prayer too right like you pray I pray hard and I really be seeing like I don't know about the other people and whoever else just claim they into their life um I really see what I pray for because I really like sacrifice like for God I sacrify put all my faith in God and I really sacrificed for God you see what I'm saying like like just what I said like when you're saying like Ramadan ramadans with last last month and I'm still going you still doing Ramadan now you don't say I'm still I'm still fast but I'm doing it like I'm doing it you know how I'm doing it it's just like I get my prayers get answered God opened my eyes I see everything clear I swear to God I see everything clear as like everything clear now and it's like I'm almost like this how I'm gonna live like this exactly how I might take two weeks off from not fasting but I feel like this is how health-wise if that's has anybody you probably should make sure that that's it make sure that it's okay to really just live like that every single day but uh that's why I say I don't like I might take two weeks a month off and then get right back to it but it's like it's like when I'm when I'm in that world like when I'm eating and I'm doing drugs and other stuff like that it's like you blind yeah but it's the rock the fasting is good because I get it I used to fast too it's like good with discipline and especially when you it's for Spiritual reasons um but you could lock it when God without having a fast exactly it didn't happen before yeah I locked in with them on many times a lot of times without fast it's got you here it's amazing I don't have me here like I didn't get through some sticky situations exactly I don't got through some sticky situations a lot of people be like bro you is but like the like the people this like the guys that's beside me they'd be like bro you I ain't never seen nobody strong with you I ain't gonna lie he's like they say they say they never seen nobody strong as me like real tell you like bro we can't tell you going through stuff like you see what I'm saying like I'd be dead I'd be dead good at like just being a role model just covering it up like manifold look up to me I can't let these I got artists like Devo saying to me I can't let them see me like this like they can't see me like this so of course that that's what the shower for it's with the bathroom but it's with the storm that's your go-to you go to the gym because it's a tour anyway just being just for your team if you ever go to the bathroom and you're in there too long somebody they finna know I just broke the eyes at least I ain't doing nothing else when I go on anymore thank God people go to drugs exactly they run to drugs in the bathroom you know what I'm saying you said that in one of the songs because I got a little they sent me a sample in a mixtape yeah you said that in one of the songs about um Fentanyl and drugs and oh yeah if you know like fitting all on the street like that's what's going on how did you start that song it was I can't remember right the second one was something about I said uh what I say uh ah what is I get nauseous but you're not taking no drugs right now no for sure I'm I'm clean but you know I have I can talk about it because I've done it and I do it you know what I'm saying occasionally but I ain't doing no like no crazy bro we doing the norm like drink we eat you know yeah stuff like that might pop a burger in there I'm honest oh my God I'm gonna get the Hanks off you know ain't nothing to throw me ain't nothing to throw me out IRL does not support or condone yeah stay away illegal Percocets for any reason there to be different we don't need you tapping into devices because when you go through trauma and grief and all that type of stuff but it do it puts you in on their song more sick on speaking it's like the outro that's the last song I'm saying stuff like at the end I'm talking like I'm telling them why did I it took me two years to not put out music why it took that long and and what I was doing running to sometimes when you're going through a lot of stuff you run to drugs like weed pills and drink you know what I'm saying but I'm taking this thing and it's going to cure me because it's supposed to be medicine quote-unquote medicine and it's making me more sick yeah you get what I'm saying yeah so that's how I even came up with their whole title very easy to slip into an addiction when you swear to God when you got un dealt with and then the withdrawals is terrible doing dealing with that haven't been through all that because I like when I first came in that's what made me get my my physique together and just try to stay in the gym and try to stay focused uh just being on the stage being full of drinks before I go perform just a fat slob and just stomach I got a video I can show you you probably wouldn't even believe that's me wow and it's just like I overcame this situation yo what is this motivation like where do you get that from what is that it's really like I said it's a discipline thing it's just prayer and it's just me I just know what I want to be I look at certain things like the workout stuff I'll be like I'll be on Instagram you know the reals come through I look at the reels and I see man got their stuff together they got that I'm gonna get my you know what I'm saying sometimes I had to look at dinner she don't get mine together you know what I'm saying get you some discipline give me some discipline to get my stuff together then I'm gonna go on tour you don't want to look weak on them pictures and you don't want to look you want to look good you want to you know what I'm saying you want to look like who you supposed to be what do you see for yourself like what is the like what what is the thing I'm Gonna Get Right open to see me I got the tour coming up I don't just mean physically okay I mean your whole life like with your kids and you're just you as a man your businessman artist a dad a a partner and yeah like where do you see I don't know five ten years like what do you what do you say what are you working towards I'm working two I'm just I'm continually um carving my legacy and um and just you know changing the narrative changing the narrative on from somebody coming from Memphis you coming from just the gutter part of Memphis it's just another Thug he's face his face tatted up he tattoos everywhere he looked too gangster yeah he looks like a monster you know what I'm saying I'm changing it up you know so I'm changing that whole narrative like oh the restaurant cash a42 you know what I'm saying um the the land did you feel like that like people look at you like a monster at some point like I hear that through people I be like bro you mean like they be like you like you you mug all this and you just straight face Mafia you you Poker Face scare you scare people I scare people and then it's just like right now this with this whole rollout and everything I'm doing right now is just like I ain't letting you all the way in because you never can get them everything you can't do that on device nobody that's watching this to do that but you have to open up you have to open up and let them know like you hear me too like I go through which I'm you I go through what you go through at a higher level on a bigger scale yeah on a bigger scale of my life like on the on the microscope and it's it's way different like so the stuff that somebody normal regular might do or Average Joe he ain't gonna get the the backlash or anything home again so you gotta like learn how to clean up your egg and get right you pushing through though like you need an award you don't get no real [ __ ] award they don't get no real [ __ ] you need I need a red [ __ ] what you should start that award ceremony it'll be hard how do I start it help me first of all get it hit me up okay first of all get it um copyright like get a get a stamp just give me a small piece because I feel like this is someone my idea whatever I trust you I trust you to be fair you started your boy and then you pick them there's something to this you could let Ari come out and she could be like the hostess that's a great idea thanks you could put it on YouTube one thing it could be on any platform you want once a year you do the support ceremony you get Gotti involved oh my god do you know I got the relationships now the resources I can I can pull it off I love this for you don't give me stuff I love this for you how much how much of that gets you excited like business and ideas and I State like God will tell you that anybody that's around me they'll be like bro you super creative like all my videos I do that like I come up with them treatments I come up with these ideas um How You Gonna See stuff going now with these videos and everything I'm using right now is like my ideas like I read them I'm all the way in it I'm on the front line but man like yo I'm gonna just sit down and wait for somebody to do something what about connecting with Gotti was this something because I imagine he's similar like he's clearly so and got it most definitely oh he give me great ideas too you know I want to take all the full credit uh credit but um he gave me a lot of great ideas and even if I I bring it to him he'll Twisted be like how about we do it like this this and then and like and you it's just a great thing with God it's just a great relationship he just always in my corner at the end of the day he always in my best interest and some people like a lot of people don't even get this far like we didn't got far like we didn't with this this whole journey I Journey we didn't came far from 2017. we didn't we didn't get fought and I just say because I'm not in competition with God if God is not in competition with me he's not trying to hold me back he want to see me bigger you know what I'm saying you want to see me bigger than him down there so it's like you feel what I'm saying it's like ain't that's where people bump heads a lot when you see CEOs and artists falling out and they mad about this is because somebody's in competition or ego yeah egos yeah but gotta lay it out to like bro I'm with you right or wrong so however you imma lay it out to you like this if you want to go your way hey was it hard for you to trust him chose the process yeah because you like even just you trust and Trust coming from the screens like you hear stuff like that what made me want to take the chance to come from the streets you hear stuff like man don't sound what got it don't sound got it bro you can man you gonna be bigger than that don't do that and don't he he what about this audience what about snow then what about these other my mind like that is not it man that ain't that ain't true none of that ain't true you feel me you control your future like literally like you control your future and I'm in the world's saying it right now I literally like he he put He put it to you like that you can do it or you can go by this however you might think go let's do it you feel me was there any pressure in the past two years for you to like get back to work yeah most definitely like he and he was like he was it like that why I said that letter was more than the letter was more than just to my fans it was people that was like in my corner they they was lost at one point they was lost like God is like like bro what's you ain't never took this long you never like what's going on talk like talk to me like but don't did they know what was going on now they knew what was going on but they I told you I do so much of a great job covering it up they ain't even know it was affecting me has affected me like you feel me I do good at covering it up you know they say check on your strong Friends check on your people you feel me so it is what it is yeah yeah I love that partnership it's nice to see that great partnership I love it you know what I mean so I have questions that I ask everybody on every episode of this and the first question I asked and I'm almost scared to ask you this question especially no it's not real it's very simple it's like a super basic question I asked they asked me by the way I was having a really bad day today yeah and my team knows this shout out to Evan who's doing the pictures when I walked in he was like how happy are you on a scale of one to ten I was like I'm a three EV well I was a three when I walked and I was having a bad day today because the situation you explained that was a whole bunch of [ __ ] it was just a weird day weird I feel good I don't know I feel like I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing and yeah and I like yeah this conversation I feel I don't know I feel like I'm being used in some type of good way in a good way you know what I'm saying so that picks me up to I would say right now I'm um between six and seven right now I would say I'm at a six and a seven great you're doing good that's good right you're improving so on a scale of one to ten how happy are you right now right now just the whole environment I say eight really eight oh I love that I said eight this morning two uh [Laughter] like I've been up all night so that's that's the reason too why are you up all night just just how I be living like you know what I'm saying so boom and then I just got an emotions got in traffic got going I like you know what I feel good let everything out I'm gonna talk about it does it feel better to let everything out there's a tape is it weird for you to be sharing so much like no I feel like I feel like they need the I owe my fans that I feel like I owe my fans and my the listeners the verse whatever you know so I owed them I hold them there to say something like [ __ ] I've been gone two years yeah two years without doing nothing like no interviews no I ain't did nothing in two years I believe that um and this is one of the reasons I even created this podcast I believe that us telling our stories and sharing it what we're willing to like you said yeah you know you can't whatever you keep um but I think I think it helps other people who are in situations like I said a role model position people look at this and be like back on you were going through this bro oh man spunk yeah motivation so what is the thing because when I look at your life and I think about this past year of like trauma and grief really um yeah like somebody who's maybe going through that right now who's an attention to that like what what do you think is the one thing that that uh Has Lifted you up or helped you get through it oh like I said like I really don't like I really had to just give all that to God really is he the reason just praying and just getting through it just praying and just just staying focusing like and he making you you don't even know you're getting stronger that you know you don't even know you finna turn out like this but you finally wake up and one day and like man go time it's go time and this is where I'm at right now I'm I'm in the upcoming artist mode I'm doing everything oh you're a new artist out here I'm a new artist out here I want y'all to look at me money bag yo like he's a new artist right here you know what I'm saying don't hold me nothing to the old bet you know what I'm saying so we dropping this mixtape and then is there another is there more is it like an album are you no it's a mixtape that's why I say I'm a mixtape mode okay I'm back freestyling I'm back just Vin I'm about letting it out letting the world in um in real life how important is money to you now money is important because I mean you needed to survive you know what I'm saying survival skills you got you need money to survive but I don't do everything for money like you don't toast to do everything for money all money ain't good money you have to know the difference you have to know how to maneuver through there you got to know how to see the in-spot did like hold up and when you hear it not even if like it's in visual like you got to know how to hear it and be like no uh you know how much crazy stuff people offer me to do for money I'm not doing that I'm not doing that because I know who I am what's the line and how do you know like because it's automatic like that's not who I am I'm not feeling like why would I do that make it make sense you see what I'm saying like make it some people lose like for this amount of dollars x amount of dollars you can't move like that it's goofy you know what I'm saying it's goofy that's a goofy move so you you showing me who you is I mean in real life If Today Was if this was it today was the last day yes what would you do or how would you spend it well I most definitely won't be here doing this interview but that's fine I won't be offended no for sure but you might because you want you might want your legacy you might want people to know yourself matter of fact I'm glad you said that I will be doing this interview with all my kids in here I'll do this interview with all my kids sitting behind me right here let them you know chime in jump jump in you know you feel like that you know what I'm saying so that's how I really spend it what would they say about you they they love me like they overly love their daddy you know I never tell them no unless it's about your grades or they or your mama called me and you've done something I got to discipline you I can't make you think it's sweet like like I'm sweet like it's easy so just uh part being a part of being about being a father I'm sorry and it's like I love them they love me it is what it is that's the best thing in the world like if that alone is your legacy yeah that your kids just adore you for sure what's that you make me feel good like when I come in like they jump up like be dead type ain't no fat you know cap man you know cap they be just Oh Daddy Roman like it'd be like it's crazy like I'd be like damn somebody love me that's a different type of love somebody love him for sure in real life what do you like most about yourself uh I kind of liked it I beat I played defense I kind of like I play defense all the time um because oh just like first of all I don't believe in just starting none and then I'm glad like I'm observed like I'm gonna observe and I'm happy I listen I love all it about me like I listen I'm observable I know how to take constructive criticism um yeah basically what was the last constructive criticism you got that was good uh that constructive criticism I had lit a little over here song I was trying some I was in my singing bag I'm here now she like no she's like yeah no like literally like maybe if you go a little software you do it like but no coaching me but no but you going too high you're going to and you take it okay and then it's one song on her she love right now it's called no show like you can hear that on there like you can hear like yeah I go up I go up on it and it's like but it's not too high it's like Earth friendly and she's like okay that's the pocket I mean do you trust our opinion like no I'm just joking she love music like I trust she love music for show so if she likes it yeah she like this ain't what the females ain't gonna turn up to this I ain't gonna do this I ain't gonna do that she Gonna Keep Me Tight this is my last one in real life what do you hope people learn from your life oh kind of what you said kind of what you said like like you can you can cover it up out of it but it's okay to cry it's okay to be you know saying who you it's okay to be no a human like a normal person you know what I'm saying you just you got to know how to cope with certain situations um you know got to know how to deal you got to know who to vent to you know I'm saying got to be real careful with that um and just if you got a career I'm sorry a career if you guys still you know I'm country I thought I'm real country I know you know when you say human is crazy am I trip over where it's trying to get right uh so like you got that going on if you got something going on for yourself I just say like you just force it on them like you just stay motivated and just force it on them stay hustling no matter what don't never lick just keep I pray for tuna [ __ ] and I don't want to see nothing on the side of me I want God to keep me like this like because you know they're gonna do this I want to stay like this the whole entire time you know say going to the end goal and that's a hard that's a hard task man yeah it's a hard time because somebody say it's the wrong stuff you're gonna turn over there you go but it might cost you so you gotta think like that like it might cost me if I do that so you pray for tunnel vision I pray for ton of you pray for confidence I pray for more and more awareness you know I'm saying awareness you know and I ask God to reveal stuff to me like I want to see I want to see it like don't hide it from I gotta pay to take this I already I took pain I already I'm dealing with it you you tell them you showing me I'm strong you know what I'm saying so I know you know you feel me you are thanks check on your strong friends people that's one thing I learned from you today I don't know how you doing this I'll be honest I don't know how you just like yeah you seem so good and so like yeah I'm in a good mood today God bless you man thank you for sharing your story today sure I can't wait to hear all the music it's Go Hard to Love moneybagg yo in real life man real life the realest spots [Music] oh [Music]

Channel: Angie Martinez

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Length: 72min 42sec (4362 seconds)

Published: Wed May 31 2023