City Girls JT | Angie Martinez IRL Podcast

Andrew Martinez in Real Life podcast this episode and conversation is powered by a Ducey I'm so happy to be here so when I saw you I was somewhere where was I when you DM me I was like oh my God you said you told me the DM yes like I want to do this podcast like this is just so like elevated I'm like if I'm like the youngest person you are you're the baby you're the baby in the podcast I feel like everybody should like properly welcome JT though I feel like JT everybody [Applause] JT is the baby of the podcast I'm so lucky I'm so so happy I'm so happy I'm happy I was minding my business I was I was sitting somewhere with talk and I was just talking about the podcast and how great I was talking about some episode I was at fat Joe's house that's where I was I was at fat Joe's house his wife is one of my best friends who was sitting there eating talking [ __ ] about the podcast and um I was telling them how great an episode I had just shot Taraji P Henson's episode we were talking about it and then you DM me out of nowhere and I was like she said you said I want to do the show yes I said James DM me she said she said she thought it was sold out yeah I love your show I watch it I'm so mature on a lot like I just I was also show I'm like am I of age to go on this show like let's stop it right now no and I'm no shade like no shade because I love everybody that comes on the show but I was like is this just like a show for mature people who should I Acts or like should I have my teammates I'm like she'll see my DM faster don't make me so happy because I don't want it to be for one for just like the first couple of guests I had were all women and I was like I don't want guys to think it's just for women but I don't want nobody to feel like that because I feel like real life is real life for everybody like your real life is very different than some of my other guests but that's what it's about it's like what what do you what is your what is your real life like and what are you going through and what are you what are your challenges and your dreams and the things that we could because we could all learn from each other I don't think there's age on that I don't think that I don't know that and that's what I was saying I was like okay let me just sneak in but I'm glad you said it because I feel like your podcast has range and it inspires like everybody like so many people I look up to came on your show like so I'm like which ones did you watch tell me right now so I could get gas Lori London is so good um Kelly Rowlands I watched one more person I definitely watch Kim Kardashian song but it's one more person like in between there I don't know was it one of the guys was it Ashanti Ashanti it was Ashanti it was Ashanti so you watched all the girls you ain't watching the guys you didn't watch Mike Tyson you ain't watch Usher you so no no no no I did watch some of ushers I didn't watch the full thing I'm a big fan of ushers yo I watched some of Usher but I did not finish it out yeah but I finished all the women because I'm such a I feel like I learned so much from women yeah like I [ __ ] with men too but I feel like I learned so much about from women like I don't really care what a man thinks like that no I don't like I learned from women more than a man a man can't teach me nothing for real like for real you were talking about Lauren London and how much she's I love Lauren London both of us are Sage so she always isn't she the best yeah she always gave me with the most positive on point information about myself I feel like how the [ __ ] she know but she's gifted I wish she talked more yeah she always talks to me like if I'm like not even on the internet for a long time she'll just randomly DM me and be like let's keep your head in it like like she's just so positive like have you met her in person no only on DM you DM friends DM we DM friends but Norman was like one of the first person first people to show the city girls love like I remember she she uploaded Sweet Tooth I was like how the [ __ ] she know this song and it's because she knows she definitely she knows I appreciate it so much because she always say I know how Sagittarius is like you going to your shell I'm like yeah I just don't [ __ ] with the internet right now like I'm just going to be away that's so cute she's the best I call her too but sometimes and she's like a person like I trust her I just trust her judgment and stuff she needs to talk more yeah she do right because you know like growing up I used to think pretty faces don't go through anything I think if you're pretty you're not going through nothing right and she's so pretty yeah she's so beautiful so I'm like if you pretty you won't go through nothing no it's like the goal is to be pretty so I won't have to go through nothing but if that work out how's that work out for you because you're very pretty it's a scam it's a lie you get pretty then you want to get prettier you get sexy you want to get a sexy hair like it's just like no like I feel like women is a woman especially in today's age like we see so much on Instagram we see so much on Twitter we see so many different body type faces hair and all of that and we like today I'm gonna look like this and tomorrow I'm gonna look like that and then like one comment can throw off your whole day or like anything so just like today's age is so hard to pinpoint who you are and if you find out who you are it's so important to master that yes because you have so much noise at all times and then who do you listen to and then when and then you go Fame into it yeah then you throw two women in a group together and all the stuff that comes with that the comparisons the rumors the all of the things that come with that oh yeah it's a lot it has to be hard for you I'll tell you one of the things that I saw about you when I was so excited first of all I always thought how you've managed to kind of like jump back into your career after you know coming out of prison and how you've managed and just I've seen you in interviews and yeah you sassy and all that stuff but but you're smart and you about your business and I always respected that so when I got your DM I was like yeah I want to know her more yeah because you don't do a lot of interviews no it ain't because when I come up unfortunately I was in prison like it was it was very um an unfortunate situation that I kind of beat myself up about to this day like yeah yes I'd be like if I would have never went to prison we would have been here like oh we would have been on this level because I feel like rapping is my skill and I and I feel like when I got out as soon as I got out I had to go to the halfway house and a lot of people did not understand I had to do like six months and halfway house meaning I could not shoot a video I could not be seen for real and I used to sneak into like posts but like I sort of got my last week of the hospital house I got in big trouble and I almost got sent back to prison for posting and I was like it's like worth it yeah because I was letting people get in my head because so many people was typing on the internet like she came home she did nothing but I couldn't do nothing and it was so many people at the time coming up and when we first came in was not that many girls coming up so I felt like I had a responsibility to get out and like get back to my group but I couldn't I couldn't give nothing because I was in a halfway house yeah so I just was trying to like post a little bit and then the song that we came out with I didn't like we didn't like that song that much but I just wanted to put into something oh it's not even remember it's called you tried it or some [ __ ] okay but it was just like a crazy situation so it seems as if I went back into it but I never did I never did because first of all I had to go to the halfway house second of all as soon as I I got out of the hospital house March 6 in a pandemic hit the pandemic hit soon like it was unbelievable it was just like I knew it like I knew it was too good to be true like I know my life is just cannot be perfect but no way whatsoever I want to talk about that whole time but I would love because there might be some people that don't know all that much about like how you even got there and young JT and who she is and how you got to rapping oil no how you even got to that point yeah where you're in a group and you got locked up and you you're even in that position like just about your young life like like just give us a little bit about young JT growing up okay so my life was like a little crazy because growing up I did have a dad who had a lot of money he sold drugs and he had a lot a lot of money but it was like uh mama's baby daddy maybe situation so it was like my dad had 16 kids but I didn't look like them so it was always I felt like always I was like a black sheep in my family or I wasn't treated fairly because he did not like my mom like I know my dad probably didn't see this but he did not like my mom so I didn't think he liked me because he hated her so I lived with him because my mom was like on drugs and I feel like I was never treated fairly because I stayed with my stepmom and that was their monks so it was like my sisters and brothers and they was with a mommy my dad and it was like okay day with a mom they did they see a married family and I'm just an outcast like I was always so outspoken always so much trouble and just like you have to be because if as a little girl in the house like that you probably trying to stand out right you're trying to find your way yeah like basically just felt like at home I wasn't getting enough attention so when I go to school I would act out all the time just for that attention and then it would result into me getting my ass whooped all the [ __ ] time because I was so bad so like growing up then I stopped living with my dad when I was like 13 years old and I wanted to move my aunt and my cousins and where's your mom that whole time on drugs in prison like always in and out of prison my mom was in in prison and she was on drugs my whole childhood but shout out to my mom because she's so beautiful now she's off drugs she's like doing work helping people rehabilitate yeah my mom is like in a very very good situation but growing up I did not have my mom like from my from me being 5 to 30 liked him there and I feel like she would she'll have her breaks when she's doing good and she'll bring me gifts and then my dad would do like evil stuff if you can't bring the rest of the kids in the house that she can't have that it was like an everyone flip phones flip phones was coming out and all type of [ __ ] but my mom okay I moved from with my dad when I was like 13 years old and I went to live with my aunt and my cousins because I felt like they were so cool like it was they was having their way and they was doing what they wanted to do when I got down there this is in where was this I was living in Opa-locka like Cara City over like with my dad right and then I moved to Liberty my mom's not a family is from Libya City I used to trip for Liberty City and course you cheered you're probably so cute yeah and then I got down there and I realized they can't do they want this is [ __ ] poverty like and so I went from like a decent home no no shade for my aunt but she'll tell the truth too we were struggling like we were struggling so bad and my dad would get like 300 hours a month and she would keep it because you know she got to put grocery in all of this stuff so I wouldn't have nothing no more and then I wanted to go back home to my dad but that's why I resent my dad now like I don't really [ __ ] with him like that because I wanted to go back home like I'm like all right like I'm gonna become he never let me like he never let me 13. he's the last words I remember is you made your ballet in it so it was like how does he feel about now like where you at now when you talk to him you don't have anything I don't have nothing against him but I don't really talk I feel like I'm a doll I don't really know but it hasn't been relayed to you like you're like I gotta believe he's somewhere bragging that his daughter is one probably he think he's a DJ well he's a DJ but um of course he is bragging that one if he's a hustler too he's a hustler it has to be pride in what you've been able to accomplish I mean yeah has to be your mom must be for sure my mom is I'm always inviting my mom my mom is like take I take care of my mom she's well taken care of because that's my mom you want to get one mom yeah so rather whatever she did in her life I don't care yeah but I was literally like 13 and I moved out and then growing up I literally just was like a rolling stone my whole life I would live with friends because live with friends go make someone else make more family like make bigger family like and then I got older I always was hard working like I literally was always hard working out I was like a born Hustler you had to yes I had good jobs like I was working at working I was working at the Miami Sea crane I worked at Wendy's you ready yeah Burger King I did Breaking breaking was not like my first job I did like the front register and I get my mouth was always so flip so I used to get into it with everybody it did not last I was slick scamming at the time I was working at Burger King but I had a boyfriend and I did not want my boyfriend to know I was scaring me so I was trying to make him because he was into football and you know football players be so serious and about college at school and all that so I didn't want him to know I was doing nothing illegal so I went and got a real job and the whole time I had a car Gucci glasses weaves to my butt and he like I can't paying that much and the whole time I'm scaring me so I was scaring me when I was like working at Burger King and then I left Burger King I got a better job then I got a better job I started working at Whole Foods I think hopefully this is my last job whole food since my last job and then I went to school I went to school from fashion merchandising and then my friends would always use my car because um being I was a young City girl so I had made this boy buy me a car so my friends I love you my friends was using um my car and they would always come back with so many clothes in the car I'm like what y'all doing and they put you on but they put me on to what he was doing then because the first game so what were they doing exactly there I can't say I mean you can't tell what were you doing you could say a usual for it what I was doing I was scamming basically my first scan wasn't a real scam like when I was like a runner at first when I was working at Burger King but when I literally like when I went to jail for it is literally I started being more of a boss of my situation I learned how to like do more with the with the stuff so they would come back with more like you know clothes shoes and all that I'm like oh my God I'm in school I ain't making no money in school this [ __ ] is not working out for me it's taking too long I'm thinking I'm going straight into school and I could come out as like a fashion designer but it was taking longer than I thought yeah so I got bored with school because at the time I was like homeless for real like dead ass homeless I was going to my best friend house but it was like a lot because her brother was there how old are you at this time oh I would say I was like 21 22 when I was going to AI I was like 21. so when I I was going to college because I just felt like that that's what I wanted to do I was a smart girl but I wanted to move faster so I started making money like I started making real bread like off of like what's real bread not like you make it now hell no but like yeah no no no no no no no real bread from the hood yeah I would I was making like 20 000 I'll go come back home with 20 000 and some credit like in one run like in one in one run but I like a year I was a roadrunner not a year no we're not like two two like if I if I leave today and I come back Friday I'm gonna come back with like 20 beans and some credit and some games and some shoes in a purse and in that time did you ever worry like if I get caught I'm gonna go to jail oh I was just living it and I feel like time like Divine timing like when like I got my indictment it was like a week after we dropped that song it was so crazy like I I wanted to go to the studio my friend was telling me like oh you need to be a rapper because we still freestyle on the road and I was so good at it I would kill it every time and my friend was like you that [ __ ] um people gonna look up to you if you start rapping if you start like you already fly right yeah you're right like all you gotta do is rap but I'm so shy so I'm like I can't Rap by myself like I want to do the song but I'm gonna do it for somebody else yeah and I wanted my cousin to do it I just asked everybody then that's what I call karisha and she was just so for it so we did our song and like a week later I got indicted and I didn't even know I didn't even know it was that fast it was a week later you know what's so crazy is I interviewed her when you was locked up I don't know if you know that and I had I knew a little bit but I wasn't all the way in yet I didn't know so much about you especially the history or how you she even got there yeah but I knew you were locked up so I met her and just to know that it was that fast that like you hit her yeah yeah you do the song not but we was already friends but we were already like friends I used to sleep sleep at karisha's Grandma House Lena house all the time like we were already friends and I was just kind of my closest friends to see like who would a match with like who the group would but I didn't even think it was going to be a group I just want to put out a song and I felt like she was like most hated in the town and it was like all right so this gonna go like and it and it just went but I kind of died it so fast so I just wanted to give up she must have been uh freaking out but because this was like your brain this was your baby your idea you brought her in and then you gotta go away phone took off so fast in the hood like not all over the world but it took off so fast everybody loved [ __ ] [ __ ] like we was talking that [ __ ] and like the clubs is planning everybody knew it wherever were and um I remember calling her from jail and I would say like I don't think I'm getting out because I didn't know what I was in jail for like for the longest I know that I was going to federal jail but I didn't know what the [ __ ] I was in for so I didn't think I was getting out and I was like I don't think because I did so much on the road so imagine not knowing what you were in jail for I'm like it could be this it could be that could be that if it is that I'm never getting out but if it's that I might get out so I was in like in that place so when I called I would be like I don't think I'm getting out of jail she was like Chris stole it out here they playing our song I'm like [ __ ] I'm like I'm like on the phone like oh my God but she was just like still so excited about it because it was so fresh and so knowing everybody was [ __ ] with us and all that and then I end up getting out like my my God Mom put her house up and I got up like a week later and then I was just like but you couldn't do anything right because you're no no I could do it so I mean I wasn't gonna have to rest enough things but I was like very very depressed like I was very depressed and then I was in my house like in a dark and she would come over like we need to make another song because it was just like so big and she was like we need to make another song we need to do another song and I'm like I'm going to jail like I don't and then we made another song and that went and then right after that I think we met um PN coach coach I meant Coach purse and um he came he like don't post no pictures of y'all us like yet because everybody going to sign y'all I'm like he lying nobody want to sign us and we just came out swinging through the gate we only had two songs I think our personality kind of like the way we talk The Way We Walk and and it's just like no your stars 100 yeah like everybody wanted to know what the [ __ ] the city girls was talking about so it worked out but I got um my that was like in November end of November early December but I had sentencing on January in January I personally went to jail in January but coach wrote like this long letter like the you know I like to get me a furlough so I got a furlough and when I got my furlough they gave me six months so through my whole six months I worked hard hard I literally was in the studio the day before I wrote woke I mean I never went to sleep today I was turning myself in I walked out the studio it was something like it was time for me to turn myself in and I was so sad I cried the morning of I was like oh my God but I had to make these songs because I know we needed an album we needed something but you're in the studio making an album not even knowing if you're gonna be free you making music that's gonna come out and you're not even going to be yeah I'm not going to be there to do it but it was just like it didn't matter at the time because I feel like it was nothing else for me to do I couldn't scam no more I couldn't like do nothing it was like literally do or die so it's like use my talent or you fall right now and I went to the studio I was at DJ Khaled Studio matter of fact and I recorded all night all night all night all night and then I woke I never went to sleep not woke up I walked out of the studio it was daytime I said oh my God it's the day I'm going to jail like for real and the night before it was such a happy night because I tell the story all the time that's when our song when Drake came out so was such a happy night and I was like damn tomorrow I'm going to jail like I cannot believe I'm going to jail like and there was nothing I could do about it but go to jail like I can't go on the run because I had to it would have put my career in expect at State and I was like I can't fold I gotta go to jail I can't even imagine yo yo hustle your work ethic and your belief yeah it was crazy it was it was like crazy like that but I can't I can't even give myself all the credit because at the time it was just so much like pee coming to sit inside of the studio and like motivate motivate push push push me y'all girl's gonna go like you just gotta ladies records like say what you like you know do these videos I'm we're gonna shoot as many videos we can like we gonna line it all up all you gotta do is turn yourself in like do the songs we're gonna put we was doing videos we was we was laying a foundation and he was like I swear like when you get out it's still gonna be alive and the whole time I was in prison it was like growing before my eyes because I couldn't really see much but I had like billboard like magazines and I would see our name in a billboard magazine like on the charts and I was like what the [ __ ] like this is us I was like like amazing it's crazy because when you hear a lot I have a lot of friends that have been locked up and I have a lot of friends also that don't work in the criminal justice you know area and trying to perform stuff and a lot of times when you um a kid and one of your parents is in jail they say you're likely to wind up in jail yeah the children of people who are incarcerated for sure my mom my brother and my sister on my mom's side they all have been a prison and I thought I was exempt like that [ __ ] is a real you can't literally get like in jail they make you write that down like if your mom been in jail they call it like a generational curse my mom had went to jail my sister and my brother had been in prison and I thought it couldn't happen to me so I was I thought why would you think that of you oh yeah it's like all my friends scamming and none of them went to jail to this day like and did you have fear of that you know what I'm saying like well you didn't fear it you just thought you were I thought I was unsaturated like I thought I was going to be out here in my Chanel bags my Gucci and I thought I was gonna get away with it I thought I was gonna keep going into people's photos as other people and getting my [ __ ] and I was gonna live my best life but God had something bigger for me you know so it was like I feel like that's the reason I'm an impressed do you ever feel like I don't know do you ever realize how lucky you are that it landed the way it landed because it could have went it could have went bad real bad real bad it could have been terrible like it could have been it could have been terrible and I'm I'm glad that it landed the way that it did land but sometime I kind of beat myself up for it because I felt like if I would have never went to prison we could have pushed like more so and I feel like me going to prison kind of like segregated it a little bit and it was like if if I was out we could have grew as a group more you get what I'm trying to say because it was like a height at the time we had act up it was nobody else out and then like I knew what I could do at the time like at that era of everybody trying to get in where they fit in I knew that I had something to give I had something to give like and I felt like we could have we could have gave both but are you not happy where you're at now I'm happy but I just feel like as the city girls it could have been more like and it's not the end of it so I feel like we still growing and we still learning but I feel like if I would have never went to prison we could have grew more as a group and it would have been like more like you know that's so interesting you think that because even when we started this interview I told you like one of the things that's most like I'm impressed most or just Inspire my is how you've been able to make so much at so quickly while you sit in a cell and then you come out and you hit the ground running like you did is because sometimes people need an adjustment too yeah but I I felt you know what I mean when you come out yeah you need an adjustment I have my adjustment on a halfway house and I used to really lose my mind because there was no way I could go but the studio so I re I recorded and we record it um City unlock and then it got leaked it was like nothing good is happening like nobody don't even respect us in this [ __ ] they spending our music they putting it out like why do I even want to rap like if nobody can even respect us as a group and then it was just bad that day and I felt like give up like [ __ ] it it's not working the it's not selling it's not doing good but it as time go by like now I feel like it's not even about that it's about just giving all you can give and leave me on Mark more than worrying about an album sale or worrying about where you landed at at the top of the bottom because I feel like everybody know the city girls yes everybody know the secrets I feel like no you didn't you cemented in the books right yeah it's like right so it's like you know what I'm saying even like you did you did it yeah I'm not saying you don't have plenty of room works at all you have so much right to do out but I feel like well you landed you landed we landed our feet perfectly for us to keep going for sure people rooting for you too do you feel that sometimes um sometimes not all the time but I feel like sometimes like for me personally no because like I used to be such a free spirit when I first came out when we first came out if you look back at the videos I used to be so funny talk so much going live and I had a personality out of this world but I feel like once I got to jail it was so many more people knew us and like knew me and like to freak you out a little bit freaked me out because like why you posting that on these blogs and writing his caption when I don't even mean it that's not that's not what I mean at all like I'm just having fun and you taking my fun and you you're making it like I'm serious I'm not serious I'm just I'm just leaving yeah but that's what happens they ruin you because they they ruined so many people now they ruin you that's what I mean you I mean everybody everybody I feel like deck and back before I was a celebrity when I used to see other celebrities blog should do real work like I'm gonna go outside I'm gonna catch this person on a date I'm going to catch this person at dinner I'm gonna catch this person doing a crime I'm gonna catch this person but now they're taking our content and making it whatever they wanted to be no so it's like a math story that I'm posting for my fans oops look like no it's not bad it's whatever I say it is so it's just like and then they eat enough of that they eating off of just stealing yeah basically but I don't have nothing against that I don't care but it's the truth like so it scares it frightens certain people but I'm at a stage where it's don't Frank I feel like you're coming around on the other side of that now yeah like it's like okay whatever have a you want to flip it twist it everybody got to make their money Fame is a weird [ __ ] thing right especially in this day and age yeah I feel like it's an illusion now it's not even real no more like I feel like back then people had a better chance of being icons than we do now because you got so many people like beating us down beating us to the punch mimicking us and Things become old fast it becomes so all so fast so it's like you got to constantly reinvent yourself and then you got to be strong because you can't get influenced by other people like some days I wake up I'm gonna be an Instagram model some days I wake up I want to be a rapper some days I wake up I want to be a model come on and be an actual it's like girl you a rapper just just do your job but it's like so much you see a day that is like you have to become strong-minded enough to know what you came here for get it done get it done and be great at that and I feel like that's why what I was lacking over these years and it's somebody so special to me who told me that who does who did that yeah boo no no no no him too but no um it was a female and she was a rapper and she she just got the most toughest love ever like she'll tell you some [ __ ] and the mom has to be Nikki yeah yeah and you would be like and then you would think about it like she's so right like you came here for to to you got this Talent you got this gift you can write this down and not many people can do this so you need to come you need to do what you came to do and you need to go as hard as you can you can't think about outside opinions because that's my problem I let everything just get in my ear because I think they're right for whatever reason because it's like if you're so right you'll be on a different level you won't just be talking you'll be getting to it yeah so I feel like that's where I'm at right now my career just just get into it giving giving the people what I'm here for which is music and beyond unapologetically mean because I feel like if I shut up nobody have nothing to say about me and that's kind of [ __ ] up because why would I why do I have to shut up why do you want to live your life like that yeah why do I feel in my life like that because I feel like the internet has paint painted me the internet has painted me as like this angry black girl yeah like she always mad she always got an attitude and it's like that really bothers you because you've said that to me even before we started now that really bothers me because it's like y'all don't even know me and it's like I could be joking I could just be talking I could just be having an opinion you could be defending yourself and defending myself yeah and I'm the Mad one I'm the crazy one I'm the real one like I'm the nasty one it's like I never went at anybody unprovoked nobody nobody like nobody can ever pull up any time where it was like I woke up in my past life yeah in my past life I'm talking about in Celebrity life like in my new in my new life me being a dog me being grown me learning my lesson I never went at nobody I never woke up and just started [ __ ] with nobody I always defend myself which is at this point it's just so irrelevant to them defending yourself against a stranger it's just stupid it's so hard not to though it's hard not to especially you when you talk about your history and how you came up you you got 16 brothers and sisters you fight like you fight you feel you're trying to find your own life your path to hustling you going from house to house you got trauma your mom's dealing with addiction you is not true you are not trying to take [ __ ] from anybody no then you go to jail then you come out of jail then you defend yourself for 15 for 15 months in jail 15 months in jail I had to defend myself because people will say oh she thinks she all that or she ain't nobody or she ain't did she ain't that if she was this she would this or she was so I had to defend myself for 15 months in them and then I had to get out and defend myself again because people not understanding my situation then I had to defend myself from people saying like oh she got her face done she got this done she got this done she got this and I'm like no I [ __ ] didn't I got my teeth done and it's like and I got a good face beat yes I got a great face beat and I'm taking care of my skin I'm taking care of myself but then I couldn't have that much time to taking myself because I'm hustling I'm I'm getting out the mud I'm not really worried I don't even know too much about beauty and glamor and all that from where I'm from we just out here getting it we not worrying about a facial when we're not round about if our face is beat we weren't about getting to them stoves and getting our money and selling our [ __ ] so I'm not paying myself as this beautiful girl I'm paying myself as this Hustler but now that I got the time to relax I can find myself this beautiful girl so now I gotta defend myself but you stand I got my nose done you said I did this you just you said I do this you bringing out my mugshots you saying I'm ugly ugly as [ __ ] you saying it like I I'm just tired yeah so it's just like of course I'm gonna wake up every day right defensive because I'm barely seeing good things about myself so crazy too because I only know you for this short period of time watching your career and then having this little interaction we spoke the other day on the phone and then today and I feel like the things about your character that stand out to me not and I know you could be sassy I haven't seen some of the videos and the tweets and all of that [ __ ] but like the way you hold your your friend down because you know they try to come they'll compare you to karisha and the way you hold your stance next to that is admirable the way you came out of prison and got to your business is admirable the way you came from which what you come from and survived that is like admirable and you should and even like seeing you in your relationship I think I'm like I see the soft side like I see that you are a caring person you know what I'm saying like Karen like I'm I'm so sweet but then again I do have that defense side that that it's just it comes from so what does that sweet side come from what do you attribute that to I think that it comes from like not wanting to go back to where I used to be you know like I would never want to go back there it's like the scariest thought like sometimes I get so scared I'm like oh my God what if I have to go right there but it just come from that it comes from not want to go back so where I used to be I always wanted to see my people happy like I I never want to disappoint nobody that I love like if I love you I don't want to disappoint you I don't want to make you feel sad I don't want to I don't want to do nothing like that to you if I love you you know so that's what my sweet side kind of come from and then I know I'm sometimes a [ __ ] but my [ __ ] side come from want to see the best out of my people and don't want them to [ __ ] me up because I but like I'm the one who getting [ __ ] up but every time and it's like why you [ __ ] me up I'm just yeah so even the fact even the way you talk about like your mom like you said you said earlier when we're talking about young JT that like your mom was dealing with drugs back then it was a lot of times she wasn't there no she wasn't there in like ever like for real but you have found like you love it you forgive me yeah but I'm working on that too because I still talk to her any kind of way um is that is that from like baseball it's basically like I'm talking to her like I'm the mom you know what I'm trying to say and sometimes I feel bad after I hang up after that why should I never said that but it's like you and my mom is so entitled and I don't even think it's entitlement I think it's more so uh over excitement and my my daughter got money and like everything that I went through I'm my mom lives lives great because of me and I think it's just real over excitement like uh and I take it as boasting and I don't like boasting mm-hmm that's my pet pee posting no you don't really know I don't know you talk [ __ ] for a living off records you know because that's my job that's my job that's so your job to put confidence in other women when I talk my [ __ ] when I pop my [ __ ] come from me just popping my [ __ ] probably to react to somebody but I'm not gonna [ __ ] on I'm not gonna stun on nobody for no reason I'm not waking you got that from your mom you don't think you don't think you got something out from your mother my mom is like delusional like she literally thinks that like I'm like girl like she's like she'll go somewhere and she'll order like um so much she didn't call my phone and be like Oh my daughter got in I'm like like when you get this attitude from because that's not me like I'm so like I'm so Timmy in those areas because I know but it's not what it's like not to have [ __ ] mm-hmm but if you piss me off I'ma stun on you like if you piss me off I'm gonna stunning you but if you don't do nothing to me I'm just not I'm Gonna Act regular around my friends I'm gonna go around you with my sweats I'm going around with my regular hair I'm not ever trying to be like the biggest one or like treat nobody like [ __ ] because that's not where I come from I come from 16 sisters and brothers I come from living with my cousins you know sharing clothes I come from like sleeping on the floor I come from sharing everything so that's all I know is to share the space so I really don't know how to be the stand out all the time you get them trying to say that's not my character because I'm so used to sharing space so it's probably why you're a good member of a group yeah like I'm a good member of a group because I'm not used to being a standout because I'm so used to sharing sharing everything yeah you're an only child I don't know if city girls would happen I don't know if city girls could be yeah no no no no no but he's just like and if you feel like why you don't do this why you don't do that and I'm like I'm just trying to figure it out but who taught you all these like because you know the state your mom was in at that time and you you wasn't with your dad so who taught you all this like forgiveness and hard work and loyalty and life life teach you that like life is life will definitely teach you like forgiveness hard work and like because if you don't work hard I would not have nothing if I don't work nobody was in handing me [ __ ] like I was nobody's daughter in the house I was nobody's sister I was just a friend so I was living with my friends so I'm not I'm not nobody's daughter nobody owe me [ __ ] they'll do it because they feel sorry or they feel bad or they want to wait I'm not that's not my mom so I have to get up and go to work and I have to bring something to this household to be here so that's I could turn somebody angry like the fact that you forgive your mom and you have this relationship with her now I don't know it's just I want like how do you find where do you find that where does that come it's like a wow it took a while um at first I was just I still to this day get in my modes and tell my mom I don't owe you [ __ ] hmm I get in my modes and I would tell her fast I don't owe you [ __ ] and I have to remind her then I feel bad because I feel like maybe uh her what she went through is the reason I'm blessed oh you get it so I'm like maybe what my mom went through is the reason I'm blessed because she just went through so much she went through a lot my mom went through so much I don't really want to tell you and I saw my mom go through some so much and I saw my dad paint my mom at the back like now that I'm older I'm like my dad was really paying my mom as a bad person but she was just trying but since she couldn't be who he wanted her to be he would keep her away from me and your mom and I want you like if I get a beating I'd be like I want my mama your mama don't want you oh so it's like my mama don't want me so then I'm growing up hating my mom because my dad told me my mama don't want me when did you find that she did want you girl never you don't think so you forgive her without feeling like that I want to say like me being older and me seeing how serious life is like I kind of don't blame her um you know life is hard like life is hard even with the position I'm in and like trying to beat addiction and raise a child imagine it like I don't do drugs I smoke weed but hard drugs I could never do the hard drugs well knock on wood no you can't because if I do heart I feel like my family my whole family is a victim my whole mom's side of the family and my dad too my dad used to sell it and do it so I feel like if I do it I'll fall so flat on my face so hard drugs it's just something I don't do mm-hmm and I just started smoking weed when I got out of jail like just to be cool and I was like it's a little Vibe but it ain't nothing I need every day I ain't ruining that [ __ ] up every day but I do it sometimes just be like meditate but it ain't oh these smokes too right yeah not right now right now he's drug free really yeah is he different does that change he looks great me I love the way you talk about him yeah he's a great man he's a great I could say Uzi is a great man no matter how the internet tries to paint Uzi yeah because he's so difficult he's an artist artist he's so like yes he's someone smiling like he go to work every night he at work right now like me I'm asleep I'm asleep all the time but I'm so lucky and fortunate to have somebody like him because he's so inspiring like he he no matter what he going through he's going to write like you know like and because this [ __ ] is in his bag he's not giving up he coming back soon again every time so what a nice thing to say about your partner like he's a great man like he's a great man that must be so nice for him to hear that he don't hear that every day okay no you can't tell him every day you don't hear that every day now but he hear a majority but he's emotional with you even publicly he has shown affection publicly I yeah yes either way um he's actually kind of shy so I think people take him as being like straight face is mean but he's just like I'm just so over the top like yeah yeah yeah and he's like why are you put me on spot like so he's cute he's like so he's a great man like he's a great guy do you know how I mean just if we look at like statistics coming from the household you came from or the households you came from yeah you would be living in a house and what seems to be for you a healthy happy relationship um with somebody that you say is a great man do you know statistically that that's like impossible almost and and and that's why I kind of like me I don't I don't want to date no one of like what I've seen my whole life like I don't I've been in prison I'm a Gangster I'm a thug so I don't have to date that because I'm already at and who's to say he's not that because he'd be chilling you know but I don't have to paint that every stuff I don't have to be that girl like to to date what people want me to date because they feel like that fits me because it obviously don't fit me because I don't peanuts on that I've been there done that myself like I did the whole prison judge police car I don't need a [ __ ] who did that because I did it so I don't need to be looking up to no man I didn't even I didn't even mean like that that you should be with somebody like that I mean just relationships are hard in general two people because you live together right two people in the house it's so hard it's hard yeah I'll be a liar if I say it's not hard because some days when I'm having a bad day or I feel like I'm not where I need to be I kind of feel like I bring that energy in a house and I I'm such a I'm not gonna say a [ __ ] but I'm so hard on myself and when somebody care about you they don't want to see you being like that on yourself so they're trying to fix it for you and you're trying to tell them it's not about you hey when they do that it's about me but it's nice they mean well you mean well but it's about me I'm trying to fix my stuff and then he get frustrated about it because it's like am I not doing something right you know what I'm trying to say am I not doing something right I'm like you're doing everything right I'm not doing something right you know what I'm trying to say I'm not doing what I'm supposed to do and I don't want to at the end of the day when it all falls down I don't want to let you down because it's all fun and games now but in the future I I always want to be his 50 50 rather have people paying it as a I'm a city girl and all that I always want to be his 50 50 like if he ever need me I want to be that girl to catch him people don't know you like this no they don't but you're so likable I am so like but I don't give a [ __ ] if they like me you're right oh there's a good Instagram meme it says um be a good person but don't waste any time trying to trying to prove it to anybody yeah no but I feel like now now at first I would say I don't care if nobody like me I don't care I don't care I don't care I'm gonna be me but I feel like like even when I'm on like my little mental breaks because I take mental breaks a lot and I need to see a therapist I I I've been working on getting a therapist because I need a therapist because I'm cuckoo but you are not I am you have trauma you might have some trauma yeah some anxiety and I'm saying you know it's so mean little girls right me girls not little girls women girls teenagers people that's older than me write me and um who feel like they look like me they've been through what I've been through and I feel like it's my responsibility to be a good person for them you know so it's like this year I just want to be who I am like I'm a good person I don't want nobody to keep thinking I'm a [ __ ] or I'm a bad person and I I just feel like I'm really misunderstood and I never try to explain myself and when I do try to explain myself they don't believe me anyway so I just be like um but but you do feel that responsibility in a way that responsibility as a as a black woman as a like a rapper as the everything I feel like I don't want to paint that narrative at painting Narrative of just being ignorant [Music] um I think that's the way you do it it doesn't it doesn't have to be you proven or over explaining that you're a good person but I think you constantly becoming the best person yeah I just want to be this year like I want to be the best person I could be out loud like I feel like I'm a I'm a great person behind closed doors but I want to be the best person I could be out loud but like the people that believe in me the people who don't like you know and I feel like I've been through what the normal girl been through um and then some I look like the normal girl so it's my responsibility to be a good person out loud to let them know that it's cool to be a good person why do you think you um need therapy like what specifically I need therapy because the way I react to things the way I think of things the way I uh respond um the way I feel like what like anxious like Angry anxiety or like I know something bad is about to happen trauma like I it's nothing good can happen without me thinking something bad is gonna happen and it's so true something bad is going to happen in my life every time something good happens so it's just like that's not necessarily true it feel like it it feels like it so um I think therapy will yeah help you get some of that because even like I'll just share something too like so I had to do I had some PTSD from a situation I was in and I've always felt like it was for me driving right so I had a bad car accident I could never drive I would get in the car my hands would shake like this and the therapist told me like it's okay like you're gonna drive like this in six months you're gonna feel a little better six months like more than that you're gonna feel a little better and you have to learn how to be in the present and remind yourself you're okay and that she taught me how to deal with my trauma which was that I mean your trauma is a different type of trauma but it can be it can be dealt with like you can yeah you're in this you can be feel safe sometimes exactly and I feel like my past trauma if it affects so much around me my relationship get like I live in a house with my man right and I feel like I'm not domesticated because I didn't have time to be domesticated because who taught you how to who taught me how to be investigated who even taught you how to be in a relationship right so it's just like I'm trying to figure this [ __ ] out every day and I don't want you to think you're not doing your job because I'm not domesticated I'm trying to figure myself out so we just two young artists in a house with each other trying to figure each other out I can only imagine the conversation oh it's just like he's trying to sit down and counsel me and I'm like going cross-eyed like I I just want to be you know more and he always reassured me that like it's not about who you are I just love you for you you get it so it's just like no I can't let you down like what do you think he saw in you like because he saw something that he came at you know what like to this day I don't know know what he saw in me because it's just like me just like coming from where I come from going through what I went through I don't know what made me so deserving of somebody so good oh that's so sweet so I just feel to this day a little bit get a little feisty about that like what you want and we literally we don't be together for years and it said like what you want you don't trust that that you you don't stress the feeling not him but I don't trust them the the the feeling but it's okay it's just me me in therapy I need to take therapy I'm 30 now like I'm grown like I'm a big I got I got to my big age and I'm still not domesticated so it's like then I get insecure about that like I'm not in the kitchen cooking I'm not cleaning up we got cleaners he cook you know what I'm saying and I'm like oh my God like at least I can wash the dishes but now I'm in the room watching Martin because I know the cleaning lady coming to my room so you do other work it's okay yes I'm like damn like I'm not investigated I'm not doing my job and then I just I get mad about that what did you love about him what was it what did you say in him he swag his swag his individuality like how nice he was and then how much he could still be like a player too [Music] um The Challenge like just everything about him was cool as [ __ ] like I was like damn I thought you was just like weird as hell you got a hoes so it was just like it was cute just exploring him and getting to know him as a person and who he really was and not seeing him out of the surface like I was just like everybody else in the world like looking at him as like this crazy wild ass person but he's not like that and it was just like me being able to know him on a one-on-one is really what like you call him about his your best friend yeah that's my bestie that's my dog like even when we're in a relationship like not in a relationship because we always in a relationship we live in the same house like I know the blossom trying to put it together but like even when y'all put it together like we in the same house rather whatever we in the same house so we we best friends and we got to make it work either way I go we don't have to make a right but we choose to make her because we don't have kids and we not married or nothing so I know that it's genuine because it's like for what else because we ain't making it work for no kids I saw you say this on uh karisha's podcast that you you don't want kids now because you want to enjoy your love Yeah like you which is so smart and people make that mistake of doing that too fast enjoying my love I don't I get angry a lying I'm very angry I'm very impulsive um girl I could be like you could step left and I'm like it's over like you know like and um and he could be the same way and I don't want to put my baby in that you're gonna try to say like I feel like we can always work it out I just wanted to mature grow together get where exactly where we want to be in our career and then we can just bring a baby in it it could just be beautiful I don't want us to be figuring it out and figuring each other out wow I love that you're so open to figuring that yeah being a better version and yeah I want to be a perfect mom I didn't have a perfect mom so my my fear is not being a perfect mom like I want to be there I want to be perfect my own nanny I want everything like I want my baby in the backstage of my show I don't want to never leave my baby behind so before I have a baby I have to make sure this [ __ ] is figured out I get that he was there for you too in the transition right yeah halfway house yeah halfway house was that your first date was in the halfway house right is that true that was kind of our first day he took me to the mall and took me to like Taco Bell it was like I was still in the halfway house and it was so funny like oh my God a service I can't believe a city girl went to Taco Bell for her birthday like what is that about but he gave me money he gave you money on your birthday he gave me money on my first bait because I think he was thinking of me like a city girl but he always laugh at me to this day but yeah he likes it though right he likes yeah he liked the thrill of it he liked it I I mean he like it I feel like the same reasons he'll get annoyed with me is the same reason he loved me so much like I I would say certain words and he'd like what you just said say it again and I'd be like what because we pronounce things so differently because he from the north and I'm from the south so it's just so like like boy you talking to property girl you talking so ghetto and like we just in a house together just offices and we going at it because I'm like Miami-Dade he like Philly to [ __ ] I'm like now Miami the [ __ ] like Philly ain't got no beaches and it's so [ __ ] close together then he like Miami is cold and it's cold in the winter and that's why we're in New York and I'm just mad it's so cool I'm sorry I should have went to my why didn't we do this in Miami we should have did this in Miami we sure should have because I was in Miami for a couple of days I would love to see Miami Through The Eyes of JT oh my God what is that like what is that like if I went to Miami and hung out with you one day what are we looking at or you even you're in Miami right no no no no no you're not like by Costco but I'm L.A you're in L.A right I'm at La for the Sun and I'm New York for his [Music] um but I don't think I'll move back to Miami no traumatized um maybe after some therapy maybe let's see what therapy do we gonna try I'm gonna I'm I'm definitely trying therapy I'm in a works again my therapy together because I need it because I'm I'm just like a liar yeah but I already could see it's like you at least know some people don't even want to do the work some people just happy having all the triggers and all the trauma and all the [ __ ] that they do and that's just who that who I am and then they live their life like that the fact that you're even like open to it open to it and just looking at all the things that you want to be better about is you're on your way you I'm gonna be out I'm gonna go girl I'm gonna be fine straight but I I just love it by the way what you went through you you it warrants trauma like it's not it wasn't just the regular situation even everybody just okay I'm gonna say this okay everybody deal with trauma different some people get trauma and want to work hard some people get trauma and want to close off some people get trauma and want to disappear you know like it's different ways you deal with trauma I feel like my the way I did with trauma is just not dealing with it because I deal with it so long I dealt with it so long and I'm I feel like like I'm in such great position why am I dealing with trauma so now I'm not dealing with it but I need to stop being afraid of conflict of anything I need to stop being afraid of conflict with my music with my business with my shows my fans what are you afraid of though what do you think I just don't want to hear [ __ ] I don't want to hear it because you're afraid of what you make how you make Power react you get what I'm trying to say I'm not afraid of y'all I'm afraid of how I'm gonna react to the situation I don't want to react to the situation I'm trying to look like a bad person so I'ma just shut up no don't do that because you're not a bad person I love what you said about living out loud being yourself and being just being that a good person out loud that's I mean I love that I just need to live out loud I feel like I have myself a lot um because I don't want to be looked at as whatever bad person and I feel like they are people always waiting on me to be a bad person even even the way I talk it's so strong it's so demanding like that's the Sagittarius to me yeah but okay I'm so demanding I know what I want I know I want my eyebrows I know I want my hair I know I want my outfit and I'm not a puppet so when you're not a puppet you get called difficult you get called hard to work quick hard to deal with but I'm just not a puppy and karisha deal with that as much or not as much as you right I don't know I don't I wouldn't know like some I remember I could say this though I remember when we first came out um she will do something and then we'll get on the phone and they'll say I didn't I'm like that wasn't even me and I'd be like what the [ __ ] that wasn't even me like and it was just me like JT Diddy JT said it and I'm like come on now bro that was not me if I said it I said it and you would know I said it because I don't have like I don't I don't I ain't talking no action like I'm straightforward my [ __ ] I'm gonna tell you right in your face like I'm not waiting until later I'm not whispering I'm not telling nobody else I'm telling you so you would have wanted to tell them my ass right there never I said it because I'ma say it right now but they oh my God was so bad at first and then I was like God damn like you know so no I would like they would be like JT JT is the problem like I didn't even say [ __ ] I didn't even do [ __ ] if I did say something I'm saying it because it need to be fixed now and I don't want a lot of people don't want to hear what's right a lot of stylists a lot of hairdressers a lot of makeup artists they feel like they already saying they tone so if you tell them like you're not doing this right you difficult right in and out because they think they're perfect you're not [ __ ] that nobody's perfect you [ __ ] me up and also you get to a point in your life you know what you like you know it works for you you should we shouldn't compromise that but I do love that it is nice to see and I've heard you say it I've heard both of you say this that you guys really trying to ride this out like there's no solo projects there's no I mean Lord willing right but there's no breakups no no no no no I feel like we at a stage We Grown we started this [ __ ] we wasn't that young but we were young and it was all new to us and I feel like we had a stage in our life where we kind of figured it out and we figured we we are figuring out that we are powerful together and we are powerful we're separate so we can make money both ways you know what I'm trying to say so it's I think that's where it's at right now like okay you are individual but you can also be a group and it's not that nobody thinks like you know like no because I I hear it a lot and I see it a lot and I'll be like yo I'm straight yeah I'm good I was gonna ask you how you do that how you block out because this so you know it's always comparison it's always like it's uh um it's always going to be comparison but they got to understand we live a totally different life I don't have kids you know what I'm trying to say I don't have to go as hard like I I I'm straight I'm good I'm more than good so it's like when I feel like it I do and when I don't feel like it I don't so it's just that people heard you like I don't feel like nobody I feel like as a woman I want to live a life that I want to live not when nobody else think I should live like nobody should want to see me work like a slave or like a dog it was so impressive to me I heard you say this too and I and I was like damn I literally it took me my whole life to get to here where you at a point where you're like because you said I just want to do my job make my money do the things I want to do and then go home yeah and have like this Balanced Life yeah because and at your age I didn't know it didn't even occur to me that I needed that for myself but this year for sure like it's like okay do or die you got to get it while you're here oh so you're going back outside back outside sure okay because you got to get it while you're here now don't get any confused you got to get it while you're here but I'm thankful that I'm able to take breaks yeah you know what I'm trying to say because I don't have as much responsibility yeah so like this year is definitely a city girls year are you enjoying it what the ride yeah I'm gonna join a ride I can I can kind of trust that outside is open we probably won't have no hopefully we don't have no cover no monkey Parts no nothing to come up but as the artist is tricky because anything can put us back inside anything can cancel our festivals anything cancel our show so it's hard to like be [ __ ] comfortable and what we do yeah because we never know what's going to cancel what we doing yeah so it's like I I'm understanding I can get it in other ways yo I so want to interview you again after you start doing therapy oh for sure because I'm so interested in what comes up for you yeah I'm so excited about therapy because I'm telling you like I'm so tired of the the angry black girl um narrative being projected on all of us I feel like all of us even like television I feel like that's for sale for black girls drama fighting kicking cussing screaming when I was in prison when I want to watch luxury like when I wanted to feel luxury or like a vacation I watched the Kardashians you did yeah because like I'm watching a show and it's just like they living their best life so you watch those shows in jail yeah in jail in jail I watched the housewives I watch the Kardashians watch all of like TMZ I watch all the award shows I watched basketball this is what you did inside this was the daily life TMZ especially because I want to know what was going on they already have nothing like well you tested inside ever like did you have to like physically fight in there girl yeah but not really because like I feel like like I said I left prison with a pimple not a scratch like once they know I didn't play that [ __ ] like I do not play that [ __ ] but how do you how do you how do they know you don't play that [ __ ] like because they know because they knew like I was so quiet at first like my first six months I was so quiet and I got more like you know like because they were they were messing with me and pick on me and trying to be like nosy about my life and be like that's not her that is her that is and that's not her because then when I first got a gym my hair was short as [ __ ] I was bald-headed [ __ ] like I was bald headed as [ __ ] when I first went to jail didn't he grew it got longer I was able to take my prison pictures but you know people in jail they don't been in jail for a long ass time so their idea of a celebrity was something totally different so they would mess with me messing with me messing with me and I was not I'm not that friendly I wasn't that friendly and they wanted to know more about me and I wouldn't tell them so I would be quiet as hell and then they'll just get offended by that me just not selling my business but I got got my little click together and it was going down and I went to the hall two times you did yeah for what officer going through my locker and I tapped on her shoulder I saw her to get up get the [ __ ] out of my locker and then she tried to put me in a hall that day but it was really no proof and then I got in trouble the next day for the same officer because she tricked me and then the second time I went to the hallway was because two people had a fight I was coaching it and she got mad at me one person fighting on your behalf no no no she won't find on my behalf but I was coaching her because I didn't like the other girl and she hit a locker and she cut herself on the locker and she said I'll cut her so they put me in a whole like investigation like no like no really getting out because she was saying I cut her out of everybody that was watching the fight she said I could and I was stuck in a hole but I got out like a week later how long a week that's not a little thing baby it was it wasn't it was like me a lot of people went my whole My Bunkie went um which I used to call my prison mom and like everybody who was standing around to fight we all went but it was she was trying to stake me because she felt like I was a celebrity like she was trying to save me but it didn't stick because it didn't make no sense because everybody's story added up it was like he fell on the locker you lost the fight you feeling like are you trying to blame me for you you getting your ass whooped then do you have to see her when you get out the hole is there like confrontation she never got out the hole cause she lied she got in trouble for lying so I got out but she got in trouble for lying some days we'll be crying because we were like we really like person to come yell at the thing like y'all ain't getting out they said y'all stay out to and everybody running cop-outs on y'all I'm like oh my God I'm like and I use my little bit of minutes to call like PM like oh I'm in a hole and it was like a super bowl or some [ __ ] Super Bowl party he was doing these crazy Super Bowl parties at the time and I was like in trouble all the time wait who was throwing super P QC was throwing crazy football parties like and you in the hole I was in the hole you have any fears ever going back no okay okay jail is not telling me going up jail isn't telling me they don't there's no rules they're going to get in trouble for anything but I don't have a plan on going back I don't want to go back and I don't want to influence nobody took away God it's so much more it's a life thing to be locked up in prison I see so many young girls enough boys scam me drugs not telling my boyfriend end up having to get a girlfriend because their boyfriend I love them but that's not like a trauma view like a fear like you're not walking around scared that you could want them I'm not trying to do nothing wrong to go to jail no I'm just trying to get my money live my life be happy and that's just bad and what what do you what do you still want to do like what's the future what's your future look like my future looked like giving back influencing the right crowd of people touching the right person um elevating like right before people's eyes being bold being free being like relaxed in this industry and know that you're in the industry now like there's no there's no pick and choose what you can do like because I feel like today I'm being Reckless on my own being a star but now you will start every day and you can't be afraid of being a star what about city girls what is the future of city girls look like um hopefully I mean hopefully um the future of the city girls can beat the city girls um and I pray that our egos does not like separate it or the internet or a guy or like nothing you're gonna try to say like nothing I hope do you worry do you worry about that a little bit sometimes sometimes I be on my [ __ ] sometimes she be on her [ __ ] you know like you're human we're human we're women we're not girls we're women like sometimes I want to be with my men so it's just like sometimes she want to be one man and I hope that that's not what be the reason or interfere interfere a group is hard man because it's like a relationship it's like being in a relationship a marriage if you look at the history of hip-hop the amount of groups that have managed to stay together the whole way through this percentage is low I don't know one I don't oh the locks and they still together they're still together so inspect them but what I'm saying is but they have done solo projects right you're right you're absolutely right that's what I'm getting okay they haven't beefed and broken up because um we talk about beefing I definitely don't I do not see beeping and breaking up in the city girls at all like ever ever like like that's just stupid like it's just like for real no yeah beefing breaking up hell now like beefing but doing separate things yeah but I just yeah doing so much separate things to the point and be like okay I gotta do this I gotta do this I gotta do this I gotta do this if we can't do this and that's just like it but so that's what you hope you don't uh yeah I hope we don't get too busy to the point it's like even being here like it's like oh my God you feel weird that she's not here should we have had her here she talks all the time she had her own podcast yeah also yes so she has a platform where people get to know her more and more all the time and I don't and you're not you would there on one episode but like I don't feel like we get to know you at that level I don't want to wish to get to know me I'm just playing nah I'm just saying I'm joking y'all but it's not that it's just the principle of like the time we live in and then it could be all good one day then it could just get all bad off of this yeah anything like you can be here talking making people laugh and then tomorrow that same thing that made a personal life could be the reason they so mad at you they don't want to see you successful no more so do you have to ever check yourself like because you talked about your ego this is the thing that comes up on the podcast a lot it's about ego and you know how sometimes that [ __ ] us up in a whole lot of different ways and you said you hope that ego doesn't get into that for you to like split you up do you ever have to check yourself or like um of course I feel like um as an adult like talking I I if I feel some type of way or if she like if I feel some type of way I know that I'm just like my personality is so strong that I would never want to say the wrong thing to her so I would not like before I say to do something is not we can't come back from like I'm not gonna do that but anybody else I do that you just hold it in for her I'm holding them just block block block the number you'll block her or until you're over it I don't know if that's healthy I don't know if that's healthy I think it's because you're a coping mechanism but I don't know if it's healthy healthy it is does she know you blocked her one time she was like she didn't know because she was texting me but she probably kind of figured it out I'm gonna try that with somebody who gets on my nerves I'm just gonna block them I'm just gonna block you just so I don't say nothing crazy to you so we won't say nothing crazy because we don't need to be talking crazy and then what do you do I'm black when you're over it I'm black when I'm ready to talk about it it's like normal without yelling without cursing without saying the wrong thing because then I have to calm down probably take me like two weeks and now be like okay I'm ready to talk about it so what was that but after therapy you're gonna get better at that yeah I can't wait to start therapy like therapy is on my list to do like I'm not leaving this industry without therapy I know that I'm gonna be a better woman when I take therapy black people we need to get therapy at first I used to think if I take therapy am I crazy no you're not crazy you're crazy to not to need it and not do it yeah I need it I need it bad I don't been through so much I'm still going through stuff but are you proud of yourself and how you're managing through it yeah I'm proud of myself some days some days I beat myself up I'm My Own Worst Enemy I beat myself down down down to the ground from for from every aspect I just wake up beating myself down and I'm tired of that like I don't want to keep waking up beating myself down I'm so beautiful Tyler said smoke your [ __ ] yes like I'm all that yeah it's like girl be all that why you gotta wake up this morning and tell yourself knowledge wallet like just be all that don't be scared to me all that don't worry about if something bad is about to happen just be all that today if it's something bad happens tomorrow you deal with that tomorrow don't deal with that today just be all that today do not be afraid to be all that today in real life what do you pray for what do you ask God for most health success wealth patients patience please God please for you too yes in that little temper of yours yeah um those are the things I pray for health is one of them to stay healthy do you have fear of something no no I don't I don't even try to think about it but I just being healthy Health as well as you get older you will you realize how important health is over money yeah in real life how important is money to you both both um okay the city girl answered if money is everything okay my answer is cool really it's cool because I don't receive items and I still be just so like one more so I think that it's an inner thing like being inner like your inner peace your inner happiness your inner everything I feel like everything we get on this theory is to impress others yeah we we want it too but we know that when we post this thing somebody else is going to call up about it not even you so it's for other people yeah I I feel like this day and age me I'm not exempting myself we are like we are being taught to live for other people we are being taught to live for comments likes you know like um like the vets in the game we don't even know where they drive yeah the best we don't know where they drive I always say I don't know what the [ __ ] Rihanna Drive I don't know what Beyonce Drive she's a driver I'm sure but she might drive sometimes yeah I'm saying I don't know what car she have yeah yeah Mike you know then I Nikki she had her interview and she said you're not coming to my house to seeing all these cars you're gonna I'm saving my money um so it's like the Vets are very smart and I feel like the newbies we living for the like we living fast the posts are fast the block the blocks are racing us so fast because you got this for 30 minutes and the next minute is about somebody else the next minute it's about somebody else let me have my day if you're gonna talk [ __ ] about me let this day be about me don't upload nobody else on my [ __ ] day if you want to upload me and you better roast me I want to be roasted it's full of 24 hours no no other [ __ ] on my day so fast like so then what really matters right what really matters nothing because if you even try to trick my mind to think my [ __ ] doing something wrong I can't even be mad at that long because you for the upload 50 other things it's going on right here let that be that day did I get on his ass okay you let the internet no I hate in your relationship no no no I don't let the internet get in my relationship at all like I do not like one thing about me I don't like the internet getting my relationship at all now if I feel some type of way I feel some type of way for the internet no because I know him like I live with him I'm going to bathroom not gonna go issue you got locks on the bathroom door I'm not gonna just open it up okay some people do open up Open Door relationships give me my privacy I'm gonna give you a privacy I'm not gonna do you have your separate bathroom do you have your own bathroom oh you share a bathroom two sinks though I'm sure two sinks big ones big ones yeah both house good for you as you should yes uh okay just two more in real life in real life what is the best decision you've ever made I really like the best decision I ever made was going to the studio and put another song [Music] um not being afraid that's what I gotta do now I wasn't afraid then I was not scared I was mean I was so bold I just knew they was gonna [ __ ] with it that was the best decision I made that might be your superpower is that you're not afraid it was like you're bold and you're not afraid I wasn't but I wasn't afraid I'm kind of afraid now um nah but you coming around on the other side yeah I'm coming around this year 2023. I'm not afraid good for you baby what do you hope like from your real life take take city girls out take I mean you don't have to take city girls out but from your life from your real life what do you hope that people learn from you or take away from your life perseverance that like no matter what you go through no matter what you came from nobody no matter what you look like you can always become like bigger better prettier smarter stronger like yeah does everybody love her as much as I love her thank you you are so good I love this podcast like that's why I wanted to be here I'm gonna be honest with you and give you your flowers thank you baby I love that you gave me a women platform I know that you give me a platform too I love that you give me women platform to speak to be you know to be looked at is more intact intelligent human human real life yeah real thank you baby not you not you not making us look crazy you're making us look beautiful you land us talk I love this fly gas like this is something I wanted to do to be clear because I don't want to do [ __ ] it made me so happy because I felt like you um you know you when you do these like this is something I just you know I'm only on this is like episode I don't know 12 or 13. this year I did this and I love it and I it's like you created but you don't know who's listening or who's who you know I can see the comments in people but sometimes when I meet people who who actually listen and watch the episodes and and it's really nice to hear that so good so so good I'm like I want people to see me as mature baby you are smart yeah I feel like so much my intros is I'm about to suck this dick to get this cash that people got me [ __ ] up and was thinking it's not a beautiful black strong smart woman so I'm like I have I need to put that forth this year like to know people I want people to get to know you in a bigger realer level I'm so happy you chose here thank you baby thank you for having me [Music] [Music]

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Length: 77min 12sec (4632 seconds)

Published: Thu Feb 09 2023