Koshka: Hi! [laugh] I don't have my own computer, so I go to a PC cafe. Different foster homes would steal... the stuff I got from the system or stuff I bought myself, and... I actually did get a desktop once. Like, you know, everything I needed... until... a foster mom stole everything. I have three sisters and seven brothers. Four different dads and the same mom. Sasha: That's crazy... Koshka: When my dad was alive he protected us all the time. He never raised a hand against me and my sisters. He never, touched us... He never did any of that. He was... the most kindest man. He's my hero. I'd basically say. Earliest memory I had of my mom hitting me... was... in a Motel 6. Uh, she hit me and I started bleeding from my nose. My dad immediately passes me a towel, and my mom tries to hit me again and... I think my mom came back from doing meth and she just didn't care, and just looked at me and... continued doing it and I can tell how dead she kinda looked. She just, didn't wanna... take care of us anymore, so. I-I carry a picture of me and my dad... around with me everywhere I go. I also carry his memorial pictures. I was in the living room, watching some show with my sisters and my dad. Child and Family Services immediately knocked on the door. My dad gets up. My dad grabbed his cane and he wanted to, y'know, hit the social worker in the face. [laugh] Uhh, and then the social worker kinda picked me and my sisters up and took us into their car and we were crying. And my brothers were returning back from a donut shop so they took them too. And I remember my dad trying to open the car door... and he's like "You can't take my kids, you can't take my kids" and my mom is just smoking a cigarette and I remember my mom just crying. But she wasn't like, you couldn't hear her sob but my dad was sobbing and I wanted to open the car door so bad, but... the social workers were standing right in front of it. And my dad really, really cared for me and my sisters so I remember my dad crying and crying and I just saw him and I- I started crying too 'cause I never wanna see my dad cry. And that was probably the first time I ever saw my dad cry. And so it would take under 2 days for us to actually... get a home. That was actually the good foster home. She was very nice, she was very sweet. The only weird part about her is she will pee on her hands. What? Koshka: So she'll wash her hands with pee. What? Koshka: Honestly... I don't know if it was part of her tradition, or... She literally, uh, would wash her hands with pee. Or like she'll piss on her hands before anything and then wash her hands but... I don't know why she did that. Yeah. [laugh] She was a good foster mom, though, and I hope she's doing O.K. Did your dad ever try to get custody of you and your sisters? He actually did once. A social worker said that because his leg was amputated... he was unfit to be a father. His leg got amputated because of diabetes. He had a car and everything and he also had a wheelchair and he was very efficient in his wheelchair. But they just honestly thought he wasn't a good father. But he... was the... best man I've known. I-I honestly miss him a lot. Uhhm... I remember this foster moms name actually, her name was **** because... that's my sisters name. Her boyfriend would... and so would she... so... The next time she came back we grabbed a microwave from the kitchen... and we tried to drop it on her head. That's when they removed us from the home. It hit her shoulder, but... it just grazed her, so... we were almost efficient enough. I actually saw my mom in the hospital before she died. The last one to speak to her was my brother, Stevie, but she apologized for everything she did and I didn't want her to die with any regrets so I forgave her. And uh, she apologized and started crying and I knew that... she probably... regretted everything she has done to me and my sisters and... I forgave her for everything that she's done. Because, I still loved her as a mom, and... I knew she was going through a lot. I didn't want her to just pass on, knowing that... her kids hated her. Her mom would abuse her... so I think that's where she got it from and her stepmom would abuse her too... The foster parents that I really like that I call "mom" and "dad" they're good people. They listen to me, and... they pay attention to what I like to eat all the time. This foster mom, she's a really good cook. [laugh] So I love her so much. She has a lot of humor, and... they take you out places, they make you feel like you're a part of the family, and... I love them very much. My best memory of my dad was... actually on Christmas. We were singing Christmas songs, he was singing "Santa Claus Is Coming To Town" but it was a fucked up version of that. Uhh.. [laugh] And, uh.. He sang that song and we just started laughing, so... [laugh] Yeah! That was probably my greatest memory of my dad. Just singing Christmas songs on a keyboard, and... doing that. Yeah.. That was my greatest memory. Do you have any regrets with your dad? Like anything that you would've wanted to tell him? Koshka: Honestly... Eh, it's kinda silly, but... not making lasagna, 'cause he loves lasagna, so. I don't know how to make lasagna yet. [laugh] Does your dad hate mondays? Koshka: Mondays? Are you trying to relate to him as Garfield? [background laugh] No, that's an unrelated question. [outro]
I really love that channel. It's kind of what I would describe the opposite of bullying to be. It just gives people to the chance to tell their stories, is very respectful, doesn't sensationalize anything and the audience (even the usually toxic waste that Youtube comments are) is overwhelmingly moved and supportive.
Interestingly enough, "purple bird girl" is a character from a game called Oneshot and her name is Alula. In the game, her mother also passed away and her father is absent, though it's not mentioned whether he's alive or dead. She lives alone with her brother in some ruins.
These interviews are quite well done, I don't think there's one I haven't enjoyed watching.
jesus these always make me sad
great video, what is the song that plays at the end?