Drs. Bill & Veronica Winston - PPP Luncheon 9-9-19 - Pastor Tamara Bennett

[Applause] come on let's give Jesus some praise a house full of powerful women of God let's give Jesus a praise let's make a joyful noise until the Lord on Nova de Labarre say let's let their hands in his presence al-abbas what we honor you this morning and we're so grateful to come before your presence because we know that you see us you hear us we know that you're a mindful of everything about us so father we come before you and we humble ourselves at your feet we arm ourselves for you to speak a word into our life filibus a key onobu give us the word that will change us give us the word that will transform us give us the word that will lift up bow down heads give us the word that discouraged hearts will leave encourage give us a word in the mighty name of Jesus father we declare blessings in this house we declare breakthroughs over our heart and minds we declare but we will be birth into another RAM in another place of purpose and destiny with you in the mighty name of Jesus father I lift up even my dear sister dr. Veronica in the mighty name of Jesus a lebar say Keala sham no bossy yell Abba Chandra Omaha grant Father grant her very heart's desire in the mighty name of Jesus and father may none of her labor be in vain father may all of her tears be in a bottle that have gone up before thee in the tn Abbas say Kiana shondo bossy and Abbas release the oil Leon Oh bah ha maan your woman serving in the mighty name of Jesus and father we declare that your anointing will be great in this house we declare that your glory cloud will rest on each and every one of us we declare that your anointing will strengthen us and we will be changed forever in thy presence in the mighty name of Jesus we say amen and we declare it so I need our sisters to praise them I need my sisters to praise oh come on girl come on girls about to go down come on piano ba how we come to play with it we come to play with it come on Dianna ba say bless your name Jesus bless your name hallelujah hallelujah I need you to do me a favor before you take your seat please hug your neighbor next to them and tell them they came from pastor Bennett tell them she may not get to you so she wanted to make sure she can embrace you tell them that she may not get to you so she wanted to make sure she gets to hug you and then before you take your seat can you just say sandy for just a few more seconds for me we know that there's a cliche that the world says and that is behind every successful man is a good woman and truly I think that 2-foot was taken from the book of Proverbs because the book of Proverbs said that about that virtuous woman that her husband is known in the gates people might know dr. bill Wilson but do they know the powerhouse behind him which is my newly found sister dr. Veronica Willis I need you to give it up for give it up for her he is what he is because of her yeah I said it here's what he is because of her hallelujah hallelujah god bless you to my newly found sister and give it up for monster go ahead pass him you gotta go no girlfriend give it up for her thank God for gana connection god bless you into all of you you may have your seat in this presence I'm I'm grateful that I got my boyfriend here that my baby's daddy he's all the way in the back honey can you wave your hands in the air like you just don't care there's three of y'all that's my blue right there can y'all help me praise God for my Buddhist behind the scenes there is no way he was gonna sit down here with all these women but thank you for your support I am honored and feel very very humble to be in the presence of this worldwide ministry that God is using around the world to touch lives can you help me thank God again for this incredible ministry and for the life of the Winston's that have dedicated themselves and sacrifice themselves I'm grateful for you my sister I absolutely I'm trying i'ma try to stay calm but if I just go y'all gonna go with me cuz it's kind of hard sometimes when I get excited when I'm in an environment of powerful women and women that are hungry and women that are thirsty for their assignment with God I love to be in this environment with women that understand that W thought you had me but I got away yep it didn't work it didn't work I'm just kind of like a junkie for Jesus like I got I get a high of defying Satan it's like my junkie it's like I'm a high like in our church we have I'm gonna give it a good 65 percent of our church are straight from the street you name it and we got it and it's like when they come on when they come on Sundays like no matter what they look like you'd be like oh let me see what God gonna do with them like they could be borderline hi y'all know what I'm saying they could be our hoochie girls y'all talk about them you know what I'm saying but I Sindbad look and say watch what god don't do with them and in six months they are changed isn't that what we're about hallelujah are you one I was ain't no shame in my game look at me now I need some sisters to give the Lord some praise on that hallelujah a notion I am not ashamed of my testimony for it is God then it brought me out it is God that have kept us and that is the beauty of who God is the beauty of who God is is because he take those that otherwise people would have written out people would have said they never would have been nothing y'all know the people that when you came everybody left I'm so glad that now when we come there move on the side cuz they realized we are light we are power and we are bringing something to the world this is who we are and so I want to attempt to go into the scriptures a little bit and just again pray with me because I'll try to stay on point but just go with me if I can't pull it in okay okay so the first slide if my brother's can help me out we know that the conference for today in this environment is prayer praise and pampering and I'm saying okay how do we do the pepper but then but then when I begin to research pepper and then reflect on my own life and that's the part that might be challenging and I might take off because never do I ever take God's grace for granted like like I tell people all the time the place where God brought me from and the things he brought me from it remains right right right there right there that just when the devil want to try to make you get arrogant and think you've arrived girl something wrong you've got to look back on where God brought you from just when you get discouraged and feel like how God am I gonna get out of this I got a reflect back ain't no way God brought me out of all of that stuff to lead me right here so it ain't over yet it ain't over yet but truly if I were to discuss my own journey as you can reflect on your own truly truly truly God have pampered us and when I realized what pepper is I know girlfriend I know about the spa I know about the mani-pedi cuz we gotta have that to say Amen we gotta have the facial massages I get all of that but I can tell you for a truth none of that can do what God had to do in my heart there's some stuff that happens in our heart there's some stuff that happens in our emotions that can't no man you are petty touch I'm gonna keep it real your boyfriend can't touch it I love my husband he can't even touch it there's some things that God alone as much as I love that man of God there's some stuff I will never tell him but I'll be glad to tell Jesus we have our BFFs we have our friends but we ain't telling you know everything I like to talk about when people talk about intercessors and I appreciate intercessors you know we got them in our church too but you got to tell the truth you ain't telling your intercessor no everything we do the high level girl pray for me in my marriage what part don't we go tell them all the inside you know what I'm saying but I'm so glad I can take you to Jesus and it's safe there I'm so glad I can take it to Jesus and I will get results so let's talk about pamper for just a few moments pamper means to treat or gratify with extreme excessiveness or indulgence lord please help me with this today it is to treat with gratification it's it's um it's the indulgence it's let me soothe you let me let me be all over you in his kindness pampering is kindness and it's care truth be told again dealing with massages like I'm so like I don't know what you want to say but I'm kind of sensitive so everybody can't do my mani and pedi because I'm filling up love in it that's this is just me is so I'm very selective and with my people that usually do it aren't there I don't get it done cuz I need to I don't need to feel like I'm a mechanic besides my fingers like you love my fingers you like my just I don't do masseuse and things I've done it once or twice with you two rubbing me too hard act like my back is gold massage it just I'm just funny like that but it means to care and I'd like to think of it and if we consistory really really really pull Jesus Christ in as our true personal Savior if we really believe that he sees all he understands all and there is absolutely nothing you can go through that I'm not there and that I can't relate so so to be pampered by the Spirit of God he said I'm gonna show you great kindness I show great caring and I honestly think that sometimes for some of us that are mature and I walk I think that sometimes we almost start feeling like we get mature in this walk with Christ and so when we make mistakes it's almost like we don't want to tell God like I should know better but the truth is I still need to be pampered 20 years in the game I can make a mistake I still need your kindness and your forgiveness and so he said in his word then though I'll never leave you and I'll never forsake you and I think sometimes as we are maturing in the body of Christ I think sometimes we miss seeing ourselves literally go from faith to faith and from glory to glory because we enter into a small stage of self righteousness like we don't want people to know our shame or we don't want people to know our mistakes my honey I've become very comfortable with being transparent before God become very comfortable with being vulnerable before him I have that minute there is nothing on this earth that's perfect but you so I need you to help me get like you so in the midst of it if I make a mistake you know I'm not perfect you called me you know about me before I was even born so here I am again I need you again pamper me see about me because what happens is we change and so who you were and the God that you met for some of us have you met him at 20 have you met him at 30 have you met him at 40 if you met him when you were single if you met him when you were married with you met him when you were divorced if you met him when you are widowed we change oh no I'm telling that you girl ready or not like changes circumstance has changed us the god that you were at twenty I'm not 20 anymore I'm 40 I need to know you again I need try to work with me I mean pampering at 40 are you working with me yeah I know you have two kids the kids are grown emptiness all that thing called Minar oh you complete it I need to know you again I wish I were telling the truth and work with me and so if we don't continue to stay at his feet or to remain vulnerable at these new stages and ages and trend changes of life literally then I'll miss him in his glory for me right now hallelujah and you're looking for it to be the person I was gotta care when I was 29 I was on fire for God yeah you didn't have arthritis either so now the things are changing God working me work what you can working me javi you can't I need to know your glory and every stage of my life I need some sisters appraised them with me I need some sisters appraised and with me can I say so I remain thirsty I remain desperate when Paul said Lord forgetting those things which are behind and I'm reaching toward this mark that was not talking about the bad only yep-yep-yep that was not talking about the bad only if Paul did not renounce everything then he wouldn't have the joy to go to his next assignment so what is that saying thank you Father I know you used me today but tomorrow I got a new assignment thank you lord I wrote that book but tomorrow I gotta write another one I need to know you in every stage and so I gotta forget the good and the bad because I gotta know you again so I want to go to this um Bible story and I'm gonna try to tell the story for the sake of time but then we'll pull up the scripture that's a very familiar passage and it's a familiar story about a woman that um you know they're still trying to prove it in theology whether she really was Mary Magdalene or what the she was a woman of many demons here's what I know she was a woman with some issues so here was this woman Jesus was invited into the house of the scribes and Pharisees and here is this woman that had multiple demons multiple spirits and was a sinner and the Bible said that she came in and when she came in she went straight to Jesus Lord I love you so much she went straight to Jesus and she began to weep behind him sisters if you only knew the power of your tears [Music] the power of our tears is because tears can say with my words sometime I never I never want to be dry before the Lord I never want to be that I can't be broken down before his presence the members of our church know that there are times I can I'm really feeling like preaching the you right day I just need to get before his presence and they know I will drop to my knees in a minute and weep before the presence of the Lord because what good am I to you if I don't get in his presence first so if I drop to my knees it would do you a favor if you drop to your suit and let's all get before his presence and so she wept at his feet and as she began to weep and his feet her tears were so great we know the Bible story some of us don't and some of us do but the story goes on that her tears were so great that she knelt at his feet and she began to wash his feet with her tears she took the glory of her hair and began to wash her feet okay sidebar let's deal with that here and wet thing for a minute girl y'all know it takes a lot of water okay okay i'ma go here y'all working with me you working with me it take a lot of water especially depending on the that show here or not it take a lot of water to get hair to a pliable place to be able to wipe Jesus feet and I've just declared that's how much she began to make this known unto Jesus I need you [Music] obviously she got it a desperate Akers I don't know these guys and I don't care what they're thinking about me this is my chance to get before the presence of Jesus and I'm not gonna stop until he hears me so she took her oil and she began to mix this oil with her tears um scripture says that a woman's long hair is her glory can I work with the sisters I dare to say that sometimes we can be fancy and cute for our dude and whatever else you got to do but girl when it comes to God you gotta let go of everything when it comes to God ain't no glory ain't nothing pretty about me I got to get you for real and I don't care if there's mud in my hair there's a desperation that says I need you and so she began to weep at his feet and she began to kiss his feet now this is the part sisters that you know I don't know I think I don't know I don't know how far we can go with this or or how far you're willing to open yourself up let me let me just deal with this for a minute remember now she was doing this unto Jesus now I don't know girlfriends true history I don't know if she was a prostitute I don't know obviously she had no shame in being in the presence of a whole lot of men are you working with me so obviously something in relationship that she know and sometimes sisters we can give our emotions a whole lot of places and never get the really motion to God [Music] we will give our affections and we will make our sacrifices weathers for our children what there's for our parents you don't know what I'm saying what is for our husband and we do God like this and we do God like this or we'll tell God I've got this when the truth of it is is he said I want all of your emotions can I keep on working this sisters I don't have time to tell my story but if you know me I got a little journey that I went through even before ministry and some of the things Satan took me through even though God saved me and some things that I went through in my childhood that wasn't pleasant even though God saved me are you working with me hold on even though God saved me I was happy that he saved me and I will go run on with Jesus because he saved me but one day he made me deal with the pain you can't run from it y'all know what I'm saying just at the brink of getting a breakthrough sometimes the devil will breed this video of your past back up in your mind you know I'm telling the truth right then you'll remind you of some stuff but I'm so glad I took that emotion to Jesus what what is the emotion sometimes it is the shame I know he saved us I know I know but you'll find yourself almost just feeling grateful that I'm safe as oh I'm not worthy of anything else that was my story I was a pastor's child and my mom and dad divorced when I was very young and there were some unfortunate situations and things that happened to me in the process of that divorce and so when God finally saved me because the devil had me on the route that he guaranteed me I would never see a teen so at the age of 14 my peers were 21 and 22 I was or whatever I thought I could do and that was because of abuse and things that happen so I figured this is just who I am and so when God saved me can I keep working this for just one second the church knew I was a pastor's child they only saw me in summer time they only saw me on holidays they had no idea about this other life and so when God saved me I had to immediately polish it up can y'all work with me you understand what I'm saying I had to polish it up so that they would never judge me we working on it but I'm not sure how much the church is really ready to hear your story we working on are we working on it I I know you look good now but that ain't always how you looked I know you got a praise now but that praise wasn't always there I need y'all to work with me we working under we're trying to get to church ready so that we can be liberated and tell our story and really overcome by the words of our testimony but God knowing my facade God knowing what I was trying to do only so that I will bring no shame on him only then I could feel worthy so I was so honored to serve our mother in the gospel mother's cell of one I was so honored just to be a nurse in the church I was so honored to just bring her water bring her tea I was so honored cuz God you know where I came from thank you for saving me thank you for rescuing me cuz everything wasn't that the devil did it to me I volunteered for some stuff don't you touch me don't you touch me everything everything wasn't a double did I volunteer for some stuff so I had to pay for that I had to pay for that and when the Lord begin to help me understand I already saw you tell me I already knew what that was and you and I have to deal and I've gotta walk you through that pass and I've gotta help you understand where the enemy got in I've got to help you understand the tactics cuz how many know that God can walk us up with some time there can be a debris behind can I say that again there could be a debris behind okay fine let me break it down so as I said we got young folk from the street you know they come from every walk of life so we got these gummy honesty California as as a carbon whiteness said one time when they first started taking off into tours he said you know some of these places in California look like women there's a firm of pretty women that just because they're all these ethnicities that are mixed and so beautiful women so I had a whole lot of pretty honeys y'all work with me whole lot of pretty honey's in there pretty and they cute and they used to work in this stuff so now ok we're teaching them how to be Usher's and things and so you know sit the people down ok ok bull ok ok honey you can't uh sure like that you need a sea see it's the debris god save them y'all know what I'm saying but that's a break got to go that's the process that's the process and the Lord said I kind of knew she was gonna do that but it's okay don't judge nothing before it's time it's gonna so God begins to do that with us and what we have to admit is we have to admit when we're coming through that process we have to admit that God in these new stages of our lives in these news transitions of our lives that you begin to change us so this woman brought all of those emotions to the feet of Jesus now here's the part to me that the PAP ring began because what she did is she gave herself to him that's us crying out to God that is us praying to God that is us relinquishing ourselves to God but then this is the part to me where Jesus began to pamper her and if you could put up the slide right before the story door or the Bible story and I'll try to read through it fast so we can start walking through that oh no I'm sorry Paul's right there because the difference the opposite the opposite of being pampered is being disappointed it's being ignored the opposite of peper is anger is being denied or refused so can you imagine this woman taking the risk of entering into this house subscribes and Pharisees up taking herself and throwing herself at the feet of Jesus then to be judged by man to be judged by their opinion of what she's doing so here we go the Bible story than that slide the scripture says and when Jesus answering because he perceived what they were saying and the Bible said that they were thinking if Jesus knew who she was he won't be letting her be all up in her face like that Jesus perceiving the survivor city's assignment I got to ask you a question he said yeah go ahead Jesus he said if there was a certain creditor which had two debtors and the one old 500 and the other fifty and when they had nothing to pay he frankly forgave them both so help me understand which one of them will love the most here we go next slide Simon said oh I suppose that he to whom he forgave most and he said unto him yep you have rightly judged and then he turned to the woman and said unto her Simon you see this woman at y'all judging he's not entered into your house you didn't have your water and wash my feet sisters y'all got to work with me today but she have washed my feet with her tears and wiped them with the hairs y'all work with me sisters on her hand next slide he said and then the disciples went away again unto their own and and he sent us he said Jesus this is wrong he said Jesus he said you see this oil hissing you didn't anoint my head with oil he said with this woman have anointed my head with oil he said so let me tell you the story he said to whom its forgiven much that one will love much I am maturing as a pastor and I'm maturing as my walk with God that sisters in all honesty we we have this thing that have been labeled that God called us the weaker vessel okay I didn't think I was gonna give ah he means but and sisters we have taken it in the wrong content and we have taken the term weakness as though it means soft or wimpy and not understanding that no it just means with the delicate one you're the sensitive one and so I'm growing and I'm maturing to embrace my vulnerability I'm embracing that I am called the weaker vessel I'm relaxing that I am vulnerable that I can only bear so much oh my god oh my god oh my god I am enjoying that I have I have four beautiful children and a son that's at home in two teenage daughters and and I enjoy being not the volleyball mother soccer mom but I am the volleyball mom yeah I'm enjoying all these things because all of these things keep me in a certain grounded place then let me do this down here why God keeps fighting for me up here I need to work this for a minute I need to work it we are in an industry that we know there's many things that women are still kind of it's a little partiality their sisters is this alright the room is predominantly us can we keep it real yeah we're in industries we are CEOs we are managers and you still kind of feel that difference are you working with me you still kind of feel that comparison are you working with me yeah until you just embrace that God anointed me for this and I can't apologize I'm just anointed to do what I do ain't no comparison it just is Who I am so when I am weak I allow myself to be very weak in his presence when I am broken I don't try to fix it I'd be very broken in this presence I need you I ought to keep working with me when I am disappointed I don't justify it I am disappointed and I need you to make some things make sense when things happen that shouldn't happen I don't plead the blood and speaking tongues over we gotta talk you gotta explain to me why I did what you told me to do and this happened anyway I take advantage of it as I was becoming a pastor and it wasn't by choice it was by the divine hand of God and and again I was I'm in Sacramento California and it really has been honest to God a wilderness I haven't had like this array of support and things and no complaints not none of that it's just explaining not complaining how God made our route and so I had to trust him and I had to hear him and I didn't have time to do a lot of you know hey what's up girl cuz I had to pray and seek his face and get order and get direction and ask the Lord where to go and what to do next and so in the process of this as I'm trying to mature and and I would go to different places so there's one particular time because I can't preach like I do hello I'm a girl sorry trying to preach like you I'ma be me but this one particular time we were at this funeral and and it was a lose for table I was the only female and the only reason why I was on the program is because it was the father of one of our members well the member that it was he was he was a very known well-known drug dealer but he gots his wife got saved first and then he got saved and so they're in the ministry and they're dedicated and so his wife took care of his father till she till he died so you know this is a hard brother you know he's the street he's a hard brother so wrap this funeral and the only reason why I was on the program is because they asked you know I want my pastor to have words or at least do the prayer okay so we do the prayer so now it's time to view the body and so I'm standing there you know the preacher is standing there and so you know people are coming in so here they come the family is now coming to view the body so I stand with them at the casket and he's standing he's trying to be real strong but he's breaking and she breaking and I'm holding both of them and he did something that sisters if you know brothers like like they're not allow to talk and you got to learn their language and you got to know that they could say one thing that's really saying a thousand words okay like when dudes go on the room like us [Music] but guys they walk in the room now they just say hey what's up man you good oh no that that's just their language daddy so you just gotta know there's small words as saying a thousand things so we were standing there so this is a hard dude you know but God saved him and he's still got the debris the debris so you know he's still got all this so he's standing at the casket he grabs his wife's hands she's weeping she try remembers she cared for his father till the day he died he grabs her hand I got both of them and they're crying and and he grabs her and he said thank you I knew what that meant then he breaks she breaks and they're both and I'm holding them both and now I'm breaking I'm crying all of my brother's other pastors I'm ballin by now like I need to sha bother and I'm crying with him and the Holy Spirit said to me he said I knew what I was doing when I called you and there is a there is a nature there is a substance there is a nurturing there's a softness there's a vulnerability there's a weakness we have that I need to use he said never try to be them be what I called you to be and be free to do you come on sisters come on be free to be pretty be free to weep be free to cry be free to be vulnerable I need y'all to work with me thank you so the same Mary after Jesus forgave her and again theology is going back and forth word that this was the same Mary that was there or well as Mary Magdalene what I can tell you there was a Mary who had a whole lot of issues that when Jesus forgave her she never left his feet and so I don't think there's a better picture of it than Passion of the Christ and when it showed how these Mary stayed with Jesus and walked with Jesus in the midst of the persecution they stayed at Jesus feet in the midst of him being stone in the midst of him being beat they stayed at Jesus feet I want to talk to you sis is the place that is best for us that is most vulnerable for us but yet the strongest place for us is remaining at the feet of Jesus my dear sisters you may can't change that man your husband but God can change that man just by yu-san at his feet my dear sisters there's things we raise our children we bring them up in the fear of God but then somewhere along the way they get grown and want to do what they want to do but I can keep them at the feet of Jesus and I can keep me at the feet of Jesus that I don't lose my Thanks so what my grown kids are doing I know I need a praise right there so this woman walk with me sisters come on pull yourselves and put yourselves in put yourselves in why are you trying to be so strong why are you trying to act like you got this why are you trying to act and I'm not talking to everybody there's a few people here that you want to put on this face you want to keep it going on cuz you don't want to be labeled as failure I can never be a failure because God called me it's upon me finish with me right now the whole story I need some praise right there so Jesus pampering this woman here we go we gonna make a turn in a minute so Jesus pampering this woman was getting the enemy up offer her Jesus pampering this woman was getting her her criticizers a ball for her sometimes sisters God asked us and challenged us to do some things that are out of the norm we don't have no pattern we're the trend setter for us and if you're not careful people will judge you as I heard my dear sister sheral Brady say you have no idea why I praise him like I do you have no idea what I've been through you don't know what it took for me to get here we don't know what it took for this woman to have the courage to walk in the mid subscribes and Pharisees and place herself at the feet of Jesus but in the process of the Jesus fought for her and Jesus defended her I need some sisters is ready to do a work Jesus fought for her and Jesus defended her what are you saying past a minute I'm saying that my precious sisters no more can we treat our pasts and no more can we treat things that we've gone through and just sweep it under a rug as though it didn't happen and please only see my pretty side but never investigate who I was never investigate the things that God brought me from I say just the opposite honey the glory of my story is that God found purpose in my pain I need some praise right there and there's no shame in facing it cuz he peppered me through my pain so through this woman weeping at the feet of Jesus Jesus got her accusers have fought for her well this woman then stayed at the feet of Jesus and this woman followed closely at the feet of Jesus this woman served behind the scenes following Jesus I'm looking at you teaching the disciples I'm looking at your signs and wonders and miracles I'm just here because I'm so madly in love with you I can't leave I can't just walk away I know I got a choice and I choose to stay with you so this woman walks with Jesus and even as Jesus told his disciples yo this is what's gonna go down so like I'm gonna die be it far from you okay Peter right this what happen is I'm gonna be taken out y'all don't worry Dawgs I'm getting back up in three days I well Mary was there too Mary heard the promises - I'm talking about being pampered in the midst of your pain I'm talking about giving God your prayer because my praise is coming and the Bible says that she stood there as she waited and she went and said where's she went to his tune and said where's Jesus the Bible says she cried and she wouldn't got the disciples and she said yo where's where's Jesus she said Jesus was raised there and his Mary stood without at the sepulchre and as she wept she stooped down and she looked into the suppo ker first she told the ain't she told the disciples she's decide which they came Peter came and he said yo he's gone but I don't know what happened I'm not judging me and forgive me honey I'm not judging her but I'm just saying why didn't y'all just hang around you she said because there was very something very sensitive and very personal between Jesus and Mary and I'm not here at your feet because I'm looking to preach I'm not here that's your feet cuz I need to be seen I'm just that's your feet because I'm so madly in love with you I'm not judged when I'm at your feet I get my peace when I'm at your feet it's the very opposite I don't feel weak at all I feel very strong I feel very powerful when I'm at your feet and when I leave I got clarity things that didn't make sense it makes sense because I was at your feet so I don't need what y'all need but I heard what he said and so I ain't going nowhere and so she stayed there and then the Bible says these two angels came and said Mary why are you weeping sisters when you give your all to Jesus honey he got angels had to come back and talk to you he don't have ordinary people he's got angels and Jesus stood behind her said Mary she said Jesus he said Mary come here baby I know those are my boys and I know I have an assignment for them oh oh but because you stayed at my feet and because you never doubted me and because you never left me I have an assignment for you I need you to go tell them that I got back up I need some praise I need some sisters that's ready I need some sister that's ready I need some scissors that's ready don't think that stand at the feet of Jesus is gonna keep you average there's an assignment that God has on your life I need some praise up in here don't think you're just a housewife don't think the church just a schoolteacher don't think that you're just a doctor there is an assignment that God said I gotta you hands lifted before the presence of the Lord hands lifted I have to use you I need my sister's in this house if I can't do anything else before we leave this place I need the sisters in this house to shake what people think shake trying to fit in and shake care what people say shake how people that put you in a box [Music] [Applause] my story and you have your story can I have no shame in telling me I was married for 13 years and I'm blessed now but I served and I was married and it was ministry for 13 years and you couldn't tell me anything differently we were supposed to take the world and the man of God died and he died of an incurable disease so much so that I didn't know my destiny so I said to myself forget about ever marrying again I was 37 years old I was young forget about ever marrying again just become honor in the temple throw yourself in the house of God and I did the day he passed and when I'm trying to be strong for the people of the church and act like I got it going on I'ma be this face okay I'll do everything I'm here by myself and the Holy Spirit humble me and broke me down in the middle of our dining hall and he thundered in my cell in my voice in my ears he said Tammy I am never wrong I will be your Shepherd and we will build this church [Applause] because tell the truth sisters maybe it's just me but tell the truth don't you serve Him then aren't there some things that can happen in your life that you know it's not right to have an attitude with God but you got a rebuke it y'all better keep it real with me so I had no choice but I said okay and he took us on a series he took us on 30 days of praying in the church and he said to me he said you know how people go through grief therapy I said yes Lord he said that's what we don't do he said we don't do it in prayer so for 30 days we prayed every day in our church and what's funny is that it was a very small congregation at the time and they knew I was crying more for me than I was for them y'all better work with me but I had nowhere else to go I gotta take it to Jesus come on because that pain I gotta take it to Jesus when you're surrounded with people that don't understand I gotta take it to Jesus making that very long story short we were left with 20-something people in a 22,000 square foot building with a note of 7,000 dollars a month I have folks from the street let me just keep it real the only way we was gonna get money as they wouldn't have to go back to the old lifestyle I can't let them do that [Applause] but I gotta trust God I mean you know God likes it we can't nobody else help you so here we are and the man the landlord was being really nice and really kind but here we are it was the Monday before the Tuesday he said y'all I appreciate you and I like you but boo you got to go you too far behind I neither $7,000 I have no idea let me keep it real I knew preacher friends but because I had my orders I couldn't ask them to help me out y'all gotta understand what God really want his faith to dominate he'll give you orders that you can't even get out of I need some praise go up in here you know what I'm saying you know what I'm saying you know what I'm saying [Applause] can i buy see will trust him trust him trust him trust me another Sean Noble say yeah say yeah never trust see another see trust him trust him so here was the Monday and one of my former Saints dealers Oh used to be but saved now he came from a family his daddy was a crackhead his mama was a crackhead he was a crackhead until God saved him his mother died what the young man didn't know his way back in the day his mama worked for the state little man got a small inheritance of $64,000 he paid his test $6,400 we scraped up the rest God said you trust me [Applause] what are you saying I'm saying to you booth sometimes the praying of the crying and the weeping and the pain is necessary because God is about to resurrect something great in your life that only he will get the glory so now I'm going on about my life and we're gonna bring it in I'm going on about my life and I'm determined I would never marry again this is just gonna be my future so I took up this habit of riding a bike I took up a hobby because I didn't want grief to take me over and make me do anything else crazy so I took up something positive bike riding so I'm riding my bike and I'm riding my bike and one day I rode my bike down this little restaurant area on the water and there was an amazing aroma coming out of their food because when God begins tersh daughters please hear me on this because this is real talk when God takes you through something traumatic and when he starts bringing you out sisters I think one of the worst things you can do is try to make life like it's normal and sometimes you keep trying to want an old life to fit in a new wine that God is about to do with you and you keep comparing it to the old and gossiped you've missing it I'm trying to do something totally new with you and the two will never mix so I had to create a new normal so I didn't want to go to any of the old places than I used to do I was creating a new normal and in that new normal there was this handsome chocolate executive chef oops and to fast-forward that story it went down like this I get to the restaurant and I ain't it was lunch and it was good and I came down I said to myself this is a great place I'll make this my new spot I went back again now he'll like when I tell the story and if you let him take this mic he will tell you a different story but my story is right so I'm sitting there and I'm eating it so this chef keeps walking back and forth not this is where I magetta a man I'm in a room full of girls I got my back today girlfriend don't we know was somebody checking us out [Applause] and any a any folks so he kept walking forward back him back for and I'm saying to myself I'm not gonna look up I'm not gonna look up y'all know how we do that too I'm not gonna look up but the thing I wanted wasn't on the menu so finally I look up a nice excuse me yes first of all why you're ain't back in the kitchen why you out on the floor anyway [Applause] so I said I'm looking for something on our menu I said I was here the other day I said and it was um it was angel hair pasta with Chilean sea bass with this like corn something on the back he's on the top he's uh well that was my special you won't find that on the menu I said oh he said but I'll see what I can do for your I said okay thank you so he goes to the back he comes back out why he's serving it and not the server [Applause] so he says we didn't have Chelan but we have halibut it's the next favorite oh thank you it was a great meal long while long story short brother man parks himself at my table not y'all notice where I need the sisters not to judge me I have been out of the game for a very long time so I'm thinking this is what they do at these high-end restaurants white tablecloth restaurants that he's asking me about the meal and blah blah blah blah so he was doing this conversation till brother man was working in his legs is crossing you know he has neck and I'm just talking cuz I'm clueless cuz I've been out of the game a long time where everything's spiritual all things are godly y'all know what I'm sayin this is a soul for Jesus y'all know what I'm sayin anyhoo so I'm just talking and goofy just talking and stuff so he ought Magnus he said so what do you do and I said I'm a pastor [Applause] he's standing up in his chair like this oh okay long story short and this is his part that he would take the mic cuz the truth is I did keep going back but it was because the food was so good although he would say differently anyway 17 years later that's my boo with four kids seventeen just let me tell you the miracle I was married 13 years before never had children never did anything to not have children they tried to tell me to do the whole stuff you know the extra stuff and I was like no if it don't happen natural forget it I'm still getting tests sisters cuz I don't know if I have this disease or not this man spoke into my life and his line to me finally two and a half years from that day that we first met he said to me he said listen I know you're my wife and you're gonna have my children I told him the state I was in and he wept and cry he said he said you do not have that disease you will be my wife and you will have my children [Applause] I say with my same doctor and one of those every six months you got to go get tested one of those last says she came she was beak read and I'm saying to myself this is it it's over it's okay I had a great life thank you Jesus I love you anyway let's go to heaven I did and she said tomorrow she said you don't have the disease but you are pregnant I don't understand what happens when you stay people purpose we're all standing there's a small worship song as you lift your hands before the Lord there's a small worship song and it's okay about the musicians cuz it is my testimony Ennis where would I be you know [Music] I'm glad you see through the blood a hopeless case an empty space if not for grains open up sisters open up he's there for you where would open up sisters you only know I'm glad you see through eyes open up isn't pampering you he's pampering you a hopeless case let them pack for you an empty space if not for grace let a pepper you let a pepper you Amazing Grace let pepper you how sweet that's her i watch watch hi leather paper you a hopeless case I was an empty space if not for grace grab his sister grab it grab is pampering let it go to him let it go to him where would I be think about where he brought you from you're the only one who know I'm glad you see through so much let him have his way let him have his way net of habits way so much love let him have his way he's favoring you I was a hopeless case and I bout see I had such an empty space if not for great is a hopeless case that I pamper You an empty space that I pack for you if not for your grades I was a whole less case I had an empty space open up daughter soften up if not for grace hands lifted hands lifted has the dude then I'm pamper You Now release that he had Nova ha pastors wives why you got always be so strong releases he and Abbas a workers in this house you are great your CEOs your founders your managers why do I have to be so strong let me take advantage Jeon Abbas say I need Jesus to pamper me honey - grace I need your grace come on let Jesus pamper you here I see you sis I see you I need more grace I need your grease let up HAP you I see it I see it coming on down I see it coming on down I see it come on on down get your breakthrough sweetheart ignore the system next to you she may not know what you need she may not know what you need let it go don't be ashamed to cry you can put your makeup on later let it go let it go I need it Jesus I need you Jesus I need I need your grace I need you I need you I need you come up in my empty space come up in my empty space honey or gray help me make it through come on come on come on he's here he's here to pepper us he's here to Paris he's here to Paris I need more grain help me Jesus to make it through I'm leaning on you Jesus you Jesus come on come on I'm leaning on you cheese put my trust in youth I'm depending on you Jesus I'm depending on you Jesus I'm depending on you Jesus you're the only one that can bring me through I'll give it all to you Jesus come on daughter's mcgrill up Our Lady I'm giving it all to you Jesus I'm giving it all to you Jesus see me through if I can have permission to do this if it's okay can I have five minutes I know if they watch while we're about to serve if on your own time I'm gonna turn it over if you want to just come to this altar on your own we're about to serve and get ready would help me see my way through [Music] has this to be for the Lord I might turn in the hands of our first lady [Music] to pasture tomorrow

Channel: Pastor Tamara Bennett

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Length: 63min 51sec (3831 seconds)

Published: Tue Sep 10 2019