Addicted To Burgers And Bacon | FULL EPISODE | Freaky Eaters

Nikita Hatchin is 29 and lives with her boyfriend of 11 years maps former child singing star she appears to be a bubbly popular twenty-something but inside Nikita's hiding a secret she's addicted to bacon and burgers getting through two thirds of her own body weight in salty knees every year this meaty menu is bhakta with lashings of stodgy chips and beans I like a job for need to eat something - laughs so at a moment please join me now fatty diet is so extreme that anything fresh or healthy turns our stomach bingum over the next four weeks they cutable battle her demons of the help of psychologist Felix Akana Marcus a nutritionist sholat once while Shauna tackles her dreadful diet managing a small fish Felix will uncover her painful past as I was working over with my friend they they dragged me to the floor and said get me something to kill early can Nikita find her voice and reclaim her shattered confidence to be done lifetime of food phobias don't light up [Music] twenty-nine-year-old bolton girl accuser works in the finance department of a local bread company and lives with her fiance you mutt when it comes to food every day she faces a greasy choice between bacon bits of excellence too much for burgers and the weird food phobias don't stop there if remembered a burger just a stupid just to Playa burger no nothing on it at all and if it adds I take it back I don't like my food mix it on the plate anything with sauces and salad cats or anything that I'm going to eat the only other thing is you can stomach our chips beans out Brad no vegetables whatsoever you know the Alpha food she doesn't touch at all tasting anything new is traumatic I look at other people's food and I want to eat it try and put it in my mouth I start panicking before it even gets to memo to be honest it's like I'm scared I'm gonna gag on it which I do sometimes it doesn't feel right on my tongue then it's like we'll get it out of my mouth this way [Music] as soon as my brain starts ticking in I put like a mental barrier there so it's like no I can't try I don't like it I don't like it without even knowing you'll taste a doll that tastes like dirt out the ground he was like well you know what I mean but life wasn't always this tough as a child Nikita was a minor local celebrity winning dance competitions singing solo performances and enjoying her success and that was one of my favorite ones highest marks under 12 she's be a championship dancer ballroom ballet tap modern been all over the contrary but her true passion was for singing it took like notif accent of my life and it's one of the best times I can think back on and if the best memories that I've got throughout her singing years she was always a fussy eater but as she performed less and less her diet got worse and worse and for her super fit boyfriend it's hard to watch she's a rubbish all the time and she's not exercising a great deal like she used to because we've all heard dancing and everything she's getting bigger no other way and then with a skin you know what I mean and as well as like being tired all the time or having no energy you know no she got no Drive no go anymore I just feel that drained I've got to bed and I'll sleep till about one o'clock in the afternoon and I can get off for about two hours in there quite easily go back to bed so I literally had no energy at all for the man in her life patience is starting to wear thin it will be easy to just go and walk away and find somebody else you know so wanting is just normal you know and I can just like go to restaurants and not feel ashamed all over without help Nikita's future looks uncertain I just don't know what's gonna happen if I don't change you don't even wanna lose my partner all right I don't know if we're gonna make myself hallway that's good but I can't I might not be able to do things that normal people do it's day one on the road to recovery Nikita has traveled to London to meet the experts nutritionist Charlotte Watts and psychologist Felix economicus are you feeling expected now in case we have something to show you so if you just follow us we're just gonna taking the cinema okay [Music] so Niketan the next few weeks are gonna be very challenging and that's why we'd like to show you something that will help you it is gonna be difficult but please remember that is from the people who care about you most well come and catch up with you in a minute okay sorry Aniki you sure mama yeah right but balls if we don't get yelled no you're not gonna be around five because you're putting weight on your conditioner your skin and I look at your and you've got thick blonder and Nerys just like doing darling it's heartbreaking for me to like see oh you're eating is affecting you no no energy no go about yourself just want to see the only key you back hey Nick it's me your dad we see some key change in this last 10-15 years it's really upsetting for people like me we really care about you and I know I like you to hear me calling yeah because I love you so much that's all looking day I'm sorry but I'm crying if it carries on the way it does carry on I I don't think I can keep taking it anymore you know it will it will end up splitting up over something really stupid as food so I want to do is just like wish you luck and say that I love you [Music] okay Nikita so I looked like quite difficult yeah it's obviously quite a scare with it Matthew say he can't take it much longer we've been together 11 years I don't want to I don't obviously I don't want to lose anything it's quite concentrated yeah thing to say isn't it just every one of them say you like how much I've changed and they watch I've lost my bubbly personality it stopped do you feel like but yourself yeah yeah do you feel like that that's confident in theirs I used to be so there's still this little bubbly girl in there somewhere oh we need to get her back okay that's good but will the ugly face of her extreme diet be enough to put Nikita off for good out you come you a little closer so we have taken a look at your food diary and this is what you are eating in a year all of this food that you see here what's it like to take that in there yeah it's ghost it that's not bad enough here are the nervous 300 rashers of bacon 1875 slices of bread 200 cans of beans and sausages 60 kilos chips 20 50 beef burgers that you also take it I get kind of snapshot from you just looking at this so far don't fancy any chips this star is pretty much a recipe for bloatedness and tiredness just our fat I'm just stud I need to do it I'm ready to do it it's not nice good good in the next four weeks what would you like to achieve at the end of that just to eat something with a bit of vegetables in something more that my body needs and who would you like to eat that with my partner okay he's frustrated and fed up so remember this picture and let's expand to a bit of color his diet is pretty shocking it's a whole lot of garbage basically she can't go on eating this she's gonna have a lot of health problems back home and Nikita has had time to reflect on her family's messages to her I was London good good yeah I see messages from my family and I was crying all the way through them yeah thinking I could just sat there and just give you this like lovey-dovey message yeah but I'm the one who's been moving for like 11 years and it's are for me that's why and my message was harsh and I've seen you go from from what a sin so like what you like little I'm gonna change don't know I love you too [ __ ] yeah I do but I want you to like kinda shake yeah it's just a bit of change you know you've done it you've made the stack yeah okay yeah don't think about anybody else's feelings I shall see in the messages I realize how much I'm hurting everybody else around me as well because they're seeing me change not particularly like the way I look not particularly liking the way I feel and so hopefully this will get me back on track [Music] the first step on Nikita's road to recovery is to understand the underlining reasons behind her troublesome eating Felix has invited her to join him so he can find out why her childhood fussiness with food became a full-blown phobia in adulthood can we just start by you telling me a little bit about how your eating behavior has been a problem for you in your life I've always been for say from as far back as I can remember wait I think I've just got worse stuff got old because the older I get then the less I've been trained stuff so - foods you like to eat burgers beans sausages there's something about those foods that makes them acceptable to you and something about all other foods that doesn't and with a food safe it's safe because I know what I'm getting I look at food and like whatever Matthew weeks and nothing yeah it looks really nice and but it's just I can't bring myself to put it in my mouth people say try this try this I can feel myself like panicking inside and then I think I've built myself up that I'm that that anxious before I get it even into my mouth right I've lost the battle before I even begun there's anything else unusual happen in your life that's a source of stress that could make this worse there was a time when I got attacked I was 15 was going to stay at my friend's and there were two girls and they said that they needed to take the temporary and somebody and unfortunately that was me so as I was walking over with my friend they they dragged me to the floor and one of them was straddled across me and said get me something to kill her with because she doesn't know where we are so the kid with the brick I hold the first head just take a deep breath for a sec just making my blank and you take out your mind for a sec just imagine all that stores knowing this in the past now just imagine just draining out on your feet because you realize now that it's behind you you're safe I knew I just don't talk about it always a psychologist if I hear a life threatening incident the kind of trauma warning bells come up and you know it's not exactly rocket science it's kind of mistrust that you'll be safe with food does that it does make sense to be honest I don't trust anything or anyone anymore does it hold you back from your career what you'd like to do in any way or am i work in an office at the moment but when I was younger all I wanted to do was be a dancer or a singer so I know I'm doing something that's the complete opposite I don't know where I'm supposed to be going in my life I feel like I don't fit anywhere at the moment [Music] given what Nikki's experience with that intense assault when she's 15 she's actually cope very well I mean some people who develop aggro phobia they're afraid to leave their houses and they they have all sorts of other fears so she's not surprisingly well but I still think this would have impacted on her eating behavior as well then just made a more nervous about the unknown the things I spot to feel expect I've kind of mentioned in the past but I've never really spoken about them in detail um sometimes it's quite hard to deal with it it's easier to talk to a stranger than it is here on family and friends [Music] while Felix works out a way to deal with some of her past trauma Charlotte wants to find out more about her present food phobias plan today is to find out where Nikita lies in terms of food trying new food and how much was always going to be to move her on from her extremely restrictive diet so when you look at this spread here yeah what's coming to mind you need to talk me through what you see yeah I think it looks now it's like that salad looks really nice you're getting it into my mouth is whereas booger okay I think we should start no you mentioned that you don't like foods together yeah so you have some rules yeah I'm inclined to push you how would you feel about eating tomato and cucumber together in one mouthful okay [Laughter] [Music] all right it's okay after the initial shock yeah I didn't think like yeah the gag thing but I don't know why but say it wasn't actually that bad I don't know why why my body did that habit yeah probably yeah that reflexes protection because I've already thinks it's gonna have to expel something that's potentially harmful to us okay but the cutest gag reflex has been protecting her from healthy foods for 20 years Charlotte presses on chicken another veg fair know better I can feel that lot of bits on my teeth let's go a threesome burger is struggle Charlotte tries a fishy alternative so you want me to try this yeah with cucumber on its own I'm happy just right with the cucumber absolutely just a little bit yeah [Music] are you managing it smells fishy I don't even like walking past the fish may actually not sure [Music] [Music] Oh Hawkins I'm really sorry no sorry good try though your face went through a whole load of changes there what was going on inside I was panicking and I could just it sounds really stupid and I know it's so stupid before I say it we was just getting more and more fishy it's built as dick and he's had a couple of gag reflexes and so much of this to her is about fear and the unfamiliar which is not battling with me into in sense of control but she's trying to work it out for herself that's gonna be a large journey for her it's something she I know that she can see that she needs to do but I think she's quite scared of it to help her on her way Charlotte's given Nikita a hamper of healthy goodies food and some homework tasks try one different vegetable a day preferably green also clear out the tins time for Claire I remove all the tin foods from your cupboards and fridge and throw them in the bin while it's bye-bye to the tins of beans and sausages thank you it's round two for the broccoli no red let's come you get a little bit I know you read well yeah but I didn't want to spit you out - coke you know hey I'm just sounded that she's she's trying things you know it's like before you wouldn't even get you won't even miss tain that didn't taste as bad as last time Brody I'm pleased the idea I've got some broccoli today because I think that was one of the veggies that I tried was shell and I was like oh no it smells disgusting tastes disgusting oh and I dunno it's something that my buddy needs so I'm gonna stick with her I'm not just kidding I'm not just gonna give up I'm gonna keep trying with it with the promise of a new start Nikita and her mum head out shopping for a new look it just so every lump and bump on mister or nothing yourself but you won't wear them think it's cute but it stick out and light with my hips and stuff but twenty years of burgers and chips means that her wardrobe choices are a bit limited see I like these but this probably won't look very nice on me because it's clingy you never know darling they've got to change your moon let me I'm Beluga Damania don't see ya them push comes out upset it she like some look they don't suit she looks horrible I know I don't like it no no it's not you obviously the claws I like don't suit me being the size I am if so I feel a bit meaning to be honest a bit my two chunky yes you've eaten so when it's time for lunch Nikita's keen to show her mom that she means business can I have I'm gonna try a hot chicken salad please well I'm sure I'm I'm flabbergasted yeah I'm not got it Dania this very soon but could this be too much too soon yeah that's mine thank you yeah it's a lot for me I did struggle with the chicken when I was with Charlotte boss it's one of the things that I do want to eat this is we're training in frontier though I know you've got a rush to come in it no right not nice out there it's not that it's not nice it's just like it's just a different test for them haratz all right but after 20 minutes mum can't help but comment on the lack of progress you didn't play Macbeth you really enjoying it it's not about enjoying it just yet though I think y'all were expecting too much Emma straight away also we're expecting the other couple more thoughtful it's like you think I've not done anything wrong that's how it feels though don't get old fair I don't know I just think there'd be just you weren't the right person to come for lunch with why not sure I had this you like go mean dumb no I mean it's only been what a couple of days in sweat I thought that was like a really big step you know at least I'm managing to keep some of it down I don't know I just didn't feel it was a very comfortable situation at the end [Music] it's Friday Felix's ask Nikita to join him at the Harlow dog tracks following their last emotional session Felix wants to find out more about Nikita's confidence crisis what we're working on today is building up your confidence because she told me before it's your confidence that's holding you back from having interesting experiences when you see somebody you don't know you'd ever met before how confident you feel about just saying some of them striking up a conversation if I have nothing that I need to say to a member I won't just strike up random conversation for no reason the purpose of today is to really do something that's slightly out of your comfort zone which is just approaching somebody you don't know you'd ever met before and actually striking out conversation okay okay okay so let's put this to the test wanting to strike up a minute or sustained conversation with someone of my choice that starts off easy that chat eating the crisps by the wall interrupting you spoon yeah okay okay off you guys excuse me can I ask you a question I've never been betting before and I just I don't have no idea what you're doing can you any chance you can tell me what to do the first time is the hardest time so I'm hoping when she breaks through the first time she gets on a roll until building up momentum where she just has a break food good that's a very good start so let's have a look at someone else two blokes talking each other excuse me before long the shy untrusting the kita seems to have disappeared and so is her father you are you're in the next time where a it's just a tea room I'm forgetting Felix entirely she soon becomes best buddies with half of the people in the bar and just noisiness he comes there just to learn how to do it oh you've gone about doing the drugs because I've never been before and I have no idea what you do are how you as expecting the key to be very apprehensive and face of you really scared yes this is actually scary stuff for a lot of people and she actually was really confident doing it thank you for your time all right thank you well all credit to you that you you did this challenge yeah but again I'm really impressed by how confident you did it other people might do it but really be look I'm really sorry and be a bit nervous and bit sweaty but I really believe you're a lot more confident and courageous and open-minded than you currently think you are that's your perception I've gone into it expecting to do things that are uncomfortable to me and unusual and I've found it yeah I'm gonna just do it so I'd like to do is take that same learning that you made to Denny apply to food I think coming to the dog track it did actually make sense I can kind of see why you're doing it but probably shocked at myself Oh easy I found it I think from today I will apply the techniques that are used today to my food and just go at it upper mindedly and just give it a good go because maybe everything is not as bad as white four seems [Music] while Nikita's got over the first hurdle of getting new foods in her mouth she's still struggling to find meals she can actually eat Charlotte has suggested a new breakfast option natural yoghurt I use it to stop me some burn on holiday and that's as far as I go we natural yoghurt it smells like stuff I've tasted before it smells like I don't know the smells familiar don't spit it out says progress not nice I think that's enough not sure y'all get better there it is all the baby steps I'm taking but to me its massive just worried that maybe what I'm doing is not enough I'm just not sure how far or how realistic the end goal is for me just yet [Music] worried about Nikita's health Charlotte has Center for blood tests today she travels to London for the results because of a really bad I bet so within a and Dynegy levels are always low in ocean she's always like tired all the time she's she's always ill she's always help always always yeah I do worry about futures because there's only so much sure but it could can take and then you don't know you know I am nervous even if this says something bad I need to take it in a positive way really rather than any get me down dr. Pixy McKenna is a GP with a special interest in eating problems she's analyzed Nikita's blood results to find out exactly what damaged her junk food diet has caused so Nikita this is dr. pixie very nice to meet you nice to meet you are you bit nervous yeah I've been plowing through all of your blood results the first thing really is that you're a very very high level of a thing called uric acid in your blood sounding like it's a problem it is a problem okay uric acid crystallizes and it can cause something called gout gout is a disease caused by uric acid in the body this creates crystals that build up around the joints it's characterized by severe stiffness swelling and burning pain since gouge is caused by protein rich foods like bacon and burgers Nikita gets a glimpse into the future now that's what we call a cute cows it doesn't look nice so painful that people go to casualty because they think they've broken a bone I have seen grown men cry with goat look at these yeah I do get things when it's like I can be carrying something and my hands will swell and they'll go all blotchy and I do get that quite a lot in their pain it's painful so it may well be that you've had mini attacks of gout already Frankie that's that's a worry actually and it's not just couch that Nikita has to worry about have you heard of kidney stones they start off like this and you end up try to pee golf balls okay can you imagine that is how painful it is you drink her know looking at your liver function test grossly abnormal your diet is pretty junk ridden with none of the components that your liver needs to toxify you're not looking very happy think of well in a bar although this is doom and gloom it is what I need to hear yeah but you know you are 29 there's there's time and there's a lot we can do so I want you to take this has been a positive thing in that way but see this is a severe warning as well that kind of expects it's something to be wrong but just not as much as what can i I think next time I am I'm faced with a plate of vegetables whatever I think I no need to think to myself I need to eat these otherwise I'm gonna get I'm gonna get poorly just nutcase if I know I don't like it push it away it's not like my body my body needs it now it's like it's crying out for it so yeah I need to try and use it in a positive way [Music] felix is emboldened to find out more about Nikita's assault although the girls responsible were caught he thinks that Nikita's still deeply affected well today I'm going to visit Ann Marie which is Nikita's mother because Nikki's was very fearful and a young child when this happened her there lied to get some more information to fill in those missing pieces of the impact that that our soul had on the family I hear you've got photos and we've got everything about everything yeah from her being a baby Alice yeah got loads of trophies these are just thought of when she was a dancer happy smiling from girl and so how old was she here yes she was about 21 about 21 Oh King and I yeah she was the naughty little girl in that she was relieved again in Starlight Express my daughter was how they theater she's pretty good you be good should I say and then it all changed when she would beat you no that was the last one she kind of went in a show do you feel you've both dealt with that at the time different in your own ways yeah yeah have you I thought I've been Lathon Nikki you know she showed us he needed you a lot after the attack yeah that wanted didn't even my brief for that mean I mean it's hard as a parent I'm a parent too and there's nothing more instinctive than being there and won't be the for a child and suddenly if it doesn't need us as much we feel like oh my job had a bit of a meaning I just wanted her to be like she used to be do you feel you've accepted than you Nikita no in my mind in the aftermath of that assault Nikita suffered it seems to be schism between the old Nikita and the you Nikita the whole Nikita was seen as everything positive beautiful dancing singing and the new Nikita is seen as ventus's of that so she's depressed she's unattractive she's Moody and it's not gonna help the key to overcome her food fears so I really want to do something sort of put that old perspective to rest having ditched the bacon butties and struggling with yogurt Nikita's still finding it hard to eat a healthy breakfast I'm gonna have porridge and I'm gonna put a banana in really do you want parries with me yeah awesome power you make a chair just sharing a healthy breakfast yeah on it [Music] you really impressed with my poverty hmm knees and better yeah really I feel like you're eating a phenomenal breakfast you know bitter banana never been afraid good yeah finish this is that what she keeps like no do really well she surprised me she's just you know Matthews really pleased wheeler proud of me and I think that's all I can really ask for I'm quite happy with the way I'm going at the moment despite her breakfast success Nikita's still struggling to finish an entire meal especially one with veg in it so Charlotte has someone Nikita to London where she hurts a little Spanish influence will take her to the next level part of the reason for choosing tap Pass is that you you get to choose lots of little small portions there's quite a nice way for you to take control of taste tasting and testing things I'm gonna let you lead bust that one that is charge which is a green leafy vegetable cooked with hazelnuts and raisins kind of like cabbage leaf written a lot like that oh that was belying then is this not nice for me let's move us okay well there's no key with black olives tried to come into it like more open-minded boys just stuff I've been trying at home I've noticed about the reaction yeah yeah as I have to this to me it just feels a bit like a step back okay so it's like he just catches up with you know little Sudan is like it's just it no I won't try to do yeah this is that the hardest point really there's so much about this is that it's new and unfamiliar and you really really must not give yourself a hard time about it and I don't want you to see this as a struggle so we'll finish here you've done really really well to sit here and try new things I've been positive all the way up to this pine and now I feel bit like I let myself down it's just hard for me really saw I think I'm gonna go to bed trying to score you break it too much and when I get up in the morning just try again with our confidence at rock bottom felix is called nikita to birmingham it's time to protect food fears at center stage I think Nikita's problem is twofold the first part is her lack of confidence and the second one is I'd really like it to get over that assault that she suffered when she's 15 to connect back to her old self here we are closer in Birmingham what would go lined up is your gonna have a makeover one of the things I know about you is you're very talented performer slub dance used to love singing after your wonderful makeover I would like you to sing here in front of all these people how are you with that right now your body's telling you this is scary after you pull this off and I have faith in you how do you think that might affect other areas of your life if I can overcome my nerves and feel confident after it then that's a good way to approach food what's the tomato on a play compared to what you're going to do today I can definitely see the points where like building the confidence and stuff just when you bring me and tell me what I'm doing I can't believe how nervous I actually am considering I did used to do it you won't think my nerves would be as bad as they are but but the minute and shots pieces and just gonna get it over with and while she gets ready Felix lays on another surprise Nikita's entire family have made the four hour round trip to be in the front row yo Matt I'm face nice to meet you hi there if we're all ready we can go through [Music] our Nikita how you feeling well that's expected even when you perform you before you nervous when you but I look at support for you here today your family are going to be here as well to support you the family are their reason for you and I will take deep breath and really show people you can do [Applause] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] I see you [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] but when it comes to the crunch just as it is when she's faced with food Nikita's nerves take over knowing we shall shine for such a rainbow just moves but after a quick pep talk and help from the crowd she decides to stay and face the music [Music] [Applause] [Music] today accept it [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] wasn't that bad [Music] [Applause] [Music] at the CEO dig deep said come on you can do this and she just shook herself out of it dug deep and she did it brilliant process doesn't sum for eight years she felt this attack Roger of confidence and today she really just reclaimed that and if she can do that for singing she can really do for something like some vegetables but I think well I've been me like the past six minutes we've just been a journey of anxious nervous lives and then exhale whenever I rolled into one I think I just need to take the confidence I've got coming off and tear that aware of me and try and put that same approach to the food [Music] [Applause] it's week three and with the final challenge fast approaching Charlotte decides to tackle the vegetable issue head on and with mum now behind her this time it'll be a family affair today I really want to get her mum involved so that together they can learn to get a bit more love with vegetables and a bit of fun in terms of learning some preparation skills together okay this is Andrew the top vegetarian chef so he really knows his way around a vegetable would you say and specifically how to make them taste excellent okay ladies I'm going to prepare some vegetables Nikita yeah we use a vegetable peeler for [Laughter] there's not a trace of bacon or burgers in sight today vegetables take center stage [Music] okay not scary as it looks just turn that off a little bit and then tick them off over there Charlotte hopes that a vegetarian masterclass will make all this veg seem a little less scary double primo we pour some in there i watch the cooking burgers on telly I just think here that looks really good or might try that for Matthew boy well I never get around to it for hunters I just watch it just smell lovely yeah very pretty I am quite excited you know as that King is in there yeah I would normally cut it off and in Finland mate with it so you see what I could see insanity I know it's just mushroom and we like the wine and stuff so I am a bit nervous I'm not gonna lie but um I'm still I'm still gonna try and give it a good go ready she may know what's in it but will she be able to hold down a mouthful [Music] very good yes isn't it trying to be of every round the play I'm a good cook I really pleased with her that way and I really enjoyed it it was quite nice to actually make something to see it through to the end and then actually test it from now on I think me and Nikki will go in the kitchen and get to know each other better in the kitchen and learn together instead of going clothes shopping making a food shopping and no I think we're still good clothes shopping thank you from back in Bolton Nikita's new dice is having a big impact she and Matt are even considering a new addition to their household their first ever dining table to farm I'll sit on it we don't live in a cage that looks like it should be in a cocktail bar yes don't know if it's gonna be bit too big cause I'm not too keen on this little Mike color it's pretty funky it's a bit low for a terrible bit well yeah you know low can you go we bought a dining table that we're gonna you know you like now more people don't hopefully they'll encourage you more to eat better as well and their first meal sitting at the table together is a healthy jacket spurt and cottage cheese my toast looks disgusting it's not too bad on CTools will see in a week's time Nikita will sit down to a full meal with her family but so far she's only managed to nibble a bit of veg I'm not sure I'm gonna be able to finish all of it what's that face for see but it's not long before Nikita's gagging wounds the mood is very dangerous you've had higher things your but I've only tested oh this I've got to try and finish the whole play you'd be writing you try to finish it's not hard see your name was cheese on there I was still here I'm not the biggest fun with cottage cheese and the potato but I was eating it to show her that there was no affair you know if she doesn't like go go into it like oh hi let's you're gonna stumble you know that's what I think because I'm struggling with it I think you've probably thought oh why do I even bother just make her feel guilty that I can't eat it and I like he's disappointed in me it's the final week as Nikita is still struggling Felix heads to Bolton he's convinced the past is still holding her back and affecting her confidence with food there still feel there's a lot of painful memories with what happened in the past not just for Nikita but also for her mother so main today is to bring mother and daughter together so they can finally put these painful memories into the past where they belong and get some sort of closure on what happened that is thought that happened those two girls have done enough damage in both your lives that I don't want anymore energy attached that Kizer when we first talked in a therapy session I picked up that you still had a lot of emotion distressed about the tag and andro we talked a little bit about and obviously it's a distressing event we don't talk about it do they Allah I think for me I tend to I tend to shut it away and not really deal with the emotions and to be honest the first time when I did speak to Felix that was the only term that I've ever really cried as hard as I did what is it you both need from the other that will help you to make peace with what happens I don't think I really need anything from you to meet Peter let's be honest there just need you to just not worry about it and not dwell on it because you you're the first one to say but you're living a life sentence and you don't understand them much it's changed yeah I support that all I'm doing is trying without cotton-wool Rome Nikita yeah even though she's grown yeah now you know I this is the most basic instinct of any parent isn't it to wrap cotton will I do it as well the only thing is there's a time to wrap cotton wool and then the Conwell becomes a straitjacket I think just the one thing that you just kind to get your Adrian is one thing you said to me is I just want my old Nikita back I think one thing that you just need to think I'm 29 now I'm not gonna be about 15 year old girl unfortunately I'm still the same person inside just I've just grown up if everyone can accept things as they are even as papers though that's actually health that's actually healthy it's it's progress and people can move on [Music] Nikita said a lot of really useful important things to Mum perhaps she's never said before very liberating in some ways to clear the air by airing their grievances this is actually going to help Nikita with her eating because everybody can accept her as she is now without this whole tension and conflict from the past interfering as it has been doing time for one last painful trip down memory lane Nikita takes her mum to the spot where she was attacked 14 years ago to finally lay the pass to rest that solid it's only up well at the box of Mia you never actually saw where it happened did you I'm not sure you really want to know it's where they found me at the corner yeah I managed to stumble to the end of the street well I'm still here this is only a bit of waste and in it what to be only stunned in here I can't say yeah I don't really know I don't feel like really upset it was some like sad little Tino just really I were just in the wrong place and I think that's the only way I can look at it from now on [Music] just about moving on in so in that respect yeah it was out for I suppose I had never got it off my chest because of all the protected scared of hurting my feelings all the time yet with the food and I suppose we give in to what she wanted just to keep her I fell through I didn't so yeah it has been God we put it behind us it's out four weeks ago Nikita set herself a challenge of finishing a meal with her boyfriend Matt today she'll find out if she's done enough to conquer her fear of food I can't leave it's the final death be honest because when I started the journey it seemed like it was ages where and now I'm actually on the final they're a little bit nervous I'm trying not to dwell on it too much because that's when I get myself into stare like I'm all the world by all and then I feel like I can't do it all right the fears gone from me trying stuff and I think I'll be alright trying whatever I am today but it's just - the finishing it is it it is a different matter all right yeah sure yeah I think so just uh believe me I'll just enjoy it yeah it doesn't matter what anybody else thinks you know like what it's good lot to looking at you just block them out you know you can do it [Applause] [Music] along with the cutest family Shawna's and Felix are also along for support one of the real major practice here is that she hasn't actually finished a meal yet that's right so she's always with heart health that actually going through is it actually missing actually finishing well she said that girl this would be a perfect opportunity of her to prove it to herself absolutely but with no burgers on the menu thank you will she find anything she can stomach banana and I'm serious the way yourself it's not really anything that I won't try if it looks a bit too big of a stretch for me that's on here I don't want fish I may be able to struggle with it Dona so I think turkeys probably the easiest after list are you ready Tyler yeah yeah can I have there are turkey yeah while Matt and the family choose their food Nikita has just enough time for a quick pep talk how are you feeling I'm a bit nervous about the meal to be honest I think probably what I've ordered I may not tried some of the things I think that's the scary part a short time ago you were told you're gonna sing in front of hundreds of people you gonna tell me that that is a bigger yeah and you sell through telephone codes you impressed everyone you just need to go in there be kind to yourself I'm going and enjoy coz there you're much more likely to succeed if you enjoy it in your relaxed component yeah Nikita's chosen roast turkey and stuffing in a red wine sauce I think she'll call her there I'm not essentially at all I think McKee is a little nervous but I think she's determined to do it I was love to see her eat a full meal oh you know what happens in art I hope it does right or thank you the moment of truth has finally arrived it's a lot of stuffing Alice Alice carrots [Music] yes all right you just training your brain unused to see what you like no it's really good to see that she's a giant something that's not I won't say enjoy you know don't push it survive it I think you're enjoying it yeah think that you just don't sure you know you just want your nut screen on the stuff em okay everything else I've been kind of clogged with it's just taking me a while Nikita's determined to finish her meal 20 minutes later everyone else has cleared their plate and she's still struggling [Music] one you can do it let's go push on yeah what do you feel like say when he was on that stage yeah yeah just stick to the stuff let you enjoy yeah yeah fair enough no they don't love sweet up although she hasn't eaten everything Nikita's family are overjoyed you can't put into words though throat here cuz I'm a mother and I am proud of it and she made such a big step forward they'd be really proud just to watch recently brought well it's wise the end when everybody else was finishing a think a little bit of panic probably set in I didn't watch a separate day that sounds reasonable it's quite astounding to me because she's willing to try things a little bit more I think it's just learning curve in English and she'll do really well afterwards Okazaki pushing it the fear did kind of go away and I think that was the biggest thing for me because when I've tasted stuff nothing's been as bad as what I ever thought it would taste yeah now it's over today it's a healthy future to concerns yeah one man bond and Nikita's life has radically transformed since shallot and Felix's left me to get on with it on my own I think I've done all right I'm still trying to try new things she's eating sweet potatoes seeing peppers now she can't get enough of eating shakey can I please try the char grilled chicken we went for a meal I got exactly the same on my flare that yadah and he was yeah yeah she's eating I'm so proud of you really proud of it I've got more energy I've lost a little bit of weight I feel better about myself I don't feel in self-conscious when I'm going out it's a happier person it's proven to it that you know she can do anything she wants if she puts her mind to it and this more confidently kita even wants to brush up on those singing skills made me realize what I'm missing and it was something that I enjoyed a long time ago and there's no reason why I can't do it now who's going forward and like she said she won't be going back once again we wanted to say oh I've got somebody on the key to back so it's just some of the old Nikita just a bit more grown-up [Applause] [Music] [Applause] you [Applause]

Channel: Freaky Eaters

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Id: Xtw_25ofTK4

Length: 56min 45sec (3405 seconds)

Published: Sat Oct 05 2019