(UNCUT) Anneke Lucas: Sold by my mother into a pedophile network at 6

take two okay my name is annika lucas my name is annika lucas i'm my name is annika lucas i am the founder of an organization called liberation prison yoga we're based in new york i'm originally from belgium where i survived child sex trafficking starting at the age of six i'm still hearing a lot of noise i'm sorry i'm hearing a lot of noise people are talking in the background that that's like i'm picking up that noise i think your right you know sometimes sometimes sometimes when you flip it has a little more um volume i know it's been i just haven't cut it anymore i just got my dog gets the haircuts yeah can't afford both thanks thank you for taking care of this let's see [Laughter] very i mean it's there we can't do much about the some of the sounds because they're working in there as well as long as it's not reason as long as it's not interrupting you then we stop again okay okay but there will be some sound i can't avoid having unfortunately said unless like if i hear anybody talking that's really distracting okay great so we stopped all right okay then okay i'm annika lucas i'm the founder and director of an organization named liberation prison yoga we bring yoga and meditation into the jails and prisons of new york and i'm originally from belgium where i survived child sex trafficking i was six years old when it started and i was rescued at the age of 11. my name is annika lucas i'm the founder of an organization in new york called liberation prison yoga i'm also a survivor of child sex trafficking i was in a video by real women real stories not long ago that traveled all around the world where i shared my story for the first time publicly i shared about being sold into sex trafficking at the age of six i shared about rape and torture that i experienced in a pedophile network that was composed largely of vips since the video has come out i have read thousands well i've read hundreds of comments there have been thousands of comments as the video was published and then was picked up by other sites and i wanted to address some of these comments and something that happened since then i was also approached by some people who are able to help me identify some of the perpetrators and there's one perpetrator that like some others i was able to just type in the country of the person that i knew they were from which was not in belgium politician in the year and the person just popped up right right away it was amazing i had no idea that i was dealing with people who were that important i had no idea that these were people on the world on the world stage and that they were actually very visible and i'm quite convinced that if in 1974 when i was released anyone would have guessed the event of the internet i'm pretty sure that i would have never made it out alive i would have never been let go now i can tell you that i went through a process that i've been going through hundreds of times since i've started my healing process over 30 years ago just knowing who that person was and seeing pictures of this person seeing this person on a video just made the memory that i had of the incident so vivid and real and i had to deal once more with the reality of that rape i was 10 years old and it was a month before my 11th birthday i don't know if you know but as a child i remember things based on my birthday because my birthday was important so it was in march of 1974 and one of the places where i was abused it was not an orgy where i was sometimes taken and brought in late and then i was just mingling with the people that were there no this was a place a mansion where i was taken sometimes and i would just be have to go straight to a small room and in that room there was a dirty mattress and then i would just be there and wait for the men to come and in that room specifically because it was so abrupt i was always convinced that the next man who was going to come in was going to say i'm not going to do this this is a child i was 10 years old and i really didn't look a day older i was very small i was completely undeveloped so i remember this rape particularly well because i'd actually been protected for about six months and so i'd gotten used to not being raped and so i was back in this dirty room and the first man that arrived uh scared me to death he looked like a gorilla and he was very gruff and i thought again you know he's going to say this is a child i'm not going to do this but instead he got angry with me and just told me he didn't tell me he didn't speak um my language he basically motioned for me to take off my clothes and i remember as i was trying to take off my t-shirt i got stuck and so suddenly i was in this space where i somehow thought i was going to be killed and i couldn't see anything and my arms were stuck and my head was covered and he ripped the shirt off and laughed and by that time i had gone into what i call my saint personality that i felt guilty that i had been afraid of this man who was just trying to help me and i tuned in which is something that i did to survive i tuned in to the man and i saw in his face in his lips specifically something silly something that a little silly boy who's been told that he's stupid a lot some boy that was teased and i saw this silly thing this vulnerability in this man and so i honed in on that and as my same personality i loved that boy and i embraced that boy and that is how i made the men happy i gave them something that they that they needed they needed to be loved in a way that they hadn't been and i tuned in to their need and nurtured them then i left my body because then he was raping me i left my body and i went in this particular case i went to a lamp that was there and my consciousness was now on the fabric of the lamp which was woven and beige and the light was shining from within and it was as if i could see it better than if i would put my eye right on that limb as if my consciousness was out of my body and i didn't feel anything i was just with that fiber of the lampshade but then when he was about to have an orgasm i had to come back in my body because this was always the scariest moment because i knew that at any moment those men could decide to kill me and i never knew what who i really had here so i had to be very careful and this man um looked like he was choking and i would see in that moment i would feel the revulsion because he was gone he was not present at all and he was having some kind of a release of something and i was watching it and i was just cold coldly watching this person perpetrator having his release that looked insane like i was observing this man's darkest shadow his darkest moment and i had no respect for that man and afterwards he acted happy he clearly was satisfied and he was trying to speak to me in a foreign language trying to make conversation with me now i had seen children be murdered and i had heard of a girl shot for not acting like everything was okay after being raped and so i took a risk with this man i stared coldly at him and i thought well he must not be very important because i know he's just kind of silly and he's okay with this he's not doing anything he's not going to do anything to me so it was a great surprise to find that he was number two in a world power and i realized that this silliness was so covered over like the emperor's new clothes the naked emperor and everyone adores the fine thread of the beautiful robes that i still saw this silly thing around this person's mouth but he was known as the great intellect not as visible as the number one in that country in that time but very high up so i experienced the process to allow that part that was shut out of my body during that rape to allow that part to integrate again i i felt disbelief shock i asked myself the same question then many people in their comments ask how is it possible why why would this man who has everything on the surface want to engage in these acts emotionally i was in shock and disbelief and then i went and felt all this anger i was so furious that someone who does on the surface have everything would allow himself to do this and i was more aware of myself as just a 10 year old girl because now i could see as an adult woman this man had raped me i was just ten and i know what i looked like from inside my memory i was i had no age but i just saw myself as this little girl and this man not stopping himself and i was furious and i got to this place of i want revenge i want to kill this man he's been dead for more than 10 years but i wanted to just have that feeling of hurting this man as badly as he had hurt me and i went through that stage and i guess i reached a point of acceptance grief grief for the girl and feeling the pain of having to go through that and then also an understanding a renewed understanding and expansion of consciousness and increased love for all beings because the emotional process going into trauma going into our own pain increases our emotional intelligence but it also is actually our consciousness that is what brings us to our own consciousness so it's interesting that when we are operating in the world people who know how to manipulate the world can be people who have no insight into their own emotional life at all and can just manipulate the world really well and just stay there and never enter into their trauma at all and just use their brain to manipulate the world and and get power and ward off their feelings of pain and then once you start going into the process things can become very difficult it can be very difficult to navigate the world i was just very privileged that i for a long time didn't have to physically survive and that i could focus on healing because i would not have done well had i had to also find a job i needed to to explore these very dark corners of consciousness it takes a lot out of you but because i had that privilege i was able over the course of three decades and with the help of many modalities not just therapy but also yoga and meditation and writing and i was able to to once again be able to navigate myself in the world and you know a certain place of healing has to be reached but this time i'm navigating the world and i'm coming from this place where i've been through this journey of trauma and i understand things about trauma and i originally went to serve others who've been traumatized that's how i ended up going to the prisons because people in jail and prison are vilified from morning to night and when i was a little girl i was vilified from morning to night i was considered evil just like prisoners are so i went back into the prisons and i find people like myself there people with traumas that are equal in severity and i'm able to offer something i'm able to share from my healing and this heart to heart connection that i can make with people who are deeply traumatized and are being even traumatized in the moment is the most beautiful thing in the world but i also develop programs based on my healing that others could bring into the prisons and jails so and i train other people to go into the prisons and the jails and i train people about trauma working with traumatized populations and of course i now also lead my own organization and so i raise funds and i'm dealing with people all day long i'm navigating the world but in a way that comes from a place of empathy and compassion and my personal challenge is to find understanding for those perpetrators the worst evil doers in the world you know they think of evil there's hurting children which is horrific then there's raping children then there's killing children and then it is that it is committed by people who have a social responsibility who have a responsibility to the masses who all of us have invested in have given our power to them through a vote and who are responsible for our well-being i know that it's easy to to say well politicians are all corrupt but then it's a little bit harder to think that a politician who's corrupt also rapes and kills children i think that's where we have to draw the line we say now that i can't believe because if they're doing that i think everyone has to go through the process that i just described because it's personal it's per it's a personal betrayal for everyone if that's what our world leaders are doing well it's really no wonder that the world looks like what it looks like today it's no wonder that there is so much hunger and poverty and poverty in the world and that the resources of the world are being hoarded by a few it's no wonder but that this is an addiction that this is an addiction that any junkie that you find on the street that has to shoot up and will do anything to get that next high that these people are no better these people have an amazing brain and intellect and it makes them all the more dangerous to the world that is an addiction to power it's an addiction that i know everything about because i was really badly abused i know what it's like to feel silly and to be laughed at so i can relate i can relate to the need to cover over this lack of self-esteem with something from the outside some status something that i can that gives me importance from the outside sometimes that something that gives me that that robe that invisible robe of power that everyone is just going to look up to me i i wish you know sometimes i wish it seems like the easy way out on a personal level though i had to reach a place in my healing where i understand that i would never want that i never chose for it and that's why i went into the healing which is away from power towards truth and unfortunately we're always going in one direction or the other direction there's kind of no place in between we're either doing the right thing or we're doing something that goes against the good of ourself and the good of others but someone who's that far gone in their addiction has no sense of morality left it's all gone and we people with a sense of morality want to believe that those people are like us but they're not they are not brainwise those are people who are like lizards with the actual what is called the the brain is called that that that the reptilian brain they're lizards with like a big cortex over it and the emotional brain is completely non-functioning this has been shown in mris and fmris that we're done with psychopaths that's what we have that's the world leaders that's what we are dealing with every day and every one of us is somehow a little bit a victim of that and it's the degree to which a person is in touch with their own trauma and their own pain that will dictate from which place a person is going to respond to this dark truth so when my video started to travel the world i thought well the time has come because a lot of people responded from the highest place from empathy from understanding the need for this darkness to be revealed to change for the world to change and for every for anything to change at all in the world so there was a lot of very deep understanding um there were a lot of people who were very empathic who clearly have had that journey have been through that journey have dealt with trauma are able to feel things and are empathic and are able to know that this is real even though they may have had to go through the same kind of process just watching my video and being confronted with this dark truth and then a lot of people wanted me to name names and that's you know it's like it's easy to say but um anyone who really knows the world of power would not advise me to name names because i don't want to compromise myself in any way i don't want to be open myself up to litigation from the families and i should say that all my perpetrators are dead and that my naming names today wouldn't make any difference it wouldn't save a single child it's a noble idea to name names to save children but my safety has to come first because i have to do my work i cannot compromise my safety that would not be wise but wanting to name names wanting me to name names from people that you know i saw in belgium in 1972 um there is that natural feeling of revenge that i was talking about revenge the desire for revenge when confronted with this darkness and this horror of course we want revenge of course we want to do something we want to take some action before really accepting that this is the truth this is the status quo right now it is part of the process and it reflects where a person is in their process to want revenge to be in this place of anger it's a good place to be it's very important to feel our anger you know if you don't if you all the anger is repressed that's where all the problems start so it's a good thing to honor the anger it's a good thing to know that we are angry i teach that in prison very much because prisoners are told all day long that they are evil for being angry and that's what i was told too but in a situation of abuse anger is the first natural response to injustice so and it unfortunately reflects to the perpetrator that they are doing something wrong and so it is squelched with fear and so that person is who is being abused is not going to be allowed to express anger and so anger is a very necessary feeling that is a very valid part of the healing process and then yet still other people were in this place of disbelief and shock nope can't believe it this isn't real or oh my god this is so unbelievable the first entry into the process the emotional process that each one of us needs to pass through in order to really accept that these things are happening and in order to be able to be in reality so that we can make a change so that we can be empowered ourselves and not give our power away to people who are just going to steal it and then rape children among other things so the last group of people in the comments and the responses was the group a relatively small group those that attacked me oh she's great that was usually it's not direct to me no it's not direct a lot of empathic comments were directed direct to me whereas a lot of the attacks were directed in the to the third person she is lying um someone said i'm crazy so you know you can say that sure you know it's whatever you can handle it you can't handle any of this truth then i'm going to be crazy although you're not going to get very far calling me crazy because i'm a person in the world and it's just not very believable makes you look crazy but this stage before entering any kind of process any kind of emotional process those are the people who attack go on the attack be the bully just tell that person that just turn it around you know say that i'm the perpetrator just say that i'm bad i'm evil i am evil for spreading the news that's the people who are not able to have any kind of their own or not able to access their own emotional reality their own pain and it's those people who are the most likely to be in that category of abusers and power addicts and a lot of people in that category are just very afraid and want to belong to the power so we need to look at our internal power dynamics if i look up to someone i look up at them because i see in them a power figure from my childhood someone who i thought was good and if i look down at someone and i judge someone and i just like think they're not even quite human i'm actually looking at the child that i would was and that was being abused was me to feel that way and that i don't want to be reminded i don't want to be reminded of being made to feel that way i want to continue to make my abusers good and i want to continue to make the unloved child just make them disappear so there's a lot of work to be done we're just at the very beginning of this change it's the very beginning where people are really understanding that this darkness it's it's really here you know there's so much hypocrisy there's so many so many lies and what lies behind that hypocrisy and those lies that's what we're just starting to look at that's the people we've given our power to but it's exactly this process of feeling pain and having the courage to go into the most painful moments of our lives and to feel again how vulnerable we were and to feel again the fear that we're going to be abused in that moment that that is going to be used against us and then find compassion love understanding if i had not been healed before i would have spoken out about these truths um let's say that i was in a place for example where i needed love because obviously i wasn't very loved as a child and i still needed love and i was hoping secretly hoping that by sharing my story the public the strangers were going to come and love me and they were going to confirm everything for me and i was going to receive that love that i'd never felt if i had done that well it would have backfired but also that's exactly what power addicts do to receive love in this way that it's not real you know people just respond from wherever they are at and i need i knew that if i was going to be attached to the outcome then i was also going to be very hurt by those people who were going to attack me and i wasn't going to be ready emotionally to deal with it so it's why i waited so long to speak just take a break i think that's all i have to say but i'm going to use the bathroom you

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Length: 36min 13sec (2173 seconds)

Published: Thu Nov 26 2020