I'm not teaching good side of life. So I had to figure out a
way when I came on in 2016 of teaching you what life really is for the majority of us is hell. And so, while people love to
show you the cars and the house and the vacations and shit, all that's good, all that's happy. I'm going to show you the side that I know most you're going through. And people hide very well. I don't want to hide anymore. I hid it for 24 fucking years. So that's why now I told
you we can talk about whatever you want, because as human beings, the
first thing we have to learn, I also stuttered real bad growing up. So if you hear me stutter
every now and then, it's because that was
part of my life also. So it's funny, human beings
want to show you the best side and they want to hide the worst side. For me, I'm going to teach
you how to be vulnerable, because that's the only
way you fix yourself. You don't fix yourself by coming out here and me selling you some fucking books. That's why I don't have 'em, I forgot 'em. I'm glad people got
something from the book. I want you to learn that
the only way you grow is how to look at yourself and say, "Okay," like I
did, table longer than this and what the fuck I have
to do to get somewhere? There was nothing good on there, nothing. Yeah, I love playing
basketball, I left that out. That's something I love to do. I don't care about that. That didn't make the fucking list, 'cause the list that I had to live by was the very list that was to
get me at this table with you, to talk to you, to the
normal human beings was I once was about how you can get somewhere and how it looks, looks very ugly. There's no fucking passion,
there's no fucking motivation. There's no, "Oh my God, man, I fucking..." No, every day of your life just doing. No passion, no discipline, no motivation. All these words, I hate people, I hate... That's so many people
fucking use these words now, 'cause it's watered. It's someone's sitting
in a room by themselves and they figure themselves out and say, "God, this is
going to fucking suck." Where's passion when you're 300 pounds? Where's the motivation when
you can't read and write? Where is it? So how did this happen? I just fucking did, I just did. I said maybe at the end of this journey, there'll be something there for me. If not, I can read. If not, I'm 185 fucking pounds. There's no magic potion. There's no, oh, let me wake
up and look at some shit. No, all those words are overused. They're bullshit. It's bullshit. Just do, you're living,
how do you want to live? How do you want to die? How do you want to fucking be remembered? That's it, that's it, period. The word haunted is ringing in my head. I think it's such a powerful word, because I was about to say, it seems like a huge part of your process, maybe the entire process is
it's all stick, no carrot. You talk about the carrot,
the positive thing, and then there's the stick, the thing you're trying to avoid. I feel like it's, the way
it's landing for me is it's all stick and gas pedal. That's it. There's no carrot. You're not imagining,
"Oh, when I'm a paramedic, when the book is published," and obviously you set those goals and you make those targets. But it's all stick. All stick.
No carrot. Think about that. I'm waking up right now
studying, I have a test tomorrow. I already passed the fucking test. Think about that. Every day in my life,
that's what I must do just to retain what I learned. Four hours plus a day, I
go through and do that. There's no stick or there's only a stick. There's never been a carrot. Which is why when I speak to people, I have to figure out a
way to resonate with them, 'cause all I want to say to them is, let me teach you the real
life, how it really is, the reason why you're a loser and the reason why you're
not fucking making it and the reason why you're trying
to go through all these... I go to all these fucking conventions, speak all the fucking time. I look in the fucking audience and these people sign up, sign up, sign up fucking every year to go to convention, thinking they're going to learn
something fucking different. No, you're lazy, you
know exactly what to do, exactly what to do, 'cause even me in my state
of, I can't read and write, I knew exactly what to do. It just sucks doing it, it sucks to do it. It sucks to wake up every
morning of your life and say, "God, man, I'm not smart." So guess what I got to do? I got to study the same shit that I got one of the highest
scores in the nation on and do it again, do it again, do it again. It's not just there, it's not
just there permanently for me. So yeah, it's all stick, it's all stick. The only carrot you have is maybe, maybe, 'cause whenever I take these
tests that are real hard in the back of my brain, it's like, "A good chance you're
not going to make it Goggins. This ain't you, bro, this ain't you. You weren't born like
this, this ain't you. The real you bro, study all you want to, but the second that
fucking computer comes on with 150 questions, this ain't you, man." And somehow it comes back, I passed. I passed again, passed again. But that ruled me back here every time. It's saying, "That ain't
you bro, that ain't you." And I have to outwork that voice. When I'm taking that test and I get to a question, I
don't know the fucking answer. I'm like, "Fuck man." And then say, "I told you man, that ain't you, you 300 pounds, man. You sit at home, and you
figure out how to do your hair, that's what you do, how to come to school
with the reverse baldness when you're 16, that's you." So there is no get out of jail free card. This is why I say stay hard, because when you weren't given the gifts, the only thing you can
do in life is stay hard. And I know people cannot stand me. They can't stand this talk. This is all you can do. There's no magic pill or a magic potion. All you can do is outwork
the man that God created or woman in you. And what that looks like is unfun. That's why I said do not
do a documentary on me, because people will not see the truth. They will see what they want to see is I don't want to live like that. Good, good. And you will live exactly
the way you live now, questioning who you are,
wondering what is possible, wondering what you are capable of doing. That's how that looks. Or you can be me, which am I happy? I don't know. Never thought about it. Don't really care about it, 'cause all I really cared about was when I looked in that fucking mirror, I saw a piece of shit. Happiness wasn't on the mirror
at 16, around 300 pounds. It wasn't like, "Oh my,
I'm looking for happiness." No, I'm looking at myself in the mirror and say, "All right motherfucker,
you did again today. You're a bad boy, 'cause that sucks." I have about a couple minutes
of that, I got the carrot. Second, lay down and go
to bed, the carrot's gone, because I'm waking up
all through the night to check the work I did that day. Did I get this drug right? Did I get this right? Did I get that right? What did I do? Oh my God, fuck, I'm really losing it. Stick. [MUSIC PLAYING]
