The Scary Side of Obesity (Charlie Gold's Story)

what's up you guys welcome back to the channel thank you so much for clicking on today's video so today we have the second installment of heavy talk yes we finally have a name for this series so I appreciate you guys leaving the comments down in the last video today we are interviewing Charlie Gould who is by far the most requested person to be on the series it's a really good conversation I think there are so many good things for you guys to learn from this I want to make sure if you guys want to check out Charlie I will link all over her stuff down in the description or Instagram or YouTube I really really think you guys can get a lot out of out of her content and I really think that you guys will get a lot out of this interview so without further ado roll the intro [Music] Charlie thank you so much for being on the show heavy talk we finally have a name and we have an intro so it's all official now so you were by far the most requested person to be on on the channel for an interview I think the reason being is because you you're really talking a lot about the the realities of you know more of the obesity the realities of like what that's like and I think that it's coming at such a perfect time because as you know like with my channel every day I'm day fitness Michelle soul enormous you now we're talking a lot about the health at every size movement which is gaining a lot of traction and I mean I think there's good parts of that there's bad parts of that but I think the the thing that has not been talked about enough is that the actual realities right of of morbid obesity so that that video that you released the dark side of obesity it really just like it made me I made that reaction video to it because I think that that's something that a lot of people are missing you know so I'm really excited to get this conversation started so again so I wanted to kind of talk about how how you got up to your your heaviest weight cuz at your heaviest you were you were over 400 pounds correct yes I was 402 to be exact 402 and you're how tall are you 5 4 5 4 Wow yeah that's that's no joke so I'm just curious what was how did you get to that point right were you someone that was overweight your whole life had you been you know like how did you get to 400 pounds well I've been slightly overweight most of my life but nothing that I would say is alarming I'd say for most of it I was probably 20 pounds 242 pounds overweight but my weight always sat well on me I guess that's the best way to put it until it got to the point where I was really getting in a dangerous place with binging and that's truly how I got to the 400 was with binging not dealing with my past well emotionally and then I turned to food I used to be on the opposite end actually where I wasn't eating and when that wasn't working that control wasn't working I just went to the complete opposite side and gained I gained the 200 pounds in about a year and a half Wow yeah to 200 pounds in a year and a half well that's that's crazy because Mike that was on the last one he gained 270 in six months and like for me when I hear that it's so crazy because I was I was the kid that was overweight in my whole life right like I just kind of slowly gained weight over time so for me mentally if someone asked like what was it like for me it was every year it was just normal for me to buy a bigger shirt size buy a bigger you know it was just became very normal for me so what was going through your head when you when you started to realize you know you you gained that that amount of weight in such a short amount of time when it first started to happen I was so also stuck on my job because my career at the job at the time was the most I've ever made so I was more so worried about continuing to make the money that I was making so when I noticed I was starting to gain weight I completely ignored it what I did is I just bought better sneakers bought better shoes bought more clothes that stretch to buy me more time that's what I kept doing until I got to the point one day where my body just shut down I didn't need more clothes at the time I didn't need you know better sneakers anymore I now needed to really save my life because now I couldn't walk I couldn't stand so what when you say that you your body was like shutting on you I'm just really curious like what what did that look like when you say your body was shutting down you what exactly was kind of like going on it started my legs first my legs ankles and feet by the end of the day it would like swell really really bad and I'd be in pain by the end of my workday I didn't have like the energy or really the mobility to do things around the house that's how much pain I was in I would go home crawl in bed or crawl on a couch and order food every single meal during that time frame was bought Starbucks in the morning knew my order my lunch normally came from the same Chinese food place they knew my order and dinner was where I guess I went to different places but that's also something I want people to know if places start to know your order just by your phone number there's a problem man that's what happens with me personally and I'd be in so much pain from my knees my ankles my feet and that that's where it started my back had started later on but it really started with my legs which is why I started to buy you know better shoes more expensive shoes I remember the most expensive I bought was like $200 because I'm like this better work you know this combined me more time but if I really wanted more time I should have took the time out to really address my health and then my body was just like you know what you're not listening and it just showed up I remember when I worked at the van shoe store I was was my first job right and that was when I was at my heaviest I remember so I would only work for hour shifts right and when you work at vans you have to wear vans and so they're not like they're not really made for working around like they're not walking shoes right they're skateboard shoes and my feet would be so in so much pain and I would kind of in my head I would rationalize it because the other my other co-workers would kind of complain about how their feet hurt but I would literally have like I would have to take my ten minute break and sit down the whole time and a lot of my other co-workers would just you know if they didn't get the break it was no big deal I mean you're supposed to get your breaks but they weren't like freaking out in my head that's literally all I would think about when I was at work was when is the next I can sit down and it was it just became so normal to me that I felt like that's how everyone must have felt but now like I can I can stand up all day I can go on runs it can walk you know it's not it's not an issue for me anymore but it became that reality for me and it was such a like a it was such a big deal that it literally would consume my mind when I was at work I'm curious so when I was at my heaviest I remember I would get scabs on my feet in like a lot of that's from circulation you know you're not you're not having really great circulation because again I was 360 pounds and I remember I would I would almost rationalize that again as oh I just sweat a lot and you know it's probably just from that did you have anything that you noticed that you would kind of rationalize away and just explained away and then you would act like Oh everything's fine yeah I would get dark circles around my ankle and I technically I still have my dark circle around my neck it's just starting to lighten up over time and those the one from my ankles I think it did have to do with my socks but like I bought big socks it's the best that I can do but under some time and also on my calves like the socks I wore went up to my calves and there were big socks and those were still tight so I wouldn't I knew what it was but I was still at a time and a place where I was lying to myself that's that was the biggest problem I would find different ways to lie to myself over and over and over like oh it's just because it's cold outside because I'm originally from Connecticut and our winters can be brutal so at one point I was blaming the swelling on the cold not the fact that I was eating thousands and thousands of calories every day not because I was really really obese I would make excuses but then sometimes at night I would have conversations with myself where it's like you know what the problem is but at the same time for me it was like can you afford to address the problem right now you can't you have to go after this money you have to keep you know building what you're doing and it ended up costing me almost everything in the end yeah it's scary how your health can really run away from you like that fast and it might not seem like a year and a half that's not that you have enough time to think about stuff like when you are especially like you know like some sort of nine-to-five where it's like very routine you you don't realize like I truly believe habits are the backbone of almost everything we do right so the habits had become so bad like you said you you had those places that knew your order when you'd call in your habits had become so bad that you didn't even realize it anymore right like a lot of people that are that are morbidly obese they don't even think I was in this camp you don't even think about how many calories are in all the soda that you're consuming right because I would drink over a two liter a day and it it wasn't that I wouldn't even think about it was just this is my drink this is what I drink I didn't think oh this is you know 1,500 2,000 calories just in soda every single day right but then what's amazing in this is what is so cool about when you are trying to lose a massive amount of weight you realize you realize how bad those habits were because you change one and you see this huge change and you're like oh my gosh I've I've lost 30 pounds or I feel so much better and all I did was stop drinking soda you know like that that's what I always tell people like if you have 20 pounds lose that's gonna be hard from the start because you're not super super large right but like if you have 200 300 pounds lose I'm telling you you make one change and it could be so simple because let's be real right unless you have some sort of medical condition if you got that big you have some very very bad habits that you've just fallen into and have become very normal for you right you take a step back analyze your life what am i doing that is getting easy to the size pick one thing right pick one thing and make a change there you'll see a huge result and for me it was always sorted right like I always was soda is the thing I no matter how large you are how much like how much knowledge you have of healthy food and unhealthy food everyone's like so it is probably not the best thing to be drinking all the time right so it was always like that was the thing for me it was like okay I should stop drinking soda and that's what I did this time and it was like that was one of the starting things that I did so it's it is really cool when you do have a massive amount of weight to lose like obviously it's a huge hurdle because you have that a massive amount of weight but you you get that jumpstart by anything you do is gonna show some sort of result which is nice I am curious about your I like to call it your click moment or like that rock bottom moment for you when you say your your body had shut down on you what what kind of happened what was the catalyst a bit I need to a minim I'm gonna make some changes this is this is the time that I need to start losing weight well I guess you can say I had to so when I hit the 400 I ended up being housebound because I really couldn't do much so it was just me and my cat most of the time and which is what happened with the video that I posted I ended up being in a dark place and when I kind of got to the point where I decided to fight I wasn't sure if it would like released a key or if I'd be able to actually come out of it but the more and more I tried I was coming out of it I was fighting a bit more and then my family and I made the decision for me to leave so I ended up moving down here to Florida to be to live with my sister for a little bit and while I was down here at first I had lost 50 pounds within two to three months I lost 50 pounds but when during that time I wasn't working but then it came to the time I had to go back to work I went back to work and within two months I gained the 50 pounds back oh yeah yeah I gained it back and it stuck for a few months until last October I'll never forget I went it was like a horror night called scream again in down here and I was in so much pain it took everything in me not to cry after each like poor house and my friends kept having to stop with me and you can tell they didn't mean to stop but I had to stop because that's how much pain I was in that's how much opinion my legs my everything and I realized in that moment the last time I felt that type of pain and I ignored it was right before my body shut down on me and even though I wasn't at shutdown mode in that moment I realized how close it was and how much I had worked to get from that and I ate my way right back to that and then I said I'm done in that moment I said I'm done I have I still have problems with binging but it's nowhere near that cause it scared me because to know that I can be housebound again twice in one lifetime I didn't I knew if I allowed myself to give back to that place I don't know if I would be able to crawl back out again showing that only I made that decision and I believe it was the next day if not that same night I went grocery shopping and I started to change everything everything it's uh it's funny that you say that because I think that fear not the fear from the the horror night thing but like actual fear of becoming housebound again I think fear is an incredible motivator and it might sound kind of negative but if you truly fear something like for me I've told my story before but I was I was very fearful that I was going to die because of my size like there was no I mean I was I knew that I was going to die because of my size it was just when isn't gonna happen right like I I was fully I was fully prepared to become house bound like as crazy as that sounds I would I would see the I think this was before my 600-pound life was on TV but I would see like the the stories of about the people having to get airlifted out of their house to go to the hospital because they're so big and I was in my head oh like yeah that's probably gonna be me one day and I just kind of had had accepted that right and so for me my click moment was there's a lot of things that kind of happened but it it really goes down to I was very fearful and I had a kind of a health scare and from that moment on I was like I I don't want to die you know and so I think fear can be an incredible motivator to not to just make change but to keep that change going because when you do maybe want to slip back or when you do maybe want to make the wrong decisions again you that that is always in the back of your head you're like mmm is this worth my life you know and I don't I don't think it I don't think that it is so okay I wanted to talk about this because I think that I mean obviously it's a big part of your channel and I think that the stuff that you're doing is really valuable but some people might not see it that way if they don't underst and where you're coming from and that's the reactions that you do to amberlynn Reid yeah I think that one the titles that you use are genius and your and your thumbnails are genius you you do a really good job of if someone just sees the title they might like oh that girls mean butts like you need to click on the video understand so what made you want to start reacting because I'm assuming most people that have that are watching know who this is so we don't have to explain that whole story but what made you want to start reacting to those videos and put that put your voice out there right well the first time I wasn't ever planning to react her I was planning to mostly do commentary and it's because um I started watching her over a year I can safely say probably a year and a half now but then I stopped watching her from all the negativity edges it just something didn't make sense because what I thought she was getting hate because of her size that's really what I thought and you know same yeah so then I'm like oh my gosh at the time I still wanted to come back on YouTube to share my story and I'm like if this girl's getting that much hate I'm gonna get the same so I kind of stepped back and then one day YouTube recommended a different type of video showing a different perspective and that's when I realized oh this is really what the problem is but then at the same time there are things I would watch other reaction channels and there were things they were kind of missing which is wasn't any fault of their own it's just they didn't have the background they you know didn't gain a massive amount of weight or they weren't a woman at the same time or they just didn't have the past that amberlynn and I had amberlynn actually amberlynn and I actually have kind of parallel paths we both were in foster care we both gained a lot of weight we both have struggling relationships with our parents and family and there's times I watch her and this is the part that I don't say on my channel much because like I don't know probably sounds crazy but a lot of times when I'm actually reacting to amberlynn I'm actually talking to myself oh I see I see that a hundred percent I see that yeah I can see that the passion isn't it's not just like oh you obviously I think you do actually care about her and you don't want her to die but I think a lot of the passion is coming from I you're talking to yourself like you said 100% there's only been one comment or the aleko supporter that commented that and it was like this long paragraph and i I started crying because I'm like I think she's probably the only one who sees that I'm actually just talking to myself because I was in Berlin there's so many things about her even some of her mistakes that I've made and what bothers me is I don't think she realized how bad it could get or maybe she does realize but it's more important for her to chase the money just like I chased the money and what she doesn't realize is when your body shuts down all those things you're buying it doesn't matter I used to be a big sneaker head I used to like bags its heels all that stuff when I was in my house I was in my house with all types of Jordans all types of heels all types expensive purchased purses none of that did anything for my health I just sat down and looked at all the things that I bought that I couldn't even use anymore because I was now house bound none of it mattered and I don't think that's and that's where some of the frustration is but it comes down to that's who I'm talking to and when I first started I didn't expect to go this long but if I'm being completely honest one of the biggest reasons I continue to react to her is because this is the one one of many ways I can stay accountable you know how crazy I would look if i sat on YouTube giving my comments hearing this girl and then turn around in gain a hundred pounds I would be crazy so part of me a part of why I do it still is for that reason because I think the message is out there and it is helping a lot of people based on the messages I'm getting you know some people do come there for entertaining but some people actually come there for that tough love and that's why I am I'm not gonna pretend to be someone I'm not and at one point I wish I had that person talking to me that way but just like amberlynn when I was at my worst I was very much in control of my life in the people around me I brought in a lot of most of the money out of my friends and family so you're not gonna talk to me a certain way I'm gonna stay in control and I see it in her but the thing is I wish I had that person talking to me in this way that wasn't scared to talk to me this way she's surrounded from people where she's very much in control where me I don't care how much more money bringing I don't care about your money life is less like money's not gonna save you if Steve Jobs could die she can die oh yeah it's a Hyundai without a doubt I agree I think that it's a very dangerous situation when you're surrounded by yes men right when people they just want to please you they just want to make you happy and I mean that's kind of how anybody gets to be really really big you know the six hundred seven hundred pound people it's you you literally no longer are able to get up and get the food yourself so you need that person that is going to be that yes minute I mean that's a whole situation that I don't really understand 100% so I'm not gonna sit here and say it's this person well it's that person's fault it's just it's just a bad situation right and I think that anybody can kind of agree with that I think that her channel while I mean I don't I'm gonna be honest I haven't seen a video in a pretty long time but I think that it is a good thing to be out there for the people that are like really into the health at every size I think that if you if you want to be a part of that group like go watch her videos and then really rethink your situation because again with health and every size for me I I think that for the vast majority of people it's probably a good thing you can't really tell someone's health by looking at them unless you are really really underweight and I think most people would agree right when you see someone that's anorexic that has like literally no body fat everyone's make oh that person has problems at food issues that's sad but then when we look at someone that is morbidly obese again it's the same thing like their body is no longer working correctly so yeah you can tell that that person isn't healthy and they're not implementing healthy habits and I think that with her channel it shows that the amount of like denial that you can have the amount of just like even even though I think that she really does have good intentions when she is trying to lose weight but it's it's just so fleeting that you can really get to a position where it's it's just no longer healthy you know and I think that having you and having other people making making it aware and like especially you being at that position at one point in your life and really struggling to even be able to move because of your size for you to speak out like hey you know health at every size while I'm sure there's good parts like I wasn't healthy you know I was literally dying and that's I mean that's why I want it's a big reason why I wanted to make this series is to share people's stories and and just put put it out there that hey like your size can really start to have some bad effects on your health and it can be very scary absolutely and you know I think people are scared not only because it's embarrassing obviously but people are really scared to step forward and talk about what it really is like even in yesterday's video when I did a reaction to her I I told everyone watching me that at one point I had trouble wiping and that's the truth you have trouble doing so many different things that you don't take into account until you get there you know I never when I was 200 pounds I used to be the person and say I can never get to 300 I looked at 300 I could never get to 400 and I'll never see him pretend I'm better than amber lynn absolutely not I just make better decisions now in my life and anyone can get there that's one of the reasons I focused so much on her because she really does give me a lot of content and things to talk about if I'm being honest but it's like any one of us can get there like I technically if my body didn't shut down not taking YouTube away from it because I wouldn't put myself on YouTube at that size I could have been amberlynn easily because my body stopped me I didn't stop me you know what I'm saying I wish I came to that point on my own but my body had to shut down for me to stop I didn't do it on my own yeah and the reason I like to talk about this stuff is because I it's that exact reason anybody can get to that point and I don't want people to get there because I like I said I was at a my trajectory in my mind was I'm eventually gonna get there and I had just kind of accepted and that's nowhere that I want anyone to feel like they they need to be you know so I just I think that stuff is super important but I did want to ask like for the people that are watching your channel and the people that might see a video here and they're like what's the message that you want you you hope is being portrayed to those people I try to say in every other video and I wish I could say it in everyone but I was forget my main message when it comes to my channel too I say it sometimes its be better today than you were yesterday and greater tomorrow than you will be today and the second message is honestly be better than amberlynn and I I say it sometimes like I literally want whoever's watching to make better decisions yes I'm on the right path but I don't need anyone to get to 300 pounds to get back on the right path I don't need anyone to get to 600 pounds to then figure it out and get on the right path I have a lot of people who are watching me that 150 pounds 170 pounds 200 pounds who aren't necessarily where I am but of course I have a lot of you know morbidly obese people watching too I just don't want them to get to this point me or amber lynn because when you get to this point it's really hard to turn it around like you know amber it's gonna be hard but for even for me it's it's really hard there's days I sit around and it's like damn it sucks that I got myself to this place and then I have to snap out of it like okay you got there oh like we're turning it around shut up and keep moving you never mean like sometimes I have to give myself those hard conversations as well so if any anything take away from my channel not to get to this point and if you are at my point okay now turn it around that's fighting so important like obviously yeah you don't want people to get to that point but at the same time if you are there your world isn't hasn't ended yet until you've taken your last breath right you always can always get back on the wagon as cheesy as it sounds it's like fall down eight times stand up nine times like you only fail only fail when you stop trying period especially with weight loss right you you have a bad meal okay so what it's not the end of the world right like you you can always pick yourself back up 100% I agree well I just want to say thank you so much for for being on the channel for being on on on the new series I'm really excited about it again I think that this is going to be very very helpful for a lot of people out there so thank you so much thank you for having video guys go that is the interview I just wanted to say huge thanks again to charli's for coming on I really hope that you guys get something out of this interview and I hope that you are getting something out of this series I am more excited to do this series that I have been in a long time with anything that I'm doing on YouTube so thank you guys again so much for the support and I'll see you next time

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Views: 315,092

Rating: 4.9350128 out of 5

Keywords: charlie gold, weight loss, fat loss, heavy talk, john glaude, obesetobeast, amberlynn reid

Id: eo8_4JYthsQ

Length: 27min 13sec (1633 seconds)

Published: Fri Sep 13 2019