The Joyners (part 1)

nice pass even it falls apart roger was relentless and he liked not basically solving and said I'm gonna marry you and within two weeks said can I pursue you and in my mind that meant you want to marry me so after knowing him for two weeks he just you know was relentless and kept coming up to me and asking if he could get time alone with me and get to know me more and we were in a house of prayer doing night-watches and he would I'd find him often getting closer to me and asked me to sing on his set and do looks like that so that would be the start I guess of us getting to know each other I was in a house of prayer and yeah yeah I mean the moment that I met her she had asked to play my guitar and I just got strucked stupid by her beauty her beauty just made me dumb and I felt like a swirl around it so much so that I just had to pause and go look Lord what's going on because I didn't expect this tonight you know yeah meeting her I didn't expect to feel so swirly and then being in the prayer meetings and we did like you know we were like midnight to 6 a.m. prayer medians you know I really intent but I like I saw that she was unafraid to get the mic and just pray her heart out and I saw in her this passion for souls and then I also saw like she knew how to shrink in the presence of God and I said she's beautiful she's fiery and deep I'm gonna marry her so I got really excited because people were encouraged to me hey you can't Braille really likes you I'm like whoa I really like her you know other leaders that were in the Nightwatch so I approached my leaders and said hey what do you think and they're like yeah I mean go for it but they didn't know when I was gonna go for it so I got overly excited and I took her into the debriefing room and I tried to introduce the idea with a joke and she didn't laugh and then I started to tell her hey look I really love to get to know you would love to pursue you and she said oh oh so have you talked to your leaders about this and tell me how many other girls have like this and if have you liked another girl like this and if so how many and I'm honest man so like you like me but you really don't like me you only think you like me you'll be over this this is just like puppy love because I that was a reason why I you know I didn't realize those rushing his heart but I was thinking you're gonna realize you know you've probably liked other people you this is we're just meant to be friends so that's why I was kind of like how many people who like see that was yeah when we talk later you know I apologized I went to her because she actually came to confront me and say basically Gabriella's part of was one of the leaders on my set and the Nightwatch and so we hung out we do travel teams together and we were friends so she just came to confront me like how come we're not hanging out anymore and all my friend said look she led you on stay away from that girl you're gonna get a broken heart and gap brawls like listen this is who I am and really I got to see that she's just a woman that feared the Lord that just wasn't down for some guy to just roll up and drop a line but that she guarded that and you know I don't want to tell your story but I mean you prayed that you'd be blinded to the guy so anyway so I went up to her room but once you happened like we had a meeting outside her room and I I said well I'm sorry this is why I liked you you know and I told her the reasons that I liked her there are five reasons he's like the reason why I wanted to pursue I saw five reasons the Lord showed me these things about you and this had been six years in the making after I got saved and the Lord had saved me from a broken heart and he had written these things to me about he told me today him for a year and within this year he told me these five things that my husband would see in me and valuing me because that's what he put in me and so it was like Roger starts telling me these things word-for-word that the Lord had told me my husband would see in me and at this time I'm like God how could you let him into our secrets you know because I'm convinced at this point Rogers not the one for me knowing though later I realized I had prayed that God would totally blind me to the man who was going to be my husband because I wanted to be pursued and I wanted to be fought for because I had never had that and so when he was again relentless just after me over and over and over again I started realizing God you shared something that was really intimate between us what are you doing so at that point I didn't I knew something might be happening but I didn't want to lead him on necessarily but I didn't want to miss something that God might have been doing so I would tell Roger I don't know I just haven't heard from the Lord yet so I had to have a solid word from God because Jesus was the only man over six years that I had he was the only one who taught me to trust men again and so he would ask me every day has a Lord spoken usable or spoken to you and at this time I wasn't dreaming at all I'm naturally a dreamer at night and suddenly Roger says in three days you're gonna have a dream and I was like okay in literally three days I have a dream and in the dream there's a girl there and she's asking have you made a decision yet and I said no I just I would give her like all these excuses and she would combat these excuses with truth like some of I've had with my own insecurities self-hatred stuff like that like just not believing somebody could really love me well then another person comes in my dream asks me the same question and her name is a Senath and she was in my dream and she says to me have you made a decision yet and I said well I don't I don't know if it's of God I just don't know if it's of the father and she says to me God works through natural circumstances and the desires of your heart so three times in the dream she asks me in three times she says that same thing to me and I woke up with that resonating God works him out to circumstances and the desires of your heart so that morning I got up kind of shaken from that dream because it felt so real and the first person I went to run into is this girl named Messina and I was like hey what does your name mean and she said it means of the Father and I've never heard of her name before I thought it was like her parent just made up some name you know and so it was kind of like okay got her what are you saying I can't give into the feelings that I'm sorry have for him or am I just feeling flattered right now well then that day my dad calls me my natural father and he tells me so what's going on with you and this guy Roger because I told him we're all my family and I are really close so I told me about this guy who liked me and didn't know what to do about it and I said you know I I don't know I don't know don't ask me and he said well let me tell you I've been fasting and praying and if he asks you to go out with him I want you to go out with him if he wants to spend time with you spend time with him I'm not asking you to marry him but you will never know unless you'd like let him in a little bit yeah and that story sounds so epic you know about me saying the dream thing but you know I know the Bible you know spirit of the Prophet all that stuff but literally I felt like my mouth was borrowed to the point that when she left after I said you're gonna have a dream in three days I was like what's up God like I would not say that you need to give her screaming quick if this is real you better said I had forgot you know and I was actually going to you know just talk to get broke because we were spending enough time just talker and say like are you leading me on or is there something and God said no no not today you have a gentle err approach and you just asked her again to go on a date when she did I jumped up and down and freaked out yes I literally have another encounter cuz it felt so much more real than a dream and Jesus came up to me without saying anything he walked into my dream and I remember him like stroking my hair and without saying anything but just talking through his eyes he was telling me like dude trust me I was like of course you're the only man I've ever felt safe with that I trust that I know I can put my heart and it's gonna be safe and he told me then trust me he's the one I've chosen for you and so I was like okay God wherever you lead me I will follow you because I wanted to go there but it was like my heart just was so raw I didn't want to be hurt again so when Roger asked me to marry him it was actually the date my best friend got married my dad he had flown out to Arizona and surprised me asked took my dad out for breakfast asked if he could pursue me into marriage as for my Ana marriage and he didn't have any money he didn't have a ring yet he just wanted to make sure he could do it and he gets home um well he comes to acting me and my dad asks me basically will you marry this man because I gave him my blessing and I'm like thinking oh my gosh okay yes I'll marry him even though he's supposed to ask me I think oh the garage what's going down I'm like oh they're having a moment maybe I should feel like crying that way to go down so that evening the lists to say cuz my parents know my friends and everything everybody at the weddings congratulating us on our engagement and he had a super awkward yes no awkward I have nobody to the table you know congratulations guys your games so oh like my mom is a planner so she's already telling me we planned this out I have you know I gotta figure out when you're gonna do this we need a date Big Daddy that's cancel my vacation and so Rogers like well let's I told wash cycle view I said we need we need to go after the wedding let's go out let's just let's figure out our schedule and plan out a date I guess and so in his heart though we're driving like you say we need to play her yeah you've had our wedding but he hasn't even asked you yet no but oh my gosh this is like that is awesome so he's in his heart he's you know he's told me like how can in the world can I plan a wedding without even asking you and giving you a ring so we get to the restaurant and um we order and he's a cop be right back I have to get something from the car and so I give him the keys or I have to go get something so I give him the car keys and all of a sudden like five minutes goes by 10 minutes 15 minutes and my heart starts getting really in turmoil because you got to understand like I'm not in my past I've had guys just ditch me on dates tell me things and not pick me up go places and them not meet me or then literally just leave me at a place so it's bringing up like the pain of my passive like what Jesus I thought you healed me from this I thought he was a safe guy and I started freaking out a little bit thinking well okay he just couldn't handle it he doesn't want to be married to me you know sob story and so um feeling pity party for me and so I get up to walk out because I'm embarrassed cuz the waitress is looking at me like honey you just got ditched so I am angry and I'm embarrassed and I get up to leave and all of a sudden I see Roger walking toward me and since I don't like it even more mad I'm like oh my gosh where did he go he left me alone like feeling unprotected you know and all of a sudden the Lord quick at me and he told me let him love you you've received his love don't get angry don't yell don't get upset because you're hurt just receive the love he wants to give you the way he wants to do it so we go back to the table and he starts to tell me um he gets down on one knee and he says Gabriela I will not always know how to lead us but I do know the man who does know how to lead us and I promise I will lead you to the cross every time I don't know how to and he said but I can't plan a wedding without asking you to marry me so he gets down on one knee and he gives me a plastic chuck-e-cheese ring which is why he was gone because he was searching for a ring to give me to ask me to marry him and I said yes to a plastic chuck-e-cheese ring but yeah also I think that brought healing to my heart is I was previously gonna be engaged to somebody else and I had given that girl the ring and when I gave her the ring she looked at that ring and said that's all and so when I gave she literally looked at the ring and said that's that's it and so when I gave Gabriela chuck-e-cheese ring and she cried and said she'd be my wife that brought healing to my heart and so like even all throughout the process there was God healing you know you have a the best fire

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Length: 15min 43sec (943 seconds)

Published: Sun Jun 22 2014