The Addiction That Destroyed Kanye West's Life

we all have bad habits but most of us have the ability to control them while for others they end up warping their brains affecting personal relationships and occasionally skewing their thought process to the point of no return traditionally addiction is characterized as a chronic relapsing disorder brought upon by compulsive drug seeking and consumption despite adverse consequences but of course there are other ways to consume which may cause you to become dependent and one rapper who knows this all too well is Kanye as he said in various interviews y's affinity for adult material dates back to when he was just 5 years old when he stumbled upon something of his father's like for me Playboy was my Gateway into fullon addiction my dad had a Playboy left out at age 5 and it's affected almost every choice I made for the rest of my life from age five having made various crude references to that industry from his earliest music Kanye's apptide eventually bled into the dating world too when he dated one of the most sought-after glamour models of the era while stopping short at dating a literal adult performer his decision to date Amber Rose took his life and his music into a newly liberated hypersexualized era having later claimed that he needed 30 showers his relationship with Amber alongside the Fallout from the infamous tayor Swift VMAs moment would be funneled into his work resulting in the Masterpiece we know today as My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy an album which featured his most outlandish descriptions of sexual escapades to dat things came to a head on tracks like monster runaway Blame Game and of course hell of a life on the latter it's often suggested that he for told his future marriage to Kim Kardashian spitting one day I'm going to marry a star we'll have a big crib and a long yard we'll have a mansion and some fly Maids nothing to hide we both screwed the Bridesmaids but before that prophecy was fulfilled one of the collaborators on that project exposed his creative process and the deals which took her back featured on two tracks on the album including her career defining Burse on Monster Nicki Minaj discussed what it was like to work with yay I thought that he wouldn't want girls to be dressed overtly sexy and I go into the studio and he had nothing but pictures of naked women on his computer that he'd invite me to to look at they were really artsy pictures but you know he loves so it was a complete shock to me cuz I thought I had him figured all out he was watching when we were in the studio no shame in his game enabled by his Mega star status y's affinity for adult content was now accepted as just a part of his process and may have contributed to his infatuation with the woman who was behind the most famous tape of all time Kim Kardashian when they first got together this seemed like a point of Pride for yay and on click he even made it part of his mythology rapping break records at Louie ate breakfast at Gucci my girl is super star all from a home movie over time they went from a run-of-the-mill celebrity fling to a relationship that result in four kids but as he revealed on Jimmy Kimmel even fatherhood wasn't enough to stop his addiction do you feel like your attitude towards women has changed since having daughters N I still look at and what kind of stuff do you look at what category black is my favorite category what's the the point of being Kanye if you can't in fact he didn't even treat monogamy with any degree of seriousness and while on the St Pablo tour he boasted about infidelity it was no secret among those who worked closely with yay that he cheated after sa was born revealed one Insider on his St Pablo tour he was flipping out in front of his team confessing to Sleeping With Girls behind Kim's back he even said he'd been groupies and went into insane detail about his sessions it was disturbing his language was Unreal those who knew him well they were sitting heads and hands and laughing nervously while crew members who had just joined the tour were left stunned at this point in his life y's obsession with sex had arguably become more juvenile than ever across bars from the life of Pablo that even made the most desensitized fan pause for a second the famous video which featured figures like Taylor Swift Kim K George Bush Trump and Bill Cosby had placed his obsession front and center but bizarrely it was also around this time that he became most modest about Kim's sexuality yeah it does bother him it's like half and half she told Ellen of Kanye's response when she posed for paper magazine he always wants wants me to be me and feel confident and we're having fun but it also bothers him still as Kanye continued to live out his wildest fantasies in public view he would reach a point of sordidness where he was even designing the set for the award ceremony for the biggest adult site on the internet upon reflection he sees 2018 which is the same year that he began to alienate half of his fan base with his support of trump as the year his addiction finally began to have real ramifications for his life following the release of yay Kanye dropped two of the most sexually overt tracks in his entire catalog first there was ecstasy where he embraced all of his most debased impulses no matter how the real people in his life might have felt about it you got sick thoughts I got more of them you got a sister-in-law you smash I got four of them damn those are your sisters you did something Unholy to them pictures damn you need to be locked up nah we need a bigger hot tub then you had I love it with Lil pump debuting at the Hub Awards the track was about as forthright about his Love of All Things explicit as it could get and in hindsight he saw it as a turning point in his life and not for the better I got to a point where I was always letting that Playboy magazine that I found when I was 5 years old have an effect on my music it couldn't never be 100% everything it could be cuz I had to add that in always and it got to the point where literally I went from Jesus walks to you're such a I love it this fit right in with everything we got to deal with opioids this fit right in with everything we got that promotes killing so that we can have more slaves in the mass incarceration why did you make it because I was sleep mhm because I was drowned because I was lost having later described the track as a product of being lost it's release corresponded with a time where his marriage was on the rocks in 2020 they revealed that they were speaking with an intimacy specialist with an Insider claiming that the therapist is giving them suggestions to put the sizzle back in their sex life they tried counseling a couple of years ago and it essentially saved their marriage they're hoping lightning can strict twice once again the problems in his life were traced back to sex and the media that documents it and just as his addiction began to Teeter over over to the point that his marriage was heading for divorce he put his faith into one of the other constants in his life religion when I was in my lowest points God was there with me and sending me visions and inspiring me and I remember sitting in the hospital at UCLA after having a mental breakdown and there's uh documentations of me drawing a church and saying writing uh start a church in in the middle of Calabasas soon Kanye was abandoning secular music and irely channeling his energy into spreading the gospel through his very own Sunday service along the way to promoting his new album Jesus is King most of his promo run saw him discuss the difficulties he'd faced and trying to combat what had called out to him some people drown themselves in drugs he said and I drown myself in my addiction sex god was patient and my family was patient for me when they were praying for me when they saw me at the wars they couldn't tell me not to do it all they could do was pray and be patient and it had to happen and God's time so for me when I have people around who I would like them to be where I'm at in my journey all I could do is pray and be patient cuz it's going to only be in God's time transforming from a man who reveled in lust to a deeply religious man Kanye spoke at length about the extreme way he tried to keep his religious Purity this is going to be radical this time was where I was asking people to not have premarital sex while they were working on the album M despite only making gospel from here on out and pledging to live a Pious life it wasn't enough to save his marriage and on the follow-up record da he discussed how his Unfaithful Behavior led to its demise on Hurricane rapping here I go acting too rich here I go with a new chick and I know what the truth is still playing after two kids it's a lot to digest when your life's always moving having previously celebrated what he now saw as immoral Kanye has since gone the other way and continued to place Holiness at the Forefront of his output his views on the very material that he used to covet got increasingly extremist in fact he said it was to blame for everything that's gone ay in his life this addiction since I was 5 years old that has destroyed my mom and my dad's family that destroyed my family when I take full accountability for the destruction of my marriage I'll point at the Liberals and say you took my wife from me you know what took my wife from me the fact that I was married to this beautiful person but it I felt like it wasn't enough I felt like I still needed to look at and some way I'd say to her well stop making these images stop breaking the internet so alarmed by exposing his kids to inappropriate content that he didn't want them on Tik Tok yay out to protect those around him from what he saw as the evil that destroyed his world but at the same time in the depths of his despair he relapsed since I lost my wife since I lost my family and I was no longer the priest right in the middle of that home I let the devil pull me in next thing you know I'm at New Year's Eve parties having threesoms but while yay might have since tried to conquer his addiction his overreliance on the past was about to come back and bite him with footage emerging of him showing x-rated material to Executives during negotiations over his contract it's clear that his addiction has tightened its grip around him again he showed me the video of Franchesca Lee a buff adult a former collaborator told Rolling Stone he's like what do you think of it not laughing at all he would be in a meeting and he'd be talking to you and he'd rattle off in his laptop to play a mature video another employee said he's like I know it's uncomfortable but I kind of need this in the background to keep me focused from admitting that he bootlegged only on Reddit despite being a billionaire to announcing in November 2022 that he was going on a 30-day cleanse it still hasn't prevented him from reverting back to his old ways at his 46th birthday party in June 2023 he served sushi with women's bodies being used as serving platters meanwhile he's engaged in no shortage of PDA with his new wife while arguably inspiring some of his most compelling output in the My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy and life of Pablo eras it's clear that those images he saw as a kid are implanted in y's brain and aren't going anywhere the real question is that as he considers a comeback will he be able to douse the flames and keep himself on an even Keel with his addiction or allow it to wreak havoc once more I guess we'll have to wait and see

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Length: 10min 2sec (602 seconds)

Published: Thu Dec 28 2023