My Testimony: God Restored My Marriage Right Before Divorce !

hey guys I'm back with another video and today's video as you can tell by the title it's gonna be about my testimony to what God did for my marriage and basically for my life really and I know it's been four months since I last had a video but this video will explain exactly why so four months ago July 18 to be exact my husband and I split physically separated and it was because we were going to get a divorce and I know I had put out another video before talking about how you know God saved my marriage but this time around it was legit I mean we were two steps away from getting a divorce and so I left everything in Texas me and the baby came up to Pennsylvania to live with my mom and all of my stuff was down there and I basically just had to start over I had to get a new job and to buy a new clothes I didn't even have a car so I had to share my sister's car I just remember like the first week was probably the worst and the hardest week out of the whole journey and it was because my husband was the person that I spoke to every single day I talked to him about everything he was basically my best friend and he still is but he you know was my best friend he was the only person that I was around all the time so to not be able to talk to him and to have that same connection with him was extremely hard and I just remember I was extremely depressed and I decided that I wanted to try to talk to somebody about it and so I decided to speak with a profit and this profit is a friend of my husband's family and called him and I'm crying and I'm like you know for getting a divorce I don't want this you know what do I do so I spoke to him and then he tells me God's gonna restore your marriage and I said okay and I took that and I ran with it and he said every day I need you to thank God for restoring your marriage even if you don't see anything happening even if some days you wake up and you don't have any hope or you don't have any faith thank God for restoring your marriage I said okay I decided that I was gonna build a relationship with God because I had always believed in God I'd always prayed but my personal relationship with God look it just wasn't what it should have been Oh every day I woke up I thank God for my marriage and decided to meet the Bible I was praying more I did a lot of just research about like how I deal with the situation like standing for your marriage and I had learned a lot and so in my time of praying and in my time of reading the Bible my relationship with God grew a lot closer and I was able to hear God more clearly and so I remember I started a journal because I just felt like if I started a journal I'd being able to look back on it and see how everything happened day to day so in the journal I would write literally about my day no matter what if I was crying if I was happy I would write about literally everything and honestly once I was finished writing it I started to feel a lot better I remember I was on Instagram and I was I had watched some lady was talking about how basically when it comes to a spouse or if it comes to a significant other it's important that we pray and ask God to show us if that person if that man or woman is the man that God intends for you to be with and although like when my husband and I were 14 years old I knew that he was the one but despite feeling that I still prayed because the way it works is if you can want something extremely bad but if it's not in God's will for you to have it it just won't work out and that's just the way it is so I remember one night I prayed and I said you know Lord I just need you to show me and tell me if Donnie is the man that you have intended for me to be with but God knows that I'm the kind of person that needs some type of physical confirmation I need to see something or hear something to know that it's from God because if not I'll start to feel like it's me you know like it's my own wants and in thoughts and stuff so I said Lord if he is the one that you have intended for me to be with show me the scripture mark 10 and 9 and so after I prayed that of course I was looking for it because once you pray for something and you start to pray for a confirmation like that you start to look for exactly what you asked for and God won't show it to you and that's what I learned because after I have prayed for it a day went by two days went by I'm looking for it I don't see it the minute that I had forgotten that I even prayed about it was when God showed it to me and I was laying in bed night and I had joined this this group it's called rejoice and management ministries and basically it's a bunch of people going through divorce and separation and it's where we all come together and pray for each other and uplift each other during our journey so I opened that app like I'd always do and the very first thing that I saw was mark 10 and 9 highlighted in blue and even though I had forgotten that I had prayed about it I instantly remembered like oh my goodness this is what I asked God to show me and I thought I would be more excited when I saw it but it was kind of just I was more so filled with peace and knowing that okay I'm doing the right thing I'm on the right path you know so after that I'm still praying I pray every single day all night even I'm in my car I'm praying at work I'm praying and I just remember some days were a lot harder than others you know some days I'd wake up and I'd be so full of joy and so full of peace you know and and I'd be okay but then there were some days where I'd wake up I'd be okay but then throughout the day I would start to get depressed again I would start to cry and it was in those moments that I believed my relationship with God got even stronger because during those times all I had was God there was nobody else who could take the pain away there was no one else who could really understand what I was feeling but him so I would put on worship music and I would listen to that music until there were no more tears falling from my eyes and that's just what I had to do and so over time it became easier to stand for my marriage over time I wasn't crying every single day you know and I can't admit that there were a lot more times where I had asked God for confirmation because it's very hard even as a Christian you know to have faith and believe you know without seeing the fruits of that and I'm not perfect I know there are a lot of people out there who go through the same thing and so I remember there were days where I'd be very doubtful and I just pray and say Lord I just need you to show me this show me that and show me that and God showed me every single time every single time he showed me and so I remember once I was getting all those confirmations I kind of just I you know kind of let go even more I was kind of like okay I am not in control anymore so I'm just gonna like God do this thing I'm sorry I remember one time I was writing in my journal and I was just praying and I think God for certain things to happen in my marriage and to show me certain things that I knew that he was working and one time I had asked God I said lord I need you to open the lines of communication Lucy my husband and I because at the time Donnie and I weren't even cordial we would only literally speak just by like if I would pick up the phone and say hello that was the closest we were getting and talking it was strictly about the baby and so I remember writing in my journal asking God you know to just allow me to speak to Donnie just to hear him and hear his smile because you know when someone smiles on the phone you can hear it and so I would pray for that and I remember a couple of days later Donnie called me out of the blue and we were just talking you know just like old times and gradually over time we were able to talk a little bit more I would text him we wouldn't talk every single day and be like once maybe every two weeks or something like that and it was literally be like one text but still it was better than not talking at all and so I was excited about that and so like I said I just kept praying and standing and one thing that really helped me during this time was finding other people who are in similar situations or people who had been in the same situation and getting advice from them one thing I also did was I spoke to my preacher a lot like whenever I was dealing with something I would talk to my preacher about it and she would uplift me and give me you know the strength to keep moving forward because there were a lot of days where I wanted to give up there were a lot of days where I cried and begged God to just take the feelings that I had for my husband away from me so that I wouldn't have to deal with this again but God wouldn't allow it because you know in the Bible it says that God doesn't like divorce he's not here for it so I remember I was in my car one day and I just remember you know praying I said lord I understand that were physically away from each other but eventually so his life and although in his mind I'm not his wife I still am in your eyes and so I said bored what do I need to do to show him or to just continue to be the wife I need to be God told me telling me love them tell them goodnight and even though I was nervous I realized that what God tells you to do something you just do it because it's what's best and so you know not every night but every once in a while I would text him and say I love you good night I'm praying for you just basically letting him know that I'm still here that I'm still fighting for this and you know amazingly he would text back and say I love you too or good night so I want to talk about you know one other time where I had finally asked God for the last confirmation and this was I want to say maybe three weeks before God restore my marriage so I'm sitting at work and I'm at my desk and I was just looking on social media again and I thought something that just you know got me in my feelings and it just put me in my head and so I remember sitting at my desk with tears in my eyes I'm praying I said God this is the final time this is the last time I'm gonna ask you to show me or tell me if Donnie is the right one because you know I had been praying what this was like it was almost four months now it was going on the fourth month and I still wasn't seeing anything I mean I was seeing subtle changes in my husband and in our connection because like I said we would talk more and we would laugh more and all and you know stuff like that and um I was seeing all that stuff but it just wasn't happening and so I'm like Lord you know I need to know that that you have been speaking to me and that I'm not crazy and that everything that I've been hearing is from you I said if Donnie is the one if I'm not doing this for no reason and I'm not crazy Lord I need you to show me or allow me to hear the name Hudson because Donnie's last name is Hudson so I said allowed me to see it or hear it just needs to cross my path for it so I said in my desk and a couple of minutes later my coworker calls me into his office and we're just talking about how I think he was talking about how series went bankrupt or something like that and so he starts talking about Macy's and JC Penney and how those stores are bankrupt as well so then he starts to talk about how one of those stores had was overtaken by another door and he was sitting there trying to remember the name of the store and I'm sitting there in silence because I have no idea what he's talking about and so he finally looks at me and he says oh um Hudson Bay took over either makes you JC Penney and immediately I was just smiling all I could do is smile because I was like okay God like I hear you I'm not asking anymore I trust you that's my confirmation my last and final confirmation right so my and you you know a couple of weeks ahead of this you know I had asked God to show me rainbows show me a rainbow when restoration was near and you know I want to say about two weeks before restoration I was seeing rainbows everywhere I looked on social media you know on ads on like the TV and stuff I would just see rainbows and I was like okay god I hear you but where's my man cuz I'm seeing these rainbows but I'm not seeing my man it was Thanksgiving and Donnie had texted me and told me that you know his friend was coming up this way towards the east because you know he's in Texas and he was gonna come by to see Josiah and so I remember um you know when he told me I just remember praying and you know asking God to just allow us to talk allows us to spend time with each other cuz I know he was coming to see Josiah I know he didn't want anything to do with me so I would just I was just praying and I think God to just allow me to be able to in my mind I was just saying look I didn't want to talk about it if he's not gonna tell me what I want to hear like I don't want to deal with this and so I'm starting to fall asleep and then he comes to any sense to me today I want to give us another chance just like that and I was so overwhelmed with joy it was like every single emotion that you could possibly feel I was feeling because it had happened even though it took four months to get to this place the way that it transpired has been so fast and everything just happened perfectly because I just remember like thinking how am I gonna get my stuff like it's all the way in Texas how am I gonna do it God allowed it to happen perfect way god literally aligned every single thing to work out perfectly according to his plan and I just remember hugging him and holding him and just being so thankful and so grateful you know that God cared and loved us enough to you know restore my marriage just like he said that he would and so I wanted to put this video out there one because I genuinely want to help people and encourage you but to also because I remember God telling me that I would have to share my testimony you know I feel like there are a lot of people out there who are in the situation right now where you know their spouse wants to divorce and there's one person fighting and standing for their marriage and there are probably people out there who want to give up because they feel like there is no hope they feel like nothing can be fixed but with God all things are possible and as humans we can't always figure everything out we can't always fight battle from battles I forgot to fight he can do it for you you just have to allow him to do it you have to trust him you have to have faith you know some days aren't gonna be easy some days you're gonna want to give up and throw the towel and say look but you cannot allow the enemy to take your marriage because that's basically what's happening everything that's happening in your marriage is of the enemy and the fight is never against the your spouse it's always against the enemy always and so you have to pray and you have to you know ask God to help you ask God to give you peace and to give you strength to keep going and to not give up I mean it's it's hard you know when you're in it and you hear people talking about Oh God did it for me you restored my marriage and I know you just want it so bad it's like I just you know I want my marriage to be restored right now you know but you have to give God time and one thing that I also learned during this time is that I had to work on myself I had realized that there were a lot of things that I was doing as a person and as a wife that put a strain in my marriage and I feel like sometimes we need to look at ourselves instead of looking at our spouse I feel like a lot of times that's what we do whenever we go through things or always focusing on what the spouse did instead of looking and thinking well what did I do how does I contribute to the rockiness of my marriage and that's something that I has to do so you know no matter how long it takes it'll all work out for your good you just have to focus on the right thing you have to have faith you have to work on yourself and also love your spouse another lesson that I had learned during this time was how to love my husband unconditionally and I mean I had to forgive him I had to forgive myself most importantly for hurting him but I also had to love him despite what he said to me despite how things look I had to make sure that no matter what was going on he knew that I still loved him he knew that I was fighting for our marriage and that it was important and those are things that you have to do the number one key to this whole journey you know for standing for your marriage and you know in waiting for God to restore your marriage it's to let go you cannot be in control you can't have you know one hand on the steering wheel while God is trying to take it over and you have to just completely let go and let God do what he's going to do no matter how bad it looks no matter how impossible it seems with God everything is possible I hope that my testimony encourage you to keep standing I hope that you know this shows you that you know no matter what it looks like your marriage can be saved and you know if you need support find people who will support you and pray for you and you know start a journal write everything write down how you feel you know allow God to take all of your burdens allow him to take all of your fear you know one thing that you definitely can do is trust God and know that he's gonna do what he says he'll do I hope you enjoyed this video and I'll see you in my next video bye you

Channel: Zae Hudson Ministries

Views: 109,488

Rating: 4.9527826 out of 5

Keywords: marriage, divorce, restoration, reconciliation, love, young love, relationship, black, black love, God, praying, prayer, hope, faith, strength, all things are possible, dont give up

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Length: 16min 22sec (982 seconds)

Published: Mon Dec 17 2018