My Experience at Turn About Ranch - Addressing Bhad Bhabie's Live

hey guys i know i haven't posted in a very long time but here today to talk more about turn about ranch address some of the things that bad baby or danielle talked about in her live video the other day i started my youtube channel last year and it was during quarantine i started it because i had a lot of free time i was bored i always wanted to start a channel and it was just a good time but i started to get pretty busy again with dog sitting and i just didn't really have like enough time to edit or record like at all and i kind of just gave up but um overnight last night my video about turnabout ranch got over 5 000 views and i was like okay this is getting a lot of attention i feel like i need to make an update video kind of update some of the things that i said in that video and kind of address some things that i feel like maybe i missed first i want to say i did watch danielle's entire live video that she posted i watched it yesterday i'm saying this right now um for the people who aren't going to watch this video through all the way um she's not making anything up i'm saying that i know that she's not making anything up the reason that our two videos are very drastically different in the way that we explain the ranch is because we're very different types of people we have very different personality types the reasons we were there were very different how we got there was very different and how we acted while we were there how we were treated in our experiences there are very different so obviously we're going to explain it different um and but just because we explain it differently it doesn't mean we were at two different places we were in the same place and we simply describe it different based on based on the kind of people that we were and how we handled it i am a quiet person i'm an optimistic person i skim over negative things in life sometimes it's a good thing sometimes it's a bad thing i get embarrassed easily i try to say things in a way that people won't be offended by or that pleases people the most i've changed a lot since i made that video i've thought a lot about it since i made that video and just watching her video i was like okay i need to get on youtube again and make another video i'm not going to delete that video i feel like i said what i meant i didn't lie in that video but i did skip over things because i was embarrassed and because i didn't want people to see the pain that i endured so at the very end of this video i'm going to be reading some comments from the first video because there's a lot of good questions in there that i didn't talk about and i want to do that for you guys so at the very end i think it's like four or five comments i'm gonna read and um discuss but that's gonna be at the end for now i'm going to be talking about why i went to the ranch because i didn't address that in the first video because um i didn't feel it necessary and i felt like if i talked about it um i would be embarrassed and like at that time i just didn't want to talk about it i just wanted the video to be about my time there but for this video i think it's really important that i go ahead and explain the reason i ended up at turnabout ranch the biggest chunk of this video is going to be talking about stuff danielle said in her life and just discussing it and how i feel about what she said because again i don't think that she's exaggerating and i don't think that she's making any of it up and i don't even want to say i don't think uh i know that she's not so i'm quickly gonna go over the back story i went to a private school there was less than 40 people in my class or like 40 to 50 i really don't remember but a really small amount of people in my class and every class at this school is a christian school a religious school and was very tight-knit and if you wanted to have friends you basically had to act like everyone else because there was only so many people to be friends with and rumors went around at this school really easily i'm not going to say it was absolutely terrible uh you know i made some very good friends there i still am in communication with people from that school that are literally my best friends but i am glad that i didn't graduate from there i i left their sophomore year and we'll get to why so basically my sophomore year right right after i turned 16 there was a guy who i found attractive he found me attractive we hung out and he wanted to you know get with me i said no it happened anyway despite that i had said no so yeah i was sexually assaulted non-consensual sex um and i was in denial i didn't admit that this happened to myself i didn't tell my parents i didn't tell any of my friends i told them that i had done it with this person but because he was telling all of his friends but i didn't ever i wasn't ever able to come to terms with what happened so i continue to see this person and if you don't know much about the psychology behind sexual assault victims it's actually you know extremely extremely common for them to keep in contact with the person that did it to them just to make it seem like what happened wasn't with someone that they weren't close to and make it feel like it can be fixed what was really terrible about it is that there was parents from the school talking about me behind my back with other parents and with their kids without understanding the full story speaking about a minor who didn't have control over the situation this guy was huge even in high school he was a junior played football a big dude uh i've always been small i was probably 115 pounds at the time there's nothing that i could have done and instead of trying to help me instead of trying to figure out the truth of the situation i was condemned i was spoken about badly i had friends boyfriends tell them not to hang out with me it wasn't a cool situation and i tried my best to just move on uh and just live my life you know what happened happened but it was really hard i acted out because of it i had had some issues before that with with my parents my relationship with my mom i had lost someone that was very important to me before um i just had a lot going on in my life and i didn't know how to deal with it one day my mom and i got in this argument because she took my phone i left the house in her car the police ended up chasing me and i didn't stop and i went to juvenile detention it happened i also want to say to anyone who forms an opinion about me because of something that happened five years ago when i was going through an extremely hard time as a 16 year old teenager if you want to form your opinion on me based off of that then that's fine if you want to view me as a bad person or judge me based off of this that i got arrested and all that stuff that's what i was scared of that's why i didn't want to talk about this in the last video but now you know what if that's what you think makes sense you can do that but again this is five years ago i i was having an extremely rough time i was a kid um i feel comfortable talking about it it's my story and if i want to tell it on here the reason is not to please anybody the reason is not to disappoint anybody is because i feel like it's necessary since i've already put that other turnabout ranch video out and now i'm talking about danielle's video i think it's important i talk about why i was there because i don't want it to seem like my parents just sent me there or that they chose to send me there randomly because i was bad kid it's not what it was i went to jail my probation officer told me hey you can go to this rehabilitation facility in utah for three months or jail time and my parents obviously chose turnabout ranch and if i had a say in it i would have chosen turnabout ranch as well so that's that it's a lot but it's what happened and there's no reason for me to care about about what somebody thinks about it you know i am now a very successful 21 year old woman who has two small businesses you know i'm in a healthy relationship i have a great relationship with my family i have a good relationship with myself that's who i am me telling a story about my past should have no negative effect on people's perception of me and if it does it's not my issue so now that that's all out um i got to the ranch may 2016 graduated september 2016. i believe danielle got there in august or september i said this already in my other video i didn't know who she was um like the dr phil episode with her with the catch me outside thing aired like a month after i was home so yeah i didn't know who she was when i was there but um i wasn't close with her we didn't like talk very much because we were really different levels when she got there i was at the top level about to graduate she had just gotten there but i did go down to roundy which roundy is like the level one area where you're in the teepees you have to sleep on the floor um without a pillow at night when you're in the teepees and then you get to go like after you're out of the teepee you get to go up to this loft area you still don't get a pillow and it's like a wooden plank like danielle said in her video it's like a wooden plank bed thing and you would sleep on that she was down there i was up at the barn which you have like bunk beds and mattresses and fitted sheets and pillows in a sleeping bag so it's better than down there but we were at different areas i had gone down there with some of the other higher level girls just to talk to them and we talked about rules and stuff like that and i talked about in my other video danielle really was like adamant on that rules don't matter and all that kind of stuff and you know i feel like in my other video i was a little bit insensitive toward the way that she was acting because you know like when she said in her life that these kids are these kids that turn about rants are traumatized she's completely right we're minors we were we were there because we had faced some kind of trauma one way or another or we wouldn't have been doing the things that we were doing so yeah it was kind of crazy what she said and stuff but um that was one of the one times i talked to her and then now that i look back on it i remember i think there was like a staff meeting day and all the kids from roundy came up to the barn maybe i talked about this in my other video but we would all watch movies and stuff very very very rare occasion that we would get to watch movies and it was on this old old tv thing okay sorry if you hear yelling and stuff my nephews are over and they're like all under 13 so they like to be loud it's okay but she was there and i remember i think i talked to her dizzy said hi or something and she didn't want to talk which is fine i don't remember but that's another time that i saw her and like interacted with her so now i'm going to go over some of the stuff that she said in her life that i think i want to like take and talk about the first thing that's crazy that people might not believe um is the murder that happened there that's a hundred percent true i wasn't there when it happened but i remember i was sent a link like a article about it about staff member jimmy passing away because one of the kids there uh murdered him and i was really sad because i knew jimmy he was one of the night staff members he was there he was there overnight at roundy he didn't really come to the barn he only went to roundy but he would be there overnight to like make sure we didn't run away or you know just like stay overnight with us but basically i got that news it was really sad um but that did happen i don't know what the environment at the ranch was like when that happened or after that happened obviously danielle was there doing that i'm sure it was very chaotic and just sad but i don't have much to say besides that i know that that happened there's articles news articles about it that you can read if you don't believe that that happened the next thing she said she was there for an extra three months this happened all the time kids would get extended i wasn't extended because i was there for 100 days which is the typical amount of time you're there for the program and the reason for that is that i was liked by the staff because i acted right and i followed all the rules because i wanted to get out of there i would not have wanted to stay there longer than i needed to stay there so obviously i was in a mental place where i was able to follow the rules and do my goals do my school make make connections with the staff members all that kind of stuff what i wasn't was a snitch i never snitched on people there was one lady there who said that the staff loved snitches she said you know if you ever want to snitch please snitch we love snitches the only time that i told on someone was because it directly affected me and i could have ended up in trouble if i didn't because this girl was sabotaging me she ripped up my school papers she stained my laundry she took the sheets off my bed so i get in trouble for not making my bed she put water in my water cup which i talked about in the last video that if you had water in your water cup um when you weren't using it they would come and dump it on your head the staff members so that happened to me i had water jumped on my head because this girl had put water in my cup when when i wasn't using it so i could get in trouble and i know it was her because of she admitted to it first of all and also i hadn't used my cup in a few days i know this and the water was ice cold so i knew that it was her who did it yeah all that obviously i told on her because it's like if i didn't i could have got in trouble and ended up staying there longer which i'm not going to do that doesn't make me a snitch that's the only time i told on anybody i never told on people for singing for laughing for dancing for talking to boys for doing i didn't tell on people for that because it doesn't have anything to do with me but other than that i did everything i'm supposed to do with my goals my school all that stuff so i could get out of there and that's why i wasn't extended i knew people who were extended there was people when i got there who'd already been there for months and months like four months there was girls there longer because they stole the van with groceries in it took off tried to run away and all that kind of stuff so that's kind of something that's understandable for them to get extra time but basically i'm saying i wouldn't put past the staff members to extend somebody and so i believe danielle about that part now about the part where she said she had to walk the arena and not be able to change clothes or shower i never saw that happen nor did i have to go through it never was i not allowed to shower change clothes and i don't know anyone who wasn't allowed to change clothes for that long but she said this happened i think after i left and it's not it doesn't surprise me um the part about her saying they wouldn't take you to the hospital because they thought you would run away from there it's totally true and it it doesn't really make any sense um if they were worried about her stealing a car when she was there that doesn't make sense either because there's plenty of cars at the ranch from the staff members so it's not right to not take a minor to the hospital when they have an infection i went to the hospital there one time and it was to get a shot i really am not sure what it was for my parents consented to it they knew about it it was some shot like maybe a flu shot or something that we were supposed to get i don't know i think it was me and one other girl who went there to get the shot um but i want to talk about um there was a time where i did have to walk the arena when it was raining and we had to wear like trash bags over our clothes so our clothes didn't get wet and the reason that we had to do it was because in the van the staff members had left some of us to like go do something and basically we were talking about music which you're not supposed to talk about music or your life back at home which includes what kind of music you listen to and stuff like that and we were we were talking about that what artists we like we were laughing and talking about stuff so yeah we got in trouble we had to walk the arena for a while i think we had to do it two days in a row but we got to like sleep in between and go inside and eat and stuff and we could change clothes so that's kind of a similar situation and then as far as the woman who came out saying that she was molested by she was there i'm in no place to really talk about that because i had never heard of it before and i believe that you should always take the woman's word because of what's happened to me and how many of my friends that i told much later on that didn't believe me and that are still friends with that person i know how much it hurts when people don't believe you and i know how much courage it takes to come out obviously people make it up but the analogy that i like to use is if someone runs to you on the street and says my mom was just hit by a car please come help you're not gonna say oh well she might be lying she might be lying for attention like you just your immediate response is to believe the victim just in case that that happened obviously it's a different scenario i don't like when people compare things that aren't the same and obviously those car accidents are an accident and um a lot of guys get stuff made up about them and it does mess up their life but it's a very very small percentage um one in three women are sexually assaulted so it should just be natural for us to you know assume to believe women because of the things that happen to us so often i never saw inappropriate behavior at the ranch i will say that i never felt violated by a staff member but again i'm in no place to say that that didn't happen to someone else and i could totally see that happening if there was a staff member there who happen to be a sexual predator it would be easy for them to get away with it there and that's all that i'm going to say now as far as my sexual assault story that happened to me in high school you know before i went to the ranch it was my therapist at turnabout ranch who helped me come to terms with that that's what happened to me i do feel like there were some things skimmed over that had to do with why i was acting out but she was able to dig out of me that i didn't consent to doing that and it was my virginity we're talking about which you know in a christian private school you're taught that basically your worth as a woman is based off of your purity i'm not saying everyone treats women like that that that taught at that school or that has anything to do with that kind of stuff but i believed that because of what i was taught and it was really hard for me to talk about it with anybody it took a lot for her to get it out of me but once i understood that it wasn't my fault um that it was non-consensual there's nothing that i could have done because of the size difference and just all of that kind of stuff you know it really helps me a lot and i'll i'll admit that even though it happened at turnabout ranch that did help me as a person i don't know if i would have ever been able to admit that to myself if it weren't for therapy now i could have gotten therapy outside of the ranch i'm sure the same thing would have happened but i do appreciate that it happened there where i had time by myself to reflect and just think about it i do write music not so much anymore i still do occasionally but i wrote a song about it while i was at the ranch and my therapist allowed me to sing it for like some of the staff members which i know maybe sounds like cringy but that really helped me and i'm being completely honest so that's a good thing that i got out of the ranch in the therapy there because danielle said the therapists you know weren't all that great uh i could see where she's coming from my therapist everyone knew she was like the best therapist that was there and again there's some things i think that were skimmed over that had a lot to do with um my trauma and why i was upset um but i did get that clarity on that situation from it so that was good for me basically now i'm going to go over some of the comments that i've gotten most of them are from the past few days i've gotten like a few hundred comments in the past few days but it just helps me understand what y'all are interested in things that i don't think about often that people maybe wonder about so the first one it's crazy how you couldn't talk to any boys did you hate the staff for not allowing you to talk to each other could you talk without staff after level two so you couldn't talk to the opposite sex the entire time at turnabout ranch like it just wasn't allowed there was a time there was no staff in the building and this little kid he came in and like asked me a question like where's something i don't remember but i talked to him um that's the only time i talked to a boy there that i can recall and no i didn't tell on him he didn't tell on me like who cares you know what i mean uh did i hate the staff for not letting us talk to each other i mean i was frustrated because you know it's kind of important to be able to talk to other kids i feel like it would have maybe helped a lot if i was able to build more of a bond with those kids over what they had been through like maybe more group therapy we could talk i could talk to the other girls level two and up before that you couldn't talk to anybody then you could talk to the girls once you got to level two level two at roundy you had to have a staff member present to speak to each other we couldn't talk in the loft um like danielle said in her video um that she said they were singing in the loft oh no they would not allow you to like sing for sure in the loft no singing was a big no-no like you couldn't sing you couldn't dance like it was no i remember one time there's a staff member who let us dance in the rain then the nurse from turnabout ranch was someone in the comments said is their aunt which is crazy but she came up she was like you guys should probably not dance because someone's going to come out here and get you guys in trouble and like that was very therapeutic for us to be able to be out there dancing in the rain you know like we were like hurt kids that was something fun that was something and it just seemed like that really kind of like killed our joy a little bit so i guess i could see how someone would have spite towards the staff for that kind of stuff but it was just the rules the next one says please do more story time at the ranch talk about the food walkways are clothes hand washed talk is there mosquitoes um do they teach math is there music uh how are the animals that's a lot um the clothes are hand washed down at roundy we have to wash our own clothes on the washboard with creek water that's not a lie we bathed in creek water that was heated up um creek water was really all we got to use um and then once you got up to the barn there was washing machines that you could use i think you got to do laundry once a week there i don't remember there being mosquitoes maybe i think we had bug spray we could use so maybe that was why i didn't notice it they did teach math the teacher there was some dude who was like hitchhiking or he was like traveling the country and he lived in like one of those like store it metal storage things i don't know what it's called but like what the boxcar children live in i think i don't know but he lived in one of those he told us this but he was our math teacher he obviously had to have some kind of certification and he wasn't a terrible teacher he's better at teaching english but if you were behind on school which i didn't finish my grade i left like a month before we finished sophomore year at that private school and so i had like a little bit of school to finish so i finished it there there's no music besides the time i got to sing my song to the staff members um we went to church you could choose to go to church if you were level four you had to go if you were level three level one and two didn't do church but we went to an actual church with people from the town and we could sing there like with the songs and stuff other than that no no therapy type music no music the animals were awesome there was a dog named twix that was at roundy i'm very much an animal person so having animals there probably had a huge impact on how i handled it but she was down at roundy and then there was cats i think one's name was like savannah no that was the dog's name the dog was savannah or the sahara or something like that she was really sweet she was a black dog there was a cat that i can't remember its name and then we had pigs a really traumatic thing was we had to go take a pig that we had all bonded with to go get slaughtered that was extremely traumatizing for me as well as my friend who was a literal vegan because of religious purposes and they made her go that's something that just came back to my mind i probably was blocking that out they were tasing the pig in the in the trailer and like we didn't see it get slaughtered but that was like really terrible we loved that pig its name was wilbur we fed it every day we pet it it was like that was really sad but there was chickens there was a donkey um obviously horses that we all had so yeah that's pretty much answers everything in that question so this one says how was your experience arriving at turnabout at turnabout ranch i wonder if they ever used you for free child labor so my parents drove me to turnabout ranch um because they didn't see me as like a risk of trying to escape i guess got there i had to go in the bathroom up at the office and like change into the clothes that we had to wear which was baggy jeans plain t-shirt boots or tennis shoes or hiking boots and like put your hair up our hair had to be up all the time boys had to have short hair and then i went with this girl who was a level four and she and a staff member drove me up to roundy and i just sat in a tp and wrote and we weren't allowed to say yes sir and yes ma'am i'm from the south i'm in texas so i was raised to always address adults yes ma'am yes sir and they were like mad that i was doing that so that was weird a weird thing i had to adjust to i got there in may the weather really wasn't that hot or bad i know that danielle said that they had to be out there in the cold i 100 don't doubt that because they're pretty adamant on you staying in your teepee for at least three days we could only come in to sleep on the floor with no pillow at night was i used for free child labor i mean yeah but since we were minors and our parents obviously have full legal custody of us they choose what is okay for us to do and not to do so it was consensual on our parents part so i i mean it wasn't illegal but we had to like haul hay for the ranch uh we did a volunteer thing where we would get volunteer hours there was like this tour of utah where these bikers came and like rode around and it was like an event we got to the higher up levels got to go to and volunteer um we had to pick up horse poop as punishment um we had morning duties like cleaning the outhouses was something we had to do so yeah i mean we did labor it was free and we were children so this last one says how old are you and bad baby are you close in age she's mad funny though um so i think she's 17 17 or 18 i'm 21. i turned 21 in september so she was 13 when she came to the ranch i was 16. so she had probably just turned 13 when she got there that's the youngest you could be at the ranch the age is 13 to 17. if you turned 18 while you were there you could like leave obviously and obviously everyone who turned 18 there left if they could find like a way to get back home but there's so much more i have entire scrapbook that is full of pictures from there that i can go through i have all my journals from there sorry if it keeps shifting it's because i don't have storage on my phone it keeps cutting off i have to keep deleting stuff but i have a huge box right there full of all my turnabout ranch stuff and i can go through that in another video i don't want this one to be too long if you guys want that uh please subscribe to my channel because that's the best way for me to be able to go live and get monetized and also you guys to be able to see when i post a new video if you're interested in this kind of stuff so that really helps me and it helps you if you want to see more videos like this and then make sure that you comments questions because i liked answering those kind of questions so anything i didn't talk about you guys ask and i'll answer and then i can talk more about that girl that tried to sabotage me because that was a whole big deal like she got she got in really big trouble like all this kind of stuff and i can show you guys a lot of my stuff so um that's gonna be it for this video but i hope everyone has a good day and i'll [Music] see

Channel: Abbie Parker

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Keywords: turn about ranch, bhad bhabie, T.A.R., Dr Phil, Danielle Bregoli, Live, Bhad Bhabie Live, TAR, turn, about, ranch, around, troubled teen, troubled teens, exposing, exposing turn about ranch

Id: -F4cQbaZ8Kk

Length: 34min 22sec (2062 seconds)

Published: Sun Feb 28 2021