Kim Walker - About Worship Leading

the first time that Brian had me lead a song oh my lord I I just started out just singing background with him you know and so this one Sunday morning here at Bethel he was leading and he picked out one song for me to leave he picked it out I didn't pick it out and I got up there and I'm like I am so nervous cuz this like my first time gonna be leading and Bethel and I'm on this age and the band I'm just freaking out and I halfway through the song I just totally killed it awful awful awful and I just churn and ran off the stage bawling and that was it in the middle of the song just run off bawling and ice' crying and after worship I was like I'm never doing this again I am NOT called to lead worship I'm not going to be a worship leader oh i'm ryan jenner both i you'll do it again you'll be fine you'll be fine and i just i was like i was miserable let me tell you i was miserable because i also have this thing in me of like can't listen for years i grew up on a stage but I was performing performing and leading worship two totally different things and don't mix them up okay if you're getting mixed up you probably should come down for just a little while get it sorted out and then back back up there in the pursuit of following him it's like he just brought my destiny to me I didn't even necessarily have to chase my destiny it just came my making sense it's like I'm looking I have my eyes fixed on him and I'm looking at him and I'm walking towards him and it's like as I'm not looking down or looking over here he's just putting my steps right in front of me and aligning every step and that is how it's been for me along the entire way the very first thing and this can be the first thing I'm going to tell you guys is I learned never to promote myself I have never once had to call a church and say can I come lead worship at your church I've never had to ask to you know do this or do that I've never promoted myself in any way and I've always allowed the Lord to just make the path for me and put me where I'm supposed to be at the right time because it's so much better when it's in his timing right and that doesn't mean that God won't say I want you to go audition for this team or I want you to go do this or it doesn't mean that there won't be a process that he may put you through that's not what that means that's not what I'm saying but what I am saying is that it's about trust it's about trusting that God is who he says he is and that he will bring about the destiny that he's called you to and not trying to force something to happen before it's time you get what I'm saying and so the core value for me my personal value became I don't promote myself I just allow the Lord to open the doors and set me where I'm supposed to be when I'm supposed to be there always choose honor first have you guys talked about honor in here it's like super big around here you guys felt that no that honor honor culture of Honor it's like everywhere here and it's a big core value in this place this is what it looks like for us as worshipers we are here to serve and to bring people into God's presence and the only way that we can really do that and be really successful as if we can understand a heart of honor of honoring those people and honoring the Lord right yeah guys with me so so sometimes it looks like this I will go into a church and then they'll invite me to come and lead worship and they know ahead of time like we have kind of a writer kind of thing that we'll send out that kind of like leadership actually made it just as a protection for me um before I was married you know single young woman traveling by herself so leadership just wanted to set some parameters to make sure that when I did travel I was taken care of and in that I kind of talked about how how I am in worship one of those things being singing in tongues which a lot of places a lot of people have disagreements with um and I would get somewhere and they would know that I had a time I'd get there and they'd go oh and by the way you know a little thing you do when you sing in tongues could you not do that let me tell you being a justice person everything inside me wants to be like excuse me I don't think so like I want to be like don't box me in oh man watch out if you try and box me and you better watch out that's why I have to say to you but I don't because I have a core value of Honor this says I am there to honor them and even if it kills me I say all right sure no problem and I go in I lead worship I honor them I don't do that thing they asked me to do and almost I would say like 95% of the time they come back and they go oh remember that thing we told you just forget about that just be yourself and I'm like okay all right and the point I'm trying to make with that is if you will always choose honor God will always take care of you always he always got to back you know you know the expression you know we're talking about being faithful of what we've been given I think about that in terms of favor and um for me what that looks like is I you know you can feel your boundaries like you can feel like how far you can go or even when you're talking in a conversation with a friend and they're like talking about a problem or whatever and you start to put your two cents in you can put you can feel when you've crossed a boundary with that friend don't you guys know what I'm talking about like maybe you um spoke a little too frankly and you maybe don't have that degree of intimacy with them yet or whatever right so for me being faithful what you're given is understanding how much favor you have and being faithful with that like I hear some often people are they're upset that they they're like I want more favor I I don't I'm not going to do the things I want to do um I need more favor to do this to do that and I'm like I'm wondering well have you recognized what favor you do have and what are you doing with it like when I was when I was working you know worship pastor and raising people up and stuff like that we get people come in and um we'd put people to be worship leaders in home groups and they would throw such fits about it and let me tell you first of all don't despise small beginnings because it is way way way harder to lead worship in a small home group than up here I mean I'm telling you you want to grow get in a place like that um me first of all it's awkward because you're like the only one singing you know and it's hard to get because everyone's like we're in a small group I don't want to sing loud it's like this whole awkward thing and if you make any mistakes like it's way I mean it's so heard more than anything you know up here the band might cover it or something you know but man home groups are tough and I get so frustrated when they didn't want to take this this thing with this measure of favor that we gave to them and they weren't happy with it and they wanted something else something bigger and I'm going but you have not been faithful with what we did give you it's like giving you a bunch of ingredients and saying show me what you can cook with these ingredients how creative can you get with what you have like that is exactly like this whole idea of choosing honor and understanding where your favorite is at and being faithful to that like when I got hired on here I understood like these were my parameters and I ran as far as I could to the edge of that I did everything I could within those parameters I was faithful to that and then when I got to my edge and I'd exhausted all of my options I stood there like this just waitin waitin and at the right time the Lord would open the door and expand the favor expand the authority but it was because I held these two things so important choosing honor always choosing honor honoring the vision of Brian and Jen honoring the vision of this house honoring the vision of my leaders and I chose to take the favour I had even if it was this much and be thankful for that and be faithful to it just get what I'm saying I've had a lot of people at times ask me what do you do if you don't agree with your pastor if you know you're the worship leader and your pastor like you know doesn't like the songs you do or they're boxing me in or you know whatever is you know I these are this is what I tell them and this is just Kim's opinion but you have two options one is you can leave nobody's forcing you to stay there and if you don't like it leave like it's got a problem and you're not getting your way and you can't stand it you have that option but the other option is you can choose honor and you can be faithful with whatever is that they have given you and you can earn their trust and you can choose to honor their leadership over your life and choose to partner with their vision and serve and choose to look at it as this is an opportunity for me to see what the Lord will do in my life when I am faithful with what I have right now like that first of all is not an easy but it is the most rewarding thing ever it is an amazing thing when you can go this is really hard for me but I'm going to be faithful and serve right now and I'm going to honor the man that is the leadership over me the woman that is leadership over me and I'm going to choose to honor their vision and honor what they're asking me

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Length: 9min 58sec (598 seconds)

Published: Mon Jul 13 2009