I WAS PLAYED...NOW WHAT?

okay [Music] hello hello good morning good afternoon good night wherever you are welcome to my channel my name is carissa and i am in palm springs we just got here a little bit ago the sun is setting i think the first vlog ever was when we were here so this is exciting to come back and we're just coming here to take some photos have a little girls trip our room is so cute we just checked into la serena villas and then tomorrow we're going to move over to their like little sister resort which is next door at del marcos um highly recommend both places they're so cute um so i'll give you guys a little room tour right now sun just set but if you guys watch my vlogs this looks very familiar we take lots of photos over here but this is our room [Music] she's chilling this is our room i'm gonna close it so bugs don't come in right here it is it's so cute a little closed area i already hung up my stuff and so did danielle so we can shoot and then we have a little bathroom the shower is amazing and then outside okay we have our own little patio and there's a fire pit right there and then a bathtub and then some cute little i mean giant pots i already had welcome champagne and there is welcome tequila but because we're taking photos i'm not gonna drink it don't mind me if i have a peanut maybe i will take a shot later after we shoot daniel just suggested that i take a shot and then we ride bikes she doesn't care about my safety we take a shot no danielle doesn't drink i do but i'm here i'm here to work and get stuff done so it's not like a drinking trip it's like a fun content girls trip so that peanut was really good and i just realized that i'm really hungry is it if you have another like no it's just a peanut no no it's not the vibe okay we're gonna go shoot really quick this is my outfit this dress is from beginning boutique it's really cute i also have like the long version these little sandals are from revolve i think the brand is rey we're gonna go shoot [Music] i want to stay oh oh no no no you didn't put something on daniel's having a major it keeps popping like up no dude no no we're gonna take photos right here i've taken some photos here before i don't know i'm like not feeling my face and skin right now so i'm gonna do like some blurry like motion shots like this you know like walking across you know it's a dessert i literally feel like that right now so it is what it is we always have something wrong you guys know these tops it's like i don't understand okay one second i'm gonna set my camera in here i'm praying to god there's no spiders scorpions or snakes [Music] how does this happen live on instagram how do i almost always go live on instagram have mercy so see how my foot is up that's like the vibes oh there's life yeah yeah yes thank you they complimented me i'm just kidding they were chirping like freaking like squads everyone looks like they never i'll take it i'm having a bad day so hype me up baby here's the situation this is like the angle we're like going for but it's hard because neither of us can like drive this hurts my butt so bad mission accomplished now we got what you don't even want to know what i just saw um pop is not even realistic for anything we're both just wearing risky outfits because if i raise my arms like my whole thing comes out um we're gonna go get some food now but check out the sky [Music] [Music] i will just say i look how i feel we checked out of los arena villas earlier today and then we checked in next door to del marco's hotel realistic uh tour here and then outside right now here's our little patio and we're gonna get in the bath so we're filling it up right now definitely had to rinse out the bath first because there was a pincher bug crawling around in it so we'll see how that goes we worked at a little restaurant at the hotel and just like got stuff done and then we just walked around got some burritos and ice cream and now we're back feeling extremely full and large and in charge and it's okay so we're gonna take a bath because why not and then we're gonna do a really fun activity so this is what danielle got us we started working on these at the jacuzzi earlier this is what it is i'm not gonna open it again so it's called burn after reading and it's a book and it's like a deep dark diary when i look into the past the thing i miss the most is blah blah the person who had the greatest impact on my life the person i have loved the most the hardest thing i've ever done if i could do it all over again i would change things i've been addicted to one thing i regret in the whole world i will never forgive it's just like a fun thing but like you don't realize how intense the questions are until it's like time to like write down your answers and then we're literally gonna burn the book after it's why it's called burn after writing [Music] i'm covering my shirt because my boobs keep falling out of the stuff today is the last day we're both ready last time i vlogged was when we were gonna take a bath and like do our book and stuff we took a bath and then i literally knocked out and i was delusional so we didn't do anything i fell asleep to watching mean girls the best movie on earth so we woke up we walked to get some breakfast now we're gonna just take a few more photos and then we're gonna hit the road it's very very dry out right now and it's very hot and i woke up with do a little tour shall we one two three four five six seven eight fights on my leg and they're not itchy so i think it's a spider so i definitely slept with a spider i love that i'm hoping it was like a daddy long like you know something i could literally lay here all day long [Music] hello it is the next day we drove home from palm springs loved it such a nice little getaway i'm on my computer right now because i have so much work to do i came home to a very empty fridge because i did not go grocery shopping i still have not gone grocery shopping because i literally just don't have time i'm working and it was perfect because my hello fresh box was literally sitting at my front door so i was like thank you if you don't know what hello fresh is it is america's number one meal kit before i show you guys like the recipes that i got you can click the link in the description or go to hellofresh.com and use my code krista duncan14 for 14 free meals and three free gifts i'm so excited right now because it's such a vibe it's so cold outside the sun just went down so it's getting dark it's nice and warm in here and i'm gonna cook a nice little home-cooked meal i love this because like i said i don't have time to go to the grocery store so it saves up so much time because who has time to make a list drive to the grocery store all that so this is perfect i also can choose how many people i'm cooking for so for me i choose two people that way i just have like one little meal left over and i don't waste a bunch of food because so much food gets wasted when i go to the store i'll buy like a pack of strawberries for instance and i will waste half of them because it's just too much so everything comes pre-packaged pre-portioned and it's exciting because right now there are so many different seasonal recipes in the hello fresh market they have chicken ramen peppercorn crusted beef tenderloin and then they have tons of little add-ons like holiday cheese and charcuterie boards i love charcuterie boards i'm starving so i'm going to show you guys the recipes that i got these are the three recipe cards crispy kicking cayenne chicken cutlets melty monterey jack burgers sweet chili pork and cabbage stir-fried this is the one i think i'm gonna make tonight because it just sounds so good as you can see it shows you all of the ingredients and it comes with everything in a nice little insulated box delivered right to your door everything is pre-packaged which is amazing and then step-by-step directions on the back with photos so you literally can't mess up you become a chef in your own home and that's what i'm about to do right now so don't forget to go to hellofresh.com use my code kristendungun14 for 14 free meals and three free gifts chef carissa is activated here is my ingredient bag so i'm like not good at picking out meat at the grocery store so i love that it's just like this is the one you use chrissa all the ingredients are pre-measured and they're fresh get it hello fresh we got the cabbage the little crispy onion thingies the perfect amount of rice and then we got all of the pre-measured sauces and seasonings because that would be a pain to go buy all the jars and measure out so this is beautiful also please ignore my nails i had an anxiety attack last night and i peeled off all of my gel nail polish so it's fine everything's fine i'm fine rings are off washed my hands and now i'm gonna get to cooking [Music] all right you know what time it is it's taste test time i'm gonna be using a big fat spoon instead of a fork because i want to get every inch of goodness into my mouth at once this is probably the most like colorful meal i've ever made and there's so much protein and veggie i have never ever in my life made stir fry i'm a stir-fry rookie until now we'll see if i was a stir fry queen wow i nailed it wow the crunchy onions on top just like add it [Music] that is so bomb like that is so so good and so yummy and like flavorful i could have never thought of that recipe on my own it was literally so easy i thought stir fry was gonna be like hard to make that was so easy and it's so good so go to hellofresh.com use my code krista duncan 14 for 14 free meals and three free gifts so convenient so yummy and you literally become a chef in your own kitchen okay you guys know i take my pride in being the vulnerability queen it is like i don't know a couple days later i never really understood like seasonal depression until now i feel like i'm gonna be totally fine after like christmas and new year's um everything's like back to normal you know what i mean in palm springs i was fine like totally good and it's like a week later and so much has happened like in my personal life that i am just like struggling a lot i'm very overwhelmed with work stuff i am missing my grandma a lot right now because it's like the first holiday without her and my birthday's coming up and i'm just like not excited for some reason and your girl was played by a stupid boy and i don't know i'm really like mad i just find it extremely disrespectful when someone thinks that they can like play with your emotions the way that happened to me it doesn't make sense but i'm just like going through it i don't know i have so much to do that's like i literally will film and then the camera will turn off and then i'm like i don't know like reality kicks in and i'm just i'm struggling i'm not gonna lie but i go to therapy in two days so i'm really oh i always feel so much better after i see my therapist just because like she can talk some sense into me and i won't be so like confused and like i don't know but your girl has a lot of work to do and i'm going to go to meet danielle and we're both gonna edit we're both going through stuff right now so we've like really just connected these past few weeks because it's almost like the same stuff is happening to us at the same time like within days of each other we're like dealing with certain situations so we're very like attached at the hip right now so we're gonna both go and like edit stuff we're just gonna go and sit there together order some food and work i just like i don't know i wanted to share it on here in case anyone else is secretly going through things or they are going through things and just know that you're not alone i will always share what i'm like going through for the most part just so other people can feel like they have someone that they can relate to i guess um because i know that i would need someone like that in my life so i will happily be vulnerable for you if you need that i am proud of myself for reaching out to my therapist because i haven't been in a couple months because i was like i finally feel good like i don't know i felt like i had graduated from therapy life is just really tough right now so i was like hey can i come back i need to just like distract myself and keep being productive the worst part about being played is like i know my worth i know my worth if you're not gonna like respect the fact that you like have my attention and my loyalty then i'm walking away and that's that so that's what i did i'm just going through the process of healing and getting over this situation i just wish i could like fast forward to when i'm like better comment down below if you guys have ever been through similar situations and what do you do to get through it tips are welcome for me to read and everyone else to read feel free to share i haven't been through this since like high school so it's like weird to go through it again it's fine it's only gonna make me stronger that's what i have to recognize and then i can see the red flags sooner and i can't ignore them i can't ignore them that's my problem is i see red fox and i'm just like oh it's fine i brush it under the rug and it all piles up and hits me in the face and here i am we can form a bond in the comments here be a little support group for one another that's what this channel is for is to support one another do not let your crown slip i love when people say that to me because i'm like you are right do not let your crown slip ladies we are freaking queens we are kings we are all of the above and we are so amazing so worthy to be here and we are worthy of good things we deserve good things and we will find good things all in due time how much time you ask i have no idea we will figure it out all right guys here is my setup that looks so good hello everybody welcome to chris's vlog today we're gonna be talking about french fries french fries french fries fix everything i'm going to turn into a potato i ordered them i'm already a potato a big fat sad potato sister potatoes have to stick together no matter what she's the sweet potato and i'm i'm a tater tot all right we're gonna start working and eating and distracting ourselves oh my gosh i'm having a day you guys okay first of all it's pouring rain it's a very very bad storm i had therapy today me and max got to my car i had everything like my umbrella my camera my purse all his stuff and i get to my car and my car will open and i'm like hmm that's weird i had grabbed the wrong purse and my keys and wallet were locked inside my apartment so i had to walk to my like leasing office there were sandbags around the door because it's pouring so bad and there's like floods so i had to go around the entire building in the rain and my umbrella is going like inside out and it's a disaster max is trying to pee on all the bushes i'm like let's go i'm knocking on the freaking leasing office front door now and they won't let people in because the i don't know because of covet or something so i'm soaking wet max is soaking wet and then thank god one of the workers let me into my apartment then i got to therapy perfect time right on time i had a really good session she told me that i've just been going through so much stuff and i told her everything she's helping me just with a lot i've been going to her since i was like 16 so she knows me very well she said that my assignment is to go put up my christmas tree because she said you need to celebrate you and everything that you've survived and everything you've been through and you're still here and you're celebrating your faith and you're celebrating being here and you have hope i just have to keep going so i'm gonna go home right now and hang out with my sister for a little bit and eat something and then go put up my treat okay so i just got home and i put these up these are cute i got these from target last year i don't have time to put up my tree today just because i have a lot of work to do so i think i'm gonna do it tomorrow i scheduled my workouts i scheduled things to do with friends like i'm gonna go look at christmas lights then i'll put on my christmas tree so i'm just gonna keep busy and keep moving on with my life i have a very hard time with like wasting my time or like having somebody waste my time because my last relationship was such i feel like i was like robbed of a lot of my time it's time for me to be happy and i don't want to live another second being sad or depressed and i just need to really really focus on doing anything and everything i can to make my life happy and fun and not like look back and have any regrets like dang i really didn't put up a christmas tree because i was sad i don't want to be like that so i'm gonna put on my tree i'm going to celebrate having hope and comment down below how you guys are doing also in a couple days is my birthday i said i didn't want to celebrate it um i feel like i'm just gonna host a freaking party here and have all of my closest friends over and play games and have a great time maybe go out after and i will vlog some of it i don't even have an outfit i was thinking about it i was like i literally don't even know what i'm gonna wear come back for my next vlog it'll be my birthday vlog we'll see what i end up doing but i'm gonna do something i have to do something so stay tuned for that but thank you guys so much for watching i know this video is like all over the place keep quality people in your life because they will help you get through the dark times find things that make you happy and don't let other people get in the way of your happiness that's all i have to say with that note i'm going to get back to work i love you so much and i'm so appreciative of each and every one of you and i hope you guys have a happy holiday see you next saturday

Channel: Karissa Duncan

Views: 7,024

Keywords: karissa duncan, relationship, boyfriend, girlfriend, karissa boyfriend, breakup, being played, heartbreak, dating, how to, hellofresh, girls trip, girl talk, vlogmas, advice, girl advice, dating advice, holiday, depression, my story, storytime, podcast, roadtrip

Id: 9PdtUy3tlF8

Length: 21min 36sec (1296 seconds)

Published: Sat Dec 18 2021