I spent a day with EX-AMISH (who escaped)

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-My name's Anthony Padilla. Today, I'll be spending a day with formerly Amish to learn the truth about growing up in a strict community closed off from the rest of society who reject modern conveniences like most electricity, running water, and indoor plumbing. By the end of this video, we'll find out was adjusting to general society exhilarating as they discovered technology far more advanced than they could have ever dreamed of? Or has leaving their friends and family behind in favor of the loud and chaotic modern world proven far too anxiety-inducing and stressful to ever find a moment of peace at all? [music] -Hello, CJ. -Hi, how's it going? [music] -Emma. -Hi. [music] -Kate. -Hi, Anthony. How are you? [music] -Do you know how many generations your family has been part of the Amish community? -Our family goes back to the 1600s. -Before the US was even a thing? -Yes. -Forever? -Forever. [laughs] -I think forever is the right answer. -There's not a lot of information on the internet. -There's not an internet database of Amish ancestry. -No, there's not. [laughs] [music] -Which community were you a part of and what was your daily life like? -I grew up in Eastern Pennsylvania and I was part of Old Order Amish Church, grew up on a farm. To me, it was a super normal life. It was just the way I grew up. -The Northern Indiana Amish Community, a more liberal community. We still didn't have cars. We didn't have electricity. Fortunately, I was able to go to public school. Half of the school was Amish and the other half was not Amish. -You were exposed to new people every single day who had new beliefs that went outside of what you were taught? -Yes. We were very aware of the outside world. -I was a part of the Swartzentruber group. Daily life consisted of wake up at 5:00 AM, make breakfast. Somebody has to milk the cows. Then I started helping make money on the farm. My family did basket weaving. Taking care of my little siblings. I have 13 siblings. -So small family? -Small. [laughter] -Were there any strict rules that really stand out to you now? -All the women, they wear their hair the same, same type of dress, same type of shoes and everything. I wasn't supposed to wear a certain type of red and I wanted to wear red -just because I wasn't allowed to wear red. -Really? There were specific tones that you weren't allowed to wear? -You weren't really supposed to wear bright colors that made you stand out. You were supposed to wear colors that were a little bit more modest, a cool blue or a cool gray. You weren't allowed to wear white or red. -If we went over to non-Amish cousin's house or something, we'd watch some TV and stuff like that. -You're very much exposed to what other lifestyles were like, but it was just shunned to bring that home? -Yes. -We couldn't show any hair. We always had to have our hair up in the back, always had to have something on our head that didn't show any hair in the front or even our ears. The dresses had to be down to the ankle, couldn't be too long or too short. Every two weeks, we had church. We were forbidden from smiling or laughing in church or even talking loud. We had to just sit there completely in silence. -Were you told anything about the outside world? Like were you told that if you left and joined the outside world something would happen? -Everything was bad; technology, the outside world. I had seen computers. We would go to Walmart to do shopping. -You were exposed to a bunch of technology there. They have huge TV sections and computers. -You walk like this, just peek. -Really? You felt it was bad or going against your morals or shameful to even look at this technology? -Of course, if I was by myself or one of my siblings was with me, then we might look a little bit more at that stuff, but we would never touch it. We'd always just feel guilty like, "No, this is not where we're supposed to be." -Did you feel a temptation to look at the TV screen to understand what these computers were doing? -Yes. It was tempting. -We were always taught that since we were raised Amish that if we leave or don't become Amish again and join the church, then we will probably go to hell. -Were you taught that hell was a very literal physical place where you would just experience torture? -We were taught that hell is just a fire seven times hotter than a campfire that just burns and burns [crosstalk]. -Seven times hotter than a campfire specifically? -Yes, and that your body never dies. It's just burning in that fire forever. -Did you buy into that? Did you believe that if you did something out of line you would feel that constant torture? -Yes, I did. [music] -Were there any dating rituals or courtship rituals that existed in your community? -A group of guys get together and they decide who they will bring to me. They bring that guy upstairs to the girl's room which would have been my room in the middle of the night. It's usually Saturday night. -Are you expecting someone? -No. -You weren't expecting anyone yet some nominated guy is coming up to your room at night? -Usually, by 11:00 or 12:00. They leave him outside. The group that brings him, they come upstairs and wake me up and ask if I would have a date with him. Even if I say no, they will not take that for an answer. They just harass me until I say yes. -Okay, so you have no choice. -Then they leave him there and they go home. -What would typically happen? -Back then, I was super shy. I hardly would talk, so I would just pretend I'm falling asleep. -[laughs] Okay. You're there in the bed pretending to fall asleep, there's a guy standing there looking down at you? -No, he'll get into bed too. He leaves his clothes on. He takes off his shoes. -Okay, so he's polite. -Yes. Then every 15 minutes or 30 minutes, I need out." -I was terrified. -I'd be terrified too. Can you explain what a rumspringa is? -Rumspringa, you go out with your friends and you tend to get things that you're not allowed to have, but you still hide them. One Saturday night, you might go to Walmart with your friends and you might pick up a radio and start listening to music, but you still hide the radio and your parents would still burn the radio if they would find it. -Really? Wow. Did you ever do that? Were you buying radios and hiding them? -Of course, yes. -It's just a part of Amish life at that point? -We tried sneaking in some radios and listening to them, but my dad found them. They got smashed. -Was it nerve-wracking having that radio around knowing that it might be found? -We were always on edge. Is he going to find it or not? Usually, he didn't let us know he found out it. We just went out to where we hid it and it disappeared. -Usually as in, there were many times that you did this? -Yes. -[laughs] -You're not allowed to have white shoes. I would go out and get a pair of white shoes which my mother threw into the mud after I got them. -What? That is a crime. -A lot of kids, they start drinking and they start listening to music. -Can I tell you what my very ignorant stereotype of what rumspringa was? -I would love to hear it. -I thought that Amish kids weren't told about the outside world at all and had no idea what technology was really at all. Then at the age of 16, they were told, "Guess what? There's an outside world and you can go experience it. If you want to go experience it, you can make the decision to come back and join us, join the church and be Amish forever, or you're going to leave forever and be banished." -You're not encouraged to go out and enjoy the life. You're actually encouraged to stay within the church. You're encouraged to go to church. You're encouraged to not partake in all of that. -I thought that parents were encouraging their kids to go out there and experience what life was like, assuming that the kids would be so overwhelmed that they would say, "Take me back." Then it would just be like -they're back forever. -Please, I can't deal with this beautiful show that I'm watching. It's just too interesting. -I can't deal with the infinite possibilities of Netflix and Spotify. It's too much. What was your education system like? -Education stops at 9th grade. As soon as you're 15, they take you out of school. For somebody like me, I absolutely loved school and I wanted to continue going to school. It was always my dream to go to college, but I thought that wasn't possible for me. -You really wanted higher education? -Absolutely. I wanted to continue going to school. I loved going to school and learning new things. -Are there any things that you're astonished that you once believed? -I had always been told that the world is flat. After I left, I realized it's not flat. -[laughs] How was that, realizing that the earth was not flat? -It definitely piqued my interest because to learn of all these other countries, Missouri or Ohio isn't the only state in the US. -Were you taught about American history? Did you know who George Washington was? -No. [laughter] -Were there any things that brought you joy in your daily life? -No. -No? -There's nothing to look forward to. I didn't have friends. I knew girls my age. They all seem so perfect. I had issues. I wanted to know everything about why do we do this and this and this. I was just miserable. Sometimes, I was very hard on myself thinking that I have to change the way I think. Like I have to stay Amish. There's no other way. -You felt like there was more of a problem with you. -I was depressed and I didn't know it because Amish don't talk about depression or anxiety. From a very young age, we were told what to do. -You were more muted, so you couldn't express happiness or good emotions and you also couldn't express frustration or bad emotions. -Right. Everything was just stuffed inside me. -What were your biggest struggles during that period? -I was a very independent person, but I was very frustrated about not being able to express myself. I didn't feel like there was a lot of room for that in the way that I dressed and in the way that I acted. -When did you decide that you just weren't cut out for the Amish lifestyle? -Probably at the age of 17, 18, I started questioning things. I started just having that strong desire not to want to be Amish. -I was 18. I went out and bought a car. My dad was like, "Is that your car out there? I said, "Yes." He said, "Well, either you get rid of the car or you might move out of my house," expecting that I would get rid of the car. -Right. -I was like, "If it's that important to you that I get rid of the car, then I've gone," -I was 15 years old when I had the thought of wanting to leave. Those few years there, it was always in the back of my mind, look for opportunities where I could learn about the outside world to kind of prepare myself. It was very nerve-wracking to think about me leaving, and then thinking about what it does to my mom my dad, but ultimately, I could learn how not to feel like I'm obligated to make them happy. -What was your process like for leaving? -I put everything in my car and I was like, "Okay, I'm out of here." I was driving down to Florida. I just remember being on, I think, it was like I-95. The possibilities were endless. The road in front of me was open. I just realized how much potential I had. I'll never forget it. It was awesome. -It was a dark time in my life. Drove out the driveway. It was brutally hard. Doubting like, "Is this the right thing? What's going to happen?" You're walking away from everybody, everything you know. It was a struggle. -It was January 10th, 2006. I remember waking up. The day before, I had no idea that I'd wake up the next morning and realize, "This is the day." -Oh, so you didn't even have it planned out. -My mom said that she and my dad were going to town. I thought, "Okay, they're leaving. They're going to be gone all day. I could get away somehow." I was hiding a little track phone. -Oh, you had a phone on you. -I had a phone on me. I just haven't used it yet because I was trying to conserve the battery. -You hadn't even tested it. Did you know how to use a phone? -No, I didn't know how to use a phone. -You just had the phone. You're like, "I have to figure this out." -I figured it out and I dialed a number that I had that was given to me by an outsider. -Were they known for breaking Amish out? -No. I was hiding that phone number, I didn't know who it belonged to. I called that number and a lady answered. Then she said, "Yes, I've been expecting you to call sometime." -I've been expecting you -I asked her, "Can you come pick me up in two hours?" She said yes and she picked me up. She was like, "Are you sure you want to do this?" I just kept saying yes. It turns out she had left the Amish 30 years before. -Did you have any game plan? Did you know where you were going, how you were going to pay for all of it? -I had $50 in my pocket. I thought that would get me a long way. [laughter] -How long did it take you to earn that much money? -Months, maybe a year. -You thought that you had a year's salary in your pocket. You could just go out on the road and figure things out. -I thought I could find a job immediately and start making all this money where I can afford a house and horses and land. Boy, was I ever wrong. [laughter] -What was the reality? -The reality was I was broke for a long time. -What was the most pleasant surprise about the outside world? -Just being away from the community itself was so freeing. There's no eyes on me. I could finally be me without being judged. -Not having anybody telling me that I'm doing something wrong or punishing me. It took me a while to realize that I'm actually free. Be able to wear whatever I want, jeans, a t-shirt, or a dress, whatever I choose, I could wear. In Amish, we didn't have options. I like options. -Did you have any embarrassing moments assimilating into society at all? -[laughs] Any? [laughter] -Let's say countless. From email etiquette to the way you introduce yourselves, even social settings. I have a very hard time knowing when I should be talking or when I should be letting other people talk. There is a social scene in the Amish community, but it's like people that know each other and have known each other for their entire life. -Right. -It's a completely different story. -Figuring out how to eat properly at a restaurant. The Amish eat with spoons instead of forks. -No fork in the Amish community that you're part of? -There's forks, but they don't use them or not for eating meals. -What are they for? -I don't know. [laughter] -It was all spoons for you. You go to a restaurant. Are you trying to use your spoon on everything? -Yes, and then people would tell me, "You should use your fork." I was confused. Why would I use a fork to eat? -Are you concerned at all about sharing your experiences, knowing that someone from your community could hear about what you're saying? -I have been sharing my experiences on YouTube and there has been backlash. I'm not too concerned. I know where they're coming from. I'm going to get the truth out there. -If there's any of those people watching right now somehow, is there anything you want to say to them? -Yes, get out. -[laughs] -The Amish religion is a cult. Leave. Life is much better outside of it. -No regrets on your end? -No. -Before we continue learning about the world of formerly Amish, air travel. -That first time, I hated it. -Scary? -I definitely thought I was in a different universe, like an alien flying through the earth. -I'd like to thank our sponsor, BetterHelp, for our continued partnership. I've talked before about how therapy has been really helpful for me, but therapy can be customized to whatever is right for you specifically and can be really useful in providing tools to help with motivation, feelings of anxiety, or depression, or stress, or insecurity, or whatever else you might need. 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[music] -What's your favorite technology now? -Definitely my iPhone. -The phone. -The iPhone. [laughter] -You're addicted to it in the same way that the rest of us are? You'll look down and realize that you've been on Twitter for eight hours? -Yes. The time goes really fast when you scroll on your phone. [music] -I will list out a piece of tech and I'd like to know what your first reaction was to using said tech. Air travel? -That first time, I hated it. -Scary? -I've definitely thought I was in a different universe, like an alien flying through the earth. -[laughs] You're just sitting in a chair, traveling at 500 miles per hour. -That was scary. To think that I was above the clouds. -You're getting a first-person view of what clouds actually look like in the cloud. -Yes, but it also made me throw up. -[laughs] Microwaves. -The first time I used one, I loved it. I also learned not to put anything metal in the microwave. -[laughs] You had to learn the hard way? -I did that and I blew up a microwave. -[laughs] Watching a movie. -It took me a while to get used to. I don't remember what the name of the movie was but it was dogs talking. -What did you watch, Air Bud? -Yes. I was like, "Is this real? Where are these dogs?" -[laughs] "Is this real?" -I hated it. -Have you experienced virtual reality? -No, and I don't want to. -[laughs] There's a limit for a formerly Amish person. -That's it. -I've had the 3D glasses at a movie theater. Things coming at me. I'm like, "That's as far as I'll go with those." -[laughs] Do you think modern conveniences desensitize us to the smaller joys in life? I actually read a comment from Marina that says, "When you've never listened to the radio, your mother singing as she washes the dishes sounds like the music of the angels. When you've never watched TV, your little sister's puppet show holds all the excitement of a heroic legend." Do you feel like that's true? -Yes, I would say there's a lot of truth to that. We just missed out on all the simple quality when we have our noses stuck in the iPhone. -Yes, we're almost never allowed to be bored or sit with our thoughts. -Exactly. -Inés is a cupcake asks what your most special memory from your childhood is that you think kids today will just never get to experience considering modern technology? -Hanging out in the fields, and enjoying the sunshine, and just not worrying about anything. -Not having that obsession over what your Instagram likes are, if you're going to be accepted at your school because you're not popular enough online or something like that? -I didn't have a television growing up. I didn't have a phone. I didn't have that distraction. My childhood was very carefree. -Did "Weird" Al get anything right in his song Amish Paradise? -Yes, the whole song is right. -[laughs] Not one falsity in there? -I have watched that video over and over and it makes me laugh every time. -[laughs] It's actually funny to Amish people too? -It's funny. Some of it is right. -All right, you got five seconds to shout out or to promote anything you want directly in the camera. Go. -Check out "the amish potato" on YouTube for the rest of my story. -Find me on Instagram @katestoltz or on my website, katestoltz.com. -Runaway Amish Girl. You can find it on Amazon. Find me on Instagram @runawayamishgirl. -Subscribe to Anthony Padilla for all these great interviews. -And more, but probably not. After spending a day with formerly Amish, I've come to understand just how much strength and courage it takes to leave the only world and family you've ever known in order to live a life that feels most true and authentic to your own sense of self. [music] -I didn't know what a tortilla was and I call it tortilla. -That sounds about right. I've experienced that as well. -You're not Padilla? [laughter] -Did you think my last name was Padilla? I would not be surprised. -A lot of people do that. -No, I didn't. -The two Ls. You learned with tor-- You're like, "I've seen this quiz before. It's pronounced like a Y."
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