-Corpse Husband,
aka Corpse, is a faceless YouTuber and musician
known for his strikingly deep voice, charismatic personality,
and an identity shrouded in mystery. Corpse began his career
on YouTube in 2015, in which he became well known for his ominous
horror story narrations. Secretly behind the scenes,
Corpse was busy crafting his own unique musical style
and rocked the industry with his debut single release
in 2020. All while garnering extensive
mainstream attention for his incredible plays, and the immensely popular
social deduction game, Among Us. Since the last time I sat down
with Corpse, he's exploded in popularity,
spanning from 1.2 million subscribers to the 7.2 million subscribers
he's achieved today. Not to mention his songs
which have garnered over 200 million plays since then. My name is Anthony Padilla, and today I'm going
to be sitting down with Corpse, to learn what it's like to live
a completely anonymous life while simultaneously
becoming possibly one of the most popular creators
and musicians of this generation. Has this meteoric rise to super fame
been a blissful experience as a seemingly infinite amount
of doors have been opened for Corpse and his career?
Or has the added pressure of millions of new fans,
and new critics with their own expectations
and layers of scrutiny caused an exponential struggle
behind the scenes for someone who is already opted to keep their identity
completed hidden from the outside world? [music] -Hello, Corpse. -Hello. [music] -Thank you so much for coming on here
and teaching me about the world of Corpse Husband. -[laughs] I got a whole world
to myself now. -The last time you were on here,
that was the first time you were ever on camera, right? The first time you ever had cameras
pointed at you? -Yes, it was fucking terrifying. -Part of me thought
you were not going to end up doing it because I know it
was so nerve wrecking for you. -Dude, it was so scary. -Before we did that interview,
you were lying on the coach right outside,
just like, [?]. -I didn't know
that you saw that. -I wanted to give you space, but I was like,
"Your anxiety is not a joke." -Yes, yes, because I was last
to do the interview, so I had longer to think about it. [music] -You've blown up massively
since we last spoke. How has that all been for you? -Good and bad. Of course, there are a lot
of amazing things that have came from it,
and also very difficult things to deal
with that came from it as well. Overall, it's a positive,
of course. -Has been easier to keep
your identity hidden considering everyone wears a facemask now,
thanks to COVID? -It's been easier because of that
because nobody looks at me like I'm a freak anymore
when I wear a mask in public, but also since I've grown so much, I feel like everyone's staring
at me every time I leave my house, so it's gotten scarier. -Do you have to change your voice
when you're out in public? -I avoid talking
at all cost anywhere in public. -Do you think
that you're more confident now in your decision
to always be faceless, than you were before? -Last year I was
at my breaking point with it, where I was just going to be less
careful until it inevitably happened, and now I feel I have to be really,
really careful again. I feel I would be happier in a world
where I could be myself openly, and not worry about hiding
from everybody. I do think
it's also the best decision for me because I don't think I could handle
that many people judging me at once. -I wish I could say it gets easier
as you go along, but I think the reality
is that you just get more used to having people constantly
shit on you. -Yes, it's hard to get thrown
to the deep end of that all at once. -When I first started, I got
to reveal my face to 10 people, and then 20 people, and 30 people,
and it grew slowly over time. You have all these expectations
for what you should look like especially
with your voice that's so unique. Throwing yourself out there
would be like literally throwing yourself to the wolves. -Like you said with yours,
it's gradual, and with the gradual part of it comes
the haters being gradual as well, but for me, and people
that blow up very quickly, it's all of that at once,
there's no gradual learning of that. -I've seen some people
spreading fake DMs that have been photoshopped
to show like, "Oh, Corpse revealed his face,
and look what he looks like." I know because I've seen you,
granted you had a mask on, but I've seen you, you don't look
anything like these people. There's poor people
are getting completely shit on for looking that way. -They're taking the pictures
from real-life people. I don't know
if they end up seeing it, and then because people
think it's me, they just shit all over, even though
they're normal looking people. That's what normal looking people get
for people that think it's me, then I can't imagine
if it was actually me. -People treat popular people as if they have no feelings
and no heart. -In people's heads I'm more
of a character, or a brand, or an anime character,
or something. They don't treat me
as if I'm an actual person. -Have you had any close calls
with your identity being discovered since we last talked? -Yes, definitely. I don't know how specific
I should get with them, but definitely, yes.
-Why? Because if you're specific, they might know how close it was
and it might reveal it to them. -Yes, exactly.
Yes. They know. They know 100%. -Have you experienced
any burnout or fatigue now knowing just how many people
are watching you and expecting something
very specific from you. -Dude, absolutely. Every single day I feel like that. Every day is the last day people
will care about me online. -There are tons of people
that think your voice is fake. There were actually tons of people
that were surprised to find out that your voice
in my last video was your real voice. -There is not a single picture
of me from before YouTube with my entire face in it. -They thought that it was to mask
your identity further. -A lot of people think that. It's usually angry men. I'm not competing with anybody,
dude, I'm just talking. -There's even a ton of Tiktoks
of young kids, little boys
who are faking your voice. -Everyone has been wondering,
yes this is my real voice. -I think it's super cute. I think it's very funny. Is that flattering for you? -I get a lot of DMs like that
from guys who are like, "Bro, I sound just like you," and then I get a voice message
and I'm like, "Yes." -You're creating a whole generation
of people who feel like maybe having a deep voice
can be a cool defining factor. -It is super fascinating. -How do you feel when people
almost fetishize your voice. -If they want to send me
a 10-page email about everything
they want to do to me because of my voice then I'm like,
"Okay that's a little weird." -Have you gotten emails like that? -Oh, I've gotten such fucking
weird emails, dude. -What is the general gist? -They'll think I'm not a real person
and I don't mean that metaphorically. I mean, literally they think
I'm some kind of soul being. -Can you clear up once and for all
why your voice is so deep? -My voice is just primarily deep because it's deep by genetics,
I guess. Maybe.
-Corpse's mom sounds just like him, Corpse's grandfather and grandmother
both sound like that. -Thanksgiving dinner
just sounds like-- [?] I do have a medical condition
and it does contribute to my voice but not as much
as everybody says it does. -Is that GERD? -GERD has a spectrum to it. They put a scope down my throat
through my nostrils and my throat is corroded and it's like touching
my vocal cords. -It's actually vibrating
on your vocal cords and adding that deep raspiness to it
or at least a little bit of it? -I'm not sure,
there's no way to measure it. -Before we continue learning
about the world of Corpse Husband, if there's ever been any artwork
of you that's been so accurate that it scares you. -Oh my God, yes. I'm going to text it to you. -Oh shit, dude,
that is exactly you. I wanted to remind you
all that you can watch the first interview I did with Corpse
last year in the I Spent a Day with Faceless Youtubers episode which I'll conveniently put
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of Corpse Husband. You gained millions of fans
after you started streaming Among Us. How did the whole Among Us
situation happen. I saw you started to get invited
literally on some of the biggest channels on YouTube. -I was just hanging out on Discord
and then Dave Boyinaband messaged me and I was like,
"Yo, do you want to play among us with PewDiePie on stream right now?"
I was like, "Okay, sure." -You could have slept
through your huge boom in success. -Completely. -How many years
were you working on music before you started to release music? -A lot of people think
that I just started making music. I was making beats
and stuff when I was 12. I had 30 plus songs
before I released anything. I've had stuff with rock elements, I've done stuff
with singing elements, I've fucked around
and made country songs before. -[laugh] How would you define
your sound now? -Dude, I have no idea
what to call it. It's got a lot of bass. -[laugh] Your demeanor is very different
in some of your tracks than what you display otherwise
with lyrics, such as choke me like you hate me,
but you love me. Lowkey wanna date me
when you fuck me. [laughter] Choke me like you hate me, but you love me
Lowkey wanna date me when you fuck me -Is that a character persona
that's separate from you? -It's definitely me. All my music is me, besides maybe-- The Cat Girl song was made as a joke. As far as everything else,
it's all me. It's exaggerated parts of me
for the sake of expressing myself. It's not really a character. -It's an element of you
that we don't get to see otherwise. -Yes. -Some people get to see you. [laughter] -Your song Agoraphobic was probably
your most vulnerable track yet. I can't do shit right,
I can't learn my lesson I can't do shit right,
take anti-depressants Illness and welfare robbed
my adolescence My friends probably hate me,
can't answer a message -Was it liberating to open up
about your struggle through your art? -To drop that song after I dropped
E-girls Are Ruining My Life which is a complete juxtaposition
from that one. A lot of people were telling me it would be career suicide
to do that. -You were able to give
the middle finger to people who try to box you
into one certain genre. Corpse isn't about one specific
sound. -I get bored way too quick
to do one thing. -Is there anything you could tell us
about what you're working on now with your music, any collabs or anything that you're developing
behind the scenes? -I just had this song
with Machine Gun Kelly. It's fucking insane. It's very raw and aggressive. -I know that you just recently
were diagnosed with something, can you go into that,
can you explain what that was like? -I had a nerve conduction study
where they basically shock you and put needles in all your muscles and enjoyable process.
-It's like Hellraiser. -Yes, it's epic. For the people
that I have been around for a long time, they've known
I've had problems with my arms and stuff like that. They're pretty sure that
what they found has to do with that. I'm just emotionally dealing with the fact
because it's not curable. -What did they say about it? -She was like,
"Rush me out the door." I'm like, "Is there any way
to treat or fix this?" I was like, "Have you seen anyone be cured
of this?" She was like, "I've never seen it before." How has that affected the way that you approach
everything going forward? -I'm a pretty pessimistic person
as you know. -What gave that away?
[laughter] -I haven't felt anything
has been real for a very long time. I'm mourning ever having a normal,
healthy, functional life again. -You're grieving the fact
that your memories of how you used to be,
what defined you, and your sense of self will no longer
be attainable in the same way. -Then with the blowing up
and everything. There's so much has happened
to me this past year. -Do you feel you're just floating
through the world in a sense? -Dude, absolutely. People in their early 20s,
or whatever don't get it. Then you ask, "Why?
Why is this happening to me?" I still don't know why happened. I have no fucking clue
why I just randomly woke up one day and couldn't move my arm.
I have no fucking clue. I think I've dissociated so much
to where I just don't care anymore. -What kind of symptoms
are you dealing with daily? -It's just a lot of pain. Having to change how I sit every two seconds right now
in this conversation with you, just so that my entire arm
doesn't go numb. It my absolute worst, I remember crawling to the door
to get groceries and barely being able to do that. I tried to pour cereal, and then when I went to lift
his spoon to my mouth to eat it, I couldn't do it. -What kind of a lifestyle
did you have before you started experiencing
all these health conditions? -I was a very,
very active person. I weight lifted most days
of the week. Imagine the worst physical shape
you've ever been in, in your life, and also having millions
of people expecting you to look the best you've ever looked
in your life and you can't even be like,
"Oh, I'll work towards that." You just literally can't. -What have been some of the downsides
or struggles that come along with all of these? -Relentless expectations. I get so much hate
online every single day. -People already treat celebrities
with their faces out there, famous people
with their face out there, no matter what they do,
as if they're a dumpster. Then here you are without your face
out there, so people get to treat you even more like
you're not a real person at all. -I did a tweet on Twitter
just to prove a point. I did a voice memo,
and I just breathed. [breathes] -The infamous Corpse breathe tweet. -People will get mad at anything
that's popular. I guarantee you I'm going to get
so much shit for literally breathing. They'd be like, "Oh my God,
you guys are so obsessed with him. Look, he's just breathing." Or, "He's trying
to breathe super sexually." It's literally just breathing, but people want
to spin it to be that. -Let's try it.
Let's try it. Wait. [breathes] -How was that? Did that make you feel
some type of way? -A lot of people say
that my supporters are toxic, and blah, blah, blah, but then they're the ones going out
of their ways to poke at them. -So many people do that, and I see that with different parts
of the internet all the time. People shaming people in a hateful way
for what they see as that person not being a good enough person, and yet that person shaming
that person for not being a good enough person,
is being a very bad person. -It's absolutely fucked. -Fucking twisted. -People just don't like things
that are popular. People are comparing me
to massive artists who I don't even want
to be compared to. They hear some super minimal thing
I recorded in my room next to someone like Lady Gaga
or something, and they are like-- They have to be--, "Whose better?" I'm not trying
to be better than anybody. People have my notifications
on just to hate me. -Fuck, dude, every single time
I release one of these videos, I immediately have 10 dislikes.
I'm like, "You turned on notifications because you want
to dislike the video? That's how much time
you want to give to me?" -If someone wants to keep
my notifications on, so they can watch E-Girls
at 100 mil, I don't give a fuck dude. -[laughs] What's next?
Are you going to continue dabbling in those areas, or are you going to expand
in other ways as well? -I like fucking with the world,
it's fun. As much as everybody gets mad
at me, I think it's funny that people get mad at a blank tweet. My fans are in on a joke too. That's what the people
who hate me don't get. They see a breathing tweet
with 300,000 likes, but the 300,000 people
are liking it just to piss of those people,
so they're actually playing into it. -You're literally trolling people, and these people are getting pissed
because it's become a meme, and they don't realize its meme. -It's a strand of my hair,
it's a picture of my hand. -[laughs] All they're doing is clicking
a Like button it, and that's literally where it ends,
but people who see 1.3 million likes on a photo
of you holding a strand of your hair, they think that people
are jerking off to this photo. It's like, "No,
they just clicked the like button." That's where it ends. -Yes. Yes, generally.
-I'm sure there's a couple of people that did-
-For the most part, yes, yes. [laughter] -I mean, we won't go
into the fact that some people have gotten a tattoo
of your strand of your hair. -It's just fun. -Before we continue learning
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of Corpse Husband. What do you do in your time off? -I don't have time off, man. Ever since all this started, I've just been working
every single day. -It's either work, or trying to get
comfortable in your chair, and trying to get comfortable
in your bed? -I mean hopefully
I get to keep inciting chaos for at least a couple more months. -Has being faceless and keeping
your anonymous identity pushed you away
from keeping in contact with your real-life friends
and your family? -A little bit? Some of the issue
has been with my voice. I never talk to anyone
over the phone that I don't know. -Because someone would be able
to pinpoint who you are? -When my Postmates driver
can't find my house, and they call me like,
"Where do live?" I can't even pick up and be like,
"Oh, I live here," because the next thing I know, I answer, and he goes, "Corpse?"
Then they know where I live too. I'm afraid to-- Even at doctor's appointments
and just stuff like that, I'm afraid too.
-You're afraid that the doctor might recognize you?
-Yes. It's like, "Oh, get undressed
for this MRI or whatever. Oh, nice meeting you, Corpse." -As you're getting your colonoscopy. -Yes. -Nicole asks, "When people refer to Corpse, do you feel like they're referring
to a character or to you personally?" -I take it as me personally, I think because how I act as Corpse
is me anyway. I'm talking to you right now
and how I talk to people outside of the YouTube
is a little bit different. Not because I want it to be, but because there are certain things
that I can't talk about on YouTube. I was and still am dealing
with so much mental shit. When I was doing those Among Us
streams, first starting, literally 20 minutes
before some of them, I was literally cutting my face
with razor blades. Then I just get on in front
of hundreds of thousands of people. It's like--
they don't see those things. -There's these things that you deal
with that isn't necessarily for other people to take part in. People feel like everything
that anyone who has any following does
is there to be judged. There is that benefit that you have,
being faceless, that you don't have to divulge
in why anything about your appearance has changed,
especially, if it's something dealing with depression
or anything like that. -Yes, exactly.
It's like, "Why are you sad? You're famous." -Yes. Money helps so much, but money can't solve everything
and especially, can't solve mental health issues. The whole world is going through
so much right now with COVID and everything else. Depression rates are higher
than ever before. It doesn't matter what your class is. These things can affect you. Should we be grateful
for having more possibilities and options
because we are financially well off in many ways? Absolutely, but that doesn't make people who are in the spotlight
completely immune to dealing with any
of those issues. -How many celebrity suicides
and artist suicides is it going to take for people
to be like, "It happens,"
and all the hate comments and shit like that. We're people. -Joe Mamma wants to know
if there's ever been any artwork of you that's been so accurate
that it scares you. -Oh my fucking God, yes. It is so scary. -Does any part of you think,
they know something. They see me. -I don't think they knew
but it just blew my mind. I'm going to text it to you. They did it a few of them. -Oh shit, dude. That is exactly you. -It's so scary. -They got everything right. The hair, the eye shape,
the eyebrows. This looks like someone
just straight up went in and- -It looks like a drawing of me.
--photographed you. When you sent this to me, I
literally thought that you just sent me a selfie. Are you ever going to do
a face reveal? Last time we spoke,
you said that you were so tempted you would sometimes take a selfie,
have your finger over the button, you'd drop your phone. You would say like, "Fate can decide this for me." -I don't think I'm going to face
reveal on purpose anytime soon. It's just way too much now. -Do you feel like you're not being
authentically yourself when you're not showing your face? -The more that people know
about me online, the less I can be open
about myself and my private life, because then like,
"Oh, this matches up with Corpse." -You've dug yourself into a hole. You back yourself up into a corner
with how much you've been honest about yourself because now, if you tell anyone anything real
by yourself in person, it would line up too closely. You've almost chosen,
inadvertently, but you've chosen to be your authentic self
to the internet only. Therefore, your interactions in real life are inauthentic
because you can't be authentic. -Yes.
I can't be authentic with people in my personal life
because I was too authentic with people online. I'm just so unapologetically myself
that it hurts to not be myself in any degree. -You're just rather
not interact at all. -Yes, exactly. -What do you think the biggest
misconception is about you? -Whenever I get on the phone
with big artists or other big YouTubers they're like,
"All right, drop it. What's your name?
What do you look like?" I'm like, "Dude, it's not a joke. I hate myself deeply." -Nothing changes when you garner
any kind of success. In fact, it just makes
everything that you had before more difficult
and it amplifies everything. -For the most part, I'd say it amplifies the issues
that you already have if you have issues, to begin with. -I can't personally think
of anyone more deserving of the success that you've gotten. I've felt that since
the first time I met you. You're a very, very genuine person and you weren't afraid
to be vulnerable. You're just so naturally kind
and charismatic. I know that you deal
with issues with your self-esteem and your own image of yourself, but just coming from someone
who interacts with a lot of people, I just want to tell you that I feel
like you are so deserving of everything you have,
and I don't think that you're going to lose it. -Thank you very much. -All right, you got five seconds
to shout out or promote anything you want
directly in the camera. Go. -Shout-out Bingus. Shout-out Bing-
-[laughs] All hail Bingus. -Hail Bingus. Always subscribe
to Anthony Padilla's channel, on every--
On your dog's Instagram on-- -[laughs] Thank you so much Corpse. I feel like I understand the world
of Corpse Husband just a little bit more. -Yes, it's complicated. I fucking hate it here.
[music] -After spending the day with Corpse, I've come to understand that despite
the myriad of benefits that fame can bring,
being in the public eye comes with its own unique set
of complications. If one's identity
is shrouded in mystery or not, we all have everyday struggles
and a public-facing façade is only one aspect of any story. [music] -Dating. [laughs] -Oh, God. -That's it.
That's the question. -That's terrifying.
Thank you
not me searching on google trying to find that little series of artwork that actually got him spot on.
sigh.