Former LGBTQers Testify: If You No Longer Want to Be Gay or Transgender, You Don't Have to Be

I am a former lesbian I'm very passionate about this topic because I really embraced that life I won't talk about how or why I went into that lifestyle but I fully embraced it and I was confident in who I was and I sought it out and I was a champion for the LGBT and I really even like to just be out there and promote it so I had fully believe in in this lie that gets perpetuated that people don't change they can't change and if you try to change them it's detrimental to their health and I just want to say that's a lie I almost missed out on some of the best and most precious moments of my life I wasn't gonna get to get married I wasn't gonna meet my husband I wasn't gonna get to have my own children this is not something that my mind was even open to I didn't know that it was a possibility for me and I stand before you now a changed woman I don't struggle with same-sex attraction it's almost like it never was for me and so I just I would like for that lie to stop being perpetuated it's just simply not true people can and do change if they want and we need to be allowed as free Americans to seek that out nobody has the right to tell you you can't be what you want to be and I did want change and through the power of God the creator of heaven and earth this was able to happen these days were able to happen these moments and I'm a happy woman I don't suffer depression I don't suffer with anxiety I don't drink myself into stupor like I used to have to for a long time I was very broken and hurt I found out that I was HIV positive because I was promiscuous my generation would say oh ho while I was searching for men and sleeping around a lot I didn't realize that there was a man looking for me his name is Jesus I was able to find a church where they loved me and they taught me that my identity was not my behavior my Danny was not who I thought it was but it was a child of God so I stand here to say that I was a former homosexual or former ho and now I am a child of God I'm a former transsexual drag queen and prostitute I lived a life of much gender confusion much abuse verbally physically sexually by my father over the years I had had probably 50,000 sexual partners and because I was a sex worker and I hated myself I hated the fact that I was a man I never knew how to accept myself or truly love myself and then about six years ago someone invited me to church thank God began to change my life began to change my hearts and begin to change my sexual identity my gender confusion and I began to heal from all those things change is possible because if God can change me he could change anybody yes my name is angel Cologne I'm a former homosexual I am a survivor of the post nightclub shooting On June 12 2016 I was shot six times sustained a shattered femur and suffered nerve damage a day I will never forget a big turning point in my life even in the midst of chaos I prayed and prophesied over my life that I would survive and live free and Here I am today standing with no pain here in the capital with my changed family many think I've made my decision to leave the LGBTQ community lifestyle because of the shooting but I was desiring change way before June 12 2016 going through this horrible tragedy made me make the biggest decision in my life which I'm very happy with I've made this as this decision a year after post a nightclub shooting finding what was the most important thing in my life which was finding my true identity which was in Christ and today I stand here in the capital sharing to the world that change is possible yes I am known as a post survivor but I really want to be known as living proof that God does transform lives my name is Kathy Grace Duncan I'm from Portland Oregon and I'm a former trans man former transgender before I went to kindergarten at a very early age like 3 or 4 I believed that I should have been a man I felt that I should have been a man dysfunctional family situations my dad was very emotionally and verbally abusive to my mom which told me that women were hated women were weak and they were vulnerable I was then molested by a family member which went on for two years also confirming that women were weak vulnerable and hated at the age of 19 I finally surrendered and went into the lifestyle took hormones and changed my name from there I began to live as a man two weeks later I got saved however because I didn't hear from the Lord I didn't think he was I thought he was ok with my lifestyle 4 years later I was confronted by the church and they asked me who are you you really and at that point I told the truth and I said I'm a woman living as a man and the Holy Spirit blew into me and I realized at that point I needed to go back to being a woman that he created me to be the next day I started that journey out five years later it took five years for the hormone effects to really wear off and at that point I crossed over and began to live fully as a woman that was 26 years ago and I have to say I'm changed I'm free I no longer struggle with the attraction to women I was often suicidal or out of control I came out during my early 20s and found solace and comfort in the LGBTQ community they were my family I was pursuing the path of an ordained pastor in the LGBTQ affirming church movement when I began questioning my faith that long journey led me ultimately to question my sexuality as a lesbian over time as my faith brought deeper emotional health I also experienced an unexpected change in my sexual desires today I've been married to my husband for 14 years I no longer experience same-sex desires and I no longer have symptoms of bipolar disorder I've seen the restoration I have in a in countless lives of other Christians our faith compels us to share what we have received yes we simply want to offer vision to those who feel conflict in their sexual orientation but also to ask that America recognized there are multiple options for people who experience LGBTQ people deserve the right to choose their own path and follow their religious convictions especially in matters of their sexuality I was born to a mother who had me at 15 years old my home was very dysfunctional it was abusive in dysfunction I actually seen my father put his hands on my mom and it left mental scars and emotional scars in me I mean got to the point where my dad ended up abandoning us and that left me really really sad as a young child I can only remember wanting to have a relationship with my father and continually him not showing up and being there was very tragic to me sorry with a single mom and she was one of my only influence and I was the guy who was not into sports I was not gonna get dirty I was like that's not for me I want to dance I want to sing and I want to be an actor I never had the desire to be a homosexual but it wasn't until people started calling me homosexual wasn't so they started planting these seeds and saying hey you know you like hair you'd like to dance you over there with the Chili's instead of with the football players you're a homosexual and so that began to create a curiosity already suffered emotional wounds from my dad not being there that abandoned me and I was looking for male affirmation for most of my teen years I was abused by a close family member physically abused which led to more pain and more hurt and so I dove into the lifestyle I really gave myself over to promiscuity by the time I was 18 I was stripping I was in the living in the nightlife drinking every night partying from Sunday to Sunday I knew there had to be more and then I encountered the love of God and he came in and radically changed my life the person you see here today is not the person I used to be I am changed I am fulfilled I'm living my best life I'm smiling and I'm dancing and loving life and I want to tell I want to tell the government that you cannot make decisions that will block people who were like me who needed to change and who want to change to find freedom I'm a person who formerly had same sexual attraction when I was very young in New York City my father who is a pastor raped me and when I got to kindergarten my mother and my father they decided to take me out of school and I was taken out of school for a total of eight years and during that time I was tortured by my mother my mother was very hurt by men and so any sign of masculinity was a trigger and a threat to her I can remember her beating me with a wire hanger until I was bloody and putting alcohol all over my body as I stood in front of a mirror and I learned at that moment that I could not be masculine I learned that I had to be effeminate I had to emulate my sisters to avoid triggering her and so that I could survive by the time I was 18 I had been living in Alaska for a year I had been through foster care that was a time where the things that I had suppressed began to manifest themselves through a pornography addiction by that point I had a restraining order I was in anger management I was in counseling for PTSD and I had a measure of gender dysphoria and it was also that year that a friend who was a teen decided to force me to go to church and I wanted nothing to do with Church but when I went to that church I saw something and those people's eyes that I had never seen before I saw a God that my parents did not tell me about and those people in that church they didn't hate me or anything they loved me I saw a life inside of them and I wanted that freedom in that life the love that I saw inside of their eyes convicted me of the error of my ways and I remember for three weeks just telling God how sorry I was for all the wrong that I had done and he said Christopher I love you I grew up in a dysfunctional American family like most everyone else but my father was emotionally physically verbally abusive I'm the oldest of four children and he took his venom out on me his rage I was eight years old and my dad was working it was a autumn day kind of like this my dad was working on the car in the driveway and he was about to explode and I knew I was going to be you know the target of his venom I just looked at him I said you hate me don't you he looked back at me as he took the Lord's name in vain and laughed yes I hate you that was a route that wasn't a revelations like yeah I knew that then at 10 years old the neighborhood boys found their dad's playboys you see Hugh Hefner was my first molester I was introduced to porn and I became instantly addicted at 10 years old I was sexually active with boys in the neighborhood my father on his death bed the night before he went into a coma said to me I said bye dad I'll see you tomorrow by Greg I love you Greg I felt like I was in the twilight zone the very man who told me he hated me now told me he loved me from that point on that was my journey when I finally forgave my father that's when the same-sex attraction started to wane that's when it started to leave there are so many people trapped in homosexuality that one out that have stories so similar to everything you've heard here and standing right here on this stage is proof that homosexuality doesn't have to last a lifetime ex gays former's ex trans prove that change is possible you I was in the lifestyle for five years and I was so desperate to love and be loved I didn't care my partner was HIV positive and hepatitis C positive thankfully I was protected and I didn't get any of those terminal illnesses yeah June 8 2002 an incredible experience happened to me Jesus transformed me I chose to go the route of Christ I chose to change my sexual identity I needed help to do that I chose to follow my faith my belief in the Bible professional counseling psychiatrists and psychologists as well as pastoral counseling I received and bills like HR 5 HR 3 5 7 0 and Senate 2008 would not have allowed me to get the help that I needed or anyone on this stage or anyone who wanted to change their sexual attraction or behaviors I've dealt with same-sex attraction since the seventh grade no one ever forced me to change no therapist my parents did not my pastor did not my heart my mind I chose to change our rights are being threatened in America governor's think that they know better how I should identify sexually than I do apparently we're inappropriate it's okay for everyone else to choose their sexual identity but not with us because we aren't going with a narrative how disrespectful of us not to go with the narrative what with all due respect what gives you the right to decide what I'd like to pursue with my sexuality that's right why in the world would you or someone sitting with a gavel or someone that's been to an elected office decide what therapy I should or should not be able to get this morning I want to tell the u.s. that the change movement loves gay people we just want our rights as well we have chosen a different route for our life and in following that path either through professional counseling or faith based discipleship we've attained levels of wholeness and fulfillment that most assume is impossible we've all experienced life-altering change that has impacted our sexuality many of us are in healthy marriages to our opposite sex spouses some even would say they no longer experience any same-sex attraction several of us have D transitioned we no longer identify as LGBTQ and many many people upon hearing our testimonies of fulfillment are seeking what we have all of us up here we love we absolutely love the LGBTQ community we understand you we know what it's like we live there we've walked it we've been from gay bars and back we know we know the journey we know the pain and we're not telling that any of you have to change but if you've ever thought or needed help or desired to change we would love to talk to you

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Id: v--BuHXVA70

Length: 16min 38sec (998 seconds)

Published: Sun Jan 05 2020

Reddit Comments

[u/mattdan79]

It actually makes me sick.

[u/NotPoliticallyCorect]

I wish I didn't have the ability to see the future, but I expect that at least half of these people will die young, by their own hand. It is very sick to see this. What they do not acknowledge is that adults can go for therapy for whatever they want. The laws need to be in place so that parents cannot force their kids into conversion therapy. Ironic that a few of these people expressed that the government should not have a say in how they identify, yet they would happily send children to conversion therapy to make them identify how the parents choose.

[u/BubbaThaLowlife]

Yeah only lasted about 30 seconds watching that bullshit. What nonsense she couldn’t get married and have kids as a lesbian. I’m over here like blink twice if your being held captive in your straight Christian marriage.

[u/Shibula]

Read the comments, it gets so much worse. People delude themselves over this, and it's horrible. Makes you wish you could help them. But you can't, and it sucks.

[u/AlexKewl]

Gross. All they are doing is shaming these people into pretending they are something they aren't.

[u/[deleted]]

Best case scenario they were bi and just didn't know.

But shame on all these christians. The most loving religion my ass.

[u/NerdyLittleDragonBoi]

By the love of christ we have beaten these people into submission so that we don't have to feel uncomfortable about what they might be doing when they are alone together.

Religion absolves these wretches from any guilt to the cruelty they do to other humans. Evil grows strong because it has religion to condone and glorify it.

[u/Kragaz]

It's amazing how strong wishful thinking is. It's the core of all religious beliefs.

[u/[deleted]]

Statistically speaking, there are always those few at the ends of the bell curve.

(But somehow, these expressions and hand postures look a bit "canned.")