Father Donald Calloway No Turning Back, A Witness to Mercy; March 17, 2023

story I'm not going to give his biography let him do that it's his story this is his journey to the priesthood every priest has a journey to the priesthood and it's different for all of us his is different than mine than Father Charles but quite a story indeed we're very very blessed to have father Donald Callaway here this evening so father will you please come forward are you here okay all right oh wow a lot of you here and wearing green look at you yeah thanks for coming because I would have never come to church on a Friday night so I'm honored that you that you did that for me especially on St Patrick's Day that's a huge commitment that's awesome all right so let's say a prayer okay so that the talk is Anointed and that it bears fruit for you and that I don't say anything stupid because that can happen sometimes all right let's do it in the name of the father and of the son and of the holy spirit amen Hail Mary full of grace the Lord is with thee blessed art thou among women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb Jesus holy Mary Mother of God pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death amen Saint Joseph in the name of the father and of the son and of the holy spirit amen all right how many of you were at the event two nights ago sweet how many of you are not ah shame on you and now tonight's that talk was about Divine Mercy specifically dealing with stuff with Saint faustina and promises and all that tonight I'm going to be talking about myself no I'm working on my pride and my ego but my story is my story you have your own story but I do want you to keep in mind as I tell this story that it's not about me I'm just another dude like anybody else I put my pants on in the morning like every other human being but your situation in your life you know somebody like me or like I used to be anyway maybe it's you maybe you were dragged here tonight by your wife and you're like honey seriously it's St Patrick's Day we're gonna go listen to a priest on a Friday night probably just out at you your wife's nudging you right now right or maybe it's one of the younger people here who are like yeah I had to come to this thing listen to some loser with a Roman collar on my mom's trying to convert me understand I get it I was that back in the day so as you listen to the story keep in mind it's not about me up here with this microphone it's about a god that is so crazy in love with you and you're jacked up marriage and your weird kids right and don't worry I'm not Padre Pio I'm not reading Souls right now like that would suck actually to have that gift to read Souls what a burden that would be but I don't need to know you to know you're messed up you got problems you got wounds you got baggage you got issues you got secrets we all do keep that in mind as I go through this I'm just one of many why God chose me I have no idea I'm no better than anybody else but he did and that's what I want to share with you tonight because you know you see me up here sporting a beard now if you know me you see me on YouTube you're like wait who's that dude dang father Callaway aged like 20 years in three months yeah it's been cold man everywhere I go even this thing what's up with this California right it's supposed to be sunny out here y'all start building an ark it's like so much rain out here it's ridiculous and next week I hear it's going to do it again unbelievable so you see me as a priest and you're probably thinking if you don't know my story okay what's this dude know about life he probably grew up in like the perfect household his mom and dad are like Mary and Joseph and he's got like 14 homeschooled brothers and sisters you know nah that would have been nice the exact opposite was the case for me so when I was born my mother actually conceived me when I was 17 I was born when she was 18 came into the world and they were not Catholic Christian they were not Protestant Christian they didn't believe in God they didn't pray to nobody they didn't talk about religion that was nonsense to them so I wasn't baptized or anything like that and their marriage was super sketchy like my mom was a really attractive woman still as a beautiful woman but when she was like 18 she she was attractive woman I look at them photos I'm like dang my mom was hot you know I'm like dang Mom you know so you could see why guys would like want to be around her well this one that she married her first marriage I cannot even believe that he would do this but he was a player he cheated on my mom which is crazy Rama was beautiful but he did men are stupid like that you see that all the time dudes married to like the woman who's just fine and then he's got a little something on the side I'm like bro you're nuts but dude dudes do that we're stupid so this dude did it my dad did it mom didn't like it separated got a divorce she remarried Dad number two who was worse than Dad number one this guy was playing the field all over the place because you know he was just wild so bad that he didn't even get a job he lived off of you know basically her and then she had to join the military my mom went into the United States Navy in order to have an income for the family for her husband number two and me her son and she went to I think it was Orlando to to boot camp and left me with him in a trailer park at that time in West Virginia and the things that I saw as a young boy I mean five six-year-old boys seeing Dad number two with other women in the trailer home and I'm just like um this just doesn't seem right to me but that's what I saw and that's what I wanted to do so when she came back from boot camp and they moved to Virginia Beach she ditched him got a divorce fell in love with another dude who was a military officer and then they shacked up and got married I had three dads before I was 10 years old and none of them were Saint Joseph let me tell you okay these dudes were into it for their for their own interest you know so when I got Dad number three he did something in New in my life I was 10 years old at this point and they got married he adopted me I got his last name do you remember what my last name is Callaway right think Carlsbad golf clubs right Callaway which I am so grateful for because do you know what my biological father's last name was that I had up until I was 10 years old Croc for reals my last name was Croc I mean that's brutal unless that's your last name it's it's awesome very nice no it's brutal so thank God for adoption I got his last name I got Callaway and something else his parents my new grandparents and I got a ton of grandparents having three dads they're all over the place you know I got tons of them these new ones they said to the family you've baptized this boy I mean you've adopted this boy he's never been baptized this poor child has never been baptized 10 years old so they said get them baptized but my mom and my dad now when I say Dad I mean Dad number three they were like nah that's not what we do we're not into that you guys are into that we're not into that but grandparents being grandparents no offense to any grandparents here but they just kind of kept nagging baptize him get him back when are you going to get them baptized when are you going to get them baptized you need to baptize them just kept hammering it until finally my mom and dad said fine like shut up they didn't want to do it so what did they do now my grandparents were Episcopalian so not Catholic close but not Catholic so my mom and dad thought well you know what just to make him like super happy let's go to church that church not the one that they're at because they didn't live in the same area anyway but they were like that might look super good on that little 8x11 certificate so that we can say we got them baptized it's in the Episcopalian Church so zip it okay be happy and stop this so I was baptized what was what took place at my baptism because I'm 10 I should remember it and I do were there any preparation classes needed did we go like for once a week for three months or something like that to figure it out this organization called church and what to do no there was no preparation required how many people came to my baptism relatives and Friends of the family none how many photos do we have of my baptism back in the day with like a Polaroid how many we are those we got zero nada why they didn't care about that they wanted the certificate so I remember we went to church and it wasn't even regular Church it wasn't even on a Sunday we went and some dude poured like water over my face and then we went outside around a picnic table and we had some donuts with this dude that was my baptism welcome to Christianity Donuts yep did we go back to church as a family no did we go at Easter or Christmas no did we pray before we ate the family meal absolutely not we never talked about Jesus or Heaven or Hell or the devil or anything any stuff not none of that stuff completely foreign to me did I hear about Jesus from others and you know girl when I was growing up the TV was the babysitter basically you know Saturday and Sunday mornings I'd sit back with some honeycomb cereal and a big thing you know Count Dracula cereal and Pop-Tarts you know and I would watch me some Hannah Barbera some Scooby-Doo and some you know all that stuff for hours on a Saturday and Sunday morning and what would happen between this the commercial time I'd get the remote you know or back then the clunk clunk you know thing and I'd be flipping through and I'd see The Preacher Man and I'd I'd pause momentarily to see what this dude's got going on and I would listen sometimes and this is what I heard this dude he would be saying like in the name of Jesus in the name of Jesus be healed right and I'm just like I don't even know I don't know I don't know what this dude is all about but I would you know occasionally I would stay there for a few minutes and he'd be saying put your hand into the TV and give me ten percent of your income 10 for the glory of God right and I'm just like I man this is wild and then I heard you know him talking about some dude who rose from the dead walked on water and I'm like brah you're a grown man I mean it's kind of cool for like kids to believe this stuff like they believe like some fat dude comes down the chimney and everybody's house once a year and gives them presents but that's for kids bro if you're an adult man and you're profiting off that kind of stuff you that's a sad situation if you think that bunny rabbits pop out a chocolate egg every year or you think some you put a dollar under your pillow when you lose a tooth and and it's a fairy that gives you money that's cool for a kid man if you think that some dude came back from the dead and walks on water that's like me believing that that roadrunner and that coyote is real that that animal that falls on that Coyote's head a million times is like reality that junk ain't real bro I I literally thought these guys need medication they need therapy I mean these guys are hard up for cash and then I kind of figured out why you know because generally you know the the woman that they married like wore like serious makeup no wonder you needed all that money bro because that woman has got a caked face like I ain't never seen right and then that dude ended up being caught with a prostitute the man of God man of the cloth right got busted with the prostitute and I'm like keep me as far away as possible from Christianity this religion of all of them is insane these people are morons these people are against women science male dominated hierarchical medieval rules and regulations idiots Christianity I mean if you've got to succumb to some stupid religion become a Buddha or something and gaze at your belly button to find Nirvana but not that junk that Jesus stuff that's whack and it was Affirmed like when I was educated because after we lived in Virginia Beach you know where we moved L.A because my third father was a naval officer so we moved to LA a new ship was being commissioned in Long Beach and we were in San Pedro and we were there for a little while and then we moved down to San Diego never had the pleasure of living in OC but kind of skirted around it went down to San Diego and absolutely loved it oh my goodness it was amazing living in Southern California it was the early 80s and now things like music we're not just Audible they were visual MTV generation right 1981. so here I am in Southern California and all this stuff is like visual now so you know how it is with music sometimes you can't understand the lyrics Rocket Man what yeah you you get some of it but you don't understand all of it so now with MTV it was visual so if there was any confusion about what Hot for Teacher meant hello right wow amazing that was my generation my generation are the children the progeny the fruit of the hippies the people in the 60s went on marches and you know disobey the man and burn things in the streets and don't tell us what to do and all those things that's my generation we're the fruit of those people who who fought the man fought the system and so as I'm being exposed to all I'm grateful I'm like this is awesome thanks Mom and Dad you know for everything that you did so that I could benefit from where I'm living right now and in Southern California as you well know I was exposed to other cultures on the East Coast not so much but out here I saw Latinas and Filipinas and I was like wow I want some and I got some it was nuts because see when I was growing up you'd watch you watch a TV show like Three's Company where one dude who was a little funny lived with two women and it was like that's the ideal right there I mean my dad's had this my uncle has my uncle it's amazing he's married he was such a weird situation was married to the most beautiful woman so feminine so lovely that when I was a little boy I was like I want a wife in the future like that if I ever had a wife and yet he you know worked for the the the highway road system he always was doing overtime like every night he had so much work to do right right he's a player my grandpa my mom's dad my maternal grandfather how many times he was married seven actually eight because he remarried like number four it's totally weird that's how I I grew up you know the music that I listened to there there was there was the highway to hell but also The Stairway to Heaven it it was the same thing it didn't matter it was you know what's wrong with the night of sin albums like the ultimate sin Ozzy Osbourne all this stuff it was it was awesome because I didn't believe in consequence I I listened to bands named Judas Priest I don't know who Judas was I don't know what a priest was it didn't matter and so I just lived my life for pleasure like a monkey because you know that's basically what I thought I was in the education system actually in San Diego I don't want to rat them out I hope he's not here tonight he'd probably be super old anyway but one teacher science teacher in San Diego in class one day comes into class with a little something something in his hand actually like a stack of them a little circular thing in a little plastic item and he says to all the boys here you go just be safe don't tell your parents but just be safe me and all my buddies are like Epic thanks dude thought he was the coolest teacher ever you know what it was right I'll have to say it was that same dude who in class made fun of Christianity mocked it ridiculed it and delighted in having us affirm everything that he was saying and what were the things that he said he said basically you know science you know those people today that can't tell the difference between a man or a woman right science shows that this whole Christianity thing is a man-made myth God became man please we come from water through amoeba and such and then we kind of made our way through land through starfish or something we became you know we were dolphins and then maybe monkeys and now we're upright apes and there's nothing special about us there's no end to this it's an endless stretching Cosmos going nowhere come from nobody and we're just part of it and he downgraded the whole system took away the Dignity of the human person and I was just like yeah dude makes total sense to me and why would God become man if we're moving on you think this process stops and what he said made so much sense just like people today say it's the post-christian era today it's the post-human era today why because that logic doesn't stop at a certain point it doesn't say this is the highest it'll become no at some point we're going to move Beyond and we're going to be transhuman that's all the talk today so I thought yeah how stupid again of Christianity that God became man sorry Jesus we're going to leave you in the dust of History loser of all religions Christianity is the stupidest most unscientific and he affirmed it and you know every single one of my friends in that class every one of them bought it everyone that's why we all became players all of us and I didn't have one friend whose parents were like super different nah my friends dads were cheating on that their mom underneath their bed we found magazines with nice Centerfolds and such right under my dad's bed under their dad's bed under everybody's bed in the closet everybody was a pervert everybody no exceptions and that's how I grew up and that's what I wanted because when you when you believe you're basically just an upright ape you live for your senses all I wanted was my banana so to speak let's do this so at an early age man I started smoking weed smart start drinking started you checking out the Mrs January February and March and start doing immoral things that I call immoral now back then I wouldn't have called it that I thought it was great and then my dad says we're going to move again and I'm thinking okay Virginia Beach La San Diego I'm hoping out of his mouth he was going to say we're going to move to Honolulu that's not what he said you know what he said we're moving to Japan I was like no we ain't wrong I'm not moving to Japan bro no way you ain't taking me out of San Diego I'm not going over there I had a National Geographic understanding of Japan no offense to anybody who's Japanese here it's not intended at all but in my little ignorant mind I thought I'm gonna go over there have to eat fish and ride a bike I'm not racist I'm really not but I mean that's just how I thought but I had no choice so we get on the plane longest flight I've ever taken go to Japan we get we get there and I immediately looked for the bad kids right everybody today is like oh how can you say that you don't know by appearance dude if some dude is wearing like an Iron Maiden shirt back in the day with studs and all I don't think he's praying the Rosary or if some girl is half naked wearing dental floss that girl is crying out for affirmation all I got to do is tell her she's beautiful amen it ain't rocket science but see everybody today is so triggered so woke that everybody's offended by everything how dare you it's obvious so I looked for him and there they were easy to find and so I continue what I started in Southern California but it got worse over there I got exposed to like heroin I got exposed to a whole bunch of other things that were crazy I mean I was like drinking Robitussin DM to get the codeine out of it I was huffing like gas from a butane thing you light flute lighter fluid with it was insane the stuff that I was doing and I would start doing it every single day got to the point where I dropped out of out of school and I ran away in Japan on the big island of Honshu the big one in the middle and caused an international scene what was I did I seek gainful employment was I working at a Pachinko parlor for an income kidding me I was running with the Japanese Mafia do you know how old I was 15. 15 years old I was never fully initiated into the Yakuza hopefully you're familiar with that a little bit you know Japan is a different Asian country than most other Asian countries Singapore somewhat similar and it's very clean respectful and stuff like that but there is a criminal organization in Japan that is serious when you're fully initiated you get one or two at the top of your pinkies cut off and your whole back is tattooed and you belong to this organization there's no way out well they don't initiate little white boys into it fully but they used me as a drug mule it was a brilliant move for them nobody would suspect back in the day my members only backpack remember with a million zippers that I would have in it the equivalent of ten thousand dollars in American currency and yeah and you're like a million dollars back then sounds awesome but it's not a million dollars it's ten thousand dollars equivalent for a 15 year old kid taking it to different casinos to different organizations it was insane I lived an insane life with another buddy who ran away with me the American Military was looking for me the American government was looking for me and the Japanese government was looking for me but we were good we would sleep in capsule hotels these little things were literally you get a futon for like 10 bucks a night you get a futon and a little like cocoon thing in a wall that has a little TV at the end where you put your little Yen and it's all porn it's all they show and that was back then I can't even imagine what is going on over there now because Japanese culture is is interesting everybody dress up like a cartoon it's crazy right but there I was living this insane life what was happening with my family this is amazing so my mom checked this out my mom her name is lachita Bianco like Su Italian it's insane how was my mom not a Catholic you're Italian but she wasn't when her grandmother my great-grandmother came over from Italy Ellis Island the whole you know story they checked two things basically at the gate that they did not bring with them one was the language so I never learned Italian which is probably a good thing I would have worked out with the ladies right the other thing was Catholicism obviously my history is Catholic but they never continued on with the faith well my mom in Japan had a crisis oh my goodness did she ever a maternal crisis her son me they had a they had a boy Matthew my half-brother my mom and my third dad but her firstborn me I broke her heart I was gone she had no idea if I was going to be found again or if I was even alive she was going to counseling she was on medication for stress anxiety depression none of it was working not that that stuff can't help not if it was necessarily bad but when the maternal heart is broke ain't no peel gonna heal it so my mom had a friend in Japan and what I'm about to tell you I wouldn't find out until much later but she had a friend in Japan you know who it was it's amazing because they're here like huge in Southern California they're everywhere man a Filipino woman baby Special Forces of God that's what Filipino women are Green Berets Navy Seals man you're dead okay so this Filipino woman she was the friend of my mother and my mom tells her about me and everybody knew anyway you know I mean we were kind of famous over there for what we had done and we were missing in action so to speak and so this Filipino woman said to my mother the following now I'm going to imitate it don't be offended to you and your country and your people okay if I was not a priest I would have married a Filipino okay that's how much I love Filipinos I'm not insulting you but when a white boy here's that accent this is how it we hear it so this Filipino woman said to my mother one day I know what you got to do you got to talk to Potter my mom was like what this Filipino woman she was like you got to talk to Catholic priest he have answered to your problem my mom is like why and she's like you got to trust me talk to father so my mom was like fine small military base it was called atsugi it's still there military installation so my mom goes and talks to a Catholic priest which was a miracle my mom wasn't into religion that priest changed my mom's life he told my mom about hardcore in your face Catholicism not watered down group hug Kumbaya nonsense in your face Catholicism you got to repent your life is jacked up lachita this is your third marriage no wonder your son's all I mean what do you think is going to be the fruit of this but there's hope for you your suffering can be used if you unite it with Jesus there's a mystical body the church the Catholic Church there's sacraments that's the best medicine that you can receive lachita the pills the counseling that's supplemental the core of it you're missing out on and here's the thing it's free it's all free she told my mom about the Saints and what they underwent especially one named Monica who had a little delinquent son named Augustine lived in Africa like in the 4th century and she was super into Jesus Monica but her son was not he was a player he loved the ladies he did but he thought he was so smart he was that dude could speak like seven languages and probably write like 11. he was super educated and his mom would say I see you searching son but it's Jesus who's the answer he would Jesus that's for the weak ignorant people like you Mom I don't need that I've been enlightened I can gaze at the stars from meaning I could look at my hand for the future right right and yet you got a woman on the side that you had a child out of wedlock with why because you're a sinner Augustine you're not willing to change your life for objective truth you know his mom got on him so much about coming to Jesus you know what he did this is what the priest told my mom he ditched his mom ran away from her that sounded real familiar got on a boat and left the stinking country just to get away from his mother where did he go Italy wrong boat dude bad idea bro you just went to like the center of Christianity sure enough he goes there he's in Milan one day he's walking down the street sees this beautiful building with beautiful music coming out of it he's into the Arts and whatnot right so he goes in and this dude is like high up and he's just thundering words in Latin and he knew what he was saying because he was smart and he couldn't believe what he was hearing truth no compromise and the final thing that that guy said was tole at Legend which means take and read which meant what he had up there Augustine needed to read it he read the New Testament and his life was changed and he gave up all of his sinful stuff amazing when my mom heard that she's like really this stuff happens and the priest said yeah oh that's just one example there's tons more and let me tell you about what Jesus said about the Eucharist did you know this lachita that Jesus said unless you eat my flesh and drink my blood you don't have life that ain't just you know people making it up it's in a thing called the Bible my mom was like I've never heard this what is this he told her about confession where Jesus says in the Bible he who sins you forgive are forgiven to the first priest look it up it's in there my mom was like wait what and basically she'd been going to confession for years to a therapist and lacking what absolution and paying tons of money for that junk and not being forgiven for her own foul disgusting sinful life and now she had the key that unlocked it all she told my dad about this it was a little rough at first but she was like honey I'm going and you're coming with me and we're bringing our son Matthew to the Catholic church I didn't know anything of what I just told you I was out stealing mopeds and with so many Japanese girls and ain't even funny doing my own thing I never wanted to see them again so I was quite shocked when I learned that my mom at one point was no longer even living in Japan why because she had to leave the authorities said to her you have to leave the country you have to go back to the States and relocate and get a place ready for when we hopefully find your son alive I didn't even know my mom was out not living in the country anymore how did I find that out because they tapped the phone lines to the military installation where I was calling on my buddies and saying dude we got so much money we can't even store it in these locker rooms come out party with us we'll meet in Yokohama we'll meet in Tokyo we we got so many Japanese girls that are looking for American boys to have a good time with basically a pimp they tap the phone lines and heard our conversations and apprehended me and my buddy at a train station we ran right these dudes had eaten one too many donuts so you could ditch those dudes easy right I was young and you know really Nimble so I ditched those dudes they recaptured me put me in the brig the military jail and lock down the military base that was at Camp Zama which wasn't too far from matsugi and there I was in a brig going to be deported kicked out of the country and I was they handcuffed me when I was they took me to Yokosuka If this means anything if you're military you know what I'm talking about there's too many Yokosuka and they put me on a Mac flight it's a cargo plane with web seating it's usually not for personnel but for cargo but they they they literally had me and two MPS my buddy went on another one two MPS escorted me from Yokosuka to Honolulu finally made it to Hawaii right handcuffed to the plane the web stuff on the side and then when we were off of it handcuffed to an MP big dude and they were thinking about duct tape in my mouth because I was so violent I was like taking swings at this dude trying to get a big loogie and spit in his face that's how bad I was I was an animal the animal they told me I was back in the school days I became I was in an enraged how dare you take me out of the place that I love who are you to tell me what I can and cannot do you're just Another Monkey you just wear a badge you just abide by the rules I don't I'm here to have fun and die I don't care there's nothing after this for some reason all these other stinking monkeys who were older than me kept telling me what I could and could not do and it enraged me who are you who are you so when we got to Honolulu they took the handcuffs off they put me on a civilian flight uh you know that was kind of scary American Airlines there I was you know what I looked like at that point by the way now as I said I'm working on my pride and my ego but I do carry a big picture of myself all around the world okay just for dramatic effect okay this is what I look like at that point at that point okay yeah nothing necessarily wrong with long hair okay Jesus had long hair but the state of my soul in this picture dirty so messed up and my hair would actually become longer than this my hair would go all the way down to my belt when I grew it at it so it bangs and all I didn't cut my hair for like seven years I had the most wicked split ends you ever saw but that was me okay so when they my dad is there too he's with the military police they say they take we fly to LAX when we get to LAX they take the handcuffs off and they re released me into the custody of my father and I'm not 18 yet all that had happened before I was 18. and I couldn't be prosecuted on American soil I hadn't done anything criminal on American soil kind of a dilemma the agreement between the governments was I had to go to some kind of Institution and my parents had to make reparation you know my dad had to retire from the military early because of me never moved on to the next rank because of me did I care nah not at all so there I am with my dad and my first instinct is a bolt I still got friends in San Diego and La maybe they're still there maybe they're not in Germany now because you know they were military dependents like I was but I didn't run and we get on the plane and we fly to Pennsylvania and I'm like what are we doing and my my dad's like well your mom is relocated you know with Matt and they've got a house and everything and we're going to be living in Pennsylvania and I'm like inside of me I'm like no way dude no stinking way am I living in Pennsylvania so we get off the plane pre-911 long hair looking like this there's my mom at the gate you know anybody at those days could come right in and go right to the gate she loses it when she sees me I hadn't seen my mom in a long time and she just starts crying oh my goodness Donny done is trying to hug me I stuck out my finger and I looked her right in the eye in front of everybody I hate your guts that's what I said my mom lost it she broke she started crying so uncontrollably she could barely breathe did I care nah we get into the car it's amazing I even went to the car we get into the car and I'm like where are we going and my dad says you're going to a rehab in Altoona Pennsylvania you know what I said good because it'll get me away from you in the airport I put a dagger in my mom's heart in the car I turned it and ripped her guts out I go to my first rehab in Altoona Pennsylvania it's called New Beginnings at Cove Forge it's still there you can look it up they tried to get me better by going to you know sessions and small group and you know affirmation sessions and Kumbaya playing guitars and swinging on trees for team building experiences right good luck with that you know that today secular rehabs the failure rate is like 95 percent I ain't making that statistic up Google it they don't work why because it's just it's a Band-Aid to a spiritual problem they don't give you anything more than you're a monkey just be a sober monkey because somebody paying a lot of money for you to be up on this joint make a good showing and get that chip right I didn't want that stinking chip I didn't want to be there in the first I learned how to do more drugs in the rehab I ran away from the rehab we were hooking up when we get out yeah we're going to go to a meeting and I went to my meetings because that was easy to see who was real and who was fake when little you know hi I'm Linda I'm an alcoholic what's up Linda you know you haven't been sober that long easy so I go to my parents house after my first rehab and I can tell you I ran away they caught me in the wood it was crazy I go to my parents house after the rehab three months I was in that rehab what did my mom say to me crazy stuff Mama man she became like a nun my mom in that house she had turned that house into a church there was these figurines little one medium gigantic ones of some dude with wings ripped like six-pack in it with like a spear stabbing some snake in the face bizarre all over the house even in my room the room that would be mine and I would go out you know and I'd get plastered I had to make up for lost time three months I come bombed out of home I'd wake up and under the pillow there would be a card and it had that winged creature and it said Saint Michael The Arc I'm like Mom's cuckoo for Cocoa Puffs mom crazy my parents are going to Jim Jones's sucker go to Uganda drink some Kool-Aid and off themselves because this is a cult whatever my parents are into this is bizarre and my mom said to me Donnie we've become Catholic what how could you pop you Mom you're educated how you can't be suckered by these losers these people how could you do this no Donnie you don't understand your father and I have found the truth and it's in the Catholic church I'm like you're insane there's no way I'm going to a church totally different people my mom now you know in the past my mom she would smack me Italian mother just lay into me now Donnie I love you and Jesus loves you too right and I'm like oh my gosh it was too much right I couldn't even stay in their house because every time they ate a cracker they were like bless us oh Lord and these thy gifts I'm like just eat it you know I could not live with these people it was like I was in a monastery or something so I left remember like this hair kept growing you know and I ended up hitchhiking a dude picked me up in a Volkswagen bus and he's like hey man and I'm like dude where are you going he's like going to a show man and I'm like all right whatever dude I'll go let's let's go so we go to my first Grateful Dead show right at the old Spectrum in Philadelphia entered into a whole new world I started a new acid constantly shrooms constantly you have no idea I talked to trees man Jerry was going to take us to the other side where love never Fades away and you'd listen to him squeeze every drop of juice out of one note and it was like oh oh there it is I mean it was a religion basically seriously if you were a deadhead back in the day you know what I'm talking about it was family it really and we went to so many shows all across the Eastern Seaboard into the Midwest never went to India out on the West Coast it was nuts how did that work out well as soon as I turned 18 I ended up in jail in Louisiana because I got busted shoplifting from a store called Piggly Wiggly those places actually exist by the way I didn't go to my court date as a whole disaster and then I got busted smoking crack in Philadelphia on the streets and put in another rehab a psychiatric Institute for three months Charter Fairmont Institute internationally known it's still there you can look it up three months I was there I would beat the pads in the padded room they put me in when I went off on the counselor until they bled seriously my parents would come to visit me they wouldn't last five minutes because I'd try and punch them that's how I was nuts three months and they tried to take give me all kind of medication here take this you know and if that didn't work we'll up the milligrams and give you another Dixie cup with a different brand and I would just flip those things throwing pills at them back into the room three months and I couldn't run away from that one it was a lockdown powder facility I get out and I go to my parents house they always took me back now they're not just going to church on Sundays they're going every day every day who does this and everything was so radically they had enrolled my brother in a Catholic School which in my mind meant some penguin no offense sister I see you there's but in my mind some penguin was whipping him with the ruler obey obey right that's what I thought Catholicism was these people are weird avoid them now they're paying for him to be beat seriously so I couldn't stay there so I left ended up you know doing my own stuff again got thrown in jail again nuts and then it happened I had nowhere to go I was homeless I go back to my parents house and I discovered that my dad is halfway around the world and what would be his last Duty station it was a time of war the Gulf War thing he had to retire early but they needed him at that point because of that situation he's on an aircraft carrier halfway around the world so I'm like sweet I ain't got him to deal with my mom's like you can stay in this room it was in Norfolk Virginia and I'm there and I had buddies there and they're calling me they're like dude let's go out let's meet by the pier we got an eight ball and what's her name she's smoking dude she's been talking about you where you been and I'm like nah nah I'm done I'm out was I thinking about getting saved was I talking about meeting Jesus no what was I thinking about I'm done I'm tired of this I've done everything with all these beautiful monkeys you can do I've smoked so many things my tolerance level was so big I could drink so much now it was insane what's going to happen to me I'm gonna am I going to end up like my Uncle Denny in Cleveland who back in the 70s sprinkled some bad coke on a joint smoked it and now he don't know his nose from his toe and he drools all over him his chin all day am I going to end up like that that's an option or maybe I'll just do what some of my other friends did and end it because a lot of my friends did that they're not here anymore so I'm thinking about doing it and as I'm in that little room it wasn't even a bedroom it was pretty small it had a love seat that's what I would sleep on and had a dresser drawer I'm like bored all my buddies are outwasted somewhere and doing the stuff that we do and I'm just like and I don't know man I'm just sick of this life I go into the hallway right outside my door they had a bookshelf and I'm looking for like a National Geographic just let me look at like maps of Vikings or something and some monkeys and I'll just preoccupy my mind because in that room this is what I heard for the first time in like a decade 10 years this is what I heard nothing no video games no noise no party no TV silence and it freaked me out I was not used to it so I went I'm looking No nasty what is this I pull it out it's yellow so I thought it was a national graphic special edition pull it out it wasn't it said the Queen of Peace visits medju ju gorgy G gor G Gore what is it so there's some Babushka looking lady on the cover Barefoot on like the rockiest mountain I ever saw I'm like What's Up grandma get some shoes on you I don't understand what it's all about so I take it into the room and I'm like okay what is this there's pictures in the middle you can tell when a book has pictures I crack it open in the middle and I see these little kids they don't look American look like they need like a Happy Meal you know they need some food they're a little deprived and so I'm like okay what so I read the captions below the pictures and this is what they said the little children are now seeing the Blessed Virgin Mary what I don't even know what they're talking about so then it gave their names you had like this dude Ivan and Jacob and marijuana I thought that girl's name was marijuana that's what I read you know marijuana mary G Jonna marijuana right so I'm like whoa so that kind of interested me so I'm like all right what so I started reading the book at the beginning and I was not a reader talking about some war and some long word that could have used a few vowels I couldn't pronounce you know and I'm like okay chapter two so I go to chapter two and all of a sudden these little kids say that they are seeing the most beautiful woman they've ever seen comes with a clap of thunder and doves and the smell of roses awesome right I'm a dude very much so so I'm like it's on who is this how did I miss this one see God knew what to do wounded man the ways you sin are the ways you'll be purified so God knew how to bait me as a wounded man put Beauty in front of my face that I can't see but I'm intrigued by he got me I started reading that book and I'm like okay so where's the what so I'm looking for pictures there's some statue but I'm not a I know she's not a statue so I'm like okay what so I keep reading I'm like okay hold on she's coming from heaven whatever right she says that the reason you're not happy is because you're sinning I'm like yeah send to me man good times rock and roll baby let's do this she's like seeing that it's bad that's foreign to me so I keep reading and she's like if you want happiness you have to confess your sins to a Catholic priest and I'm like whoa whoa whoa whoa kept reading says she was the mother of Jesus what fairy tales don't have a mother Scooby-Doo ain't got no mother you talking about the mother of Jesus what is I never heard that preacher dude on TV between Scooby-Doo and Popeye talking about Jesus having a mother not once did I hear the preacher man talking about the mother of Jesus on TV so I'm like what is going on here I keep reading that book blew me away it rocked my world I had never heard stuff like this and I have to admit it first I thought it was like now I'm going to date myself when I say this like Leonard Nimoy in search of it was like Sasquatch it was like Nessie it was like a specter so I'm like what okay what so I keep reading and I'm like wait they're thinking this is real and and she's talking to them like this is real I'm like what is this are my parents into this what if I walked into here and I kept reading it and it was like everything that that woman was saying to those kids was said to me it was like my name was in front of every sentence and I'm like I'm freaking out there's no way there's no stinking way that everything that I've been told in life has been wrong and that what this woman is saying is true why didn't they tell me this in the rehabs why didn't he tell me this when I was in jail why didn't the people at school tell me this completely foreign to everything that I have been told and I believed it that makes a lot of sense that this Jesus is God and because he's God there is no other you can only have one supreme deity you can't have multiple Yin Yang in it no I'm God no I'm God no I'm all-powerful no I'm a schizophrenia you can only have one supreme being so I was like okay that actually logically makes a ton of sense to me I've never even thought about that I just thought all the religions are the same they're all stupid but wait a minute that's making a lot of sense what this woman is saying is kind of freaking me out I read that whole book in one night it's a big big fatty I had to go to sleep I wait for my mom to come down the stairs it's a duplex military housing officer housing she comes down like not even six o'clock in the morning there I am at the bottom of the steps looking like this could have got a contact high for me if you stood closed for me I was Mr marijuana man I smoked so much weed it ain't funny my mom comes down and she's half asleep and I'm at the bottom and I said Mom I gotta oh and she's like what and I said Mom I gotta oh she was upset she's half asleep she's like what Donnie what are you trying to tell me and I said it I said it everything within me died I said Mom I gotta talk to a Catholic priest okay you know what she said to me and we joke about this to this day she looked right at me like seven steps above me and she goes yeah right [Laughter] I said this and she goes did you read that I'm like Mom I stayed up all night I read this thing I don't understand a lot of it but what is this and she's like oh my she ran right to the phone six o'clock in the morning punched in seven digits and I heard her have a combo with some dude that went like this morning Father yes this is the cheetah I know father it's I'm sorry I'm sorry Father I need to bring no father please please father father please please he didn't he couldn't do it pretty certain people they have to put their pants on and have a cup of coffee like normal right it's six a.m so she tries another dude father and he didn't couldn't do it either at that moment so I said to her I interrupted her before she made a third phone call and I said Mom isn't there one of those things over there see they lived on Norfolk Naval Air Station at that time maybe it still is the largest Naval facility in the world at that time it had two Catholic chapels on the base how did I know that because the main ones was right by the main gate I would walk on the other side of the street to avoid it I never even got close enough to see what it was called seriously that's how inimical I was enemy like to anything dealing with religion especially Christianity so she says to me yes Donnie run run and I did I threw the book down the hallway I bust out the front door my tie-dye shirt on and I ran to this building out of breath when I get there I look up you know what the name of it was it still is Our Lady of Victory Chapel still there I was just there last December for the first time again mind-blowing right so I'm like but I don't do Church man I ain't going in there there's traffic this is public so I see another building that says chaplain's office I'm like all right I'll wait I go in I am raw socially I don't know how to communicate with people so I opened that door long-haired freak in the hallway six o'clock in the morning and I yell out Catholic priests I freaked that joint out there were people in there and all their heads are popping out of their cubicles and they're like they're looking at each other like I don't you want to talk I don't want to talk to him do you I don't I don't know I don't belong in a military installation looking like this right so finally some dude has the courage to come over to me with his white Navy uniform on with the Dixie cup of coffee and he's like hello can I help you and I'm like um yeah I need a preach you a priest he's like no and I'm like I need a Catholic priest he's like okay who are you and I'm like you ain't worried about that get me a priest so he goes he disappears he comes back with another dude white Navy uniform on cup of coffee and he's like can I help you I'm like I need a priest okay and he's like I'm Father John that don't mean nothing to me so I'm like all right dude you a preacher you do God and that kind of got him he was just standing there like um well yeah and I'm like I'm thinking I got a dud you know this dude he ain't even confident man so I'm like all right dude get it out of me get it out and he's like get what out I don't know what you're talking about and I'm like dude I'm freaking out I read this book last night about this woman smells like roses clap of Thunder says she's the mother of God and she said dude if I want peace I gotta go and confess to a Catholic priest and he goes oh confession sure come on right so we go down to his little cubicle but he's scared that dude is scared he pulled his chair like halfway out into the hallway right in case I tried to cap that sucker right get him get him cornered and smoke them right so I got me one I think he's legit and I'm about to tell this dude filthy perverse disgusting things that I would never tell anybody and I did I looked at the carpet I couldn't even look at that dude I store stared at the carpet between us and I started saying filthy disgusting stuff and then at one point I looked up and he was like you did what and I'm like yeah I'm like and I and I was growing chronologically so I'm like I was 12 when I did that jungle dude you're going to hear some stuff here in a minute you know and he's like whoa whoa hold on a minute wow he goes when's the last time you went to confession and I'm like bro I don't know and he goes been a month was it you know back in high school I'm like no I dropped out of high school he's like okay when how long and I'm like dude I have no idea he goes well you're a Catholic right and I'm like oh heck no he got mad he did he was like whoa wait what he goes you can't do this what are you doing this is a Sacrament and I'm like dude I don't know what you're talking about that woman said he's like what woman I'm like the beautiful one and he's like oh brother he's looking at me like you know oh yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah so I'm like I don't know what to do dude I'm freaking out man please help me and he goes okay look I gotta go celebrate Mass what he said to me and I'm like okay and he goes you don't know what that is and I'm like dude I don't know what you're talking about I'm I'm thinking like celebrate Mass means he's going to go rejoice in neutrons and protons and gravity we don't dig it man we're Mass man you know it's awesome dude I don't know what you're talking about so he's like okay all right all right all right look do you know where the chapel is I said yeah I saw it he goes look go over there go in when I'm done let's meet back here okay and I'm like you serious he's like yes I go all right this isn't your way of getting me out of here you're going to like call the cops and get me busted right he's like no and I'm like all right dude so I'm like just over there he's like yeah go over there and I'm like all right so I start to walk away and he goes wait wait one more thing he goes um when you go in sit in the back okay right so I'm like yeah I get it so I go over there I wait for a break in traffic I touch that doorknob I'm thinking that sucker's hot like I'm gonna die I like Jesus is from West Virginia you're gonna die you're gonna die right I'm hunted by God I'm thinking I'm dead I can't me in a church this is like the Divine Guillotine is going to come down and cut me like butter so I'm like oh my gosh I'm like I open the door I go in somebody had just WD-40 that sucker it slammed so violent behind me I turn around it wasn't this big it wasn't as wide either maybe half of this size I walked in like a door that was there when that door slammed I turned around in the front Pew and only people in that church you know who was in that pew by Filipino women oh Lord I'm dead one took down my family okay there's five you couldn't get me to the back fast enough man I've like practically ran to the back and I'm sitting there and I'm just looking around I'm like this is insane this is insane I can't believe I'm in a church man I cannot believe that I'm in a church and all of a sudden if you're familiar with the Filipino culture there's always one self-appointed matriarch who tells everybody else what to do it's just how it works you got to do got to do got to do it the men are just passive they're like okay right so it's amazing how that culture works so sure enough there she was she goes up and fires up two candles on some table I thought it was a table and she goes back and then she goes into her purse and she pulls out a necklace right and they pull out their necklaces because she's Mother Superior right they pull out their necklaces and then she starts this Tagalog incantation to the boat Naval Chapel there's a big boat hanging above the table still there by the way in December I was there still same one so I'm like what is going on and she kicks this thing into fifth overdrive and all I hear is this I'm like whoa whoa soul to the highest bidder you know what is this and the other four reciprocated Holy Mary foreign [Music] crazy I mean wow I mean wow so after a few minutes this woman bowled Filipino women she she holds up her necklace turns around to me long-haired freak in the back and she goes young man would you like to pray the next decade please next decade I'm like a deer in headlights I don't even say anything I'm just like I you know I have no idea all I know is that decade means 10 years right am I hearing this wrong like what so she kind of showed a little frustration you know so she says to one of her sisters you know and they she kicks it in hell maybe we're gonna hold him and they continue this thing for like 15 minutes I'm about to bail I'm like this this is like weird this I've walked into like some Wiccan coven they're invoking the devil I don't know what they're doing in here this is insane so all of a sudden they stop and the dude comes in the priest but now he doesn't look like a military officer he's got some robe on with a flower on the front and he comes in and he's he's saying good morning to them he's like morning and I'm part of me was like oh oh I wanted to tell him dude they're witches you know like they're witches that's what I wanted to tell them you know but he seemed to be cool with them so I'm like I'll tell them later so he he goes over and he starts doing all kind of weird stuff at that at this and the microphones were horrible you ever been to Charlie Brown church this one's a gem so far but I'm telling you Catholic churches you need to get that bunny in there and get some new batteries this is what I heard my first experience of a Catholic Church the name of the beard hello Army what completely unintelligible gibberish just like they were gibberish what is this right and he's at this at one point he's talking forever and I'm like dude shut up right like what are you doing like this is ridiculous and then he goes over they get on their knees for some reason he's here and there was a microphone there that worked and all of a sudden this is what happened man that dude bends over and he has something in his hands which I can't fully see because it's a good distance and he says this I heard that dude say this this is my body given up for you Take and Eat and he goes like this and he's hold up a little white circle and I'm like you a nut you're allergic bro that dude just said that that was his body and we gotta eat it that's what he said and he was like showcasing it what insanity is this but the women digging it they were like I don't what is this and he stood there for a good while just standing there do you know what happened to me now I'm not a Mystic trust me wow I'm not I Heard a Voice yeah I did a lot of acid in the day but it wasn't a flashback okay I heard a voice and it wasn't spoken to my ear it was spoken to me The Voice spoke to me and the voice said to me worship and you know what happened next I prayed actually after this experience to have a way to explain this to people and this is what I was given this is what happened to me I was injected with knowledge I knew what that man had in his hands was God I didn't know language Holy Communion Eucharist Blessed Sacrament clueless about that kind of stuff I knew he had God he picked up a free a really medieval goblet I didn't know what it was I don't know it was a chalice and he said take this all of you and drink from it this is my blood and he held it up same thing worship I knew that was God I didn't understand it at all but I knew it was he put down God he said some other things and then that dude I saw that was the most amazing thing to this day I've ever heard come out of the mouth of a man I will never hear anything that comes close to it and neither were you and then that dude came down they got up and they met like right here I was now going to see the most amazing thing I've ever seen in my life and I'll never see anything like it and neither were you that dude said to each one of those women one by one the body of Christ and I saw him put God inside them on their tongue I saw it with my own eyes that dude came up got that chalice came down and said the blood of Christ and they drank it I saw it what the voice said to me was true that dude didn't say my body my blood at that point it was God it was Jesus what the voice said to me was true I thought I was losing my mind how did I know this he comes up here does some other things and then he seemed to have God still there and he went up to this gold box which in that church was in the middle and he put God in that box and then he left out the same door he came in the women stuck around for a few minutes and then they left out that same door and there I was alone with God in a box I knew he was there I could feel the power a little red candle next to it I got to get out of here I can't I can't be in here I got out I didn't want to turn away from it I thought if I turn away from it I'm going to get zapped or something I backed out about six feet behind me I hit the wall behind me I turned around and there was a curtain still there which is made not the same curtain probably is a long time ago but and it said above it confession I didn't hear a voice but you know what happened injected with knowledge and to immediately that was a church for sure right I was in a hospital God's rehab what that priest had dished out was the medicine what was behind that curtain was the power to heal I've been to so many hospitals like if you know me you know I love to Surf right I serve gigantic waves all over the place not like Nazareth and Portugal those guys are suicidal but big waves right I love to Surf it's my passion blacks is my home break down in San Diego love I've been doing it my whole life but I've split skull open I broke fractured so many stitches it's insane I know hospitals very well I get kidney stones all the time you don't know pain even women I talk to have given birth they prefer birth over a kidney stone right I've been I've been to hospitals every time I go to a hospital I go behind a curtain where that doctor saves my life stitches me up heals me that's what this is this is just the doctor of the Soul I knew nothing about it and yet I knew it in an instant I went to that priest at his office and I told him what happened I'm like dude oh my gosh you made God you made god dude I am freaking out bro I cannot believe what is happening to me what is happening to me tell me what's happened did you hear the voice and he's like what voice and I'm like oh my gosh dude oh my gosh and he he he's he doesn't know what to do I so overwhelmed that poor man he was like okay look oh man okay look you need to go home and you just need to have some quiet time come back tomorrow and we'll talk and I'm like dude don't please don't do this to me don't send me away I'm serious man I don't know maybe I am losing my mind but I'm telling you dude I am hearing stuff I am experiencing stuff and I don't know what to do I'm lost bro so he went over to his wall and he took off a crucifix that big I still have it and it had been there so long the dust outline of the Cross was still there went to another wall and gave me a big painting of Jesus and then to another wall and gave me a portrait of his grandpa super random I'm like okay right whatever so I go back to my mom's house I tear down my big old Bob Marley poster big old you know spliff man you know and threw away everything in the room everything all my you know resin scrapers to get that last hit hidden in the floorboards and Mrs January and February you know for later and everything foul disgusting in my life all my Grateful Dead music I chucked it all in five big black Hefty bags in the front yard my mom testifies to it I didn't throw him in the trash I threw him out the front door I went in and I hung up Jesus Jesus and Grandpa who was that Grandpa I don't know some pudgy looking dude looked like he'd eaten one too many cookies with a little white hat really weird hat too right John Paul II but I didn't know that I'm not up on these things okay so I'd figure it out later so I don't know what to do so I'm like that dude told me to come back tomorrow if one phone call if some hot chick calls me right now I'm dead I'm not strong what do I do I got that book and I I looked at what those kids were doing so I pulled out a dresser drawer I put my hands like this and I'm like all right it's about to get real I'm about to talk to somebody that I can't see I've either just got religion or I'm a nut I don't even know how to do this Rub-a-Dub-Dub you know peekaboo where are you I don't know what do I look up but if you're God you've got to be everywhere but everybody seems to look up I don't know man I'm like all right all right all right Jesus and I look up I had hung that painting of Jesus right above the dresser and as I'm looking at it I'm like you're real you exist you're God and I didn't get it I did not understand why the image was not like this yeah you little pervert I'm going to smack you upside your filthy little twisted head because that's the Jesus that I thought that everybody was trying to get me to be saved and come to yay sign me up you know I didn't understand it and it was the opposite his heart was on fire he was like this and his eyes penetrated oh my gosh and I lost it I started to cry like a human being can't cry I had so I had Fountains of liquid coming out of my eye sockets pouring off my face into the dresser drawer you know how long that experience lasted all day on my knees I wasn't even aware that there was a world around me nope cried my eyes out what do I call it in my book that I published about my story Divine detox is what it was all he wanted when for me was not a poetic prayer and a mirror badges see how good I am I'm charity that I've done whatever he wanted humility and all I said was I need you and he came like a fire hydrant pouring mad love and mercy into my soul and I needed it so much all my goodness that I need it and I I felt like I was like in a honeymoon chamber with God it was delicious it was unbelievable and then I get up from that experience the day had gone right I only got back to my parents house in like a little after seven my mom testifies to this I get up the sun was down already I tuck into that love seat I'm gonna go to sleep I'm not going to jack this up and I'm gonna go talk to that dude again tomorrow tell him what's going on guess what happened my friends I pray this never happens to you but you might need it to happen your husband might need it to happen your son or daughter might need it to happen I needed it to happen you know who came into the room Satan I didn't believe in that junk Lucifer the devil come on that stuff again the Catholic church has created to scare people boo give us all your money we'll threaten you with that so that you Fork over the dough that's what I thought I think this is real heck is a culture we celebrate the devil man every year in October we dress our children up like demons witches and goblins and say now go to the neighbor and get some candy right we entertain ourselves with a demonic so many shows we we get the Twizzlers and the popcorn Family Night movie night about demons seriously it's everywhere because most people don't believe it anymore I didn't and all of a sudden beginning to manifest itself in my room right in front of my eyes as a creature not of this world I wouldn't have Satanist I didn't go to some pentagram surface and slash a chicken's throat and sprinkle blood on myself heck no I wasn't into any kind of religion but I had opened myself up through the years through all the drugs that I did through the pornography through the you know trying to get a girl acting like Spirits were talking to us through the Ouija board it was me moving that joint sleep with him right that's me doing that junkie right so anyway so but I had opened myself up to all that stuff the other side you ain't got to believe in it for it to be real just like right now you're breathing air you don't see that air you'd be a if you said that didn't exist because you don't see it oh it's there same thing with the Devil very real and I got a taste of it in a way that terrified me absolutely terrified me what could I do here was the Devil manifesting Himself right in front of my face I was so terrified with fear I had to close my eyes lest I saw the full thing I was pet I've never been so scared of my life and trust me I've been scared I've had bad trips while watching The Shining trust me I'm wounded from that experience man this totally different I was so terrified and what am I going to do punch the devil am I going to Duke it out with the devil good luck with that I'm made from dust I'm gonna take a swing at Lucifer that ain't gonna work what did I do the only thing I knew how to do I I built up this cry from the inside and I threw it out to the heavens and I screamed out with all of my being Mary because I was terrified I thought the devil was coming to take me to hell you know what happened next the devil was annihilated I'm talking obliterated totally gone from that room and then I Heard a Voice a woman's voice I've never heard it since I would die to hear it again the most feminine motherly voice was like liquid love trickling over my soul and the voice said to me Donnie I'm so happy nobody calls me Donnie but my mom none of my buddies don't call me Donna you punk right that's a diminutive form of affectionate for my name only my mom does that no other dude who was it I knew who it was it was her it was a mother of Jesus by calling me Donnie she's telling me that she's my mom what she had been saying in that book I slept that night like a little baby safe secure tucked up against his mother's breast not even the devil could touch me because I was in the arms of Mary the next day I got up I went to that priest told him what happened completely freaked him out and I'm like dude I know I'd think I'm nuts too but I'm telling you that junk went down last night and I don't know what to do but dude sign me up and he's like what do you mean I'm like I want to become a Catholic where do I what do I do how do I do this I thought you signed a piece of paper right so he said no you you have to go to classes it'll take you know this is the Archdiocese of the military it's a little different so it'll take about six months I'm like what six months dude you got to be kidding me there's no way I can do this he goes well that's how it is there's no way around that and I'm like all right so what he goes well the next meeting is on Tuesday I'm like all right I'll be there you know what I did that day and the days to follow my whole life changed I cut my hair cut it off I lost all my friends I wasn't a chick magnet anymore back then girls like long hair I lost everything I became a dork it was awesome best thing that ever happened to me all my friends left me I mean I I they didn't want to be around me anymore the chords that I couldn't cut God came in and said yeah that'll be enough cut and cut and cut and cut and cutting I started to fast on bread and water on Wednesdays and Fridays let me tell you my friends if you want to grow in the spiritual life it's prayer squared it's prayer with a punch you will be cleansed and purified you'll get thinking right again your language will change you'll stop with all the foul stuff you'll start to watch good things and listen to Wholesome things not just Christian music I have to admit a lot of Christian music is super dorky and lame and Goofy right but you'll you'll know what is good and what is bad and my life radically changed I got a job miracle I got responsibility I started dressing like a human being I started opening doors for women radical stuff and everybody knew I was different everybody I started going to those classes every Tuesday and it was so slow I'm like okay okay okay okay okay got it let's go let's move right but the people in there were just like I mean it was like it was so lame it was so basic that I'm like I was consuming Catholicism because the women they became my teachers the little Filipino Troopers right they would come up to me and they'd like here you need to wear this one wear this one too right they they decked me out with green brown blue scapulars right you could have shot me a point blank with a 38 he would not penetrate I was like Mr T you know if you know what that is so they gave me a book about Saint Louis to Montfort and a book about Grandpa John Paul II and all these things and I consumed it so when I went to those classes on Tuesdays it was like we were in first gear and sometimes neutral just not going anywhere and I'm like okay let's go deeper man let's let's move here into some deep stuff and the people were just looking at me like what and I I had to drop out I couldn't even do it I said to the priest I'm like dude I need like one-on-one here because we gotta go man we gotta move with stuff I mean I it's cool if they need that pace but that ain't pace for me man we gotta we gotta do this so I had instructions with the priests one-on-one and during that process I'm going to mass every day am I receiving communion no because I wasn't Catholic but I longed to receive him man did I I had watched them go up and receive and I was like oh my gosh what a blessing what a gift and then you know it was amazing during that process the Filipino women you know they're seeing me every day at Mass because my my job I would take my lunch break and go to mass I'll eat later right I'm gonna go be with Jesus I'd put my forehead on the ground people would come in and thought I had a seizure they'd be like you okay I'm like yeah right I'm in love I was so in love you know how you do crazy things when you're in love no you hang up no you hang up no you hang up no you hang up right I couldn't hang up I mean I would at night because there were two chapels on Catholic chapels at that time on the base now there's only one the same one but the other one's now closed I would buy roses for the statue with my man come and all these other things and I would when they would close the door at night I'd still be looking through the stained glass window at the Tabernacle I could see a little bit through a little piece and I'd be like I'll see you tomorrow Jesus I was so madly in love it was insane I would wake up at 3am because they say that's the witching hour right so I'm like now we're going to change that junk so I would pray chaplets I I would enter into prayer do the Stations of the Cross madly in love and then one day one of those Filipino women come to me and they go you know you should become a father what and I'm like oh thank you and she's like no the young people they need a priest like you and I'm like oh thank you so much you know VI was her name and I'm like I I can't do that though and I go bye I didn't I didn't tell them all my life just what they needed to know to be friends I hid a lot from them I didn't lie to them but I didn't tell them my whole you know stuff so I said to her bye thank you I said bye here's the thing here's the thing you see me every day by I'm in classes to become Catholic and she and she's like oh okay and and she goes so that's why you don't receive communion because you know it's obvious when you only got like eight people at mass and the white boy doesn't come up for communion so she goes okay so when you become Catholic I have a beautiful daughter oh no no I don't need the Thriller from Manila okay I've been down that road many times okay I'm good so don't please don't try and hook me up that's the last thing I need you know I need to focus so I kept praying and when I saw that priest go in the back and the people were in line to go behind that curtain and when he celebrated Mass I longed for that I was like later take a miracle right for me to be chased but if this is what you want I'll do it man and so I became Catholic best day of my life and then I got the call and I went and I visited a religious community and they were the community that's that promotes Divine Mercy I'm like exhibit a of Divine Mercy it works and there's super Marian so I was like sign me up but it wasn't easy I had to go for 10 years it was torture everybody around me is married and having kids and other people are coming in and after me six years after me and then getting ordained in four years and I'm like I'm still just going through because why because I dropped out of school I didn't have an education I had to relearn everything but I needed it I did and I was comforted many times when people would say to me look don't forget wine that ages over time is better you'll be what God needs you to be and when the time comes your bottled thunder right now but that Cap's going to come off at some point and then you're going to do what God wants you to do and I needed to hear those things because 10 years was a very long time but then I got ordained which was 20 years ago now and now I'm a priest going around telling my story and talking about Jesus Mary Joseph and the rosary and all that stuff why because I'm better than you nip I suck I do I'm still a sinner I don't know what I would do without confession and God's love and mercy I royally Jack it up every now and then in a huge way and I got to go to a priest bless me Father for I'm sin totally jacked it up this time Padre like everybody else I don't know why God chose me maybe he chose me because he knows I'm a hippie at heart and I got a bus and I want to get you people on it I know the answer to life I know the secret that unlocks everything now it's in the Catholic Church really and truly even though the Catholic Church as I was saying two nights ago at the other parish is like the Ark of Noah it's filled with animals and a lot of manure it is there are so many losers in it right now even the higher ups many of them I'm like what they did what they said what that ain't of Jesus right there's a lot of cray-cray going on right now in the world and in the church but I know this is the one Ark made by the new Noah Jesus Christ to get me to the shores of paradise I ain't worried about these losers I'm focusing on him and his promises the Oaths that he swore through the sacraments to heal me forgive me give me the medicine of the sick my sick foul soul I pray everybody else comes to understand that too that's what's about my friends you ain't a monkey you're here for a purpose and a plan this is real Jesus ain't a myth this ain't a fairy tale this is reality the woke cray-cray World wants to suck it out of you and make you so triggered and offended by everything it's time to wake up time to wake up you know very well that this world has gone so far astray with everything that's out there in the world right now how far is it gonna go before there's something of biblical proportions we we hear that stuff in the past down we think a flood come on or this or that or some plague or some you know we like we think you better get ready how long do you think this is going to go until there's a correction see the world has their great reset and their build back better plan right God has one too a great reset he's done it before and it's gonna happen again but the thing is you could have it happen right now for you if you humble yourself if you get your high knee into confession all you got to do is have that much humility you think you're the exception to it all you ain't I thought I was nah that junk ain't for me I'm Different I get it no I didn't get it I was so lost my friends if you remember anything from this talk tonight from this crazy priest who's got a wild story don't remember me remember that there is a God Only One and he is panting for you can't take his eyes off you he's looking at you right now and he wants you and you're jacked up marriage and your funky family and your weird kids yep all of it give it to him humble yourself it's Lent go to confession when's the last time you went when I went to confession for real not the fake one that I tried to do with the priest when I really went the freedom the shackles the chains were broke because I got it all out and it happens every time that I go and it's free you don't have to pay a dime for the best therapy on the planet it's all yours you could go every day if you had to now the priests don't like to hear that right because he would wear us out but technically you could it's good stuff so that's my prayer for you that you take this seriously no matter what your life has been maybe you've lived the perfect life and you're you're like yeah this this priest is weird all right fine maybe you don't need to hear it you do though we all do God loves you and I love you and I pray that together someday you know where we are Paradise because it's real I want to be there so bad like a shark to meet and I ain't letting go not going to let go of it because it's real and I want to be there with every one of you and I'm going to pray for you for the rest of my days because I'm a priest now I wear one of these around my neck and pray for me and for priests we're hunted men the devil hates us the world hates us many people in the church hate us everybody hates us it's cool kill us you get rid of one Jesus will just send another we are replaceable because there's one priesthood Jesus Christ he's so madly in love with you you ain't never going to get rid of him the Hound of Heaven he's going to be searching for you to the end of your days give it to him now and find that freedom all right I'm going to end with this so that I don't forget because I often do I got books to sign and sell somewhere I think they're in the back I don't have a ton so let me let me tell you a website where you can get books and another thing oh no yeah see he's a fake too he's making money off of this no I'm not I don't make any money off this stuff I'm in a religious community I have a vow of poverty it all goes to my religious community I don't get a dime from this stuff it's the way it should be so the books you can get in the back father callaway.com I have a website for the books if you want to get them please do if you have somebody in your family who's struggling get the conversion book for them put it in the bathroom right I don't care where they read it just hopefully they'll pick it up and they'll have you know an eye-opening Divine two by four experience bam get them right um and then the pilgrimages so now that covered craziness is over I'm doing pilgrimages again so I lead these pilgrimages all around the world to different shrines and stuff so this year the ones are pretty much booked you wouldn't be able to sign up this year Well Italy you could next month but that's coming up that'd be crazy um January of next year I'm going to Mexico Our Lady of Guadalupe how many of you have been to Guadalupe okay cool it's super easy that's like the easiest pilgrimage ever you could fly out of John Wayne or LAX one flight or Mexico City you have lunch no jet lag it's a dream right it's the cheapest one too so Mexico City in January of next year then Greece in June I've never been to Greece and I've been pretty much everywhere but I've never been to Greece and then the Holy Land in December of next year not this year these are next year the Holy Land how many of you been to the Holy Land yeah it's an amazing pilgrimage to go where our Lord was and our lady in Saint Joseph and the apostles it's just mind-blowing stuff so I have Flyers of that in the back you can grab a flyer go to the website get all the details and hopefully I'll see you on a pilgrimage let's say a prayer in the name of the father and of the son and of the holy spirit amen Heavenly Father thank you for being fire for being such a good good father you don't turn away that you put up with us that you love us these show us so much Mercy thank you for sending that fire to us set us aflame with love with truth in these crazy times help us to love you passion with zeal because you're real so real glory be to the father and to the son and to the Holy Spirit as it was in the beginning is now and ever shall be World Without End Amen God bless you guys have a great night father appreciate it thank you brother this is yours who thank you very much I want to call you Donnie but I'm not going to do that father Callaway thank you for being here my gosh you've graced us all 1 000 people here tonight at graced our church we have confessions on I've talked to every day of the week especially on Tuesday as our as our Lenten confession on March 21st so uh thank you for being here safe travels home all of you from all over the world that come here tonight God bless you and there's three more works of Lent thought thank God God bless you [Applause]

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