Etika Talks about what scares him the most

and I will say even though I feel like maybe this is a little bit over exaggerated this whole article about the PTSD from the videos and being on par with some extreme PTSD from people like veterans and whatnot I think that comparison is a little bit skewed but one thing I will say is that I have had it where it wasn't just a nightmare the video stuck with me to this day it stuck with me and what I saw years ago now the context of why we were here what I'm doing with you guys right now I used to do with friends and as crazy as it sounds me my friend Dan my friend marine and even some other friends we would have what we call a Y and C night and I [ __ ] you not a night dedicated to us watching the worst of the worst videos not safe for life wild videos just stuff that was so extreme on the spectrum to just see if there was something there that could make us like shock and I feel like as messed up as that sounds considering our perspective we didn't come at it from a perspective of us trying to disrespect it or trying to like make light of it but it's just like sometimes every now and then I feel like you need a dose a dose of reality a small dose nothing to drive you off the edge but it's like alright let's just see let's just go through it it was such an extreme you know what I mean who knows maybe I am a mess that person for going through that kind of stuff but we did it and man out of all the stuff we had watched we had watched some video of you know in a fish tank there was a big turtle and he ripped this mouse in half that's not that bad cuz you know it's its nature that's the way it goes but one video we watched hold on a second it's a good reminder it's not like um your cameras [ __ ] right now dude hold on a second let me check it out again let me check it out again are we still having those problems are we still having those problems bro I gotta check it one more time just to make sure alright so we have eight point nine thousand viewers we're still playing VR sexy girl and it seems like we're good no I think we're good people are just trolling me at this point actually then again I should have known because if it were truly was a camera problem far more of you guys would be talking about it my bad I don't mean to let myself get trolled so easy the video that we watched it was at my friend Ben's house it was me him and my other friend Ramin I you know me and Ramin aren't close anymore he just stopped interacting with you man I don't know what happened well I don't know cuz didn't want to be my friend anymore but anyways in terms of the video we watched it was on the YNC calm the website here that I just told you guys about we're not gonna be looking at it but you can kind of get an idea of what kind of content it contains looking at these little tags that pop up go or fight underground shocking porn yeah it's kind of basic straightforward with the kind of guards of that is talking about but we were there Ben's house watching a video in a video plate and it didn't actually show the act taking place it was the aftermath a cow and a train apparently the cow was grazing and it was somewhere in Europe train tracks were running through this grassy field and the cow was grazing a little bit too close to it the train kept moving and the cow was there eating you didn't see any of this it's just the aftermath train ripped the cows entire [ __ ] face off you know how cows and other animals in that in that group they had like the long noses and the snow and you know that it took everything off from like the brain all the way like it was the whole note everything the part that was disturbing was not just the fact that all that got ripped off because when it got ripped off the only part that was left intact was the actual brain of the cow because of that it was still standing still moving walking around with no face just the face was on the ground and you saw the cow just walking everything opened just nothing uh it was the craziest thing it would be different if the cow had just died right away and it was as on the ground and someone just recorded was dying like it was dead it was dead but it was alive and walking it was still putting its head to the ground as if it could still eat grass it's like it didn't realize that it just lost its [ __ ] face that was the most insane one of the most insane videos and I will never forget how shocking it was to me I never forget it I used to have nightmares about it because of how wild it was it was just walking around and it was grazing and its face was next to it and it kept walking elsewhere it didn't like it couldn't even scream out in pain because there was no mouth there was no [ __ ] mouth there was no there was no news all imagine my face being completely cut out of my head all the way down that line I just drew and boom being removed that was the cow I know I just painted a visceral grisly image for you guys but if we're talking about experiences that we've had on the Internet where certain things just never leave our minds PTSD who knows maybe that video did cause a tiny bit of PTSD for me I don't feel like it did I've always had some decent mental fortitude when it comes to stuff like that but man all the stuff I've ever seen any internet disturbing videos self-mutilation and all these wild things I mean I their eyebrows 4chan I've seen so much disturbing stuff but what makes that video stand out to me is not just for the gory aspect of it but almost the fantasy-like aspect of it but actually taking pace in real life an animal having its complete [ __ ] head removed and still moving around and the video lasted five minutes and at the end of the five minutes it's not like you saw the animal fall to be honest with you it almost would have been more mentally reassuring it almost would have been satisfying or like put me at peace to see that cow fall over and you know get finally relieved of its misery that cow was alive and well the whole five minutes of that video just walking around completely oblivious to the fact that it got and that's what it [ __ ] me up the fact that that's what that's what [ __ ] me up so yeah I've had my experience I don't know if you guys have had similar experiences I would love to know if you have I mean as crazy as it sounds I don't know press l1 if you feel like how I described it you can see the extreme nature of it Krista - if it wasn't that serious and I was just being a [ __ ] but my thing I feel like that was [ __ ] insane it's not like I was like oh my girl I know I wasn't like that [ __ ] but it was just like it was in my head bro I couldn't get that on my head for so long you see how well I can describe that video to you now I'm talking to you about it that happened like six seven years ago bro and I'm still able to describe it so my best friend Ben bro I don't know and the thing is the thing that makes it crazy I don't think it affected Ben and remain in the same way that it affected me you know what I mean they have been talking about other videos that they had watched on the website for the longest and those videos as Extreme as they were didn't affect me like that but that one video even though it didn't affect them it got to me and it was like whoa everyone's saying one Jesus Christ man my bad bro I know I must have painted a wild picture in the heads of you guys if that video still like it still bothers me to this day it's not as like you know like I said I'm not [ __ ] about to fall into pieces over it but man oh man talk about a wild [ __ ] experience that video it's probably still exists on the internet now you can probably still look it up and find it man it's a cooler with a $50 donation drop in half of a buck out here I see you with that love man thank you big time for the contribution Sakuma says yo I just I don't know why you did it to yourself bro Shakuni says I just watched that Cal video that is [ __ ] up bro I don't I'm not going to suggest any of you watch that video that's the most disturbing video I have ever watched on the Internet in all 28 years 27 years of my life and man it's not disturbing for how just like how shocking it is just wow people people know people I watch that when I was 13 oh [ __ ] I found the video bro don't watch that video it sounds like reverse psychology boy you're gonna remember it if you think me talking about it was surreal enough me mentioning and me describing it in full detail was crazy for you to feel like man you feel like the goosebumps and all that if you watch it you'll watch that video and you will never be the same bro I'm not saying you'll be [ __ ] tweaked but there will be a part of you that will be changed a small little part of you from watching that video will be put to the side like that that doesn't mean it's gonna be ripped out and decimated and you're gonna become a no but something small inside of you will get turned just a little bit never to be turned back ever again oh we got another donation coming in man this is coming in from ultra instinct warrior another one from my boy he's come back into this dream bro thank you for joining me to the later part of this I'm Saul said check your DMS so check them diem is my [ __ ] alright I did see this man message me from earlier so I will be taking a look right now I'm salting my bat you know how I get whenever I talk about them stories [ __ ] but yeah so all that stuff about the cow to say that to an extent I don't know how extreme my personal situation was but I do feel like it is potentially possible to experience a little bit of PTSD when watching extreme videos online and you know there's probably ones far more extreme than the cow one but it wasn't the extreme nature of it it's almost mystical surreal nature of it that came together with it been almost like here's what I truly find disturbing do you want to truly know what bothers me and I'm not coming from a joke perspective or you know an online YouTube entertainer perspective ultra instinct thank you for the heads-up from a man I'm so I'm salt I'm gonna read you in a second what truly disturbs me makes me feel uncomfortable as if there's something like in the room that I can't bear to imagine it's not necessarily the idea of horror on the surface oh there's a killer in the house you know murderer or whatever or you know being stabbed or shot or whatever those are very basic fears and very legitimate ones but considering how often they happen how much you see them it's like it's not something that truly makes my skin crawl what makes my skin crawl is just a little bit of fantasy in the folds of reality something that you know shouldn't be what happens anyways to the point where you cannot explain it but it's still based in reality I'm not talking about a horde of zombies coming alive and eating all of humanity that's extreme fantasy I'm talking about coming home sitting down after a long days of work going to the stove making yourself something to eat and realizing that your bedroom door is open when you know you closed it when you left home and you live alone that's the kind of [ __ ] I'm talking about kind of like how Monica and okey-dokey describe that's why I love her so much but I mean it's that slight level of fantasy bro that [ __ ] with me because it shouldn't be you know it shouldn't be but it's there that's why I think that Cal video [ __ ] with me so much because it shouldn't have been standing and grazing in that situation but it wise to me horror is done perfectly in that small slice subtle way but that's just my opinion of course Ranger Connor

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Length: 13min 17sec (797 seconds)

Published: Fri Jan 26 2018