CROSSROADS: God At My Crossroads - Judith Halim

[Music] hello everyone good afternoon and hello also those of you who are watching online thank you so much for having me here thank you so much pastor ellen for the opportunity to once again glorify god okay i came from the madden north sumatra you know where lake toba is any one of you been to uh maidan not sumatra lake toba okay there are few there are few of you okay so i was born in a very poor family my father was a gambler womanizer and always beaten up my mother so at the age of 18 months my father disappeared left the house and he left us with a lot of depth i often hear a lot of that collector came to bang the door and pour uh you know a urine and on at our at our door and i grew up very fearful there's no father at home there's no one there to defend us i have two elder sister one is five years older than me another one is six years older than me so the four of us women we are always you know very fearful hiding at home we buy a lot of packets of instant noodle rice and canned food we dare not to even walk on the street that's how i grew up full of fear lack of love lack of everything and at the age of 20 i met a singaporean man doing business in indonesia but not this one yeah this one is the good old version okay this is a good one okay yeah so uh he went to indonesia and when he see me the first thing is he said that i fall in love with you and i want to marry you i will bring you to singapore you don't have to worry about your future anymore you don't have to worry about your life anymore you don't have to worry about political instability your future your life will be guaranteed in singapore i was like 20 21 years old you know a village girl don't have much education never been on an airplane okay never go oversea before okay yeah so uh i was promised a lot of things okay what do you say come on yes or no you also say yes ah you also very fast say yes right yeah same okay i say yes so uh very quickly um i got married and six months later i got pregnant we were still in indonesia and he said that go to singapore and give birth in singapore so that our baby can become singaporean eight months pregnancy i came to singapore little did i know that was my one-way ticket you know those of you are my generation you know the song one way ticket to the moon uh those of you who love desmond is my age okay so you go and you don't get to come back so i came to singapore uh with i mean on my eight months pregnancy and then come the day that uh you know the the pregnancy is due for delivery i check myself into the hospital and i have high hopes i have high dreams because you know i'm going to build a family and i'm going to be happy and i'm going to uh you know i'm so excited i was so excited and the second days when my baby was delivered doctors say that your baby has got a few complications and they need to bring in a few more specialists and after that on fifth day they give me a conclusion the doctors say that your baby has got three complications the first complication was she had three holes in her heart the second complication was because the right ventricle is very thick preventing the blood and the energy circulation to go to the upper part of the body she has brain damage the third thing is there's that complete deletion of chromosome 7 in her body that's why she is down syndrome they classified her as a william syndrome but it's quite similar to down syndrome and also she is also a hemophilia carrier because the father is a hemophilia i was like 21 years old and i could not take it and i said this if there is god i want to know why life is so unfair for me at a young age i do not have a father that everyone has at a young age growing up i do not have a good family that to me everyone have and now as a mother what i wanted is just a healthy child and yet i was deprived of it and i say if there is god tell me why is life so unfair for me i did not hear anything but that thing does not stop there the doctors say that i cannot go i cannot be discharged sorry joelle cannot be discharged so i cannot go back to indonesia i have to continue to stay in in singapore to care for her and the doctors say anytime she will die how she will die she will turn blue and she will die she will not live past 3 months that was the doctor verdict on her so i continued to stay in singapore and when we were celebrating one month old baby shower her father came back to singapore and looked at us in the hospital and when he looked at the both of us this is what he said to me he said i think we are not men for each other i say what do you mean by we are not men for each other we got married and now we have a child and now the child is sick the doctors say that she may not even live past three months what do you mean that we are not meant for each other is there anything that i can do anything that i can change to make this work he did not say a thing but the next day he left us he left me and my baby in the hospital in a foreign land that i know not of the language i know not of the people i do not have friends i do not have family i do not have money unable to contact him i took the courage to leave my daughter in the hospital and i went back quietly to jakarta where our house is at that point of time quietly i booked my ticket quietly i stepped into the house quietly i opened the door of my house and stepped into the bedroom and i saw there's another woman that is sleeping on my bed that is using my helper using my driver as if at such a period of three months my place has been taken [Music] and this heart breaks immediately i make a turn i stop a taxi because my baby is still in hospital in singapore i catch a cab and i went back to a sukanohata airport and rebooked my etiquette in that airport while i was waiting for my next flight i sat down on the bench and i cried and i cried and i cried and i said this if there is god i want you to calm down and meet me halfway because even breathing is painful right here the pain of betrayal the pain of being dumb over and over again first is your father dumped you and now your husband dumped you and i have to face the fact that this time around when i come back to singapore i have to face with a totally lost hope dream crash and future that is uncertain i didn't hear anything but as i was sitting on that bench and i was crying i saw a woman walking past me by she was wearing a cross like what i'm wearing today my eyes catch that cross and i remember when i was little my sunday school not my sunday school my kindergarten teacher my kindergarten teacher ever said this to me he said if you call upon the name of jesus surely he will come and save you i do not know who is jesus in my life i pray to all other gods except jesus so i said jesus if you are true living god come and help me come and save me come and redeem me out of my situation i did not hear anything i came back to singapore all hope is lost i checked my daughter out from the hospital there's no more money there's no friends back then 26 years ago i couldn't even speak english i don't speak mandarin all that i spoke is bahasa indonesia and madden living in a culture that i know not of the language and the people totally lost of hope there's only one way out i wanted to jump down from 14th floor i wanted to carry my daughter and i wanted to just jump down i was too ashamed to even call my mother up who was still in medan to tell her all the bad things that happened to me because i saw she i saw how she suffered raising all of us up that was my plan 14th floor carrying my baby and jumped down 14 floor jumped down die or not there right but god's way are higher than my ways and his plans are higher than my plan to cut the story short i wrote a letter to my mother i say that i'm sorry that i have to end my life i cannot send money anymore there's no hope and that's it i planned that i wanted to go out there was about 12 o'clock in the in the afternoon that i wrote a letter to my mother i planned that evening i wanted to go out for the last time and then uh i wanted to uh the next day i planned to kill myself that was my plan around four o'clock there is uh around two o'clock the phone ring and then uh the person that called me is an insurance agent any insurance agent here is there any insurance agent i thank god for insurance agent okay he called me he said that i heard from so and so he was speaking to me in hokkien that you know you just have a baby and then if you buy insurance policy for me right now is a very good deal okay so endowment plan this and that and i don't know i don't understand but i say that no i'm not going to buy a insurance policy i do not have money i wanted to put down the phone but from the other side he said hold it he said that tonight my church got special speaker can i invite you to come to my church okay i was thinking this must be a madman want to sell me insurance i say no one to invite me to the church okay so but i remember i wanted to go out i wanted to go to orchard road do you know the first time when i came from madden to singapore when i walked orchard road from the beginning till the end to me that is freedom freedom that we indonesian chinese do not have so singaporean you are so blessed living in this place that you can walk freely so i planned that i wanted to go go out i want to go to orchard i want to walk one more one more time so um i uh told that but it is very difficult to bring baby you know to carry pampers in order to go out yeah so i tell this insurance agent if you can bring me to orchard road either before or after your church i will follow you to your church he must be thinking that this is a mad woman that i'm talking to yeah so but that was what happened guess what he said he said that my church is just off orchard road so after the church service you can freely walk in your orchard road because it's just slightly out you know so i said okay he and the wife came and picked me at around six o'clock and uh he put me in um wesley methodist church okay yeah uh it's quite a uh a big church there are few thousand congregation it was a special meeting okay and you know what it's english service i don't understand english right that was the first time in my entire life that i ever stepped into a place that is called church church was totally foreign to me so there's so many people also then he this couple put me right behind the third row from behind okay i don't know where they are i don't know what they do maybe they are very busy they just said okay you sit here okay when the service end will come and pick you they just put me there and then they just disappear okay and uh you know they were doing like what we did just now uh you know a singing song praising god but i didn't understand a thing and after that the special speaker came forward and speak and the speaker is from armenian you know singaporean speaking english already i don't understand this one armenian speaking english yeah so i couldn't even understand a thing right here it was so then painful keep saying when is this going to end it is so painful i want to go home i just want to you know go out walk and tomorrow that's it i want to end my life there's no more hope at the end of the service the pastor asked if anyone want to come forward to get prayer i don't even know what they are doing so but from the stage he pointed at me he said that woman that woman with a baby i want you to come forward i don't even know that he's calling me you know you know ashes is very hard working i just come from the left from the right go go go go go go out go up he's calling you so i came forward and he said come up on the stage i came up on the stage and he began to ask me this he said do you want to receive jesus christ as your personal lord and savior it was translated to me in hokkien i asked him back who is this jesus i don't know who is this jesus and if he can even get me out of my situation and my predicament suddenly i saw the whole auditorium was red in color redirect and suddenly i sense a peace right here in my heart a peace that transcends beyond understanding a peace that 21 years living eating walking breathing on earth i never knew this peace exists so i asked him back who is jesus is this jesus that you're talking about is the peace that are experiencing right now if this jesus is that peace then i must have it i cannot live without it because i need to breathe and then there i receive jesus christ as my personal lord and savior and he prayed for me and this is what he said to me you will get out of your situation not just to become a better person but you will become the servant of the most high god i still don't understand what he's talking about i only know that i cry and i cry and i cry and i cry i cry until it's so bad that i've forgotten i need to go to orchard road and suddenly the insurance agent appeared i said come come come bring me home i'm very tired he brought me home and for the very first time i can sleep i had major depression i can don't sleep for five days i can don't eat for five days and i'm just like a walking zombie that was me so uh but that night i sleep so suddenly and the next day nine o'clock i wake up i was searching and i was searching where is that pain where is that pain that is so excruciating that caused me to cannot even breathe it is gone just like that and i began to search the letter that i wrote to my mother to say that i wanted to commit suicide i want to die i'm sorry i began to look at that letter and i tell myself i am not going to die i am going to live i'm going to live for my daughter and most important of all i'm going to live for this jesus that i just get to know a night ago he can man my broken heart i took a courage i called up my mother to tell her all the problems i invited her to come to singapore take care of my daughter so that i can start life all over again i can start looking for a job and all that my mother came and then i went to look for a job but for a foreigner like me that known that do not know english did not know mandarin and had very little education at that point of time it is almost impossible to look for a job in singapore to cut the story short i went to many places and i was rejected i go to mcdonald i go to kentucky i was rejected and i put my resume into a recruitment agency they look and what are you good at education don't have english don't know how to speak so how okay then look at look look he said oh i know there's one thing that you are very good bahasa indonesia i have a assignment security guard in fn coca-cola do you want to take the job friends 26 years ago my first job in singapore i was a security guard in fn coca-cola do i look like security guard not maybe back then really look like one you know yeah you see god gave me a promise in joel 2 25 26 12 25 26 the bible say say that i will restore to you the years that the logan has eaten the swarming locusts the crawling lookers you will eat in plenty and praise the name of the lord your god who has done wondrous thing in you and this is what he said for my people will never be put to shame romans 10 11 the bible say those who believe belief means adheres to relies on and trust in will never be disappointed and will never be put to shame i hold on to the word of god because i know people will disappoint you your situation will disappoint you but one thing and one thing alone the word of god will never disappoint because what he has said in his word will come to pass as sure as what as sure as the sun that is going to rise tomorrow that is the surety that the word of god will never return empty man so working as a security guard very soon my supervisor come to me what are you looking good what are you doing there you're still so young don't understand english very poor thing can i send you to english course i send it for english course after that when you come back you can become receptionist you won one or not one yes right yeah so i went for english course when i came back i became receptionist okay and my supervisor very nice can i sign you for some courses or not then you come back you can become administrator you want yes i went for further course i came back i became administrator okay my company is very nice send it for further course one or not management courses one or not then when you come back you can be promoted one or not one right i came back i became assistant manager send me for further course again i came back i became manager send me for further course again i came back and become senior manager then the company asks send you to take your diploma you want or not you want or not one send me to four for my diploma i came back i became general manager [Applause] the company said send you for further cause you won or not then you come back you can be promoted again you wanna why not some people say do one layer wire i came back i went for further course i came back i became managing director come on give god all the glory [Applause] and this time round god say i send you for further causes the cause of life one or not i said okay lord and i came back after that course i became a business woman entrepreneur okay but i'm not a normal business woman i'm a businesswoman that are passionate about god i'm passionate about the things of god so a portion of my profit i use it for the poor the needy the orphans and the widow in the third world country so i became a businesswoman okay at that point of time of course now i'm serving god yeah so uh what about my daughter doctor said that three months surely died never died doctors say six months surely died never died doctor said one year surely died never died doctor say two second years you need to prepare one hundred thousand sing dollar okay and then he she need to go for surgery at that point of time i do not have one hundred thousand singh dollar but i have a big god and one of his name is jehovah rafa the god that can heal so i prayed and i prayed and i prayed and i stopped seeing doctor i never said that if you sick you don't go and see doctor yeah never say that yeah okay but given my situation because at that point of time i do not have money to see doctor god can heal true doctors okay so um i see that she get better and better and better at the age of six god said why not you bring her back to see the same cardiologist that brought her back to see the same cardiologist and they do the ecg and they asked me what happened what did you do to this child why so long you never come you know singapore doctor very fears will score people on why you never come where have you been you know yeah so i said never do anything um he said that you look at the old report the old report you see this is three holes in the heart but you look at the new report this is totally a perfect heart the doctor keeps saying it is impossible this is impossible this is something that is impossible because from withhold to without hold they are able to trace the recovery process that's mean the whole will get smaller and smaller and smaller and eventually the whole will close up the doctor said in your daughter case when they put the two reports side by side it does not make sense because these two hearts are not connected to each other they cannot trace the past holes as if there is a hand that remove the one that is bad and put in the new heart who can perform such a miracle if not the lord our god whose name is jehovah rafa amen today my daughter is 26 years old and when she was seven years old i got remarried in the church to my handsome husband she's my his he's masked up that's why you cannot see how cool he looks okay yeah we got married in the church and life was good okay when everything was good what do we say praise the lord hallelujah yes or no right you know became a businesswoman from security guard what do you say praise the lord your sixth child three holes in the heart the doctor says sure died but then god miracle and the heart is healed totally what do you say praise the lord and then after that the lord restore me according to joel 2 25 26 gave me a godly husband a good husband that accept me and my daughter as who we are in my life restored according to the promise of god and what do we say praise the lord you see friends it is so easy to say praise the lord hallelujah when everything is good when everything happened just according to what we want but what if you do not have your breakthrough what if situations are not getting better what if you love one sick or even pass away what if you are faced with bankruptcy can you still say praise the lord hallelujah that was what happened to me two years after i got married my husband always giddy always vomiting we went to see a doctor the doctor say your husband has got a brain cancer i say what i just struggled for 10 years and finally i came up from that struggle having a victorious life and now you say that my husband got a brain cancer the doctor said yes and this cancer is very rare he is the only one in the whole of singapore who get this cancer is called endolymphatic sex tumor okay this this tumor is very rare in the whole world not more than 200 people get this type of cancer okay and in the whole of us not more than 50 cases founded this tumor is so rare there is no medication there is no drugs there is no therapy there is no chemotherapy two professors from singapore one from ent one from nni came together to study the case and they do not know what to do they have to invite two more professors from john hopkins to come to singapore four professors study this case in singapore and this case was publicized on a medical journal in singapore case number one founded in singapore under lymphatic sex tumor my husband become famous because of that so we ask god god we're already serving him why is this thing happening to us you want to know what god gave me he gave me romans 8 28 he said all things will work together for good for those who love god and for those who have been called according to his purpose when for surgery the first surgery took 20 hours if you touch at the back of your ear can you touch at the back of your ear is hard right it's bone right before the doctor surgeon can perform the surgery they have to saw away the bone here saw away the bone and then went in seven o'clock in the morning he was wheeled in three a.m at night he was wheeled out and when he was wheeled out it was bad the doctor said i'm sorry we are too late why because the tumor is so aggressive it has destroyed the balance nerve he has destroyed the hearing drum it has destroyed the hearing nerve so everything here they have to duck out and i'm sorry we are too late because the tumor is so aggressive it is now spread and stuck onto the main artery so at the at the at the you know at what they have calculated they say that how it spread and this cancer will continue to bite the main artery and then the main artery will burst and your husband will die and how he will die suddenly when the main artery bursts the eyes the ears the mouth and the nose will come up blood and he will just drop dead this is our reality and the doctors say give you six months go and settle your affair anything that you need to do you do when you do the calculation they say that at the most he has he has six months this is what is going to happen what would you do if you are in my shoe when he was conscious i asked him husband husband doctors say you only have six months to live how you want to know what is his answer you want to know or not this is what he said i don't care what the doctors say as long as i live as long as i'm able to breathe i will make every day count for jesus [Music] if i ever get out from this hospital still able to function come with me to the mission field come to me to save the poor the needy the orphans and the widows i don't have any more time i want to be even more aggressive to serve god and to be used by him i said okay let's do it can i have a picture of the mission picture yeah just just let it run yeah so true enough just let's just let it run true enough he can come up from the hospital okay a few weeks later he can function so we went we run all over the place we went to i can't just let it run yeah we went to pakistan we went to myanmar we went to cambodia we went to china we went to malaysia yeah indonesia yeah philippines we went to so many different places we started with 30 children from 30 children it grew to 300 children friends we show you this not to raise fun 17 years in the mission field we never raise fun what do we do we work very hard in the company and then we take a portion of our profit we do this work okay so from 300 children to 600 children six months later he did not die but the tumor also grew from a size of you know like a 20 percent it grew to a size of a golf ball never died he said come i don't have enough time anymore let us go even more aggressive so we continue from 600 children it grew to 1 000 children from 1 000 children it grew to 1 500 children where do we go we go to uh slum area we go to a places that uh you know uh maybe you can show the picture of the slum yeah we go to the uh islam area i think some some some of you uh know where is it is in philippine yeah so again never die but the cancer grew as our ministry grow the cancer also grew growth to from a size of both goal golf ball to a size of an egg okay yeah so can you imagine carrying a tumor a size of an egg in the head go to places like this okay in these places there's no good doctors and it's unhealthy for cancer patients to go friends you know where is this philippine smoky mountains yeah do you know what they eat they eat pak pak you want to know what is pak pak some of you know your fried chicken right you eat you throw it and then what they do they collect and they bring it to these places and the children when they see those black trash they were like wow my fried chicken and what happened everybody was you know baking and then they rip wash and then cook it again and they eat friends well we are complaining here there are people even until now is still eating eating trash you know what is the greatest problem in the chris the greatest problem in christian in this sanctuary is ungrateful complain all the time murmuring all the time where the people out there are dying are still eating trash this is the reality so um what do we do we continue and continue maybe we can just continue you know cancer is real the pain is real what do we do when we are in those places and when the pain come and how long we have to endure this one you never die two years never die three year never die four year never die ten years these ten years is like walking in the dark black peach tunnel whereby there's no even a light at the end what do we do when he's in pain in places like this in the pocket there's always painkiller start with panadol extra strong when panadol doesn't work anymore change to pornstar when pon stan does not help anymore change to our coccia when akoxia does not help anymore what do we do this is what i see him doing he will find a corner he will kneel down one hand he will raise to jesus and the other hand he will put it right here with a place that is very painful and this is what he say yet i choose to praise you yet in all things at all time i will choose to give thanks unto you and for some reason the pain will just go away we don't know why it's not a method but the pain just go away sometimes the pain doesn't go away i see him kneeling there left with two words that he can utter thank you jesus help me jesus with a trembling voice thank you jesus help me jesus and he will fell asleep on that spot and the next day the pain will be gone friends this is what we go through ten years and the cancer continues to grow to a size of two eggs in the brain two zero one three he cannot function anymore that is after 10 years fighting 2013 in february he can only wake up two hours a day he cannot function he cannot go to mission trip he cannot do business he cannot do anything [Music] never one time blaming god he never one time say that god you must heal me if you don't heal me i'm not going to become christian i'm not going to serve you anymore never but you always prepare me you always say that don't blame god if i die don't blame god don't get angry with god but continue this ministry continue to work up the salvation with fear and tremble so that one day i will see you in heaven 2013 he went for another surgery at that point of time the tumor has grown to a size of two eggs one inside the brain one outside the brain friday he was pushed in around seven hours later he was pushed out and when he was pushed out his situation was pretty bad he cannot see any more he cannot breathe and it is very painful and he keeps saying it is very painful it is very painful can i have to show a picture of the hospital picture please so dumb that was him it was in 2013 there was friday and then he said it was very painful it was very painful i cannot see anymore i don't think i can make it he said to me can you release me can we say goodbye can you stop praying for me i want to go home i'm tired i said okay i release you because i see that he's you know in pain and so much suffering and he cannot see that i also don't want to let him live in this situation i took out my hand phone and i said to him can you record that can you record in this message just say that you love me just say that you miss me so that i hope when i hear your voice after you go this will keep me going he did that so friends husband and wife i just want to share with you stop fighting you know there's not even enough time to laugh can we stop fighting can we learn to treasure one another because when we are up there we are no longer husband and wife the only time that we can still be a husband and wife is right here when we are still on earth so we say goodbye we hug we call all the family call all the relatives we prepared a funeral we prepared a picture everything has been prepared that was saturday afternoon and saturday night i was continuing to wait upon him you see the picture you see the picture i was at the corner sleeping 12 o'clock in the middle of the night his eyes opened and he started crying he never cried you're not macho man and when we minister in indonesia they call him yakuza but holy version of yakuza so holy yakuza later you will see when he's unmasked okay yeah so um he started to cry 20 hours to this going to the surgery never cried 10 years fighting cancer never cry yeah but at that point he was crying and then he was shaking the whole body was shaking and then the bait was shaking and he was the ice began to roll out from the eyes he said jesus is here jesus is here i wake up and i look at him i know that something must have happened so i tried to get up i tried to reach him from the bed but before i could even reach the bed before i could even touch him i fell down under the glory of god i fell down in the presence of god his presence was so holy his presence was so awesome and you know friends in that presence as much as i wanted my husband to heal all that i can say is this thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus who i am who are we all that he the king of all kings the lord of all lords the creator of heaven and earth and everything that is in need willing to come to this world and died for us so that as long as we believe belief means that here's who relies on and trust in as long as we believe we will be with him in paradise one day am i who are we all what kind of love is this unheard of beyond description i say thank you and thank jesus thank you jesus and i saw him taking a deep breath and then he fell asleep there was saturday night friday was surgery sunday eight o'clock in the morning the nurse came and wake me up hello hello wake up wake up wake up okay i was we i i wake up the nurse asked me where is your husband your husband is gone he's not on this bed i was like huh you know i feel bad now i take care of a patient until the patient's gone i can don't know you know i was i opened my why is he he's not on the bed where can be he go to is he raptured you know please wait for me so the nurse uh i was panicked press emergency button ring patient missing patient missing i was like where is he okay then he opened the toilet door he was yeah are you looking for me i'm not missing i'm here okay yeah then he came out and the both of us was like you what are you doing in the toilet are you not supposed to go into the toilet unassisted no you know you just had brain surgery yeah do you know people have got brain surgery they don't get down from the bed for two weeks because the equilibrium is not stable it will fall okay this is the third day you know then he come up okay and we were like he came out and said it you know relax relax i'm okay i'm okay yeah then i said no you're not okay just yesterday you were screaming for more fame you were in pain you cannot see are you okay what is your name you know where are you okay yeah so he said that i'm okay i'm okay is it last night jesus came and he touched me right here and he breathed a new breath of god into my nostril and i fell asleep this morning i wake up i can see you see yesterday i cannot see and the pain is gone just like that and because the pain is gone i want to see if i can walk i get up i get down a bit hey i can stand up no giddy i try to take a few steps eh i can walk i'm here so i remove all my string and needle you know holy yakuza can remove himself one you know [Music] so i remove it then it's very hot it's very hot so i go shower we will the nurse is like jesus okay you know the patient go back to your bed right now i'm going to call your doctor the doctor came and checked on him the doctor is also a christian professor number two in singapore but very humble people before pushing him into the surgery into the operating theater he said that hey you're a pastor like this is very stressful for me no i have i don't have record killing pastor yet so i'm very stressed can you ask all your friends pastor to pray okay that you know that he must come out alive okay yeah so uh so uh um the doctor came uh the professor came checked him really okay he said it you really okay shake shake shake shake okay knock your knock you really okay i said yeah i'm okay and then he's this is what he said you know one year i do brain surgery 50 over cases i have never seen a recovery like this surely this come from our god up there [Applause] monday before 12 o'clock the three of us woke up from the hospital without wheelchair okay we woke up from the hospital and today you can see he look healthy right he doesn't look like sick person right but this part is already deaf decide okay yeah so friends it is all possible because the god that we serve is alive the god that we serve is still doing a miracle it's still healing is still restoring life even up to today this is my story what about your story what about your breakthrough that you're waiting for what about your struggle they are all real friends can i have the song please everything yeah friends i am not here to sell you jesus he's too glorious he's too awesome he's too magnificent for us to even you know sell for us to even you know encourage you to receive him no i'm not here to sell you jesus but i'm here to share with you this without this jesus i won't be here my daughter won't be here my husband won't be here i'm here to share with you if this jesus can be so real in this three life the same jesus can be real true in your life what you need to do is to just take a first step to accept him and to believe in him because the bible says if you believe belief means adheres to relies on and trust him if you believe you will see the glory of god amen i want to speak to two categories of people [Music] two categories of people the first category is you have not received jesus christ as your personal lord and savior just like me 26 years ago you have never received jesus christ as your personal lord and savior but today because you hear this message you say that god i want to know you i want to give my life to you this is the first category the same category is perhaps once upon a time in your life that you have already received him but you have straight and you know it you have gone too far and the message today is come back come back come back to your creator he's the alpha he's the omega he's the beginning and he's the end it doesn't matter what is our past it doesn't matter what we are going through right he holds our hand on the palm of his hand the invitation is come back in a while in a moment time i'm going to give you an opportunity for response i'm going to pray for you at the count of three perhaps later if this is you that i'm talking about just where you are just simply lift up your hand okay yeah just where you are at the count of three later just lift up your hand as a sign to say that god come into my heart i want you in my life i want to know you and i believe the same god that is so real in jesus in judith's life if jason's life into our life will be the same god that will be so real in my life okay yeah can i invite you to close your eyes [Music] and bow your head [Music] speaking to this two category of people if today you hear this message you hear this testament and if your heart feel like god is knocking if your heart feel that jesus is knocking will you open it will you allow jesus to come into your heart to be a redeemer to be your savior to be the god that can save you [Music] one two three just raise your hand where you are just raise it a little bit higher let's raise it a little bit higher just continue to raise it yeah so that you know we can identify just continue to race if you have received him at a point perhaps last time but you have gone so far and you wanted to come back and you say god i'm coming back i'm coming back [Music] can i also invite you now [Music] thank you lord thank you lord the opportunity is still open the call is still open [Music] for those of you who just now raised your hand or even if you didn't raise your hand but you feel there's a call the next step can i ask that you just rise where you are just stand up where you are just stand up where you are those who raise up your hand just stand up where you are so that we can identify you yeah can i invite you to stand and can i invite pastor ellen there's one more person at that at the end just now at the back okay you know we're gonna say this simple prayer you know it's such a great joy and everyone stay together even those of us who are sitting on the fence and if you at the moment of prayer you change your mind you can say that prayer together shall we lord let us all rise [Music] it's as simple as abc the meet believe and commit say the prayer let's say the prayer with three of our friends here dear jesus fire meet that i am a sinner then i'm far removed from you there's nothing good i did is right in your sights but i believe that jesus is my lord and savior today he is my lord i'll surrender or surrender all control to him today he is my savior [Applause] i will live the new life he give to me [Music] i will today myself today to walk closely with him to walk in love with him all the days of my life in jesus name in jesus name amen let me let's give the lord a clap ready you know when the bible says when one soul is saved heaven rejoice yeah amen you know when when i met judith this this afternoon when she came i felt that the word that came to me is called restoration so i got to do something today you know god love us all the same whether you know whether you say you believe him or you don't be ready in the eyes of god doesn't really matter but go on to bring restoration he want to bring and cause his goodness to come upon you today so there's two things i'm going to lead you in prayer first is the heart you know if you sense heart is a seat of emotion yeah and then and his heart is where really closest to us and in a relational manner and i feel the lord is going to say to suarez this afternoon is that you were going to bring a restoration of a relationship and if that resonate with your heart today can i invite you to just place your heart your hand on your heart as a sign and say god i am one at restoration perhaps that maybe in the time of the kovic that he went through really tough time relationship with parents or relationships with spouse or relationship whatever dimension and he felt that that is a huge strange or even a parent-child relationship you know it you feel it it shout at you all the time right if that resonates with you i feel today the lord's gonna say my son and my daughter are gonna bring a huge restoration in that dimension all you need to do is just place that as a sign and say god speaking to that can we do that come as you place your hand in your hearts upon your hearts i want you to picture and and look in a picture of the person whatever that relationship is training could be your father it could be your mother it could be your son it could be your daughter it could be anyone else your sisters or whatever and i want you to then in your heart and say dear jesus stay after me dear jesus bring healing bring restoration in my heart and in my relationship today say lord i need you because i can't because i can't i said dear lord bring that restoration fast and quick i trust you in jesus name amen trust and believe even your faith is as small as the master state you can shift mountain and that faith is upon the god who can shave mountain not us all right you know god can shift mountain no matter how insurmountable how huge you know god can do that all right second thing i'm going to pray okay because the word restoration came to me and even as as you know pastor judith you're sharing and i feel like we need to do that okay the second thing is going to pray for healing restoration of the body if you have any form of a condition in your body right whether it's here where is any a or pain or whatever condition the next thing is i want you to place your hand on that portion right now okay it's not me it's all god okay you can hear the testimony today upon testimony today it is in the hand of god all right jehovah raphael right he will bring healing right you win complete restoration no man how trivia oh on my back i know i carry a bit more things uh or whatever it is oh it could be very very serious can you put that hand onto that portion of your body and let the lord experience it and let you encounter him today can we do that yeah so let the lord shows you and just place your hand there no matter how trivial and how serious it may be just place your hand there can you do that okay come let's join faith together today right here and right now right dear lord i know that you are god the healer today i declare in jesus name i am healed restore in me a complete alignment body soul and spirit in jesus name amen amen give the lord a clear offering only believe and god will work wonders you know i i just want to honor the the the the guest speaker today can we invite the whole family out yeah come on come on come on come on i want to see the yakuza you know i have seen him now come on come on come on come on you know as the church house we also want to bless them really it's such a wonderful testimony my heart you know has always been blessed you know it's just a short time with you right you know can we can we all know reach our hands but uh no let's honor them and then we reach our hand towards them we want to pray for this family you know this kovik has locked them down in singapore if not they will be out in out in the field and because they are locked down in singapore they are doing a lot of things they are being very very busy doing a lot of talk but i just want to pray the lord's anointings and the favor to be upon them can we do that let's try ahead and leave our hands towards them father god we just want to thank you for this lovely family lord they walk the walk of faith and they walk the world of miraculous lord i just want to thank you i want to honor our lord father uh pastor jason but judy even joao lord their life is a story of your miracles and of your wonder i pray in the name of jesus their lord your goodness will come upon them your favor will come upon them your anointing and the power will come upon them so whatever they put their hands to do love father multiply it and bring it to completion in jesus name lord i just want to ask that god you are the god of seasons and you're a god of destiny and lord i just want to ask use them use them mightily as your servant for the gospel of jesus christ in jesus name in jesus name amen amen allow me to just close today's service almighty god we just want to come before you lord we want to thank you that you can do beyond what we can possibly imagine because god you are the supernatural god in a god of love and compassion and so lord father whatever that is seated in our hearts today and the prayer that we pray in our hearts today and lord we just want to pray in the name of jesus bring all that to pass so that we can come back to the house of the lord again with praise and with thanksgiving because the lord is good in jesus name amen amen so you know really it's good for us to be in the house a lot and it's really the time ready to good to see each other so uh service is over and may the lord bless you and the beloveds keep you amen you have been listening to a petra church recording we hope that you have been blessed for more information and 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Published: Sun Nov 01 2020